1x16 "Shadow" 2x20 "What Is and What Should Never Be" 4x01 "Lazarus Rising" 5x02 "Good God, Y'All" 5x16 "Dark Side of the Moon" 5x22 "Swan Song" 8x01 "We Need to Talk about Kevin" 8x02 "What's Up Tiger Mommy" 8x06 "Southern Comfort" 8x14 "Trial and Error" 8x20 "Pacman Fever" 8x23 "Sacrifice"
Let’s talk about Dean and physical contact. Let’s talk about how he craves affection, how he leans into touch and how he - if he hugs someone he deeply cares about - holds on and breathes in and just enjoys to be held. Even if only for a moment, even if only for seconds, even if only for the blink of an eye. Let’s talk about how for that moment the world goes away and everything around disappears, becomes unimportant, how Dean for a tiny moment just is.
Let’s talk about how he rests his chin on the other person’s shoulder, how he - even if only for a second - lets somone help him carry and lift the weight of the world off his shoulders. Let’s talk about how he clutches, how he wraps his hands around the clothes the other person is wearing, how he holds on so tight, always afraid that if he let go just the tiniest bit, they’d slip right through his fingers and vanish into thin air and he’d end up alone.
Yes, let’s talk about all of that and more and then let’s talk about how Dean was never “No chick flick moments” at all, but “Swayze always gets the pass” all along.
2x03 "Bloodlust" 2x09 "Croatoan" 5x18 "Point of No Return" 8x96 "Southern Comfort" 8x13 "Everybody Hates Hitler" 8x20 "Pacman Fever" 9x13 "The Purge"
Let’s talk about Dean and one of the guns he is using more often: the Colt M1911 (as Supernaturalwiki states). It’s a weapon that particularly stands out (at least it does to me) because of the pretty engraving on its side that look like leaves, flowers and vines. They almost give the gun a sort of ~feminine touch.
Let’s talk about how the combination of that little beautiful detail on a firearm that can kill you within seconds actually fits as a metaphor or summary of Dean Winchester as a person perfectly. Because Dean Winchester, just like the gun, has striking features: freckled cheeks, that wide smile and bright green eyes (let’s ignore the part about his current eye-colour for the the moment). His good looks could mislead one thinking he’s just a pretty boy, but in fact - kind of like the gun - he is a force to mess with and yes, he can be deadly.
If you just take a quick look, you may think he is this tough and rough guy. The same way you could oversee the engravings on the gun. But if you look closer, you can see that behind that “cool guy”-exterior hides a man with a heart of gold; a man, who hides behind a facade, who wears a mask, because it makes him feel save. But behind it you’ll see that there is such gentleness. That the hard sheel has a soft core.
Only a few - those who look closely, those, who care, those, he lets in - are able to see it, see right through him, recognize the true person behind all of the protective walls and layers he built around himself over the years. Because just like his colt, Dean Winchester may appear as steady as a rock, sometimes downright hyper-masculine, but if you get down to it and decipher him, you’ll be able to see the leaves, the flowers, the vines and see how fragile, sensitive and emotional he really is. Yes, you will see him with all the sensitive details he is made of. A complex puzzle, a mosaic, a spider web of conflicting emotions. So much more than people and he himself thinks he is…