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“I want you to tell me about every person you’ve ever been in love with.
Tell me why you loved them,
then tell me why they loved you.

Tell me about a day in your life you didn’t think you’d live through.
Tell me what the word home means to you
and tell me in a way that I’ll know your mother’s name
just by the way you describe your bedroom
when you were eight.

See, I want to know the first time you felt the weight of hate,
and if that day still trembles beneath your bones.

Do you prefer to play in puddles of rain
or bounce in the bellies of snow?
And if you were to build a snowman,
would you rip two branches from a tree to build your snowman arms
or would leave your snowman armless
for the sake of being harmless to the tree?
And if you would,
would you notice how that tree weeps for you
because your snowman has no arms to hug you
every time you kiss him on the cheek?

Do you kiss your friends on the cheek?
Do you sleep beside them when they’re sad
even if it makes your lover mad?
Do you think that anger is a sincere emotion
or just the timid motion of a fragile heart trying to beat away its pain?

See, I wanna know what you think of your first name,
and if you often lie awake at night and imagine your mother’s joy
when she spoke it for the very first time.

I want you to tell me all the ways you’ve been unkind.
Tell me all the ways you’ve been cruel.
Tell me, knowing I often picture Gandhi at ten years old
beating up little boys at school.

If you were walking by a chemical plant
where smokestacks were filling the sky with dark black clouds
would you holler “Poison! Poison! Poison!” really loud
or would you whisper
“That cloud looks like a fish,
and that cloud looks like a fairy!”

Do you believe that Mary was really a virgin?
Do you believe that Moses really parted the sea?
And if you don’t believe in miracles, tell me —
how would you explain the miracle of my life to me?

See, I wanna know if you believe in any god
or if you believe in many gods
or better yet
what gods believe in you.
And for all the times that you’ve knelt before the temple of yourself,
have the prayers you asked come true?
And if they didn’t, did you feel denied?
And if you felt denied,
denied by who?

I wanna know what you see when you look in the mirror
on a day you’re feeling good.
I wanna know what you see when you look in the mirror
on a day you’re feeling bad.
I wanna know the first person who taught you your beauty
could ever be reflected on a lousy piece of glass.

If you ever reach enlightenment
will you remember how to laugh?

Have you ever been a song?
Would you think less of me
if I told you I’ve lived my entire life a little off-key?
And I’m not nearly as smart as my poetry
I just plagiarize the thoughts of the people around me
who have learned the wisdom of silence.

Do you believe that concrete perpetuates violence?
And if you do —
I want you to tell me of a meadow
where my skateboard will soar.

See, I wanna know more than what you do for a living.
I wanna know how much of your life you spend just giving,
and if you love yourself enough to also receive sometimes.
I wanna know if you bleed sometimes
from other people’s wounds,
and if you dream sometimes
that this life is just a balloon —
that if you wanted to, you could pop,
but you never would
‘cause you’d never want it to stop.

If a tree fell in the forest
and you were the only one there to hear —
if its fall to the ground didn’t make a sound,
would you panic in fear that you didn’t exist,
or would you bask in the bliss of your nothingness?

And lastly, let me ask you this:

If you and I went for a walk
and the entire walk, we didn’t talk —
do you think eventually, we’d… kiss?

No, wait.
That’s asking too much —
after all,
this is only our first date.”

—  Andrea Gibson
1d as people at a suburban bbq

liam: that one guy who accidentally overcooks the hot dogs on the grill and there isn’t any left that are edible

niall: eats the hot dogs anyway. all of them. there aren’t anymore. he ends up disappearing halfway through the event because he doesn’t feel good.

zayn: stands around looking hot and normally the moms would be mad he’s smoking around kids but when he winks at them it’s okay

louis: that one stepmom that lives in the biggest house and gets drunk too early on in the night and dances around like she’s at the club

harry: the husband of said stepmom that wears palm tree button downs and talks about how he once spent a month living off of grass to encourage the neighborhood kids to eat healthy

Papyrus ramblings

So this got really long

So with the King Papyrus ending we know Sans lies to Papyrus about the deaths of everyone.  

People often note that Sans appears to lie to ‘protect’ Papyrus, people rarely note the reverse it seems, even though Papyrus seems to lie, or at least misdirect quite a lot. and a lot of the time it’s around Sans.

Papyrus intentionally waits until Sans is gone before dropping his mask of optimism and positive talking in the King Papyrus ending

 and starts talking about his loneliness and fears only once he’s sure his brother won’t overhear them. 

His face when he talks about everyone having “gone on vacation” strikes me as more willful ignorance/denial than actual acceptance of Sans’ explanation. 

That is not the face of someone who believes what they’re saying.

I noticed that much of Papyrus’ occasional naivety and ignorance seem deliberately played up on his part. This is particularly noticeable on phone calls where Papyrus is talking to you alone, vs ones where he’s with Sans or Undyne. [example someone else posted] Depending on which context it is you’re speaking to him he’ll often contradict himself with what he claims to know or misdirect the conversation entirely.

Of course this misdirection isn’t just aimed at Sans and Undyne, as Chara/Frisk we get a lot of it too. Some of his lies seem pretty harmless and kinda sweet at face value though, such as when you first meet him and he claims he can’t get past his own puzzle in the  room_tundra_xoxopuzz room, but that he will help you solve it.

Yet if you phone him at the previous spike puzzle later (room_tundra_xoxosmall), he tells you he can just step over them without needing to solve them, so him hanging around is entirely for your benefit. 


(Seriously just ask him for help, if you haven’t tried it already! If you ask him, he tells you there’s a button on the tree that deactivates the puzzle). I find this whole situation kinda cute, actually.

And back on a sad note - to the King Paps ending! After his heartbreaking confessions, he quickly goes back to proclaiming he can’t give up because he has to stop everyone else from giving up.

Once again putting up a positive face to allay any concerns. And this also seems to mirror his relationship with Sans, on a larger scale. 

After all, one of the first conversations you have with him contains this

And together it honestly makes me wonder how much he puts on just to stop Sans from worrying. Because Papyrus worries about Sans a lot, even if he shows it with nagging and trying to be a shining example of greatness.

I also find it interesting that Papyrus talks a lot about making friends and getting people to like him, yet when you do the Friendship Hangout (not the date) with him he still quickly decides it’s too much,

without trying to hurt your feelings, of course,

and quickly redirecting the focus onto someone else 

And then there’s one other thing I want to mention before wrapping up this ramble:

People treat Papyrus’ goal of joining the Royal Guard as naive, since we find out Undyne would never let him join. But she’s never said anything about it to him, so as far as he knows it’s an obtainable goal, which he can work towards and do something about. 

Then there’s one thing most monsters seem to treat as something just around the corner, clinging to hope - reaching the surface.

But when hanging out with him in his room, while talking about driving on the surface one day he says,

dismissing it off hand as unrealistic. 

Whether this is a standing opinion of his or something that only came about after he fails to capture you it’s unclear. But it does give some extra insight into his character I think.