but...it's actually really beautiful to be honest

Sentence starters
  • Based on famous text-posts
  • "Bro, you look so cute right now. Dude, you are so fucking adorable."
  • "Wanna watch this murder documentary with me?"
  • "I may act like I'm sassy but if you're mean to me there's a 900% chance I'll cry."
  • "I may act like I'm clueless but actually know what's going on at al times."
  • "ATTENTION: I need attention."
  • "I don't have a nervous system. I'm a nervous system."
  • "Drugs? No thanks, the only 'high' I need is the natural rush you get from commiting a murder."
  • "I think I'm subconsciously trying to ruin my own life."
  • "Why fall in love when you can fall on the floor and never get up?"
  • "I try not to sound like an asshole but it's really hard because I am an asshole."
  • "I don't want to look 'pretty', I want to look otherwordly and vaguely threatening."
  • "I'm the nicest, sweetest, most rage-filled person I know."
  • "Girls are so soft and amazing and nice and beautiful and mysterious and complex and loving and caring. I don't remember what I was going to say but I'm just gay."
  • "I'd love to relax but that's just not realistic."
  • "Contrary to popular belief I'm actually soft and have feelings."
  • "This could be less hetero."
  • "To be honest I just need a hug."
  • "Why can't I be mentally chill instead of mentally ill?"
  • "This is it, this is how I die: Lack of attention."
  • "Are we just friends or is this flirting serious?"
  • "I have this problem where I isolate myself from civilization and then get upset because I'm lonely."
  • "I may be ugly but at least I have an ugly personality too. Consistency is key."
  • "I don't wanna get involved in drama I just wanna know 103% of the information on what happened."
  • "I am bysexual as in I'm not interested, goodbye."
  • "I could win an Olympic gold medal in being ignored."
  • "Fill your heart with bees. If someone breaks your heart then they have to deal with the bees."
  • "I'm so tired of not being a multimillionaire."
  • "I panic alot of other places besides the disco."
  • "Which layer of hell do you think you're going to?"
  • "My kink is being right."
  • "My kink is being home alone."
  • "You're really sensitive for a selfish asshole."
  • "I can tell myself to be heartless but in all reality, I have a big heart and can't treat people badly, that's just not me."
  • "What about netflix and kill?"
  • "No offense but why does everyone hate me?"
  • "I'm a strong independent introvert who don't need no social life."
  • "Why do I get struggles instead of snuggles?"
  • "If a conversation goes on too long without being about me, I'm out."
  • "I'm small, queer and something to fear."
  • "All this sadness is bad for my skin."
  • "I'm cute and perfect but also unstable, violent and self-destructive"
  • "I'm beautiful and underappreciated."
  • "She's beauty, she's grace, she's me."
  • "Sorry for being awesome, loser."
  • "Is 'no' an emotion? Because I'm feeling it."
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Sim Request #1 for @pixeltrashcan who asked for 

“ hot but kind of nerdy and mixed race so you can look at him and think you know what he is but really you have no clue. “

Asher Samir

Asher is a good looking guy, humble and polite and to be quite honest a huge nerd, he’s a passionate guy who loved to talk about science and its beauty and wants nothing more than to help people as a Dr. Asher comes from a varied background his Father is Iranian and his Mother is Half Black and Half Filipino.

I probably didn’t deliver on the last bit of your request but it was actually harder than i thought it would be hahah! none the less i hope you like him @pixeltrashcan

Download | Private. 

Random Zane Idea

((I feel bad but I like the idea of Zane being really selfconscious about his body and such. He always covers himself up and such and people keep on calling him ugly and chunky in the Mystreet series. Sure he just yells at them and scolds them off but what if he was actually getting really hurt by those comments even tho its an on going joke.

I like the idea of Zane looking at himself in the mirror, no mask or hair in the way or a shirt on and thinking that he is gross because everyone kept on saying he is, even his own brother. But then his S/O (lets be honest we ship Zane with a lot of people so im putting in S/O so you can put whoever you ship him with in this thought) comes up to him and just tells him that he is beautiful and handsome the way he is and just

cute things.

This headcanon is sad but also very adorable and shit))

These post from here on out will mostly be my opinion or opinions of others. 

As we know every now and then the media has a different standard of what is ‘beautiful’. Growing up girls are taught that they should look a certain way if they want to be considered beauty and it’s bs. Pardon my language but let’s be honest, if you really believe in the fact that girls should be able to feel pretty without other people saying otherwise (even though there will always be that sort of people) but you still go ahead and mock people for their appearance then people remove yourself from the internet. 

If we just teach little kid, yes kids, to love themselves growing up and to literally ignore what the media says about beauty and its standards then maybe people would actually love themselves. Because you know what’s really messed up? There are little girls aged 6 starting to think about what they want to look like when they’re older. There are girls around the age of 10 who have dieted once or are thinking of it. 

Sure boys don’t have these thoughts of body negativity as an adolescent teen, but they do come. They just come around the age of a young adult, where girls are just in love with guys who have muscles, or are tall or look like they could be famous. 

Maybe that’s why this generation we have teenagers in their rooms having some break down. Maybe that’s why some are stressed. Maybe that’s why some are depressed. Expectations come from many places and some effect us more than others. But when you have expectations to look a certain way from so many people, you just break. 

About Bartimaeus and Uruk

This is a very long post and there could be spoiler about Bartimaeus Sequence, so if you haven’t read Ptolemy’s Gate or The Ring of Solomon, close your eyes :)


Rereading The Ring of Solomon, I noticed a few things about Uruk:


  • Bart’s principal title is always “of Uruk”; doesn’t matter if it’s 950 BC or present day, the first thing is that. Well, it could be a personal preference due to his feats, but I get the impression that spirits change often titles. For example in Jerusalem, Faquarl is called “of Mycenae”, instead, in PG Bart calls him “of Sparta”. So Faquarl has chosen another denomination during centuries, maybe because of Sparta is more famous; Bart remains “of Uruk” for 5000 years.


  • We know very well that Bart is very peculiar about disguises; in RS he could be any handsome youth, but he chooses to replicate Gilgamesh’s spear-bearer. I think that this shows a closer relationship with Gilgamesh than one thought at firsthand. After all, always, when Bart raves his titles, he goes first with the walls of Uruk and Gilgamesh. 


  • Again in RS, he says “confidant of Gilgamesh and Akhenaten”: we have already had clues about a friendship between Bart and Akhenaten and Nefertiti (her in special way), but Gilgamesh?


  • Now, the most important thing: in chapter 24 of RS, there is a beautiful scene between Asmira and Bart, in which she talks about what she’s doing and why, that is her love for Saba, her country, much more important than her love for the queen. After she describes the beauty of Saba, Bartimaeus is serious, he isn’t mocking her anymore; and notice that in this chapter there is Asmira’s POV, so we don’t know what Bart is actually thinking. He seems to be really honest when he says I understand your pain, I really do. But pain changes nothing. (And this is way before Ptolemy!) Then, he takes the example of Uruk, and the way he describes it… it’s something like a bittersweet memory, a place he loved and that there isn’t anymore. …Uruk was destroyed by Babylonians without a second thought.  The fountains where its children played were smashed and the water ran away into the ground. Its walls were broken and the towers razed and the gardens burned and the ruins covered over by sand. This is not a speech about something he built and then got destroyed and he’s feeling just disappointed about, and maybe irritated (Hey, not the jade tower! I bloody built that!). Uruk, and perhaps its citizens, was something he cared about; he speaks about children and Bart has always a soft spot for children in general and he seems to remember very well everything about the fall of Uruk.

So, what really happened in Uruk? Bart and Gilgamesh were more friends than master/slave? I need a book about them NOW. (And a book about Nefertiti, please, Jonathan)

 If you have in mind something else, please extend the list!


Heck, now I want to write something about Bartimaeus and children.

anonymous asked:

Hello!! I'm a recent fan of dal shabet, specifically subin!!! I wanted to know, do you guys know the meaning of Subin's single "Flower"? like the line "the flower is falling away again" ? its a beautiful song but i wanted to know the meaning and stuff

To be honest, we don’t really know the meaning. The lyrics of the song are pretty vague, but obviously it’s some sort of love song. I think it’s vague so it can be up to interpretation. 

My personal interpretation is that ‘flower’ actually means the relationship with someone. Like she said: instead of blossoming, they wilted. “The flower is falling away again” so, I understand that their relationship is ending. (?) 

We are not sure about the meaning behind the lyrics. If anyone has a different oppinion about the lyrics, share with us!

anonymous asked:

Hey I looked through the similar fics tag but I didn't see this one. Sorry if its been asked before and I've missed it. Could you suggest any fics similar to 'The Politician's Wife' by pir8fancier? I mean similar in writing style and characterisation, not the plot, timeline, or themes exactly. The story is incredibly well written and one of my favourites. I really want to read something more like this. Thanks!

I’m gonna be honest but I haven’t actually read this fic, but I have heard a l about it. So if you are looking for well written and true to character characters, try these:

- Lisa

anonymous asked:

1&15 with Isaac and a female reader? If you're still taking requests from the prompt list cause I know it was posted ages ago haha xx

Musical Inspiration: “Fool For You” – ZAYN  (Sorry, I’m not looking it up to see which letters he capitalized or didn’t.)

Pairing: Isaac x female reader

Ugh. You hate trying on clothes. However, this is the ever important prom dress excursion. So, of course, you will endure to look good for your date even if the two of you are just going as friends. Who knows, maybe if you both look good enough, you’ll both get lucky and find someone who wants to sweep you off your feet. Not that Liam isn’t cute but he’s never really been your type and you’re not his either. Still, you’d rather go with a friend than alone.

You zip up the silky blue dress as best you can before pulling open the dressing room door and stepping outside to get Isaac’s opinion. He looks up from the magazine he’s been idly flipping through in an effort to stave off his boredom and his eyes trail over the dress momentarily.

“Well, what do you think?” You prompt, gesturing at the garment with both hands.

Isaac’s eyes meet yours and he looks unsure for a second before he nods minutely, “Yeah, it’s…it’s nice.”

“Nice?” You ask, voice tinged with disapproval. Nice will not do. “I’m starting to question the wisdom of bringing you with me instead of going with Kira and Lydia last week.”

“Hey, I didn’t ask to spend my Saturday dress shopping. I can go home if you’d like,” Isaac informs you, looking just as irritated as you feel.

“No, don’t leave. Just… I didn’t go with the girls because I want someone who’s going to be honest with me. I want someone to tell me when I actually look good and not someone who’s going to ‘girl power’ me and tell me that I’ll look beautiful no matter what I choose,” you explain.

“You will look beautiful no matter what you choose,” Isaac argues quietly.

“Yeah, right,” you dismiss the comment and step back into the dressing room, slipping out of the blue dress and pulling a floor-length lilac gown from the hook on the wall. You really like this one, with its full skirt and jeweled bodice. It reminds you of a fairytale and that’s pretty fitting for a night like prom. You hope desperately that it fits right and looks good.

When you step out of the dressing room and Isaac gazes over at you, his mouth falls open as he stares.

“Is it a little better than nice?” You ask with a hopeful smile.

“It’s perfect,” Isaac answers, still staring.

“You think Liam will like it?” You question, looking down at the dress so you don’t see the way Isaac’s face hardens at your words.

“Yeah, I’m sure he’ll love it,” he responds angrily, before getting standing up and stalking towards the exit.

“What- Isaac, wait,” you call, chasing after him. “Come back!

He stops when your hand catches his wrist.

“What the hell happened just now?” You enquire, confusion marring your features.

Isaac looks at the floor ashamed of his behavior. “Nothing. I’m sorry.” He turns to you with a remorseful glance, gesturing to the gown you’re wearing. “You should change out of that so that you don’t mess it up before prom.”

You stand your ground, less worried about you dress and more concerned with why Isaac just lashed out at you. “No. Isaac, tell me the truth. Why were you so upset a second ago?”

“The truth,” he exhales, squaring his shoulders. “Okay. The truth is, you look breathtaking in that dress,” he says softly, reaching out like he wants to run his fingers over the fabric before letting his hand drop to his side once more. “Like a princess. The truth is that I didn’t like being reminded that Liam is the guy that’s going to get to hold you in that dress because you asked him to prom before I had the chance to ask you. The truth is, I wanted to ask you for more than one night at a stupid high school dance. Is that what you wanted to hear?”

You stare at Isaac in shock. “You were going to ask me?”

“I was going to ask you to the movies first, then maybe segue into asking you to prom if you had a good time. But then you asked Liam so, I figured you probably didn’t like me like that,” Isaac shrugs.

“Liam and I are just going as friends. I don’t like him like that,” you explain, taking a step closer.

“Really?”

“Really.”

“Would you have said yes, if I had asked?”

“Yes.”

Isaac grins down at you, happy to know that even if you aren’t going to go together now, you wouldn’t have broken his heart if he’d gotten to ask you. “Will you save me a dance?”

“I might even save you two,” you tease with a smile.

*

Liam ends up calling you a week before prom and very apologetically asking if he can cancel. The girl he’s been crushing on for ages, Hayden, has hinted at wanting him to ask her but he isn’t going to do it without making sure you’re okay with it first. You gladly let him out of your agreement and dial Isaac’s number. He’s happy to take Liam’s place as your date. Honestly, you would have saved Isaac as many dances as he wanted but this is so much better. This way, Isaac gets all the dances. And you both get your fairytale happily ever after.

Story time, kids!!

So yesterday, my sister and I had tickets to an advanced screening of Captain America: Civil War.  We got into Boston early because we weren’t guaranteed seats because they overbook these things in case people don’t show up.  We get in line (we’re like 40 people in) and we settle in to wait for 2 ½ hours to be let in to be seated.  

I know Mike Beach is currently in Boston, filming Mark Wahlberg’s new movie, Patriot’s Day.  I jokingly started tweeting him about how he should come keep us company in line at the theater (because there was no way I’d be content to just stand there and talk my sister).  

Literally about 2 hours laters, I get a reply and yeah. 

This is what happened:

Naturally, I start freaking.  “Is he serious?”  “Is he teasing me?”  “I know he said he wanted to do a meet up, but is he pulling my leg?”

The movie was going to be a long one, so I wasn’t going to hold my breath.  

Then THIS happened:

H O L Y  S H I T

He had mentioned in an earlier tweet that he was going to be around the Prudential Center on Boylston, so my sister and I started walking in that direction for when he told us his location.  He had a place in mind, but they ended up being closed, so we could tell he was trying to find something else.  

When we stopped at a corner to give him some time, apparently he walked right by us on the street.  (We weren’t RIGHT on the corner.  We were out of the way and he was on his phone.)  I get a reply telling us he found a place.  

It was a bar.  We walk up, we see him in the window, by himself.  Holy shit.  We go in and introduce ourselves.  He gives us big hugs!  He’s wearing his Harley Davidson biker vest.  He’s so happy to see us!  Its literally just the three of us.  I don’t know why I thought he’d have someone else with him.  When I meet people from the internet, I always like to have one other person there with me, but he’s a 50+ year old man, so…….

We immediately start discussing Civil War.  We obviously didn’t want to spoil anything, but he had one or two questions that he needed answers to just for his own piece of mind.  haha.  He told some anecdotes of his kids.  (The man has 7 kids.  Oldest will be 30 in November and the youngest will be 2 soon.)  

We order some food.  He got a dinner and my sister and I split nachos.  It was 10:30 at night.  We didn’t want to eat too much.  

I feel like we literally talked about everything!  We talked about his kids.  We talked about our jobs.  We talked about his experience in the industry and the movie he’s working on right now.  The previous day he had been talking to Deval Patrick for about 3 hours, trying to really do the role justice.  

We talked about The 100.  He asked me what I thought about this season.  I asked him if he really wanted my honest opinion and he said, “Yeah!  Its no skin off my back!” 

Well….I ranted.  Due to the many different kinds of followers I have on here, some might not agree with me about my stand on certain things, so I’m going to refrain from going into detail about that.  

We also talked about The 100 cast.  He feels so genuinely towards them.  He honestly feels like they all honestly love each other.  He thinks its beautiful.  I think its beautiful.  God, I love this cast.  I told him how Bob was actually supposed to come to Boston twice, but he had to cancel both times.  I said if he did it again, I was going to start to take it personally.  He got a kick out of that!  Obviously, I’m joking.  I just really want Bob to try to come to Boston.  Always.  

We talked about the Jason/Ricky thing and I’ve mentioned how I haven’t liked Jason for well over a year because of how he’s treated different sides of the fandom over the course of all 3 seasons.  I told Mike about the “Ricky’s a great actor. I wish him all the best” or what have you and how that was literally all he said when asked.  Jason wrote an essay over a fictional character, but barely gave a full thought about a real person that he really hurt.  Mike didn’t even know Jason said anything at all and seemed to not be too happy about that.  

I’m getting heated all over again, fam.  Please forgive.  

Like, we told him how we met Ricky in November and just how lovely we thought he was.  How it broke my heart to hear that he was treated that way.  I love Ricky so much, you guys.  

We talked about how the cast actually used to be pretty active on social media, but because of all the hate they receive, its caused them to kind of clam up.  “Especially Bob. He can be really sensitive towards that kind of stuff.” Again, I’m just paraphrasing, but he did mention Bob specifically in regards towards the hate.  

RANT TIME: Literally, how gross do you have to be to send hate to an actual person OVER A FICTIONAL CHARACTER??  I’m disgusted by each and every person that continues to harass him, and the rest of the cast.  Guys, we’ve been following Bob for a good chunk of time now.  We know he’s a bit more sensitive to the hate.  Just fucking knock it off.  If you’re going to hate one someone (who you don’t even really fucking know, mind you), at least have the decency to not tag them on social media.  He literally does not need to see that shit.  When I was suddenly woken up at 3am and looked at my phone this morning to his tweet

I was literally ready to go to war.  I was ready to fucking fight.  I told Mike how that absolutely broke my heart to hear because Bob is one of my favorites, if not my number one, on this cast.  He’s a precious bran muffin who deserves the world.  I’m literally CONSTANTLY sickened by the amount of hate he gets.  

Mike also told me how, while he was live tweeting the episode last night, this girl was coming at him and when he went to reply, she had blocked him.  Like, how attention seeking are you?  Go outside.  Read a book.  Don’t start shit on the internet, honestly.  

He also told me, without giving away any spoilers, that the episode was probably the best one yet.  I told him that I couldn’t wait to watch it!  That it honestly looks like it was going to be the best one yet this season.  (And it was!) 

We talked about how he’s going to his first convention and he was asking what conventions are like.  We told him as much as we could.  We only have three cons under our belt, but I feel like we gave him a pretty good picture.  He doesn’t understand why people should pay to get pictures and autographs.  He doesn’t believe it should be like that.  But its literally always about money, so…..

(ALSO, CHARLIE HUNNAM IS GOING TO THAT CONVENTION??  I kind of geeked out. Me: “Charlie never goes to these things!” Mike: “I know!!  A whole bunch of us (SOA) will be there!”

We talked tattoos.  Our tattoos.  His tattoos.  He showed us the one on his bicep.  He had to take off his jacket and roll up his sleeve.  I nearly died.  That dude is FIT for 50+.  

I could’ve stayed there all night, but he needed to go to sleep and my sister and I needed to catch one of the last trains.  So I asked for pictures and we went outside to take them.  

Here’s mine:

Then he asked which way we were walking.  (We were actually walking in the same direction, so we started walking together.)  His hotel was right up the street, so we stopped out front and got hugs.  Said thanks.  We said that we hoped to do this again!  He’s leaving on Sunday for LA for a week, but he said he’d be back the following week for a couple of weeks.  He seemed down to meet up again!  We said goodnight.  He told us to get home safe and then he crossed the street to go into his hotel.  

Guys.  

GUYS.  

MIKE BEACH IS THE NICEST GUY ALIVE.  HE’S SO SWEET AND SINCERE.  HE LITERALLY DIDN’T HAVE TO DO THIS.  HE DIDN’T.  BUT HE PUT SOME TIME ASIDE FOR US AT 10:30 AT NIGHT.  WE LEFT AT 12AM.  WE SPENT AN HOUR AND A HALF INSIDE A BAR TOGETHER.  HE’S SO AWESOME.  

anonymous asked:

I'm so conflicted over the whole situation. I don't know if you're aware of the musicians for 1d tag on tumblr or for example but-red-means-stop's analyses and posts on the situation. I knew harry was straining his voice but after reading through the tag and but-red-means-stop's posts I am really worried about the lack of proper training they are getting and in particular the effect it ahs on Harry. If you heard the mic feed from SNL it's really not good.

I can’t really talk about Harry’s vocal situation because to be honest it makes me sad. He has a lot of raw talent, and some really really super beautiful tones and flexibility, but in some ways he’s actually becoming a weaker singer due to the damage done to his voice.

I feel like someone may have told him along the way that onstage he can only sing in his chest voice, because he’s proven multiple times he has the capacity to do falsetto, yet he never uses his head-voice on-stage, ever, at least not in solos. He sings so earnestly, and it’s like a part of him thinks that unless he gives it his all he’s not doing good enough, and that giving his all requires singing in his chest voice.

He’s been really struggling lately, and I need someone to sit down and give him a lot of good voice lessons. One of the things people often forget about voice lessons is that voice lessons do not a good singer make. Voice lessons are not principally to make you sound better, but they are to make your singing practices healthier, better, and more sustainable. With some people, these practices substantially improves sound. With others, it prevents damage and allows them to continue forward with the excellent tone quality and flexibility they already have. In Harry’s case, due to damage that has happened, it would both help him to stop damaging himself, and also help to make him sound better due to not further damaging his voice. 

Hello everybody! I just got back from Comic-con and after review of my finances I realized that I’m severely in the red for the month and that I owe my dad like 400 dollars, so I figured now would be a good time to send out a post asking for help/selling old stuff to try to pull myself out of this post-con-depreciation I’ve seemed to have fallen into. Looking back on it, I probably should have budgeted better, and I thought I did! But all of the money I had saved up for it ended up being used by my dad for things so I really need help now.

For those of you who don’t know who I am, Hello my name is Hanari and I’m the cosplayer who looked like this all throughout NYCC:

You probably saw me. If you didn’t well, I wish you would have! I think I looked pretty cool! Long story short is that I’m a cosplayer and I cosplay a lot of things, and I plan on continuing to cosplay a lot of things in the near and far future. I see cosplaying as something I can make a career out of, so if you like my cosplays and want to help support me in my day-to-day cosplaying life, there’s a really neat DONATE button on the front page of my blog over to the left hand side. I’d sure as hell appreciate any and all help.

But this post isn’t about donations. This post is about me giving something back to you guys! I have a lot of extra cosplay and costuming crap in my closet, and with Halloween coming up around the corner and NYCC over, I figure now is probably the best time to get rid of anything I don’t want anymore. So without any further ado, let’s see what i’ve got for you guys!

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okay but Bitty’s glacial ‘bless his heart’ and hard clanking of his dishes and just general Do Not Say That Name To Me Ever was so amazing in the sense that it’s a MASSIVE turn around from the last time Bitty had to talk about/hear about Parse. 

Because last we left, Bitty had that run in with him after epikegster. He and Jack were off footed and when he went to apologize to Jack (in Shinny) all he was told was that Jack and Parse had a lot of apologies that needed to be said between them and that it was fine. 

NOW THOUGH. BITTY IS FULL ON DEFENSIVE AND PROBABLY JEALOUS??? Which means that Jack told him things, lots of things, REAL DEEP DOWN SCARY SECRET THINGS. All those Skype calls and text and phone calls lead to this.

So basically what I’m trying to say is, we keep being told Jack and Bitty are really happy together and in love and its beautiful and real and honest and REAL AND THEY ARE IN ACTUAL LOVE AS BOYFRIENDS AND I STILL CANT WRAP MY HEAD AROUND IT. I AM SO USE TO PAIN I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO FEEL. 

IT’S NOT A LIE. IT IS TRUTH. I NEED TO GO CRY NOW BYE

anonymous asked:

Let's say Richie and Kate do become a thing. How do you think the fdtd writers would write their relationship like?

Hmm good question anon I guess it can go either way. BUT because the FDTD writers have portrayed their instant connection with each other as something deep and meaningful thus far it only makes sense that it would remain as such. I just don’t see either of them darkly seducing each other or manipulating one another that wasn’t the foundation of their bond. It was built on trust, faith, an understanding, somewhat innocence and an instant starcrossed desire. The writers have taken pretty good care developing Richie and Kate’s relationship in the first two seasons of the show and have been pretty adamant that they want the audience to notice the significance of their connection through their hands in order to ultimately root for them. However its Zane and Madison’s magical chemistry together that’s created those beautiful intimate layers behind Richie and Kate’s relationship.

I can see their romance shaping up like a dark fairy tale kind of like “Beauty & the Beast” meets “Psycho”, slow, scary but passionate. Much similar to Ethan and Vanessa from Penny Dreadful; think a really dark version of Bangel from Buffy the Vampire Slayer. What each couple shares is an honest simple human connection. If you’ve never seen Penny Dreadful I highly recommend it, its got an EPIC love story between two dark beings who also share a starcrossed bond with one another. Ugh Josh Hartnett and Eva Green’s chemistry together is simply breathtaking and divine. Actually there are many similarities between Kichie and Ethanessa; both involve a young woman of the faith carrying a darkness within them [like Kate is now] who have unspoken feelings for a monster [Richie being a culebra and Ethan being a Lupus Dei]. Both couples already shared their first kisses. Like Kichie, Ethanessa’s relationship is also based on a foundation of trust, an understanding, friendship, hidden desires and unconditional but forbidden love. And like Ethanessa, that kind of deep love I can predict will develop between Richie and Kate will be threatened by unforeseen forces. The only difference between these couples is how they met; while Richie and his brother kidnapped Kate and her family, Vanessa recruited Ethan to help her combat the forces of evil. 

That being said the instinct Richie and Ethan both have to protect Kate and Vanessa is exactly the same.They would both lay down their lives for the faint of the heart. Ethan and Richie are also tortured souls though one is more prone to act on evil while the other can’t help it; Ethan is technically a good guy unlike Richie being a criminal who is capable of good. Kate and Vanessa are both strong willed people with the common ability to see the best in people; even in the darkest of entities. Vanessa’s love and care for Victor Frankenstein, his creature and Sir Malcolm is also much similar to the way Kate feels about Seth and Scott. And just as Kichie’s mutual feelings for one another are a mystery, Ethanessa haven’t declared their feelings to each other though they are more aware of how they feel. And both couples were separated by tragedy at the end of the second seasons. Sorry lol I’m such a hopeless romantic I love these two beautiful ships so much, they’re both the death of me I can’t help seeing the comparisons! ^__^

Back to Kichie one thing you have to keep in mind is that despite Richie being a bad guy there is goodness in him and its the very thing that Kate has been responding to since they met. She is the light to his darkness and now she’s become something in between those two things. Kate is the essence of Richie’s humanity much like Seth is and the very thing that’s kept him from being completely culebra. That fact that his personal vampire power was triggered by his human emotion of “grief” over her death is just further proof that what they have is sincere and incredibly strong. Its a connection that goes beyond good and evil; light and darkness. Its an unspoken love. This relationship is going to be painful, angsty, messy and heartbreaking and with Kate’s resurrection combined with Richie’s guilt over her death season 3 is sure to be one hell of a thrill ride of emotions for these two. The last scene between Kate and Richie in 2x10 was a clear indication the writers are going to go deeper into how these two characters feel about each other evident to Kate’s line “there’s no love left Richard”. In his eyes you could see nothing but devastation even when she told him to burn in hell his response was silent agony. A specific seed was planted and I believe it’s going to be Richie’s desire to save Kate from her darkness. 

Kate made a decision in her dying breath to reject all love, forgiveness and salvation the very things that can ultimately save her in the end. The FDTD writers purposely wrote that scene between those two to foreshadow Richie’s actions towards saving Kate when he sees her darker. Those words of anger were directed right at him, words that were filled with so much pain, anguish and passion; hatred the opposite of love. If Kate feels that strongly towards Richie than its possible deep down she truly loves him inspite of all he’s done and what he and Seth put her and her family through. Her anger is a defense mechanism to hide how betrayed she feels because to Kate she believed Richie could be capable of being something either than a monster and in her eyes he failed her. Somewhere along the way she put him on a pedestal, gave him all her unwavering trust and fell for the man he could be and now I believe next season Richie will want to prove to Kate that he can be that man. Yes he’s a bad guy but like I said he isn’t without any redeeming qualities and to love someone as much as I think he loves Kate only reflects a fragment of his inner goodness. He’s going to have to use the light that Kate was once an essence of in order to pull her out of that darkness. Really I believe the only person that can save Kate besides her brother is Richie because whether its blind hatred or unconditional love, he is a part of her in a way that no one else is. 

I have no idea how they’re going to write Kichie in season 3 but what I do know is that the writers will want it to remain as meaningful, pure and powerful as its always been. We have no idea why Richie and Kate were drawn to each other which I can see the writers wanting to explore as he continues to mourn her loss. Another thing I can see happening next year is Richie’s true feelings for Kate surfacing which will be provoked by dark!Kate. His determination to save her could result in the realization of the depth of his feelings, that being said Kichie is on slow burn so perhaps Kate won’t be the one to break the love barrier. I can see her really latching onto Seth if she isn’t still angry at him for kicking her to the curb and he’ll be the one to help reconnect Richie and Kate. At the end of 2x10 Seth had a moment alone to himself in the office and it seemed as though he had a weight on his shoulders what with taking on the mantel of being his brother’s keeper. When Kate comes back into the Gecko brothers’s lives its going to really tear up the floor between these three. Seth and Richie will be closer than ever after bonding over Kate’s death and her resurrection will influence Seth to be the tether between the two people he loves most. I don’t see it becoming a love triangle though I really don’t. And besides I think Seth was already made aware of Richie’s feelings for Kate when he caught them kissing back in season 1.

 That said no matter what its going to be Richie who will recognize his love for Kate first and he’ll probably be so torn over those feelings to the point of pushing her away if he does successfully get her back. He thinks Kate deserves better which is why he adores how good she is and why he’ll risk it all to bring her back. Her purity is the very thing that charmed him about her. She made him feel human. Richie is far from a hero but when it comes to Kate he’ll charge in guns blazing just to save her. He’s really unselfish when it comes to her except for the moment he wanted to turn her just to keep her alive in his life but honestly that just shows how human he is. Yes this season was the darkest we’ve seen her but Kate is still an epitome of hope and light. It’ll probably scare her when she finally realizes her feelings for Richie cause lets be honest I don’t think she pictured having a thing for a cold-blooded criminal who kidnapped her in the first place. It’s going to be a delicious tortured-keeps-you-awake-at-night EPIC romance which is specifically why I class Kichie as a ship of pain.

It’s going to be fun and interesting to see how this turns out. Honestly I can’t wait to see the material Zane and Madison get together next year and how they’ll continue to develop Richie and Kate’s relationship going forward. They’re such tremendous actors and I believe the meatier the scripts get for them the better. They are going to tear our hearts out lol. Buckle up anon only good things await us ahead! ^__^

7

So yesterday I travelled for a hour to Garforth AFC to watch Emmerdalefooty play the British Transport Police. I haven’t been able to get this stupid grin off my face today.

I have been a fan of Danny’s character ‘Aaron’ for a while on Emmerdale but only recently became part of this new #Robron fandom which celebrates both Danny and Ryan (Hawley) as individuals as well as when their characters are together.

When Danny tweeted about the match I immediately thought, can i go? My go to person for anything 'fangirling’ (I hate this word I’m a grown ass women, i may feel like a teenager still but hey) is my sister but she lives over 3 hours away, so I asked my hubby if he would come with me but he point blank refused. He’s used to my 'fangirling’ so isn’t offended but think he likes to keep it at arms length. I ended up posting the picture Danny tweeted to facebook and asked if someone would come with me, but had no takers. In the end I asked the person in my life that loves soaps, my mother in law (MIL).

We arrived at the ground extremely early (I’m an early bird, I hate being late) and the panic set in (I have some anxiety issues, nothing major, i just need to prepare myself if there will be big crowds etc) but my MIL just kept reassuring me that we were fine. It was a lovely afternoon so we decided to go for a walk while we waited, if you haven’t been to Garforth before I recommend it, its a beautiful area. On the way back to the ground I happened to look over to my left and noticed a very posh black car arriving and who should it be but Danny Miller! If I’m honest I didn’t think he would show, thats nothing against Danny thats just my insecurities coming alive. I managed to not freak out (actually proud of myself for not freaking out at all) but he ended up walking past us to get into the ground and my MIL kept pestering me to ask him for a photo, he did look really nice in some grey tracksuit shorts, black t shirt, hoodie, cap and sunglasses but I didn’t ask, he had only just arrived and i didn’t think it was right. Whilst waiting for the gate to open we also got to see Joe arrive, by taxi i think, and my god does he look different without those 'Finn’ glasses.

We got into the ground and found a barrier to lean against right next to the pitch. It wasn’t long before the players came out to warm up. I must say Danny looks very impressive warming up, doing all the right moves etc. The warm up lasted a good 30 mins. The teams went back inside to change and then came out in the strips. The ED team remained stationary whilst the TP team moved along and shook hands. The ED team then posed for a team picture, this was a great opportunity and i managed to get a few decent pics of Joe and Danny together. Danny took the captains band and shook hands with the ref and linesmen. He took off his training top to reveal a white and red shirt, no 10, and as he was walking away from the dugout he poured water over his head, I swear my heart skipped a beat, a wet Danny Miller, that was worth the drive and the entry fee. He repeated the water pouring again, I’m not surprised it was extremely hot. Danny played on the right as a striker, Jim played on the right but as more of a defender/midfielder and Joe was playing midfield in the first half but ended up alongside Danny, up front, in the second half. When the game started I realised we may have stood at the wrong end of the pitch because there was a lot of support for the TP team around us, that didn’t stop me shouting every time Danny headed towards the goal, Joe had a few good runs too. Straight away I noticed that this would be a no holds barred game, there was a lot of aggression, some of it from Danny, he really committed when trying the win the ball. About 5 mins into the first half Danny tackled a player, won the ball but it flew in the air and landed right in front of me, the girls on either side screamed but my MIL and I just stood there and kicked the ball back. The sun was blazing and it was a great atmosphere, ED scored first when Danny went one on one with the keeper. But by half time ED was down 1-2. During the second half I moved around the outside of the pitch so I could get a few better shots of Danny with my camera. We ended up on the ED side of the pitch and I managed to get a few good shots of Danny and I even caught some of his 'altercation’ with a opposing player. One thing I can say is that Danny takes football seriously, he was shouting orders, encouraging his team mates. He didn’t run up and down the pitch but stayed with his man and was ready for any incoming passes. It was really an amazing thing to watch.

The final score was 3-2 to Emmerdale but I’m pretty sure I saw Danny score 4 goals not 3!

Even after playing 90 minutes of football on a very sunny day the cast took pictures and signed autographs which I thought showed that they genuinely cared about their fans. Danny is so good with kids, I noticed this when they were warming up, he played with the kids on the pitch even picking up and swinging one around (later found out that this was the girl who plays April on the show) I managed to talk to Danny and take a selfie and got my MIL to take a better photo on her camera and I told him he played well and touched his chest. He is a lot skinnier IRL than he looks under those hoodies on screen. I got to speak to Joe who is just the cutest and told him he played well and they deserved the win, he just laughed and said he couldn’t even play football but thanks. Just by chance after finishing talking with Joe I was looking for my MIL and guess who he was talking to?? Lawrence!! OMG all I would think was Roberts father in law is here!! What! She remarked on the fact that the younger cast member were getting all the attention and he just laughed. We both had a chat with John (Lawrence) for a few minutes, I asked how long he’d been there, and he said he missed the start but at least we won. I got a photo with him too.

The football club put a raffle on and one of the prizes was a tour around the ED studio they also had a band playing in the bar. After the match had finished and I had got the most precious selfie in the world, we had about an hour to kill before the the raffle draw so we went to check out the band, it was very crowded and very loud but we managed to see the little girl that plays April and Michelle who plays Vanessa. After a while we got a little bored with the band so we sat outside in the sun. I looked through the pictures i had taken and got some great shots of Danny. While sat outside James (Jim) who plays Sam came out to get in his car, another posh Mercedes in white. I wasn’t sure he would take pictures or anything, he seems like a really private guy, but a few people asked so I did. Let me start by saying he sounds nothing like Sam Dingle, its really surprising to hear him speak and it not be like Sam. When I was getting my picture I told him he smelt nice, he said I hope so he’d just had a shower, and made a joke about how that was his weekly shower.

We then moved back into the bar to hear the raffle draw. We had to stand right next to the door as there wasn’t much room, but I didn’t regret it. Some of the ED players had to walk right past us including Danny and Joe. As they were walking past I noticed that the boy who plays Jacob was there too. The organiser thanked everyone for coming and Danny even made a little speech, thanking the organiser, but think he got his name wrong, everyone laughed. Danny won the man of the match for the ED side but that was pretty obvious, he scored a hattrick. The actors stayed to hear some of the raffle prizes but halfway through they made to leave, I really wanted to follow but I had seen him enough and to leave he had to walk by me again so that was a bonus. We didn’t win the raffle prize, oh well. We made to leave and I checked to see if Dannys car was still there but he had left, one can only assume taking Joe with him. All in all, a great afternoon.