**I’ve been feeling a bit (a lot) self conscious about my body here lately and who better to help with that then the precious angel who is Luke?**
You heard a knock on the door.
“He cannot be here this early!” You said outloud to yourself.
You had just gotten out of the shower, hair a wet mess, no makeup, and just a robe wrapped around you.
“Who is it?” You hollered.
“Your boyfriend!” You heard him say.
“Just a sec!” You shouted at the door.
“Baby hurry up its freezing out here!”
You reluctantly opened up the door but seeing his beautiful wide smile made everything okay.
“Just get out of the shower?” He asked as he hugged you tight.
“Haha maybe…you’re early” you said giggling.
“I know I’m sorry, rehearsals got out a bit early and I decided to come on. I missed you” he said and kissed your lips.
“Awww so sweet. I missed you too” You said smiling back at him and scrunching up your nose.
“Are you hungry?” You asked him.
“Surprisingly not really” he said and shrugged.
“Hmmm” you said with your arms wrapped around him. “Are you tired?”
“Exhausted” he said holding you tight.
“Awww poor baby. I know you, you are hungry so why don’t you go upstairs and pick us out a movie and I’ll pop us some popcorn?” You said giving him a gentle peck on the cheek.
“Okay” he said smiling and kissed your lips.
You heard him head upstairs and you went into the kitchen to pop the popcorn, completely forgetting that you weren’t the least bit dolled up like normal.
The microwave dinged and you took the popcorn out, slightly burning your hand at the steam.
“Ouch!” You said out loud and sucked on the spot.
You grabbed the popcorn and a big bowl and headed upstairs to join him.
He was such a sight to see. Bright blue eyes, golden hair slightly quiffed, black skinny jeans, and a slipknot tank. Perfection.
You climbed into bed with him and snuggled up under the covers.
“Tada!” You said as you poured the popcorn into the bowl.
“Magnificent!” He said giving you goofy face.
You two giggled and began eating your popcorn.
You turned to face him.
“Open wide!” You said and positioned yourself to where you could throw a piece in his mouth.
He opened his mouth as wide as it would go and you threw it completely missing.
“Aww my turn!” He said and you opened your mouth wide.
He hit your eye and you grabbed it laughing hysterically.
“Oh no! I’m so sorry!” He said laughing and reaching to hold you.
“I’m fine!” You said giggling. “My turn again if I can see where I’m aiming now.”
He gave a pout and you winked at him.
“Open up big boy” you said concentrating hard.
You aimed and shot one right in his mouth.
“YES! VICTORY!” You said clapping and doing a little dance.
“GET IN!” He said laughing and high fived you, grabbing your hand and kissing you causing you both to fall down, him on top.
“You’re crazy wildcat” you said smiling at him.
He just smiled and shook his head looking you in the eyes.
You looked into his and ran your fingers through his hair. You couldn’t help but to kiss him again.
It was different this time, the playfulness had ended, his kiss felt hungry, wanted, needed.
His hands started to roam your body. You two had made out before, but he had never seen you naked.
His hands started to roam down to the belt on your robe, undoing it and causing it to come open revealing nothing but your bare chest and cheeky panties.
You quickly shot upright and closed it quickly completely frazzled.
He looked so confused.
“Uh..im sorry…I didn’t know…I thought you wanted me to…” he said embarrassed, eyes wide.
“No, no I’m sorry. I just. I really like you and I don’t want you to see this.” You said quickly.
“See what?” He asked with an eyebrow raised.
“Me. All of me. It’s not what you’d expect. Not what you’re used to.” You said feeling like you could burst into tears at any moment.
“What I’m used to?” He asked curiously.
You sat back down on the bed with him.
“Yes Luke. I’m not like those girls. I don’t have rock hard abs or even abs for that matter. My ass isn’t tight and my hips aren’t tiny. My thighs are big and I’m not beautiful like them.”
“What are you talking about?” He asked looking hurt.
“Please Luke, don’t play dumb. You are used to absolutely beautiful girls. I’m so average, I don’t fit the bill, I don’t look like someone that you would chose.”
“How the hell do you know who I’ve been with and what I like? And for the record I think that you are absolutely beautiful. I think that you are the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. You have curves, I love your curves. I really love them. You’re right though, you’re not like the other girls I’ve been with.” He said.
“I know…they are skinny and …” You started to say.
“No. It has nothing to do with that. They are not kind and down to earth like you. They don’t make me laugh or smile like you. They don’t make my day better just by them being in the room or sending me a message. They don’t care about people the way that you do. You don’t get it. I’m not with you for your body and appearance, although I think that you’re perfect. I’m with you for you. Why are you with me?”
“What?” You asked confused.
“You heard me. Why are you with me? Is it because of my image, my name?” He asked condescending and got up off of the bed.
“No! It’s because you are sweet and gentle and kind. You’re funny and you make me laugh and smile. I trust you, I love being with you. You’re down to earth and caring and you’re just real. You’re the coolest, most dorky, goofy person that I know and I adore you. You have eyes that make me melt and your smile can make all of the bad days go away.” You said honestly.
“So my body and my name and none of that bullshit matters to you?” He asked again.
“No. You do. What’s inside of your heart.” You said staring him in the eyes and walking towards him, stopping right in front.
He started to undo your robe slowly.
“Exactly baby. I used to be self conscious too, I thought that I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t fit enough, but somehow I gained confidence. I had to fake it til I made it and every now and again I still feel like I look gross or I’m not good enough. I’ve felt like I’m not good enough for you. The way you care for people, you’re just so…good. You’re one of a kind and honestly I probably don’t deserve you, but that’s not gonna stop me. Please never think that you’re not good enough for me, that you’re not all that I want. Because you are. I want every bit of you. I want to show you that. Will you let me?” He asked with pleading in his eyes.
You shook your head yes.
He shook his head yes too and your robe dropped to the ground.
“Beautiful” He said and kissed your lips holding you tight, making all of your insecurities go away.