but zayn at the beginning



I got out of the flat before Harry came out of his room.
I was trying to process how I was feeling, more than anything. Myself and Harry had put an end to things before anything even started, in the hopes of avoiding either of us feeling as down as I was doing after seeing that girl come out of his room. I didn’t even imagine I would feel the way I was, so beat, so disheartened.

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carrinnuh  asked:

Heyy!! Could you rec me some long Ziam fics?? Thanks yore the bestest!!

Ooh, girl, you know I got you. I’ve actually been wanting to corral all of the long Ziam fics anyway.

It’s always hard to decide what not to rec, so I just went with fics worded 69k+ (and a few I couldn’t leave off). The order is mostly random with my personal favorites up top and incomplete works at the bottom.

Disclaimer: Make sure to check all tags and warnings on fics. If you’re not sure about one or want to discuss it, feel free to message me (:

**UPDATE 05.21.17: Newly added fics have two astrics in front.

Run For The Woods Now series (149,370) by jmcats:
+ Run For the Woods Now (62,075 | E)
Zayn knows some of the best and worst moments start with one of Louis’ ideas. Still, it’s almost as if everyone knew where this, his life, was going when Harry and Liam moved into Wagner’s old flat, with that stupid plant sitting in the doorway, and too many cigarettes and Justin Timberlake for any of this to have been one of those classically clichéd love stories.
And Zayn doesn’t do clichés. Not until Liam, that is

+ We Lie Awake At Night (14,008 | E)
His life, the one with his friends, with his son, with Liam, still feels a little too incredible to be true. But if it is, he’ll never let himself become content with it. Nothing this amazing should ever become routine.
+ Home in the Stars (12,556 | M)
It’s the kind of love story that started with Louis’ insane plans, a ridiculous plant, new neighbors, and a boy with warm brown eyes, round cheeks and promises to be there when Zayn was ready. He doesn’t know how to explain it, but maybe he will be able to tell their son Safi one day how he decided to stop running and fell for Liam… One day, he will.
+ I’ve Waited for This (60,731 | E)
One day, he’ll thank Louis Tomlinson for this: Liam still loves the smell of cigarettes on Zayn’s skin, the sound of Justin Timberlake when their fingers touch, the way Safi finds his own spot on their bed, the way there’s always pieces of skin touching just to keep them connected. 
The way all of this started with a stupid, completely mental idea from Louis Tomlinson. 
(Or the one where Zayn and Liam get married and Zayn’s finally ready)

hello kisses sweet as wine (123,892 | E) by xxcaribbean (roseaque):
not everyone is brave enough to go after the things they want. too much judgment and little respect creates nothing but fear; yet zayn’s always pursued what he’s felt regardless of those hang ups, and there’s not a day that goes by that he doesn’t regret any of his choices.
now, though, his decisions go a little beyond the spectrum of what people might consider normal, but zayn swears he did it out of love for himself and for his family. but mostly, it’s for his insatiable need to feel steadiness for once in his life.
zayn doesn’t expect mr. payne to have all the answers, and he certainly hadn’t meant to leave an impression.
so, this isn’t really a love story. well, it shouldn’t be.

**The Killing Type (130,453 | E) by protagonist_m (protagonist-m):
Liam breathes hotly through his nose, eyes twitching shut as he squeezes a bit more on Zayn’s neck. “Do you know how dangerous what you’re doing is?” 
Zayn draws in his own ragged breath. “Do you?” 
Zayn is a doctoral student who goes to great lengths to be in the wrong place at the wrong time. Liam is heading the biggest serial murder investigation London has seen in half a century. And before this, he’d never been sent a love note via corpse. 

vanilla sweet universe (78,004 | E) by xxcaribbean (roseaque):
vanilla sweet
despite the fact that zayn’s an alpha, liam gives him a chance to prove himself worthy of the omega’s affections.
always love
zayn likes to make sure liam’s well taken care of before his heat hits, but even then, they don’t expect it to happen early.
sugar rush, candy crush
being a male omega was normal, but frowned upon. liam knew that. he also knew that zayn didn’t care. however, it seems like things are out of his hands when he discovers that the treatment from his past might cause a rift in his future with zayn.
honeysuckle lazy
there’s the trouble of liam being away from kiya for the first time, to zayn not planning a successful night out (until he does), and then on top of that, there’s the fact that there’s some stuff that neither of them had intended on admitting. but either way, it’s for the good of their relationship; really, it is.

Knowing, Forgetting, Forgiving, and Believing series (118,212) by SoftlyandSwiftly (softlyandswiftlyao3): 
+ Just Let Me Know (72,711 | E)
Zayn wakes up in a hospital, eyes blurry and head pounding, only for a doctor to tell him he’s lost two years of his life. And if that’s not awful enough, something’s different with Liam, off like something has changed, and Zayn doesn’t understand.
Until he does.
And then it’s somehow worse.
+ I’m Letting You Know (45,501 | E)
Liam’s POV of Just Let Me Know.
Liam’s world shattered two years ago, and he hasn’t been able to piece it back together since. When Zayn forgets everything from the past two years, Liam thinks he truly will never be alright again.
But maybe Zayn can fix that.

start again at your beginnings (115,852 | M) by postitbandit:
When they first meet, Zayn is a warrior in his mother’s clan and Liam is a conquered villager.Liam has an unhappy past and just a few things that he holds dear. Zayn would like nothing more than to learn about that past and welcome Liam into his clan, and into his life, but Liam does not seem keen on sharing anything with Zayn.
At least at first.

**Pride (86,961 | E) by iwanttowriteyouafic (iwanttowriteyouafic):
“What if you guys were to come to some sort of arrangement?” Niall said. “Just a strictly, er, business-only deal, where you’d help each other out. You’re not close enough that it’d be weird, but you’re not strangers, either, so you know he won’t take advantage of you.”
“This is a really weird conversation,” Zayn told him. “I hope you know that”
(Or the one where Zayn and Liam strike a deal to help each other through their dirtiest nights, but Zayn’s perception of alphas may be preventing him from something purer.)

**A Pirate’s Love for me (104,415 | E) by rorz94:
In the early 19th century, The two most prestigious packs of London, the Paynes and Maliks hate each other guts. So The Alpha king, who was mostly a peaceful man decided to have an end to this feud by tying an Alpha with an omega of the other pack. Once this agreement achieved the couple would get a tempting prize, but would the two families allow the chosen couple to have some peace?

Found a Demon (In My Safest Haven) (152,509 | E) by ohioinmymind:
Barely escaping tragedy as children, Zayn and Liam grow up unconventionally with their share of monsters hiding in the shadows. When Liam starts asking more questions than he should, Zayn tries to stop him, but in many ways it’s too late. Liam spends his time chasing secrets and trying to uncover the truth, and all Zayn wants to chase is Liam. Because Zayn doesn’t need to go looking for trouble, it usually just finds him on its own.

Mirrors (89,882 | E) by ohioinmymind:
Liam and Louis are a couple of rich kids, with no care in the world. Zayn doesn’t care about anything but skating and Liam. Harry wants Louis to see him for what he really is; a good guy. And Niall just wishes they would all get their shit together.

this is interlude (85,223 | E) by xxcaribbean (roseaque):
liam figured a gunshot wound, a mysterious stranger, and a clear sign of betrayal was enough excitement to last a lifetime. however, in the process of it all, he didn’t take into account the fact that what he thought he knew would be challenged, provoked, and possibly crushed, all because of a little four letter word that shouldn’t have even crossed his mind.

be a place that i call home (70,676 | E) by lightseep (fleshriots):
sometimes, home is a person. and sometimes, home is lots of people and sometimes home is two very, very little people.

**All is Fair in Love and War (94,149 | E) by bad1ands (rogueziam):
Up-and-coming journalist Zayn Malik - in hopes of later being allowed to cover more substantial stories - takes on an assignment by which he must pull a guy and then push him away in ten days.
Advertising executive Liam Payne - in order to take over a major campaign for his company - must prove to his associates that he’s able to woo a man in less than two weeks.They walk into a bar.

(An AU based off of the 2003 film How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days.)

Burning Away From Inside (87,566 | E) by scottmcniceass:
They’re a little too dysfunctional to be considered superheroes, but they do their best.

Lost For Words (102,090 | NR) by AGreatPerhaps12:
Zayn was so stunning and so consistently kind to Liam that his stupid heart had the annoying habit of practically vibrating in his chest whenever they were together. Liam wasn’t deep enough in denial not to know what that meant anymore, but he was still forcing the feeling down as vehemently as possible. It was difficult, though, when Zayn turned to Liam with that smile and said his name like he was worth time and attention, and all the while in the back of his mind there was this chant of—
Get the fuck out of my house. I’m not having a fag for a son. I want you and your shit gone by the time I get back.
—Yeah. That.”
Or: The one where Liam has a stutter and zero self confidence, and Zayn has a carefully controlled temper (also starring Louis and Harry as that disgustingly-in-love couple and Niall as the only straight guy around, apparently).

not yet awake (79,434 | E) by jmcats:
Liam doesn’t know this world. He feels out of place and he doesn’t trust anyone. All he knows is flashbacks of a life he doesn’t know anymore and all he hears is ‘thank you Captain Britain’ but Liam is not a hero. He’s a solider.
He has one mission for SHIELD: keep Zayn Malik safe. Unfortunately, he hates this cocky, arrogant, manic boy who wears suits and has iron where his heart should be.
(Re: SHIELD wants to protect Malik Industries and Liam has been avoiding the Avengers Initiative for months now… until he has no choice but to trust someone)

Kids that I Once Knew (78,185 | E) by jmcats:
Zayn longs for home – Bradford; not this small town that’s nothing but University and football and a hospital his mum forces him to volunteer at. But there’s something about this place – or the boy with the buzz cut and soft eyes and Liam Payne is nothing like Bradford. Zayn hates that, slowly, he’s kind of in love with that.

these amber words on your fingertips (69,087 | E) by jmcats:
‘He’s not getting attached, he swears. There’s no point.’
(Re: Zayn’s life in London is about one thing — making life perfect for his son. He’s still finding himself in this city, with all of the noise and left behind dreams. He needs to focus and Liam is, well, distracting. He’s different. Zayn’s always liked that word.)

Tunnel Vision (90,923 | E) by scottmcniceass:
In which Zayn is an award-winning popstar with a knack for getting himself in trouble, and Liam is the bodyguard he didn’t want to hire who has a few problems with staying professional.

through the summertime, winter, spring, and fall (77,503 | E) by writingsofamadchild (zainspank):
They change with the seasons, burning bright during the summer and biting cold during the winter, but that feeling of being in love Zayn found in the summer clings to him through it all.

You Holy Fool (74,816 | E) by chasingxrabbits (wester-fic):
Liam is a good kid, on the right path until he finds something wicked making a home in his church.
A slightly religious AU where Liam has a moral dilemma and Louis is falling head over heals for the curly headed sophomore.)

span>let’s pretend it’s love (68,465 | M) by wafflehood:
Pretend!boyfriends fic in which Liam and Zayn get papped while hamming it up for Louis and Eleanor, and management decides the easiest way to deal with the resulting hysteria is to let it run its course.

the bittersweet between my teeth (64,982 | E) by gaysubtexts (zoophile):
liam and zayn grow up together, louis, niall, and harry tagging along later on. that’s it.

like a wall of stars (64,901 | E) by jmcats:
somewhere between summer training camp and his last season of footie, Liam manages to: find his place in the world, find his confidence, build a bond between this misfit group of teammates he calls brothers, figure out the meaning of the word captain, watch his best mates (unexpectedly) fall in love, get over himself, fall for a boy, and hate Zayn Malik at the same time.
(and maybe this is how it should have always been)

But the sun comes up instead (71,332 | E) by blackwayfarers:
Zayn Malik, charming and confident fraternity vice-president, meets shy but achingly endearing high schooler Liam Payne at a kegger and everything just goes straight to hell.

Too Good is True (80,024 | E) by xxcaribbean (roseaque):
Zayn is a manservant (actually he’s a maid, but it’s what Niall calls him because one, there isn’t a male equivalent to the term maid and two, it sounds far sexier than what the job actually requires).
Liam is the unfortunate third wheel in the band One Direction. Harry and Louis are in love. And Niall is a butler

What We Become (78,042 | E) by scottmcniceass:
“It’s okay if you are,” Harry says seriously. “I mean, I know I would be. Like, if there was ever a date that was destined to go bad, it’s probably this one. Werewolf goes on date with the son of a werewolf hunter, who’s also training to be a werewolf hunter when he’s older, while another pack of werewolves are practically massacring the town, and no one has no idea how to stop them. It’s not a question of what could go wrong. It’s a question of what could possibly go right, and I’m willing to bet the answer to that is nothing.“

for always the thorn lies under the rose (107,265 | E) by xxcaribbean (roseaque):
being comfortable with herself is one thing, but fearing the judgment of others comes with the territory. add in a bit of harassment, a touch of unrequited love, a twin who can’t keep his mouth shut, and a boss who can’t date for shit, and all veronica’s left to deal with is her emotions and how she plans to get through the aftermath.

Tamper (80,002 | E) by saltwatergirl:
After being appointed as a teacher at McEllan Academy, Liam becomes fixated with a student. This is not the first time that this has happened.

colour my senses cherry red (96,675 | E) by thilia:
Zayn Malik, closeted gay pornstar.

You Are The Blood (175,151 | E) by sarcasticfluentry (povverbottoms):
A seventh-year Hogwarts AU in which Niall gets all the girls, Liam goes on a journey of self-discovery, Zayn falls in love, Harry wants something more, and Louis tries to figure out once and for all why he, a Muggleborn, was sorted into Slytherin.

To Sir, With Love (92,412 | E) by CupcakeCait (cupcakes-x-cocaine):
Zayn accidentally sends his teacher, Mr. Payne, a picture of his dick.

These Inconvenient Fireworks (190,000 | NC17) by wontsitstill on livejournal:
Future AU in which nobody tries out for X Factor but the boys end up finding one other eventually anyway. Louis is a jaded bastard who owns a cat named Duchess and teaches drama to teenagers, Harry is an idealistic aspiring photographer/part-time footy coach, Zayn teaches English lit and wears leather jackets, Liam saves people from burning buildings, and Niall is Niall.
[Mainly Larry Stylinson]

We’re Okay (153,816 | M) by scottmcniceass:
It’s funny, really, that their lives hadn’t intercepted before that point. That all it took was one little thing that set off a chain reaction of circumstances which led them all to each other. But it was for the best, really, because in the end, with each other, they were all okay.
And if you asked them, the whole thing could be blamed on Liam sleeping in, for once in his life.

Permanent (114,546 | E) by scottmcniceass:
At twenty-six, Liam has made a name for himself as one of the best football players of his generation. He’s in the prime of his game when a car accident threatens to end his career permanently. Depressed and hating the world, Liam heads back to his home town to take some time off and find himself again. He doesn’t expect to find life pretty much the way he’d left it eight years ago, and he definitely doesn’t expect to find something that might make him want to stay permanently, but that’s what he gets.

the beauty of this mess (67,815 | E) by jmcats:
He won’t admit how cold his sheets are when he’s alone or how his spine aches for Liam pressed to it or the way his fingers shove unforgivingly into his stack of pillows when he thinks about Jackson drowsy on his chest or Annabelle’s soft face under the moonlight or how that one-story bungalow was the closest he’s felt to home since leaving Bradford. 
(Re: Zayn loves this city, loves his boys, loves the salty taste of the surf on his tongue even though he hates the ocean… but he’s not expecting to fall in love with Liam and all of his little secrets, too. Not enough to stick around in this sandy city of teenage dreams)

Auction me off (64,973 | NR) by Romancemesomeziam:
When CEO Liam meets a young Zayn and can’t help but be enthralled by his amazing beauty, but there’s more to their relationships than physicality.

**Slow and High Tempo (103,054 | E) by zipplekink (zipplekink):
“I just want you, Liam,” Zayn whispers, skating his lips across his. “Can I?”
Liam’s lips part more as Zayn’s do, exhaling slightly as Zayn’s words sink in. He doesn’t understand what they mean, but he knows he meant it when he said Zayn could have anything he wants.
His eyes flicker open to stare up at Zayn’s dark ones, filled with a warmth that seems to consume Liam as he waits for him to respond. “Yeah, babe.”

S(l)ave Me (72,498 | E) by purpleeyestelllies:
If there’s one thing Zayn Malik knows it’s love. He creates it every single day with his multi-billion dollar match-making company. He helps Masters and slaves find their mates and each day he sends them out the door only to return home alone. Being young, rich, and handsome apparently isn’t enough for Zayn to find his own love. What he finds instead is a beaten and broken abandoned slave, Liam, in a dark alleyway in the middle of the night. He takes him home, fixes him up, and promises to use his company to find Liam his perfect match. But maybe his perfect match is closer than he knows.

The City Lights in the Snow (70,613 | E) by jmcats:
He only ever sees them, his boys, during this time of year and it’s never enough. Not in this place, this city, with a new face like Zayn’s reminding him that love and friendships don’t last for a holiday. ‘Without question, and whenever asked, Liam will always say that this time of year is his favorite.’
(or a holiday fic where Liam loves his city but he loves Niall and Harry and Louis (and maybe Zayn) a lot more)

**Viva La Vida (123,126 | NR) by iambluehead:
He only ever sees them, his boys, during this time of year and it’s never enough. Not in this place, this city, with a new face like Zayn’s reminding him that love and friendships don’t last for a holiday. ‘Without question, and whenever asked, Liam will always say that this time of year is his favorite.’
(or a holiday fic where Liam loves his city but he loves Niall and Harry and Louis (and maybe Zayn)

**The Gorgeous Torch Ginger (129,713 | E) by Fille_du_soleil:
Liam’s wedding vow was clear and still banging in his head as if it was yesterday that he pronounced it.
In Health and sickness, wealth and poverty, until Zayn do us part. Or was it death?A ZIAM Underage story. Very Explicit Sexual Content. MPREG

**Black Water (110,729 | E) by TheFAYZ:
“Alright, I’ll go…but what exactly are we going to go do?” Harry just grinned, he had a beautiful smile.
“Follow me, I’ll tell you all about it.”
So now I was stuck on a plane with 2 assholes (one who was intent on trying to burn a hole in my head without actually doing it), a pilot who was also apparently a super genius (and a fucking know it all), and a drunk Irishman who can only fly if he is absolutely hammered.
Fucking Harry.
(or, a super hero AU where Liam has a destiny to his total and complete dismay, Zayn is super possessive and wants nothing but to have Liam all to himself, Louis pines HARD over Harry and is a mouthy boy with anger issues, Harry is an extremely irresistible drug dealer because superpowers and he’s Harry, and Niall just wants to outdrink everybody)

**through the fire and into the flames (111,027 | NR) by zipplekink (zipplekink):
He only ever sees them, his boys, during this time of year and it’s never enough. Not in this place, this city, with a new face like Zayn’s reminding him that love and friendships don’t last for a holiday. ‘Without question, and whenever asked, Liam will always say that this time of year is his favorite.’
(or a holiday fic where Liam loves his city but he loves Niall and Harry and Louis (and maybe Zayn) a lot more)

**I will stand by you – so why let your voice be tamed? (105,594 | NR) by zeethorn:
He only ever sees them, his boys, during this time of year and it’s never enough. Not in this place, this city, with a new face like Zayn’s reminding him that love and friendships don’t last for a holiday. ‘Without question, and whenever asked, Liam will always say that this time of year is his favorite.’
(or a holiday fic where Liam loves his city but he loves Niall and Harry and Louis (and maybe Zayn) a lot more)

but monsters are always hungry, darling (156,067 | E) by irishmizzy,miss_bennie:
Zayn Malik has nothing.
Louis doesn’t have much other than his van, his friends Liam and Eleanor (most of the time), and a wall that keeps him at a safe distance from everyone in his life; from the moment they meet, Zayn finds himself depending on Louis’s kindness, if you could even call it that. As Zayn learns what it is Louis does for money, he realizes he has a choice to make. The path it sets him down might not be the best one – it’s certainly not the smartest or safest – but it does bring him closer to Louis. And, eventually, Liam, who wants more for all of them, not that anyone wants to hear it. The rift it causes in the trio has long-lasting effects over the years, and while there are bright spots in Zayn’s life: Liam’s old friend Harry, who has his own lessons to learn about how love and relationships really work; Niall, the Irish busker from down the street who rapidly becomes a fixture in Harry’s life; a bed in a flat instead of a nest of blankets in a van, things are far from easy. It’ll all work out in the end, though. (At least, that’s what Liam and Harry keep promising him.)
[Hooker AU]

Not Even the Bad Guys (Could Take it All Away) (79,977| NR) by iambluehead (thedublinfall):
“Not even the bad guys in the dark night could take it all away”
Or the superhero au where Louis is (literally) electrifying, Niall is like a less green hulk, and Harry has X-ray vision because if there’s a God, he’s cruel. Oh, and don’t forget Zayn, the most powerful superhero since Batman who’s trying to keep himself from falling apart by keeping secrets, and Liam, the ex-soldier and superhero who hasn’t found out what his power is yet, and just hopes it’s something that will save them all.

You can be loved (77,387 | M) by ziamismyotp:
Zayn Malik, a quiet foster kid who escapes in his drawings and sings to ignore the pain. He’s tossed from home to home until he’s 15 and is put into an abusive foster home and when he’s 18 he’s finally free. Harry finds Zayn living on the street, takes him in and gets him a job at the coffee shop he works in. There, Zayn meets Harry’s boyfriend, Louis and two close friends Niall and then there’s Liam, who is muscle and puppy eyes and a kind voice that speaks to Zayn softly as if he doesn’t want to scare him away. Liam drives Zayn mad.
Zayn doesn’t speak of his past and even after they’ve welcomed him and made him feel as if he might matter… might belong for once, he still refuses to believe he can ever be loved. Liam tries to prove him wrong.

You Know How I Feel (78,629 | E) by LSFOREVER (tumblr):
AU. It all starts because Liam decides to take some classes at his Aunt’s art studio.

Double Standards (75,562 | M) by rorz94:
this story is an adaptation of Judith McNaught’s work “Double Standards”

Island of Misfit Toys (68,118 | T) by rosetintmyworld:
The story of five lost boys struggling to fit in and gain back what they’ve lost. It’s not easy when temptation is around every corner and no matter what, someone waits in the wings to tear them down. I wish i could say this is a story of redemption… but life isn’t that easy when you’re lost.

I Heard You On The Radio (95,862 | T) by thatwasahaiku:
Liam hadn’t meant for it to turn into a thing- a big, popular, almost the entire school was talking about it sort of thing. The podcasts started out as a way from him to vent some pent up aggression and actually be himself for once. And what better place to reveal ones true inner being than through the veil of anonymity that is the internet? It also helps being anonymous when you find yourself inexplicably attracted to the new student everyone has their eye on.

Class Conflict ‘Verse (116,492) by photo41 (mbpgku):
+ Class Conflict (108,944 | T)
“The history of all hitherto existing society is the history of class struggles”- Marx
Class Conflict- Can refer to the concept of underlying tensions or antagonisms which exist in society due to conflicting interests that arise from different socioeconomic positions and dispositions.
Or what you get when Zayn, worried about what the hell he’s going to do in the future, meets a fit bloke on a school field trip to an Ducal estate and it turns out that this fit bloke, Liam, neglects to mention who exactly he is- he’s the Heir to one of the richest Dukedoms in Britain, and therefore already has his future planned out for him.
Basically, take Liam hiding his poshness, Zayn being oblivious, and throw in a son of famous Irish Actor and Liam and Zayn’s Best Friends who might be too perfect for each other, and you get the definition of Class Conflict.

+ Conscious of this Conflict (7,548 | G)
Society does not consist of individuals, but expresses the sum of interrelations, the relations within which these individuals stand
Zayn’s never had problems painting portraits before, but this one of Liam and his family is proving to be his Waterloo, since Liam can’t seem to let him be for like, 10 seconds to paint the damn thing. Unbeknownst to Zayn, Liam is being purposefully obstructive because he both does and doesn’t want him to paint it, he’s just figuring out the way to tell him. Meanwhile, Louis is trying to organize the best festival he can without going nuts, Niall just wants to get out of the Tony’s and all Harry wants is a cat. (Or so he thinks)
Or, what has happened since our battered proletariat rose up to fight the Class Conflict.

Half A Heart (68,241 | E) by ginger_with_a_black_cat (tumblr):
Zayn is an English student who doesn’t want to fall in love because his biggest fear is to get hurt again. Liam is a resident bad boy and everyone’s wet dream on the outside, but in the inside he’s a secret even to himself. Harry’s Liam’s best friend with a secret of his own. Louis likes to party hard, get drunk and get everyone in trouble but everybody loves him nonetheless. And then, there’s Niall, who’s the youngest of them all, but still has the most brains and keeps them all in order all while being in love with an impossible girl.
Or where Zayn gets hit in the head by his own actions, Liam finds himself falling for an idiot, Harry gets dragged out of the closet by the love of his life, Louis wants Harry and only Harry and Niall just wants all of them to get their shit together, so he can get his own life back.

Breaking the Silver Chain (89,288 | M) by Mickey_D
Liam is an alpha who is just coming home from a trip abroad, and he isn’t returning alone. While traveling, Liam met the most beautiful person he’d ever seen: an omega named Zayn. The two of them had a whirlwind romance that left them happily mated and inseparable. Zayn, a boy with rather exotic looks for Liam’s home, draws a lot of attention, which isn’t a bad thing, except that he catches the eye of Leonardo DiCaprio. DiCaprio is an alpha with rumors constantly swirling about him, rumors about kidnapping, shady businesses, and omega-trafficking. It’s known that he has a few judges and law enforcers safely tucked in his back pocket, a fact that keep the rumor mill turning since no one can ever get a straight answer.
Harry Styles is a law enforcer with a rather loud omega named Louis. He’s determined to bring the truth about DiCaprio into the light after a distressing call from a hysterical Liam makes him see red.

(they say home) is where you go to rest your bones (68,828 | M) by darlingjustdont:
There’s a warmth in his chest that expands until he feels buoyant almost. Like he could potentially fly. What a fucking cliche.
“You okay?” Liam asks, sliding up behind him and pressing a kiss to the nape of his neck.
“Never been better,” he replies. “Why do you ask?”
“You’ve been staring into the cupboard for about three minutes, babe. I don’t think you’re going to find Narnia there, no matter how hard you look.”
Zayn snorts and turns so Liam’s bracketed by his legs. “You’re a dork.”
Liam shrugs. “You love it, though,” he answers easily and Zayn’s breath catches for a minute.
“Yeah, I do.” 
Zayn’s managing just fine as a single father. Louis and Harry are a help, as much as they are terrors, but it’s Liam who brings him home.

**Heart of Stone, Life of Fire WIP (75,165 | E) by softlyandswiftly:
A war with the city of Banshia and its conquering King threatens all of the Cities on the continent of Kiza. Young Zayn Malik finds himself hopelessly entangled in the web of the war, his future rewritten in the span of a morning as allies and enemies shift. Traded for the promise of an ally, Zayn finds himself among the warrior tribes of the Nakizi people, where he must carve out his own place and take his fate into his own hands.

**Choices Like Waves WIP (193,513| E) by kbeto (overwhelmedbyfeels):
“Ever fucked a guy?”
Liam frowns, unsure of the direction this conversation is headed to. “Not really…”
“Been fucked by a guy?”

Whilst Niall’s eagerness evidently rises, Liam’s will to live drops. Where’s the rewind button?
>Liam has got good intentions and a good plan. Then, Zayn happens.

Wolves and thieves WIP (103,540 | E) by frenchkiss (lillourry):
“You are beautiful and you are everything to me,” Liam simply whispers into his ear, because he knows this, has heard it countless times (hearing it from the mighty Zeus himself is something that will never leave Liam) but he knows Zayn doubts and troubles. Sometimes they argue over it, because Zayn once said he wasn’t sure he should have ever left Mount Olympus and that had felt like a slap in the face.
(Later, when Liam was trying to sleep alone after Zayn had said he was going for a long walk around their gardens, he felt the bed dip and Zayn’s weight slide under the sheets behind him and he heard the murmurings “you are worth so much more than anything Olympus could ever offer me, Liam.” And Liam had rolled over, taken a shaking, weeping Zayn in his arms and held him tight until the sun rose, trying his hardest to contradict and take down all the worries Zayn had voiced through his tears.)
Or a Helen of Troy AU of sorts, where Zayn is descended from the gods, Liam will do all in his power to see him smile, Louis and Niall are the greatest friends and Harry’s a clumsy slave boy that Louis can’t help but end up falling for.

Sanity Not Included WIP (84,117 | E) by scottmcniceass:
Someone probably should have stopped the five of them from living together in one house.

Everything You Want WIP (106,199 | E) by ohioinmymind:
Zayn never knew how much he wanted Liam until he got to watch him be with someone else. But they’ve been best friends since they were in grade school and a quick fuck isn’t worth losing a thirteen year friendship. So Zayn gets lost in the music and works in a shitty record store with Harry, while Louis plots to get away from home and Niall and El are the laziest cheerleaders in the history of ever. And Liam–well, Liam spends his time chatting up his ex’s and driving Zayn crazy in that tiny fucking speedo. It’s all just a mess, really.

You’re Like a Dream (To Me) WIP (86,586 | M) by npse:
Highschool AU in which Liam, Louis, Danielle and Andy are best friends and Niall, Harry and Zayn are the cool kids.

Armour of Faith WIP (185,731 | M) by photo41:
In 2014, Zayn Malik, an army medic, is still out in the Middle East- he’s stationed as humanitarian relief along the Iraqi/Syrian border. Exploring, he innocently touches a carving in an ancient cave- and suddenly finds himself thrust into a much different war in the year of our Lord…1188.
Hurled back in time by forces he cannot understand, Zayn’s destiny in soon inextricably intertwined with the Knights Templar and the Third Crusade. He is catapulted without warning into the intrigues of knights, Lords and Kings that may threaten his life …and shatter his heart. For here, not only will he need to find a way home, but he may also find the love of a past-life.

**Can’t Help Falling in Love with You WIP (164,992 | E) by eternallyunleashed (zaynsbambieyes):
In the 18 years he’s been alive Zayn has learnt to deal with the insane amounts of anxiety and stress that life threw his way. It was always easy to stay back and pretend he was invisible. After agreeing to Harry’s idea of an internship he realizes all his hopes of maintaining a quiet simple life as he works towards Med-school get tossed out the window. Liam Payne enters his life. Zayn can’t put a name to all the whirlwind of emotions that threaten to rip his body apart by just being near Liam, but he is certain of one thing. The mere thought or sight of Liam makes him lose the ability to breathe.
For Liam his goal is pretty simple. Ever since he laid eyes on Zayn, who looks like sin in human form with eyes that threaten to rip a man’s heart out, he knew he had to have the boy. He needs him more than he’s wanted anything in his entire life. Otherwise his red hot desire for the boy might just take him to his death.

**The Way We Do WIP (112,267 | E) by CupecakeCait:
Zayn and Liam play on rival football teams, and it’s hate at first sight, in Zayn’s case at least.

**Hello Twelve, Hello Love WIP (74,587 | E) by watyonameisgurl:
In which Zayn comes back to him slowly…When Liam and Zayn were 12, Zayn suddenly went missing in the middle of the night. With no leads, no evidence of a break-in, and no requests for ransom the police eventually concluded that Zayn simply ran away and they closed the case. His family never believed it and neither did Liam.
10 years later Liam gets held hostage during a bank heist only to find that one of the robbers is Zayn. But he doesn’t seem to recognize Liam or even his own name. Liam tries to track Zayn down on his own, hesitant to involve the police who in his experience have proved to be untrustworthy more often than not. But then Liam starts noticing strange things in his apartment. His bedroom door closed halfway when he’s sure he left it all the way open; the tv remote sitting slightly further to the left than where he usually leaves it; a stray hair on the floor, darker and shorter than his own. At first he assumes it’s just the other boys messing with him but the longer it goes on the more he starts to wonder if he might actually be going crazy.
He doesn’t realize until it’s too late that while he’s been busy searching for Zayn all this time, Zayn has already found him.

**Zayn’s Body WIP (348,297| NR) by jaylanic:
Zayn is an asshole to everyone. Except for Liam. But when a demon takes over the body of the hottest guy in school after he gets too friendly with a sketchy band, Zayn Malik’s friends go to hell and back, literally, trying to save his soul.

A Little Bit Of Time WIP (91,552 | M) by Beautystream:
Zayn is totally is infatuated with his across the hall neighbor that goes by the name of Liam.
He has had a crush on this lad for nearly three years since he moved into the apartment complex. They’re acquaintances, but not anything more even though Zayn believes they are destined to be together.
Harry is married to his high school sweetheart, but is having a bit of trouble. Accusations of Louis cheating on him are making rounds. He isn’t sure what to believe anymore, but things aren’t adding up.
Louis slipped up once with this girl and after years of progress and trust building… but it’s happened again possibly.
Both boys are best mates and dealing with dramas, what will come to make life easier? When will things ease and be better again?

I hope this is helpful!

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Welcome to my new rubric “HOW TO RECOGNIZE A ZIAM”!

I had this stupid brilliant idea yesterday while I was scrolling down my dash and saw so many posts that had me thinking “Only we could, lmao”.
So yeah, this will be about the most common hilarious Ziams reactions, thoughts and quotes. If you have any suggestions you can send them in my inbox.
This is just a thing I want to do for fun, so stay chill and enjoy!

understanding (bellamy blake au)

Plot: You’d gotten straight A’s all your life, lived exactly how your parents wanted. You never went to parties, you never drank, you never had a boyfriend, you were going to become a doctor. And now that you’re done with high school and on your way to your parents’s dream school, it’s time to live a little. You moves in to your dorm and decide to go to Blake’s Tattoo Parlour to get your very first tattoo. Once there, you meets the artist and things take a much different turn.

Pairing: Bellamy Blake x Reader

Warnings: mentions of scars and scarring, stress, panic attack

A/N: Let’s just pretend that this shop was just having a very slow day. Pls amuse me. I love y’all. Thank you for your endless support. I hope I don’t let y’all down. (ps this is kinda shitty) (pps no gifs are mine)

“I can do this,” you take a deep breath and push open the doors of the small dim-lit tattoo shop. “It’s just a little tattoo. I can do it. I have to do it.”

You take a seat at the waiting area and take a few deep breaths. You were tired of being the goody two shoes, tired of all the stress that was eating you alive. So you decided to take a step back and do something for yourself. And what better way to rebel than to get a cute little tattoo? Maybe you’d get a daisy. Or should you get a rose to make more of a statement? And where would you get it?

“Hello?” Your thoughts are interrupted by a voice, a male voice with an odd accent that you couldn’t put your finger on. You look up to see a scruffy, tan young man. Whoa, who’s this?

“Yes?” You stand and looks at the man nervously. This man was the exact opposite of the workers you’d imagined. He was young and had a bit of scruff, his deep dark eyes almost blended in with his curly locks.

“You’re here to get a tattoo, correct?” The beautiful man smiles, pushing back the few strands that had managed to fall forward. You nod, slightly dazed due to the god of a man standing in front of you. “Well I’m the owner of this store, and the only artist here today.”

“Oh,” you find your voice and it feels the nerves are taking over you almost completely. “Yes, I’m here to get a tattoo.”

“Perfect. Come on, I’ll take you to the back to get everything started. Follow me.” The man smiles and begins heading to the back. “My name’s Bellamy.”

“I’m Y/N.” You blush as the two of you reach the room and Bellamy turns to you. You slowly push up your glasses and straighten out your plaid skirt.

“That’s a beautiful name. It fits you,” Bellamy smiles as he takes in your picture-perfect, preppy-schoolgirl outfit before pointing to a reclining chair in the room. “Sit here, please.”

You oblige and realize that you don’t have a copy or an exact design of what you want. How could I be so stupid? Of course, the one day that I steps out of the boundaries, I forget everything. He must think I’m a complete idiot.

“Wait! I don’t have a picture of what I’d like. I don’t even have an idea of what I want.” You begin to panic and Zayn recognizes the symptoms. Many people who come for their first tattoo freak out, especially girls who appeared as you do. Hell, Bellamy himself went through hell the first time he stepped out of line.

“Hey, hey. Look at me.” he lifts your head up to look at him. “Breathe and tell me why you’d like a tattoo. Tell me why you wanted to get a tattoo.”

Bellamy sits in his chair on the side of your recliner and waits for you to speak.

“A-are you not busy? Will I not take up your time?” you look around, embarrassed that you’re going through this.

“Wait here.” Bellamy leaves the room and walks back in five minutes later. “I locked the door and turned off the lights. So, you’re free to tell me.”

“Why are you being so nice?” You look at the handsome man, your brows furrowed as he chuckles and shakes his head. “You could have easily turned me away.”

"No, I couldn’t have. I’m being nice because you remind me of myself when I first came into this exact shop. Clean shaven, dressed up in khaki pants and a button up blue polo. I came here to rebel and tune out the stress.”

“What..?” You look up at Bellamy, slightly in shock. “But you-you’re so…”

“So not preppy? I know, love.” he smiles at you and rubs the back of his head. “But I was once. I followed the rules, every rule actually. I even had the rule books memorized!”

“No!” You exclaim, a large smile on your face just as Bellamy had hoped.

“Of course not. I’m joking. But I was a rule follower. I did everything by the book. It was difficult.” He shakes his head and looks at you. “I understand why you want to get a tattoo.”

“I feel so trapped. I need to get a tattoo,” you sigh and look around. “I want one. I’m sure. I just need help deciding what and where.”

“Well, get something that’s important to you: an object, an animal, a plant, a word, a piece of art,” Bellamy grabs a drawing pad and smiles warmly at you. “A tattoo is something that means something to you enough to have it on your skin forever.”

“You’re right,” you shyly look up at the young man, feeling as though you’d known him forever. “And where should I get it?”

“Well, I’d stay away from anything too painful, especially since it’s your first time. Steer clear of any parts of your body with protruding bones, like your elbows and knees. No knuckles this time either.” Bellamy winks at you and you can feel yourself turning red.

“This time, right.” You chuckle and sit back, thinking. “Well I-uh I have scars across my stomach and I wanted to cover at least a part of them with a black and white tree. I know that’s cliche, but I think I’d like that.”

“Of course, love. Just give me a moment to sketch a little something, and you can tell me what you think of it, okay?” Bellamy smiles softly at you, almost as though he understands your pain.

“Yes, of course,” you nod and he begins drawing the kind of tree you reminded him of: a beautiful weeping willow. You wait for a few moments and before you know it, Bellamy shows you the tree.

“Voila!” He smiles wide and hesitantly shows you his drawing. Your eyes widen and you look up at him.

“Wow. I didn’t know you-I can’t-wow. Yes. I love it!” Your compliment brings a blush to Bellamy’s cheeks as he lets out a sigh of relief.

"Perfect. Lay back and we can get started.”

“Would it be easier if I took my shirt off?” You bite your bottom lip in anticipation.

“That’s not necessary. You can just lift your shirt up and I will work around it,” Bellamy smiles and sets up his equipment as you lift your shirt up.

“I’m ready when you are,” you blush, lifting your shirt up and closing your eyes as you wait for  criticism. "I know my scars are bad, if it makes you uncomfortable at all, I-I understand. They’re older scars; they look even wierder now.”

Originally posted by writingissatansworstnightmare

“You may want to hold something between your teeth, it may hurt a bit love,” Bellamy nearly winces at the sight of your scars but doesn’t say anything about it. Good god, these were bad. His scars weren’t even this bad. He knows you’re insecure, that you’ve received unfathomably rude comments and he hates that. "Love? Your scars aren’t your whole story. They’re part of it, but don’t let anyone tell you that the scars are all you are.”

“Thank you. Thank you so much,” you smile due to Bellamy’s kind words, letting them sink in while he smiles at your thoughtful expression, happy that his words at least partially hit home. “I’ll hold my sweater between my teeth. Does that work?”

“Yes, of course. That works,” he scoots closer and takes a deep breath. “I’m gonna start right here,” he points at your left hip, “and end here,” he places his hand on your ribs. “It’ll take at least two hours, so please let me know when you want to stop. We can take a breather whenever you’d like,” Bellamy’s words sooth you as he places his design against your side. "Ready?”

You nod and bite down against your sweater. Zayn breathes and begins. He outlines the design, stopping every few minutes to make sure you’re okay. You continue urging him on, and two hours later, you had a tattoo. A breathtaking tattoo.

“Bellamy!” You squeal for what seems like the tenth time in a minute. “I love it so much!” You can’t stop checking out your tattoo in one of the many mirrors in the shop. "Thank you so much. Really.”

“It was my pleasure, honestly,” Bellamy can’t help but to smile widely at you as you stare at the tattoo.

"And how much is it? It’s a large design, so I brought my card. I didn’t know how much it’d be. My friend–” you ramble and Bell places a finger against your lips to quiet her. The intimate actions tints your cheeks and causes a smile to erupt on the handsome artist’s face.

“This one’s on me,” he removes his fingers and shrugs, lifting a hand up to keep you from arguing. “Next one is on you. My first one was on the house, so yours will be too. It’s a tradition I like to uphold.”

“How do you know there will be a next one?” You smile az Bellamy smirks.

“Trust me. It’s like an addiction. And,” he looks at you, holding your hands in his as his face grows somber, “next time you want to hurt yourself, come here and get a tattoo or come here and see me. I want to help.”

You look up at the freckle-faced man in front of you and smile warmly at him, finally feeling hopeful.

if i see one more post about how liam’s changed i’m gonna blow. liam has been a fan of r&b and rap music since the beginning of the band. he and zayn bonded over having a more similar taste in music (specifically usher) than the other boys. from the moment he stopped being styled to look like the dad of the group, he started dressing more like he currently does. sure, it’s gotten a bit more obvious since the band went on hiatus, but i’m guessing that’s because he’s finally allowed to wear whatever he wants and doesn’t have to be constantly dressing up for concerts and events. he’s not changing or trying to appeal to anyone. he’s making the kind of music he likes and listens to. it’s kinda ridiculous how when harry says he’s making music he listens to everyone trips over themselves to praise him, but when liam and zayn make music they listen to they get shit all over. leave liam alone. 

166: He comforts you after intense sex.

Contains sexual references.

Harry: You haven’t moved from the spot you’ve been in for the past couple of hours, regardless of Harry’s attempts to distract you and comfort you. He knew it could take quite some time before you came back to your sense of self and in order to comfort you, he had sung to you, cuddled you and showed you affection, as well as put on your favourite films. Since you had both discussed the new scenarios you wanted to explore in the bedroom, Harry had done a lot of research to help him understand and recognise any warning signs during any sexual activity you both took part in. You had previously taken part in bondage together several times and you would occasionally use your warning word, signalling that it was getting too much, and Harry was quickly able to slow things down or change to the vanilla sex. He never begrudged you for it. His priority was, and always will be making you happy and keeping you safe. Today, however, you had both been role playing, something you went into open minded and you were such a good girl and he knew you wanted it so badly, because the dampness between your thighs told him so. He needed to punish his good girl. But fifteen minutes in and whilst you hadn’t used your safe-word, Harry was guilt-ridden, blaming himself for your subspace, something he had done vast amounts of research in. He had seen you drift away from him, and he had stopped his actions instantly. Nothing in the bedroom meant anything if you weren’t there with him emotionally, and he would never take advantage of that situation. He knew you had lost all sense of your surroundings and that he would be the one to bring you back to reality. He whispers sweet reassurances into your ear, wrapping his arms tightly around you and using his fingertips to circle your upper arm. “I’m sorry, baby” he murmurs softly. “Come back to me, darling. Please come back to me. I can’t lose you like this, princess. I need you to come back to me, to your Harry. I love you, baby.”

Liam: “Does it hurt?” he asks softly, gently biting his lip. He knows it seems like a silly question, but he wants you to answer it. You shrug slightly, and you know that Liam will know if you’re lying, so you decide to sugar coat the truth ever so slightly. “A little” you tell him. Liam shakes his head. “I am so, so sorry, darling.” He takes a look at your body, noting the injuries including cuts and sores. He skims his thumb gently over them, before lowering his lips to each of them and pressing soft kisses to them. “Want to make them better” he murmurs against them. “What can I do to make it better?” he asks and tears pool in your eyes. It wasn’t so much the pain, it was the intensity and that frightened you. It was the first time you had experienced something so intense and whilst you enjoyed it, it was a little overwhelming. “Come here” he murmurs softly, pulling your petite frame into him. “I am really, really sorry, darling” he whispers into your hair, pulling the duvet over you both to cover your naked bodies. Intertwining them for as much physical contact, you press a quick kiss to Liam’s cheek before shaking your head and sniffling. “It just scared me” you tell him honestly. “It’s never been like that before. It’s never been so full on and intense. I enjoyed it. I don’t want you thinking otherwise. It was maybe just” you pause as Liam completes your sentence. “Too much?” he asks as you nod. “I really am sorry, darling. Next time, we’ll take it slower, yeah? You said you enjoyed it, so we’ve figured what we both actually like in the bedroom, but we’ll take it easier next time, yeah? And maybe we’ll put a safe-word in place, just in case?” he suggests as a precaution and you let out a breathy laugh, but you agree, knowing it will be a good idea to do so, to avoid the events repeating themselves in the future.

Louis: You whimper the safe-word, unable to take anymore and you’ve held off for as long as you possibly can but it becomes too much. It’s intense and unbearable. You can normally withstand so much and today had been no different. You were getting so much pleasure from Louis doing so many things but the repeated orgasms were becoming intense, tiring and draining, both physically and emotionally. The moment the word escapes your lips, no matter how quiet or loud, whether it’s whispered, cried and shouted, Louis can sense it and he knows. He quickly stops his actions and unties the restraints around your wrists and ankles. Slowly sitting you up on the bed, he grabs his discarded shirt from the floor and wraps it around you, giving you some dignity. “Ok darling” he whispers softly as you sob into his chest. He snakes his arms tightly around you, pressing kisses into your hair and whispering reassuring words. “You’re ok baby, I’ve got you. It’s all finished. Good girl” he murmurs softly against you. “Intense, huh?” he questions, and whilst he doesn’t want to push you to talk about it so soon, he needs to know that he hasn’t hurt you or done anything against your will. He’s relieved when you nod at his question, and he knows he can cope with the comedown of the intensity of the acts. “You hurt?” he quickly asks in confirmation. Once again, he breathes a sigh of relief when you shake your head against him. The sobs begin to subside as he starts to sing to you softly, and you subconsciously begin humming along. “Better?” he asks in a whisper when there are no more tears left to cry and you are no longer visibly shaking against him. You nod and he encourages you to lay down beside him. The rest of the evening is spent with Louis at your side, watching movies of your choice and him occasionally asking if you’re ok.

Niall: “There you go, darling” he whispers softly, placing the hot mug of tea in front of you. He sits beside you on the sofa and he snakes his arm around your waist. “Want to talk to me?” he asks. You shake your head, refusing. He softly chews his lip and nods in understanding. “Whenever you want to talk about it, I’m here, ok? But please know, I will never, ever judge you for using your safe-word, ok? Sex is something that we should both be enjoying together. That safe-word is in place for either of us if we feel out of our depth. There’s bound to be things both of us are uncomfortable with which is why we decided to explore, right?” he asks and you quickly nod, feeling slightly embarrassed about the situation and thus avoiding eye contact. “If there’s anything you don’t like, or you’re unsure about, then use your safe-word. I am never going to hold it against you or be annoyed at you for it, baby. Surely you know that? I respect you and love you far too much. This relationship isn’t just built on sex. it’s based on love and trust and mutual respect, yeah?” Tears pool in your eyes. “I’m sorry” you whisper. “I’m sorry I let it go so far before saying anything but you seemed to enjoy it and I didn’t want you to be annoyed. I am really sorry” you murmur apologetically. Niall pulls your shaking body into him, your perfume lingering on the collar of his shirt which you’re wearing. “You have nothing to apologise for, ok? But you understand now, right? It’s so, so important for you to use that word, ok?” Silence fills the room as you sit comfortably in his embrace, your head resting on his naked chest, and his hand caressing your hair. “Right” Niall pipes up, interrupting the silence. “I think we should finish the night with junk food and a movie, and I think you should choose what we watch, yeah?”

Zayn: You had spent nearly two hours sobbing into Zayn’s chest and whilst at times he was able to calm you down, you were unable to completely forget what had happened and when the experience replayed in your head, it had made you cry even harder. Tears had pooled in Zayn’s eyes, the experience now becoming traumatic for him as he watches you go through overwhelming emotions after the intensity of the sex you had both had. “Baby baby baby” he quickly hushes, his arms tightly around you and his lips peppering your face with kisses. The gentle music playing in the background occasionally calms you, as does Zayn’s reassuring words and whisperings into your ear. “Breathe for me, darling, just breathe” he keeps reminding you. You eventually calm down, a variety of the gentle background music, Zayn’s singing, the close physical contact and reassuring whispers pulling together to remind you that you’re safe and with Zayn. “That’s it darling, good girl” he begins gently, before asking you the question he’s dreading the answer to. “Why didn’t you safe-word?” he asks softly, not wanting to upset you further. “That word is there for a reason, darling. I know I can read your body most of the time, but I couldn’t earlier. It was as though you had completely zoned out on me, darling” he tells you, emotion thick in his voice. “Did I” he pauses, his voice quivering. You grip his hand tighter, knowing what he’s going to ask. You quickly shake your head. “No Zayn, you didn’t hurt me. It was just overwhelming. I don’t want to do that again” you whisper softly, closing your eyes in embarrassment. He cups your cheek. “Darling, I don’t want to do that again either. I’m never having that happen to you again, I’m not losing you like that. Even if you beg me to do it, it’s never going to happen” he reassures you. “This is something we both need to enjoy, ok? You have to trust that I would never, ever hurt you, but I need to know that I can trust you in using your safe-word in the future. Can you do that for me, princess?”

anonymous asked:

I definitely think of that bg theory too. Because it was Harry the one to react like that! Idk but it always surprised me so much the things he said. I definitely it fucked something up and it affected louis greatly (either bg or something personal).

I guess it’s a possibility. I don’t have a strong opinion on that theory but I guess that if you look at it from a certain point of view it makes sense?

Our guess is that Zayn said he’d leave in September-November 2014 and we know that Breep’s social media was wiped around the same time, so babygate must have been in the works for longer then that. It makes sense for it to be meant for Zayn at the beginning because he already had the image they had to create for Louis in order to make bg believable: the party boy who was known for having one night stands and has a thing for blondes. Throw in that he was ‘engaged’ with Perrie at the time, who is also a Syco client, and the scandal would have created huge publicity for both the band and Little Mix.

The troubles for Syco started when Zayn said he’d leave, so now they had to assign babygate to another member of the band as well. I bet they weren’t ready to let go of babygate just because Zayn wanted out. I also think they were hoping he would decide to stay eventually (Ed once said that Zayn had left ‘before’ so I can see them hoping he’d decide to stick around) and then didn’t. So they had to pick another one of the boys: Harry, although he could’ve made sense because of his womaniser image at the time, though it was starting to fade a little by that time, was out of the question; Niall is teflon and no one would have cared; same goes for Liam; and then they had Louis.

Personally, I think Harry and Louis thought they’d come out in 2015 but when Zayn decided he’d leave they were probably told the band couldn’t face two news like that so close to each other. I think this also warrants why Harry (and Louis for sure) is so angry at Zayn for leaving. I can also see the coming out being used as a tool by Syco and that they told Louis they’d use babygate to make Harry and Louis suddenly close again publicly, so that they could have come out in the next future.

If this happened around January/February, it also explains why we last saw Eldemort (or so we thought *hysterical laughter*) in February and it also explains the 24-hour trip Zayn and Louis took to Los Angeles which was also when Louis and Breep were first saw together. I can see that meeting being a ‘hand over the reins’ of the stunt from Zayn to Louis.

And, well, the rest is history. They started to build the Louis!party image. Zayn left. Babygate started. And it’s still ongoing. If it really was meant for Zayn, then Harry’s anger is more then understandable.

But then again, I don’t have a strong opinion about this. It could have happened and it could have not. If I look at it from the point of view I explained earlier, it makes sense but who knows what really went down.

anonymous asked:

So there is a rumor that Liam was with Zayn in that club. I knew from the beginning that he is in LA right now.


So yeah, I talked about them possibly being together in LA a few days ago and it turned out to be true. 
Liam’s supposedly home (UK) right now, or at least that’s what they want us to believe. But there weren’t any pap pics, right? How weird.

And we just got this 

Now, everyone can take their assumptions.
I’m not taking this for sure, but even if it’s a lie, we DO know that Ziam were together a few days ago, they probably still are, and they ARE able to hang out and go to a pub without anyone noticing. They did that before and they’re gonna do that again. Maybe they even have romantic dinners every time they see each other and we never knew..

monthly reads: january 2017

↳  Young & Beautiful by Velvetoscar (227k, complete)

Louis, to his horror, attends an elitist university in which the name Zayn Malik means something, Niall Horan doesn’t stop talking, there are pianos everywhere, and Harry Styles, only son of a drug-addled, clinically insane ex-rocker, has a perfect smile and empty eyes. 

↳  You Smell Like by mystic_believexx (92k, WIP)

For her part, Jay took everything in her stride, barely batting an eyelid when Louis came into the kitchen the night Harry left and said, “I seem to have accidentally become the pack’s Alpha”.

Ever since Harry left town, Louis’ found himself with the role of pack Alpha, despite being human. So he can’t wait to hand over the reins when Harry returns. Except, it’s not quite that simple…

The one where Louis is the Alpha’s mate and everyone is aware of it except for Louis and Harry. Go figure!

↳  Sinking Between Heaven and Disaster by Style (25k, WIP)

Louis hates being an omega so much that he identifies himself as a beta.

Harry’s the new alpha who isn’t convinced.

↳  Written In The Stars by alex4968 (71k, complete)

It was so different - the complete opposite of everything Louis had ever expected about finally being placed into the real world. Zayn defied every single thing he’d ever been told about vampires, about how he was supposed to be treated. This was nothing like what he’d expected.

[or: Zayn’s the third oldest vampire in the world and found himself searching out the company of a human, so he took Louis as his keep. His maker Harry doesn’t approve.]

↳ feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream by togetherwecouldbealright (123k, complete)

“Alright, alright. No need to bite,” Harry says, holding his hands above his head in a general gesture of surrender.

Louis quirks an eyebrow and his foot nudges Harry’s as he moves to sit straight. “If that’s what you think biting is, you’ve got another thing coming, Styles.”

Harry blinks at him before he feels his face flush and inside the marrows of his bones there’s pulses of heat, pulses of fire spreading through him. “Is that a threat, your Highness?”

“That’s a promise,” Louis answers just as the car halts to a stop. “One I intend to keep.”

Harry is a journalist with a lot of secrets and Louis is the future king of the United Kingdom; they live together for 60 days.

↳  Mark my word (we gon’ be alright) by harioandlouigi (35k, complete)

“He’s always known that there would come a time when Harry would bond with some beautiful, quiet omega, and they would have lots of curly-haired pups and live happily ever after.

Knowing it and living it are two very different things, though. Watching the object of your affection desperately search for a mate and completely disregard you as an option is all sorts of painful, but it is what it is, and Louis is just going to have to learn to live with that.”

Or, an A/B/O AU featuring an oblivious Harry as the pack leader, a pining Louis as his second-in-command, and an entourage of friends and family who are a little too good at keeping their mouths shut.

↳  Wouldn’t Ever Want Anybody Else by itsmiz (40k, complete)

Louis and Harry’s relationship has fairly recently turned sexual, and Louis’ bodily insecurities get in the way of something that he really wants. Meanwhile, Zayn and Liam deal with coming out as a couple to the band.

  I Only Ever Want You by itsmiz (180k, complete)

Louis and Harry’s relationship goes through a series of changes while Liam and Zayn discover new things about themselves, as well.

Or: Louis & Harry and Liam & Zayn begin to have sex in front of each other and a lot of kink-discovery results from that.

rec list / request / monthly reads

anonymous asked:

do u have any underrated gem suggestions? ty

sure, let me go thru my ao3 history for something

Love Me Blue by ruinedbygaystylinson | 12.1k

“Could I have your number?”

To Zayn’s fascination, Liam’s cheeks flush even darker, and he instantly begins to babble “I mean, like, well you said you didn’t know, and um, I was just, well like, I know how to walk and stuff, and I was thinking,” before Zayn cuts him off with a gentle “Liam.”

Liam’s mouth snaps shut and Zayn grins at him. “Of course you can have my number, you donut,”


an AU where veteran model!Liam meets and coaches aspiring model!Zayn at a photoshoot.

Fall For You by asiacore | 19.6k

Liam Payne and Zayn Malik—two teens who are worlds apart—meet at a karaoke party and discover their mutual love for music. They eventually (accidentally) audition for their school musical. That pisses off the overly dramatic Louis Tomlinson and his best friend/sidekick, Harry Styles. Then, Niall Horan, Liam’s best friend and team mate tries to restore the social order of the school, but love prevails and blah blah all that. 

Wicked Games by littleleeds | 6.2k

Liam has a secret crush on Niall’s drug dealer Zayn, so when he decides to try weed, Zayn is there to distract him.

I Ride Fast (you are my breaks) by unfortunate17 | 7.6k

SUMMARY: in which zayn lives fast, afraid of stops, and liam is able to slam his brakes (alternatively, the one in which a wanderer finds a name to ink into his skin)

“this,” he says, “is you.”

liam furrows his brow, “but it’s blank.”

and zayn smiles nervously, “exactly,” and now his voice gets kind of small and he bites his lips, “because i seem to be able to draw everything except you.” he stares at the grain in the wood, suddenly feeling foolish…“

Not That I’d Admit Anything by mischief_managed | 3.5k

Lately Liam’s little guy crush on his best friend Zayn had intensified. They had begun spending more time together after their classes at uni - getting coffee, studying in the library, occasionally heading out to the gym. They ate lunch together at the dining hall when they had time, and last week Zayn had even asked Liam to accompany him to get another tattoo. Zayn didn’t know how Liam felt about him, and Liam intended to keep it that way, though it was getting more and more difficult with each passing day.


The one where Zayn likes Liam, and Liam likes Zayn, but Zayn isn’t sure if Liam feels the same way, so when the boys go to a club he tries to make Liam jealous.

Like Honey by thenbh | 7.3k

Liam does a lot of homework and Zayn is kind of misunderstood, but not really.

you are my sweetest downfall by somerdaye | 5.3k

The way Zayn laughed was kind of ridiculous, but Liam would be lying if he said it wasn’t his favourite sound in the world.

some kind of pair by detectivemills | 7k

Liam makes him wonder what his life would be like without him, if their paths had never crossed, and Zayn can’t say the same for anyone else. He thinks that feeling – the uniqueness, one-of-a-kindness of it – is something he’ll be having to deal with for a long, long time.

Finally by sweetenoughandfaraway (ihavelovedyoubeautifully) | 2.2k

Liam liked order and plans and pro & con lists, but the things he said around Zayn were never quite planned.

Second Hand Smoke by raelouise | 1.6k

Liam likes to watch Zayn smoke his cigarettes.

Bad Religion by zaynerpayner | 2.6k

Zayn doesn’t really known Liam, and Liam doesn’t really know Zayn, but they both like getting high, and so why not do it together? And why not do each other while their at it?

First Day of School by 17black | 1.2k

In which Zayn and Liam are married and it’s their son’s first day of school. Liam is nervous and Zayn is trying to calm him down.

to all that we kissed by dreaminstarlight | 1.1k

new years eve is a great time for drunken confessions and kisses.

five times Zayn wants to kiss Liam by transgenicveins | 2.3k

(and one time he does)

‘This will definitely pass’, Zayn repeats to himself, like a mantra. Except it doesn’t.

Sweet by tentainokonton | 1.9k

To Zayn, there is nothing hotter than Liam in those precious seconds before he loses complete control of himself.

I’ll Find You by exhalethenegative | 3.6k

10-year-old Zayn Malik needed a place to hide

He wasn’t expecting to be found

Theater Love by vsky949 | 2k

One where Zayn Malik is the strictest, most prestigious Broadway critic and Liam is the new performer giving him a run for that title

We Could Use Your Help by vsky949 | 1.9k

Prompt: Can you do one where they (Zayn and Liam) are best friends but they secretly (Secret from each other basically) like each other. All the other boys can see it and they decide to get them together! With side larry maybe?

It Was Only a Joke. Except it Really Wasn’t. by vsky949 | 1.8k

Prompt: “Can you do a oneshot of when zayn said that him and liam were goofing around and ended up kissing?”

i’m keeping it like this otherwise the post will be very very long haha, if you want more just ask!

anonymous asked:

idk why but i would love to know your opinion on zayn's and louis' relationship, the whole thing from the beginning. i just like to read your views on things in this fandom.

(I don’t know why you would either. LOL)

I don’t have much to say about Zayn and Louis’ friendship. The friendship 1D have is what brought me to them, and I simply love their interactions as a group and any combination of 2, 3, or 4! I would say “Zouis” is one of my fave friendships because they’re just little shits together??

They’re partners in crime★! I think it’s impossible to talk about Louis or Zayn without mentioning the other. From the very beginning.

They pranked the other boys that one time with the fake labour and were delighted with Harry’s and Liam’s reaction. (Niall was stoic the whole time. lol)

And I don’t think it has changed. I don’t believe all this story of separation and manufactured twitter drama worth of 12yo boys. All I have to say is that I love their friendship and hope we’ll see them publicly reunited in the near future.

I have no idea what possessed me to write this, I apologize.

“Stop giggling,” Liam huffed out, trying to stifle his own laugh.

“Stop being ridiculous,” Zayn countered, still laughing, his tongue pressed behind his teeth, cheeks rising, laugh lines across his face.

“Come on Zed, let me take your photo,” he tried to convince his boyfriend for what seemed like the hundredth time in the last few minutes.

“You have enough pictures of me,” Zayn said, swatting Liam’s hands away as he started to make a grabbing gesture. “There’s enough pictures of me on the internet and this house.”

“Your Versace pictures deserve better,” Liam replied, dropping his hands and getting serious. “We’re supposed to believe someone who loved you took those photos. Please, my nan could’ve done better. Let me do it. You still have the clothes and I have wicked skills on my iPhone. Add a seductive filter or something.”

Zayn sighed and leaned his head against the back of the couch he was currently sitting on. The Versace photos were a tad abysmal, he looked great which was always a plus. But, the photos didn’t show off him or the clothes properly. His people and Versace didn’t seem to care, as long as they got a cut of the profits. It had bothered him for some time now, this was supposed to be a huge fashion campaign and it was being treated like a child showcasing their hobby. Newsflash, the child needed to find a new hobby. For the last ten minutes Liam was now trying to convince him to have their own fashion shoot, mostly to just cheer Zayn up.

“Please,” Liam begged, pushing out his bottom lip in an adorable pout that always got to Zayn.

Zayn lazily traced Liam’s bottom lip with his thumb, humming when Liam grazed the digit with his teeth. “Fi-fine.”

Liam immediately beamed with excitement, jumping off the couch. “I love you. You won’t regret this.”

Ten minutes later Zayn was standing in one of their numerous closets, pulling out the specific clothes he wore for the Versus campaign. Liam was doing something outside in the garden, only telling Zayn to hurry up before they lost the daylight. Zayn undressed in the middle of the room, pulling on a pair of black jeans and a leather coat. Liam wanted to be as authentic as possible, copying each look Zayn wore in the campaign photos. After he was properly dressed he checked out his hair quickly in the mirror, letting it out of the tie he had holding it together on the top of his head. He shook his head to let the hair fall where it pleased and walked towards their garden. Once outside he just observed Liam who was running back and forth setting things up, Watson running right behind him thinking it was a game. A boisterous laugh leaving Zayn’s mouth alerted Liam to his presence.

“Beautiful,” Liam declared after getting a good look at Zayn. “Let me get this terror back inside and we’ll begin. Stand by the tree and I’ll be right with you babe.”

Liam dragged Watson back into the home by his collar as he whined the entire time, disappointed that play time was already over. He made sure the door was closed securely to make sure none of their other dogs decided to crash the party. He walked to where Zayn stood by the tree and adjusted the jacket he was wearing, not saying a word. He kneeled down to adjust the jeans and smiled up at Zayn, wiggling his eyebrows as seductively as possible. Zayn just shook his head and laughed, he was dating a toddler stuck in a grown mans body, but he loved him anyway. Liam stood back up and slowly walked backwards, taking his iPhone out of his back pocket. He pressed a few button on his phone, just nodding his head the entire time.

“Okay, just act natural,” Liam instructed.

“Cause this is natural,” Zayn scoffed. “An impromptu photo shoot in me garden.”

“Quiet on set!” Liam barked out his direction. “We’re gonna lose the sun if you don’t pipe down.”

With another shake of his head Zayn got silent and just let Liam shoot away, only moving when instructed. He knew never to interrupt when Liam got into his creative zone. He trusted him, trusted that he wasn’t going to make him look foolish. Zayn knew that the photos were going to showcase him in a way he’d want. After twenty minutes in front of the tree he was told to put on a shirt and go into the bedroom for their next location. Once he was changed again he walked into their room as Liam was fixing the blinds, making the room as dark as possible. He had no idea what Liam’s plans were but he just went with it. Liam instructed him to lay on the bed, leaning up on just one elbow. Like before, Zayn just went with whatever Liam told him to do because he trusted him and his odd vision. After a few shots were takien as he leaned on his elbow he was told to move up towards the headboard to capture a more relaxed feeling. Whatever.

“Are these even coming out okay?” Zayn finally asked once they wrapped their second set of shots.

“Babe, you’re doing amazing,” Liam told him honestly, cradling his cheek in his palm. “They should’ve used me for the shoot. Now go put on the white outfit and meet me in the bathroom.”

Zayn sighed and shook his head once more. “You’re relentless.”

“Love you too,” he replied. “Now hurry.”

The last shoot lasted another fifteen minutes with Liam having Zayn sit in the tub as he took the photos. It was all a tad bizarre but hopefully Liam knew what he was doing and what his vision for this whole nonsense shoot was. After the shoot was completed Liam wouldn’t let Zayn see the photos until he was changed and back in their bedroom. Liam grabbed his laptop and his USB port and sat on the bed, working his magic and waiting for Zayn to change. Once Zayn got back in the room Liam was still silent, clicking away on his computer.

“Done?” Zayn asked, crawling into the bed.

“Shh,” Liam silenced him, never looking up from the screen in front of him. “Almost.”

“So secretive,” Zayn joked, trying to look over Liam’s shoulder at the laptop, but he just kept moving it away from prying eyes.

“Patience love.”

Zayn sighed indignantly as he waited, even though he really had no idea what he was really waiting for, but Liam told him to wait. He grabbed his phone off the nightstand and played a game or two of solitaire, losing each time, to take his mind off the wait. Liam kept tapping away at his keyboard, clicking the mouse a few times to probably seem busier than he actually was. It was slowly driving Zayn crazy. He wanted to know what Liam was doing, especially with some of the more seductive photos he took on the bed and in the tub. Those pictures were not allowed to leave this home and no one else but the two of them were allowed to see them. He could just imagine the joke Louis would make at his expense if he saw them. Like Louis hadn’t done something similar with Harry after he cut his hair recently.

“Done,” Liam declared proudly, shifting his laptop over from his lap to the empty spot between them.

“Li-Liam,” Zayn gasped in awe. He looked between the laptop and Liam a few times, making sure his eyes weren’t playing tricks on him. The photos looks incredible, especially after Liam used his impressive photoshop skills. They looked way more professional that his supposed professional ones. He didn’t look foolish, he looked like a proper high fashion model. “Wow.”

“You like them?” Liam asked timidly, his top teeth chewing at his bottom lip. “I-I tried to make them look as professional as an iPhone can make them.”

“These are amazing,” he spoke in a hushed voice, his fingers ghosting over the screen. Touching to make sure it was really real, that he wasn’t imaging what was right in front of him. “They look, they look beautiful.”

“The photographer loves you,” Liam argued, smiling his wide smile. “Thinking about sending them anonymously to Versace, show them how good you truly are in front of the camera.”

“Don’t you dare,” he snorted, playfully hitting Liam’s arm.

“Fine,” Liam gave him. “Maybe I’ll make these our Christmas cards, send them out to our friends and family. Our mum’s would get a kick outta them.”

“Sure Liam,” he pacified him, knowing never to rile Liam up when he went on one of his many tangents, not matter where the tangent took him. “And the more provocative shots? Where are those going?”

“I’m blowing them up and putting them around the house,” he teased, laughing as Zayn’s eyes grew wider in shock and horror.


“I’m not kidding,” he replied, clicking the mouse to show Zayn the photos. “Babe, can you imagine them around the house? Over the bed? Maybe the tub?”

“I’m not going to win this fight,” he gave in with a sharp exhale. “You’re lucky I love you Liam James Payne.”

“I know,” he laughed gladly accepting a kiss from the love of his life and his lifelong muse in all things creative.