but you guys are my favourite people and i love you a lot


So I woke up to 409 followers, which means I finally have an excuse to post a bias list of my favourite people! When I first started this blog, I had just started watching season one of Shadowhunters. Something drew me to the character of Alec and I wanted to try my hand at writing, as I’d recently left the previous roleplay community I was in.

I was terrified to interact with anyone and didn’t feel good enough (I still don’t, but it’s something I’m working on). But with over 400 of you here, I actually feel good enough to play Alec. There’s been a lot of setbacks recently and there are certain people who have had a role in me not feeling good enough, but I’m a lot better now and why? It’s because of all of you.

My Person

@highwarlockxbane: You have been my friend for four years now, and I cannot thank you enough. You’ve always been my rock, always been there for me and refuse to let other people bring me down. I have always said I probably wouldn’t be around if it wasn’t for you, and it’s the truth. You and I have been for a lot and I’m glad I still have you, even after everything that’s happened between us. Four years is a long time and I will always be grateful you sent me that anonymous message on my Blaine Anderson roleplay account because you liked how I wrote him. Oh, and I’m really glad I made you get your Magnus indie.

Those who have been there from the start

@goldtouched: You were one of the first blogs I interacted with when I started my Alec account and I’m so glad you were still around after I got my ass off my four month hiatus. Thank you for letting me ramble to you about Jalec and thank you for still being there when I want to vent.

@magnusofbane: Let’s be honest, I was kind of intimidated by you when we first started talking because you were such a good writer. But then I actually got to talk to you and you’re the cutest dragon/tol on the planet. I know you’re going to fight me for saying that but it’s the truth! I adore writing with you and I’m glad we still get to write the cutest Malec plot ever.

The Cuties

@warstopper; @arrowbythebooks; @remembcr; @fallenregent; @heartguided; @willraisehell; @fxirchild; @camillebelcourtme; @justoldnews

Those I Admire

@finestglitter; @pandoraspuxis; @ofangelveins; @nephiliminheels; @dirtrepellent;  @firecaged; @warbleralways; @offershope; @inthequiver; @giingerstallion; @tragiichearts

I’m so sorry if I forgot anyone! I’m really not good at remembering things, but just know I love each and every one of you ♥

Hey guys!

Here’s a little post for Fic Rec Days.

I’ve decided to focus on tumblr fics, because they can easily be swept away amongst dozens of other posts. So here are some personal favourite Check Please fics for you to enjoy! And don’t forget, after you’ve given them a read, hit reblog! The authors will love you.

Note: a lot do not have names so I’ve just done a vague summary; my top recs get an asterix.

Additional note: do you know how many times I was thwarted in my quest because people don’t live at the same URL anymore?


Pick It Up Slow*, by brandnewfashion (nsfw)

Bitty crashes his bike into Jack, by omgittybits

French Practice, by mydearboy

Political Talk Show AU, by tiptoe39

Diners, Drive-Ins, and Dives, by dereknursey

Holster and Bitty prank call Jack, by lirapheus

Oh no, it can’t be you*, by zimsbitty (soulmate au)

Bitty’s First Kiss(es), by omgericzimmermann

Jack comes out and Bitty overhears, but it’s in French*, by sadquebecois

Bitty navigates sex with Jack*, by heyfightme

Bitty accidentally sexts Bob, by poetry-protest-pornography

Roadside Rescue, by iboatedhere


What Are You Waiting For?*, by marswithghosts (nsfw)


Traffic Jam AU, by imaginethehaus

Accidentally knocked a hole in our shared wall AU, by omgericzimmermann

And if that wasn’t enough, + I’ve got 40+ pages of reblogged fic (where there’ll be other pairings). A bit of weekend reading maybe…

First Kiss: Jaehyun


Anon: Can you please do how Taeyong, Ten, and Jaehyun’s first kiss would be. If you don’t want to do them all, you can pick one. Thank you and I really love your blog. :)

Finally! Got this one out :-) a lot of people wanted this one more other the other members so I decided to get this one done first. TBH its not my favourite… I thought Taeyong’s was the best but then again he is my bias and I did put a lot more effort and imagination into that one lol

I still hope it’s adequate!

Do you guys want Mark or Haechan next? Please comment or send it in :-)

Originally posted by yutahs

(he looks so good here i’m literally yodelling)

  • Jaehyun has really been making me feel unloyal to Taeyong omg
  • Anyway
  • I feel Jaehyun would be a stereotypical romantic and be the gentleman in a relationship
  • He wouldn’t be the type to befriend you before dating you
  • From your first meeting, he’d make me clear that he liked you
  • And would basically flirt with you ALL!!!THE!!!TIME
  • So before you started dating he’d act a bit like a fuckboy
  • But when you started dating he’d be an absolute prince
  • So you met through Doyoung
  • You were his friend from school, not a super close friend but he had seen you in the street recently 
  • And decided to start speaking to you again
  • (Not in a romantic way either)
  • He brought you to practice one day, because you had begged asked him to take out
  • You weren’t familiar with NCT unfortunately 
  • Doyoung was annoyed at first lol but he got over it and basically gave you the low down on nct and everyone
  • Which only made you even more intrigued about this group
  • You came after they had finished practicing so that you wouldn’t distract them, and stayed in another empty practice room with a load of snacks
  • This boy walked in and grinned at you, his eyes briefly widening to see you
  • You internally gaped at this boy because he was sO BEAUtiFUL 
  • I won’t describe in detail because this isn’t even part of the story lol
  • Plus yall know what Jeffery looks like anyway 
  • But lets say its the look from when he debuted in nct u that was a lovely time
  • He greeted you and winked a couple of times, introducing himself as Jaehyun and that Doyoung had told him to get you
  • For the rest of the evening, you sat between Doyoung and Jaehyun
  • Jaehyun sitting closer and closer very very slowly
  • And all the member of nct 127 introduced themselves and told you about themselves 
  • You told them about yourself and they said how awesome it was to talk to someone who’d treat them as people and not as an idol
  • And it was all awesome and you basically became best friends with them
  • Literally
  • But anyway
  • Jaehyun got your number that day and wouldn’t stop texting you for ages
  • Well like a week
  • He’d send you texts in the morning and evening, when you were eating, asking you if you were okay, just harassing you
  • It was all very flirty between the pair of you
  • A lot of kisses and hearts and winking faces put on the ends of messages
  • ;)
  • A lot of teasing and arrogance from Jaehyun
  • Then after a week, he just asked you if you wanted to go on a date with him
  • “Want to go on a date tomorrow?”
  • Like right in the middle of a conversation to do with birds or something
  • You agreed because you thought he was gorgeous and funny and interesting
  • Even if he did come across arrogant, you knew he was secretly sweet as hell
  • So he took you out on your first date the day after
  • The stereotypical cinema then restaurant date
  • Picked you up outside your house with roses and he had specially styled his hair for the date
  • He was very smiley and polite and held doors for you and insisted on paying for the ticket and food and stood on the side of the road just in case
  • It was very traditional and gentlemanly of him
  • He walked you back home, his hand reaching for yours and clasping it tightly midway en route
  • You stopped outside your house and he turned his body towards yours
  • Tucked a piece of hair behind your ear, then just let his hand hold your cheek lightly
  • He looked at you smiling and his eyes were literally glowing because he was just thinking about how lucky he was to have someone like you agree to go on date with him
  • When you didn’t move and smiled back, he gave you a light kiss on your lips
  • It wasn’t short like a peck
  • But it wasn’t super long either
  • His lips were soft as if he had been using lush’s lip scrub to get them nice silky lips innit
  • And they were warm and inviting 
  • He didn’t kiss you again that night because he didn’t want to rush things 
  • But when he left you to go back home, he did a little fist punch in the air anD IT WAS ADORABLE
  • (I’ve just realised there’s not much kissing in this…oh well soz)

First Kiss Series:

  • Doyoung
  • WinWin
  • Taeil
  • Johnny
  • Yuta
  • Taeyong
  • Ten
  • Jaehyun
  • Mark
  • Chenle (coming soon!)
  • Haechan (coming soon!)
  • Jeno (coming soon!)
  • Jaemin (coming soon!)
  • Jisung (coming soon!)
  • Renjun (coming soon!)
  • Kun (coming soon!)
  • Hansol (coming soon!)

Please request more members!

I uploaded a scenery drawing a few days ago and since people seemed to like it a lot,I decided to do some new ones since that one was quite old.

I decided to portray three of my favourite acnl towns like I said here!

The first town is Mayorbrewster’s Moss

I’ve always loved how peaceful this town was so I definetely had to draw it. When I asked you guys what kind of scenery you wanted to see…mayorbrewster suggested a forest with a pond so I knew exactly which screenshot I wanted to take inspiration from.

The Oh-Greywarden 1 year follow forever

Well, we’ve had goofs, gaffes, laughs and a lot of tears. Three blogs and a year. It’s been probably one of my favourite roleplaying experiences, and I’ve been roleplaying since 2008. 

I’ve had a lot of interesting roleplays, made a lot of friends and I just put a spotlight on the people who have made this experience pleasant.

The elites - these are the people that I breath for. You guys have either been there since the beginning or have just been there for me through thick and think. I love you guys. Papa bless <3

@nyssatrevelyan @speakerofminerva @the-seeker-cassandra @bitchingatmybetters @evora-eriu-mclaggen @ye-lost-bard @rogue-trevelyan @we-are-occupational-hazards @shift-shaping @tallhornedandmagical @lcthallin

People who I generally enjoy - we might not even be roleplaying or we roleplay scarely but it doesn’t mean I don’t think you are awesome. I love you guys and love everything you do even if we never interact

@atishabanalras @attentatore @ser-pounce-a-mage @reilinwarad @darngoodshot @redlyriuminfused @lady-llewellyn @bellafaire-bellafine @honnleathrose @nonandrastian @rosalietta @xfenharel @qunaristateofblind @hawkelana (and all your muses <3) 

Honorable mention: @officialek and @xohoshi

Here’s a silly little song. One Meme, one god, one love. If there’s someone here you ain’ following: FOLLOW THEM

anonymous asked:

I am sorry to bother you, mod Lily but what are your favourite Hetalia characters?

Oh doll, you’re not bothering me! Honestly I’m rather flattered that someone asked a question specifically for me. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. ❤
Thanks for asking!

 Now my top two favorite Hetalia characters are Russia and America. My personality is a lot like Russia’s. People when they first meet me find me intimidating but once they get to know me they find out I’m just a big fluff ball - with a sharp tongue. ;P

 Plus Russia is so sweet and cute. Tough, but sweet and cute. America makes me laugh so hard, basically everything he’s said is hilarious?? I love guys that can make me laugh. ;P I really like that episode where he was cleaning out his storage closet and had all these memories of England. It showed that there’s more than meets the eye with him, just like Russia.

 Also, America’s dub laugh KILLS me, omg it’s perfect. ❤

 - Mod Lily

Originally posted by hetaliaofficial

i thoroughly enjoy cooking for thanksgiving- especially since becoming vegan. the beautiful array of colours, flavours & textures, & of course it’s completely cruelty-free. well, i’ve gotten a lot of people, whether they’re just becoming vegan, someone who isn’t who’s preparing food for a loved one that is, or even just another fellow vegan looking for a new recipe to try- asking what my favourite go-to side dishes are & i just thought to myself ‘why not just share this recipe so everyone can give it a go?’.

here it is, you guys- my hearty (vegan) baked mac & cheese.

this feel good recipe features a vegetable & nutritional yeast purée that acts as your cheese & hearty elbow pasta. this ‘cheese’ sauce isn’t only creamy, it gets crispy & brown on-top, too. a win / win for both omnivores & vegans. i hope you enjoy this recipe this holiday season!

hearty (vegan) baked mac & cheese

3 idaho potatoes, peeled & chopped,
2 carrots, chopped,
¼ of a sweet or red onion, chopped,
2 large cloves of garlic, peeled,
½ cup of nutritional yeast,
1/3 cup of olive oil,
½ cup of water, or vegetable broth for boiling the vegetable base, (i mix a spoonful of vegetable broth base into the water that i’m using to boil)
¼ cup plant based milk,
1 tablespoon of lime or lemon juice,
½ teaspoon of cayenne pepper powder,
½ teaspoon of turmeric,
salt & pepper to taste
1 box of pasta, (i chose elbows)

take your chopped potatoes, garlic, onion & carrot & add them into your vegetable broth & boil until they’re easily punctured with a fork.

while you wait for the vegetables to become soft, boil the pasta of your choice according to the directions on the packaging.

preheat your oven to 400° fahrenheit.

once they’re soft, in a high speed blender (such as a ninja, blendtec, or vitamix) blend your vegetable mix down with your broth, spices, nutritional yeast, plant based milk, lime juice & olive oil until creamy & smooth (add more milk as needed).

once everything is blended & your pasta is ready, put everything in a mixing bowl & coat all of your pasta with the cheese sauce.

take a baking dish & either rub it with olive oil or coat with aluminium foil & fill it with your mac & cheese & top it with a little bit more cayenne pepper powder, or even some bread crumbs, tempeh bacon or fresh or dried parsley. bake for about 45 minutes or until bubbly & golden brown.

serve & enjoy!

okay I’m so sorry but i really need to tell the world about this!!!!!

So basically, i have the best job ever. I have never loved a job as much as this, and i quite liked my last one. Anyways, so me and my favourite manager closed the store tonight. I’m not sure how, but we started talking about depression and anxiety and things like that. I’m not sure what prompted the conversation, but i ended up opening up to him about EVERYTHING from my past, including my past best friends, and i even came out to him. He’s the sweetest guy literally ever, and he opened up right back to me about a lot of things. He was like “i just want you to know that I am so proud of you. You are honestly one of the best people I know. Thank you for trusting me enough to open up like that. Can I give you a hug?” and we hugged and i said the same to him and he even let me leave the store on shift to get food so i bought him a cookie. And we just got so deep and so personal about everything and I am just so happy!!!!!!

Snowbaz texting AU II

HI GUYS!! Wow the response from my texting one shot was so positive and a heap of people wanted me to continue this (I wasn’t going to but since I got asked so nicely), so here’s part 2! I don’t know how many of these are going to be done/when they’re going to be done, time will tell i suppose. Sorry if it’s not great, I just finished exams yesterday and it really wasn’t fun lmao. 

SIDENOTE: none of these are going to follow a certain story or anything, they’re going to be random. thx dudes

(part one) (part three)


me: what’s your favourite colour?

me: favourite animal?

me: what do you like to do in your spare time?

puff: it’s literally 2am what are you doing?

me: well I’ve been thinking about you and who you are an what you like

me: that sounded less weird in my head im sorry

me: also are you a boy or a girl? or like nothing? my friend Agatha says it’s perfectly normal to not have a gender

me: puff?

puff: did you not read my text when i said it’s literally 2am

puff: some people have to sleep

me: actually it’s 2:10 now

puff: go to sleep.


puff: im a boy and i completely agree with your friend Agatha. not having a gender is okay

puff: favourite animal is bat

puff: and my favourite colour is green

me: good morning puff


hey guys, I’ve gotten a couple of hamilcast requests, and, while I LOVE the works that a lot of great writers do with the them (@daveeddiggsit and @teamgtnw are two of my favourite hamilcast writers) writing about real people just isn’t my jam…

I mean no offense to anyone, and for you anons who requested hamilcast, please, I’d love to write a fic for you if you would want a character ship!

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Tagging: @royal-botanist​ | @of-invisible-ties​ | @mienakyohaku​ | @gentlexbloom​ | @balefuldragon​ | @bornxsteward​ | @armsthriift​ | @hoshidanroyal​ | @wildcardkinshi​ | @arthur-for-justice​ | & anyone else who wants to??

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Hey guys! I was recently asked to do a bellarke fic rec, and with Fanfiction Writers Appreciation Day just around the corner (21st of August; go appreciate fanfic writers y’all!), I thought it was a good time to find my favourites. 

I’m posting under the cut, because it got a bit long and I didn’t want to make your dashes annoying. I’ve tagged the writers whose tumblrs I know, and used some people’s names like I know them even if I don’t – let me know if you want me to remove any of that (or add a tumblr I don’t know). I’m giving little review/summaries and mostly just being amazed at all the awesome fics we have in this fandom.

So, anyway – Happy Fanfiction Writers Appreciation Day!! This is me letting you know I appreciate you all a lot. Read these fics!!!! They’re great, and I encourage everyone to send writers (all that you like, not just these ones) love and kudos and comments to let them know you like their stuff.

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kaworubunga  asked:

idk if you've seen it already but inglorious bastards(by tarantino) is my favourite movie and there's cool dudes fucking up nazis so you might like that

that movie was really good and i liked it a lot, i wish donny donowitz got to hit more people with bats though although i loved when he punched that guy with the shotgun fist those things are cool

Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… And most importantly, have fun!

Tagged by @cosmogonalley! Thanks, Andy! wait can i call you andy is that okay or

a - age: 15

b - biggest fear: Snakes, probably 

c - current time: 4:48 PM

d - drink you last had: Water  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

e - every day starts with: groaning and lots of it 

f - favourite song:  Uhhh does the entirety of Set If Off’s Duality album count??? If not then either Bad Guy or Miss Mysterious, both by Set It Off

g - ghosts, are they real: duh

h - hometown: Somewhere on the east coast of Canada, that’s all I’m comfortable saying

i - in love with: ????? Futakuchi Kenji????????

j - jealous of: People who don’t have a back condition and don’t have to deal with constant back pain : ))))))) i’m not bitter at all what are you talking about also tall people 

k - killed someone: Nah

l - last time you cried: Probably not that long ago tbh

m - middle name: Reid 

n - number of siblings: I have a singular older sister 

o - one wish: To wake up one day without anxiety and depression lmao

p - person you last called/texted: My mom

q - questions you’re always asked: why I always look pissed, why am I always sad, why am I always angry, 

r - reasons to smile: food. also rlly good fanfics 

s - song last sung: I may or may not have belted out Forever Stuck In Our Youth by Set It Off while I was home alone earlier today……..

t - time you woke up: 7:15 on the dot

u - underwear colour: currently, red

v - vacation destination: like dream vacation? Japan! 

w - worst habit: I grind my teeth a lot :c

x - x-rays you’ve had: ALL OF THEM I’ve had a lot on my back because the aforementioned back condition, and I think at least one on my teeth/jaw?? 

y - your favourite food: SOUR CREAM & ONION PRINGLES HOLY SHIT

z - zodiac sign: Capricorn! 

I tag: @lillitheamazingotaku3393 @randomotakurice @koginae-syu @nyoom-noya @mybrokenrecords and probably others that I’m forgetting rn 

Killing Me {BonKai FanFic}

OK the only preamble I will put to this fic is that I am REALLY, REALLY excited for you all to read it and that it’s something I’ve been building to for a while (I’m not sure if you’ve guys noticed) and that it’s if not my favourite BonKai fic that I’ve written then definitely my second; it was a lot, A LOT of fun to write. And it’s super angsty and I know you guys love that fun stuff. People to tag: bonkais-witchywoo bonkai-diaries wasabicakes l0nd0ninnit much-lemons misslilmel kissmebluesexyvioletsme darkbonkai beccacupcakesxo malachaibennett bonkaimonluv bonkaiforever bonkaiqueen writeturnlove bonkai-is-life queensfelicity puellaigmotum mysticfalls-originals

(gif not mine)

It was a sensation he would never get used to — the agony that consumed his entire body whenever Bonnie was away from him for more than a few hours, for more than a few minutes; it was almost as, if not just as, intense as the lustful need that suffocated him every second he was near her. He hadn’t seen her in eleven days — eight days more than the last time she disappeared without warning; her wilful absences were unsurprising and at this point, Kai could almost predict when Bonnie would withdraw from his life. Yet that did nothing to ease his agitation, to stop his brain from torturing him with memories of the feel of her, the feel of him inside her and the thrill that prickled his spine, his groin, whenever his movements compelled her to groan his name, husky and insistent, a plea in his ear. He was crazed with thoughts of her, with an urgent desire to see her face, to see her smile reluctantly at one of his jokes and the little flutter of joy that leapt in his chest at the image of Bonnie smiling because of something he said terrorized him; angered him. She had a hold on him, on his sanity, and he wanted it all back, he wanted to belong to himself again except that would mean a world without Bonnie Bennett and a world without Bonnie … even the thought of it sent Kai into enraged despair, which only infuriated him further because how dare he feel? How dare he care? But he did. It was inescapable; she was in him now — in his mind, in his blood.

It was why he could never stay away from her long.

He was starved of her presence and her abandonment had already set him down a volatile path as he’d fed and devoured in search of satiation and oblivion, in the hopes of a cure, however temporary, for his yearning of her. Like always he found neither. And like always he cursed Bonnie for depriving him of her and he set fire to everything and everyone around him in aggrieved frustration, relishing the relief it brought him to vent, but a relief that left as suddenly as it came. So now, like always, he was on his way to see her.

It didn’t take long for him to reach her dorm; the sight of the brown building, the edges of the roof seemingly touching the night sky, sent him into a frenzy of anticipation that was excruciating to bear — his skin burned as if on fire and his throat was dry; it hurt simply to swallow. He had barely made it inside, his foot on the first step up toward her floor when he heard her voice reverberate in his ear.

“Elena isn’t here.”

“Of course not. No, she’s probably with Stefan.”

That voice. Kai gritted his teeth. His hands intuitively balled into fists. He could feel it; feel how his breathing increased, feel how his gums itched, wanting his fangs to descend. His eyes were wide with concentration and he listened to the creak of a floorboard sinking beneath the weight of a footstep.

“You know what, just tell me why,” said Damon’s voice. “Why Kai? After everything’s he done…”

“You cannot be serious. You’re judging me? With your track record, you’re judging me?”

“I’m not judging you!” His tone was imploring. “I just want to know why, Bonnie.”

“Damon…” Bonnie sighed. “Why do you care so much?”

A pause. Kai’s head snapped upward to the ceiling, to where Bonnie’s dorm was situated. An image appeared unbidden before his eyes. “No,” he whispered. Quiet as a shadow, Kai sped up the stairs to the doorway of Bonnie’s room and he saw it as it happened — Damon grabbing the sides of Bonnie’s head and thrusting his lips onto hers; the image in Kai’s mind realized in present time.

It was instantaneous; the violence that overcame him. It was a violence he’d only ever experienced at seeing Damon and Bonnie together but he’d never felt it with such brutality, like he was physically coming apart with rage. The fury was primal, instinctual and Kai felt the magic he had in him roil and excite his blood, making the lights in the entire building flicker, causing the bulbs in the dorm to shatter and burst. His eyes had blackened to a sinister scarlet; dark veins splintered his face and his fangs had fully descended.

Kai couldn’t say anything, he only growled and then rushed toward Damon and Bonnie, grabbing Damon by the shirt and throwing him bodily across the room so that he hit a wall, cracking the plaster. It was only a matter of seconds before Damon was on his feet but even so he was too slow; Kai was in front of him. He grabbed Damon by the throat, holding him in place and punched him repeatedly, rapidly, fighting like a man possessed; his knuckles cracking Damon’s teeth. Kai could hear Bonnie in the background yelling at him to stop, powerless to pull the two of them apart without her magic.

“Kai, that’s enough!”

He didn’t listen. He couldn’t listen. She didn’t understand that seeing another man kiss her had shifted something within him. Kai punched Damon again, his fist spattered with his blood. It didn’t matter that Damon would heal as repeatedly as Kai hit him; it didn’t matter that Kai had magic, which would make the entire process easier; he didn’t want easy, he wanted Damon to break beneath the power of his bare hands and he wanted Damon to break over and over and over again. Kai’s grip on Damon’s throat tightened and he lifted him up and then smashed Damon onto the floor, making him cry out in pain. He dug his fingers into the sides of Damon’s neck and slowly pierced his nails further and further into Damon’s skin, causing him to shriek.

“Kai, stop it!” said Bonnie.

Damon grabbed Kai’s wrist and pulled in an effort to force Kai to let go but Kai used his other hand to pry Damon’s fingers off, pressing his nails harder into Damon’s throat. The image sprung into Kai’s mind — Damon’s hands on Bonnie’s face, Damon’s lips on Bonnie’s lips. His face contorted with distress and he burrowed his nails in deeper, seeing red lines appear around Damon’s neck. The same image flashed before Kai’s eyes again. And again. He shook his head frantically in an effort to wipe his memory of what he saw but the images just came back. It just wouldn’t stop. Kai increased the pressure of his hold on Damon; he’d decapitate him with his own hand and he’d do it slowly.

The pain was unexpected. Sharp and piercing and in his lower back. Kai blinked in surprise until he realized he’d been stabbed. He’d been staked. He turned toward Bonnie who stood holding the other end of a broom, her eyes teary but defiant. A gust of wind told him that Damon had gotten to his feet for a second time.

Bonnie’s voice rang out. “Do not touch him!”

“Don’t — don’t touch — are you? He just tried to kill me, Bonnie.”

“Everyone tries to kill you, Damon, it’s like a rite of passage,” snapped Bonnie.


“Don’t. Touch him.”

Kai heard Damon scoff. “Both of you can go to hell.” And then with another gust of wind, he’d left the room.  


Bonnie watched as Kai pulled the broomstick out of his back. He winced with effort and pain with every tug. The moment the bloodied makeshift stake was out and on the floor, he turned swiftly toward Bonnie, his eyes and face still red and veined, his fangs like daggers. He glowered at her, a menacing growl rumbling in his chest, his hands shaking, his shoulders heaving with his laborious breathing. Bonnie held his gaze, her body as still as it could be. After a while, he closed his eyes and then let out a yell that cracked the windows. The sound ripped through Bonnie and for the first time since she’d been with Kai, she felt afraid.

But for him.   

She’d never heard anything so anguished and the sheer torment was terrifying to listen to. Quickly, her fear transitioned into anger at him for scaring her, anger at herself for being scared at all, and she threw the broomstick to the side.

“You were going to kill him and I couldn’t let that happen,” she said. “I don’t care if you’re angry.”

Kai’s eyes snapped open; they’d returned to their normal brown. His entire face had reverted back to its regular appearance. “Angry?” He repeated, his voice low. “Angry?” He was shouting now. “Bonnie, if you were anyone else you’d be dead. That stake, the one you stabbed me with, would be lodged in your chest or I’d break your neck or just squeeze the life out of you and you know that that’s true, but you aren’t anyone else! And no matter how much I want to kill you right now, I want to be with you more and it’s tearing me apart! I wish I could kill you just to make these feelings stop but I can’t. I never could, not even in the nineties. And then seeing you with someone else just…” He cradled his head in his hands. “You’re driving me crazy. I can’t take this anymore.”

“Oh join the freaking club, Kai.”

“No.” He took an abrupt step forward so that he was only a breath away from Bonnie; she had to raise her head to meet his gaze. “Don’t do that. You have no idea what this is like. I’m in love with you.” He said it harshly and it made Bonnie’s eyes narrow; only Kai could say those five words like they were a curse. “I’m in love with you to the point that I can’t function, it’s physical, Bonnie. Every time you leave I feel like I’m desiccating, like my nerves are shot and my entire body just screams for release, to be near you. And when you’re here, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe until your body is next to me and even then I’m going out of my mind because I can never lose myself in you completely. It’s fucking unbearable! And then I see you with him!”

“He kissed me!”

“You didn’t seem to mind.”

“How the hell would you know? You were trying to kill him before I could even do anything myself. God, what is it with you and him?”

“Because I watched it all! I watched you two fight. I watched you leave him only to come back. Every. Single. Time. The thought of me killing him was what triggered your magic. Your history with him isn’t that much different than my history with you.”

“It is different. Me and you aren’t the same thing as —”

“As what? You and him? I hate that there’s a you and him at all!”

“That’s too damn bad, Kai! You don’t have the right to —”

“Well, what do I have the right to, Bonnie?”

She paused and stared at him for a long time before speaking. “You ass,” she said, her voice quiet with fury. “What do you have the right—” She cut herself off and pressed her lips together, shaking her head. “I could’ve killed you tonight. I could’ve staked you through the heart, it was the perfect opportunity and I couldn’t do it. Even after everything you’ve done to me, stabbing me, stalking me, siphoning from me, abandoning me, even after all of that I couldn’t kill you, I couldn’t let Damon kill you. What more do you want from me?” She pushed Kai hard against the chest so that he stumbled backward. “What do you want from me? What, you want to walk around holding hands, go to the movies —”

“Don’t be ridiculous!”

Bonnie screamed. “Then what the hell do you want? You want to ‘lose yourself’ in me, is that it?”


Bonnie saw Kai’s eyes begin to cloud at the suggestion. She stormed up to him, resolute.

“No, that’s what you want.” She put her hands to her collar and tugged so that the shirt ripped apart, the material falling away from her bare back. “Go nuts, Kai!”

“Bonnie, stop.”

His voice was cracking, there was a primal quality to it and Bonnie reached over to Elena’s desk, picking up the same scissors she’d used in a demonstration only eleven days earlier, and dragged the edges across her neck so that blood oozed from her skin in a scarlet line. Kai’s face was veined now, his mouth was curled so that his fangs showed, his eyes were dark red and raw. Bonnie walked even closer to him.

“Do it!”

And he snapped forward, sinking his fangs into Bonnie’s self-inflicted wound. She could feel him harden against her the moment his tongue tasted her blood, the second his hands clung to her back. Bonnie dragged her nails down the nape of Kai’s neck, trying to release herself of some of the excess; it seemed like she was going to be absolutely shredded by the pleasure — her entire body was sensitized. It felt like she was being destroyed and she thought recklessly that she wanted to be destroyed if this was what it felt like. There was something different about this bite; something desperate and savage and she could feel Kai gorging, feel his frantic gluttony for her blood, hear him moan with arousal and satiation and it sparked a panicked desire deep in her gut. He pulled away from her neck, his fangs still grazing her skin and Bonnie thought he’d had his fill but then she heard him grunt and he sunk back into her with such enthusiasm that she cried out.

Without pulling away from her cut, Kai put his hands beneath Bonnie’s butt and lifted her onto him, her legs wrapped around his waist, and he walked across the room. The instant he slammed her down on the bed, the fireplace roared to life and the cracked window burst completely apart. Kai rocked into her as he drank, pinning one of her hands above her head, holding her down by the wrist; wind blew strong and heavy through the glassless window and started agitating the fire so that Bonnie could see its dancing shadows on the ceiling. Her vision was beginning to blur and she felt herself falling away, falling away into the gratification and into nothingness … the nothingness was familiar, she’d been there before, many times before, it was trying to claim her, welcoming her back … Kai shifted his weight, pushing into her groin even harder, making Bonnie moan, making her eyes flutter, and his fangs dug harder into her neck, his tongue greedily lapping her blood. Bonnie felt faint and every inch of her skin tingled, her free hand began to slacken from Kai’s neck and she felt herself descending into that nothingness; it felt good not like the other times — it blurred in with the pleasure of Kai’s bite, of Kai’s body on hers. Bonnie’s eyes closed and she felt herself go limp and then she felt light like a weight had been lifted from her and before she fell away completely, she heard Kai swear.

Breath! Heartbeat! Bonnie gasped as she felt her lungs fill with air, she took deep gulps as if she were getting used to the sensation of breathing. Her body felt more real somehow, like she was sturdy, like she wouldn’t slip away. Magic. This had to be magic. Suddenly, she was being dragged up and she was face to face with Kai, his expression panicked and furious. Beyond furious.

“What the hell are you trying to do to me?” He shook her violently. “I almost killed you! Godammit, Bonnie!”

He moved away from her and started pacing at the foot of the bed, picking up Elena’s desk and throwing it against the wall. “You can’t kill me but you sure as hell want me to suffer!” He put his hands at the back of his head and clenched his hair, breathing heavily. He looked at her. “If you had died…” He squeezed his eyes shut, turned away from Bonnie and yelled, a strangled sound, kicking a chair to the side so that it broke apart.

“It was what you wanted,” said Bonnie.

He whirled around to her, his voice so loud, his words were almost indiscernible. “You dead is not what I want! It’s what you want for me! What I want is—”

“What?” said Bonnie, shouting back. “What do you want, Kai? You want this to be easy because it never will be! How many times have you told me that?”

“I don’t want it to be easy, I just want you! All of you!”

Silence followed his words; it was as if they echoed throughout the dorm, a phantom of his actual utterance. Bonnie and Kai stared at each other for a long time until Kai lowered his eyes and started to walk toward the door. Bonnie got up from the bed. “Do not walk away from me!”

He turned back toward her. “After all of the times you’ve walked away from me? No, I’m leaving.”


“Say it and I’ll stay.”

Bonnie looked at him and said nothing. Kai laughed humourlessly. “I hate how much I need to hear you say it. I hate that you won’t for once just say what you know you fucking feel! I hate that I can’t just drain you dry and forget you.”

He ran his fingers through his hair. “I can’t. I can’t be here anymore. Looking at you is killing me, Bonnie. I just… No.” And with a whisper of speed he was gone.

Bonnie looked at the empty doorway for a long time before sighing, her eyes shining. “You idiot,” she whispered so softly that it was almost like she wasn’t saying anything at all. “After all this … how the hell could you think you don’t have me?” And she let a single tear slide down her cheek for the words she’d allowed herself to speak.

Fanfiction Tips

Any aspiring fanfic writers out there? I just want to tell you guys a few things.

Don’t write for anyone but yourself. Sure, you can take requests, but only write about what you want to write about. Don’t try to be something your not.

Even if no one reads what you write, don’t stop. If it’s something that you really enjoy. It’s not about how many notes you get, or how many messages. It’s about writing what you love.

If you’re writing about a particular character, try to learn as much about them as you can. For instance, I know a lot about Eobard Thawne. He’s always been one of my favourite super villains and I know a few random facts. For instance, he changes the time line as much as, if not more than, Barry Allen. Seriously. It’s crazy.

If you’re writing about a real person, make sure your conscientious about them. They are real people, and we should be respectful of them.

Again, be yourself. If you want to write a 70 chapter long OC fic with the trashiest character in existance, then do it. If you’d prefer to write one shots, do that. As long as it makes you happy

Know the lines you shouldn’t cross as well. There are several touchy subjects you should avoid and some you shouldn’t even consider. Whatever you decide, make sure that it’s something you love.

I’m sorry if this sounds presumptuous or arrogant, but I just wanted to put out some tips if anyone wanted them.

Do you know what I love about the Shadowhunters fandom? It’s that those of us who really love the show are so respectful of each other and our ships. And it’s not even just that, it’s like though we may have our core ships, we’re all so open to the idea of all our characters dating different people. Yes Malec, Sizzy and Clace will be my favourites but Clizzy? Absolutely. Give me a bad ass female couple. Saphael? Hell YES!

I dunno, I just have a lot of love for you guys.

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