but yes i really do say like a lot in my conversations when talking to people in rl

anonymous asked:

CAN I JUST SAY THAT I SPENT THREE HOURS GOING THROUGH YOUR ASKS AND ART AND YOU SEEM LIKE THE NICEST PERSON EVER and then i met this one person in rl and she was following you and we bonded and it was very nice ily and your art so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhh

This is honestly surreal for me oh my g o d - I’m glad I could??? help you make a new friend??? Holy shit I don’t know how to answer this uHHHHH!!!!!!!! thank you??? yes, tHANK YOU!!!! that’s definitely the most important part, I’m super happy you like my stuff!!!! <3<3<3

Anon said: i would like to say that I really really love your art and it inspires me so sooo much and yeah, thanks for sharing your art with the world

Gosh!!!!! Thank you!!!!!! And I don’t kind what kind of inspired you mean but whichever it is I’m happy I can make you feel like that!!! Oh boy!!!!!

Anon said: Is it okay to use your art as a phone background? I’m asking bc i saw your no reposting post and I was wondering if using it for phone bgs etc is allowed?

Sure!! As long as it’s for private use I don’t mind at all!!!!

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My ADHD is not about distraction! (A resource post)

My ADHD is not about “being easily distracted”; my ADHD is about the many, intense, visceral, and competing claims things make on my attention

A lot of people talk about ADHD only in terms of “distractibility” or “not being able to pay attention/maintain focus”. While this is superficially a central component of the disorder, discussion of ADHD in these terms defines it negatively against what non-ADHD or otherwise neurotypical individuals are able to do (and therefore expect ADHD individuals adapt themselves to) and obscures a conversation about what exactly it is like to have ADHD and what it means for ADHD individuals to give their attention to things in the first place.

People with ADHD navigate amidst competing claims–of various intensity–for their attention

As an individual living with ADHD, my world is a chorus of competing claims for my attention. Each thing is more or less important and more or less compelling in its claim to my attention, and the importance of the thing and the intensity of its claim often do not align! My attention is special–I cannot give it to more than one thing at a time, and while I’m focused on that one thing, it is hard for me to maintain mindfulness of other things. This is why I struggle with things like short-term memory, losing things, multitasking, and the like. If I’m not focusing on or thinking about something, it can often disappear from my radar. Why? Because it is drowned out by the dozens of other things signalling to my attention at any given moment.

My attention as an individual with ADHD is engrossing and compelling. The things in my world often have an authoritative claim over my attention, one that is difficult to shake. I often have to explain to people who I attend certain restaurants or go to sports bars with why I have to sit with my back to the big-screen TV. If the TV is on and I can see it, regardless if I’m interested in the program (which I’m usually not), I HAVE to watch it, often at the expense of my ability to converse with my friends. Despite my greater interest in the conversation, the TV, with it’s moving and flashing images and its text on screen, simply has a greater claim to my attention than social interaction.

Continuity and gaps in attention

Continuity is often important for anyone to understand something. This is especially (and perhaps conunterintuitively) true for people with ADHD, albeit in a somewhat unique way. We need continuity in things we are trying to process so that when we miss something due to a “gap”, we can retroactively piece back together what we’ve missed. “Gaps” arise when multiple things are competing for my attention. When I invest my attention in one thing, it is often mutually exclusive of being able to retain information from other sources. So when I am pulled from a conversation to give attention to something else (often without realizing it), and then go to return to that conversation, not only do I not know what I’ve missed, but I am also thrown off as to the general course of the conversation itself. If the person is still on the same subject, often I can get my bearings again. A lot of communicating for me involves a lot of zoning out and then nodding and giving encouraging smiles just to keep the person talking so I can remember what we’re actually talking about! Sorry friends, it’s nothing personal!

This is why things like review, summary, and repetition are so important for kids with ADHD to learn: they help to establish continuity. They can also be useful in conversation and relationships, which I will get to in the last section. Additionally, this also gives rise to the paradox that while many individuals with ADHD have wandering and aimless speech patterns, with lots of jumps and non-sequitors, it is often difficult for us to follow conversations that similarly lack structure, focus, and a central topic! We often need some kind of external structure to make up for the difficulty we have in structuring our own trains of thought. (Interestingly enough, I have never seen two individuals with ADHD struggle to communicate/understand each other. Perhaps it is because when we meet someone else with ADHD we simply abandon all hope for structure and give in to the play and transience of each other’s brains).

ADHD and social interaction/verbal communication

This is why ADHD can be understood as (in part) a social learning disorder: on the hierarchy of claims to my attention, socializing and verbal communication can be pretty low. Compared to the visual stimulation around me, the sounds and the smells, the item(s) in my hand, the restlessness of my own body (which intersects with another disability of mine, RLS), and even my own train of thought, the words coming out of someone’s mouth often get missed in the barrage of things shouting “look at me! play with me! think about me!”***

(Yes, even thoughts are “things” with claim my attention. To use some more technical language, attention is a “meta-cognition” or a factor of how one thinks rather than “cognition,” or the thoughts themselves. Cognition and sensation (seeing, hearing, touching, smelling, etc.) both make claims to my attention, and often compete with one another)

These factors make verbal communication, learning, and memory quite difficult for me. They also make reading large volumes of text difficult, which intersects with my dyslexia, a disorder that many individuals with ADHD also have. But what I think is most often ignored (because ADHD is seen as a “problem” for kids in school, and not something that affects people’s lives in general) is how this affects relationships.

ADHD, attention, and relationships

What people who don’t have ADHD often struggle to understand is why I can’t just be focusing on or talking to them at a time. Explaining how all this works has been absolutely central to maintaining healthy relationships and good communication for me; not doing so can be stressful, anxiety-causing, and often disastrous.

Focusing isn’t impossible for me, and often I can do it for even hours at a time if I really want to! But it is exhausting. To focus on something, I have to continually drown out all the other things trying to get my attention, and the longer I do it the more intense they get. Often, after a while of focusing on one thing, I simply check-out. My mind is fried, my attention centers are burnt-out, not only from maintaining focus, but from ignoring everything else! I need to let something else in, because maintaining those barriers for such a long period is too hard.

I used to host Shabbat/Friday evening dinners with friends in my old apartment, which were usually followed by hours of sitting around and talking. Frequently, after around the second hour, I would be forced to say, “alright guys, I love you dearly, but can we play a board game or something?” Not that I didn’t want to keep the conversation going–on the contrary! But I needed something else to do to relieve my brain from the mental labor of continually focusing and refocusing on a single conversation.

Another example is how difficult it is to deal with two competing and equally compelling claims to my attention at once, and how stressful this can be. Frequently while watching movies with others, they will want to turn and talk to me about something. If that thing takes longer than a sentence or two to say, I often have to apologize and pause whatever we’re watching. It is not only the fact that I might miss something that the person is saying, due to the flashing images and sound which are grabbing my attention. It’s also the stress and anxiety that happens when I have to try and balance paying attention to two things that are important to me. Sometimes I can get away with it if I don’t care about the movie. However, when they both claim my attention in that visceral, compelling way I’ve been describing all along, it’s like being pulled in two directions at once. This tug-o-war can cause stress and even panic, to the point when I have to put on the breaks immediately on one or both of the tasks.

Relationships continued: Difficulties and coping mechanisms

A major issue that arises in relationships for me is in when I’m spending a lot of time with one person or one group of people. Giving that much attention to people requires a LOT of energy. Especially if the time spent with them involves the kind of uni-directional focus I described above. Spending time with individuals, partners, friends, etc. one-on-one can be an especially difficult challenge. Especially when such individuals are not educated about what individuals with ADHD are faced with. I have been accused of not caring or not caring enough, of not having my priorities in order, of failing to be present, of ignoring people or tuning them out, of not wanting to spend time with them, of being a poor listener, and countless other things. All of these things can be hurtful and damaging in interpersonal relationships.

Below is a list of ways I have found to cope with these difficulties that are positive and affirming (rather than pejorative or pathologizing) of people with ADHD’s experiences:

  • Listening skills: A lot of what has been written about listening for ADHD individuals is directed at parents or teachers of kids with ADHD for education purposes (and a quick google search shows this), rather than by ADHD individuals trying to find ways to build healthy relationships and communication. Often, for important conversations, the best way to focus is simply to remove things which might make a strong claim to my attention (turning off the TV, putting the cellphone away, closing the computer, etc.). Most listening skills guides don’t say much more than this other than things like “making eye contact” (and other skills which are important listening skills regardless, but may be more difficult for neurodiverse individuals, especially with ADHD and autism/ASD). Listening and being present for communication is difficult for people with ADHD, period! However, there is one thing I have discovered which can be therapeutic for the stress involved in maintaining longer conversations: neutral attention stimulants. These are things that allow my attention to be relaxed without creating a competing claim for my focus. Unlike things like TV, neutral attention stimulants do not “grab” my attention in that visceral way; rather, they can passively be engaged with in a way that is relaxing on the stress of constantly having to focus on one thing. Usually, for me, this involves giving myself something to do with my hands. Playing with a Rubik’s cube, shuffling a deck of cards, aimlessly doodling on a piece of paper (contrary to my teacher’s beliefs, doodling was always an important note-taking strategy for me in school), knitting, or other fiddling/mechanical activities are perfect examples of neutral attention stimulants.**** The reason they are helpful is that when I get too overwhelmed by constantly looking at, engaging with, and listening to someone, I can simply look down at whatever I’m fiddling with to relieve that stress; however, the activity itself is so mechanical that I am able to return to the conversation easily without having too serious a “gap” like I discussed above. Passive activity is a helpful way to compliment such active and taxing interactions.
  • Review important details of conversations after you have them. This is a strategy I often employ in relationships when we are talking about boundaries or things we need to work on together, but it can be used to help to remember the details of any important conversation. Basically, once you’ve wrapped up the conversation, you and your partner, friend, loved one, say to each other, “Okay, so what are we going to take away from this?” These “take away” points are the major details you’ve covered, and helps not only to refresh your memory as to where the conversation has gone and any gaps that have arisen, but are also important and helpful for retention. They help you to feel committed and resolved to the conclusions of any negotiation, and help to give the conversation a sense of closure.
  • Adapt the activity rather than yourself: I can’t change the fact that I have ADHD (nope, not even with medication). However, I can change the structure of activities I engage with among others. If I’m with a group of friends, I can suggest doing something together that will be engaging and stimulating for me as well as them. Doing an activity or playing a game that involves me with them is a great way to give them my attention without requiring large amounts of mental labor. I can be present with them by doing things with them. One example of this is…
  • Parallel play:This concept is one I learned by working one-on-one with children with Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) for summers during high school and college. It is one of the many ways I think that the ADHD and ASD communities can learn from and enrich each other’s experiences. I have read and started many conversations in the past about how ADHD and ASD individuals can be considered “neuro-cousins” in that there is significant overlap in our experiences. Without ignoring important differences, I think it is a useful way to connect and build relationships with other neurodiverse individuals to have these kinds of conversations. Parallel play is a concept invented (as far as I know) in the Autism community, and refers to a way of spending time with others without engaging with them directly. A friend of mine calls it “playing with trucks,” referring to the way that children often play with toys next to each other in a way that is mutually enriching but which doesn’t actually involve a common structure or game. My partner Rel and I would often engage in parallel play, with her reading and me playing video games (or vice-versa), or us both on our computers, or me playing guitar and she cooking dinner. This is such a therapeutic thing for me because it allows me to be social and engage with others in a way that is non-stressful for me, unlike most social interactions which are structured around neurotypical people’s preferences and needs. The idea is that you spend time with others, but you are each doing your own separate thing. From time to time you can often address each other, such as reading a quote aloud from what you’re reading, or showing the other person something you did or accomplished, or sharing something you found funny on the internet. But these kinds of attention claims are nonstressful because they are embedded in a context in which I am free to direct my attention wherever I want, without feeling an obligation to constantly focus on someone else.
  • Draw boundaries: Sometimes, being social is just too much. For me, I need to always have the ability to draw boundaries and state when I just need to step away from things. Whether it involves  needing alone time or simply to put a conversation on hold with promises to return to it later, communicating these boundaries is important for me to not get pushed over my limits in relationships (because that’s when bad things happen and people get hurt). One way I’ve recently discovered is that there are times when I am actually close to non-verbal. This is another concept I learned from individuals with autism, and I do not want to claim that I am ever non-verbal in the way that individuals with ASD are. Our experiences are analogous at best. However, as this post articulates so well, there are many different ways for people to be non-verbal or to have a complicated relationship to speech. It was actually after reading that post that I realized that speech can sometimes be incredibly exhausting, even painful for me. Several times since, when I found myself getting upset for no clear discernible reason, often while talking with a partner, upon reflection I discovered that it was because I was talking and didn’t want to be. I have since established boundaries in my relationships where when I say “I’m feeling non-verbal right now” means “I don’t particularly want to talk; conversation is difficult for me right now; if you continue to talk to me or ask me questions it will upset me.” Establishing this and other boundaries in social interactions (as well as associating with people who understand and will respect such boundaries) has been a central part to creating healthy relationships for me.

These are some of the ways I have found for coping with relationships and ADHD. Notice that throughout this post, I have shifted the focus away from a negative one of “distraction” towards a positive discussion of how attention for individuals with ADHD works. It is my hope that this post and posts like it will help to combat the kind of ignorance that leads people to say things like, “Oh, I’m sorry I’m so distracted, I’m SO a-d-d today.” ADHD for me is less about distraction and more about attention, and I think if conversations were to focus on this aspect of ADHD, they would be more productive and helpful for those of us who struggle with it.

Feel free to reblog this post with your own comments, questions, commentary or experiences. And also feel free to signal boost this post as a resource for other people with ADHD and their loved ones!

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***I am obviously using this auditory language metaphorically, and I want to be clear that when I say something is “calling out” I do not mean that there is any literal action it does in order to “grab” or “signal” or “call” my attention. These auditory/tactile/visual metaphors are all just a way to communicate about my experiences with ADHD, and not an ableist exclusion of the experiences of deaf, blind, or otherwise disabled individuals with ADHD who might not choose this same metaphorical language to describe their experiences.

****What are some other passive activities that might be useful for individuals with coordination, mechanical, or movement disorders? I am afraid I am not sure what would be helpful here for people who aren’t able-bodied or dextrous in the way I am, so feel free to reblog with comments or suggestions and I’ll be happy to add them!

the human-shaped emptiness inside

excerpt: they have the coming out conversation over skype, four months in. phil says, i just wanna show you off, and dan says, you can. they talk about work experience, after, and kind of forget.

note: my coming out headcanon - or, to be more accurate, the lack thereof -  put into 1.5k words. there are a hundred versions of their potential coming out and none of them fits inside my head. there is a reason for this. 

also: please excuse the lowercase. i have a capitalized version sitting around waiting for someone to complain, but i have been informed this fits the style better. suspend belief. also read on ao3.


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1. they have the coming out conversation over skype, four months in. phil says, i just wanna show you off, and dan says, you can. they talk about work experience, after, and kind of forget.

2. dan doesn’t tell his mum but does tell phil’s, standing barefoot in her kitchen making two cups of tea. she asks while rummaging through drawers and he tells her with shaking fingers against porcelain mugs, finds that it’s not that big of a deal. he doesn’t tell his own mum, but he thinks she already knows.

3. in the supermarket phil buys too much food for only one person and an elderly woman in aisle three asks. he says, my boyfriend’s visiting, and pretends it’s not for the first time.

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anonymous asked:

Do you have any stories that don't erase Steves illnesses/disabilities, either AU or 40's era it doesn't matter to me, just some fic's that don't ignore Steves own struggles. Thanks!

It’s a really common problem in this fandom to either erase Steves illnesses and disabilities or get them completely wrong when they are included in a fic. As someone who has asthma and a lot of eating restrictions sometimes I’m reading a fic and I just can’t even deal with how dead wrong the author is about what I have and I have to just bury my head in my hands and groan. I’m assuming it must be just as bad for every single other condition Steve has. 

I spent a while trying to round up the fics I’ve read that stood out as being accurate or having a lot of his canonical conditions included or at least mentioned.

Adoring 

“You don’t, Buck, adoring’s for saints. I ain’t a saint.”

“Sure you are.” Bucky got back to kissing his way down, licking along the slightly sweaty line of Steve’s sharp collarbone, and then remembered he’d been in the middle of saying something. “Patron saint of Barnes. Barneses. Me.”

(mentions Steves scoliosis, asthma and anemia etc. its pwp so they dont get too into it but its there)

The Dud 

When he was eight or nine, Bucky Barnes was the secret sworn enemy of the dud newsie.

(not actually stucky, could be read as pre slash I suppose. real good though, I have such a boner for period detail it just makes me real happy. plusyou know dealing with his illness and all)

Four Dollar Memory

The tale of the volunteer rat-catcher and Brooklyn’s very own four dollar kid.

(just yes. doesn’t spend a lot of time explicitly detailing steves illnesses but you can feel their presence throughout)

The Fourth Wall Isn’t A Real Wall At All  (WIP)

Steve Rogers is a fanartist with an unhealthy lack of self-worth, who copes with his ME by burying himself in fandom. James Barnes is a fanficcer who has no idea what he’s doing with his life. Both obsessed with Captain America fandom, Steve claims Bucky’s big bang story to illustrate, and just like their fictional counterparts, they fall in love. But not before they have a lot of dumb IM conversations, some awkward phonesex, and piss off most of their RL friends. At least they’ll get a happy ending.

First Kiss

Steve’s fifteen, and though he’s never played this game before, he’s pretty sure this isn’t how the rules go.

(talks about steves partial deafness, asthma and general complete lack of immune system as well as his social anxiety)

Gravitation

“He couldn’t remember when he first started feeling the pull. Perhaps it was too long ago, or perhaps it had been gradual,something that crept up on him. But by the time he was sixteen, Bucky knew that the axis of his world spun around Steve Rogers in the worst possible way.”

(i remember being really happy that there was a doctor in this who said to steer clear of asthma cigarettes since they were based on an outdated theory which by the the early 40s’ was true but not widely accepted. such a wise man. )

In Which Bucky Barnes Stops a Bus and Gets a Cute Angry Guy’s Number 

Recently discharged war veteran Bucky Barnes spots a guy with canes trying to catch a departing bus. Bucky gets the bus to stop, and that’s how he meets Steve Rogers.

Just Say You Do

Steve just wanted a job. He wasn’t expecting a marriage proposal. And he certainly wasn’t expecting to accept.

Of Broken Dreams and Mended Hearts (WIP)

When the House of Barnes is left in massive debt after the death of George Barnes, their oldest son and heir, Bucky, is forced to sacrifice his own hopes and dreams by entering an arranged married to Steve Rogers. Steve seems kind enough, has a prominent job in the government, and was even voted Society’s Best Catch. But the House Rogers is significantly higher in status than Bucky’s family, which means Bucky is marrying up in Society, and marrying up doesn’t only come with rewards, it also comes with certain…expectations and losses–some of which Bucky might be willing to do anything to avoid. And those opportunities might come his way.

Unless, of course, he actually starts falling in love with his new husband…

(spends time detailing most of steves canonical illnesses and disabilities but but really stuck in my mind was the quality of which dealt with his pernicious anemia. They even talk about him having to eat raw liver daily.)

The Tower

The arena of war has changed from technological to otherworldly. The only people who can meet the challenge of an entirely different kind of war are a crack paranormal fighting force known as the Howling Commandos. Peggy Carter recruits Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes to fight against Baron Zemo, a man who desires more than anything the abilities that lie inside of Steve. Paranormal AU set in World War II.

(Steve’s illnesses are present throughout, but instead of a serum they help him deal with a lot of it through spells which I thought was really cool. I remember in particular spells to straighten his spine and keep his heart beating properly. I wish that shit was real. Notably it has him use a nebulizer for his asthma.Also features demisexual!bucky. Great story. technically wip right now since the author is in the middle of reposting it)

Signed, Sealed and Delivered (WIP)

Steve Rogers was content with his life. He loved his shop, loved creating works of art for people to display on their bodies, had a tight knit group of friends who cared about him, and had finally paid off his student loans and the loan he’d taken out to start his business. But it still feels like there’s something, or someone, missing from his life.

Everything’s going to change when he decides to take Natasha’s advice and sign up for a military penpal program.

(Steve’s astigmatism and partial deafness are handled with real quality in this one. Like real well. as I recall it also handles asthma and allergies well and something else too. I can’t remember if its his heart problem or what though but theres one other thing it did well)

Undertones and Overtures

In which Steve is deaf and Bucky is an amputee.

Bucky Barnes is studying for his masters in Music Composition at Juilliard when he unexpectedly meets skinny little artist Steve Rogers in a book store one Saturday. They both have their issues and it’s going to take a lot to understand each other, but with a little help from friends and family, they might be able to make this work.

(deafness as it says on the label and also his astigmatism. I think it also deals with his asthma well but its been a while since I’ve read it)

Unplugged 

A scifi AU with a fascist police state, a genetic caste system, a skinny young man who should not be alive for reasons too numerous to list, and the partially brainwashed assassin who shows up at his door in the middle of the night to send the world crashing down around his ears.

(deals with pretty much everything Steve has with a few exceptions. He uses a nebulizer a few times in it. also its pretty damn great)

When I put Away Childish Things

Bucky gets on a Manhattan bound train around 2:30, heading to 8th St. He watches the Lady far off on Liberty Island as they rollover the East River. The train is crowded and people smile at him, pleased to see a handsome young man in uniform. He smiles back, pleased with the world and everything in it. He wonders where Steve might want to go for lunch. What he’d say if Bucky asked him if he’d ever thought about treating this thing between them as real.

He comes out of the subway a little before 3 o'clock, and the world has changed.

(mentions his scoliosis and partial deafness.talks a little about his asthma and generally sickliness)

I know there’s a lot of discourse going on about Lucas and I’m sure LM/RF shippers are going to have a field day about the Lucas/RL stuff getting cut, but I’m throwing my two cents in anyways. This is negative about GMW and pretty anti RF and anti LM, so don’t read if that’s not your thing.

I don’t understand why the writers continuously make Lucas look like a bad guy/boyfriend. When I watched the show before being in the fandom, they made it look like Maya and Lucas were having these intimate moments (Semi-Formal, Creativity) and ignoring the way Riley felt. Then Texas and the almost kiss happened and we never knew what was happening in Lucas’ head. The triangle dragged on forever, and honestly, to casual viewers, he just seemed like a bad person because the writers wanted both LM and RL shippers to have hope for their ship. He got mad at Riley for talking to another person, but we never found out why he was mad (yes, we can make theories, but until we hear something out of his mouth, it’s not canon), and a scene with Zay and Lucas talking outside could have been a great moment for character development and let the audience sympathize with Lucas, but instead the kicking the tree comment was used for comedic relief. 

I’m also rewatching BMW, and Topanga didn’t have that much of a story outside of being a love interest in the first three seasons, but the audience always knew what she was thinking in terms of her relationship with Cory. She made speeches about how she was afraid they weren’t going to be friends anymore, about how she was afraid to say I love you, and if I’m remembering correctly, their relationship was more of the focus for the last couple of seasons. Why can’t Lucas get the same treatment? I’m not sure if it’s because the writers know that RL and Lucas get a lot of hate in the fandom, or if this all is a weird storyline ending in LM and RF endgames, but it’s just not fair, especially considering Lucas was a main character before Farkle (who was only promoted to main during mid-season 1), and has less development and background than him. The only Lucas-centric episode was Secret of Life, Texas doesn’t count because it was more about the ships, and even then, we didn’t really hear what Lucas thought about Riley’s reaction or why he thought he was worth it. 

And please stop comparing Lucas to Jack/Rachel. Lucas has been a main character since the first episode, he’s more important than Jack and Rachel. Also, saying that the only people that deserve more development are Farkle and Maya is wrong considering in BMW, every character got their own storylines, even Jack and Rachel, even background characters like Frankie. If we get a season four and all of this keeps going on (the implication that the only friendship that matters is RM, the favoritism towards Maya, the erasure of Lucas, the use of Lucas, Zay, and Smackle as comedic relief and nothing else, dumbing down Riley, making Shawn and Topanga out of character, etc), I’m considering writing a long letter or something to the writers because they need to stop acting like this show is so great when it’s really a mess. Plus, I’m sorry, but if this is some strange storyline to prove that Riley isn’t important to Lucas and only Maya is like the theorists think, then I’m done watching because that is the definition of fanservice and out of character. Also, RF in general is messy. He’s dating Smackle, he doesn’t like Riley, and would you ever think that the only reason Farkle and Riley spent more time together in season two was because she couldn’t talk to Lucas or Maya because she was stepping back? The writers needed someone to talk to her, and Farkle was the only friend available. And all the “deep conversations” that RF shippers freak out about have been about Lucas and Smackle (Texas 3, New Years, Permanent Record)? I’m just sick of RF shippers acting like it’s so obvious the they’re endgame when we don’t know what’s going to happen, and newsflash, Farkle has been as bad of a friend, arguably more bad of a friend, to Riley than Lucas ever has.

I’m sorry this is so disjointed. I’m just really tired of trying to stay positive about this show when the writers do stuff like this. Lucas deserves to be more than a love interest. And even if he is just a love interest to Riley like Topanga was for Cory in the beginning, he deserves lines that actually let the viewers understand what is going on in his head. His character is very interesting and could have a lot of depth if we focused on his past and how that impacts his relationship with Riley, but the fact that the fandom ignores/bashes him in favor of any other character, and now even writers are doing the same makes me want to give up on the show.