but ugh feels

I want to hate you for leaving me. I want to hate you for kissing me. I want to hate you for kissing her. I want to hate you for lying to me. I want to hate you for everything you didn’t to me. But I can’t. I can’t and I hate it more than I should hate you
—  I want to hate you//A.G.

my current obsession is uno from nanbaka and i really wanna draw him but i can’t because my friend is coming over to play ow with me for a few days 

proflucypreston reblogged your post and added:

So I might be grasping at straws here but I’ve just had a thought so permit me a moment to vomit it all out.

Things changed after that first mission to the Hindenburg. Yes, Amy disappeared, but Carol also never met Henry. What if Carol meeting Henry changed the way she brought up Lucy? What if she was MEANT to groom Lucy to be this agent for Rittenhouse, however once she began to built a life outside of Rittenhouse - with Henry and then with the arrival of Amy - she decided not to? She still wanted Lucy to have a love and appreciation of history because Carol was a history professor and she wanted to pass down her own passion to her daughter. However she taught Lucy to appreciate history for what it was.

When they get back from the Hindenburg, Carol never met Henry and was ALWAYS deep in Rittenhouse. Maybe THIS Carol did try to groom her daughter for the role of Rittenhouse “Historian”, did try to make her daughter believe that history would be better if x, y or z had happened just a tad differently. We already know that this Carol seems to be much more ruthless than what we had expected. But her Lucy is not our Lucy. So our Lucy continues to believe that history should be preserved.

I don’t know how viable this would be and if Rittenhouse would even let Carol NOT teach Lucy the Rittenhouse way of life, but it’s possible? @twilight-deviant​, feel free to poke holes in this theory (as I know you like to do lol).

Is that me? Hahaha. Notorious hole-poker. xD

Sorry I didn’t see this when you first reblogged it. tumblr is really bad about notifying me of stuff. Even though you @-ed me and everything. wtf tumblr?

First off, I have seen theories that Henry Wallace was also Rittenhouse. Considering he and Carol met in 1979, a year which would have housed a Rittenhouse summit. But I think that, until we have proof, I might choose to believe he was a regular guy. Especially since it seems Lucy’s conception might have been intentional? With two different timelines, it’s hard to work this out. But it did happen both times– even under different circumstances. Because Lucy was born in 1983. Her parents met in 1979 and married in 1980. Which means Carol cheated on Henry with Benjamin. In the new timeline without Henry Wallace, we know that Carol and Benjamin were introduced because they were Rittenhouse. It’s… possible Carol was in love with Henry but had an obligation to produce an heir between her family and the Cahills. If Henry were Rittenhouse, he would have worked too, right? I don’t know. There are tiers of power in this organization. Maybe the Cahills are a better family. But she was already married to Henry, so it would have been easier. Right? I’m just saying, until we have confirmation otherwise, I think I’ll choose to believe Henry wasn’t Rittenhouse. Which might also FINALLY explain why Lucy and Amy have their mother’s last name of Preston instead of Wallace like their father. That’s… not typically how it goes. But with Carol being Rittenhouse, the girls were, perhaps, meant to carry on that family name, the one associated with Rittenhouse. As opposed to Wallace, which might not be. (Though I’m sure that from a storytelling standpoint, this was perhaps done so that Lucy’s last name wouldn’t change between universes.)

Anyway… Your theory isn’t entirely outlandish. It’s possible. But I will poke just one small hole or two. Do forgive me. So Carol of the new timeline might very well be a little less warmhearted. You’re right. She never had the kind younger daughter who didn’t have a predetermined purpose attached to her life. Amy would have been the child Carol got to nurture and encourage to make her own choices. Which would explain why Amy has so many weird, quirky, impractical interests. But Carol never had Amy, never had the daughter she didn’t have to use for Rittenhouse. She never met, loved, or married Henry Wallace. She never married at all. Because when Benjamin proposed to her following the announcement of her pregnancy (because in this universe, she wasn’t already married to Henry Wallace), Carol turned him down. I genuinely wonder why the Lucy of this universe never inquired about her father. She wouldn’t have thought it was Henry Wallace. It took her thirty-three years to ask? 

But now the hole poking. lol. So the slightly less loving Carol of this universe may have brought Lucy up in slightly differing ways. You could be right. But it still wouldn’t explain why she didn’t tell Lucy about Rittenhouse when she reached adulthood. Because it seems she didn’t and appears to be completely aware of the fact that she’s giving away her secret in the finale. Neither of the Lucys knew about Rittenhouse or that her mother was a member. Or else Carol might have inadvertently mentioned it to our Lucy at one point or another. When they were alone. You… could… maybe… say that Carol (through Rittenhouse connections) became aware of Lucy asking about Rittenhouse in the end of the Pilot, thus announcing she had no idea about the organization. And from there on, Carol knew not to mention it. You could argue that and I’ll let you. Haha. But, ya know, the other thing is that if Carol had a duty to Rittenhouse, she would have had to complete it. The conversation with the Doc in 1.06 told us that you can’t leave Rittenhouse or disobey them. It’s for life. So if she was supposed to train Lucy and tell her about Rittenhouse, she would either have to do that or else flee like the Doc did. Also, we have the one conversation and several mentions with Amy. Carol was still trying to control Lucy’s life. Never letting her leave, always guilting her into staying right there. The other Carol may have been better, but not that much better.

It is a possibility though. I learned my lesson in the finale. Timeless is not afraid to contradict itself or bend the rules a little. I’ll never say anything is certain again. So, like Schrodinger’s cat, until we open the box (season two) we’re both right. :D

  • me: they hurt me!! I'm gonna be distant! that'll show them!
  • them: hey
  • me: hey ๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’˜๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ซ

it is so important to me that we have Celaena, a girl who shunned other girls and was taught to mistrust any and all competition, but who grows up to become a woman who mends bonds with the women she hated, like Kaltain and Lysandra. It means so much to me that Sarah shows how when girls hate other girls, often it’s because they have been taught to view others as competition, but that this attitude can be changed, and that the best allies women have are other women.

Because you know who helps Aelin the most on her journey? Other than Rowan? Lysandra when she helps Aelin trick everyone at the end of EoS, and gives up her LIFE to become Aelin and lead Terrasen. Kaltain, when she gives the key to Elide and burns Morath. Elide, when she takes the key and crosses continents with it clutched against her breast, braving fae warriors and monsters and fighting against all odds, all with a mangled ankle and steel in her heart. And fucking Manon. Manon who has never met Aelin before, who was hit in the face by Aelin- even Manon helps. Manon protects Elide and saves the wyrd key from Maeve’s clutches so that Aelin’s sacrifice will not be in vain. And Manon, Manon decides to ally her witches with Aelin, and pledges to find the crochans, again, to fight for and with Aelin. 

And all of these women rally behind a woman who at one point did not like some of them. Who mistreated them. But these women- Manon, Elide, Kaltain, Lysandra- all understand what it’s like to be fighting alone. They understand that Aelin is good at heart, and that she just needs forgiveness and a chance. So they help her. Against all odds.

And it just fills my heart will so much joy. That Sarah has given us a book that is so driven by women and by the bonds they forge and by their innate strength of heart. Ugh. It’s just so beautiful. 

  • what she says: I'm fine
  • what she means: Iroh, though. He could’ve stayed in the Fire Nation and lived a cushy life. He could’ve had whatever he wanted - a comfortable home, a slew of servants, a tea shop - any retiree’s dream following a long, highly successful career in a war. He could’ve been mostly happy and mostly content, free to do whatever he pleased really as the Fire Lord’s brother and a former general. He didn’t have to do any of the things he did for Zuko. He really didn’t. Zuko wasn’t even his kid! But guess what? Iroh loved Zuko like his own son. And Iroh left everything he knew to follow this asshole of a kid around the world on a pointless mission all the while loving him like Zuko had never been loved before and I just... Iroh, though. Uncle Iroh.

How do y’all decide on colors for him anyway??