Then I realized how powerful a defined edge, as well as a selected exact value and color, really are; getting these objectives done actually will turn a screen full of shit into a loose textural painting with a real soul. So that's the goal I should aim while doing live studying and sketching, asking what is the core edge and core value & color, I've done so many redundant regrettable practices.
Hm! Yeah I really don’t care about how my stokes look except for a few at the very end defining a highlight or something. Gotta let accidents and textures happen chaotically. When strokes look too deliberate they feel a bit too pretty and boring for me.