but this is literally the most accurate picture of my life

STELLIA.

It’s called a stellium when you have several planets in a single house or sign. Whether three or four planets should be the minimum is debatable; personally, I believe three or more is a comfortable standard. Stellia, when present, are vital factors in the natal chart. They indicate a considerable cluster of energies that demands attention & development, and paints a vivid picture of the native’s patterns, motives, lessons to learn, and potential.

If you believe in karma, a stellium may suggest that the native has dues to pay, so to speak – the opposing house or sign could’ve been overdeveloped in their past life and now it is time to restore balance. If they have a “heavy” stellium (with many volatile energies involved), it may be considered a punishment. Even if you don’t believe in karma, however, there is still something karmic about the stellium, if only in the sense of personal growth. The more planets there are in a house or sign, the more that house’s theme or sign’s energy will either (a) come naturally to you, or (b) call for advancement. It is likely that sign stellia imply an abundance of that particular archetype’s energy in the native’s psyche, and the house stellia are what require healing, expansion, and awareness. There are many ways to interpret stellia; below, I’ve tried to break down my method of doing so as simply as possible.

The sun’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is a fundamental & innate part of the native’s identity. It may also mean that the sign or house must be accepted or grown into.
The moon’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme lies at the native’s core, there are habits formed around it, and emotions are filtered through it. Pain or comfort may be attached to it.
Mercury’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is a learning process that the native will likely share with others. Teaching their findings or forming a way of life around them is probable.
Venus’ presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is softened and modified (by either the native or the person/group of people associated with the sign or house) to be more pleasant & “beautiful” in whatever sense. It may be ideally expressed through art or in relationships. It is very likely that there will be an amount of romanticization involved with it.
Mars’ presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is a part of what drives & inspires the native. It may have a violent or otherwise volatile inclination, and will probably produce intensity or conflict.
Jupiter’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme produces a fruitful journey throughout the native’s life. It may or may not be very fun (depending on other planets involved), but it promises a positive result, as it is cultivating & expanding the qualities of that area of life (or self).
Saturn’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme has detrimental tendencies that will, at some point, be painfully abolished & replaced with a more mature and/or healthy method of approach. Much struggle and unhappiness will take place there, but you’ll learn from it.
Uranus’ presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is dynamic and may have a strange or “urgent” feeling to it; the former is caused by unconventionality and the latter is caused by the inevitability of change taking place in that area of life or self. It may also be a crucial part of a bigger picture, a revolutionary bloom that’ll take place outside of the native.
Neptune’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is a buried or neglected part of the native’s psyche that affects them on a subconscious & often uncontrollable or invisible level. This is usually detrimental, but sometimes it is similar to the moon’s presence in a stellium.
Pluto’s presence in a stellium indicates that the sign’s energy or the house’s theme is a chaotic & powerful force that causes immense pain, turmoil, conflict, disturbance, and, most importantly, profound transformation. The troubles will be destructive and recurrent, but with each cycle the native is further refined.

Aries stellium: the native’s sense of self is prominent & innate. They know how to assert & fight for themselves, sometimes to excess.
Taurus stellium: the native’s sense of security is prominent & innate. They know how to establish themselves in life, sometimes to excess.
Gemini stellium: the native’s ability to communicate is prominent & innate. They know how to share themselves, sometimes to excess.
Cancer stellium: the native’s ability to nurture is prominent & innate. They know how to protect themselves, sometimes to excess.
Leo stellium: the native’s sense of worth is prominent & innate. They know how to project themselves, sometimes to excess.
Virgo stellium: the native’s sense of imperfection is prominent & innate. They know how to improve themselves (or think they do), sometimes to excess.
Libra stellium: the native’s ability to create peace is prominent & innate. They know how to balance (or unbalance) themselves, sometimes to excess.
Scorpio stellium: the native’s ability to transform is prominent & innate. They know how to repair (or destroy) themselves, sometimes to excess.
Sagittarius stellium: the native’s sense of expansion is prominent & innate. They know how to develop themselves (their minds), sometimes to excess.
Capricorn stellium: the native’s sense of duty is prominent & innate. They know how to build themselves and their lives, sometimes to excess.
Aquarius stellium: the native’s ability to reinvent is prominent & innate. They know how to change themselves and others, sometimes to excess.
Pisces stellium: the native’s ability to imagine is prominent & innate. They know how to elevate themselves and others, sometimes to excess.
(The signs & their ruling planets may have similar affects on a stellium, depending on the overall nature of the chart.)

1st house stellium: the native easily establishes and expresses their identity. They know & understand themselves, or assume or claim personalities that may not be entirely accurate because they know who they aspire to be. Their life is majorly composed of self-expression or self-discovery. If this does not come naturally, the object is to discover, accept, and share themselves fully.
2nd house stellium: the native easily takes care of themselves; they know what they like & what they want, & they work toward achieving it. They desire pleasure, comfort, & stability, & their life is majorly composed of those pursuits. If this does not come naturally, the object is to learn how to become a part of the physical realm, and to enjoy & savor it, to stop taking it for granted.
3rd house stellium: the native easily incorporates their active consciousness into daily life through exchanges, be they verbal or literal. To learn & to understand are what they passively yearn for – they aren’t inclined to seek it because they are generally satisfied with what they intellectually receive on an everyday basis. If this does not come naturally, the object is to cultivate that receptivity to & appreciation for the great things that pass them by regularly.
4th house stellium: the native easily finds or creates a home for themselves when they need it. They feel secure within themselves, they are a safe space for themselves and for others, and they are capable of drawing inspiration & growing from their past in a healthy, mature way. If this does not come naturally, the object is to discover a sense of internal stability, to let go of issues of the past and grow from them, and to discover the true meaning of home.
5th house stellium: the native easily attains emotional & creative pleasure through their expressive endeavors. They can demonstrate who they are through art and relationships, and prosper in their satisfactory establishment of self. They feel free. If this does not come naturally, the object is to learn how to let go of fear and restrictions while respecting moderation, and to acquire a skillful method of releasing or satisfying their feelings, ideas, and desires.
6th house stellium: the native easily comprehends their own imperfections and is devoted to the pursuit of improving themselves. There is a strong theme of seeking a better life experience with them; they strive for optimal health and physical/mental functioning, so much so that they may disregard comfort & relaxation or may become very fearful individuals. The object, no matter whether these traits come naturally, is to discover what it truly means to be human and to balance acceptance with perseverance rather than allowing one to outweigh the other, in turn scattering & wasting the human condition.
7th house stellium: the native easily connects to other people & assimilates well to most social dynamics. They are usually quite empathetic individuals, but it comes from a place of interpersonal intellect rather than heart (unless other placements suggest that). Love is very important to them in any form, and they tend to define themselves by it. The object is generally to learn to differentiate themselves & their identities from other people’s, to establish themselves singularly, and to rearrange their innate priorities to put themselves first. Alternatively, they may need to learn how to be more receptive.
8th house stellium: the native easily comprehends dark, buried subjects. They are extremely intuitive (often psychic), investigative, and usually secretive. They seek to know and understand everything most people refuse to look at, as they are only fulfilled by deep, profound experiences & knowledge. If this does not come naturally, they likely have an aversion to controversy; the object is to learn to allow their penetrative, transformative nature to flourish.
9th house stellium: the native easily lends themselves to the process of intellectual expansion, and define themselves by the search of knowledge and experience. They tend to be grandiose & adventurous people with very big imaginations and a yearning for all things unknown & interesting to them. If this does not come naturally, the object is to detach from their roots, to cultivate a more open mind, and to discover a personal appeal to discovery.
10th house stellium: the native easily achieves what they set their mind to. They thrive in the spotlight and revel in recognition, as long as it is well-deserved. They strive to be exactly the person they want to be, and can thus confine themselves to an unattainable or caricatured ideal. Reward motivates them, and they’re remarkably hardworking. If this does not come naturally, the object is to develop & elevate a sense of duty to their own self-respect, to abolish their lazy habits, and to realize their true purpose in life.
11th house stellium: the native easily fabricates vivid dreams and aspirations. They are creative, innovative, logical thinkers with immense potential. They apply their ideas to a desire for worth; they may measure their value by their contributions to society. They are highly concerned with the greater good, and are usually capable of creating great benefit for humanity. If this does not come naturally, the object is to become more progressive & open-minded, to find their altruism, & to create the good they want to see.
12th house stellium: the native easily tunes into their meditative, subconscious state, but are rarely capable of bringing that rich spiritual realm into contact with reality. They tend to have a lot of unlocked potential. They may feel that they are instruments in a “divine plan” or that they have a special connection to whatever they perceive to be divine. They repress much of their personality and usually do not know exactly who they are or how they operate. They’re deeply introverted, and pain is a significant factor in their identity. If this does not come naturally, the object is to come to understand that there is something sacred about them, that they can discover their true selves if they dig deep enough, that their sacrifices are appreciated, and that they mustn’t suppress themselves any more than they naturally do.

anonymous asked:

Sorry if I'm bothering you but can you share why you think avatar is bad?

hoo boy man ur asking for a lot bc that show is a complete and utter M E S S. first, heres the main phrase my tibetan ass wants u to think about: its a show using asian/indigenous ppl and their devastating histories made by ignorant weeaboo white men. I want to write about it in detail bc i’ve always wanted to say something about this but never rly got around to doing it. maybe ill send this in letter format to the writers lol. anyways im going to split this up into parts. I’ll put a readmore bc its kinda long

@bryankonietzko take a nice long look if u still use tumblr lmao

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Analysis of Jikook in The SHOW behind BTS

…a.k.a throwback in late 2015 ♥

Hello, sweet Anon! :) I’m sorry I’m doing this just now. I’m not sure what exactly you meant, but I suppose it was this… gosh I’m sorry if I made an entire “analysis” for something completely else. Also I know people noticed these things long ago, but you know, I think good Jikook throwback can’t be bad. Also this is from late 2015 (I think - correct me if I’m wrong) and you know how fond I am about 2015! :D So let’s get on to it.

Jikook here, in “The SHOW” could be described as boyfriends, making up after a fight. The younger does it by circling around the older one, trying hard to make him laugh, reacting to everything he does. The older one does it by torturing poor Seokjin, using him for his weird bursts of affectionate singing and generally making Jungkook pay attention to him. Jimin just tries to look like he doesn’t give a duck, but at the same time he does everything he can just for Jungkook to come near him, so he can ignore him again, looking like cold drama queen. Jeon complies very well and as much as Jimin tries to be cool, Jungkook is more nervous, more goofy and childish than usual. Both of them remind me of me when I used to fight with my crush at high school :D

At first we see Jimin, playing with this “decorative ball” – I don’t know what other name should I give it. Jungkook’s in the back, the second Jimin starts playing with the ball he watches him and quickly figures his next steps.

In next moment he comes near, announcing that “That ball is not that heavy at all!” while smiling sheepishly. Nobody asked you tho, Jungkookie. Jimin seems like he didn’t even hear what Jungkook said. No laughing or smiling reaction, as we’re used to seeing from him. Jungkook’s attempt doesn’t work, so he puts the ball back on the table. (I feel sorry for him :<)

We catch a glimpse of Jungkook (and Jin and Hoseok) practicing Run choreo. Jungkook dances just in front of Jimin all the time – at one point he even comes less than foot away from him. But Jimin does nothing. Complete stone-cold pokerface. Again, it doesn’t have to mean something, but judging by his general attitude not only to Jungkook at other times, but to Jin on the same day (before he and Jungkook ‘made up’ :D) he was most likely pissed at Kookie.

Fast forward to Hobi, delivering water. Jungkook claims that “water from somebody else tastes the best.” These are just screen shots, but he literally turned his head towards Jimin and looked at him, as he said it. Jimin was laughing and smiling just seconds before at Hobi and Tae.

When Jungkook spoke, pokerface appeared again and he looked away. Both him and Jungkook swung their heads down, looking on the floor. JK did not say a thing after that there.

My favorite parts are coming, brace yourself, it’s hilarious. Jin struggle for his life and comfort, as Jimin uses him to make Jungkook jealous and Jungkook to make Jimin laugh. I admire this human, because if it was me, I would be cringing in the corner of room instead of handling it so well in the middle of them.

Jimin hangs out with Jin, talking about Jin’s birthday. Casual Jeon appears, trying to stick himself between the two without much success. So he stands next to Jin, when suddenly Jimin decides to be a little torturous shit to him (and poor Seokjin) and announces he’s gonna sing a song for Jin-hyung.

Jungkook just watches him. I watch Jungkook’s mouth, pressed into thin line (he’s not a fan of this whole situation, obviously.)

Jin stares at the ceiling, expression in his face calling supernatural forces for salvation. No help comes. Jungkook manages to bear whole 15 seconds of Jimin, serenading to Jin, before he interrupts him. “When’s your birthday, hyung?”

What kind of silly and completely obvious question is that? Do you mean you forgot Jin’s birthday, when most likely you all celebrated together and you live with him? It was just few days ago. Anyway he disturbs Jimin’s singing for a second, so this question was a success. Jimin touches Jin’s face, trying to gain his attention. In my opinion, he’s trying too hard. Just let it go, Jimin, Jungkook already *got* your message. Sthob it. But he doesn’t stop, no way.

Jin flinches: “Don’t touch my face!” He pushes Jimin away and explains he hates when people touch his face. Guess who’s hands touch his face the second he says it to support Jimin-hyung and make him laugh? …just guess. Yes. Jungkook’s hands are already touching Seokjin’s face, while he laughs adorably. Jimin was smiling a little before at Jin, but after Jungkook’s action + smile, he’s not smiling. Not until he touches Jin again and smiles again, this time JK left.

Jin and Jimin have this bickering argument about a gift for Jin’s birthday so Jimin decides to sing him a happy birthday song. Seokjin is obviously not very comfortable about all of this and tries to push Jimin away in his funny, non-harming way – throwing sleeves of his jacket around. Then he even pushes Jimin away weakly, while sending him away. Then he pushes him *hardly*, losing his shit. He stares at the camera seriously as he says that he’ll really do something to Jimin. Jimin can’t stop with his singing and clinging to hyung.

Koalest Koala Jimin demands Seokjin to sing him a carol. It’s payback time. Jin starts to sing and cling to Jimin too much to make him uncomfortable, too. Jimin tastes his own medicine as he struggles to get free.

Jimin now sings the carol and looks around, to his left multiple times. I’m not completely sure if he looks at Jungkook but just few moments later, just as they start with the “I LOVE YOU” song, guess who emerges from that direction? JK. Of course it’s Jungkook. He walks like a complete *boss* just in front of the lens of the camera.

Jimin very nonchalantly changes his position, now standing next to Jungkook.

Jungkook announces he made a song, too. Jin asks him what song. “I love you,” answers Kook, very creatively. Anyway they all laugh afterwards.

In the next moment poor baby Seokjin serves as a tool for Jikook, making up. Jimin looks still done with Jungkook, while he hits him with Jin’s arms/sleeves, making weird noises.

Jin complains about hard life of a hyung (I feel you, Kim Seokjin) and Jimin agrees. Jimin, you made him suffer today, you have no right to complain. Anyway Jungkook stops hitting Jimin and walks from behind Jin to see Jimin’s reaction.

Jimin probably decided that Jungkook’s efforts are too cute and it’s enough. He cames up with the message for fans. JK asks him what message and quickly looks down.

There’s like 4 seconds of silence, while Jimin (in my opinion obviously) waits for Jungkook to look him in the eyes. In the second he does that, Jimin sings “I love you.”

Just look at the bunny’s smile. Just look. My heart burst when I saw the way he smiles happily at his hyung’s singing. Finally, Jimin forgave him whatever it was he had to forgive him.

Afterwards, they’re good. Jimin is laughing and smiling again with Jungkook, dancing and fooling around.

To sum it up, they were going through some sort of fight that day, who knows what it was about? But Jimin was just being scary shady Jimin, clinging to Jin to get Jungkook’s attention and Jungkook was following them around, trying to make up with Jiminie-hyung. Thanksgod it had a happy ending.

And for the very end, I’m adding this accurate picture of inner Jimin, satisfied with himself on that day:

Hope you enjoyed, this drained me so much :D Once again: I love 2015. K, bye.

anonymous asked:

U really don't think Angie is scammin......okay

many of you sent this type of ask already..

I didn’t say what I thought of Angie either way, and tbh I’m still unsure of the whole picture - but I reblogged her explanation/evidence post since many people I follow reblogged the accusation, and should at least have the chance to read her reply - if people just read the accusation with no critical thought and without looking into it farther or even glancing at her refutation of those points, she’d never get a chance at justice even if it turned out she’s not in the wrong.

honestly this attitude is hypocritical. people reblogging the accusation keep saying “why doesn’t she thoroughly refute every point, then we’d give her the benefit of the doubt” but now that she’s done exactly that (literally what she’s been asked to do), people are dismissing it without even reading. and now apparently sending anons to anyone sharing the post at all too.

my other problem is with the ethics and accuracy of info in the callout. it’s fair to want proof/clarification of the authenticity of a fundraiser the scale of Angie’s, but this attempt at an exposé was poor - it had misconstrued (or just incorrect) info in major places, used questionable sources and methods that could have put Angie in danger IRL, and at times was just grossly ignorant (re: medical disability as well as familial abuse). I’m not criticizing the need to know more from her to feel comfortable supporting her, but there were tons of better ways to handle an investigation into the situation.

here are just some of the things about the accusation post that I’m uncomfortable with (I’m listing them not to prove things - her detailed post which covers all of this with sources/specifics is for that - but to say why I can’t support or trust the accusation post by itself): 

-accuser (or at least someone involved with the investigation) called her providers to get information about her and their services to her (these people/companies/services will not disclose to a random caller that they give a patient a service, that’s confidentiality) which is a huge breach in patient privacy. and then tried to use the fact that they wouldn’t give them personal info on their services towards Angie as evidence that Angie is a fraud.

edit: I have since received the following clarification which is confusing because in the accusing post there is explicit wording about contacting certain services/providers, but ok:

^ either way, not everything that a provider possibly does will be listed right on their website lmao Angie has gone out of her way to explain that there is a special arrangement between that provider and other services that work with her.  

-accuser misconstrued / misrepresented numbers (one example: implying she had claimed her rent was $5,000 or so a month when that was a YEARLY estimate and she never claimed it was monthly)

-other Australians (you can find this in reblogs of her explanation post) have been debunking and correcting things the accuser said about various AUS govt funds, programs and legal aid; it is clear that the accuser did not have all the information about Angie’s eligibility or lack thereof, or about how much of her daily and yearly expenses these would have covered. those are big holes in the accusation.

-accuser misconstrued the fact that she had terms / quantities changed to ones more comprehensible by ppl in the USA - when she had already explained her reasoning for this publicly (being on a platform with a majority of users from the USA and all)

-accuser misconstrued other statements (said she forbid people from calling the charity, when her real words - I’ve seen the post cited - were along the lines of “pls don’t spam / harass the charity”) and went as far as to cite Angie once using a profile picture of herself pre-disability as “suspicious”

-accuser called her suspicious simply for how many times she’s been close to homelessness/fatal neglect - this is speculation, not reasonable evidence, and besides, it’s not automatically suspicious or unrealistic to need continuous funds / be in danger a lot when someone is continuously bed bound, seriously disabled, and being charged thousands a week for basic life care she can’t do by herself. this part of the accusation was worded in a way that was disrespectful and totally ignorant re: what it’s like to be disabled to that extent. the post could have stuck to reputable forms of evidence without throwing in a speculative “isn’t it weird that this gravely disabled person cut off from lots of resources is always in danger and struggling to live? how unusual” which is just callous to people with permanent disabilities who do need constant help.

-accuser, with no relevant evidence or medical knowledge of the type of disability Angie has, tries to speculate that the doctors notes “looked fake” (again based on nothing but speculation) - as if it’s at All weird for someone with a complex neurological / regional pain related condition to have ongoing diagnosis, multiple terms to refer to clustered symptoms, opinions of multiple doctors, etc. it’s also not at all weird for different doctors to have a different style of writing a letter lol - I’ve bounced between specialists myself for undiagnosed chronic illness, and neither of those are red flags - doctors regularly print or email something they typed up in their patient notes database or a word type document. again, people automatically taking this as reliable evidence are out of touch with what it’s like to be disabled to that extent and seeing multiple doctors.

-accuser calls into question changing URLs, changing fundraising platforms, etc, all while omitting one very important fact that is necessary to qualify those situations (which Angie has made common knowledge) - that she has been stalked persistently by a documented abuser and had her funds threatened, and this has publicly put her in danger over the past couple of years. other people have also tried to slander and stalk her in the past which she’s also talked openly about. she’s had to change platforms semi regularly for her safety. most bloggers I follow have changed URLs far more than Angie without it being treated like a federal offense. once again not reputable or concrete evidence, lots being stretched, & lots of omitted context.

-accuser cites a person as a major source of info who has been outed in the past with evidence as fraudulent / dishonest themself, and is therefore not a reliable source.

-accuser brings in petty unrelated shit like an allegedly biphobic post that was taken out of context in the first place (why was that even on a serious scamming callout??) this just reveals desperate and unprofessional attempts to smear character.

-accuser frames the fact that Angie is a Chinese woman living in an English speaking country with both a Chinese and anglicized name that are both used officially in different contexts as “suspicious” despite how ridiculously common that is like… come on.

-as a side note, people have been total hypocrites re: how they question her disability - doubting it because ‘oh she has the time and energy to make posts’ (ignoring that she does have friends help her with maintaining posts, letters, documents etc), but then when she doesn’t immediately respond to all the accusations in less than 24 hours they slam her for that too (where’s your concern for her energy and ability now?) again like.. regardless of if y'all are right about Angie’s specific case, this is hypocrisy and you evidently don’t know how to treat / talk about seriously disabled people.


there are more but that’s enough lol. again this wasn’t meant to corroborate itemized proof against the accusation, or state an opinion on the conduct of Angie’s fundraiser (like I said I literally don’t know) - if you’re looking for that I would recommend reading Angie’s post thoroughly and coming to your own conclusions. all the links, math, explanations are there. this was to denote my more objective concerns with how the callout was conducted and why I can’t trust it as credible or support it ethically.

if you think Angie’s situation doesn’t add up even after reading her explanations, feel free to pursue more info in a way that is more accurate and ethical, or just don’t give your money. but you don’t slap together a callout with this many holes and discrepancies and bad conduct and let it go public right away when you run this high of a risk of ruining someone’s life if you’re wrong - you make sure you have your shit straight. you bring questions to the person first without jumping at them in an accusing/dehumanizing way right off the bat (which yes will get you blocked, shockingly), and give them a chance to provide evidence and explanation before you try and no platform them. and if it comes down to you making the public post and they reply with evidence/explanations after reading your accusations, you do your due diligence again by taking that into account. 

like I said I have no idea how much of Angie’s fundraiser has been handled in a legit way (I for sure don’t think she’s faking being disabled and that’s about all I know), but I feel uneasy that hundreds of people are taking that post at face value and aren’t even giving her thorough response a glance - you’re deciding a vulnerable woman’s fate, of being cut off and kicked off her platform, through hearsay, which is stupid and dangerous in this kind of situation. 

if you’re right, congrats I guess, on your pure dumb luck (because your investigation had so many holes). but god help you if you’re wrong and you further isolate her with your sloppiness. matters like this require attention to accuracy and ethics, things that were lacking in this callout. I’m not dumb for being concerned about that, and finding it reason enough not to take that callout at face value without looking at both sides more. don’t think badly of me just for reblogging Angie’s explanations and giving people a chance to read them as well as the accusations.

Stiles listens to his dad ask him the same question that comes up way too often, and gets lost counting the dark flecks that scatter across the white expanse of the all-too-familiar hospital ceiling. Here again, and ‘He’ll be fine,’ the doctor says.

His dad wants to hear it from Stiles’ lips, though. Is he okay?

Is he really okay?

His answer doesn’t come as easily as it used to, no quip or snap back like it’s easy come easy go. The feckless lie sticks in the back of his throat, burning away like a hot coal choking the life out of him.

I’m fine.

He’s said it more than a million times, and no super-hearing anybody has heard his heart skip a single beat. Or maybe they did, but that thought doesn’t make it any easier, because that means they’ve ignored it a million times, too. And it should be easy, he’s brilliant at lying straight to his father’s face these days. Stiles knows how to twist a definition to make it true, how to believe in nothing and make it something.

He’s fine.

Molehills out of mountains.
Tip of the iceberg.

Shrink it down until it’s just an ember, a single flicker of pain low in his chest. It burns enough to remind him that it’s there, but cool enough for him to force the words out.

He stops counting the tiny holes in the ceiling, and plasters a bright, brilliant lie across his face.

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Art History for Dummies

I’m a big art and art history fan. Unfortunately, between college, work, and other commitments I don’t get to create to a decent standard as much as I’d like to but I hope to return to that once the little issue of getting a degree is out of the way. Through time spent looking for work to blatantly plagiarise and actually studying artists’ work for the Leaving Cert., I’ve picked up a decent amount of art history knowledge. If I ever need to give a TED Talk style presentation on something it would be on my favourite art history movements. Although who can tell whether this is because I’m actually a little knowledgeable this field or I’m just incredibly stupid in others.

Regardless, below is a brief outline of not only four of my favourite art movements, but four of the most important and significant art movements in history. Designed to give the art history rookie a decent understanding into art’s biggest movements, you can now be confident that if you ever find yourself in an art gallery, you can charm your way to impressing whatever party you may find yourself with.

Impressionism

Characterised by: Small, visible brushstrokes, use of light, ordinary subject matter, use of and representation of movement

Championed by: Claude Monet, Edgar Degas, Camille Pissaro, Pierre-Auguste Renoir

Impressionism is a 19th Century art movement which came about essentially when a group of artists, tired of the stuffy and outdated standard of art expected in Paris at the time, decided to go in a different direction, in terms of subject matter, technique and style. To make any sort of decent living as an artist at Paris at the time (the place to be for art, what’s changed?) your best bet was to submit a piece of work to the French Salon, Paris’s official art exhibition. However, the selection committee for the Salon were quite particular in what they would display, preferring art done using traditional styles perfected by the old masters and specific subject matter (generally religious or inspired by monarchy in some way). Meaning that anyone who dared to submit anything that varied from this strict set of ideals was fresh outta luck.

Édouard Manet was the artist responsible for bridging the gap between the previous major art movements of romanticism and realism, and the new movement, impression. His piece Le déjeuner sur l'herbe (the luncheon on the grass, pictured below) caused a fair bit of a stir in the art community at the time. Mostly because of the naked prostitute in the forefront (Pro Art History Tip: if there’s a naked woman in a painting from the 19th century, you can be fairly confident she’s a prostitute). This did not sit well with our stuffy friends at the Salon, who when upon seeing this exclaimed “Oh my word, what is this?!” while clutching their pearls (or so I’d like to imagine). It was described as “ugly” and “risqué” in terms of its subject matter (to which I’d say no sh*t Sherlock, that’s the point”). But it did pave the way for true impressionists to make their mark (while Manet was a key figurehead in the impressionist movement, he wasn’t actually an impressionist painter himself).

Claude Monet is the father of Impressionism. His piece Impression Sunrise, featured below, inspired the name of the art movement and truly captures the characteristics of the movement:

Interestingly, a lot of these Impressionist artists were active in Paris at the same time and would often hang out in Parisian bars drinking absinthe (inspiring a Degas piece by the same name). When they all (predictably) were rejected from the Salon, they gave them the ultimate f*ck you by setting up Salon des Refusés, which literally translates to “the exhibition of rejects”, where they could display their work. This went down about as well as you’d expect given the circumstances. Ballers.

Post Impressionism

Characterised By: A more developed use of colour than that of impressionists. Post-impressionists use colour as a way of expressing emotion and are less concerned that things are accurately represented colour-wise. Subject matter is quite ordinary and are not always depicted to scale.

Championed By: Paul Cézanne, Paul Gauguin, Vincent van Gogh, and Georges Seurat.

Despite the (ironically) less than creative name, post impressionism is a really interesting point in art history’s timeline. Impressionism marked the moment that art really started to change rapidly. Post-impressionists rejected the limitiations that impression presented but still took influence from it. Post-impressionism artists continued using vivid colours, often thick application of paint, and real-life subject matter, but were more inclined to emphasize geometric forms, distort form for expressive effect, and use unnatural or arbitrary colour.

Arguably the most famous post-impressionist (and my personal favourite artist) was Vincent Van Gogh, whose huge arsenal of work is recognisable worldwide. Van Gogh famously suffered with mental illness during his lifetime and this is evident in his work, which can border on sinister at times. If you can deal with science-fiction, I’d recommend the Van Gogh episode of Doctor Who (Episode title “Vincent and the Doctor”, season 5), which does an excellent job of portraying Van Gogh’s inner turmoil and why his work remains so influential today. Also, if you’re ever in Amsterdam, do yourself the biggest favour and go to the Van Gogh museum. Splurge and get the audio guide. It’s an incredibly enriching and educating experience. I had a moment in that gallery, I’m not going to lie.

If you don’t have time to watch that Doctor Who Episode in its entirety, at least watch this clip from it (although why they didn’t film this scene in the freaking Van Gogh museum remains a mystery to me):



Vincent Van Gogh “Wheat field with Crows”

Georges Seurat “A Sunday on La Grande Jatte”

Cubism

Characterised By: Subject matter that is rounded, reassembled and almost 3D looking.

Championed By: Georges Braque and Pablo Picasso

Cubism followed post-impressionism and is considered one of the most influential art movements of the 20th Century. In Cubist artwork, objects are analysed, broken up and reassembled in an abstracted form—instead of depicting objects from a single viewpoint, the artist depicts the subject from a multitude of viewpoints to represent the subject in a greater context. Cubism was a turning point in the art world, leading to multiple diverse art movements that would have been unprecedented before.

The most famous artist of this movement was Pablo Picasso. Some people (who are wrong) may put forward the (incorrect) viewpoint that Pablo Picasso wasn’t a very talented artist. These people are (you guessed it) wrong, and if you hear anyone verbalising such an opinion you are responsible to hit them with the FACTS. Pablo Picasso was an incredibly gifted artist, and this included his technical skills. Even as a child he could paint images so realistic you’d think they were a photograph. But he (and pretty much all the other artists I mention here) didn’t limited in the way they created and wanted to branch out in different directions. Some people may look at a piece of art and say that it required no technical skill to complete (which I can place a firm bet that if they tried to do so they’d fail – not because they’re untalented but because we’re talking about the greatest artists of all time here) but that isn’t the point. The point is that these artists we the first people to create art in this style. It’s easy to say it’s nothing special now, after 100 years of looking at this style. But truth be told movements like cubism were nothing short of ground breaking.

Pablo Picasso “Three Musicians”

Pop Art

Characterised By: Influence of mass culture – comic books, advertising, cultural figures and mundane cultural objects.

Championed By: Andy Warhol, Jasper Johns, Eduardo Paolozzi, Richard Hamilton and Robert Rauschenberg

Pop Art is an art movement that took place throughout the mid to late 1950’s that uses elements of popular culture as inspiration. Pop Art is widely recognisable and remains a popular movement in not just art but fashion, TV and social media. Pop Artists often use their work to express certain beliefs (sometimes political), which differentiates it from movements previously discussed here. Its use of recognisable images and people really shifted the direction that modern art was heading in.

Andy Warhol “Campbell’s Soup Cans”

Reader and Smoking Weed With The Jocks

Request: Okay… But smoking weed with the jocks tho and getting hella sideways. Like not just “one too many bong hits” fucked up bc that’s not shit but more like “I’m laying on the floor bc l just ate nine edibles and can’t feel my legs h e l p m e” kinda fucked up and the guys act like their laughing it off and stuff but they’re lowkey SUPER nervous and a tiny bit worried bc you literally can’t move, one of them had to help lift you on to the couch and your talking to Justin about something crazy like

 

A/N: Sorry for the wait on this. As you’ll soon tell, I’ve never been high, but I hope this is somewhat accurate.

 

Warnings: Drug use.

 

Reader and Smoking Weed With The Jocks…

  • Okay so when you first met the jocks you had never gotten high before

  • It all started with you hanging out with them when they got high most days after school

  • You never really joined in with them, but it was funny watching all of them lose their shit

  • You almost felt the need to take care of them in a way. You didn’t want them to hurt themselves while they weren’t able to think clearly enough to understand the seriousness of the situation

  • And then came finals week. And you’d had a super shitty day with school and your home life and just decided you were going to join them

  • They were super hesitant at first, but figured that with all of them there you couldn’t get yourself into that much trouble

  • But they were wrong

  • It started off fine. They made you take things slow, and you were just relieved to have the weight of the world off your shoulders

  • Then you couldn’t get enough of the feeling

  • The fact that it was your first time getting high went out the window completely, and you didn’t care how messed up you got, you just kept taking hits

  • It got funnier as time went on

  • Everything was funny. Zach’s voice, Justin’s shirt, Alex’s hair. All of it was hilarious to you

  • The boys were high too, but they just found you so cute that they completely forgot to make sure you paced yourself

  • You kept up with them the entire way, even taking a few more hits than they did

  • That was how you ended up sprawled across the floor, the ceiling turning into a beautiful motion picture above you

  • Half of the boys were gone with you, and you all lay spread out around the room in a daze

  • You’d eaten half of the food in the cupboard, even fighting with Monty over a small snack sized bag of chips

  • It didn’t really hit anyone how beyond gone you were until you started giggling to yourself

  • “What so funny?”

  • “I can’t move my legs”

  • That’s when the panic set in a little with the boys. They all started to argue between each other what they should do. Monty even suggested they call Jeff for help, but everyone knew that would just end in a full on lecture

  • You just brushed them off though, you were fine, really, more than fine in fact. You felt perfect. The boys soon figured out you could in fact move, you just had no desire to and no strength left in you

  • Justin picked you up with Zach and they put you on the couch, where you snuggled into Alex’s side

  • After that none of them would let you out of their sight. They kept checking up on you and declared no more smoking for the afternoon. The funniest part was when they all had to come together and come up with a lie to tell your parents as to why you couldn’t go home that night. Needless to say Jess received a few messages begging her to cover for you all

  • The boys were reluctant after that to let you get high again, but you of course used you puppy dog eyes and it wasn’t hard to convince them. It was a favourite pastime for you all, and you honestly adored the weightless feeling it gave you



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Yoongi Scenario: Cold Water.

Request: Hi, so i hope you can do this story for me, i want a yoongi scenario with him being my boyfriend and he helps through depression, like he helps when i have a panic attack or when i feel i can’t breathe.. it’s really angst but i really want this scenario with him. She doesn’t want to burden him but also wants his help and he is very supportive boyfriend. Thank you girls

Genre: Angst / Fluff.


You closed your eyes tightly as another thought came to your mind, like by closing your eyes to the world you could do the same with what happened with the images your brain formed, only that you had to try twice, thrice as hard.

They were like arrows, penetrating your mind with a sharp edge of venom,  they also tended to come without warning, even when you were doing the simplest things such as cooking a meal, while at work or when watching tv with your boyfriend, it didn’t matter where you were or what you were doing, the thoughts came to you making your stomach shrink and suddenly whatever you were doing faded away as you tried to fight back and calm down. 

If you thought that your life didn’t have an accurate course and you were going to end up homeless, then you tried to think that you were doing everything in your power to not end up like that, you worked hard and were cautious, it shouldn’t be like that, even if right now you weren’t doing what you studied for, you told yourself that you would see the end through this and your dreams would be fulfilled. But it wasn’t that easy. 

Because technically your life could go down to shit at any moment.

You closed them tight again and felt a hand intertwine with your fingers to then give it a squeeze. Yoongi slid closer until his nose was brushing your ear, silently he held your hand, letting you feel his body closer. His soft breathing tickled your ear but you didn’t mind, if anything it was relieving, you were there with him, your life wasn’t what your fears pictures it to be.

-Hey- he whispered after some minutes. -Don’t let it get to you- he said before he kissed your cheek, so tenderly like you could disappear if was too rough, Yoongi was so loving it made you want to cry.

You didn’t deserve him, he didn’t deserve this.

Again you closed your eyes and you felt that squeeze in your hand. -You want to share?- he said after another couple of minutes.

-No, I’m ok- you whispered turning to him, giving him a kiss to then accommodated your face at the crook of his neck. 

He just held you close, not insisting or pressing you to talk, Yoongi was gentle like that, your silence wasn’t pregnant with unsaid things, it was if anything reassuring that you could talk whenever you were ready, and that he was going to be there to listen, holding your hand and keeping you close.

-It’s ok if you have some other thing to do Yoongi, I’m fine- it was a bit of a lie but also felt it was unfair to him to be here, even if you wanted him to stay.

You felt him kiss the top of your head. -Nah, I’m free today, let’s take a nap-
That made you smile, the king of napping you’d call him since he’d take a nap literally anywhere, so you snuggled more to him, his presence easing you to sleep.

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Identical Cousins, Bitches.

Well, after reading this last night… I kind of can’t stop thinking about all the ways this makes sense. I’ve shrugged off a ton of twin theories, because over all the idea bores me. But placing the characters in context, it really does fit the most empty spots.

 If you didn’t follow the link, it’s a still from the official 7B promo. It very clearly shows Sasha walking with Jenna, both apparently blind. Both wearing sunglasses and carrying walking sticks, walking side by side. Thanks to @charleswkingston for catching it and posting it! And thanks to @a-rebel-boy for posting his suspicion that it was a sign they were going with the Courtney/Ali twin plot (from the books) after all.

 So since then, my mind has been putting together a lot of pieces, and as dull as I always found the idea, there are a lot of ways it can sew up some open ends.

 So, my interpretation, literally just based on that post, is: 

-Ali has an identical sibling. 

-I would assume to thread together all the plot holes, that twin is Bethany. Obviously this explains why we’ve never seen her face.

 -Bethany is not her birth name. She is actually (placeholder name will be Courtney) Drake. 

-Bethany is the daughter of Mary and Ken (Or this Drake guy, that Mary may have taken her last name from?). 

-Ali is the daughter of Jessica and Ken (Or this Drake guy.)

That makes Ali and Bethany both cousins and half sisters. It ALSO makes them biologically identical, as if they were actually sisters. Jessica and Mary have identical DNA as twins, and if Ken is both of their fathers (OR someone else, but the father is the same), that means they have the same DNA both paternally and Maternally. Which actually makes them identical twins, despite having different mothers. Which, P.S., makes a ton of sense in relation to the “ADA or Ardor” post I made.

So to be clear here, We are talking about the Courtney/Ali story, not being just identical twins. But actual Identical cousins. (yes, this is actually possible.)

Ashley Benson said about her reaction to A.D. That: “I would have never guessed that it was even a possibility, so I was very shocked.” That could point towards her not knowing the biological possibility that half siblings can be identical if the differing parents were identical twins.

 We’ve all pointed out how very easy it would be for Mary to have seduced Peter, since Peter would have thought that it was Jessica. The same could easily apply to Ken. Though, for all we know, it was Jessica who was pretending to be Mary. 

Ooooh! Remember that Bethany was angry at Mrs. Dilaurentis, because she had been having an affair with her father? Well, if they have the same dads, then, yes… someone was definitely having an affair with someone’s dad. 

Remember the entire thing about Jessica taking Bethany to the horse farm, and asking her to call her ‘Aunt Jessie?’ Well, if she is Mary Drake’s daughter, then that would be totally accurate. 

OK, so Bethany and Ali are identical cousins but also twins. from here the theory starts to ramble a bit… but I’m holding steady on the Identical twins things. 

Bonus: Remember when Yvonne and Toby revealed a fondness for watching Retro TV? This gives Toby the basis to acknowledge that it’s just like “The Patty Duke Show”. Which, if you’ve never seen it, is a mid-60′s TV show, where actress Patty Duke plays dual roles as cousins who are completely Identical. The theme song is iconic. “They’re cousins… Identical cousins, all the way…”

 Let’s talk about Jenna and Bethany. 

Remember when Jenna came to town, and she said she knew all about Ali? At the costume shop in the Halloween episode, she made it pretty clear that she learned all about Ali before she got to Rosewood. And then at Ali’s memorial service, Jenna says “My whole life, I thought I knew who Ali was.”

  So imagine that Bethany and Jenna met before Jenna came to Rosewood? Maybe Jenna knows her from Radley? She would know as much about Ali as Bethany would’ve learned. And she would, of course, be a line to Bethany with info from that point on. 

In the promo, we see Ali and Jenna walking side by side, both seemingly blind. So we can assume that this is happening after 'the Jenna thing’. I don’t imagine that Ali will be going blind and hanging out with Jenna any time soon, so it sort of stands to reason that this is a flashback? 

So what if Bethany was actually in the shed with Jenna? So both Bethany and Jenna sustained eye damage, and would both have gone through education and recovery at the same time. This makes sooo much more sense of why 7x10 took place in a school for the blind. Maybe Bethany only lost her sight temporarily. Maybe her eye surgery was successful. Regardless, I think she’d have to have regained her sight almost completely to be carrying on in any 'A’ shenanigans. It would be hard to be blind and pretending to be Ali. And unless Bethany really did die that night, then yea, she would be pretending to be Ali at least some of the time. 

Bonus: In Ezra’s lair, as well as, I believe, several ‘A’ lairs… there is a picture of Ali, with eyes cut out. Clue towards Bethany having lost her sight?

It starts to seem like this entire story revolves around 'the Jenna thing’. But it’s really 'The Bethany thing’ the night that Ali showed her true colors to Bethany. 

OK, so fast forward to ‘That Night’: The part about Bethany being lured out by Ali would be true. It’s hard to say what Ali’s plan would’ve been? To stop the A notes? To kill Bethany so everyone would think it was Ali’s body? I definitely do think that it was always Ali’s intention to fake her death. “That’s immortality my darlings.” I’m just not sure what kind of timeline that would have had. If Grunwald definitely pulled Ali or Bethany out of the grave… then how were their remains found in the backyard? Someone would HAVE to have died that night, right? They can’t both have escaped, unless there was a third person buried there? Of course, Ali being identified as Bethany or Bethany being identified as Ali makes sense, So it’s possible that one of them died on 'that night’. But I don’t think so.

 I’d wager more money that Bethany was buried by Jessica, while Ali went on the run. And then Grunwald came by and pulled Bethany out of the grave. Leaving both Ali and Bethany alive. And perhaps a med school cadaver buried in THAT place, so that Ali wouldn’t find out that Bethany was alive? (Page 5 of Ali’s autopsy anyone? Perhaps a reference to it clearly being a medical cadaver?) 

After that night, we have both Ali and Bethany out there. Bethany knows Ali is alive, but at first Ali believes Bethany to be dead. (Or maybe they’re both playing together. But I think maybe not.) 

Now, fast forward to season 3. It seems sort of fair to say that up until that point, A’s plan has been to draw Ali out of hiding? It certainly seems that someone is bent on proving that Ali is still alive. And proving that the body buried in her grave, isn’t actually her goes a long way towards that. 

Premiere of season 3, Em gets seduced into leaving the house and to dig up Ali’s grave. Before she digs up the grave, she’s at a diner where someone has written the note “I’m sorry I left you.” That’s a very Emily to Ali message to me. So as of 3x01- this could very likely be Ali asking Emily to dig up the body, so that no one can prove she’s still alive. Or it could be Bethany pretending to be Ali, so she can use the body as proof and lure Ali out. Since Jenna is the one who was driving, I’d guess that it was Bethany having Ali’s grave dug up. (While she was there as Red Coat.) 

Mona was either working with Ali or Bethany. I would assume Bethany. This explains why when Mona was admitted to Radley after her A reveal, she said “Don’t they know that’s what WE want them to think?” And why we see her talking to Ali in a red coat while she is a patient. She’s actually talking to Bethany when she says “I did everything you told me to." 

There’s a lot more to think about with this. Because I feel certain that Lucas, Ezra, Toby, and and, of course CeCe are more deeply entwined with this. And I certainly have ideas, but I think this is enough for one post. But I for certain think that someone might have had a romantic link to Bethany. 

           CLAIRSENTIENCE/EMPATHIC (Intuitive Feeling)

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Clairsentience is also known as ’Clear Feeling’ or ’Clear Sensing’ and is very closely linked with the gift of Empathy (they’re both basically the same thing, which is why I’ve decided to group them together.)  See, Empathy and Clairsentience are within the same spectrum of gifts that are based on feeling/sensing the emotions and energies of the world around us. But, Clairsentience is a more intense version of Empathy which takes on a wider range of sensitivities. 

Where an Empath has the ability to sense and feel emotions of people, animals or objects, a Clairsentient person is able to do all of that as well as physically feel energy fields around them, including a person’s aura and voice. So while the two are similar and it is very likely that an Empath can develop a greater Clairsentient gift, it strongly relies on the drive and trust in an individual’s own intuition to tap into fully. We have to trust that what we are feeling is true and act accordingly; it’s so important to remember that we cannot take on and help everyone either. Sometimes the best we can do is protect our own energy, it’s not being selfish, it’s called being SAFE.

In the beginning, you may find that it can be very challenging to understand, because sometimes you will feel things but, you don’t know where it’s coming from or why it’s coming to you. It can be strange at times because you may even feel physical sensations like tickling, goosebumps or weird pressure. Imagery and words DO have an effect on the body so, it may even help to cut back on some of the crazy shows and become more aware of how you speak. It’s important to understand that your words are spells and they should always be used wisely. You may even find now that you can’t watch gore-type movies for example, because they feel physical pain that you feel. Ugh, I know that now just thinking about the ORIGINAL Hostel movie (the LAST gore film I ever watched, legit) I can feel my stomach turn and I get a weird lumpy feeling in my throat. Never again, nope. 

Anyways, sometimes information or specific details will pop into your mind and they will have come out of the blue, literally from nowhere. You will generally feel the emotions and energy of people and the environment around you. The more you develop this gift, you will find that you will have a good sense of what someone is thinking. You might feel exactly what another person around you is feeling, their happiness, sadness and even aggression. You may feel just kind of heavy or off when you meet a new person who ends up being more narcissistic than anything. You may get anxious for no reason or feel random pent up emotions that suddenly burst out like a popped balloon without warning. But, most of all you will just be able to sense the presence of another being before you see them, you’ll just know when someone is having the best or the worst day of their life. Trusting your intuition will greatly help you to know whether you should put your energy and trust into a situation or a person. 

So, how do you know that it’s not ‘all in your head’? Well, we test it! Have you had experiences of overwhelming emotions or energy from people animals, or for just no freaking reason at all? Does it expand to objects and places too? Have you ever felt emotionally attached to someone, even at a distance and can easily call on them in dreams, random thoughts or flashes of insight? Maybe you have a pattern of people not understanding or saying that you are just being “too sensitive” or have a very “vivid imagination”. Are you able to understand energy by words and body language by easily picking up on small cues that others don’t? Perhaps you can sense the presence of spirits, or are aware of the strong energy that will suddenly surround you. Are you highly sensitive to your surroundings to the point where they can put a damper on your emotions or do large crowds make you physically feel ill and call for a serious recharge after? If any of these situations sound familiar, it’s very possible you are an Empath with the ability to tap into clairsentience on a deeper level.

A fun activity you could try is to ask a friend to show you a picture of somebody they know well (obviously make sure you don’t know the person too lol) and then look into the person’s eyes and focus on their energy. Ask yourself how they must have felt at the moment of the photo being taken? What this individual is like as a person? Would you trust the person? Is there anything else the person’s eyes are revealing or rather hiding? After a few minutes of gaining insight, check with your friend to see how accurate you were! Your first time you may only get basic feelings like a burst of positivity or negativity but, the more you practice, the more you will begin to feel, understand and see the opportunities that this beautiful gift has in store for you.

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*This concludes the ‘CLAIR’ posts. If you have missed any and want to read more, click the link at the top of this post. Have any areas you would like me to cover? Shoot me an ask for in-depth write-ups!

a DAMN GOOD IGNIS MOMENT.



But really, the more I watch it the more I realise it’s not only a fantastic Ignis moment, it’s a fantastic Chocobros moment in general? REALLY LONG POST AHEAD + UNFINISHED GAMEPLAY WRITING BUT THIS SCENE

Lemme start with Ignis because duh (if you’ve seen anything out of me the past two weeks, it’s probably been Ignis related). He’s been pretty passive about losing his eyesight up until this point. He calls it a minor sacrifice in the grand scheme of things. When Noctis and Gladio fight on the train, Ignis says nothing, even though part of the argument is his own injury. He only tries to stop Gladio by saying his name; Prompto is the one who tries to break it up (more in a moment. anyway not that Ignis really could break it up rn but you know) He’s been optimistic enough about it, though. “I’ll manage somehow” when you invite him into the mines. “This is considerably harder than I expected” he says about fighting. But sometimes you hear the boys say something and Iggy just sort of sighs. They’re dancing around him, and his injury, and the argument, and this scene is where it culminates.

The first time he actually says that it isn’t okay is because of their friendship hitting a low point, rather than his actual injury. But he is so, so aware of that injury and how it has the potential to drag them down. He still says “I would remain with you all. Til the very end” because these are his brothers and he damn well plans to, but that said.

This is the first time we hear Ignis raise his voice, I think. Not including battle cries and the like. Which is saying a lot because this boy is very, very calculated on his emotions. (ie later on when Prompto falls off the train, you hear the very audible difference in Noctis’s voice vs Iggy’s) He’s Crownsguard, Noctis is his king, he will do anything for him, and believes he has no reason to complain even if he has gone blind. But that’s a Big Thing. His yelling in this scene exactly “I know full well!” is finally, finally his frustration coming out and it’s triggered because of their bickering (or anti-bickering, since they aren’t really… speaking much).

He says he is willing to bow out if he starts to slow them down, which imo is like asking him to suffer a physical injury all over again (he is Crownsguard, Noctis is his king, he will do anything for him) but he still will DO IT because he won’t be a burden.

He goes on to give Noctis what, I think, is a much needed confidence boost. “A king pushes onward always, accepting the consequences and never looking back” and in the opening sentences for the next chapter, it literally uses those same words to describe Noct’s reaction to Ardyn’s trick: never looking back. (Also never looking back is exactly what Ignis is doing right now, which is why the choice to focus the camera so much on his scars in that moment is AMAZING.)

He continues with that to tell Gladio that Noct will be king and he will rule, but “only once he’s ready”. And this is SO important. Gladio’s interaction with Noct is painful at least and rage inducing at worst (more below) but not only does Noct need to hear this, Gladio does, too. They can push Noctis into that throne but he will never be able to lead until he is ready, and that involves coming to terms with some very, very heavy stuff that’s been happening. Everybody doesn’t handle grief the same way and they’re all having a hard go at it in very different ways thanks to the events of late.

So all of this makes this the DAMN GOOD IGNIS MOMENT. But it’s also really good for the rest of them, both in mentioned ways and others, but since I’m apparently waxing poetic 

Prompto, Gladio, and Noctis under the cut ↓ (note: 150% zoom for easier reading)

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anonymous asked:

I don't really understand self dx. I was professionally diagnosed when I was a teen. The point of a diagnosis is to get support and accommodations, that's why professionals diagnose people. You can't get that with self dx. I see people say that they're "questioning" a diagnosis the way people question their sexuality or gender. Disorders cause functioning issues in your life. It wasn't like that when I discovered my sexuality.

When people talking about questioning a diagnosis, it isn’t like figuring out what your gender or sexuality is like. It is a different experience, with different feels. Usually it is because they notice something is wrong and they do want help.

Not all care, however, comes from professionals. Support groups, blogs like this, online and in-person communities, they all play a role in treatment. A lot of times, that is the only support a person needs, and doctor’s aren’t required to participate in those things.

Questioning a diagnosis usually means that a person suspects that they know what is wrong, but they are still researching and studying because they don’t want to make a mistake that has drastic consequences. Thinking of questioning as, “I suspect it is X, but I’m not entirely sure.”

Accommodations are only one tool, and a lot of times doctors do not have to be involved with asking for accommodations. Sometimes they do. My first semester at college, all of my accommodations were worked out with each individual professor. I didn’t need medical proof because the accommodations I asked for were within the limits of a professor’s discretion.

I struggled with those accommodations so ultimately I did decide to get a clinical diagnosis because the accommodations I wanted required a higher standard of proof - which is to say, it wasn’t enough to know what the diagnosis was, they needed a clearer picture of exactly how it affected me so they could justify accommodations that otherwise would have given me an unfair advantage.

A lot of times, medical options aren’t even available. There is nothing a doctor can give me to treat my autism directly. All of my support comes from the community, and that is what my therapist wants me to do. If it were not for college and the need for accommodations, I would have no use at all for a clinical diagnosis of autism.

But even with conditions that can be treated, why would a person not seek a clinical diagnosis? Well, here’s a few reason why a person wouldn’t seek a clinical diagnosis.

  • No money (poor people often can’t afford non-emergency medical care).
  • Racism (this is significant and well studied bias against POCs, and especially black people).
  • Sexism (this is also significant and well studied; women’s pain isn’t taken as seriously as men’s).
  • Ageism (I was literally told I was too young for anything to be wrong with my joints, it must be growing pains, and after I was on my own as an adult, it was assumed I was exaggerating).
  • Medical Abuse (some of us have experienced significant abuse by the medical system, particularly where psychology is concerned).
  • Medical Ignorance (I lost count of the number of times doctors told me that they didn’t know anything about autism in adults).
  • Self Medication (depending on what the problem is, OTCs may even be the first line treatment for pain control).
  • Self Treatment (especially with mental health, peer support is often first line treatment).
  • Lack of Experts (some things require referral to specialists that simply aren’t available… try getting an evaluation for EDS, Marfan’s or LDS in rual America).
  • The Knowledge is Available (accurate information is available online; the same tools doctors use, even).
  • No Clinical Tests (psychology is largely self-report based, with testing available when it is needed to qualify specific needs for accommodations, but most diagnosis is based entirely on what you tell them).
  • Repetition in Treatment (CBT and mindfulness work for me for dysphoria, depression and anxiety, I don’t need to learn how to how AGAIN for my OCD - I just need to know that I have OCD so that I know what to apply the techniques to).
  • No Choice In Doctors (especially in small towns, if you need medication you are SOL if the doc doesn’t like prescribing medications, likewise you are SOL if you want therapy and only have access to doctors that want to prescribe meds).
  • Stigma (especially in negative perceptions of mental illness, once you have that label you can’t get rid of it).
  • Consequences (the American Bar Association notes that 80% of individuals that seek custody with mental illness don’t get custody compared to 16% of physically disabled with comparable disability).
  • Job Loss (yeah, it’s illegal, but it is also super easy to get away with firing disabled people).
  • Joblessness (try getting a job when you disclose that you need accommodations).

- Sam

Epic Movie (Re)Watch #144 - Coraline

Spoilers below

Have I seen it before: Yes

Did I like it then: Yes.

Do I remember it: Yes.

Did I see it in theaters: No.

Format: Blu-ray

1) Director Henry Selick is probably best known for his work as director on The Nightmare Before Christmas, but I personally think (and this may be considered blasphemy) that Coraline is his magnum opus. More on that coming up.

2) In both horror and animation, a well done score can boost the tone of the film remarkably. And composer Bruno Coulais is able to turn in a score notable for its subtlety and tone boosting. It is able to be ominous, child like, fantastical, and creepy all at the same time. That is actually a perfect way of describing this film.

3) Animation fans with eagle eyes will notice that the movers in the beginning in the film are the “Ranft Brothers”. Joe Ranft was a legendary animator, known mostly for his work at Pixar until his tragic death. His brother is a noteworthy animator too, Jerome Ranft. The movers are animated in the likenesses of the brothers (you even get a glance at a name tag reading “Jerome”), with Joe being the mover who gets the crummy tip and Jerome Ranft voicing his counterpart.

4) Dakota Fanning as Coraline Jones.

Originally posted by black-rabbit-in-winter

Coraline is not your typical animated heroine, which is exactly why she is such an amazing character. She’s a bit of a snot actually. She’s bratty, shown to be mean, overdramatic, sarcastic, winey, and it is all amazing! Because she’s not ONLY those things! She’s also fun, intelligent, clever, imaginative and adventurous. For most of the film she is at odds with her parents but she risks her film for them because, well, they’re her parents! The best way to describe Coraline is as a kid. An honest portrayal of a kid! Not totally one thing or another and not nearly as oblivious as some people may expect. Dakota Fanning (who was attached to the role when the film was meant to be live action even) is perfect in the part, able to portray all of Coraline’s qualities with wonderful ease while totally losing herself in the role. Coraline is the title character which means we - as the audience - NEED to be invested in her for this film to be any good. And the filmmakers did an excellent job making sure we were just that: invested.

5)

Coraline [after seeing The Cat]: “Not talking, huh?”

Originally posted by wish-for-the-moon

6) This film is a little more adult than your typical animated fare, something which is established pretty early when Coraline refers to Wybie as her stalker. It is a decision in tone and content which works wonderfully for the film.

7) Wybie.

Originally posted by bluebomb29

We don’t get to see much of Wybie in the film. Well, that’s not entirely true. We don’t get to see much of Wybie compared to CORALINE, who is the lead and is therefore in every scene except for the one that plays during the opening credits. But in the time we see him it is very clear that this is the neighborhood weird kid. And it’s done accurately too! He’s not the butt of any joke, he’s not someone who’s supposed to be a creep or a plot device. Just like Coraline, he’s an honest representation of the kids out in the world who are sort of strange.

8) Dang, Coraline can be mean!

Coraline [after someone calls for Wyborne ‘Wybie’s’ name]: “Oh I definitely heard someone, Why Were You Born.”

Like, sure the dude is sorta weird, but he’s been pretty nice so far. But that’s part of Coraline’s character, and we see that side of her go on a bit of a transformation throughout the film.

9) Film is first and foremost a visual way of storytelling and animation can do that better than live action can if done right. Through animation you are able to portray the character of things (not just your characters but places and items) through design. Through your visuals. Take this film for example: the real world is marked by a more subdued color palette and look. Everything - including Coraline’s parents - look grey, tired, and worn down. Something which creates an immediate visual conflict through Coraline, who from the very start gives off these incredible vibrant and lively colors. It is a visual conflict which is reflective of a textual one that works wonders for the film.

Originally posted by rippedheartsandbrokendreams

10) It would have been easy to make Coraline a total brat and her parents good parents who try their hardest, but Mom and Dad aren’t perfect either. Mom particularly shows us where Coraline got her attitude, sarcasm, and occasional brattiness from (and I know “brat” has negative connotations to it but I love Coraline so when I call her a “brat” I’m doing so with love because that trait is something I think is a great writing decision for her character). It also gets to the idea that a friend of mine told me once: parents are just kids who have kids. Parents don’t know what they’re doing when they have kids, they’re making it up as they go along. Which means they’re not perfect. They can get tired and impatient and mean too, and showing that in this film continues its honesty streak. That honesty - in relationships in characters - is what helps make it so great.

11) I can’t IMAGINE what animating the tunnel sequence was like.

Originally posted by bitemytonguedarling

I mean stop motion animation is moving something a tiny bit, then taking a picture. And you repeat that process over and over again with puppets until you have a moving image like this one. So the tunnel on its own - with the lighting and the fabric - must have been a pain to animate. But then Coraline walking through it? And jostling it around, but the animators have to make sure that jostling is perfect in every frame? I do NOT have the patience for stop motion animation, I tell you. Or the fingers. I don’t have delicate fingers.

12) The Other World.

Originally posted by disneyskellington

Going with the idea of visual conflict, there is immediately more of a peace between Coraline’s vibrant colors and the creative rainbow like Other World she finds herself in. This resolves most of the visual conflict ON THE SURFACE, but everywhere there are these black buttons. These little dark specs that just liter the world in hard to see places, things which can easily get lost in the magic of it all but are always there. Hiding in plain sight.

The Other World - both in its dream and nightmare phases - show off Selick’s wild imagination. The best animation directors have a penchant for imaginative visuals, using the medium to do things live action couldn’t (something I observed in my The Book of Life post back in November). Selick as not only animator but production designer on this film is able to create some wonderful and memorable images of dream like fantasy which makes the transition to nightmarish scenes in the back half of the film all the more powerful. It is truly wonderful.

13) According to IMDb:

The band They Might Be Giants wrote 10 songs for the movie, but a change in tone from a musical to a darker production meant that all but one was cut; a scene in which Coraline’s other father sings along with a piano features John Linnell’s voice. The band has said they will release the other songs created for the movie in other projects, including albums.

Originally posted by captainestablishment-blog-blog

14) It is worth noting that the initial dinner Coraline has with her Other Parents is more of a Norman Rockwell, classic/idyllic image than her dinner at home (in both the food served and the look of the place). This relates to the film’s almost critique (I say almost because I do not know if it was intended, but it very well could have been) on expectations vs reality. How we have let certain fantasies shape our expectations in the real world and if we find something that fits those expectations perfectly it’s probably a lie.

15) Teri Hatcher shines in this film, particularly as Other Mother. There are three sort of phases to her performance as Other Mother which I will discuss individually as they occur. The first of these is the initial encounter with Other Mother. The sweet sing-song tones filled with love and warmth which can trick someone into thinking its honesty but when you listen there is DEFINITELY something false about it. A faux kindness which can catch you off guard. No one is really that kind, that nice. That’s the face you put on for company when it’s over and not one you can sustain forever.

Originally posted by disneyskellington

16) Ian McShane as Mr. Bobinsky.

I observed in my recap for the Selick directed The Nightmare Before Christmas that the film was able to create unique characterizations within seconds of introducing us to said characters which lasted consistently throughout the rest of the film. In this film - especially with Coraline’s neighbors - the same holds true. We are able to get a sense of what kind of fun weirdo Mr. Bobinsky is within seconds of meeting him, someone who’s a bit of a nut but also a generally nice guy, and that lasts through the end of the film. Ian McShane does a wonderful job as Bobinsky and out of the three neighbors (Bobinksy and the two actresses), Bobinsky is my personal favorite.

It is also worth observing Bobinsky’s character design here. As I said before, animation tells you a lot through its visuals about a character. Small elements in Bobinsky’s design make him a bit more human than say your average Prince Charming or seven dwarfs. The ratty shirt, the unkempt body hair, the big gut. All of it gives Bobinsky not only a sense of character but a sense of realism, as life is not always as pretty as we expect. This plays DIRECTLY into Other Bobinsky’s appearances, notably how he is better dressed AND his torso is upside down. Instead of having a large stomach, he has a large chest suggesting strength. THAT is your fairytale version of Bobinsky right there and - like everything else in the Other World - it’s a lie.

Originally posted by fuckyesanimatedgifs

17) Similarly, the two actress neighbors of Miriam Forcible and April Spink are established as weird but lovable dog ladies as soon as we meet them.

I mentioned before how this film plays with the ideas of expectations vs reality, and that becomes pretty clear after we meet Coraline’s neighbors. This is not some fairytale for Coraline. In a fairytale Mr. Bobinsky would run an incredible jumping mouse circus, not be a vaguely crazy man trying to create a jumping mouse circus (I say with love). And the pair of Miriam and April would be elegant world famous actresses, not two washed up has-beens (I say with love). But you know what? This is EXACTLY what they are in the Other World! The fairytale versions of themselves that is meant to be exactly what Coraline wants. And just like the change in design for Bobinsky in the Other World, Miriam and April get similar beautifications.

Originally posted by hrmphfft

Now they’re as pretty as any fairytale princess with a waistline to match, because that’s the “better” version of this isn’t it? Except it’s not real. It’s a lie, meant to entrap you and keep you from having a good REAL life. I sort of love that about this film.

18)

Coraline [after Other Mother asks her to get her father]: “You mean my other father?”

Other Mother: “You’re better father, dear.”

Originally posted by gif-007

Red flag! Red flag! That’s a creepy thing to say Other Mother! (It is also here when we start noticing the fakeness of Other Mother’s nice voice.)

19) I keep mentioning how you can detect a slight hint of fakeness in Other Mother’s face. The hint is not so slight in Other Father’s voice. There’s nothing real there, nothing honest. Just fake honey that’s meant to entice Coraline. And I think that’s because Other Mother is the mastermind and she’s making Other Father BE like that. It’s a nice choice on the part of the filmmakers and actor John Hodgman I think.

20)

Other Mother [about Other ‘Silent’ Wybie]: “I thought you’d like him more if he spoke a little less. So I fixed him.”

Originally posted by gif-007

If anyone says they “fixed” a person, turn around and run like crazy away. That’s creepy.

21) Hmm, wonder which of her parents Coraline takes after…

Mom: “I did not call [Mr. Bobinsky] crazy, Coraline. He’s drunk.”

22) The. Freaking. CAT!!!!

Originally posted by aditlovesosweet

Can I just say first and foremost: I love Keith David. Dr. Facilier from The Princess and the Frog is my favorite Disney villain of all time in no small part because of Keith David’s voice over work as the character. And his role as The Cat is just as good. I love The Cat, which is saying a lot because I’m a dog person. David is able to work with the writing and make the character both wise and mischievous but in a unique, dark, sarcastic way. He’s also the first hint of trouble and the only character other than Coraline to travel between worlds. The animators do an excellent job making sure The Cat’s characterization is clear and consistent, even when he can’t speak in the real world. He’s an excellent addition to the film and a wonderful companion to our hero.

23) Everything gets real freaky real fast.

Originally posted by somethingstirringonhalloween

Originally posted by heckyescoraline-blog

Right after Other Mother asks to put buttons in Coraline’s eyes (or, more accurately, REPLACE her eyes with buttons) this film turns into a horror film. Full on Stephen King, Poltergeist, “Stranger Things” horror! (Not that I’ve seen or read any of those things because I scare too easily.) And it is born not from jump scares or gore but from tone. The atmosphere becomes notably chilly and ominous and everything just becomes so FREAKY. THAT is why I think this is Henry Selick’s magnum opus. Because he can be as scary as he want to be!

24) For me, one of the most powerful scenes in the movie is when Coraline walks around Other World.

Originally posted by filmvisionary

The simple decision to have her walk through a white abyss then find herself back in the Other World the Other Mother created just really works for me. It’s a simple yet elegant concept.

25) Other Mother’s truer form (her true form comes later).

Originally posted by disneyskellington

This is when Teri Hatcher and Other Mother start really shining as villains. There is still an attempt to be motherly, to be warm, but the creepy factor is turned up. There’s a sick playfulness there at times as well as terrifying anger. But this form is most marked by the cold reservedness. The chilling tones the Other Mother uses when taking to Coraline about the game they’re going to play. It’s crazy freaky and I love it for that!

26) There is no scene quite as haunting or quite as sad as when Coraline talks with the ghost kids.

Through its use of haunting visuals, eerie sound design, excellent writing, and top notch voice acting from the child actors, this one scene tells you perfectly what exactly the stakes are for this film. What exactly will happen to Coraline if she can’t succeed. And it’s terrifying.

27) I did not remember this line from before and the way Coraline describes the ghost kids to Wybie had me laughing my butt off.

Coraline [about the doll]: “It used to look like this pioneer girl, then Huck Finn Junior, then this ‘Little Rascals’ chick with hair ribbons…”

I don’t know why, but something about hearing her call the kid, “Huck Finn Junior,” is just wildly funny to me.

28) The entire idea of the eyes of the dead children being hidden in the “three wonders” Other Mother crafted for Coraline is not only an excellent way of juxtaposing some of the dream like imagery from earlier with its now nightmarish quality, but it also gives plot relevance to scenes which could have easily just been entertaining and excellent eye candy (Bobinsky’s circus, the garden, and the theater scene). It helps push the writing of this film from good to great.

29) So Coraline thinks she has lost her game with Other Mother and she’s going to end up like the ghost children, when a dead rat with the last eye falls in front of her and The Cat shows up.

The Cat: “I think I’ve mentioned that I don’t like rats at the best of times.”

Coraline: “You may have mentioned it.”

I love these guys.

30) Can we just take a second to appreciate how incredibly frightening Other Mother’s true form is?

Originally posted by callerofthecrows

Teri Hatcher gets to totally let lose as an actress with this final form of the Other Mother. There’s no more fake niceness, no more hiding, no more tricks. Just sheer, terrifying villainy in all its glory. It’s so creepy and evil and I love it!

Originally posted by frankensteinsbrides

31) If you’re ever in a jam with a homicidal maniac, just do what Coraline did:

Throw a cat at the homicidal maniac.

Originally posted by halloweenmagick

32) I find the web that Coraline falls into with Other Mother perhaps the most frightening visual of the whole film. I love it.

Originally posted by horsesaround

But the way Other Mother shouts after Coraline makes her way through the door is almost equally as terrifying to me. Just the desperation and madness in her voice gives me chills.

Other Mother: “Don’t leave me! Don’t leave me! I’ll die without you!”

33) It is a classic rule of suspense, an almost Hitchcockian rule (although I don’t think he invented it), that the story is never over when you think it is.

Originally posted by un-cadaver-en-el-armario

The entire final “battle” with Other Mother’s disembodied hand, how it drags Coraline away, how Wybie has to come and save the day but it still keeps going, is all a great final horror movie moment. Just the creeping crawly uncatchable-ness of a spider and how you have to work really hard to squash it. I love that.

34) The final scene of the film resolves the visual conflict Coraline was having with the real world. Everything - hear parents, the neighbors, the flowers - is a bit brighter. A bit closer to her but not so perfectly as the Other World. Things are resolved, but everything is still in the real world. Everything is still honest and it may not be perfect, but it is a happy ending.

Originally posted by a-ripley


It has been a while since I’ve watched Coraline so in all honesty I forgot how good it was. It is an excellent piece of not only animated filmmaking but filmmaking period. The visuals and imagination is incredible, it is truly frightening at times through its use of atmosphere and (again) the visuals at hand, the writing is top notch - ESPECIALLY when it comes to our titular lead - and the voice acting is there to match (Hatcher and Fanning being the clear standouts). It is an incredible film I think everyone should see. It’s just that good.

anonymous asked:

I saw you Hamilsquad personality tips and I was wondering if you could do one for physical descriptions (eye color, hair, ect). I always have trouble with writing about the characters appearances and I'm such a big fan that I'd really like to hear your opinion.

yes, of course! my personality post is here for those who haven’t seen it. i’m going to update it and make it more organized just to help you guys!

for the most part, i stick to how the cast looks! 

  • alexander
    • height: i picture him a little smol–5′7-5′8
    • apparently he had some really nice eyes bc angelica + eliza talked about them all the time in their real life letters
      • real-life hamilton had blue eyes and this makes sense to me because blue eyes are so pretty to me
      • talk about his eyes
    • skin color: olive skin tone (like lin’s shade)
    • hair type: real life hamilton had red hair! i always write my alexander with black hair though (similar to lin!)
    • body type: i picture him healthy, but still on the thinner side. some fics portray him with a little extra pudge (especially in his stomach area) which is cute but i just picture him to be on the leaner side
      • why you ask? because the boy overworks himself and probably forgets to eat,but that’s just my interpretation!
  • john laurens
    • height: probably around alex’s height but a little taller so i’d say 5′8 or 5′9
    • eye color: brown!
    • skin color: olive skin tone
    • hair: curly! (i mostly rely on anthony as how john looks)
    • body type: he is toned + fit! he’s got a swimmer body to me–broad shoulders, nice back muscles,, oh boy
    • extra: okay so this boy grew up in south carolina + john as a southern belle is just so cute to me idk 
      • let him have a little accent
      • also don’t forget the freckles! 
  • lafayette
    • height: he tol so like 5′11-6′4
    • eye color: brown!
    • skin color: tan
    • hair: curly + black! (again, daveed to me is lafayette so i just model laf as daveed)
    • body type: this boy is riPPED DO YOU HEAR ME lafayette was sculpted by the gods,,, this literal deity i love him
    • extra: don’t forget his beard. he is a scruffy boy.
  • hercules mulligan
    • height: i think he’s 5′11-6′2
    • laf is technically the tallest but sometimes i picture herc as the tallest 
      • in my universe, herc is probably 6′4 and laf is 6′2
      • then i remember, herc is shorter,,
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: brown (don’t whitewash my baby pls oak is beautiful)
      • unless you’re trying to be historically accurate then i guess that’s fine
    • hair: short but its curly if he grows it out
    • body type: muscular,, can i just say his back muscles are probably so nice + he probably has the biggest biceps + nice abs
      • not like scary ripped, but still like daaaang ripped
      • i still picture him to be soft even though he’s like so strong
      • this boy could hug me and the world would stop
    • extra: herc has big hands,,, love him
  • angelica!
    • height: 5′7
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: like caramel or light brown (think renee!)
    • hair: okay, i picture her to have this big curly hair like shoulder length. but she rarely ever leaves it curled. she straightens it a ton to look scarier
    • body type: pear-shaped–broad shoulders, wider hips
    • extra: i write this in all my fics but i picture angelica has like the sharpest eyes like if she’s really mad look out buddy because she’s already stabbed you like three times in her head
      • but her eyes definitely soften if like eliza or peggy is talking or someone she actually cares about
  • eliza!
    • height: 5′5-5′6
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: like a cream? or basically white (phillipa is eliza to me. that’s just how i depict her in all my fics!)
    • hair: black, it’s long like waist length and straight. she rarely ever curls it
    • body type: straight–small waist but hips and bust are about the same
    • extra: i picture eliza with a natural blush
  • and peggy!
    • height: 5′4
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: tan (basically jazzy–again, jazzy’s basically my model for peggy)
    • hair: dark brown, very curly! shoulder length
    • body type: “spoon” body type–hips are larger than the bust, small waist
    • extra: probs has a button nose or something cute like that
  • jefferson
    • height: he’s so tall like 6′2 
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: caramel (basically daveed’s skin tone)
    • hair: black! i picture his hair so big like it’s so big and curly like it defies gravity
    • body type: i picture him to be muscular (basically daveed’s physique) 
      • his biceps are huge
    • extra: don’t forget the scruff bc facial hair on jefferson is nice!!!
      • nice smile when he actually does smile
  • madison
    • height: 5′11
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: brown
    • hair: black + short
    • body type: i picture him to be like muscular but still have a bit of a tummy idk why
    • extra: boy is sick don’t forget
  • burr
    • height: 5′9-5′10
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: brown (leslie is my main model!)
    • hair: short + black! rarely grows it out
    • body type: tall but a little toned. not quite lanky but just a little toned. 
    • extra: kind eyes. hands are probably always cold smh
  • maria reynolds
    • height: 5′6
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: tan
    • hair: i picture it be so big and curly and heck yeah you better believe she puts it over one eye bc it’s hella mysterious; probably a little past her shoulder (like boob length)
    • body type: hourglass for sure!
    • extra: i picture her to have a mole,, idk why. maybe because she gives me marilyn monroe vibes
  • washington
    • height: man is tall, 6′4
    • eye color: brown
    • skin color: tan (christopher jackson is how i picture him!)
    • hair: i guess if he grew it out it would be dark brown? i see him as bald.
    • body type: athletic build. not quite ripped but very toned
    • extra: eyebrows,, bc have you seen chris jackson’s eyebrows??

if you choose to write her in a fic, i also picture theodosia to look like leslie’s wife nicolette! i just picture her with big, gorgeous curls as well. theodosia is just very soft to me. 

i’m torn between how i view martha,,

  • sometimes i picture her to be tall with this short curly bob and to be very athletic build 
    • almost model-like
    • she has dark skin
    •  she’s tall but still shorter than gwash (5′9-5′10)
    • intimidating
      • but then you talk to her and you cry bc she’s so nice + she’ll bake you cookies
  • other times i picture her to be much smaller than him like 5′4-5′8 
    • i guess she used to always pull george down to her level in real life when she needed something
    • in this case, she has a very motherly figure (wide hips, bigger bust)
    • light brown skin in this case

anyways, hope this helped a little!

Flower Symbolism in The Empire of Corpses, aka “I am still not over it and I need to find new ways to suffer”

So I’ve recently watched The Empire of Corpses and since I loved it to pieces I decided to do some research about symbolism of one specific scene that caught my attention. As I am heavily into hidden meanings and usually Japanese movies make a good use of these tricks, I thought that something interesting might come up… And it did.

Most of the following is spoiler free, but I suggest to watch the movie before you decide to keep on reading.

Right, for starters. Remember the bunch of flowers Watson removes from Friday’s grave before digging him up? Here’s a picture I screencapped:

What we see:

- 12 white roses (or what APPEARS to be 12 roses, see below)
- 1 magnolia alba (aka white champaca)
- 1 white chrysanthemum (or white carnation, see below)
- 4 white lilies

In Victorian times, sending flowers was a discreet way of sending messages to each other, as every flower has a very specific meaning and conveys a message. I have done a lot of research about the flowers that appear in Watson’s bunch for Friday and this is what I found around the internet and books.

- White roses in general are a very strong symbol of purity and spiritual love, expressing enduring love for the deceased. In Scotland (Arthur Conan Doyle, author of the adventures of Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson, was born in Edinburgh), the white rose is often given to newlyweds as a symbol of loyalty. White roses evoke reverence, humility, innocence, and youthfulness.
More specifically: giving somebody 12 roses - known as “the perfect dozen” - is a traditional message to signify love all year round, “12 months a year”. It literally means “be mine forever”. BUT, there is a but…
When we first see the bunch of flowers, it looks like this and we can definitely count a dozen roses:

But then, when Watson removes the flowers from the grave, a 13th rose appears…

13 roses mean exactly the following: “Forever friends. Also indicate that there is a secret admirer waiting to be discovered.”

- Magnolias traditionally symbolize dignity, nobility, splendid beauty and magnificence. They are often used as a way to “empower” the general message conveyed by the flower composition in which it’s contained - it means “certainly” when used at the beginning of other sentiments along with other symbols. The magnolia is also a very tough, hard flower, unlike other delicate flowers. This is owing to the fact that it has had to adapt to changing climactic and geological conditions in order to survive, and it is precisely due to this feature that the flower represents endurance, eternity, and long life. In Japan, the magnolia is used as a medicinal and ornamental plant and has very powerful symbolism of "healing on a spiritual level”.

(I wasn’t too certain if the one we see in the screencap might be a chrysanthemum or a white carnation as the design is a bit unclear; I’d personally think the first option is more accurate because chrysanthemum has a stronger symbolism in relation to mourning and losses.)

- Pretty much everywhere in the world BUT Japan and United Kingdom (and some other countries in Asia), the chrysanthemum is symbolic of lamentation and grief; in both Japan and UK - heavily featured in the movie - it is instead a symbol of rebirth and good omen, to the point that is given as a gift to new borns and newlyweds. The white chrysantemum also symbolizes truth within sorrow, the authenticity of a strong bond between two people during hardships, and literally means “you are a wonderful friend”. Because it is associated with rebirth, it also represents patience and perseverance, eternity, and immortality of the soul after death.
- If considering the carnation over the chrysanthemum option; the white carnation has for a long time been associated with acts of love - its meaning is often given as “true mutual love”. The presence of one single flower translates into an idea of uniqueness of the bond. It is also a traditional flower to signify eternal loyalty and innocence.

- White lilies are traditionally given at funerals when the deceased person was really young, and in general it is the flower most commonly associated with funeral services as they symbolize the innocence that has been restored to the soul of the departed. When you are giving a white lily you are meaning to say “you are my queen or my king”, and that your loyalty defies death to become sempiternal. The white lily has a number of symbolisms during the Victorian times - virginity, purity as well as majesty. It’s also a flower that says “it’s heavenly to be with you” - a strong sense of recognizing one’s love towards another, usually for the first time. An even number of white lilies represents balance and completion, quite literally translated into “You’ve made my life complete”.

And this is it.
Yes, take a moment to let it sink in…

THIS SHIP IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT AND CANON AND I WILL FIGHT ANYONE WHO DARES TO SAY OTHERWISE

BONUS:
This is a scene from one of the flashbacks showing Friday when he was still alive. I know this is a bit of a stretch, but considering all of the above, please take a look at his desk: one single red rose (we all know what it means, right? RIGHT? YES IT MEANS LOVE MY DEARS) and a skull, which are a strong pair of opposite symbols translating into a “carpe diem”, “life vs death” and “protection/destruction”.

Yuri!!! on Ice Episode 10 - Anime vs Reality

So, me and my friend @nimurun live near Barcelona, so we did a tour of the locations from Yuri on Ice episode 10! The photos were taken during the day, so they don’t quite look the same, but it gives a general feel of the place ^^

Here are some of our favourites, with a side by side comparison from the anime:

First stop, Sagrada Familia, where my baby Pitchit took his selfie xD Victuuri were also here!

The hotel the skaters stayed in is called Hotel Princess and it’s on Avinguda Diagonal. Lots of conferences are held there and if you look it up on Google Images you’ll find pictures of the pool where Victor and Chris were hanging out!

Unfortunately we didn’t have the chance to go inside and take pictures of the lobby, but maybe next time we will ^^

Next up was the Fira de Santa Llucia! This one looked pretty different in real life: the font has change and there were no decorations hanging behind it.

Unfortunately we couldn’t find Maria Dolores, the shop where Yuuri buys the rings and when we asked around we were told it didn’t exist :( 

There used to be a jewelers in the square called Majorica, but it’s closed down now.

The final stop (for now) was by far the most important: La Catedral del Mar a.k.a. the place where VICTUURI GOT ENGAGED AJAIDHPUEQFJGUCFG (still not over it xD)

Again the anime wasn’t quite accurate, but pretty close. While we were here we met another group of Yuri on Ice fans from Barcelona who acted out the scene! They were so cute! >.< 

The gates were open do it’s so it’s not quite right >.< 

You can’t see in this image but people were looking at us funny lol 

LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL SONS ;-; MAY THEY BE HAPPY TOGETHER FOREVER *  ^ *


BONUS: 

Near the Cathedral we found this Restaurant:

The name of the restaurant ranslates to “Victor’s Cafe”! XD

It’s literally right next to the cathedral, to the right, but unfortunately we’re poor so we couldn’t afford to eat there (T^T) 



UPDATE!! @the-wintry-mizzenmast has informed me that Maria Dolores is actually a shop called Carrera y Carrera! https://www.barcelona-tourist-guide.com/images/int/shopping/passeig-de-gracia/101b-carrera-y-carrera/P580/carrera-y-carrera-shop-barcelona-9369.jpg

Thank you so much for the info, will try to go there soon and that more photos! ^^

yoonseok 101: or, if i were the type to call a ship real, i would call this one real

So in my ongoing quest to pull @seriousflightrisk into Bangtan, I’m going to compile yoonseok things that are amazing and wonderful. Don’t ask me about my top Bangtan otp or else things like this happen okay. Everyone needs to love yoonseok or so help me…

(I love this gif so much it’s so accurate okay bye)

yoonseok origin story aka the beginning of the end of me

SO THEY GENUINELY HAVE THE CUTEST BEGINNING IN THE UNIVERSE??? Obvs they were both signed by bighit. Sure great whatever. BUT. Like. Min Yoongi, sweetest person in the universe, noticed that Hobi was kind of struggling and thus befriended him.

J-HOPE: 「Ok, let’s talk about our first meeting. We first met…」

SUGA: 「It was 4 years ago, we met in the dormitory. I joined the company first and then J-Hope came on 24th December?」

J-HOPE: 「That’s right. 2010’s Christmas Eve! When I first walked into the dormitory, I had mixed feelings, I was anxious and was anticipating at the same time. And Suga appeared, he only had boxers on! It was a reality check of the trainee’s life. On that day, Suga spoke to me first and I can still remember what he said to me. I was sleeping in the living room at night and then Suga said to me: 『go sleep in the room』(laughs). I was happy~」

SUGA: 「He was sleeping with the blanket tucked inside out, he looked pity.」

J-HOPE: 「I remember that I replied: 『It’s okay, it’s comfy here.』 Although Suga looks cold, but actually he is a manly man with a warm heart so I like him. ♥」

SUGA: 「Your nose is gradually growing like Pinocchio?」

J-HOPE: 「I got caught? (laughs) One more, I can remember clearly about the 『end of year chicken』. At the end of that year, the other trainees went back home and I was the only one in the dormitory to celebrate the new year. And Suga called to ask if I was fine. I replied saying that I’m bored because I’m all alone and then after a while, Suga came to the dormitory with chicken in his hand! I was so touched at the time I fell for him without even realizing it. If I was a girl, I would definitely fall in love!」

SUGA: 「His condition wasn’t good. He just came to the dormitory and he couldn’t get used to the practice so he was really stressed out. Once, you got up and didn’t you say that you felt dizzy. I was aware of that so I went back to the dormitory earlier than I’ve planned. J-Hope looks bright, likes to joke around and he’s pretty delicate? In another word, he’s vulnerable to stress. He suffered from stress-induced enteritis, so I often took him to the hospital to get an injection.」

(trans via kimmyyang, full interview here)

just little yoonseok things

  • THEY LITERALLY KNOW EACH OTHER BY BREATHING PATTERN ALONE LIKE…
  • Yoongi says when he’s sad, Hobi energizes him just from looking at him
  • Yoongi cannot finish a take without laughing at Hobi even tho Hobi’s doing nothing?? Get your shit together, Min.
  • he calls Hobi 소소 I can’t even deal with how precious that is
  • their eye contact in this (ft. Yoongi being way more trusting of another person near his eyeballs than I could ever be)
  • the fact that people think Hobi is constantly 11/10 and Yoongi is constantly mad about life but really it’s…kinda the other way around???

(The members have said several times that during time offstage Hobi is pretty chill and kinda sad if he’s not pushing himself to be the moodmaker to make the rest of them happy and I just need you to appreciate that about him okay.)

  • but even so Hobi clearly brings out the extra goofy side of Yoongs, as opposed to just regular goofy

  • they hold hands a lot
  • they ship themselves - they call themselves 솝 (Sope/Sobi) and on April Fool’s Day this year they took over the BTS twitter account and decked it out with stuff for their (eternally forthcoming) subunit 솝므 (Somme), a play on their labelmates 옴므 (Homme).

(That’s right, they have matching 솝 jumpsuits. This photoshoot had them all dressed for their individual v app broadcast shows and yoonseok do a show together called Hwagae Market. It’s ridiculous.)

  • Yoongi lets Hobi manhandle him in a way most of the other members don’t really get to do
  • but also Yoongi’s more comfortable with skinship with Hobi than the other members 
  • this picture that no one has explained yet
  • this one time they had to bungee jump and Yoongi was so worried about Hobi (Hobi is scared of heights…and everything else), he cried
  • this other time Hobi demanded that Yoongi do aegyo and Yoongi was like, no screw that, and then Hobi was like 1 2 3! and Yoongi did the aegyo anyway (he’s so whipped)
  • in the same broadcast Yoongi complained about Hobi taking his seat and then SAT ON HOBI. THERE WAS ANOTHER CHAIR THERE. A WHOLE-ASS CHAIR. EMPTY. WAITING FOR A BUTT. AND HE SAT ON HOBI INSTEAD.
  • (yes I’m still screaming about this chair thing)
  • I have no reason for sharing this, I just want you to see it.


  • also this

  • ALSO THIS
  • they pick on each other SO MUCH
  • “You look like a horse!” “Well you look like a turtle!”
  • Hobi’s judgy looks are THE BEST but I especially love it when he turns said looks to Yoongi

In conclusion please love yoonseok okay bye.

Diabetes & Gaining

or…How to Dance With the Devil and Not Lose a Leg

This is an answer to a question I get asked frequently. I thought it was long overdue I wrote a response.

Diabetes is not the end of gaining. In fact for some, diabetes marks the beginning of their serious weight gain. Many gainers I know have had diabetes for years or even decades and have continued to gain well past 400 or even 500 pounds. These people are not legless cripples; in fact, many are gainers you all know and follow on Tumblr, YouTube, or other sites. They just haven’t told you since talk of diabetes is the third-rail of gaining. (And anyway it’s really nobody’s business but theirs.) I asked a few of these diabetic gainers for help in writing this post.

Diabetes is a manageable disease. Very manageable. Easily manageable. Despite this, most people with diabetes do not manage it…

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cruciferousjex  asked:

would you be willing to make a list of your favorite lesser know period dramas so people new to the genre can watch them? You post so many pictures of shows I don't know! ty love your blog :)

I absolutely would! (sorry it took me a little while to get around to this!!!! Forgive me!!!)

I’ll start with my three favourites because I feel like they’re lesser known and they are brilliant, in my opinion.

  • Harlots (2017- present) - A drama series about brothels and sex work in 18th century London. Absolutely fabulous, historically accurate in almost every aspect, include the variety of its characters. You can watch it on Hulu and NowTV as well as streaming it online. Also, the DVD of Season 1 is released tomorrow so!
  • Magnificent Century (2011-2014) , Magnificent Century: Kosem (2015-present) - Although technically two different series, MC: Kosem is a follow-up to Magnificent Century. These are two Turkish soap operas set during a period in Ottoman history known as “the Sultanate of Women”: basically a period during the 16th and 17th century where a woman from the Ottoman harem, be she a concubine, a mother or a sister, held considerable power, sometimes even more so than the reigning sultan. The first series of MC is available with English subtitles on Netflix: after that, the rest of the episodes can be watched on YouTube alongside this translation site. Same goes for Kosem, although the first episode was released officially with English subtitles on YouTube and can be watched here. The episodes are all very long: some about 2 and a half hours. But it’s such a great franchise, I love it so much.
  • Peaky Blinders (2013-present) - Set in working class Birmingham just after the First World War, it’s essentially about British gangsters, specficially the Shelby family, though it focuses most on their young patriarch, Tommy Shelby. It’s superb. The cast are amazing (Cillian Murphy, Sam Neil, Tom Hardy…) and it’s just so energetic, political and dynamic. I think I love it for two big reasons: 1) We hardly ever get period dramas about working class Britain and when we do, they’re always miserable and depressing. Peaky Blinders can be miserable and depressing but it also shows these families for what they are: the absolute backbone of this country. And 2) The Shelby family are half-Rromani. I’m half-Rromani myself so to see a representation for me on a primetime BBC TV series has been so good. They speak the language sometimes too! And indulge in some of the traditions. I recently saw Peaky Blinders on a stupid list of “Yet more period dramas about white British people” and it was ANNOYING. It’s been great for Rromani representation. You can watch it on Netflix!

That got super long, so here are a few lesser known period dramas (both films and TV series) that I have watched in my time and would absolutely recommend:

  • Charles II: The Power and the Passion (2002) - Apart from the fact this is about my favourite historical figure ever and is absolute perfection, it also has a stellar cast (Rufus Sewell, Helen McCrory, Martin Freeman, Rupert Graves, Shirley Henderson, Ian McDiarmid….need I go on?)…..so if you want BBC period drama perfection, as well as a foray into the Best Period of British History Ever (the years 1660-1685 I DO NOT MAKE THE RULES), it’s a must-see.
  • Maison Close (2010) - Similar to Harlots in that it’s about a brothel, but it’s set in France in the 1870s. It’s just as gritty and realistic in its portrayal of sex work, though. It was very popular but cut short, unfortunately. Still an absolute must-see! You can watch it with English subs on Amazon Prime, and I assume it is easily streamed.
  • Bajirao Mastani (2015) - This is a Bollywood epic so it does have musical numbers but it’s also absolutely phenomenal. It’s set in the Maratha Empire in the early 1700s and is about the famed Peshwa (Prime Minister), Baijrao, and his love for a Muslim Raput princess, Mastani (who’s also a warrior and swords-woman.) Bajirao is also married to another woman called Kashibai who loves him dearly. It’s about love, it’s about prejudice and it’s about women trying to find some common ground for the man they love.
  • Shakespeare in Love (1998) - This is not necessarily lesser-known but I feel like it’s one of those films you literally have to see, especially if you like period pieces. It’s a comedy, largely fictional and tells the tale of how a young Will Shakespeare came to write Romeo and Juliet. He falls in love with a young noblewoman called Viola de Lesseps, who also happens to be an aspiring actor in a time when women are barred from the stage. Whilst the cast really blows every other cast I’ve mentioned out of the water, the highlight is probably Judi Dench as Elizabeth I. She has about….idk…..15 minutes screen time at most? But she won an Oscar for her performance anyway.
  • Elizabeth I (2005) - There are so many things about the Virgin Queen but this is my favourite since it covers the latter years of Elizabeth’s reign and focuses on both her political and personal life. I especially love her romance with Robert Dudley (played by Jeremy Irons) because usually, we see them as young people and it’s nice to see them older and experienced. Helen Mirren plays Elizabeth and….well….it’s Helen Mirren.

There are definitely more, especially ones set during my favourite period (17th & 18th century) which I don’t mind making another post for. But these are some of my faves!