Okay, Chuck… or god, or whatever. I need your help. See, you– you left us. You LEFT us. You went off. You said… You said the earth would be fine because it had me… and Sam, but it’s NOT, and we’re NOT.
We’ve lost everything (voice breaks). And now you’re gonna bring him back. Okay? You’re gonna bring back Cas, you’re gonna bring back Mom, you’re gonna bring ‘em all back. All of ‘em. Even Crowley.
’Cause after everything that you’ve done, you OWE us, you son of a bitch. So you get your ass down here and you make this right, right here and right now.
oh man, yessss. Dean initiated the hug!! I screamed so loud it was unholy! He went in for that hug and grabbed is angel and never wanted to let go!
Mind-boggled Dean says ‘I do’ (juxtaposed by the R&J glowing cross of Faith and Hope; WHAT A WEDDING)
He goes in–
–holding tight, on the verge of tears (both of them; observe the loaded emotionalityin their expressions FML)–
–and we get–
You see that? YOU SEE IT?? DEAN’S truly UNDERSTATED BUT SIGNIFICANT SMILE???
Numerous feelings swirled inside his mind, but the most predominant one was SHEER lung-clearing RELIEF. HE GOT HIS ‘BIG WIN’. Cas is his happiness. His Everything.
Jensen has always been aware of his own acting choices for Dean. He is AWARE that Dean WANTED MORE out of this surreal moment (hence understated). Unfortunately he couldn’t yet bring himself to further vocalize those feelings being that 1. Sam was there and 2. the sudden reappearance of the Love of Your Life would pretty much render you speechless.
Cas: “How long was I gone?” Dean: “Too damn long.”
How long was ‘how long’? My canon timeline is a bit wonky – 2 weeks? A month?? Either way, to Dean his absence felt like 2 thousand years. *sobs*
Now don’t get me wrong, I read “Welcome Home, pal” as a deliberate ‘Buddy’ mirror. However, Toxic Hypermasculine BUDDY (who was killed by Feminine Dr. Vallens in 13x04 btw) replaced with the less-toxic-yet-bro ‘Pal’? This still counts as PROGRESS. Later, when it’s just both Dean and Cas in the Impala (behaving like the typical beloved husbands they are), Dean says: “It’s good to have you back, Cas”.
No ‘pal’.No ‘buddy’. Subverting the 11x23 Bro-logue that took place when it was also just two of them. Note the OVERT difference in atmospheric lighting/camera shots. Sunlight vs Cloudiness. Stability vs Crookedness.
(“Pay attention to Dean when he’s alone”, my friends. We should watch Dean’s vulnerability presenting itself over the next episodes or so because of course, Dean WANTS to show Cas. More than anything. But it’s important to acknowledge Dean’s niggling fears. What if he loses Cas again? I TRUST Dabb & Co to properly unfurl the remaining characteristic threads this season. Joint Destiel character progression ahead!!)
‘Cas is Dean’s Win’ textualized in happy, sparkly-eyed Dean’s own words (just in case 13x05 wasn’t substantial enough for the GA). He’s using his words. Learning to refer to himself and his respective emotions; not tied down by safe-zone “Sam + I” pluralities such as we/our/us.
Soon, Dean should rescind his use of buddy/pal/plurals towards Cas altogether. And 06 held brilliant narrative negative spaces associating Sam’s receptiveness to Dean – the What Is Dean Feeling vs What He’s Saying. His “Fair enough” (and shutting the closet door, wow symbolism!) depicts the Unsaid theme hopefully crossing into Leaving the Closet Door Open: direct communication and honesty. Sam doesn’t completelyknow, but he will.
She also successfully defended her title as Commander
Won a kickass battle against a prince including some pretty fancy legwork, fake-outs, and sword twirls
Defeated her greatest enemy, both on a personal and on a political level, by hurling a spear in the air and straight into her heart.
The crowd is screaming out her name and her little Nightbloods are practically in tears. The noise of the celebration must be deafening
And she stands alone in the arena.
No one comes out to hug her, no friends give her a victory high-five, no advisors clap her back, no mothers clutch her to their chest in desperate relief that she’s alive. No one even checks if she’s injured. And it’s achingly obvious that there isn’t ever anyone like this. Lexa stands alone in everything she does: she’s Commander of the Blood and she’s leader of the coalition. She’s the deadliest warrior and she’s an untouchable goddess.
(Ai laik Heda. Non na throu daun gon ai) (I am Heda. No one fights for me.)
But this time, maybe for the first time since she was a tiny child fighting with a wooden sword, she dares a look up at the crowd while getting her breathing back under control instead of keeping her eyes on the ground. Chances a glance over to see if Clarke’s still there, if there might be a smile or a nod or even just a split second of relieved eye contact for her. A grain of social comfort in a world where love is weakness and shows of strength are the only thing keeping her people alive.
And there is - oh, thereis. She catches Clarke’s eye and their respiration falls into in unison for a second. And then Lexa squares her shoulders, lifts her chin, and takes the deepest of breaths.
Fairy Goddabb (and team) coming at us, waving his wand and textualising that Dean is John in a season all about fathers… Forget hail Mary’s I’m giving hail Dabb’s this year.
In 13x01 we got Grieving!Dean, canonically upset and nihilistic over the loss of Cas and Mary and the others. First every time though was Cas.
In 13x02 we are now seeing the fall out from this. Namely that he is mirroring both John’s life long grief over the loss of Mary, the grief that led him to act towards Sam and Dean in a way that led them to have so many issues that they are now overcoming, and also mirroring season 1 Sam through his grief over Jess.
We have already seen Dean drop to his knees next to Cas’ body just as Sam did at Jess’ grave and Mary did over John’s body and we had the scene where Sam pulled Dean back from Cas just as Dean pulled Sam back from Jess.
I then said here that I was expecting at some point mirroring of the scene from 1x02 where Dean offers to let Sam drive to take his mind off Jess (check!) and references to Dean not sleeping (check! - the “you were hallucinating sheep” conversation) but to get them both in 02 was fantastic :)
xx Honestly, I want to keep a checklist of these things… I am so overjoyed!
Next is 1x04′s:
Sam “I’ve gotta find Jessica’s killer, it’s the only thing I can think about” Dean “All that anger, you can’t keep it burning over the long haul, it’s gonna kill you”. Sam “How do you do it?” Dean “We help others, it makes it more bearable…and killing as many sons of bitches as we can”
Perhaps next week? In 13x03? When they go out to help someone else on a “normal” MOTW hunt? Who knows, I can hope. I can’t help NOT hope given we’ve been given so much else so far on my wishlist in such timely order.
So anyway, yes, it’s established that Dean is GRIEVING. He is a MESS. He’s also perfectly mirroring both Sam in season 1 after Jess’ death and John his whole life after Mary’s death.
I wonder what could possibly be the link here? Hm.
*we just don’t know*
So then yes, Dean is mirroring John. THIS IS NOT TO SAY DEAN IS LIKE JOHN. You can mirror someone without being exactly LIKE them. Look at Jack mirroring all of TFW. It’s just a way to expose a storyline and emotional motivations for someone’s actions. OK? I am not saying that Dean is John. It’s just a link to the story of the past to show the story of now and how parts are mirrored to be ADDRESSED and SUBVERTED.
This then makes total sense when we look at Dean’s interactions with Jack. Yes he is harsh and struggling with him right now, the cause of Cas’ death, the potential big bad, because he’s grieving and a mess. Just as John was.
THIS IS A SEASON THAT WE ALL SAID WOULD BE ALL ABOUT FATHERS.
There is going to be so much symbolism around John in this season and frankly seeing Dean mirroring him makes me so HYPED because this means we really should see some amazing exposition of Dean’s feelings towards John and himself in relation to John and I cannot help but hope for CLOSURE on this now.
Then we have Jack who is a huge mirror for Sam. Sam who was the reason Mary died, though of course it not through his own fault. Mirror wise, Dean is John and Cas is Mary, Jack is Sam.
Original story: John/Mary - Sam. Season 13: Dean/Cas - Jack.
Still with me? OK.
So now we need to see this subverted. The ORIGINAL STORY.
Where Dean and Sam’s lives were ruined and turned upside down by all this, by the yellow eyed demon and Lucifer’s plan, by Heaven’s orders.
The terrible original story of how everything started seems now to be mirrored and subverted into a (potential) end (but at least a later story) where everything is ‘fixed’.
In the original story everyone was manipulated. Mary and John were manipulated into falling in love (versus Dean and Cas who fell in love DESPITE Heaven and everything against them). Sam and Dean were fated to be the vessels of Michael and Lucifer but they chose free will.
Everyone tried to manipulate Sam and Dean down a certain path. Their whole lives were a manipulation up to the point they chose Free Will.
Now JACK has to choose FREE WILL thanks to their guidance and help. Through mirroring them and their story and through them helping him choose the righteous and free path.
He has to be the catalyst and mirror to subvert this story, to allow the metaphorical John and Mary (Dean and Cas) to LIVE and have a happy ending. For the metaphorical Sam (himself) to NOT grow up into the demon blood arc, and for the real Sam to move past this, accept the past and move onto a brighter future, to let go of his guilt over it by helping Jack past this too. For Jack to do just as Sam did do in the end in season 5 and fight back thanks to support from his family.
Jack’s story is a chance to subvert all the horrors of the start of the story for Dean and Sam, but first their story has to be mirrored for this to work.
This is what we are seeing happening. This is the set up.
I AM A BALL OF FLAILING EXCITEMENT FOR WHAT IS TO COME!