but thats what i have for the most part

i need a balance. i need a girl that can watch movies with me til two a.m. wrapped up in blankets together eating our favorite snacks, but i also need someone thats gonna drag me out of bed at 6am and kick my ass in the gym. a girl thats gonna cheer me on not only on the sidelines but in life too. you need someone who’s going to be your study partner, coffee date, and number one supporter. someone who’s always going to be there for you, but is also going to give you your space when you need it. i need a relationship that isn’t everything but something. a part of my life that pushes me to be the best me i can be, that motivates me to get my OWN shit together for US. i need someone thats going to back me up when I’m right but also call me out on my shit when I’m wrong. i’ve come to a point in my life where I’m done settling, done settling for girls who are parts of what i desire, who are only willing to go 10% in, I’m an all or nothing kind of person, and i have a heart that is bigger than most realize, its a heart that has a lot of love in it for the right girl, but until that girl comes along, I’m done settling, done settling for 10% when i finally deserve 100.
Paint mixing videos are not a waste of paint

Hello! Real life artist here!

i’ve seen people in the past say that paint mixing videos are a waste of art supplies so i thought that i’d just put my opinion out there :)

So, reason one why I dont thing paint mixing is a waste: Its a great way to get rid of old paint! You know that paint that’s not so good for actual painting anymore but you just cant bring yourself to throw it away? Paint mixing videos are a perfect way to put it to good use! I personally have some really old paints that im about to make some videos of!

Also, you dont necessarily have to use top of the line paint. Some craft stores sell small bottles of acryllic paint for only a couple dollars, perfect! And since paint mixing vids typically dont use a ton of paint, a little bottle should last a while!

Finally and probably most importantly: paint mixing videos really help calm people down. I have severe anxiety and paint videos are part of what introduced me to stim blogs and stimming in general! Watching the pretty colors being mixed together can really calm me down sometimes and i know that a lot of other people experience the same thing!

Now these are just my personal opinions, I completely understand if anyone doesnt agree with me on some things, thats perfectly fine.

But if you have any more reasons then feel free to reblog and add them! Happy stimming!

WHY YOU SHOULD READ @grammarkid’s TRIMBERLY FIC PT.3 aka my personal highlights:

  • the top joke it’s so iconic
  • the - ahem - bedroom scenes
  • the top joke 
  • monopoly
  • trini being fucking out of it all day because she’s thinking about kimberly hart, aka most relatable concept ever 
  • the top joke 
  • this is the single hottest and best trimberly fic i’ve ever read. this is perhaps the single hottest and best fic i’ve ever read.
  • the top joke
  • th,,…. Kitchen Scene
  • im listing every component of this fic but thats bc every part of it is so good
  • if u havent read the first two?? what are u doing have u even been on my blog for the past,, like….. Month??? (one/two)
  • what he says: i'm fine
  • what he means: you know not everything has to be a joke. sometimes you can just be honest about your feelings, and that's how i see myself, you know? i may not be the most threatening silhouette, but i like to think of myself as somebody who can stand up for-- you know it doesn't always have to be "goof goof dildo machines" over here, okay? i'm traveling around with the Boner Squad and i never get to just say... what i'm feeling, i have emotions! it's not all abra-ca-fuckyou and what have you!! i have a beating heart!!! i'm multi-dimensional! i'm a fully-realized creation... fUCK!!!!!
  • Naruto: i have a plan
  • Sakura: you have a plan?
  • Naruto: ...i have part of a plan
  • Sasuke: what percentage of a plan do you have?
  • Naruto: twelve percent?
  • Naruto: that's a fake laugh
  • Sasuke: it's real
  • Naruto: totally fake
  • Sasuke: this is the most real, authentic, hysterical laugh of my entire life because THAT IS NOT A PLAN
  • Sakura: it's barely a concept
  • Naruto: why are you taking his side?!
  • Kakashi: well, it's better than eleven percent
  • Cyclops: I have a plan.
  • Storm: You've got a plan?
  • Cyclops: I have part of a plan.
  • Wolverine: What percentage of a plan do you have?
  • Cyclops: I dunno... twelve percent?
  • Wolverine: Twelve percent? *starts laughing*
  • Cyclops: That's a fake laugh.
  • Wolverine: It's real.
  • Cyclops: Totally fake!
  • Wolverine: That is the most real, authentic, hysterical laugh of my entire life because THAT IS NOT A PLAN.
  • Storm: It's barely a concept.
  • Cyclops: You're taking his side?!
  • Jean: It's better than eleven percent.
  • Wolverine: So what it's better than eleven percent, what the hell does that have to do with anything?
  • Cyclops: Thank you, Jean, thank you.

anonymous asked:

Your highschool AU gives me life so I was thinking, what if the gang and MC are at their school at night because they're going to do a 'test of courage' but at some point mc and their s/o get separated from the other group and a scared MC reveals that they're afraid of the dark aaand what would the scenario be for all of the chars with mc if that happened ?

omg this is so good i HAVE TO


  • Yoosung and MC alone in the dark? no problem, he’ll be totally cool and-
  • except that it’s a HUGE problem
  • because Yoosung is afraid of the dark too
  • he’s so scared that he cant even enjoy the fact that MC just asked if they could hold his hand
  • “uh, yea, s-sure…”
  • oh no their hand is so warm
  • Yoosung is so laser focused on finding everyone else that every little thing makes him jump
  • but MC is scared, too, so the two are just a yelping mess, holding onto each other in the darkness
  • one leaf rustles and all of a sudden its a scream-fest with these two
  • great, the one time me and MC get close i’m too busy being afraid for my LIFE to enjoy it
  • just my luck
  • classic Yoosung
  • he makes it a goal to get over his fear of the dark so that the next time him and MC are alone in the woods at night together, he’ll be ready


  • engage hero mode
  • “dont worry, i’ll protect you”
  • MC is clinging so close to him he’s practically carrying them
  • and boy, he is loving every second
  • he loves playing the role of protector and he thinks the way MC squeezes his hand is so adorable, and of course he’s not afraid of the dark i mean what reason does he have to-
  • Zen goes from calm and collected to violently moving his flashlight to point it at a bush
  • of course, MC freaks out even more
  • “Zen, what is it?!”
  • “i dont know, but whatever it is, i’ll protect you from it”
  • please dont be something scary please dont be something scary please dont be something scary
  • “well…its gone now. we have nothing to fear, sweetheart”
  • which, i mean, he would do for MC in a heartbeat
  • but if it can be helped, he’d rather not


  • Jaehee would try to comfort MC in all the wrong ways
  • she says with a smooth voice, while gently rubbing MC’s shoulders:
  • “a fear of the dark isnt practical”
  • “even if there was something scary, its dark so we cant see it, therefore we cant be bothered by it”
  • “if there was a murderer in this forest they would have killed us by now”
  • “big animals sleep at night for the most part, and they dont like to eat humans”
  • suddenly in the middle of her “comforting” speech, Jaehee hears sobs
  • “MC, whats wrong?”
  • “Jaehee, your’re freaking me out!!”
  • “oh…um…aright..”
  • Jaehee is racking her brain for the right thing to say
  • she decides to take MC’s hand
  • “i guess what i’m trying to say is that everything will be alright”
  • MC pulls Jaehee a little closer and puts their hear of her shoulder
  • “thats all i wanted to hear”


  • at first Jumin is kind of like why are you so close to me
  • can we…..personal space, please?
  • and then when MC tells him about their fear of the dark he’s more like
  • ooooooOOOOOOHHHHHHhhhh
  • once Jumin realizes whats happening, he understands that its important to comfort MC
  • he may be socially inept but he’s not a heartless robot, no matter what Seven says
  • he would remind MC to stay close to him
  • he’d probably be the one to suggest they hold hands
  • “do you want my jacket, too?”
  • “dont worry, i’m not going anywhere”
  • walks with one around around MC


  • immediately takes advantage of the situation
  • “why are you walking so close to me? what, do you like me or something?”
  • “no, you jerk!!”
  • scaring MC every two seconds
  • he would probably keep doing it until they started crying, then we would panic
  • “hey hey whats wrong? i’m just goofing off!!”
  • “Seven, cant you see that you’re freaking me out?”
  • “oh i’m..i’m sorry…i just wanted to mess around a little…”
  • he would put one arm around MC and pull them in while they walk, unzipping his hoodie so that MC is kinda cradled inside with him
  • “Seven, you’re an asshole, yknow that?”
  • “yea, i know. but at least now we’ve confirmed that i’m the scariest thing out here”
  • until they found the other Seven would walk with MC snuggled into his jacket


  • Sirius Black: I have a plan.
  • Remus Lupin: You've got a plan?
  • Sirius: I have part of a plan.
  • James Potter: What percentage of a plan do you have?
  • Sirius: I dunno... Twelve percent?
  • James: Twelve percent? [starts laughing]
  • Sirius: That's a fake laugh.
  • James: It's real.
  • Sirius: Totally fake!
  • James: That is the most real, authentic, hysterical laugh of my entire life because THAT IS NOT A PLAN!
  • Remus: It's barely a concept.
  • Sirius: You're taking his side?
  • Peter Pettigrew: It’s better than eleven percent.
  • James: What the hell does that have to do with anything?
  • Acnologia: Ok so Zeref got a lot of information on his backstory and motivation. When am I gonna get my part? I'm the second most important antagonist.
  • Mashima: Ehhh... I'm not gonna put your backstory in the manga.
  • Acnologia: ...pardon?
  • Mashima: Yeah, I can't really make it work...
  • Acnologia: Can't you just... have me mention it in my final fight or something?
  • Mashima: Noo... you see, I'm gonna put your motivation in this new movie we're making
  • Acnologia: Oh cool. So like it's gonna play a big role in the plot of the movie?
  • Mashima: Well, kinda but not really we're only showing it a post-credits scene
  • Acnologia: What? That's bullshit! Ugh, I hope it's at least a good one..
  • Mashima: Ok so let me give you a run-down: You arrive at what's later going to be called Crocus and you see a litte girl being attacked by dragons. It looks like she died but she isn't really dead. And then you decide to start killing all the dragons.
  • Acnologia: What? I was fighting in a war, I probably saw hundreds of little children get injured or actually die! This doesn't make any sense. Why couldn't I have started killing dragons because of, i don't know, a flawed ideology or the belief that all dragons have the potential to be evil. Or just plain revenge for my probably dead parents?
  • Mashima: Nah, little girl it is. Btw the movie is just a cheap rehash of that other movie except there's more ship pandering in it.
  • Acnologia: ......Suddenly that time-lapse doesn't seem like such a bad place after all...
coloring (more like editing) process

gonna use this mob to finally explain my COLORING PROCESS.. and how i go from these base colors to the final product .. 

i always start with my base colors, which are almost always the same, so i keep a color palette to choose from. I usually pick the skin tone first and then change the hue for diff colors (I sometimes change the saturation and brightness too) The example below is the skin tone i use almost Always.. and of course it can be changed later on

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anonymous asked:

hi!! i hope you know how much you've helped a lot of people with your videos (me included ofc). i've known i like girls for a long time and recently i've thought about coming out to my closest friends. there's no one else in our group that's gay so i'm not sure what's gonna happen and that freaks me out, but we've been close for years so i hope it doesn't change anything. so yeah my question is: do you have any tips for coming out to long-time friends who've always thought you're straight??

The “unexpected” is such an overwhelming part of coming out. Not knowing what the outcome of sharing such a HUGE part of yourself.. oh boy I’m having flashbacks.

My tip would be: DO IT! There is no more relieving feeling in the world than getting to be completely yourself around the people who you love the most. 

also I can’t wait for the day where no one assumes anyones sexuality.. am I right?!?!

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To start off, I know photoshop seems all over the place!  I remember when I first started using it, I had absolutely no idea what the heck I was doing, so don’t feel bad if thats where you are at too!  Also, you will get the hang of it!  After using Photoshop for a little bit, things start to come naturally!  THIS WILL BE A VERY LENGTHY TUTORIAL.  PART ONE WILL BE WRITTEN TIPS, AND THE SECOND PART WILL JUST BE IMAGES GUIDING YOU THROUGH THE PROGRAM.

tutorial below the cut:

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TFC characters as messages I've sent pt. 1
  • Dan: that sent out of order mostly because i'm drunk AYYYYEEEE
  • Kevin: how can i "shut the fuck up" when i only speak the truth?
  • Andrew: hell yes i paid a whole dollar for that shit (in response to "did you eat the bowl (of your breadbowl)")
  • Matt: boi schlumped (it's a snapchat caption of a photo of my brother sleeping with the dog filter lmao)
  • Aaron: i have no opinion on liquid corn (ethanol)
  • Seth: i've never looked more dead LMAO
  • Nicky: i can't spell the word in redneckognize. how. does it have a k?
  • Renee: let's just say,,, i got some snacks bc i know Small Deborah will treat me right
  • Neil: hmm you know what. could you give me more examples of time intervals? it turns me on
  • Jean: i won't lie to you there was a moment when i walked past my candle and a part of me said "now cauterize the wound" (the response was "ITS A FUCKING BUG BITE JESUS")
  • Jeremy: *sends my whole ass in a thong back lit by a candle* she glows with health

anonymous asked:

Where the heck did black!Harry come from and why are people so obsessed with racebending? And when people do racebend, why is Ron the only one kept white?

it isn’t anything new, i’ve been in the fandom for 17 years and racebending has /always/ been a thing, I promise you. people aren’t obsessed (i mean, in general. im sure there actually people who are obsessed but for the most part thats not whats happening) people are just much more vocal now about the way they see characters, because society has opened up a bit in that respect. Its only been in the past few years that everyones been hitting the lack of diversity in media pretty hard, we’ve been /needing/ it for ages. But it’s taken this long.

anyway, you might feel that people are obsessed with it because you’re just seeing so much MORE than you’re used to, or would have years ago. But it’s not because theres more of it, its because people are finally feeling comfortable bringing it forward. and you know, naturally people like to see themselves represented in their favorite things. So they may racebend in order to make it happen.

And i think the reason Ron is generally kept white is because the weasleys are pretty much described that way, where as harry and hermione are ambiguous and have darker features and i think i saw a post once about how the ginger gene is most common in white people? like it can happen in other races for sure but its far less likely, so the fact that the /entire/ weasley family are ginger makes less sense if they’re anything but white. I dunno. That is a science i did not research, but its possible so if you care look it up lol


My mom recently asked me to explain what it’s like for me when neurotypicals try to give me advice about coping with my mental illness. This is what I came up with. 

Imagine that you have to live your life always carrying a massive boulder. Some days you manage better than others but for the most part you’re tired and your muscles hurt. Then a fit and jolly person comes along and they’re carrying a feather. “Oh no, no, no. You’re lifting all wrong. You do it like this.” They fail acknowledge the size difference between your objects and with each demonstration they get more and more pissed when you cannot balance that boulder on one hand.  

luluwritesthings  asked:

okay because I had a moment earlier: Shiro getting intrusive thoughts like 'what if I just broke this' bcs sometimes he truly doesn't know his strength so every once in a while somebody from the team walks in and sees Shiro like bending a spoon with his teeth and that's kind of hard to explain away

Honestly, I’ll bet he absolutely gets those kinds of thoughts a lot.  And in Shiro’s case, with no previous idea that could happen, it’d have to freak him the hell out.  Why does he suddenly want to hurt things?  What’s lurking in his head?  Was it something Haggar put in there?  

So Shiro keeps it to himself, and for the most part it’s not a huge problem.  Shiro’s always been just a bit distractable in his head anyway, with the tendency to chase after a random question when the situation isn’t dire enough to require his full concentration.  The tendency makes living with aliens a bit harder than necessary (Shiro once spent an hour in the system trying to figure out if Alteans sneezed, when Coran nearly started out of his chair when Hunk did it).  But it makes him a bit more immune to the random impulses, even when they persist.  They push at him, tug at his mind, what if what if what if, and Shiro tries to distract himself with what’s actually important.

But some days are harder than others, and there are times when Shiro just…slips.

Unfortunately, the Galra arm makes it really easy to succeed.

Shiro snaps silverware from his snacks pretty often.  Luckily, there are tons of it, made for huge royal parties, so a few missing hasn’t mattered yet.  Once, he stabbed a fork into a cutting board so hard that the had to physically climb onto the counter to get it back out.  Another time, he just snapped a pad in half in his room.  No reason, there was nothing bothering him on the screen.  Just ‘can I? can I?  What if I…?’ and it was in pieces.  

The worst impulses are ‘what would the Galra arm do to that?’.  Those, Shiro is best at keeping down, because activating the arm takes more thought and effort than just using it’s strength, so there’s a bigger hurdle to actually doing it.  But there are a few cushions on the couch that were hastily flipped upside down, and one wall in his room has a gouge that hopefully he’ll never have to explain.

Shiro managed to hide it all.  For months, no one had any idea, because Shiro desperately wanted to keep it from them.  What would they say, if they knew what Shiro really was like?  If they saw how destructive he was?  Everything that wouldn’t be missed, Shiro threw into a closet in his room.  Everything that would be was rearranged.  And he knows it’s from his time with the Galra.  He knows it.  It’s about collection weapons, it’s about knowing the destructive potential of his arm, it’s about being able to make a dent on his environment, being able to change it.  He’s vicious.  Shiro can’t let them know that.

Until he slips in front of them.

At lunch, Shiro looked at the fork in his hand and thought ‘can I?’

The thought nags, pushes at his brain, scratches his mind with urgency until Shiro gave in. His right thumb pressed against it, heating it up.  Then he jammed the fork against the edge of the table, hard enough for the red-hot tongs to twist together into one sharp point.

Shiro tilted his his head, considering, before he blinked himself back into awareness.

The whole room was staring at him.

“Was there something wrong with that fork?” Pidge asked, brow furrowed.  

Oh no.

Most of the gazes were confused, and Shiro could deal with that.  Shiro could work with that.

But he saw dawning comprehension on Hunk’s face, and Shiro’s stomach dropped to his feet.  “I’m sorry, I need to-”  He was giving up the game, he was giving himself away, he should smile and come up with some kind of distracting excuse, but the knowledge in Hunk’s eyes is killing him.  

So instead Shiro ran out.

Later, there was a knock, and Shiro opened it, already knowing it was Hunk.  This confrontation needed to happen, but at least it wasn’t in front of the others.

But it was just as well he got chewed out for it.  Rightfully.  What business did he have, acting like he wasn’t not dangerous?

Except Hunk asks something about intrusive thoughts, and Shiro has no idea what that is.

So Hunk explains, and the whole time Shiro felt like he was about to fall over.

It’s not that he’s broken, it’s not that he was reformed, it’s not any of the things Sendak said to him.  It’s part of the human brain, part of anxiety, a compulsion.  Something that it’s not just him.

It’s not just him.

Shiro nods into Hunk’s shoulder, accepts the hugs and soft reassurances, repeats to himself that he’s not wrong, he’s not twisted, he’s not bad.  He reluctantly let’s Hunk help clean out the closet full of broken items, tries not to wince too badly at every reminder.

It doesn’t really help, when the thoughts are screaming at him.

It does help when he’s picking up the pieces after.

Afraid of Staying the Same

Rucas Fic Week 2017

Day Five//Future: Riley and Lucas have been together since the Ski Lodge, but midway through college they hit a bump in the road.

Riley’s never been much of a morning person. She loves sunrises and singing birds as much as the next person, but she likes a warm nest of  blankets on a comfy mattress even more. One of the best parts of college has been the ability to arrange her schedule so outside of that one seminar class the first semester of her freshman year, she has never had to be in a class before ten AM. She likes to sleep in, thank-you-very-much.

Particularly after a night spent at the bachelorette party of a sorority sister who had graduated the year prior. As a designated driver Riley hadn’t been partying as hard as most of the other girls in attendance, but the festivities had gone well into the night and the sun had been starting to peek up over the campus by the time she was able to fall into her bed at the Delta Nu House. Her last thought before her mind had completely given into sleep was how glad she was that it was a Sunday and she would be able to sleep until her body told her it was time to get up.

So she’s less than pleased when there’s a very persistent knocking on her bedroom door, dragging her away from the roost that she’s burrowed in as she slept. Less so when the person continues knocking despite her mumbled, “Go away, it’s Riley’s sleepy time,” and even less so when the persistent knocker calls their own greeting through the door.

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anonymous asked:

what do you think happened when alec stayed at magnus' loft to 'help treat luke's wounds'? what did they talk about all night?

Oh man, if I could demand one thing from the sh creators, it would be to go back and give us this scene. I’m still devastated that they had Alec spend an entire goddamn night at Magnus’s apartment and not give us a single damn detail about it. Because that’s such an important night for them??? Yes, they had done a tiny bit of (very one-sided) flirting, and Alec had vaguely accepted a non-specific version of the date Magnus offered on the phone in the previous ep, but that’s it. That’s really not much. This was their first big scene. Just the two of them, for an entire night, with no implied physical intimacy whatsoever (since they definitely would have told us about that). Just two men who barely know each other, having a couple of drinks.

It’s so unbelievably important in the grand scheme of their story. Because at some point, Magnus Bane goes from ‘this boy’s cute maybe I can make out with him at some point’ to Ghost!Ragnor telling him to crash the wedding because it’s a chance for Magnus to finally feel love again. At some point, Magnus feels enough of a connection with Alec to consider really giving him a chance, after a century alone, and after all of the emotional trauma he went through with Camille. There’s something about Alec that makes Magnus feel safe, and hopeful, and finally ready to try falling in love again. And that very well could have been something that he saw in Alec for the first time that night. It’s the first time they really get to talk to each other. It’s when Magnus really figures out who Alec is as a person.

And for Alec, I mean… think about his social track record at that point. From what we can tell, his only close friends are his siblings. He doesn’t have any outside acquaintances that he feels comfortable sitting down with and talking to for an extended period of time. For all we know, that night at Magnus’s is one of the first times he has any sort of extended conversation with a relative stranger. And while I’m sure that’s fairly terrifying for someone with his anxiety levels (and tendency to stutter around cute guys), I imagine that must also be so freeing for him. Magnus has been flirting with him literally since the moment they met, and Alec knows that. There’s an awareness between the two of them that they’re interested in each other. I think it might be the first time in Alec’s life that he’s been with someone and felt that he’s allowed to be openly interested in men around them. Regardless of the fact that he happens to be interested in this particular man, that’s still huge for him. Magnus has absolutely no expectations for him. Alec has no reputation to uphold while he’s there. Alec is allowed to blatantly be himself and not worry about the repercussions for once in his life, and I can’t even imagine how wonderful that must have felt.

Honestly, I’m not sure of what they talked about. Probably nothing important. Just usual, everyday conversation between two people who are starting to like each other, and want to know each other better. I don’t think the subject matter was particularly extraordinary. But in some sense, I think that’s what makes it so important for both of them. 

I know that most of the fandom likes to gripe about Kija becoming Gija in the official translation, and other names to a lesser extent, but the part of the translation that I’m the least happy with so far is that it seems like they deliberately tried to avoid having Jaeha talk about beauty. For example, what the scanlation translated as “taking away someone’s freedom is the ugliest thing one can do in this world” became “depriving someone of their freedom is the most despicable act imaginable,” and “having my fate decided for me from the time I was born goes against my views of beauty” became “submitting to some fate that was foisted onto me when I was born goes against everything that appeals to me.” (And yes, it’s true I don’t know enough Japanese to compare it to the original, but I also remember the anime’s translation mentioning beauty/ugliness more prominently). 

The translation in the official version doesn’t really change the meaning in these specific contexts, but Jaeha’s conflation of goodness and worth with beauty is an important aspect of his character…which doesn’t become apparent until much later in the manga, not fully until the flashback chapter “Fly.” And it’s understandable that the translator wouldn’t have read so far ahead, but I wonder what other subtleties will be lost because of that. Will Zeno still refer to himself by his own name? After all, we don’t learn the reason for that until chapter 104…

  • Sakura: Anata, what will you do if someone asks you if they can have me?
  • Sasuke: Is that even a question?
  • Sakura: I just want to have the satisfaction of hearing you say it. C'mon. Tell me. What will you do?
  • Sasuke: No.
  • Sakura: No what?
  • Sasuke: No, they can't.
  • Sakura: That's it? You'd plainly say "No."
  • Sasuke: Yes. Simplicity is the most brutal form of denial.
  • Sakura: I guess you'll have your mangekyo looking straight at them while youre plainly saying "no" huh?
  • Sasuke: ...
  • Sasuke: yes.