but that's because i changed my mind about one of the songs and now i still need one because i need

Sparks Flew

Lin-Manuel Miranda x Reader

Note: I wrote this last night when I couldn’t sleep, I blame watching too much How I Met Your Mother for coming up with this idea. I promise I’m working on those requests but this just came to me last night and it’s been a long time since I wrote a Lin fic. 

Warnings: swearing, a shitty break-up and I think that’s it?

Word Count:1,615 (I know it’s short I’m sorry)

Tagged: @hamiltonsquills @tallish-hobbit @iamgrayfox @beckett-faye @justanotherone2u


When you first kissed Lin, sparks flew.

It was New Year’s Eve, the cold New York streets were packed with people excited to bring in the new year. But for you, it was the worst night of your life.

The night started off great. Packed into an apartment filled with all of your friends, wearing a brand new outfit with a few drinks already in your system. It was 11 pm, and with an hour left of  2007 the anticipation was building, it was the perfect night.

Well… almost perfect. The one missing ingredient was Jon. Your boyfriend of 6 years was nowhere to be found, even after promising you he’d come. For the first time in 6 years, it was looking like you were going to be alone and kissless on New Years.

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Josh Hutcherson AMA Transcript

This is the transcript from Josh’s AMA on Reddit on February 16th, 2017.  All spelling and grammar errors are as written by the original people  This is very long, so the majority is under a read more.

Q:  Do you miss working with the Hunger Games cast?

Josh:  yes… they were the best! family forever. i miss them all dearly… however we still hang now and then and keep in touch.


Q:  Hi! What’s your favorite television show to watch?

Josh:  the Bob Ross painting show… i can benge for hours


Q:  Hey Mr. Hutcherson, is there any actor (that you have not yet worked with) that you wish to work with someday?

Josh:  so many…. joaquin phoenix is up there for sure.


Q:  Hi Josh, You got second class treatment from Rosemary Telesco and continued with Katniss Everdeen. Does it hurt your feelings?

Josh:  hahaha…. life imitates art…

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“Part Two” by Chase Atlantic (Review)

With fans still recovering from “Part One”, Chase Atlantic fueled their ongoing fire with the release of “Part Two”, the second EP of what I’m assuming to be their take on an electrifying musical saga.

The EP was released on March 31st, 2017, and I was very eager to hear it. Although I myself am a relatively new fan of Chase Atlantic’s music, “Part One” completely blew me out of the water: compared to their older stuff, it was a major step forward in terms of their lyrics, musical production, and style. My only hope for “Part Two” was that it would be similar to its counterpart, if not better.

After finally sitting down and listening to the new EP, I had some mixed feelings about it. Although I was pleased regardless, because I like this band a lot, I’m not quite certain whether this one shook me as hard as “Part One” did.

Let’s break it down song by song, shall we?


Track 1 - Triggered. 

My very first impression of this song was a quick snort through the nose. Not going to lie, the title made me chuckle. I wasn’t sure if the band was genuinely pissed off about something, or they were just making fun of Twitter users’ lingo. Either way, I was interested to see where this opening track would lead to. 

Personally, I’m a sucker for dramatic album introductions. And this song had just the right amount of mystery, lust, and grunge to immediately draw me in. 

The song started out with a relatively chill introduction, but the first 10 seconds definitely built up. It was quiet at first, but as soon as I heard the car revving its engine in the background, I knew I was in for a bumpy ride.

Immediately after the car sounds, I was hit with lead singer Mitchel Cave’s distinctive voice and a brand new beat.

If I was to describe this song in one word, I would use the term badass (or is that two words?). There was something about the heavy bass, deep rhythm, and the slickness in Cave’s voice that immediately painted a dauntless picture in my mind. I imagined myself thrown into the middle of a high-speed police chase after my hot boyfriend and I just robbed a convenience store. He would be driving a black SUV with tinted windows, I would be perched up in the passenger seat, and Triggered would be our get away song.

Although the chorus could’ve been fuller in my opinion, the verses and the bridge of this song were what really brought it to life for me. Lyrics like “driving ‘till we killing love” and the repetitive use of the phrase “won’t slow down” strengthened my inner feelings of love and rebellion as I bopped my head to this song’s steady beat. 

The lyrics and overall theme of the song helped me realize that perhaps the meaning of “triggered” was not a reference to overused internet slang, but maybe it was referring to the shotgun my hot boyfriend was firing as we swerved on the 405, desperately trying to get away from the cops. Once again, the visuals that this song brought to life were killer (haha - see what I did there?).

In conclusion, the more I’ve listened to this song, the more I’ve come to really like it. From the lyrics, to the melodies, and to the delinquent realm it creates, Triggered is definitely my favorite tune on this EP. 

Overall rating: 9.4/10


Track 2 - Cassie.

This song, unfortunately, did not woo me as much as its preceding track. 

First off, what I appreciated about the song was how unique it was. In my opinion, this song was the complete opposite of Triggered, and very different from what I’ve been associating with Chase Atlantic’s more recent music. Coming right out of the sinister world of Triggered, Cassie was like a breath of fresh air and a field of blooming sunflowers right in front of me. 

The general vibe of this song was very easy to pick up on within the first lines of the first verse. The light and airy beat that continued throughout the entire song reminded me of a symphony imitating the gentle ticks of a clocktower. It made my heart, still calming down from Triggered, feel all warm and fuzzy again. 

Another thing I appreciated about this song was how the lyrics and the music contradicted one another. A bubbly melody is a rarity among Chase Atlantic’s newer releases, but somehow they managed to pair the uplifting beat with lyrics about drugged up veins and an impatient girl named Cassie in a way that actually worked quite well.  

However, the unique airiness of this song just didn’t seem to completely win me over, though I did appreciate it. The main reason why this song did not particularly knock my socks off is because throughout the whole first listen, I kept feeling as if something was missing. Especially in the chorus, I felt like there could’ve been something else - a tempo change, another instrumental element, faster lyrics - to make it more exciting. Although the song was cute and a little brighter than the other two tracks, it was kind of forgettable. 

Overall rating: 7.8/10


Track 3 - Why Stop Now.

This track has become known to me as the cool-down song, because I found it to be very chill and relaxed, but nonetheless a very interesting listen.

The introduction features a few intriguing elements that quickly brought me to the edge of my seat: more undistinguishable sound effects (were they popping pills?), the lazy strum of an electric guitar, and Cave’s muffled voice singing a few catchy lines, as if he was teasing me of what’s to come later on in this song. 

The introduction slowly built up, but then quickly flushed me into the first verse. The band was back at it again with the alternative hip-hop beats, this time singing (rapping?) about self-hatred and a desperate search for Mitchel’s cell phone. 

The transition into the chorus was rather quick, but nonetheless it still worked pretty well. By now I was able to conclude that this song would be slower than the other two, but I wasn’t complaining about it. 

The lyrics of this song once again displayed a level of contradiction to the other elements of the tune. Lines like “Life in the fast lane. You live then you die, babe … so why stop now?” were somewhat depressing lyrics, yes, but the way Cave’s gentle and soothing tone of voice meshed together with them was quite menacing, sending shivers up my spine. If I’m thinking out loud here, he has a very sexy singing voice. Don’t @ me. 

In some ways this song almost felt half-assed, but thats what I kind of like about it. Although it is slower than the other 2 tracks, Why Stop Now has this kind of vibe to it that fuels my inner desires to just “not care”, which I assume is a common mood fellow Chase Atlantic fans feel while listening to their music. And that’s not a bad thing. Being a moody 18-year-old whose just trying to figure her shit out, I need music like this to listen to from time to time. Sometimes we all just need to “not care” and chill TF out.

The reason why I still wasn’t completely blown away by this song either was the same reason as Cassie. I felt like there was something missing from this track as well, though I still can’t put my finger on it. Either way, it’s still a good jam, and I can see this one becoming a lot of fans’ favorite. 

Overall rating: 7/10


Overall, the “Part Two” EP did not meet the high expectations “Part One” set for me, but that is quite all right. Triggered is a major gem of a song and I’m still going to be blasting this EP in my car for the next few weeks. Perhaps there will be a “Part Three” and maybe even a “Part Four” to help us further envision where Chase Atlantic are headed next. These EPs are obviously just a mere taste of what they’ve got in store; I feel a debut album coming soon, and I cannot wait to devour it. 


AN: This is the first music review I’ve literally ever done, so please go easy on me! Hopefully you enjoyed it - I tried to keep it as honest as possible, so I apologize if any of my opinions offend/upset you, but they are just my opinions. If you liked this, let me know! I’d love to do more reviews in the future. 

flatsound sentence starters
  • "Tonight I walked through a field that used to scare me more than I scared myself."
  • "I wish I had known you then."
  • "It was never death that interested me; it was the idea of an opportunity to follow a cold breeze that promised to take me anywhere but here."
  • "I’m sorry you thought this couldn’t work, because I’ve never wanted anything more in my entire life than to prove that it could."
  • "You were not my world, you were my universe."
  • "And I wonder if that’s what it feels like to die."
  • "Why do I wait, wondering how long it’ll take you to admit it?"
  • "I’d rather keep my mouth shut then start to say what I can’t finish."
  • "I sit here wondering if anything you said was true."
  • "We both noticed something had changed."
  • "I called you up again today and you didn't pick up."
  • "I didn't expect it to happen this quickly, you know?"
  • "I sit here and I worry about myself so much."
  • "I wanted you to care, I wanted you to be nosy, I wanted you to be there."
  • "I know it's stupid of me to say that you don't care, I mean, of course you do, but I want you to care so much more."
  • "I can't be around all these people who all my life have tried to change me."
  • "I can't hide who I am."
  • "I will be happy for the first time in my whole life."
  • "It makes me feel good, makes me feel pretty."
  • "I will go to sleep; just know you’ll be in my dreams."
  • "If I cry, it won’t be because of you."
  • "You don’t have to wait or pretend that he’s just your friend."
  • "It scares me more than I'd like to admit."
  • "My only problem lately is I've got too much time so all I'm left with is that what's on my mind."
  • "I left out everyone and all I have at the end of the day is that what's on my mind."
  • "Say I came back today, would I have a spot in your heart?"
  • "I cheated with your ex best friend."
  • "You can't stand in my doorway for long."
  • "It's eleven o'clock, he's expecting you home."
  • "I'll walk you up the hill to your car."
  • "No, don't let go, don't let this die."
  • "I just need to know what I did to ruin this and turn your body cold."
  • "If you walk through that door there will be no us."
  • "I thought you were being distant."
  • "I did not mean to make this the worst night of your life."
  • "I need you to know what happened."
  • "I saw you walking by, you didn't say hi, you didn't even smile."
  • "You're not the only one who's feeling anxious toward the bullshit that's attached to growin' up."
  • "You said things would stay the same; well, have they?"
  • "I know you're scared, but you'll never get better if you keep running away."
  • "Sometimes you need to be self centered to understand yourself better."
  • "I'm not in the mood to stick around."
  • "Every day I think about you and why you had to turn into my enemy, when all I need's my friend."
  • "Look at me and see how much I've changed since you left."
  • "Well, is this what you wanted, for me to admit that this fucking hurts?"
  • "I was never good at talking smoothly."
  • "Now I don't remember how you speak; I mean, it comes to me in dreams, but by morning, I lose everything you ever said."
  • "I'm not perfect, I think I'm quite the opposite, I'm nothing to adore."
  • "Perfection is opinion and nothing more."
  • "I'll be here waiting when your plane lands."
  • "Hi, my name is none of your concern."
  • "I like the way you make me feel at home."
  • "It wasn’t a mistake - so please dont think it was."
  • "I didn’t have a lot to drink, I just needed a bit for confidence."
  • "They won't find out, no one cares enough about it to run their mouths."
  • "Just please, when you’re ready to go, try not to make it so painful."
  • "Will you write another sad, sad song?"
  • "It's obnoxious and it's useless to fight a war you're losing."
  • "This might be your only chance."
  • "Is it you who calls the shots?"
  • "I don't know why they're choosing to confide in someone who will talk about anything."
  • "There are people who miss me and I don't know why they're investing all their time into someone with my history."
  • "Why did you say that I was one in a million? Because I believed it."
  • "I thought I had something that you were too scared to lose."
  • "I also saw how often you say goodbye."
  • "Things were never supposed to be this good."
  • "Nothing I can say now would justify a thing, just know I'm sorry."
  • "I just wanted to say I hope you're okay."
  • "You're already hurt, I'm scared that if you put your trust in me, I'll make it worse."
  • "You're still so young, you have room to grow into something amazing."
  • "You won't remember who I am."
  • "I can't live with the chance that this feeling's ever coming back."
  • "I don't hate you, but honey, this still hurts."
  • "I'm not dumb, I know everything."
  • "That liquid he consumes makes him speak the truth."
  • "Look at me, because I exist."
  • "It's a shame that we're not soulmates because if I didn't know better, I'd say this feels pretty good."
  • "You've been gone for too long, why'd you go?"
  • "Is this what you think it means to be responsible?"
  • "I went to class, you didn't show up."
  • "I thought we said that we'd keep in touch."
  • "So live up to the name you’ve been making for yourself."
  • "Last night you had that dream again, the one where you try and run from your fears but you can’t because you’re wearing fabulous stilettos."
  • "If I were the sun, I'd shine my light on you and leave the people that hurt you cold."
  • "We’re fighting again, more than usual."
  • "I’m sorry about being me."
  • "I'll sleep on the couch."
  • "Bring me a cat to be my best friend."
  • "It isn’t like you ever said that you were committed to the thought of me and only me."
  • "I can’t believe I spent all morning trying to tell you I’m sorry about yesterday."
  • "You smell like the devil but you feel like the lord."
  • "I didn’t dodge all your bullets, I just denied that they hit me."
  • "If I told you I loved you would you reach out and touch me?"
  • "I wish we had just gone to bed."
  • "This could have worked."
  • "The best part of that whole song was skipping ahead to Nicki Minaj."
  • "I will not make the same mistake twice."
  • "I know you never really liked people, I didn't mean to make that worse."
  • "I still know the roads that take me to your street."
  • "I know I promised that we'd talk more it's just, I'm surprised you even want to talk at all."
  • "I'm so scared that you still think I'm the one who gave up."
  • "The plans we made were never mistakes, they just didn't work for us."
  • "You always knew the deal that we made and what this was worth."
  • "I'll go to sleep at a decent time when I find something worth waking up for."
  • "I keep checking my phone to see you haven’t called at all."
  • "I thought I was the best part of your life, now I’m pretty sure that I was wrong."
  • "You’re impossible to read so if you love me, come clean."
  • "I’ll refer to you as my special love, the one that set me free."
  • "I’m feeling lost in towns that were my home."
  • "It's my own body, I did what I wanted."
  • "It’s not that I don’t have words to say, I just don’t want to be the one that speaks them."
  • "Your only flaw is that you’re flawless.”
  • "I’m so full of shit, I’m surprised you bought it."
  • "Well congratulations, I didn’t know you two had made things so official."
  • "Don’t call me when it fizzles; in fact, don’t call me at all."
  • "What a beautiful sight to see you alive."
  • "I can't hold you responsible anymore."
  • "I'm lost now in the thrill of it."
  • "I just want to lay in bed with you."
  • "I'll throw everything I have into the flames just to make it last."
  • "There are reasons that I can't stay."
  • "I built my life around watching everything you do."
  • "I wonder if you're having fun."
  • "You said you were done; well, how done?"
  • "I want to believe that I really don't need him."
  • "I can't wait until I see your face and my brain feels nothing."
  • "I would never want you to stop your life."
  • "You were always a shitty friend."
Oshea Jackson Jr - iTunes Q&A
  • Question: What's your favorite song?
  • O'shea: The Perfect Beat by Afrika Bambatta
  • Q: What's the scariest movie you've ever seen?
  • O'shea: I don't get scared by movies, really. But I'm easily disturbed. When I first saw 'Hills Have Eyes', I couldn't get some images out of my head. Still actually
  • Q: What's your favorite movie starring your dad?
  • O'shea: All about the benjamins. Super Suuuuper underrated
  • Q: What's your favorite Ice Cube song?
  • O'shea: Natural Born Killaz
  • Q: Whe do you think you'll finish screenwriting at USC?
  • O'shea: When I feel like my writing is missing something. I'll know it's time to sharpen back up and get to my cinematic roots.
  • Q: When can we expect music from you?
  • O'shea: Ingratiate I would love to do music. I still snap over instruments to myself. But they might typecast ya mans if I put certain type record. For now I'm focused on my craft as an actor but my older brother and I have started a producing team.
  • Q: Why haven't you used your snap?
  • O'shea: Everytime I'm on any social media I'm just thinking. "Why am I not on instagram?"
  • Q: What is your favorite part in SOC?
  • O'shea: Smashing Bryan Turners office. We've all wanted to break things with a bat before.
  • Q: What do you like to do in your free time?
  • O'shea: Crush my enemies. Not really. But I'm a real Nerd and I am completely unapologetic. When I gotta unwind it's video game time.
  • Q: Why didn’t you release the video for ‘Ain’t No Place’? Was it because of being typecast?
  • O'shea: Yes. With the movie having buzz around the Academy I didn't want any possibility of the song affecting the film. And I didn't want it to look like I'm Ice Cube part 2 out here. lol.
  • Q: Were you nervous about trying out for the movie?
  • O'shea: I was extremely nervous. I had to audition for two years and when you've never been through the process. You don't know what could've made you or boke you during that little time you had auditioning. If I didn't take the role. The world woulda killed me. If I didn't win the role. The world woulda killed me. And I was it was as movie. The world woulda killed me. At the end of the day, nothing was gonna sop me from immortalizing my dad in film. A lot of people ain't want me to get the part. Be he did and that's all I needed.
  • Q: Celeb crush?
  • O'shea: She's taken already. Don't wanna start waves.
  • Q: Did you practice some of the songs with your father or did you learn on your own?
  • O'shea: The performance and studio scenes in SOC are me in my element. What I'm used to doing. So when I was there it's like, wait y'all want me to rap my DAD's songs? I BEEN DOIN THIS.
  • Q: Were any of the scenes hard to do?
  • O'shea: More cowbell #SNLjoke
  • Q: Actors you look up to?
  • O'shea: Denzel and Leo
  • Q: Did you re-record some of Cube's verses or lip sync?
  • O'shea: We recorded the whole album, fam
  • Q: Marvel or DC?
  • O'shea: If you gotta ask. Somethin must be wrong.
  • Q: Do you like your fathers older movies?
  • O'shea: of course. People don't appreciate what a great film Players Club is.
  • Q: Do you ever feel pressure to surpass all that your father has accomplished?
  • O'shea: I've felt it since I was in the 5th grade. (The pressure) it doesn't come from him. All of it comes from me because I don't want to feed into the narrative of talent skips a generation or the whole "was born on 3rd base, and thought he hit a triple." Aspect. I'm so appreciative of my blessings and the only way to ensure my own legacy is to perfect my craft.
  • Q: Worst movie you've ever seen?
  • O'shea: Movie 43
  • Q: Best compliment you've ever heard?
  • O'shea: When I hear that I inspire someone. Being a celebrity is cute and all but it's smoke and mirrors. I understand that this all can be taken away in an instant. FAME is a jellyfish. Yeah it's beautiful but don't you dare get wrapped up in it. So while I do have a platform, the best thing i can do is to encourage or inspire. If not i'm just being selfish.
  • Q: Are you going to see Kobe play his very last game?
  • O'shea: Yeah I'll be the guy crying uncontrollably being escorted by security
  • Q: Would you take a role in a Tyler Perry movie?
  • O'shea: Is it about a single parent overcoming obstacles while still maintaining their strong christian values?
  • Q: What artist would we be surprised you listen to?
  • O'shea: I love Imagine Dragons and F.U.N.
  • Q: How was it growing up as ice cubes son?
  • O'shea: It has it's perks of course. But kind of annoying until you grow up lol. I have to put people through so many trials in order for you to be considered my friend. You don't know people's motives. My friend Tanner was my very first friend EVER. Met in kindergarten. Just said 'hey I'm Shea lets be friends.' After that.....Everyone else know me as ice cubes son. But my friends. Call me Shea. And it's 5 of them. You just grow up thinking different being ice cubes son.
  • Q: Would you want your kids to follow in your footsteps?
  • O'shea: If it was their choice by all means. My parents allowed us to find our own paths. But give everything your best effort because if you don't, then why are you doing it?
  • Q: What advice would you give your younger self?
  • O'shea: learn how to dunk
  • Q: Fave Rappers?
  • O'shea: Dwayne Michael Carter and Sean Anderson
  • Q: Which Ice Cube verse is your fave?
  • O'shea: "G-d damn I'm glad y'all set it off....."
  • Q: What's your fave app?
  • O'shea: ESPN Radio
  • Q: Will you answer me on day? :(
  • O'shea: "Maybe one Day..." - Drake
  • Q: Do you like Justin Biebers new album?
  • O'shea: I would be lying if I said Justin Bieber didn't have a few tracks on that thang
  • Q: Do you think education is necessary?
  • O'shea: I definitely feel that education is important. But I also feel the mind will not process information it feels it doesn't need. Find what interests you and educate.
  • Q: Growing up, what was the biggest problem you faced?
  • O'shea: Keepin the snakes out the grass.
  • Q: What type of films would you develop as a screenwriter? Is there certain topics that you're passionate about?
  • O'shea: I'm into smart comedies. And movies that don't give a lot away so you're not in the theater tryna guess things before they happen. You kinda just take the films scene by scene like life. If I could write a modern day Big Lebowski, I would be happy as an accomplished writer.
  • Q: Your thoughts about ride along 2?
  • O'shea: needs more me
  • Q: Any difference between before SOC and after?
  • O'shea: I'm a lot meaner and nicer at the same time
  • Q: Any tv shows you want to be part of?
  • O'shea: I would love to be apart of Better Call Saul
  • Q: Favorite place to relax?
  • O'shea: In a woman's presence. #CasonovaAnswer
  • Q: Rihanna or Beyonce?
  • O'shea: Beyoncé whole personality reminds me of my mom. I've never been attracted to her because I see too much of my mom.
  • Q: If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
  • O'shea: For everything to go my way at that moment.
  • Q: Favorite hip hop song of all time?
  • O'shea: Y.O.U. by Redman/Methodman
  • Q: Do you like Hockey? What's your favorite team?
  • O'shea: GO KINGS GO. GO KINGS GO.
  • Q: Do you know how to cook?
  • O'Shea: Only if the BasedGod is okay with it
  • Q: New or Old School?
  • O'shea: 90's. It had more Ice Cube and Dr Dre.
  • Q: Favorite historical figure?
  • O'shea: Mark Twain
  • Q: Dream starting 5 for NBA Basketball?
  • O'shea: Magic Johnson, Kobe Bryant, James Worthy, Kareem-Abdul Jabbar and Shaq
  • Q: What's your favorite word to say?
  • O'shea: It's a cuss word.
  • Q: Star Wars or Harry Potter?
  • O'shea: This can't be a real question.
  • Q: How many Yeezys you got?
  • O'shea: 3. 2 Nikes first editions
  • Q: Would SOC be better if Jason had Eazy with him?
  • O'shea: The fact that he didn't have Eazy is why I would've nominated him
  • Q: If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?
  • O'shea: I'd make everyone more understanding. We'd be fine.
  • Q: Was wondering if you'd like both (Harry Potter/Star Wars)?
  • O'shea: Definitely like both. But give me the force over Magic. #RIPSeverus
  • Q: If you could speak another language what would it be?
  • O'shea: German and Spanish
  • Q: Are you worried that people will only ever see you as your dad's son and not you as yourself?
  • O'shea: Of course. But then I look at people like Kobe, Steph Curry, The Rock...they took their family legacy to new heights. That's my goal.
  • Q: Do you have any tattoo's? if so what do they mean?
  • O'shea: the Roman numeral for 24. XXiV. And before the Kobe talk starts. 24 has always been my number. It's my birthday. 2/24. It just always feels so complete. And my life changed at 24. It's only right
  • Q: Boyz n the hood or Barber Shop?
  • O'shea: Boyz n the hood had a message.
  • Q: Why learn Spanish and German?
  • O'shea: both are used in a vast variate of regions. May come in handy if ever abroad
  • Q: Do you still workout?
  • O'shea: Yeah dude. Still am. But decisions were made and now I'm makin work. #BooHoo
  • Q: What motivates you?
  • O'shea: My family.
  • Q: How are you handling all this attention you're getting?
  • O'shea: in my room ignoring most of it
  • Q: What is the most like you, chocolate or gummy bears?
  • O'shea: Hardest thing I ever had to do
  • Q: Fave Dragon Ball Z Character?
  • O'shea: Kakarot
  • Q: What do you fear most?
  • O'shea: Not being happy is my biggest fear
  • Q: Any advice for aspiring actors?
  • O'shea: Ask yourself why did you start acting. If it's to be famous. You will lose.
  • Q: Favorite disney movie?
  • O'shea: Lion King
  • Q: Do you find it hard to trust people?
  • O'shea: my whole life I couldn't trust anyone.
  • Q: Favorite cartoon to watch growing up?
  • O'shea: Dragon Ball Z or Ed Edd n Eddy
  • Q: How did you deal with people that were only your friend because of your dad?
  • O'shea: I don't deal with them. Bad energy.
  • Q: If you were an animal what would you be?
  • O'shea: Orca. Biggest and strongest in the ocean. And I'm a genius!? In pods running from 12-30 of the homies deep!?
  • Q: What's your type of woman?
  • O'shea: Sexy kind.
  • Q: Number one pick up line?
  • O'shea: You know how much a polar bear weighs? Enough to break the ice. O'shea Jackson, nice to meet you.
  • Q: Do you like apples?
  • O'shea: I got her number....
  • Q: Advice you would give to aspiring actors?
  • O'shea: Be an actor first. And a star 3rd.
  • And the last question, deserves it's own post...That's all folks.
Make Happy Starter Pack
  • Mix of comedy, deep stuff, out of context stuff, and potentially NSFW-ish sentences.
  • "Ladies if you feel me, say hell yeah!"
  • "Fellas if you feel me, say hell yeah!"
  • "Virgins, if you haven't felt a person, say hell yeah!"
  • "If you like drinking booze, let me hear you say hell yeah!"
  • "If you like smoking weed, let me hear you say hell yeah!"
  • "I can't wrap my mind around exactly why I'm here."
  • "I know you paid money."
  • "I should be funny."
  • "Look at the world. I don't know why I'm here."
  • "I would love to tell you that everything is fine."
  • "You wanna be happy... Well, get in line!"
  • "It gets old after a few minutes."
  • "Let's get this show started."
  • "I already fucked it up."
  • "Haters gonna hate. Lovers gonna love."
  • "You have to reject both sides of the spectrum to leave a healthy middle."
  • "Stop participating."
  • "Not a participatory thing going on up here."
  • "Did you not think I was gonna use this, idiot(s)?"
  • "It's not a prop."
  • "I've got a lot of problems in my life."
  • "I got no one to talk to."
  • "There's everyone and then there is just me."
  • "If I could change, don't you think that I'd do it?"
  • "God only knows, why he cursed me to be ________/(a straight white man)"
  • "I state my problems, other people roll their eyes."
  • "Three trips to the mall, zero _______ in my size."
  • "I've never been the victim of a random search for drugs."
  • "You can't say my life is easy."
  • "I know the road looks though ahead."
  • "Can't you just leave us alone?"
  • "Also, 'no' to the things you asked for."
  • "They are being greedy and they know it."
  • "Everyone thinks that I got it easy."
  • "Just because it's true, doesn't mean that it's right."
  • "So pull up a chair and put down your pitchforks."
  • "We still do, but it's not as fun now."
  • "If you were offended by that, it was ironic."
  • "Isn't that fun?"
  • "I meant the whole opposite of it."
  • "White guys... it's easy to be a white guy."
  • "We deserve a cheer once in a while."
  • "We invented a lot of stuff."
  • "Everything but peanut butter."
  • "Your grandkids are going to see this."
  • "Put the lights down."
  • "Their faces creep me out."
  • "I'm not perfect, ok?"
  • "Twice in a week? What is this?"
  • "Do you want to sing a song with me?"
  • "Hey, _____, guess what?"
  • "You're a (insert insult here)."
  • "So I was interrupted the other day-"
  • "Can you turn the lights off at least?"
  • "Why was it on a record player?"
  • "It's gonna outlive me."
  • "Do not give those dumb fucks any credit."
  • "It's all me baby, all me."
  • "How dare you make that joke so late!"
  • "I like poetry."
  • "Do not veer credit to people outside this building!"
  • "Two examples is enough."
  • "I'm right in the sweet spot."
  • "I could give that money to a homless person. But I don't do that very often."
  • "Tomorrow is a relative term. We're not getting there."
  • "You don't know where I'm going, so don't act like it."
  • "You're not ahead of me."
  • "I will retain the element of surprise."
  • "I'm trying to break out of that."
  • "This might not work."
  • "________, I heard you had sex with an older woman last night?"
  • "How does he do it?"
  • "I'm not honest for a second up here."
  • "I think country music gets a bad rep."
  • "A dirt road, a cold beer, blue jeans, a red pick-up."
  • "No shoes, no shirt."
  • "Sort of a mental typo."
  • "I could sing in mandarin."
  • "I own a private ranch that I rarely use. I don't like dirt."
  • "Now it's time to talk to the ladies."
  • "Good girl in a straw head."
  • "Thought it was a human woman."
  • "That is a scarecrow."
  • "I'm wanting you. I hope you're feeling me."
  • "You don't know what land you're in...?"
  • "They are lying to you, that's all."
  • "You deserve better."
  • "I'm not saying I'm it, but I'm the person that says you deserve better."
  • "It's the end of culture."
  • "We lost."
  • "How is this entertainment?"
  • "I saw a gorgeous dick. I was in a public restroom."
  • "You're not picturing this."
  • "I need to earn it."
  • "You need to earn it."
  • "There's more where that came from."
  • "Ladies, I know where that came from."
  • "You want a guy that's sweet."
  • "This ugy only exists in your mind."
  • "Guess what? You're right."
  • "If you want love, lower your expectations a few."
  • "Prince Charming would never settle for you."
  • "Just pick a guy and love him."
  • "Just pick a girl and love him."
  • "You wan't a girl that is noce, a girl that is not."
  • "A real girl, a hot girl, a really hot girl!"
  • "She's real, but last week she died."
  • "You might think you dick is a gift, I promise it's not."
  • "I won't settle for less than perfect."
  • "Deep down we know we don't deserve it."
  • "We all deserve love."
  • "We all suck, but love can make us suck less."
  • "It's the very best part of being alive."
  • "Original does not mean good."
  • "Anyone can do anything."
  • "What is it good for?"
  • "I don't want to get political..."
  • "They just liked the lights, I didn't even need to do jokes."
  • "Yeah, you like that?"
  • "Honey are you ok?"
  • "Are you drunk?"
  • "What's behind your back?"
  • "It's a jar of peanut butter. Alright? Sue me."
  • "Why are you holding a jar of mayonnaise."
  • "I'll clean it up."
  • "You'll make it worse if you try it."
  • "Who are you talking to?"
  • "You just gestured to the sink."
  • "I bought something."
  • "Sit in silence."
  • "Nothing tastes better than not getting sued."
  • "You don't want that desperate sort of cloying thing."
  • "I'm just overpaid, ok?"
  • "I sound mean and rude."
  • "Let a professional hear it."
  • "Stick your tongue in a plug."
  • "Hold your breath until it's gone."
  • "Take your pants off!"
  • "You think it's ok because I'm a dude?"
  • "You think it's ok because he is a dude?"
  • "It's over."
  • "We shouldn't fight to stay together just to fight again."
  • "We need to take a break from us to make it right again."
  • "Honestly are you fucking five?"
  • "I've got my father's temper. I'm emotionally inarticulate."
  • "I'm hurting inside, I'm trying to hide it."
  • "I thought you were lashing out in anger."
  • "I deserve better than you."
  • "Sorry, you're not what I need."
  • "What am I talking about, you know?"
  • "It's about... but for real, what is it about?"
  • "No one gives a shit about what we think!"
  • "The arrogant is taught."
  • "It's prison. It's horrific"
  • "I know very little about anything."
  • "He talked about his problems."
  • "I thought... maybe I could do this."
  • "Can I say my shit, _______?"
  • "I got lots of shit to say."
  • "I can't fit my hand insdie a pringle can."
  • "It's way too small."
  • "You think you can. I know you can't"
  • "Just... make them wider?"
  • "I wanna have a daughter."
  • "But that is priority numero uno."
  • "I don't go to the gym 'cause I'm self concious about my body."
  • "I'm self concious about my body because I don't go to the gym."
  • "Irony can be so painful."
  • "Dude, you should have warned me."
  • "No one wants to have a messx burrito."
  • "I wouldn't have gotten the _______ if I knew it wouldn't fit."
  • "I wouldn't have got half of it."
  • "I'm ok with small mistakes."
  • "I don't think that I can handle this right now."
  • "I can sit here an pretend that my biggest problems are pringle cans and burritos."
  • "The truth is my biggest problem is you."
  • "I want to please you but stay true to myself."
  • "Part of me loves you, part of me hates you, part of you needs you, part of me fears you."
  • "I should probably just shut up."
  • "You can tell them anything."
  • ""I hope you're happy."
  • "Oh, good, it's just us."
  • "If you hated it, it's fair."
  • "On a scale of one to zero, ________?"
  • "Are you happy?"
  • "But what the fuck kind of question is 'are you happy'?"
  • "Oh god, my dad was right."
  • "You're everything you hated. Are you happy?"
  • "Hey, look, Mom, I made it! Are you happy?"
EXO REACTION TO YOU WANTING FUN TIME BUT YOU ARE PREGNANT

Requested by anon

im doing this one for the banter

KAI

*You were in the mood but Kai wasn’t, he was already half asleep (as usual) but you decided to nudge him to make him pay attention to you*

Y/N: “Jongin..wake up, I need you right now”

K: “And I need sleep, we tried this before remember and I took my back out”

SEHUN

*A lot of the time you were really tired being heavily pregnant so Sehun would do teasing things to wind you up, but one night you were feeling it and he was getting some*

Y/N: “If you dont come here within the next 3 seconds Oh sehun I’m raising this baby alone, now sort out what you started”

Originally posted by angel-in-slow-motion

SUHO

*You called out to him from the bedroom and he raced in asking what was up*

S: “Did you need something babe?”

Y/N: “Yeah, you”

S: “Oh well then come and get me sugar”

dont even ask me 

CHANYEOL

*You thought it was a great idea to watch Chanyeols artificial love fancam, and didn't realise how in the mood it was going to make you. He walked in and heard the song and knew what you were watching*

C: “Fancy some of that right here right now?”

Y/N: Yes actually but I look like a balloon so maybe not”

C: “You may be a balloon but you’re my sexy ass balloon so lets kick it mama”

I said dont ask

Originally posted by yeollovemebaek

BAEKHYUN

*You initiated contact and made it clear about what you wanted out of tonight, and so did Baek but when it was just about to get down to the best part…your waters broke*

B: Oh fuck what do we do now”

Y/N: “Thats it little nipper great timing thanks a bunch”

D.O

*You guys had started full on kissing and you both knew it was about to get hot and heavy (literally). Once you guys were on the bed in very little clothing he broke away from the kiss for a moment and got up*

KS: “Just need a little stretch before we begin Y/N, let me just touch these toes”

Y/N: “You’re such an ass”

Originally posted by wooyoung

CHEN

*You broke away in the middle of the heated session and he wondered why and asked you why you initiated it if you didnt feel up to it*

Y/N: “ I do feel up to it but I don’t look up to it, how can you possibly be attracted to me at the moment”

C: “Because you’re my girl, who is carrying my child and there is nothing more beautiful than that Y/N”

Originally posted by rxxbinc

TAO

*You both were out in the woods taking a long walk together when suddenly the urge took you by storm, you pushed tao up against a tree and told him you wanted to take him right there and then, he obliged to a bit of outside fun time, however you suddenly backed off*

T: “Come on Y/N I was looking forward to that don’t tell me you had a change of heart, if you leave me here too long I’ll become one with the trees”

Y/N: “Stop making jokes you fuck I’m going into labor..in the woods..and I didn’t even get some. What kind of life”

priorities 

Originally posted by whereisexom

LAY

*You attended Exo’s concert in China and the perfomance of your bf made you feel very needy so you made an excuse after the concert was done that you were very tired and that you wanted to go home, so Lay came with you. Once you were behind closed doors things changed*

L: “I thought you were tired baby?”

Y/N: “Don’t come @ me Zhang Yixing, I’m pregnant af and you still did your best to attack with your hips at that concert and it worked you have no remorse”

L: “well thats me for ya”

Originally posted by laygion

KRIS

*he was in shock when you told him what you wanted. You guys hadnt done it for ages because you said you felt tired which he understood but now was in chance and he was gonna strike tonight*

K: “Looks like the hotpot is going in the oven”

Y/N: “You know what, i have changed my mind”

Originally posted by luedeer

LUHAN

*Since becoming pregnant you had a strong habit of getting him turned on but then not doing anything about it because you suddenly were no longer in the mood to continue and he thought this night was going to be another one of these nights*

L: “this better not be another trick Y/N, my hand is good but you are a lot better”

Originally posted by jongdaeshighnote

XIUMIN

*He felt a hand brush across his chest which woke him up. Above him you hovered half naked with hungry looking eyes. Within a few seconds you guys were rolling around and after a few minutes shaking that bed like crazy*

Y/N: “Xiu..xiu wake up!”

*He woke up to you moaning at him for making too much noise and then turned around to go back to sleep*

XM: “Ugh it wasn’t even real..damnit, I mean makes sense I was wondering where the baby bump went”

Originally posted by hoshady


Requests are open (no smut)

Fuck Like A Kennedy

Request: So, if you’re too backed up with requests, or don’t wanna do it, that’s fine, but can I get some Dom Fun Ghoul smut thats really kinky? I love your blog so much! im sorry if this sounds rude!

(TW: Suicide. Angst angst angst angst)

According to the junkies in the ones and the bums living in the slums of Battery City, killjoys were heroes. “They have it all” they would say,”Freedom, adventure, color, they are truly living”. And we were. For the most part. It was days like today that no one told drunken stories about or whispered behind closed doors about. The days where I attended another burial. The days were I awoke to Kobra screaming, and spent half the night trying to comfort him from his night terrors. The days were Party would give in and we all sat emotionless as he screamed and sobbed in his room, cursing himself for drinking that bottle and cursing his fucking government for driving him to this. The days when Jet and I would attempt to drown out a bad day by fixing up that god damn leaking radiator, but would sit in silence as Dr. D’s traffic report rattled another list of names that was way too fucking long. “The world’s so fucked up Y/n,” he would say, clenching onto the steering wheel with bruised knuckles,”so fucked up”. Bad days are inevitable, no matter how beautiful yesterday was. Like today, the day were we finally got blessed with rain. It was a good day, we cranked up Mad Gear and Missile Kid and had the biggest mud war in the zones. It’s been far too long since I’ve heard Party let out his cackle laugh. It was a good day. Was. I should’ve known really, nothing as beautiful as seeing the Fabulous Four act like the kids they truly, not the ones who grew up to fast, could last too long in ts shit world. It was bitter cold, it always was at night, but the rain intensified it. I could barely see with how hard it was coming down, the only light source was the moan and the millions of stars that provided a dim glow against the sand. I could see Ghoul though, a few feet in front of me. My mind flashed to merely hours ago, Ghoul completely covered in mud, tackling Kobra and Party into a puddle with a cheer of victory. I looked at him now, blood shot eyes as he stood on the very edge of the roof. I shuddered at the though of him falling backwards, letting himself go. “They have it all,” they say. “Ghoul?” My voice was strained and sounded like I’ve been screaming for hours. For once, that wasn’t the case. He looked at me blankly, as if the words went right through him. His eyes suddenly flicked up at me, I took a startled step back. I always admired Ghoul’s eyes, they were warm and full of life. Looking into them felt like a combination of a roaring engine and tight hug. They were dead now. Figuratively, not literally. Or yet, anyway.

“What are you doing up here?” His voice was smooth and calm, reminding me of how he S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W units would yell “Hault!” at the Trans Am when we drive by. It was scary how much he reminded me of Battery City citizen at the moment. 

“What are you doing here?” I replied, keeping my voice as genuine and concerning as I could muster. 

“I…I…I can’t feel anything,” he rasped out, his voice cracking with a broken sob. “Why can’t I feel anything?!” I took a step forward, testing his reaction. He didn’t seemed bothered, looking back down at the shimmering puddles below. In a way, I didn’t feel anything either. It almost shocked me how calm I was. Instead of pleading, begging for him to get off the fucking roof and talk to me, my mind was playing an old song, from an old band before this B.L.I. mess. Hey Ho, let’s go

“Ghoul…talk to me,” I reached, a small flicker of hope sparking in me when he made eye contact. “You don’t have to do this.”

“Why not? Honestly, why the fuck not. The world is dying Y/n, fucking dying. We’re dying. We’re chasing a broken dream, running from anything and everything. I’m tired of running.” I’m tired of running. The sentenced replayed over and over in my head. I’m tired of running. Weren’t we all? Hey ho, let’s go.

“There’s nothing wrong with running, Ghoul. Nothing. We’re changing lives. Whether you can see it or not, we are. Hope is back, the people have hope because of you. Because of us.”

“It’s not easy out here…”he murmured, I could tell he was no longer talking to me. ”We all though it would be better out here, better on our own. It’s fucking hell. Fucking. Hell. I can’t do it anymore.”

“Remember today Ghoul? The rain? The mud war? We have one shot at living Ghoul, and were doing it. Were alive. We need you alive. I need you.”

“What did you say?”

“I. Need. You. I can’t spend a day in this wasteland without seeing your eyes or hearing your laugh. I need you here. So get off that roof and kiss me you animal.” I croaked out, offering a hand. He smiled for the first time that night, a broken one, but still a smile. He took my hand and collided our lips together. Hey ho, let’s go. The kiss was messy, teeth grinding against teeth and tongues sloppily swirling together. His nails dug into my waist, definitely leaving marks. He was taking all of his built up rage out on me and I was more than happy to take it. Anything to get him off this damn roof. It wasn’t until he moved to my shirt that I stopped him. “Not here, inside.” He nodded, speed walking next to me as we finally got off the roof and headed to his room. Hey ho, let’s go. The boys were gone, thank God, responding to a supply drop transmission. We collapsed onto his bed, completely disregarding how wet we were from the rain. We practically ripped each others clothes off, using as much force as it took to strip down the fastest. 

“I’m gonna make you feel so god, kitten. Make you fucking scream.” He growls, quickly kneeling in front of me, draping one leg over his shoulder. He chuckles darkly as he pulls my panties to the side with his teeth. He kissed my clit earning a shaky breath from me. He glances up at me, smirking with that fucking smirk that makes my knees wobble. He takes a long, slow lick between my folds. I moan, fisting his raven hair in my hands as he sucks on my clit. His teeth lightly graze it before plunging his tongue deep into my core 

“Oh my god” I moan, tilting my head back into the pillow. He chuckles, sending vibrations through my body, causing my orgasm to quickly build up. Fuck, it’s been way too long. Hey ho, let’s go. I cross my ankles behind his upper back, pulling him closer to me by his hair.

“Now baby, no need for that” he chuckles, sounding more like a growl. He grabs both of my hands in his, pushing them against my sides. He pushes his face deeper, sending his tongue inside me deeper then before.

Fuck i’m cumming!” I scream, arching my back. Ghoul continues to lick and suck, pushing me over the edge releasing on to his tongue. I rolled my hips against his mouth, softly moaning. He releases my arms, bringing two fingers between the two of us, running them up my dripping folds before holding them up to me. I take them in your mouth, swirling your tongue around, enjoying how his eyes darkened at the sight.

“So sweet baby, sweetest cum I’ve ever tasted” he says cleaning me up.

“Ghoul, I want to suck your cock” I say breathlessly under him. He removes my legs from his shoulder, flipping us over. I automatically lick a trail down his stomach, admiring his tone figure and all of his tattoos. I stared at his dick in slight awe, long and thick. I lightly gripped his base, giving him a soft pump.

“Don’t tease me baby, I want to see how good you are with that pretty little mouth” he says, leaning down to get level with me. He runs his thumb over my bottom lip before connecting his lips with mine. He shoves his tongue between my lips, exploring every inch of my mouth. I continue to pump his shaft, causing his eyebrows to furrow with pleasure. I pull away and take his dick in my mouth. He moans, fisting my hair into a makeshift ponytail to have more control. I looked up at him and hollowed my cheeks, swirling my tongue around his thick length, and massage what I can’t fit in my mouth and his balls all at the same time. “You’re so sexy sucking my dick baby, giving me the best blowjob I’ve ever had” he says as I deep throat his length, I close my eyes and focus on taking all of him, which I quickly learn to be impossible. I gag pulling him completely out of my mouth to catch my breath. Admiring how gorgeous he looks like this.

“Do you like it when I suck your dick? Do you like having my lips around you?”

“Oh fuck yes Y/n, you’re so good with your mouth” He grunts, my confidence soaring. He continues to thrust into my mouth, moaning every time I would gag on him, He pulls out of my mouth, letting me catch my breath. I take one breath and take him back into my mouth.

“Oh you’re a little cock slut huh, you like having my cock in your mouth” He growls, his grip tightening in my hair. His dirty talk was intoxicating and became my second favorite thing he could do with his mouth. “Fuck baby, you’re gonna make me cum” He warns, causing me to pick up the speed and take him deeper. He roughly pulls me up to my feet.

“If I’m going to cum, I’m going to cum in that tight little pussy of yours.” I moan at his words, smashing our lips together.

“Talk dirty to me baby” I moan as he pushes inside of me. Neither of us were gonna last long, we both knew that. It’s been way too fucking long.

“You have the tightest pussy I’ve ever felt around my dick baby. God you’re so fucking hot. I can feel how close you are already, cum on me Y/n, cum for me kitten” he says in my ear. That was enough to send me over the edge alone.

“Frank!” I scream, using his real name. I open my eyes to stare into his as I released, whimpering his name over and over again as my nails fasten into his shoulders.

“We aren’t done yet sugar” he says slapping your ass signaling for me to get up. I stumble slightly, legs wobbly after two orgasms. “Let’s see, how do I want to fuck you on my desk” He smirks, pushing everything off his desk before bending me over it,. He spreads my legs slightly before thrusting into me as hard as he possibly could. I cry out, the new angle giving him deeper access.

“Oh fuck” I moan, gripping the edge of the desk. My nails dug into the hardwood, probably leaving marks.

“So tight,” he growled into my ear. “So tight and warm around my throbbing cock” he says pounding into me without mercy. I could feel all of his rage, all of his hatred at everything. He needed this, we needed this. “Oh god Y/n” he says grabbing my ass cheeks in his large hands, kneading them and slapping them playfully. “Y/n baby I’m going to cum” Ghoul groans, closing his eyes and trying to steady his breathing. 

“Me too…” I barley rasped out the words, struggling to speak at how good everything felt. My breaths became short as he thrust at top speed, making my vision go blurry. I knew my thighs would be bruised in the morning from his intense fucking, but I could really care less about tomorrow. My third orgasm builds up quickly this time with more pressure, the pleasure becoming far too much. Ghoul’s thrust began to get sloppy, and he reached down with the hand that wasn’t grabbing my breast to rub my swollen clit fiercely. I arched my back, throwing my head back in pleasure, “I’m cumming” I say weakly, playing with the curls at the nape of his neck.

“Wait,” he demands, speeding up his thrusts.

“Ghoul, I can’t hold it much longer” I pant, feeling his thrust get sloppy. 

“Okay baby, on three” he grunts. “1….2….3!” I scream his name as my orgasm washed through my body, my blood running hot. Ghoul releases deep inside of me, my orgasm sending him over the edge. He waits a few minutes before pulling out of me, picking up bridal style and back over to his bed. I curl up into his chest once he lays down, stroking his soppy wet hair. He smiles and cups my cheek, kissing my gently. The kiss was soft and gentle, everything the sex wasn’t. There’s a beautiful irony in that. “I didn’t mean to be that rough,”he frowned, running his thumb over one of the many bruises on my waist.

“It was great, you were great,” I reassured, and it was true. The rough side of him was hypnotizing and I couldn’t get enough of it. 

“Did you mean what you said? About needing me?”

“Of course I did, I honestly couldn’t live without you. I will always need you.”

“I need you too, in every way possible.” He said quietly, running a hand through my hair.

“We have a good life Ghoul, we do. It’s not perfect, bu it’s something worth fighting for.”

“You’re worth fighting for.”

Begin Again. (Jerome Valeska x Reader)

Originally posted by smooshywrites

REQUEST: hey can you write an imagine where the reader has depression a month or two after the supposed “death” of her boyfriend Jerome and she drinks, smokes and parties at clubs to take her pain away and one night the drugs and the alcohol really gets to her and she goes past her limit and hallucinates jerome everywhere and Jerome is alive and walks up to her at the club and the Maniax attack the whole place while they reunite and kiss and his words to her are “did you miss me?” thanks so much !! <3

FANDOM: Jerome Valeska [Gotham]

AUTHOR: MK (purityimagines)

TAGS: swearing, mention of death, murder, depression, drugs/smoking, drinking, partying, hallucinations, long imagine??

NOTE: song “Begin Again” by Purity Ring is used for this imagine. This song will be the background music of the club scene. You can check out the song here!


It has been almost half an hour and I didn’t touch my plate. I just stared at nothing as my sandwich sat untouched and uneaten. My phone was piled with unread text messages and missed calls from all my family and friends. They were all worried about me, they were worried about my mental health, this illness that I’m currently having. It won’t go away. My thoughts of him won’t go away. 

The whole city went crazy as soon as Theo Galavant plunged the knife in Jerome’s neck. I couldn’t help but collapse on my knees as I watch my boyfriend slowly die with a smile on his face, not even having the chance to finishing his sentence.

“You … said I was … gonna be …” You said I was gonna be a star. And he did. Theo said he was gonna be famous, popular, known in Gotham city. And if his ambition came to life, I would smile and be happy to see him finally be free from all those years of abuse from his mother and blind father and the remaining time he had in Arkham Asylum wearing that stupid jumpsuit. 

Turns out Galavan was the hero and the star of Gotham. He “saved” the people inside the building that was only looking forward to see a magic show being crashed by no other than Jerome Valeska and Barbara Kean.

Speaking of Barbara, she went over to my apartment and “paid her respects”. I saw her wear the most beautiful outfit and I pictured myself wearing it to impress Jerome. I wasn’t expecting Barbara to feel sorry about Jerome’s death and my mourning because all she cared about was to get back together with Jim and to make Lee suffer. But that day she came to visit she had a box of donuts in her hand and a bag of marijuana spliffs in the other. All for me. She was winking at before leaving.

It is now a month since the death of Jerome Valeska and I’m still a trainwreck over his death. My own boyfriend, my partner in crime, my Clyde Chestnut. He was gone and no remorse was there to comfort me except Barbara. My family told me it was for the best and my friends tried hooking me up with other guys, but I ended up never speaking to them the whole night I went on dates with them. Neither of them were Jerome. They could never be him.

Last week, I got kicked out of a club because I screamed when I saw people’s faces replaced by Jerome’s- looking directly at me with his evil grin. All the ‘Jeromes’ began to laugh at me, maniacally. I wanted to scream so I did, causing everyone around me to stop dancing and stare at me. Next thing I knew, two guards were throwing me out the back door, leaving me to walk home.

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508: Not had time at all today to blog, but wanted to say a few things!

Seems a bit trivial to talk about a tv show given whats going on in the world but this is what this blog is for, and I need a distraction before bed to take my mind of things.

This wont be too long hopefully!

I really enjoyed last nights ep, it had drama, highs/lows, pace, comedy and emotion. I need to rewatch it because my internet was freezing this morning and It was harder to watch due to that but I was still entertained the whole time.

Few comments on the last scene:

1) If the weird ass stepford wives music hadn’t been playing, what Fitz was saying wouldn’t have sounded half as creepy.

2) Olivia’s confusion and disorientation made it all seem a little more eery

3) Saw some comments briefly about it being a slight parallel to 218 when she was in the hospital bed and fitz hugged her, really like that parallel.

4) I understand Fitz’s motives somewhat. With her in the WH she is much more protected, especially with a detail. She is safer from the likes of Rowan and Human Vibrator

5) Olivia now has to live her sentence out in the crown jewel of the american prison system. Fitz has served, and is still serving his.

6) Fitz did come across a little weird and controlling (Tony plays him so well) and I was a little freaked out by it but I really do think the music changed how I interpreted it. Olivia has always controlled the pace and direction of their relationship and Fitz took control.

7) I dont think this is over between them and words will be said, but I think Fitz is so willing and committed to Liv and to working with her on their problems than losing her altogether. Olivia had resigned herself to this.

8) Finally, i’ve watched that scene two or three times and it doesn’t bother me AS much as it first did, although I know some people are already jumping of the Olitz ship (ridiculous sorry) because of it. I am genuinely excited to see what comes of this.

In general this scene leaves me feeling a mixture of things and I can’t fully explain but ye I am hoping and praying they’ll be ok.

The Pentagon Scene:

This is all I have to say

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Kerry and Tony are truly phenomenal together and that whole scene was insane. The fact we understood exactly what was being said just from their faces and a bit of lip reading is testament to them. I know I hate on Shonda a shit load, but the decision to put the music over that scene was pretty great…. and what a song choice.

side note: is the fact that Mellie actually forged Fitz’s signature, which is treason, just going to be ignored? Surely Fitz can’t let that slide… I should asking questions.

OPA:

Quinn telling Marcus to go faster killed me. Marcus bro you got to keep up!

Huck telling Joke he’s on his own - YES MY FRIEND.

Case of the week was good, It was interesting and I wasn’t bored by it. When Fitz dropped that little comment about the drone when they shook hands. I was like

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Thats my man. He said it with so much poise and swag and used that sexy ass voice of his. Im proud of my bae.

David and Liz

Rosen is funny as shit but this is just weird as fuck. My heart literally hurts for Susan, she is such a good person, she doesnt deserve this. She can keep her wine coolers.

Abby and Olivia

Frigging love this sisterhood. Yes they have done shit to each other in the past but when it comes to it they gladiate for each other and they are each others person over a cliff. Liv chilling with her shoes off in Abby’s office, glass of vino in hand, uchhhhh I love it. Up until Fitz found out, Olivia had psyched herself up to believe that once he knows thats it for them and she wasn’t ready to lose that. She was hanging onto those last moments with him. Props to Abby for ratting out Cyrus, that man is a dog with a fucking huge bone and needs to be tamed. No doubt Liv knows that anyway, but hey, sisterhood looking out for each other. It was so nice to see Olivia releasing her burdens on other people and actually communicating her fears, especially with a girl friend.

I really wish she would do it with Fitz more but she has done and she will continue to get better at doing so. There has already been so much growth for her in many aspects this season and her expressing her fears and is one of them.  

But ye this Abby/Liv scene had me in my feels.

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Cyrus

When he found out Liv was involved he was like a little kid. I swear down that man doesn’t learn a frigging lesson, his power trip is going to send him to his grave. Wasn’t here for him this episode at all and was kinda like

Rowan

I do not understand how Olivia, after everything he has done to her, is so ready to believe him so quickly. Maybe I am missing something, do tell me if I am?

The choice of song in the Rowan/Liv scene was again fantastic. Shonda knows how to pick and chose music for the right moments.

I know Rowan has exerted so much control over Olivia’s life to the point where her life becomes foreign without his presence, but really, if that man was buried tomorrow, are people telling me Olivia would be devastated? Seriously she wanted him put away for life so he could rot in prison with all the blood on his hands. Why have a constant worry that he may escape or come find her when he is out, why not just let him die? For fucks sake you had a man hunt on him last season and now you don’t want him to be killed.

Maybe I need to be a little more complex with my thinking on this one from Olivia’s emotional stand point but this just really fucks with me and I do feel Rowan’s presence is a way to make fish lips sightly relevant.

The beginning of the bunker scene, you can hear Olivia explain to Fitz that her dad was going to die or get killed in jail so she released him….. BUT WHY?! I do need help on this one? anyone?!

Mellie

The 20 seconds you were on the screen was enough and it was once again a pleasure not having grace our screens.

Random Thoughts:

–> Jake you’re boring and grow more irrelevant each week.

–> Olitz being the power couple they are hosting guests, and Olivia charming – everyone. My babies, I love you so much.

–>Prayers for Susan Ross, she is such a babe.

Fitz telling Cyrus to bring Olivia “home” to the Residence. My fanfic feellllsssss.

I may have missed something, so this is just my general feelings about it from one watch and what stood out to me.

Now I will finish off with gifs from Olitz in bed (credit @bananadome​) because the way Fitz/Tony looks at Kerry/Olivia has me all in my feels. That little nose stroke, the gentle goodnight kisses. Tony’s abs and Kerry’s flawless natural beauty. These people will kill me.

Dear my future boyfriend,

I have never, truly loved before. I went through high school as a ghost, focusing on making a loud impact without any recognition. I was successful too. Even one of my current best friends told me that, despite having had several classes with me at the time, she had come away knowing nothing about me.

Truth is I love being a ghost. I thrive in the shadows, standing behind my work and silently taking in the praise and ego boosting remarks. It allows me to flee my criticism directly and hide from my mistakes when they happen. No direct praise also means no direct faults.

But now I find myself having to step out into the spot light. I have to be loud and proud. I must stand out amongst the crowd and catch the attention of future employers. In order to make it in my industry as a female I need to work twice as hard and be twice as competitive as others. No more ghosting. So I’ve made the first steps and I am unsure. My anxiety makes it feel like everyone can see me, even when I’m alone. It makes me feel guilty and that silently they are judging me for things they have no clue about. The shame is heavy and the social burden on me is even heavier. I’m probably doing fine but as this is all new, I find that I’m struggling. 

Thats where you come in. As a ghost, I really didn’t need support as I didn’t have to face problems directly. I was a rouge, master of mystery and surprise. A quiet bombshell that threw people off their feet and then vanished into the night. Now I’m this awkward but passionate girl who finds herself struggling.

I could use some love. Real love. The kind that makes each of us a priority to each other. The kind that would make us partners in crime and able to support each other through what ever we are facing. The kind that isn’t appalled by sharing secrets or talking about how things make us feel. The kind thats sweet and honest. The kind thats warm and comforting. I want to love you, with everything I have. I want to support you. I want to take you with me as we take on life and punch it in the teeth.

I’d like to think I’m a wonderful person:

I have a vivid imagination. I’m not afraid of the darkness in life. I want to walk dark corners of the mind and understand what makes others feel pain. I want to create a bridge and take others there so they too can understand and help those that suffer. I’m a story teller. I love stories and I love characters more. I have an army of them. Imaginary pieces of myself who’ve grown into their own beings that feel very much alive as actual people. I’m making my career in building experiences. I will design games that bring joy to others, make them think about tough questions, or just allow them to escape their burdens if only for an hour.

I believe in acceptance of all. I have a friend with anger issues who has imagined painful beatings and even deaths of others. However she hates herself for thinking it. She suffers from it and wants her demons to vanish. I don’t judge her for those thoughts and my heart breaks for her suffering. I do what I can to keep her honest. To help her through her hatred of herself and to prevent her from hurting others, though I must admit I am only a voice. There are things she has only ever told me so I like to think I’m a powerful one. My heart goes out to random strangers who feel awkward or are upset. I read other letters here and I can almost feel their pain as if it were my own.

But then again there are parts of me I’m certain will make me hard to love:

I have a mild anxiety disorder. I have panic attacks. To be fair I’ve gotten better at dealing with them and preventing attacks. I’ve mastered my mind so that I no longer beat myself up. I have a self healing character who I summon when I’m so torn apart I can’t handle my situation anymore. I get stressed easily. I don’t over react to things but I visibly get distressed. I have control over it though. All I need is room to process and patience from you. Although there are sometimes that I wish I could call you to make me feel better. I’ve read that this could make me a burden to you. It makes my heart ache. I don’t want to be a burden to you ever. It hurts to even consider.

I don’t wear make up and am a tomboy. Look I am comfortable with my sex but I don’t like dresses. I won’t ever wear a bikini. I love my short hair. I want to get a tailored three piece suit. I don’t do my nails or anything. My uniform is jeans, a t-shirt and a sweatshirt. I’m a tad over weight but I want to get back into running because I love to move and make my heart race. I’ve just been stuck and burdened with stress so I’ve retreated indoors. By all definitions I’m not attractive. I don’t want to give in to marketing bullshit and change myself but I acknowledge that my looks are not one to be admired and adored immediately.

One of my characters is bloody and violent. I am a pacifist. I could not even imagine hurting someone physically but my passion and frustration manifests into him. He is a slow burning anger. A powerful force that can crush a mans face and rip his heart straight from his chest with only his hands. He is a cannibal who tears people to shreds and devours their hearts. Granted its all well supported in his fiction. I don’t ever use it to take out my anger on someone. I don’t even really assign faces to the people he kills, let alone any resemblance to anyone in real life. This has scared someone before. Petrified her to the point of moving out in the middle of the night without telling me and leaving me alone to wonder and worry. She sucked as a roommate but I feel slightly responsible for driving her away. To think that I might some how scare or disgust you, breaks me. I fear letting anyone know about this character.

I don’t condone any acts of darkness but I can suspend my beliefs long enough to try and emphasize. Not to erase their crimes or somehow dismiss or disrespect their victims. Hell no. I do this because I don’t want to just knee jerk and be afraid of them. I don’t want to be ignorant about what is a very real part of life. I want to understand how this could happen. How someones mind could become so twisted. Are they born this way? Do they hate themselves? I feel that if the taboo were somehow removed from these darker subjects and we could understand what is going on, then maybe we could save them. Maybe we could even stop it from ever happening again. Notice that even though I am anonymous, I didn’t specify what kind of acts of darkness. This is because I also fear that this exploration and attempt to understand the twisted and lost will disgust you as well. I fear that you will think of me insane or unstable. To “normal” people hatred and fear of these kinds of people is natural and accepted. I am not normal, that I know but I refuse to feel shameful for it. I feel like it will do some good. However I do know that you may not like this and that it is hard to swallow and so I fear rejection of something so vital to my character.

But what of you? What am I hoping you will be? What are my standards for you?

I have a physical preference. A certain kind of physique that I lean towards. Though if I’m honest I don’t care what you look like. I want you to have a warm heart. I want you to be gentle and honest. I want to be able to rest my head against your chest and listen to your heart beat. To hear you breath and be alive in your arms. I want to hear your laughter and to be able to laugh with you. I want you to be vulnerable enough to me so that I can support you in your own struggles. To return whatever support you bring me tenfold but I know that this is hard to do.

I want so badly to hold your hand and take you on adventures. I want to write you stories and make you games. I want to create for you and tell you that I love you. I want to stay up late and talk to you. I want to be able to miss you when you are gone and to cherish you when you are near.

I am a ghost. Even now I hide behind my own words. No one knows who I am or where. Thats why I can be so vulnerable here. Thats why I can share with you my deeper secrets and my worries. I am writing this in the dark and listening to a slow but powerful song. I feel at home here in these shadows but at the same time I feel lonely and incapable of being loved. I don’t want to be desperate but the idea that you could be reading this and that you might be willing to give me a shot makes me happy.

I crave love as I know that I need it. I need kind and gentle words late at night. I need a warm hug and a loving smile. I want you so bad but I know that finding you will be hard. We will probably start out as friends and possibly grow to be more but I’m bad at making new friends. I have only two good friends. Together we make a strong ass triad but I am not one for adding a ton of friends for the sake of it. However if this will help me find you then maybe I’m willing to do it. 

Who knows you might actually be reading this. This might get published and you might read this and think, hey she’s not so unlovable as she thinks. Maybe you might reach out like others have, ask for me to come out of the shadows and own up to my words. Perhaps if you are that brave and willing I just might. 

You know, writing this actually makes me feel like I’m talking to you. To a real person who could actually love me. That makes me happy to consider despite my worries.

To those that are not him but still read through all of this, thank you. I know its long and its hopelessly desperate but I needed to speak my mind. I needed to commit my feelings to words and call out in the darkness from my own shadowed corner. I care for you all and I will continue to read the letters written here. I hope the idea of me doesn’t repulse you and that perhaps I shouldn’t be so afraid of my secrets after all.

- L

anonymous asked:

ah i'm sure this is an unpopular opinion but it's been nagging at me for a while and i didn't want to tell my inspirit friends in case they start doubting me, but i was hoping to hear your insight on this? i can't help but feel as if the boys aren't as close as they were before, only because on showtime there are a lot of silences and a lot of times they say really scathing jokes that can be construed as hurtful (but i know thats part of their humor but im still a little ??) pt 1

before we wouldnt really see much of their interactions anyways but maybe its because they’ve toned down on their fanservice over the years? Maybe its because I’m comparing them to BTS who constantly has social media presence in which they’re always interacting with their fans, like tweeting them and going on fancafe, and they’re still seen hanging out outside of official schedules. They all post pictures of each other too and they’re always laughing and I’m definitely an inspirit before I’m an army but sometimes I wish infinite’s relationship with each other could be more.. outward? I know we’ll never know exactly how close they are (and I know they’re pretty damn close, like 7 years together?) but I’m scared that sometimes their relationship becomes strained to the point of awkwardness. i know i might be looking into it too much but military service is soon and some people on twitter (theyre inspirits but antis of certain members idgi either) are talking about how “the ot7 bond is fake because they’re jealous of certain members” and “some members are overshadowed so they’re bitter” and i really love infinite a lot and i want them to be like shinhwa but i guess i’m just paranoid? ;__;

From a different anon:
I am so scared that when their contract is over, they dont want to be together :(

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Hello! We understand why you think this, especially compared to BTS but we don’t think the boys bonds are fake or they’re not friends anymore. We don’t really want to compare groups like this in case people take it the wrong way… so for anyone reading, please keep in mind that we like BTS and appreciate their fan service as well!

As fans, we love seeing the boys together, interacting and laughing. It’s what makes us love them so much. But yes, they aren’t as open about their lives together like we saw in the past. However, comparing them with BTS isn’t quite fair. In this day and age, SNS is everything and BTS is extremely active on lots of social media platforms. To give INFINITE some credit, during their debut/when they got more recognition, SNS wasn’t as important of a marketing tool for companies as it is now. I’m not trying to discredit BTS and their reasons for being active on SNS, but publicity/marketing may be one of the reasons they’re so active. Also, BTS has been promoting very frequently since their debut which means they’re around each other a lot. Because of this, they’re able to film things together. INFINITE promotes a new song/album once a year nowadays, which means there are fewer times that they’re together for promotions.

Another thing you have to keep in mind are the members’ ages and the age of the group. BTS just recently gained a huge following and INFINITE has had a steady fanbase for about 5 years now. They simply don’t need to put themselves out there on SNS unless they personally want to. This may be why we don’t see a lot of whole group interactions compared to groups like BTS, who use the V app/group SNS accounts a lot. INFINITE actually posted quite frequently on their SNS and fan cafe when they were rookies. They’re just at the age where they’re busy with other things. We believe it’s natural for groups of this age (and people in general) to be a bit more independent.

We also don’t think most of the boys are that into SNS. To each their own right? There are some members who use it quite often, but they generally tend to use it when they’re traveling or have some down time it seems. We also personally think they don’t use SNS as much because they’re a very careful group. They generally stay away from a lot of scandals and we all know the troubles SNS usage can cause. They also seem to use it to communicate with fans when necessary. A perfect example is like how Hoya and Sungyeol didn’t go back to Korea with the rest of the group after the Mexico concert, so to let fans know (we think) that he’s okay and just vacationing, he uploaded a travel photo with an explanation.

We think of it like this. Being a rookie group is like the first year of college. You’re excited for a new environment, you party hard, have fun making new friends and document everything. You’re all over SNS having a blast. Being a veteran group is like a few years after college. You’re still best friends with those people you made in the first year, but you don’t need to instagram every time you go to a party. The parties change, the atmosphere changes, people change. INFINITE is like a family and we believe you can definitely feel that. They might not openly show it on SNS but they always talk about times they go out together. There were lots of times they’ve talked about going out with each other. A good example is when Sunggyu did a hidden camera prank on the others in Showtime. They all knew that the restaurant that Sunggyu supposedly chose wasn’t his style and Woohyun said that they go out a lot and he’s never been there with Sunggyu. There are lots of small things that they say that we could add here but it’d take up too much room lol.

We don’t think you have anything to worry about. We personally think they’re one of the groups with the best chemistry and member bonds. They can openly talk about times they’ve fought, just as a family would. We think they truly see each other as family. As for the jokes, they’ve always kind of joked like that with each other. That’s just their type of humor, but we think they take it in good stride. It could also be something lost in translation (maybe?) We don’t really see their jokes as scathing, but if you have something specific in mind that you’d like us to refer to, please let us know.

Living abroad has taught me (dayounggie) that there are lots of different people out there, and even if you have a clique of friends from back home who talk to each other a certain way, doesn’t mean that other people will understand or like that kind of speech/friendship. As long as they’re okay, we don’t think you need to worry too much. Each friend group has their own way of showing love.

Sorry for the long reply and please keep in mind these are our own opinions.