but still you're the best

anonymous asked:

can i ask for 15 for mreyder?

Things you said with too many miles between us

The life of a Pathfinder was nothing if not unpredictable. One moment Scott was helping to gather some minerals on Elaaden, the next came an urgent summon to the Nexus or a distress call from the resistance on Voeld. Still, even among all this hecticness – or maybe because of it – he found comfort in establishing a small routine, things repeated almost every single day that helped to ground him no matter in which corner of the galaxy he was at the moment: ungodly amounts of cereal for breakfast, the morning hug from Jaal, feeding the Pyjak forbidden snacks behind Lexi’s back. And of course daily calls to Reyes, right before Scott turned in for the night.

It felt nice to see his lover’s face and hear his voice broadcasted through the infinite void, even if that wasn’t nearly enough to fully quench the longing. They always chatted a bit about what interesting happened to them and joked a little, exchanging cheesy lines or bad puns. Sometimes the conversation took a turn into a naughty territory when they hadn’t seen one another for a long time and were itching for a release.

Scott adored their talks, the time devoted to no one else but each other, the comforting assurance that they both were alive and well, which wasn’t a given with the kind of lifestyle they both lead.  

Today Scott needed to see Reyes more than ever.

Lying on the bed in his quarters, one hand under his head, the other with the omni-tool in front of his face, he told SAM to make the call.

“Good evening, Kadara,” he said as soon as his lover’s smiling face appeared on the display. Reyes must have waited for the call because he picked up almost instantly.

“Ryder. How is my favorite Pathfinder doing today?” he asked in an upbeat tone. But the cheerfulness gradually faded from his face the longer he stared at Scott. He could always read him like a book. “Are you okay?” His words were caring, gentle, inspiring confidence and urging Scott to open up. And Scott needed that kind of encouragement to pour his heart out, the certainty that he would be heard.

“No. Not really,” he sighed, using his omni-tool-free hand to rub at his temple. He wondered if he looked as tired and dispirited as he felt.

“What happened?”

Scott took a deep breath and let the words flow.

“I was on Eos today when I heard that some of the people from the outpost went to explore the remnant ruins, even though I told them over and over again that it’s dangerous and they should stay away. I drove there as fast as I could but…” Scott paused, closing his eyes briefly. When he opened them again, they were filled with anguish. “I arrived too late. The remnants tore them all to shreds right in front of me. I couldn’t do anything, I couldn’t save them. If only I was faster…”

“Scott, stop,” Reyes interrupted him, adamant but still sympathetic. “You can’t blame yourself for their stupidity. What happened wasn’t your fault.”

Scott heaved a sigh. A heavy burden of guilt weighed on his chest, one that he just couldn’t shake off.

“I know. I know, but…” he paused, his mournful eyes telling more than any words could ever do. “I wish you were here with me right now,” he whispered, sounding hopeless and pathetic to his own ears.  

But Reyes looked at him not with scorn, but with tenderness.

“I wish I was.”

The silence that fell between them was full of tension, vibrating with the vastness of space between them, the light years keeping them apart when the only thing they wanted was to be in one another’s arms.

Reyes was first to speak up.


Scott couldn’t hide his surprise when Reyes addresses the AI. Especially when SAM responded.

Yes, Reyes?

“Could you do something for me?”

Yes. As long as it will not go against my programming or against the Pathfinder’s wishes.”

“No, it’s nothing like that. Could you… could you make Scott feel as if I’m holding him? I think he needs that.”


“What? Reye–” Scott gasped when the sensation of being enveloped in a pair of strong arms spread through his body. The pressure against his skin, the warmth, it all felt so real. Scott’s throat clenched as he tried to rein in his emotions. He couldn’t deny though that the weight on his chest became lighter. 

“Better?” Reyes asked.

“Yeah. Thank you.”

“Go to sleep. I’ll watch over you.”

Scott tried to protest, but all it took was a little of gentle coaxing and he finally gave up. He closed his eyes and fell asleep quicker than he would imagine, safe in the imaginary embrace.

Reyes dawdled with ending the call, observing how Scott’s chest moved steadily with every breath he took, the expression on his face peaceful at last.

“SAM?” he asked once again.


“Can you help me with something one more time?”

With what, Reyes?

“Tell me where will you be touching down in the morning.”

* * * 

Of all the things Scott expected to find at the next port, Reyes, who had apparently flown like a madman entire night to get there before him, wasn’t one of them. Surprised, touched and happy, Scott was glad to confirm that no sensory substitute of a hug could compare to the real thing given freely and with love.

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         I suppose I owe you a ‘thank you’ for getting me out of the lab every now and then.
                                       Well now, we have husbands and kids.
                  But that doesn’t make our relationship any less important.

I realized that I didn’t know what else to do.

That’s when I finally understood… There’s nothing left to do.

You’re gone and that has to be okay with me.

—  It’s not though
I say this to you all the time, and I’m hesitant to do it again. But if you knew me, if you knew about where I’ve been and about the nightmares I have at night, if you truly knew how much you mean to me and how much you’ve simply been for me, you’d understand. I can’t afford to lose you. I couldn’t take the pain that would come with that. My heart is physically incapable of seeking anything but to love and be loved, and that’s been screwed up for me plenty of times but you’re full of everything I could’ve hoped for in one person. I can’t say this certainly, and that’s only because I don’t truly and completely know what you see, but I think that I can thank you for seeing me and being satisfied.
—  @itsfangirlalex; Thank You. 🖤

When all your friends are posting pics with their significant other for Valentine’s Day but you’re still single

yeah, i’ll always love you guys too :)


We won’t be silent. We will speak out. And we will persist.

Excited rant about arcade RUN BTS! episode


BTS continue to be hilarious

- fashion talk about their baggy clothes – Suga is a fashion icon for me *but really, I love dressing like combo of him and Jungkook there*

- V admits that he wears his pants back to front *not even sorry*

- basically just V being V, wearing his Gucci shoes
- but now he made sure he has a partner in crime in Hoseok and gave him (I think one of his favorite) Gucci slippers

- honestly what combo is more awesome for Tae than this huge trousers with lots of space on the inside * ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)* and those slippers

- okay let’s move on then

- BTS are gonna play DDR! (I’ve always sucked at it btw, like, I tried so many times but it was for nothing so I feel them)

- okay, they decide it’s maknae’s turn now since he can do everything

- “Choose very hard mode!” says the eldest, Jin *we can already sense his thirst for winning now, like, that shimmering in his eyes? Excitement in his voice? I think he practiced DDR earlier in his life, he’s just not saying it >:D*

- now Jungkook’s shook because he can’t conquer DDR *it’s okay but what is life? That song is hard!!!*

- *HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND plays in the background for Jungkook*

- everyone’s enjoying this fact

- we have zoom in on Suga’s face, he’s so happy and entertained :D

- Jin’s thirst for winning is obvious now. Jin screams. “WHY, THAT GAME IS FAN OF JUNGKOOK, NOT FAIR!!!” *but don’t worry Seokjin, just in few minutes you’ll be the winner*

- Jungkook panics but finishes anyway. Jin is laughing.

- next is Jimin, being cute and pretty and everything *don’t mind me and my obsession w/him*

- Jimin chooses song without any beat. He’s confused. Seokjin screams again. “THIS MACHINE IS JIMIN’S FAN!!!” *calm your titties, YOU WILL WIN anyway!*

- Jimin is serious now. Once again we have zoom in on Suga. He’s laughing. “Jimin is so bad at this.” *well I’m glad you’re having fun Yoongi :D*

- Tae is astonished anyway by Jimin’s performance. Tae is awesome ♥ *marry me pls? no? you don’t know that I even exist? :( :( :( okay*

- it’s Suga’s turn, he chooses normal level, not hard. He looks like he knows what he’s doing – but is this true?

- Jungkook doubts Yoongi’s abilities

- Suga starts and he rules. Until he starts to miss the beat completely

- Jimin is taking footage of Suga on DDR because, well, they need to have a proof

- Suga gives up. *his energy storage is empty now*

- J-Hope is putting away his clothes and shoes, members believe in him

- there’s no beat in his song so he uses hands to finish it. Well, whatever, he’s still our Hope even without winning

- FINALLY it’s here. Jin’s turn. He’s looking serious but he pretends he’s not. (RapMon is DDRing with him now)

- there are signs of laugh on Jin’s face, but just one look on his legs will tell you how hard he tries. It’s a fight of life and death

- Jungkook watches in awe. He shakes his head, looking Jung-what is happening-shook

- RM had enough of this shit and JK plays instead. Jimin’s still filming them with his phone

- Jin scores better than J-Hope. He yells and pretends he’s surprised. But we all know he’s not. This is it. This is his moment, the moment he was waiting for. *EVIL WINDSHIELD LAUGH*

- Namjoon and V are last. NJ makes all of these weird noises. He decides that using hands is better than feet. Jimin’s dying behind his phone.


- Jin is officially crowned as a winner. He’s happy.

- Jungkook is third, after Jimin

- he acts all casual and claps, but I see you, Justin Seagull. There’s this sadness and misunderstanding behind his eyes. *Is there really a thing I’m not best at?*

- RapMon is fifth. I love him. He’s so happy one would say he won the first place *for me you’re the winner, too*

- surprisingly (or…not) J-Hope is last. Jin uses this as a chance to brag about his dancing skills

Second round – basketball game that has nothing to do with actual basketball

- Jin is not confident anymore. At this point I’m sure he loved to play DDR when he was younger, but the same doesn’t apply for this “wannabe-basketball game”

- anyway the first round is Suga vs. Seagull. Suga repeatedly tells everyone that it HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH BASKETBALL. Still, I think he secretly hopes to win. But not that much. DDR tired him

- Jungkook’s being an extra until he panics. Still he wins

- 95 liners are playing now. Jimin is focused and keeps looking hilarious *I may or may not have stopped the video to look at his hands in that b&w turtleneck sweater holding a blue basketball. I may or may not have squeaked*

- Taehyung tries, he’s doing just slightly worse than Jimin

- that’s until he knocks himself out with a basketball *sure it is bc that basketball isn’t Gucci. Okay I’ll shut up now*

- JK is focused on cheering for Jimin *my JiKook heart can’t take this*

- Christian Chim Chim is the winner

- RM against J-Hope turn. Yoonseok feels all the way. Just look at Suga cheering for Hobi/looking excited/smiling. *JUST LOOK!*

- Namjoon’s being Namjoon. He also knocks himself out with that basketball. Everyone’s dead after this

- we have close ups of J-hope’s concentrated face. I have nothing to say about this… *J-HOOOOPEEE*

- guess who said this: “Look at Hope’s score! He’s doing great!”
Was it: A) Jin; B) Jimin; C) Min Yoongi

- ↑↑↑ send me your answers and I will send you a chocolate as a prize

- Hoseok rocks. Suga’s losing his shit, clapping, laughing; everything’s so awesome

- finally, Jin’s turn. I feel like the most problematic thing is to pick up that ball without looking at it *still, it doesn’t matter, bc you won that DDR!!!*

- Jin invents his significant basketball move – let’s throw two balls at once. It turns out its pretty ineffective

- JiKook are doing their thing and clings to each other while watching their hyung *my heart. JUST STHOB IT JIMIN* *no I lied, CONTINUE PLS*

- Namjoon claims he just tried to be funny. Jin doesn’t like it. It’s a serious bussinessu!

- both of them were just bad, but RM wants to play once again against Jin in serious manner

- battle of Titans begins

- Suga has goose bumps and I can relate. RM is, indeed, serious

- Namjoon is first. He’s not playing around.

Today’s episode ends just like this rant. I’m sorry I’ve written so much. Just too excited and they were all hilarious and meme-like and just BTS. If someone reads this, that’s cool. And I’m serious about that chocolate-like prize if you guessed that answer correctly! ‘kay, bye now.

Originally posted by sannal2054

Good Luck BTS at the BBMAS! I, and ARMY across the whole world are supporting you all ♥

  • me to my best friend: you're really cool and beautiful and like, basically you're this super amazing person and i'm just blessed to be aware of your existence
  • me, still to my best friend: also you're a fucking nerd

anyway i, a mentally ill adhd'er, got my driver’s license today at 22 years old after 6+ years of driving being one of my biggest fears in the known universe. i was 100% convinced i was going to fail and i didn’t. so that’s pretty chill