but still good hehehe

It has always been a big trouble for me to understand the mental illness of Reiner. But after these chapters, I am capable of understanding him much better now.

A very broken mother raised him and filled him with her own dream, that if Reiner can become a Warrior, then they’ll live with his father who is hoping for a way to unite with them. And the first burden Reiner started to carry on his shoulders became his mother, and Marley made this weight even heavier for a child to carry, like using children to win a war against another country. But he believes in everything Marley and his mother says, despite everything was all lies. He believed that if he’ll get to choose as a Warrior and punish those evils on that island, he’ll finally have a happy family.

And when the first lie he believed in this much shattered down, we saw him having his first mental breakdown as well.

His father doesn’t want him and her mother. He is not praying for meeting them whatsoever. He thinks they are devils he needs to run away. It is all lies.

He hasn’t even realized a whole time passing, the next time Reiner regains his consciousness, they are about to set off the mainland.

But he still has lies to hold on, that he was chosen by Marley to inherit the Armored Titan, that he’ll be a hero and get rid of those devils on Paradis. But… He finds out that this also is nothing but a lie. 

And then he has another breakdown after that realization.

And next time he regains his consciousness again, everything is about to change for him. Once again, we see Marcel getting eaten by Ymir. Once again, Reiner is having a shit day.

And then he starts to run to only lie he has left to believe, that he’ll be the hero to save the world once he punishes those devils on that island.

And once again, a lie he believed in crushes him there.

RBA snick in to the walls they have come to break down and join Military there.

And there, Reiner realizes that these people are not the devils. They are not in fault. It is his fault that they are in pain. On that day, Reiner realizes that the devils living on that island is actually more human than many, even himself. They are not planning to take down Marley, they don’t even understand what is going on. They are innocent. And the final piece of mental health Reiner flies away at that moment.

And Reiner creates a new lie for himself. That he is a loyal soldier and his cause is to protect the Walls and humanity. 

I love how Ymir is right after all these time, Chapter 46.

Before these chapters, many of us, including me, thought that Reiner’s soldier personality is based on heroic big brother Marcel. Yes, it was true that Marcel was a big brother but the heroic one was Reiner there. If Marcel and Ymir have something in common, it is that they are both the characters fandom maybe put a little bit too much hope for. Both of them ended up being much simple than we thought they are.

Soldier Reiner was based on Reiner’s lies. Behind the walls, life was so peaceful for child Reiner who never had a chance to have his own dreams and his own interests. So he forgets why he is there, why he is there, and the burden of everything he carried from mainland to Paradis. Forgetting them must have been so peaceful for Reiner.

Chapter 42.

And the realization must hurt even more.

Chapter title for 95 can’t fit any better for him. And it fits even more, specially after seeing how he keeps lying.

From left to right; Reiner telling Bertl that he is not reliable in Chapter 77, Reiner telling the days he spent at Paradis in Chapter 94, Reiner interrupting Porco and protecting him from accidentally treason in Chapter 95, Reiner telling Falco that he needs to surpass Gabi in Chapter 93.

As he was growing up, he was telling himself the lies he believed in. After years, now he is telling people the lies he doesn’t believe anymore.

anonymous asked:

HELLO! First off, you are AWESOME, I LOVE ALL YOUR ART, and you inspire me as an artist to do art things! So thank you for being my inspiration! <3 So anywho I was looking through your blog and came across an old ask that said you sometimes used pencil and scanned it into the computer for shading before posting it, and all ur stuff looks super good when I looked at the pencil stuff, so I was wondering what you use to scan your work? And what methods you might use to clean the scans? (THANK U!!!)

Sure! I use the Epson V700 series of scanners! Specifically, the Epson V750. It’s a nice glass 8″x10″ flatbed scanner that has the added perk (for us, at least) of scanning film as well*! So it comes with the equipment  and software to safely scan in 35mm and 120mm film, as well as being a sharp, calibrated scanner for scanning in small pieces of art and sketches. I think they sell a larger size of the V750 (that might be 11″x14″?) but I havent seen it and its way out of my price range for the kind of work that both Mat and I use it for – him for film scanning, and me for art scanning.

*Note the v750 is a model specifically for FILM SCANNING as well as documents, so check the v600 model line for sketches and lineart scanning! It’s the same basic build and software but without the film scanning on the side (trust me the film stuff makes it a lot more expensive than it would be normally bc not a lot of scanners do that well or come with holders) so the price tends to be a LOT more affordable!

Once I scan in my lineart, I tend to throw it either into SAI or Photoshop depending on what I want to do with it, but in SAI, all I really need to do is set the lineart/sketch to Multiply” and work on top of and underneath it! Typically this preserves the lines I want while letting me clean the lines up and add shading/texture/lighting/color etc. Anything I want, really! Typically though, I just tend to shade my lineart instead of color it in (i don’t always like losing my lines)

So a sketch like this:

Will get cleaned up, isolated, and shaded and turned into this:

Pretty sweet stuff, amirite?

Either way, that’s what I have and thats what I use! I mostly scan black and white but the color is just as good and can be adjusted from the scanner software. I definitely recommend to check it out! I dont draw as much in straight pencil as I used to unless I plan on straight painting it, but that doesnt mean having a nice scanner isnt worth it and can cut down on workflow if you work faster in pencil lines than digital. Besides, pencils have this nice texture to them that isnt easily achieved with digital brushes so if thats a look your going for, all the better to get a good scanner that can capture it.

Cheers!

itsthechangingoftheseasons  asked:

actually i also request akashi with 3a so we have a painful set (AGAIN, IF THE OTHER IS IN THE PICTURE, GOOD)

3A/3B. (LOOKS BACK AT YOU) HERE You have your painful sET!! \(oAo)/!! Neither of them share the pic with the other, BUT i’d like to think these are related,,,,,, somehow,,

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Aymeric has always struck me as more of a person who would ride horses over chocobos… armored ones, specifically. I dunno, he just looks more natural on one of them to me? I have the Sleipnir mount in game and I thought it fit him really well, so I wanted to doodle him on it :3c

It’s so cold here lately ahhh all of my art seems to be involving snow or blizzards because of it 

GIANT SMILING HAPPY JEON ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ♡

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Major Shinya at your service~ ♥ ヾ(๑❛ ▿ ◠๑ ) /winks

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♥Matesprit: I love you. Lets reenact that romcom you love so much (then have sloppy make-outs)

♠ Kismesis: I hate you. I’m gonna drag out the best and the worst in you, you little shit, and make you a better person for it (then we bone)

♦Moirail: I’m gonna cuddle you and make you feel safe. The world’s a scary place but we’ve got each other.

♣Auspistice: ….Stop hitting each other and keep it in your pants. You two are embarrassing and someone’s gonna get hurt.