but sorry i'm not over it myself

How to tell that it's getting bad again:

- I sleep to much or not at all
-I eat too much or too little
-I sound disinterested in everything
-Be spaced out a lot
- I will ramble a lot or not talk at all
-I lose track of time
- I make cynical comments, usually about myself
-I push people away
-I tend to rub my eyes and head a lot
-I avoid eye contact
-I am always shakey
-I will avoid certain conversations

(New Blog: @bee-poetic )
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build god then we’ll talk // panic! at the disco

text message starters pt. 1
  • [ text; ] this is a terrible idea
  • [ text; ] fuCK you f*ck your cartoon hotdog husband fuck his stupid sunglasses and FUCK the ketchup kids (and fuck THEIR sunglasses)
  • [ text; ] i need help.
  • [ text; ] i don' t know wh a t to fuckign do w i th myself a nymo re
  • [ text; ] i got a dog!!!!! I GOT A DOG!!!!
  • [ text; ] please let me come over and pet your dog?
  • [ text; ] anyway i'm bleeding, like, really badly. no worries though i'm good
  • [ text; ] i love death and dying
  • [ text; ] i fucked up. i fucked up really badly.
  • [ text; ] I BROKE EVERYTHING
  • [ text; ] AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
  • [ text; ] don't freak out but i'm in the hospital.
  • [ text; ] leave me alone.
  • [ text; ] i said not to talk to me.
  • [ text; ] QUICK WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL SONG
  • [ text; ] some-
  • [ text; ] this might be the last text i ever send you.
  • [ text; ] i'm going to do it.
  • [ text; ] i'm sorry.
  • [ text; ] fCUK I PUNCHED MYSELF I NTHE FACE
  • [ text; ] i'm playing club penguin and you wouldn't believe the shit these 9 year olds are saying to me
  • [ text; ] you okay?
  • [ text; ] i'm so worried please text back please please please
  • [ text; ] 'i don't drink coffee,' i say, before chugging an entire pot of it
  • [ text; ] what would happen if i just, like, downed seven five-hour energies. does that equal 35 hours of energy
  • [ text; ] brb, descending into hell.
  • [ text; ] it's 3 am and i can't sleep
  • [ text; ] GO TO BED!!!!!!!!
  • them: omg why do u obsess over those characters so much
  • me: i indulge myself in the lives of fictional people to avoid the realization that my own life is, in fact, boring and meaningless
  • them:
  • me:
  • them:
  • me: i mean... guess i'm just a nerd hah a :)
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I.M IN BEAUTIFUL (ACOUSTIC VER.) M COUNTDOWN STAGE (170511).

Scarring
  • Harry: Take off your shirt.
  • Draco: I... no. I don't want to.
  • Harry: Why- Oh. Is it... do you still have scars? Draco, I've never forgiven myself for that.
  • Draco: Scars! Yes, I have terrible scars. I simply can't stand for you to see.
  • Harry: I'm so sorry, Draco. But now that we're together, you'll have to show me sometime.
  • Draco: N-No! You can't see! It's really hideous, awful-
  • Harry: Oh God, I thought it wouldn't scar! You have to show me so I can atone for what I've done. I'll never forgive myself if you have to hide for the rest of your life.
  • Draco: I- oh... alright then. *slowly unbuttons and takes off his shirt, looking away from Harry*
  • Harry: *staring* Draco, this is...
  • Draco: Yes, the scarring was truly terrible.
  • Harry: This is... a tattoo of our names together over your heart.
  • Draco: Hideous scarring. I'll never forgive you.

The only two ways I will accept Matt meeting not!Shiro:

1) Matt IMMEDIATELY knows its a clone. IMMEDIATELY. Second he walks into the room, he knows.

2) The team actually figures out the clone/original situation before they even find Matt, but when they do suddenly Matt’s confronted with TWO (or more) Shiros and his gay little ass just doesn’t know what to do with that

(That’s a lie. His gay little ass knows EXACTLY what to do with that)

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For the people who refuse to believe my airport manip is ACTUALLY a manip (yes, I’ve have people argue with me over it), here’s the base photo I used side by side LOL Harry did wear the “Women are smarter” t-shirt, we just only got two very blurry fan photos, so I took it upon myself to make an HQ. Sorry for the uproar and confusion it has caused in the fandom and media lol!!

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endless summer, wheel of fortune.

One Last Thing

12x12 coda almost a week late (oops)

When they get back to the bunker, Dean is surprised to see Mom head toward the room they’d assigned to her all those months ago. He assumed she’d leave as soon as they were safely back underground. He’s still staring down the hallway after her when he hears Cas sigh.

He turns to find him slumped in a kitchen chair, his hands in his lap and his coat closed enough to cover the blood and black…goo on his shirt. He’s staring down at the table with a crease between his brow.

“You OK?” Dean asks gruffly as he takes a tentative seat perpendicular to him.

“No.”

Dean balks at the honesty but doesn’t say anything. He leans forward and folds his hands on top of the table. Somewhere in the direction of Sam’s room, a door opens and closes.

“I shouldn’t be alive,” Cas continues, still staring at the table. “I would’ve never…”

Suddenly Cas’ eyes pop up and past Dean as Sam enters the kitchen.

None of them say anything as Sam grabs a cold cup of coffee. Dean and Cas look at each other. When Sam leaves, Cas’ eyes find the table again.

“I wouldn’t’ve…said what I said,” Cas continues, hesitance clear in his tone, “If I had known…”

A couple of seconds pass before it clicks for Dean. “That you weren’t actually gonna die?”

Cas nods minutely.

Dean leans back, runs a hand up through his hair and then drops it to his knee. “Look, man, you know I ain’t good at this. But you are family, so…what you said…it’s not–it doesn’t–you’re not trying to take it back, are you?” What the fuck–that’s not what he meant to say at all.

“No, of course not.” For some reason, Cas sounds angry. “It’s just that I–nothing.” He quickly turns his head to the side, the way he used to do when Dean had hurt his feelings.

“Cas,” Dean says softly. He waits until Cas looks at him. “I was scared to death when I saw that…what that spear did to you. I can’t lose you, man. So, uh, tell me. Whatever’s on your mind, spit it out.” It’s too harsh, too casual, but anything else wouldn’t be Dean.

“I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable.”

“What?”

Cas squints at him. “It was a declaration made because I thought it was the last chance I would get to tell you. I couldn’t die without telling you that I…that.”

Dean leans forward again and wipes his hand over his mouth. “You, uh, you didn’t make me uncomfortable. You know I’m not–I’m not very good at the whole, uh, love thing, but I know it’s there. I know we’re–you know, we’re good.”

Cas squints harder and leans forward so they’re only inches apart. “You knew I was in love with you?”

Hold on.

“That’s not–you didn’t–that’s not what you said, man. You didn’t say that.”

“Dean.”

That’s his “quit being a dense idiot, Dean” voice.

Dean huffs a nervous laugh and stares at the table. “Yeah, uh, this would be a hell of a lot easier if you had died.”

Now Cas is laughing, too. “We are terrible at this.”

Dean lifts his eyes shyly. Cas is studying him.

“Do you remember…” Dean stops and sucks in a breath. He shouldn’t be talking about this. “That day in the cemetery, when we all thought I was gonna die.”

Cas nods once but doesn’t say anything.

“I wanted to, uh, say something.” Dean smiles and scratches the back of his head. “Actually, I didn’t. I wanted to–to kiss you.” He winces in embarrassment.

“I’m glad you didn’t.”

Dean looks sharply over at him.

“If you waited until you were on the brink of death to kiss me, I would’ve killed you myself.”

“You waited until your deathbed to tell me you lo–”

Cas cuts Dean’s argument off with a kiss. It’s just a tentative press of lips, but Dean still lets out a needy, embarrassing whimper as it happens. When Cas pulls away, Dean mumbles, “Nuh-uh,” and grabs him by the cheek to pull him back in. His hip is digging into the edge of the table, but he doesn’t care. He doesn’t care.

It’s sloppy and too fast and Cas is breathing heavy and whispering, “I love you,” over and over right against Dean’s mouth and it’s all too much and not nearly enough.

Later, in the pitch black of his room, lying breathless next to an angel, Dean tells Cas that he loves him, too.

THE WILDLY LONG HELLATUS IS OVER. LET ME WASH MYSELF OF MONTHS OF WAITING AND EMERGE INTO POST-SPN SCOUTTHOUGHTS!

  • NEW INTRO IS NEAT
  • SAD!!!! CAS!!!!!!!!! WINGS. E M O T I O N
  • “he deserved better” preach it my gal
  • i don’t know why i got so excited that jack gets hungry man i hope he keeps his innocence omg
  • “i like nougat :3” so far he’s just a candy monster i can not believe how much i like this actual manbaby. please bring back gabe so they can meet
  • NO JACK IS SO ADORABLE
  • HE CHOSE CAS TO BE HIS FATHER
  • that angel hit dean right in the cas and that was CRUEL
  • “ok chuck” DEAN IM GONNA CRY
  • DEEEEAAAAANNNNNN
  • OH MY GOD THIS HURTS
  • “hello dean”
  • “goodbye cas”

MY MORTAL BODY IS FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUELED

LUCI GON GIT. IT. FROM MICHAEL IN THE AU WORLD I FEEL IT IN MY BONES

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Castle on the hill by Ganewhoo


Have I ever told you guys how much I love this supercat medieval au?

Many thanks to @lost-your-memory for sharing this precious & amazing story to the world, I love you and all of your work  ♥ *blow kisses*

Just in case someone need high res (x) (x)

okay I have a question for anti-Otayuri people…

I’ve noticed that some of you ship Mila and Sara

Why is that ship okay, but Otayuri is not?

I know Mila is 18. But Sara is 22.

The girls have been skating competitively for years. I think it’s safe to say that they’ve probably known each other since before Mila was 18. Especially because they seem pretty close in the show. They’ve probably been friends for at least a few years, since Mila started skating in the senior division with Sara. Perhaps since Mila was 15/16 and Sara was 19/20.

Yall seem to have a problem with people aging up Otayuri. Or with them waiting for Yurio to turn 18. Like yall argue that Otabek would still be a predator for “waiting” because that would mean he had romantic/sexual intentions with Yurio from the start or something.

But Sara and Mila probably knew each other when Mila was still a minor. Why is it okay to ship them just because Mila is 18 now? When they probably knew each other when Mila was still a minor. So going by your logic, why is Sara not a predator as well for “waiting” for Mila to turn 18?

Like this is a legit question, I don’t understand your logic, please explain?