but shes still my best friend

dear best friend;

i am sorry i fell in love with you
i am sorry for not accepting your rejections
i am sorry for being so suicidal when all you do is care

you are a flame i scorched myself on
desperate to feel again after she broke my heart
& i wanted to love you harder than ever
yet you took my hand & sugarcoated “no”
in the sweetest way i had ever heard

you are a dream-catcher above my bed
lulling me to sleep, knowing that i might not be okay
but you still tend to my wounds, no matter how old
& i swamp you with unsolvable problems
yet you still find solutions to cure the ailments

i am sorry i’ve been a terrible friend
an itch you can’t scratch, a scar you can’t heal
i am sorry that i couldn’t be someone you wanted
a beautiful & loving piece to fit inside your broken heart

you are an escape, a field of wildflowers to lay in
after a long night of wiping my tears on pillowcases
& your gentle hands caress my head & promise me
it’ll be okay, someday, somewhere, when i’m finally free

you are the best friend i never had
& i can’t express myself enough in words
just how special that place in my chest for you is
a golden city for a golden boy who truly understands
what it means to be a human being to someone like me

a safe space for me to let go of my armor & let the oceans flow

twelve step program / making amends / letter eight

When you meet a Stucky shipper who still likes and cares about Tony and you just have a good time fangirling over Steve, Tony and Bucky as individuals and politely respects each others ships:

Originally posted by strawberry-inc

11 questions tag


1. Always post the rules 2. Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you 3. Write 11 questions of your own 4. Tag 11 people (or however many you want)

I was tagged by sunshine @softgayangel and ty so much for this!!

1. whats ur fav song atm?

im hoe for cherry bomb, my boys r so precious, talented, handsome and this song is just SO FUCKING LIT

2. anything u want to accomplish by the end of the year?

My depression :))))))))

3. any language u want to learn?

(Every single on this planet i love languages) but the most i’d like to learn swedish n and any asian language

4.do u still get along w ur oldest childhood friend?

@19kwan my best buddie, bruh, princess, carrot, mandarynka, gurl, potato i love her so much shes my whole life. I’ve spend all my life with her and no one is so important for me like her (BUZIACZKI JAGÓDKA)

5. any movie u think everyone needs to watch?

the words (bc of one quote at the end of this movie but it just OHHH), lion king bc its fucking lion king and i’d say that batman trilogy bc it’s just fucking art 

6. what makes u smile/ laugh everytime?


7. who do u look up to?

Mainly a lot of artist, especially John Martin. I look up good people tho, it’s really hard to be truly good person

8. a shoutout to a lovely mutual u love 


@softgayangel u know how i fell bout you n how thankful im to you :<

@brokenalaska we dont talk at all but i think that u have to be really cool and i think we have a lot in common bc our blogs n posts r quite similiar (i know it sounds stupid but i really luv ur blog and u)

@95kjh u r just cutie and love my bigbang and ilu! ❤ ❤ ❤

@goddessofbaekhyun u r the freakin weird and i fucking luv u! u even dont know how your tags make me smile! ur the cutest fangirl i ever know and i hope that you’ll meet ur bbh one day❤

9. what is ur summer makeup aesthetic?

no makeup

10. the biggest pet peeve?

probably my life :’)

11. what are u looking forward to the most atm?

any band i like in my country, more will to live, more talent 

my questions: 1. what made u smile recently? / 2. What music genres r ur fav? / 3. Have u got ur fav painting? / 4. Fav actor, actress? / 5. Whats ur 3 fav bands? / 6. Do u watch any tv shows? / 7. How many and what pets u have? / 8. What do u love about yourself? / 9. What disney character do you see as yourself as? / 10. What do you want to do in the future? / 11. Say what good happened to you recently in your native language

and i’m tagging: @19kwan @brokenalaska @lovelyz1win @bipjm @gggloss @bojrk @7syub @k00kiee @caretae @giribouy @2senpai @chimnin @tidesofyouth @vviirgo @jiminsarroz @mounshine @glazen5e @goddessofbaekhyun @95kjh @miumiugirl @10jimin @mlnho @9yoong

anonymous asked:

Hey idk if you're still doing requests but maybe some april angst after finding out irma was a robot? Like maybe she liked her but whoops turned out her crush was a kraang spy

“For- for almost two years-” April exclaimed miserably. “-I thought she was my. My best friend. And then she turned out- out to be a Kraang.”

Donnie gave her shoulder a pat, pushing towards her the third cooler the two of them were sharing that evening. Also a tissue box.

April used the tissue first, blowing her nose noisily. “It’s not fair. I think I’ve finally found an- another lesbian in my school, and she’s a spy. A spy sent to spy on me, and- dammnit, she was so cute, too. No girl with that hairstyle is straight.”

“If it’s any consolation, at least you never actually made out with her,” Donnie said, patting her back again. “Otherwise. Well.”

April shuddered, and reached for the cooler. She was underage still, but her city had been invaded, one of her best friends was in a coma, and her long time crush was actually an alien infiltrator. She was allowed to indulge, dammnit.

Technically speaking, Donnie was also indulging right alongside her for those same reasons, if with different circumstances.

“I nearly did make out with her one time,” April said in a softly horrified voice.

Donnie hummed sympathetically.

“Under the track bleachers. It was so cliche it hurt,” April thought about how Irma- or Kraang Subprime- had tactfully dodged the moment right after, since the football team had come barreling onto the track for laps. Now she knew why. 

April took a long sip of the cooler. 

“Donnie, why couldn’t I have that stupid rom-com moment unspoiled? Why does everything in our lives have to be an action-horror flick?”

“I don’t know, and honestly I really wish it was otherwise, too,” Donnie sighed, and took the bottle back from her for his own turn. “But hey. At least you got a rom-com moment and a glimmer of things actually working out. Casey is. Casey.”

April took a turn patting his back. This was a mutual pity party, after all. “We have very, very bad taste in crushes.”

“Good god we do.”

“Upside to yours is that he’s human. Probably.”

“That stands to be proven true or not. He ate half of Mikey’s improvised gumbo yesterday. I don’t know how he’s alive.”

“The miracle of love,” April said.

“Devil’s luck more like,” Donnie muttered.

April reached across the kitchen table, and dragged the box of coolers towards them both. Time for another drink.

miraculous-katsukii  asked:

marichat - 046? ;D

I’m not stressed nor panicking, you’re the one panicking!! >..<

Ok, so this is the first time I’m doing something like that… And my “writing english” is still reaaaally bad >…< 

But hey, I still hope you like it ^^

(and I’m adding @cidseriol because you need to take notes about proposal xD)

Marichat - 46 prompt

It was Nino and Alya’s wedding. 

The bride has asked for the two superheroes of Paris to come to her wedding, so Marinette had to choose.
Alya could forgive Ladybug for not coming, but she would never forgive her best friend.
So, here she was, in a corner, drinking some cocktail. All the attention was on the couple and… On Chat Noir, who did found time to come.

Well, she knew Adrien could easily found excuses with his model’s schedule. A luxury she did not have.

She was lost on her thoughts when she started to hear a lot of noise.

“Look Princess!!! I caught the bouquet!!!”
The cat was screaming out loud while running to her.
She was tempted to run away and hide at all the attention that was now on her, but didn’t move.

“Look, look Princess, I caught the bouquet!!” He repeated.
She smiled at how childish he looked like.

“Wow, that’s awesome chaton!” She laughed.

He stopped right in front of her, trying to get back his breath. It might have looked like he was trying to find his words.
She kept her smile, waiting for him to speak again.

“Would you,… would you keep that bouquet for me … Until the end of our life?” He finally whispered between his breath.
“Yeah, I will chaton.” She answered playfully.

He handed her the bouquet. His hands brushed softly against hers when she took it.
She looked at the beautiful flowers before raising her eyes.
He was still looking at her, his eyes has never been so intense.
For a moment, he just stayed like that and she swore her legs were going to give her out.

Suddenly, his smile came back.

“Thank you Princess!”
He winked at her and just leaved like that.
She let out a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding.

Her thoughts went back on the bouquet. They were really awesome flowers, Alya sure has nice taste.

She blinked several times.

Did he just…?
Did that dork just proposed to her?
Her mouth started to slowly open.

Her cheeks became red when she then realized, she just told him yes.

But, really?
This is how he was going to propose to her?
She bit her lower lips.
He will hear a lot about that.

Chris and Eva are best friends and all the characters are my babies.

*this post isn’t shading anyone I swear*

I like think that after the finale Chris and Eva became absolute best friends and do cute things like watch movies and go on double dates with their spouses (even though I’m still a bit bitter about Chriseva). I really fucking hope that my fave Eva has the best life ever with whoever she ends up with. I hope Chris finally settles down with whomever and that he’s happy. I hope Jonas ends up with someone amazing even though he’s never been that good at relationships, I hope he figures it out with whomever. I hope Even and Isak take many trips together and try many types of potatoes. I hope that William moves in with Noora, Eskild and Linn. I hope the four of them have the best board game nights and have the best pregame and in my head I imagine them watching movies in a giant cuddle puddle. I hope Sana and Yousef get together when Yousef gets back from turkey and they have 12 children who live off of carrots. I hope that Vilde figures out a way to help her mom, I hope that Vilde finds the self confidence I know she should have (she’s beautiful). I hope that the bonds between Magnus/Vilde and Chris b/ Vilde grow stronger and I hope that Vilde and Chris always have eachother to count on. I hope that the best boyfriends ever© Adam and Mikael actually get together. I hope that whoever Elias went on a date with, works out. I hope that Muta keeps being the best fucking meme! I hope that Even and the balloon squad end up besties again! I hope that Magnus and Mahdi are doing swell and I hope their moms are doing swell too! I hope that Sara and Ingrid become better friends with the girl squad! I hope that everyone fucking turns it okay because a part of me will always love these characters more than words can explain!

|An OC Post? From ME?|

It is a rare occurrence, but yes, posting a drawing of an OC for once. 
Felt burnt out from commission stuff so I drew something for myself of my unicorn OC Ethos. I’ve had her for like 7 years, so since 2010. She was for an rp group that ended up dying out but I never dropped her. I still rp her with my best friend whom I met in that group and her character, who is Ethos’ BF<3 If you’re curious the watermark on her hair is my DA account.

Might upload the other doodles I did of her sometime. Sorry for no fanart lmao

Please do not repost, edit or claim as your own. And do not delete the artist comments, thank you!

anonymous asked:

How sure are you that you're still yourself? (Pls don't misunderstood the question)

This has been in my inbox for a while now and I am still not sure how to respond to this question.

I think I am a different person to different people. There are sides of me that only a certain group of people can see. If your’re from my school, you might think of me as that caffeinated loner who is always on her laptop. If you follow me on Twitter, you’ll know how I fangirl on Korean drama and actors. If you’re my best friend, you have the backstage access on how my mind works, how sometimes I can be paranoid with things that should not matter at all. Well, in this blog, some people say that they think I am always lonely. For my family, I’m that indecisive girl who is still in denial that she needs to grow up soon. But for me, I am just someone who is struggling to survive, trying to find a way to live a peaceful life that will make my late mother proud of me. 

I used to think that the only image of who I am that matters is how I see myself. But sometimes, I tend to be so hard on myself. I discredit myself for how far I’ve gone and I collapse on self pity which is not a good thing when the world is spinning and life is demanding to be lived. This is when I need the ones who are closest to me to remind me of what I am capable of. I tend to forget that part of myself when I’m clouded with negativity and failures. 

I think my way of making sure that I am still myself is asking myself some questions whenever I’m in an unfamiliar situation. Is this what I want to do? Am I doing this for my own satisfaction or am I trying hard to please someone else? Will this help me in my personal growth or will this take me somewhere that I might regret? 

If I am not quite sure how to answer any of these questions, I stop what I’m doing and I find time to reflect. Surrounding myself with people who care about me is also helpful because they are the ones who remind me of who I am. 

Changes are inevitable but it’s always important to assess oneself if it is for the better or not. I think I have changed so much throughout the years, did some things that I am not proud of and I am still learning. 

I think I am still who I am. As long as I know that I am not trying to be someone else just to fit in a space that isn’t meant for me and as long as I am sure that everything that I do is for myself and for the ones I love, I think I’m good. 

mysr3  asked:

Hi Honeyyy- Do you still accept the muse question? If you do may I ask BUZZ Yoongi, how is life with Y/N now and DTMS Yoongi how is life and relationship with Y/N Thank you LOve

Buzz Yoongi: “Life is perfect. She’s my best friend and my girlfriend. I’ve never been happier. I’m so glad I barged into her room that fateful night!”

Dtms Yoongi: “Things are great. Sometimes I have to pinch myself to remember that Y/N actually gave me a second chance. I still don’t think I deserve it but I’m glad she did anyway. I’d spend every day with her if I could. I love her very much.”

Some of the best things I’ve heard in Heathers rehearsal so far:

  • “Oh no! My shirt, where’d it go?” followed by really slow and awkward finger guns
  • “Free pizza, and we don’t even have to buy it a pussy!”
  • “Those stupid tree thumpers”
  • *dramatically pirouettes and leaps in* “BIG SWORDFIGHT IN HER MOUTHHH”
  • “Aww that seems like a relationship that would last.” “Yeah until one of them blows up” “I guess you could say their love is….. explosive”
  • *Our choreographer screaming like one of those sheep used in parodies back in vintage youtube days whenever she gets frustrated or needs to get people’s attention.*
  • “So you’re going to do a Jesus lift” “A WHAT” “Just put your arms out and they’ll lift you like you’re Jesus resurrecting from the cross”
  • “Welcome to Newsies on steroids.”
  • “Be the closeted gay we all need.”
  • “The first step to any good plan is murder.”
  • “How much bitch is enough bitch though?”
  • “Imagine having to explain to someone like ““oh how’d you break your tailbone?” ““Oh I booty-popped too hard.”” 
  • “When we go off to makeover Veronica, can she still have the monocle, but, hear me out, it’s now bedazzled.”
  • “I have to check the historical accuracy of bedazzling in the ‘80s.”
  • “Okay, but what if we made it gay?”
  • “COSTUME NOTE: SOMEONE MAKE RAM PARTY SLIPPERS!” “What if they’re like bunny slippers, but with tiny party hats?!”
  • “This is Ram, he’s not very nice, but somehow my best friend still wants to fuck him.”
  • “Your whole bio better be about how much you love and respect women or else I can’t help you when your ass is being kicked.”
  • “I paired you guys together because you say he’s your sort of boyfriend later.” *Kurt proceeds to emark in various sexual dance endeavors with multiple other women* “That’s where the sort of comes into play….”
  • “SHUT UP HEATHER” *bursts out crying*
  • Our original Chandler dropped out so our original Duke got promoted to her role and just looks at me and says “Oh my god this is the most Heather Duke thing that has ever happened to me”
  • “That’s a school cheer?!?!”
  • “What if when she makes you spit up the pills, your wig flies off?” “Oh no you’ve discovered the real reason behind my crisis, I AM NOT A NATURAL BLONDE”
  • “Maybe he should take up knitting or something as a hobby rather than therapedic murder.”
  • “The saddest thing is that’s not even 3rd base”
  • “Veronica, you’re soaking wet!” *cue our assistant stage manager loosing her shit*
  • “My character description is just internal screaming.”
  • “Who needs a dance partner when you have weed?”
  • “I feel bad having to ask but was that supposed to be a dick joke?”
  • “Do I get extra points if one of the pills hits someone in the face?”
  • “I can’t remember the lyrics but I’m pretty sure I’m still gay”
  • “Why didn’t they just throw the bomb and run or something, like why are they so determined to die?” 
  • *recites Blue Reprise as demonic slam poetry because we didn’t have rehearsal tracks yet*  
  • “Veronica, it’s not a phase. I’m just naturally a slightly psychotic bag of angst with great hair.”
  • *music director teaching us Blue* ”They’ll curl up on your face. And purr like-” *slowly looks up from music and proceeds to put his head in his hands* “There’s moments that I evaluate my life and this is definitely one of them.”

And we’re still about 3 weeks from tech week

What do you miss the most about him?”

“I’m not sure,” she whispered, looking down to the ground, “I’m not even sure if I do miss him. I miss the memories, and I miss talking to him and the way he made me feel. But I still don’t know if miss him, you know?“

—  am i supposed to miss him? | a.m
By Way of Spontaneity (End)

Summary: On a whim, Bucky declares you to be his girlfriend to his grandma and mother. They’re eager to meet you and he asks you to pretend to be with him for just one dinner with his family. But is that really all?

Word Count: 1,185

Warnings: None.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12

A/N: Thank you for coming on this journey with me! Here’s to the next series! <3 

Originally posted by buckysqueenbitch

Bucky felt like a lab rat, being observed and analyzed to the deepest parts of himself. Fidgeting, he glared at Steve and Peggy. “What?”

“What?” scoffed Steve. “We should be asking you that. What the hell is going on, Bucky? You don’t really look like you care so much that your girlfriend is cheating on you.”

Bucky raised a finger and gave him a cheeky smile. “Actually, I have fed you the incorrect information?”

“Fed us?” asked Peggy, voice filled with indignation. “What are we, your pets?”

“I’m just sayin’! I haven’t been completely honest with you.”

“Then what is the truth, Buck? Because it’s all pretty confusing right about now, and your ‘girlfriend’ is not exactly the best of persons at the moment,” said Steve, crossing his arms over his chest. He looked every bit the part of a father and Bucky stopped himself from teasing his cousin.

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Life Imitates Art

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Smut / Fluff / Angst (?)// Sub(ish)!Jungkook/ Art Student!Jungkook

Warnings:  graphic language/dirty talk, oral, cum play (if that’s what you’ll call it), masturbation, SLIGHT sub/dom dynamic

Word Count: 10.3K (bc I don’t know what pwp is)

Summary: A friendly favor for your crush develops into something truly sinful when you figure out his muse for his exhibition. 

a/n: only lightly edited b/c it’s 1:30 AM HAHA….this wasn’t supposed to be sub!(ish)JK but idk it just worked; still feel like I’m struggling w/ writing steamy dialogue but oh well. Enjoy! More work to hopefully come, slowly but surely. Please send feedback it’d be greatly appreciated!!! 

You grumbled all the way to the art gallery, adamant in your opposition to being dragged there by your roommate.

“Shut up, we’re already here. Are you going to brood the whole time?” Liz glared at you before pushing the glass doors open.

You’d pouted, clearly having lost the battle a long time ago. You settled on folding your arms defensively and letting out one last exasperated sigh. “Fine, but I still don’t know why you brought me here to begin with.”

Liz’s eyebrows shot up at the absurdity of the question, “You haven’t left the house for anything besides work and the occasional run. You’re starting to get boring, where’s fun Y/N?”

Her words only made you pout further because she was completely right-like most of the time despite your inability to admit it to her.

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Redemption // Jeon Jungkook


the prompt: Jungkook scenario when your pregnant unplan baby he finds the test when you get home he starts yelling, blaming you throwing things,tells you to gtfo of his life with the baby saying fucked up things. So you leave Korea 3 year later you come back with your daughter and you guys see each other again he tries to win you back angst beginning but fluff ending?

words: 8942

category: heavy angst + fluff ending

author note: it’s time to see how good destinee’s character development skills are. also y/n didn’t leave, jungkook did. hope that’s okay. im so proud of myself for writing this?? I didn’t give up and I’m glad i didn’t. anyway, this took forever to write you can literally see my writing improve as you keep reading its kind of funny anyway let’s go!

- destinee

Originally posted by sugutie

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The Friendly Wager (Part 6)

Summary: AU. Reader and Bucky Barnes are neighbors and best friends. After yet another bad date, reader comes home to find Bucky with his typical weekend target. They decide to make a wager about dating, but is there more on the line than reader cares to admit?

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x reader

Word Count: 4,608 (went really overboard)

Warnings: language, lots of bad language, fluff, sarcasm, drinking, implied drunkenness, angst, regret, hangover, confrontation, stupid feelings are stupid yeah?

A/N: This is my submission for the lovely Kait’s ( @bionic-buckyb) 5k AU Challenge. Congrats on the followers, friend! My prompt was “Can you please come over so I don’t feel so alone?

Second to last part! Tags are closed. I loved all your messages so much!

Part 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7

Originally posted by captaincentenarian

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VIP Package - Drummer!Dylan O’Brien

Author: @mf-despair-queen

Characters: Drummer!Dylan O’Brien/Reader

Word Count: 10,128

Warnings: NSFW, 18+, Oral (female receiving), Multiple Orgasm, Public Fingering, Spanking, Sneaking Around to Fuck

Notes: Drummer Dylan does things to me y’all. Send help. Special thanks to @writing-obrien because she was a sweet pea and proofread this for me while I am trying not to fall asleep. Because we all know not to let me proofread when I’m sleepy. 

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