but omfg this is really sweet

“..Please, don’t take her away.. “



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Ok, so, I finished V route last week and… I cried a LOT, it was.. omfg hOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME, WHY MY CHILD, MY POOR CHILD, DON’T TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME STOOOPPPPP. 

So yeah, I was basically sad all day bc of that. :( 

Cheritz it’s like -”Oh okay, let’s do V route, any ideas?”.. Oh! “Let’s give them V route but also let’s do Saeran more sweet so tHEY CAN SUFFER WHEN HE DIES”. 

OMG, IT’S BEEN SO LONG SINCE I POST SOMETHING HERE. ;; A ;; MISS U ALL GUYSSS!!! I’M SORRY!! It was really hard for me to take time to draw something. But now, I finally got my laptop back (Even if it’s broken lmao) to doddle some things. WE ARE NOW 600 FOLLOWERS! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! ♥ I really promise to be more active these days :) I’ll try my best!! Also, send me a message to my ASK if you want me to draw something you like ^^ 

Thank you so much again, see you next time!  

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Oh, you’re Mr. Live-it-up. Mulder, you really are Mr. Squeeze-every-last-drop-out-of-this-sweet-life, aren’t you? On this precious Saturday you’ve got us grabbing life by the testies stealing reference books from the FBI library in order to go through New Mexico newspaper obituaries for the years 1940 to 1949 and for what joyful purpose?

Day6 Stans

((based on real scientific observation))

Jae: okay first of all every Jae stan I’ve ever met has been fucking hilarious but they never know it. they’re SO soft for him but won’t acknowledge it. roast him all the time but then feel bad about it. laugh too hard at his tweets. probably bias wrecked by Dowoon.

Sungjin: the sweetest kindest angels you will ever meet they are so nice omfg. generally very calm but don’t touch them whenever he sings they just need a moment. so much secondhand embarrassment from his power dancing but they love it. a little too attracted to his hands. lowkey Wonpil stans tbh.

Young K: have literally cried over his visuals at some point. stan Terry harder than they stan Brian. always ready to talk about how talented and accomplished he is but also the first to roast him. probably obsessed with Man in a Movie. can be found gasping for breath during any comeback.

Wonpil: the softest stans omg. really sweet and friendly but don’t underestimate them they will fight you. lowkey emotionally attached to the pink sweater. always shook by his falsetto. extremely loyal or so they say. their Got7 bias is probably Jinyoung.

Dowoon: thirsty lol. love animals and love that he loves animals. they talk about him like he’s their son but would date him in a heartbeat. patiently waiting for him to get lines. “drummers are so hot”. always the best at coming up with music video theories for some reason.

my thoughts on logan *spoilers*

-LOGAN WAS SO FUCKING GOOD HOLY FUCK
-never in a million years did i think i would cry so many times during an xmen ~related~ film but bitch!!!
-this movie came after me so many times i am shook
-this was such an emotional experience
-it was so packed too i usually go on discount days but i had to see this and wow literally not a seat left open!!!
-first movie from the franchise to be rated r and damn!!! It really needed it, i can’t imagine the film being pg 13
-i really loved the r rating… the gore the cussing the darker and more mature tone was something i didn’t think i needed til i saw this film
-the darker tone made it so much more intense and made logan feel more human
-fight/action scenes were all pure gratuitous fun i enjoyed all of it
-laura is adorable and shes a bad bitch my daughter will be like that!!! like wow this girl got paid to deadass be silent for half the movie but when she talked i was shook af
-and the nurse gabriella being aleida from oitnb like hey girll!!
-the banter between professor x and logan ugh and when logan called charles his dad
-this side of wolverine/ logan was so raw and sad.
-he def was not the mutant hero ive grown up watching but that was also the refreshing part bc it made it seem more realistic to me
-heartbreaking to watch someone spiral downward especially with the drinking and self hatred and the suicidal thoughts ugh
-laura is a mini wolverine but gonna grow to be so much stronger i love her every time she fucked someone up i was screaming YAAS
-finding out shes his daughter ugh i knew it bur dang!!
-honestly pierce the bad guy was sexy af i was having dirty thoughts while hating him at the same time
-i’m not a box of avocados logan
-logan is really so broken and traumatized inside
-charles telling logan that this is what its like to be normal before he left with that mans to fix the water or whatever
-and its sad to see charles so weak and sick and trapped in his mind and broken as well after what he did in westchester
-losing control is so awful and seeing someone who was once so great be at this point hurts
-THIS FILM WAS AFTER ME YALL I WAS SO ATTACKED
-when charles woke up in that familys house and was talking about how he remembered things and that it was the best night of his life but he didnt deserve it I WAS CRYING
-then i was like OMFG LOGAN IS ABOUT TO KILL HIM??? Turns out it was his fuckass clone mutant but i was still shook
-hugh jackman is a daddy he can still get it
-logan coping with charles was so sad this father son relationship rly fucked me up it was so cute when they were joking abt the past at academy during dinner
-laura gives me life!!! W her docs and cute ass outfit in sunglasses but she still vicious yas queen
-her relationship w charles was so beautiful too
-her driving!!! Aha and finally speaking that was a funny cute lil scene i was expecting her to be a little sassier but that wouldnt fit the tone of the movie so its all good
-all the cute lil mutant kids!!!! omfg so adorable its really fcked up what they were doing at transigen i was heated ugh
-they were so sweet helping him and ugh the scenes just between logan and laura rlly fucked me up like when she held his hand after he buried charles…
-my god the development of these relationships really messed me up!!!
-honestly his self loathing and pity party was getting a little annoying and the whole im no good for you act etc etc but i understand i guess
-telling laura she and her friends reminded him of the xmen RIP
-“people hurt me” “were different i hurt people”
-ugh i literally love them so much when he told her he was gonna shoot himself w that bullet then she took it from him wow cryin
-him being like u dont need me everyone i care about gets hurt or killed then she roasted him with the “THEN I GUESS ILL BE FINE” like damn girl
-ugh him coming to the rescue and taking the green stuff ugh i just knew this wouldnt end well but the fight scenes and seeing some of the kids use their powers was nice
-also enjoyed all the bad guys gettjng absolutely destroyed
-literally FUCK clone logan so hard she was really goin at him but i knew logans fate was inevitable since it was hughs last hoorah but wow
-SOBBING HES LITERALLY IMPALED ON THAT FUCKING TREE DYING ANS SHES CUTTING THE TREE AND REALIZES SHE CANT SAVE HIM
-SHE LITERALLY LOST EVERY ADULT WHO CARED FOR HER “dont be what they made you”
-i was in fucking puddles then she held his hand and called him fucking daddy!!!! THAT RUINED ME WHEN SHE ACKNOWLEDGE HE WAS HER FATHER HOLY FRICK
-“so this is what it feels like” logans last words realizing what its like to care for someone again/what it feels like to die omg laura crying made me cry
-then her speech after she buried him!!! THEN SHE WENT AND TURNED THE CROSS TO AN X AND I FELT APART OF MY SOUL DIE LIKE KNOWING EVERYONE IN THAT UNIVERSE FROM THE XMEN WERE DEAD. IT HIT ME SO HARD
-the end. thank u for sticking w me if u read this whole thing talk to me about it im emotionally unstable
-idk i prob left some stuff out but this is a lot already im lowkey so sad rn
-i cant wait for the next xmen movie with the other cast i need more this was all my childhood upto now i need it all please

The prints I ordered from @dement09 came yesterday and I AM LOVE THEM??? They were packaged really well and they’re all super pretty and I got a Bismuth sticker and a note and omfg -  I love you deni my sweet babu I hope you get your late ass christmas package soon <3 <3 <3

Bonus: pupper for scale, and envelope art

Boyfriend Namjoon

~Bullet Points~


  • Okay lets face it
  • Kim Namjoon is definitely my bias in BTS and my ultimate bias in kpop
  • So this could be very biased hAhA
  • But I’ll try to keep my cool and not go over the top
  • Namjoon would be the sweetest cinnamon bun I feel
  • Like he definitely has his moments
  • He would hold your hand everywhere you go and would never let you out of his sight
  • Which would never happen anyway because he’s toll af and can see you from miles back
  • If you were being cute he’d definitely ruffle your hair like omg stop 
  • Then you’d stare up at him pouty faced like wtf dude you just messed up my hair
  • This would kill him and would grab his heart because it was suffering from cuteness overload
  • Just really cute honestly
  • If you both were shopping he would come up behind you and give you a back hug unexpectedly and rest his head on top of yours
  • Probably would rock back and forth as well cuz the kid’s cute like that
  • Any who
  • You would always pick out his clothes, and he actually loves it
  • In fact he encourages you too because he finds you so amazing when you’re in deep thought over something he could wear
  • And the fact you know him so well and always manage to pick out all the right things make him fall in love with you just a tad more than he already does
  • Which is a lot by the way
  • He could get lost in your eyes like for real
  • Like his heart flutters when you guys lock eyes and he can’t help but smile and not want to look away as he knows the feeling would go away too
  • You guys will most definitely have intellectual conversations about a lot of deep shit
  • 3 AM talks all the time
  • He loves having these conversations so the fact that he can have them with you makes him all the more merrier
  • You guys have gone into places you never thought you could get out of
  • The amount of conspiracy theories you both have on how the human race came to exist is actually ridiculous
  • Some of them are stupid, you both didn’t want to get too far deep
  • He would love to take you on night walks
  • Idk if you guys know what Han River is but he would most likely take you down there a lot at night
  • You would walk hand in hand past the river talking about literally anything
  • Making each other laugh and making so many memories
  • You’d watch the light show on the river and end up lying down next to each other on the grass, staring up at the stars
  • Cue the deep conversation about stars
  • But yall would somehow sit up at the same time and stare at eachother, immersed in eachother eyes
  • He would start to lean in and you soon follow suit
  • It would be such a sweet kiss omfg 
  • It would be like a make out session but instead of heat it’s pure softness and just so sweet
  • His hands would be softly cupped around your face and yours on his
  • After you would just sit together not needing to say anything because that kiss summed up all your feelings for eachother
  • It’s pure bliss
  • However it’s not all sunshine and rainbows, there is some rainy days
  • Namjoon can be really stubborn at times I feel, as can everybody but some more than others
  • So if you were having and argument where he thinks he’s right but in actual fact he isn’t, things can get pretty heated
  • Cuz like if you know he’s wrong your obviously not gonna let him get away with it thinking he’s right about the situation
  • And vice versa, if he knows he’s right and you’re wrong, he’s going to argue his point
  • But sooner or later you both realise that what you’re arguing about doesn’t actually matter and was really stupid
  • So you’d both apologise and would go and cuddle together 
  • Don’t be too fooled about this though, he can have a split personality when it comes to the bedroom
  • Sometimes he’ll be the same person and would be really sweet and caring in bed
  • Other times he can be kinky/dominant af
  • All depends how he’s feeling I guess but one thing is for sure
  • This kid would NEVER make you do something you weren’t comfortable with
  • He would NEVER hurt you like that and wouldn’t even try to on purpose
  • Sometimes he may unconsciously hurt you but he’d never mean it
  • He loves you so so much
  • He could never do that to someone he loves

Originally posted by choke-me-namjoon


OKAY GUYS MY HEART IS NOT OKAY I NEED ASSISTANCE KIM NAMJOON IS GOING TO KILL ME ONE DAY I SWEAR IT!!!

Anyways little fangirl moment over, I hope you enjoyed this request and it’s the start of the new BTS boyfriend series~ 

Requests are closed atm guys but fake texts and edits are still open for your requests, so feel free to do so! We love you all and make sure you guys are staying safe <3

~Admin Stroni~

Okay, so I’ve had this stuck in my head lately and I figured I’d get it out here. Consider it my head canon on why Neil doesn’t like sweets. And OMFG, I did something that wasn’t ten pages! I did something short!!! Yay!

Uhm, so yeah, this deals with Neil’s/Nathaniel’s childhood, let’s just say the usual TFC warnings apply (Nathan, shall I say more?).

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Nathaniel was never really allowed chocolates when he was little; his mother would sneer about ‘too-sweet American crap’ and his father… well, his father didn’t believe in ‘spoiling’ him, didn’t believe in any type of treats. The most Nathaniel’s mother would do was give him some hard candy from time to time, little tart balls in bright cellophane which he could suck on to keep quiet.

Quiet was good, and the tart flavors cleared his throat of the thick taste of copper and salt and mucus, of sniffing back his tears or licking away the blood that trickled down from his nose.

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The Jocks Reaction To Jeff Atkins’ Baby Sister

Request: Omfg could you do a hc where Jeff has a baby sister (like age 2 or 3) and Justin, Zach, Monty and Alex’s reactions to meeting her because she’s so small and cute and Monty would act all annoyed by her but once they all left the room he would be super sweet to her and they would tease him about it and just ughhhh soooo cuuuute.

 

A/N: This was the most adorable request ever, thank you.

 

Warnings: Cuteness overload.

 

The Jocks Reaction To Jeff Atkins’ Baby Sister…

 


Alex
So Alex is actually really good with kids. The second he walks in the little girl adores him, and the feeling is absolutely mutual. While the other boys (Zach excluded) would have no idea what to do with her, Alex knows all the right games and movies to talk about. She also might have a mild obsession with his hair, and she won’t stop touching it and trying to ask Alex questions about it. The same goes for his septum piercing, which she totally doesn’t understand (like Jeff’s ear piercings) but loves the hell out of. Alex would just think she’s the cutest thing ever, and though he’d probably be cursing the sticky fingers all over him, he’d just have to forgive her.

 

Justin
He would think she was the cutest thing in the world. Justin would absolutely just want to cradle her all the time, but he forgets that at her age, all she wants to do if run off and play. He’d always be trying to pull her away from the toys and just hold her in his arms, and they’d probably have a fight for dominance over whether she stays with him or not. Justin never wins. She’s always yelling at him and hitting him gently, but it’s a game then, and he’ll pout and she’ll come running right back feeling guilty. It never fails to make Justin smile like an idiot, and he wishes he had a little sister of his own.

 

Monty
He would be the most in love with her of them all, but he would never admit that. Monty is amazing with kids, and her smile would just melt his heart. He’d totally be the one to sing all the hits of the week with her. He’d also be super good at doing her hair in so many different styles, and helping her put on some of her dress up stuff. Monty would also be super overprotective, not wanting her to climb anything or stand on anything. He wouldn’t like to share her either, he’d get jealous if he ever thought he wasn’t her favourite. Monty would literally give his life to protect that little girl.

 

Zach
After growing up with his little sister he’s a pro at taking care of kids. He’s much more of a Dad figure though, and doesn’t hesitate to tell her off of he has too. They have fun too though, Zach is someone she likes to climb all over, and he has to give her piggy back rides and crawl around acting like her horse, which he of course is used too. Zach doesn’t mind it though. When she puts her little hand on his cheek and smiles at him he sees so much of Jeff, and he knows that she’s going to grow up to be the kindest, most beautiful girl in the world. He honestly feels honoured to know her and watch her grow up to be a woman who will probably change the world.



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anonymous asked:

You do so much cool art for everyone, what outfits do you want to see drawn on Drarry? I want to try and make a cute piece for you to say thank you for everything you do and for being a true gift to this fandom.

omfg anon for reallll??!!! you REALLY don’t have to do that but I’m blown away by the idea that you would want to??? wow seriously that is really flattering but also really sweet holy shit

i’m not sure if you mean from the outfit meme or not but… i gave it a little thought

read more because of how huge tumblr makes images

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bnha 136 ramble!

This chapter made me smile… a lot…

First off let me start with Sir. Sir sees his quirk more as a curse than a blessing.

He’s hesitant to use it, not just because of the setback it has, but because of the inevitability of an accident or something, or in most cases death.

He’s still grief-stricken about All Might’s future because he knows just how accurate it is, he knows that his foresight can’t be altered.

For a second, I honestly thought that he was still pissed off at All Might, like right here:

but he’s just afraid of people turning out like All Might… 

Look at how sad he is here… this single panel puts a lot of depth into Sir’s character. We get ti see a more vulnerable side of him. It’s not like he hates using his quirk, he’s afraid of what he’s going to see, heck, I’m pretty sure if his foresight didn’t have a 24-long interval setback or whatever he still wouldn’t use it on people…

After what he saw in All Might’s future, what are the chances that it can’t happen again to someone else?

Overall, I just find it sweet how Sir still feels sad about All Might, and how he still cares about him. Nobody really completely understands the weight of his words here apart from Gran Torino, so it’s pretty hard on them.

and omfg to bnha’s ost “my hero academia” while reading this chapter really fits the mood! XD

I honestly thought their relationship would be a little more salty, but this is refreshing though, seeing both of them talk about Izuku and all, even though Horikoshi didn’t go deep into their converstaion…

Sir’s is already starting to acknowledge Izuku, and I really like that, I didn’t expect it to come so soon, but it still made me happy. Sir’s opinion of Izuku hasn’t changed yet, but it’s getting there.

I also want to appreciate the relationship that the big 3 has:

even though we still don’t know much about them it’s pretty obvious that they all got each others back when it comes to emotional situations too so that’s cool.

This was my favorite part of the chapter. Bless Horikoshi for this scene, Aizawa coming from nowhere and unintentionally lightening up the mood was just so sweet.

Tbh, it will be kind of awkward having Izuku, Uraraka and the rest call Aizawa eraserhead will be kinda weird…but I guess I’ll get used to it.

I NEED TO APPRECIATE HOW PRETTY AIZAWA LOOKS HERE, LIKE WTF???!! HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL AHHHHHH!!!!!! HORIKOSHI THANK YOU FOR THIS IMAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND DADZAWA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we’ve only seen a dadzawa/izuku scene  like once or so in the manga, and that was after Izuku’s first fight with Bakugou, so this was… really sweet.

I don’t know if it was Izuku or Kirishima that said “I’ll follow you forever” but this was hilarious XD

Gonna appreciate how pretty Overhaul looks here… hot damn he’s a beauty!

I don’t know why but I really just had a hunch that Eri’s room would look like this… also

I want to murder this guy.

I see such a strong connection forming between Izuku an Eri in the future… and I also see a bunch of new headcanons on tumblr. So just like my friend indy said,

DO NOT LET HER DOWN IZUKU!

Got7 appreciation post

Mark Tuan

reasons to stan this cute lil muffin:

  1. He’s pretty fucking insane at acrobats, okay.
  2. He raps out the side of his mouth, and if that’s not the hottest thing eVER, you’re invited to leave. 
  3. He probably gives the warmest and best hugs ever. Mark is so fluffy and sweet and loveable no one touch me 
  4. His laugh is so c u te goodbye
  5. He’s the quiet one, so there’s sure to be a lot of secret observing and I am just so into the concept of quiet wallflower Mark, tbh.  
  6. Also this happened: 


Im Jaebum

reasons to stan my sweet soft baby boy

  1. He’s a softie. Feeds stray cats in his downtime even if they scratch him.
  2. He is a precious little pancake who loves being onstage and being praised. 
  3. He’s an only child but he loves the members like they’re his brothers. 
  4. He’s kinda really fucking hot
  5. Chic and sexy
  6. soundS LIKE AN ANGEL
  7. also he is the mOST boyfriend-looking mf in the world. look at this shit

b y e 

Jackson Wang

reasons to stan the epitome of boyfriend goals

  1. He loves his family so much omfg (posterboy for Momma’s Boys R Us tbh)
  2. He is a literal angel, I’m pretty fucking positive. 
  3. He’s the comic relief for my boys and I will forever be indebted to him for keeping them happy.
  4. His laugh and that smile, someone put me in a cage 
  5. He knows, like, five different languages
  6. He does this adorable thing where he runs away from pretty girls okay do not touch me 
  7. Wang Puppy. 
  8. He’s also hot af goodbye


Park Jinyoung

reasons to stan the bean

  1. He’s an A+ actor
  2. His English has improved so much since their debut and I am so glad to say that I got to hear it in person and I am so goddamn proud
  3. He’s like a real-life sour patch kid– sour on the outside (savage, actually, lol) and secretly a big softie on the inside 
  4. Have you seen his performances lately because hot damn
  5. He literally has the voice of an angel tbh
  6. Park Gae is my life, alright?
  7. He, too, is fine asf.


Choi Youngjae

reasons to stan my lil otter

  1. He is literal sunshine incarnate. It’s impossible to be sad when you look at him. 
  2. Coco’s mom 
  3. 300-time thickest calves award winner
  4. Makes everyone their smiley best <3
  5. He sounds like Fergie and Jesus had a baby, that gorgeous voice ugh
  6. That blonde glow-up though
  7. He’s hot af too don’t touch me

holy shit rip

Bambam

reasons to stan the love of my life

  1. Do you see that smile on his face omfg what a cutie pie???
  2. Dab boi
  3. Sweeter than frickin’ candy
  4. Designer hoe boyfriend
  5. Yugbam
  6. Chelsbam (ship it)
  7. It is literally impossible to be sad in his presence okay it’s like he’s the sun and I’m the earth
  8. His accent is so cute I fucking die okay
  9. He’s so hot, man.

ultimate bias af

Kim Yugyeom

reasons to stan the evil maknae who ruins my life

  1. He can freestyle the fuck out of some dance moves
  2. Hit the Stage. B y e 
  3. Cutest smile in the entire world oh sweet lord
  4. Sweetest baby in the universe
  5. Got excited over ordering a hotdog in English (thank u based naver app + Hard Carry)
  6. My pure sweet boy
  7. I cried when he came out onstage bc he really is the most pure human being I have ever come into contact with, my little muffin
  8. Silver Yugyeom is my religion
  9. also hot af


stan talent, my friends. 

disclaimer: none of these images are mine. 

Fav parts from Acowar *spoilers

In no specific order…

The part when Varian just comes up to amren and they just start making out in front of everyone omg that was great and he just picks her up and they just leave and everyone’s just staring after them not knowing what to say

When nesta screamed for cassian while on the ground puking and it saved his life. 

All feysand fluff. ugh. I really needed it.

WHEN CASSAIN AND NESTA KISSED OMFG THE EMOTIONS

Learning that the bone carver was appearing as FEYSANDS FUTURE CHILD OMG 

Learning all about the other high lords and the part where Viviane was like “Why cant I be a high lady” HAHAHHAHA i loved it

when Feyre crushed that bitch ianthes hand YESSSS

Finally learning Amren’s true form but having her not die (the sweet relief that amren x varian will live on)

Also learning Rhys’s true form

Hearing more of mors story because it gave so much more insight into her

NESTA KILLING HYBERN WAS THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY 

Feyre flying off into the sunset with rhysand at the end *wipes tear*

Loving

Originally posted by harryisart

Summary/Request: what if Y/N ran away from her house from her abusive father or boyfriend and she ran to Harry’s house crying hysterical, and Harry brings her in and hugs her and all the fluff, and puts y/n in a pair of his shirts and sweats and they lye down on the couch watching y/n’s favorite Movies to calm her down, and she starts snuggling with him and she eventually falls asleep with Harry rubbing her head or whatever, then later on y/n falls asleep and harry goes to get up to go to his bed but she wakes up and tells him to stay with her, so he just brings her into his room and she starts to kiss his neck when he lays down next to her and at first harry is hesitant but she tells him something like “Harry I’ve always loved you” “I need you” and Harry treats her so lovingly, taking his time rating y/n out, and fingering her and y/n says something like “Harry I need you now” and they have sweet loving sex with Harry moaning and whispering dirty/curse words as they go and just harry being really dirty but really loving at the same time. Omfg what did I just do to myself asdfggjkl

Warning(s): Mentions of abuse. This is also smutty and involves oral sex!!!

Thank you so much for requesting! I hope you enjoy it :)

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Another night full of tears and pain. Another night of rushing out of that house. My father has always been abusive, but over the past few years, it’s gotten worse. I don’t know what to do because I’m so afraid of him. 

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Sweethearts--Imagine #21

Anonymous said: Hey! Love ur imagines so frickin much omfg😍😍 could u write an imagine where my crush is sad about his parents divorcing and we get to talking and I cheer him up a lot and we hang out a lot and become really great friends?

A/N: Aww, thank you so much Anon for that sweet compliment!!! I am SUPER sorry for getting to your request so late. Hope this makes up for it! <3 Keep dreaming!~Logan


This was the fifth day that c/n had missed school. The fifth day he had been marked absent. The fifth day that I hadn’t seen his handsome face or passed him in the halls or gotten the chance to exchange a hello. 

I missed him horribly, to say the least. But the worst part was the bundle of nerves in my stomach that hadn’t left since the first day he didn’t arrive to class. For some reason, I felt like I could sense something was wrong. Like there was more to the story than him just missing a week of school. I couldn’t appease myself with the reassurance that he was probably just sick or maybe had taken an impromptu vacation. I couldn’t be calmed by any lame reasons I thought up of why he was missing for so many days. 

I was sitting on the grass, eating my lunch outside where tons of other kids had decided to take their lunch outside as well and take advantage of the pleasant weather. Where I was sitting though was farther away from everyone else. My friends were absent today so I was alone, and picking at the grass on the lawn. 

“You mind if I take a seat by you?” A tentative voice asked from behind. 

My head whipped around to meet the eyes of C/n. I was taken aback. What was he doing here so late? My body felt like it removed a hundred pound brick  from my stomach, though and I moved aside my lunch bag to make room beside me.

“Not at all,” I smiled, shyly. 

We had never really talked much aside from friendly smiles and the occasional greetings and “how are you”s. But I had harbored a crush on him for awhile and this was something I’d only dreamt about happening. 

He sat cross-legged next to me, heaving a sigh that made me feel heavy. Maybe my anxieties about him hadn’t been off. I looked closer at him as he pulled out a simple sandwich and apple from his backpack. His eyes had shadows that weren’t normally so dark, the redness rimming his irises making him look weary and suspiciously like he’d been crying. His lips were set in a tight line, chapped. His normally well-kept hair was covered in a beanie in a poor attempt to contain the wild shock of hair underneath. His clothes looked rumpled and hung off his hunched shoulders. 

Yeah, something was definitely up.

“It’s good to see you,” I smiled softly, hesitating.

I didn’t want to push him into talking about stuff he’d rather avoid but questions were threatening to spill out of my mouth. 

He turned his head to look at me and that’s when I knew for a fact he’d definitely been crying. His brows furrowed a bit.

“Yeah? I guess my homeless look suits me pretty well, hm?” He joked, but his smile didn’t reach his eyes.

“We all have those days. Had a rough day?”

“Try rough couple of months,” he mumbled, a frown settling over his face. 

Suddenly he looked up, regret written over his face. 

“Forget I said that. I didn’t meant to bother you by sitting down. I just didn’t feel like talking to my friends and you’re always so easy to be around– and now I’m rambling,” he cut himself off. 

“Hey,” I said, and he looked up from picking at his sandwich. “I totally get it. You want some space. And you’re not bothering me. I like your company and if you have anything you want to get off your chest, I’m all ears,” I said, smiling reassuringly at him. 

“Thanks, y/n. It’s been a stressful week what with not being here to understand my homework, and dealing with my parents’ divorce, and my friends being the careless bastards that they are,” his shoulders slumped even more, and I wanted to reach out and pull him into a hug. 

“I’m really sorry about your parents. I had no idea,” I whispered. 

He shrugged, trying to pass it off as not a big deal. 

“Is that why you’ve been gone?” 

“Yeah. Frankly, I’m surprised you noticed. None of my other friends have.”

“I noticed the first day you didn’t show. I was honestly worried about you. God, I sound like a creep,” I shook my head at myself, instantly regretting my words. 

“No, actually, it’s really nice to hear,” he said, his sunken eyes looking deep into mine. “My parents have been working on this divorce for awhile and any day where we said hi and you smiled at me really made my spirits lift. Even if just for a bit. I feel kinda lame talking about all my problems when this is the first real conversation we’ve had,” he confessed, looking apologetic. 

“There’s no rules for how to talk to people. At least, not with me. I’d much rather have you tell me about your bad months than suffer through awkward, forced small talk,” I chuckled. 

That got a real chuckle out of him and I savored the rough albeit soothing sound of it.

“In all seriousness though, I’m really sorry you have to go through that. And you really don’t look bad, by the way. In fact, I’m kind of digging the beanie,” I bumped my shoulder into his playfully, eliciting another laugh out of him.

“What about my hair? What do you think of the style?” He asked, flipping his hair like those snotty girls do in movies.

I giggled. “It suits you. Looks rebellious.”

“Wow, didn’t know I’d be capable of pulling off a rebellious look,” he said, chuckling along with me. 

A few minutes of silence followed while we chewed on our lunches before c/n spoke up. 

“I know we’ve only had a real conversation today, but I was wondering if you wanted to hang out at the mall tomorrow? We could look around some stores and get some of those delicious cinnamon rolls?” He asked, eyes finally lighting up with what I could only describe as hope.

“I’d love to!” 

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Two weeks had passed and though we had only gotten to know each other recently, I already felt like I knew c/n for years. 

His parent’s divorce was taking a toll on him, so when we talked and hung out I always made sure to keep the conversation light, unless he wanted to talk in-depth about his parents. I savored those moments when I cracked a joke and his dull eyes that used to shine brightly would spark again and for a moment he was his old self. 

Still, is situation was hard on him. Some days he showed up to school looking how he did that first day we talked and the only words he would say to me were hi and goodbye. Still, I stayed by his side even when he chose not to speak. I knew he needed my company, needed someone by his side, showing him they loved him no matter his mood. 

Today, I sat squirming in my seat, my eyes darting to the clock. The bell would ring any minute and c/n still hadn’t walked through the door. It seemed I had become just as addicted to his company as he was to mine. Right as the bell rang and our teacher was closing the door, he bursted through, bloodshot eyes and all. 

It took me only one glance for me to know he’d been balling his eyes out before he’d come. 

He darted to his seat, not wanting to draw attention to himself and sat down behind me. As the lecture began, I let my arm drop down to my side and reach back. Not even a moment passed before I felt his warm palm slide into mine and I squeezed his hand, offering what little strength I could to him. 

This had become a thing we did. Days when words failed for the sadness he felt or when we simply felt like being connected in some way, I’d reach behind me and hold his hand from my seat in front of him. I liked the intimacy of it. It was shy, but calming and the comfort we both got from it benefited us greatly.

Class couldn’t have ended soon enough and I pulled c/n out of the room before the rush of students could block the hallways. Without grabbing a hold of his hand, I led him to a quiet corner near our lockers. 

When I finally turned to him, I simply dropped my backpack to the floor and flung my arms around him. His body reacted immediately, his arms wrapping around my body cocooning me in his comforting embrace. Our bodies were pressed flush against one another and I couldn’t think of something I’d ever experienced before that was so bitter-sweet. A few sniffles escaped from c/n’s mouth and were muffled by my hair, which he had buried his face into. 

“It’s ok. I’m here. I’m right here and I’m not going anywhere,” I whispered to him. 

I pulled back just enough to see his face, every inch of the rest of our bodies still pressed against each other. 

A tear slipped from his eye, and I brushed it away gently with the soft pad of my thumb. The vulnerability with which he looked at me struck my heart and I reached up a bit to place a feather-light kiss to the cheek that had just been dampened by a tear. 

“I don’t know what I’d do without you,” he said, his arms holding me tighter.

“Well, you certainly wouldn’t be ditching class that’s for sure,” I said, a hint of a smile tugging at my lips. 

His eyes widened when he realized what I was implying. 

Fifteen minutes later, I had taken him to a nearby flower shop. On the way, I’d bought us hot chocolate because that had always seemed to help him cheer up a bit. 

But now, we perused the flowers in the shop, losing ourselves in the sweet scents they were giving off and feasting our eyes on the brilliant colors surrounding us. 

“Y/n check this one out,” c/n said, tugging my on my hand. 

I smiled as he brought me over to a beautiful bouquet of peonies. 

“They’re beautiful,” I breathed. 

“They have such a soft color. But they’re not small, they have personality. They take up space. Just like you,” he smiled, looking at me with earnest eyes.

“You calling me fat, c/n?” I asked, smirking.

“No!” He exclaimed, then laughed as I laughed with him. “God, no. I’m saying, that just like these flowers have a gentleness about them they’re not without personality. Look at how they fill up an empty vase. Just like how you filled up my empty heart,” he finished, entwining his fingers with mine. 

And that was the first day we referred to each other not only as best friends  but as sweethearts, too.