but now everything is a mess

I remember it now...


I just finished my rewatch of Eureka seveN after few years since last time. And I am a crying mess right now.

I remembered what I forgot through all those years. I was reblogging E7 related stuff on this blog for a long time now, but I didn’t feel anything. I was just mindlessly doing it out of habit.

But now I remember. How I felt as a 12 year old boy, who stumbled upon this show by pure coincidence. Ever since then I was mesmerised by it. I couldn’t wait till next episode. Nine pm, everyday. I remember the time when episode 50 aired. How sad it was to see that my favorite show, my favorite characters, my favorite world was gone. It felt like leaving something behind. Something really important to me.

Back then I thought that if Renton’s 14, then I still have 2 years to become as cool as him. This memory is so vivid it feels like it was yesterday. When I was a child, I didn’t know where lies the limit of human imagination. Eureka seveN felt real to me. I wasn’t looking at this show as a cartoon made by people. For me it was a real world. It was an experience. A journey.

This anime taught me a lot of things, With every year I gained, I was learning different things from it. I’m still amazed that even after 8 years, I can see new things in this show. New things I can learn from. This show taught me about family. About friendship. About love. That not everything in life works out. That to get something, to make something real, I can’t wait for it to happen. I have to do it myself.

About 4 years ago I think I forgot why I even liked this show. I thought I remembered it well. Well, I was wrong. Without realizing it, I forgot why I am so attached to it. But while I forgot a lot of things, it let me feel like I was watching it for the first time. I felt like a kid again. It felt like definitive end for my childhood, even though I’m 20 years old already.

But I remember it now…

I finally remember why I fell in love with Eureka seveN in the first place.  

2

Two years. Two years, gone. I should’ve fucked off when he messed around with someone else. I should’ve ignored it when he said my name. This is personal, yes, with names and everything, but how many Juans and Ashleys are there in the world? Maybe he’ll see this, maybe not. Probably not. If you do, don’t you dare contact me, say anything about posting private things. Private things was her posting hickeys and bruises that got you caught. Private things are things that are now gone and trying to be forgotten. I’m tired of hurting. I’m so fucking angry, because I was hurt and broken before and now I’m just dust. I’m dust, and it’s the kind that I talked about in that one piece I wrote that I wanted you to read, and that you never will. You didn’t want to do anything to take me out of your life? You wanted to be honest? Ironic, because how often did you really lie to me? Then again, life likes to fuck me over with every ounce of irony it can find. You know, you didn’t talk to me on my birthday, you were ignoring the question I asked you the previous night. I have no one left. I have no one else. Everyone, every single fucking person I ever love and care about fucks me over somehow and somehow I’m not used to it. I’m just done hurting, I’m done opening up to people. I’m done, because it’s been proven over and over again that I’m not enough and never will be. You were my best friend. You were my only person. You know, I hope you see everything I did for you and you hurt. I hope you hurt half as much as I’m hurting right now.

3

Rose: Vanessa, I was right where you are right now. In fact, I was there twice, and now I have three beautiful children that I wouldn’t give up for anything. This will change everything, but not necessarily in a bad way.

Vanessa: Akira and I have never even talked about kids before. What if he leaves? This is all such a mess!

Rose: This is going to be difficult, sweetheart, but there is no doubt in my mind that you will figure it out. I’m always here for you and so is your sister. And Akira, he loves you so much. Sometimes I think you don’t realise just how much. He will stand by you and this baby.

Vanessa: I… Thank you, mom. Thanks for coming here today.

now nothing post series 2 makes any sense can we agree that we can ignore Mary’s character completely and just write the boys as they always were before everything got so messed up? and not feel the need to have to include her or this baby that doesn’t even seem to exist or matter in the series anyway in fics? I mean I for one am happy to wipe them out completely and just rewrite this shit, write our boys and their story properly and actually do their characters justice

anonymous asked:

Yesterday I had a huge fight with my best friend. I'm so messed up right now I don't know what to do. I don't think we can ever go back to what we were. What should I do?

Hey Nonnie! <3

Talk. Talk talk talk. Give yourselves a couple of days to cool off, then talk. You’re best friends. You’ll work it out. And if you can’t, you know you’ve tried everything.

Chin up and good luck <3 I hope everything ends up okay <3

Oh my now I really need to get my stuff together all over again. I begin to get messed up easily. I haven’t revised any of the subjects yet cuz I’m really being busy settling the assignments, Integrated Design Project Proposal which has been rejected like more than 5 times lol cuz the supervisor is quite a perfectionist person but that’s okay. There is hikmah in everything. Need to consider it as a positive sign cuz Allah’s plans is better in a mysterious way. Human’s perspective is very limited compared to Him, so He knows better right? Have tawakkul dearself and do not ever procrastinate pls dearself. This Friday, I’ll be going back to my hometown which is pretty good cuz I miss my family so muchh and I need some rest. The sad is, we will be sat for several tests after midsem break so, it won’t really be a suitable week to have a rest. Wish me luck. 

the signs and why theyre undatable

aries: they think everything is a joke, yet somehow takes everything too damn serious anyway.

taurus: too chill, never chill enough. whatever they’re doing it’s too much of it. expects ppl to take care of them and has the attention span of a goldfish

gemini: everything is a personal attack, can’t lower their standards without feeling like theyre compromising themselves, thinks they’re too smart for their partner

cancer: perpetual crier, always wants to hash out a disagreement RIGHT. NOW. doesn’t know how to give people space to process their own feelings

leo: can’t stop talking about themselves, never considers their partners point of view, intentionally leaves ppl behind if they can’t keep up

virgo: obsessed with perfection, susceptible to criticism, will either be emotionally impenetrable or a mess of feelings

libra: can’t make a decision about a person to save their life, will make a list of pros and cons and never read it, head higher than the throne of god

scorpio: will be petty and play games for no reason, everything is disposable including people, emotes only for The Drama of it all

saggitarius: absent, unavailable, lets their phone battery run out and won’t charge it for 3 days, doesn’t know when the party is over, considers a good morning text to be clingy

capricorn: look up bougie in the dictionary, you’ll find a capricorn, needs constant reassurance but pretends that they don’t, thinks the world is against them

aquarius: demons

pisces: martyr fetishist who cant commit to any one person and carries emotional baggage from the last 6 relationships. lowkey evil when they sense the end of a relationship and makes everyone think it’s your fault

So I never thought I’d make a post about Yakov Feltsman, but here we are XD

Yakov has made it very apparent throughout the season that he thinks Victor’s just messing around for fun, “playing coach” like it’s a game. Until now, I’ve just thought that the writers made Yakov so angry about Victor dropping everything to go be Yuuri’s coach because Victor is literally the most talented ice skater he’s ever coached.

Of course, Yuri Plisetsky is up-and-coming crazy talented, but Yakov has history with Victor; he’s possibly even known him since before Victor’s Junior debut. This is Victor’s career, and Yakov is upset because from where he’s standing, it looks like Victor is throwing everything away on some selfish hunch. Watching Yakov’s attitude slowly warm to Yuuri over the course of episode 9 was really interesting.

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I understand why you left me now,“ she said softly, “I was a mess, and I resented you for everything. I wanted you to fix me, or at least help me fix myself. I didn’t realise that nothing you did would ever be enough. I couldn’t see that I was the only person who had the power to make things better for myself.
—  Sue Zhao
  • Mavis: So let’s start by talking about the emotions you’re feeling right now.
  • Rahkeid: Stabbing.
  • Mavis: Stabbing… isn’t really an emotion, it’s more of an… activity. Which I hope you don’t do it to me… See, an emotion is more of a feeling.
  • Rahkeid: Well maybe I feel stabby.
  • [during yoshi's cookie]
  • arin: i'm sorry. did i mess everything up for you?
  • dan: whatd'ya mean? you'd never mess anything up for me.
  • arin: really?
  • dan: yeah, your friendship is a treasure.
  • arin: okay, now you're just being facetious.
  • dan: [sounding legitimately offended] no, it's a fucking treasure, arin.
Botched Coming Out

What if when Jack comes out and has the same slip-up he had with George? 

He says he’s dating a ‘teammate’ and suddenly no one cares he’s bisexual because the real scoop is figuring out which Falconer Jack’s having a passionate affair with.

Jack tries to course-correct, even does an interview with Bitty where they hold hands and everything, but the story is out of control. Instead of clearing up the whole mess, Bitty becomes the guy the Falconers hired to fake!date Jack and cover up the scandal.

Now there’s this crazy gay witchhunt which would be terrifying if the guys didn’t find it so damn funny, and the Falcs start taking bets on which of them will be Zimmboni’s secret lover this month. 

And through all of this, Kent is lounging pool-side in Vegas, low-key offended that Jack’s getting all of this attention when he’s the one actually sleeping with a Falconer.

Miss Me?

So “Miss me?” isn’t a message from Moriarty, it’s a message from Euros.  “Do you miss me, your own sister who you pretend doesn’t even exist?”  I’ll admit, I love that – it’s a very reasonable question for her to be asking. 

At the very least, she’s manipulating Moriarty’s image, but I’m inclined to believe she’s done more than that - her handling of Culverton Smith is precisely in line with Moriarty’s MO: find a baddie, pretend to help them, actually use them to mess with Sherlock, and let them die/get arrested when Sherlock defeats them.  

So, questions:

- Was she involved with Moriarty before his death, or is she just using his image now?  Hell, maybe she is Moriarty, and the Andrew Scott character really was just Richard Brook.  I don’t love retconning “everything was really the work of this character we’ve introduced at the last minute” but at least they’ve laid a bit of the groundwork.

- I really can’t tell what’s up with Mary, her characterization and arc is so damn incoherent, but I’m inclined to believe she was working for/with Euros too.  The writers have given themselves an out by having Mary say ‘thought that’d get your attention’ w/r/t the “Miss me?” on her post-mortem dvd but a conspiracy of women fits well with TAB-as-decoder-ring – maybe with the twist that none of the women in the TAB conspiracy are part of the actual conspiracy.  (So: Euros, Mary, and oh let’s go with Lady Smallwood.)

- How long ago were Sherlock and Euros separated?  Presumably childhood, because of the beach and “I’m not a child anymore, Mycroft” but also Sherlock not recognizing his own sister.  Even high as a kite, he’s the most observant man in the world and he had a whole evening with her.  But: was Euros a part of Sherlock’s life when Carl Powers died and Moriarty and Sherlock’s paths first crossed?  How young was she when she was locked away?

- Speaking of… why does Euros seem to have it out for Sherlock in particular? Especially when she says he’s nicer than “anyone”?  It makes sense for her to be going after Mycroft, and it makes sense for her to go after Sherlock to get to Mycroft, but shooting John Watson seems like “burn the heart out of you” territory.

I am eagerly looking forward to the fandom meta machine’s input on this one.

  • Oceanside: *living in peace*
  • Rick & Co: "surprise hoes...you got 5 seconds to team up with us or we're taking everything."
  • Oceanside: "???How can we fight Ne-"
  • Rick & Co: *blows up the camp*
  • Rick & Co: *hurdles all the women and children together at gunpoint*
  • Rick & Co: "Join us now"
  • Oceanside: "But we-"
  • Rick & Co: *take all their guns and leaves them completely defenseless for the future*
  • Rick & Co: "We're not bad guys btw just so yall know"