Kol x reader
21. “You knocked on my door at 1 in the morning, to cuddle?”
40. “I could hold you forever”
You woke up with your breath lodged in your throat, just about managing to prevent a scream from escaping. It must have been about the third time that night that you had awoken, your skin covered in cold sweat and your breaths ragged. Your nightmares had come back. It had been years since they’d been this bad: so bad that you were terrified to go back to sleep and saw monsters in every corner. Previously you had forced yourself to fall back to sleep, but every time you closed your eyes you were haunted by those same images, and you were struggling to convince yourself of what was and wasn’t real. Shaking, you unwound the covers from you. They must have become entangled with all the tossing and turning. Though you didn’t want to wake anyone else up, you knew that you couldn’t stay alone in your room any longer. Anyway, there was usually someone awake most of the night. You slipped out of your bed and padded over to your door, opening it as quietly as possible before heading out down the corridor, looking for a light under any of the doors. You jumped at the sight of your shadow lurking in a corner, thinking it was a figure. “Pull yourself together,” you muttered angrily to yourself. Eventually, you saw a light under a door. If you had kept your bearings rightly in the dark, it was Kol’s bedroom. You carefully pressed your ear to the door, listening first to check if he had company. Yours and Kol’s relationship was complicated, and you certainly didn’t want to intrude. But you wouldn’t be here if you didn’t think it absolutely necessary. Just the thought of going back to sleep made you feel sick. You nervously raised a hand and knocked lightly on his door, praying he wasn’t asleep and wouldn’t be annoyed at you. You heard the footsteps, and the door slowly swung open.
“Y/N? What do you want?” Kol rubbed his eyes a little sleepily, and you realised you might have woken him.
“Oh God, I’m so sorry, it’s just, I saw the light under your door and I thought you would be awake and-”
It was then that Kol noticed your pale face and wide eyes, and the way your gaze didn’t stay focused on him but kept darting around. “Hey, what’s wrong? Are you okay?” His tone changed to one much more gentle, and he opened the door wider. “Come in.”
“Thanks,” you said softly, stepping into the room and shutting the door gently behind you. “I… I keep having nightmares, and I know it’s really childish and I should be able to cope but…”
“So essentially, you knocked at my door at one in the morning, to cuddle?” His voice was teasing, but you were so highly strung that you thought he was being serious.
“I can go, this was a bad idea, I’m sorry.”
“No, Y/N, stop apologising. I was only teasing. Come, sit.” He sat down on his unmade bed, and gestured for you to sit beside him. “We’ve all been through enough to have our fair share of nightmares, and nobody would ever judge you for wanting some company. Do you want to talk about it?” You shook your head.
“No, not really.” You kept your gaze trained on the floor, trying to calm your breathing. You were starting to feel a little less scared, with the comforting presence of Kol beside you and the soft light of his bedside lamp chasing away the shadows.
“That’s okay. Do you want a drink or anything? Some hot chocolate?”
“No, don’t go,” you replied, panicked at the thought of again being left alone.
Kol’s eyes widened as he realised just how shaken up you were- he was unused to seeing you, who was usually so confident, so vulnerable and afraid. “Hey, I’m not going anywhere if you don’t want me to,” he replied, eyes watching you with concern. “You’re shaking,” he observed.
“Oh,” you responded, realising he was right. You were starting to cool off as your sweat dried, and had begun to shiver. Kol pulled back the covers of his bed and moved over.
“Get in,” he told you. You looked up at him in surprise, but his expression didn’t change. You did as he instructed and swung your legs round so that you were lying back, and he then pulled the covers over the pair of you. At first you lay tense, careful not to touch him. “I don’t bite,” he joked, and to your surprise, you laughed a little.
“Well, that’s not strictly true, is it?” He smiled at your reply, glad to see you regaining some of your usual spark. He stretched an arm out to wrap around your shoulders, giving you plenty of time to stop him if you weren’t comfortable, and pulled you close to him.
“God Y/N, you’re freezing.”
“Sorry,” you repeated.
“What did I say about apologising?!” You smiled, biting your tongue to keep from saying it again. The warmth of Kol’s body next to yours made you relax further, and you noticed the ache in your muscles from being so tense all night, and just how tired you actually were. “Try and get some sleep,” he whispered. “You can stay here, for now.”
You turned your head to look back at him. “Are you sure that’s okay? I don’t want to intrude.”
“Of course it is. I’ve been trying to get you in my bed for months,” he replied with a smirk. You blushed and smiled, turning to look away from him so he didn’t pick up on the colour in your cheeks. “I could hold you forever,” he said genuinely into your ear, only making you go redder.
“Goodnight Y/N,” he said as he reached to turn out the light.