Imagine : “We aren’t together anymore, remember ?” Part 2
Here you were. On a date with a guy you barely knew. And you wanted one thing, to go back home.
It wasn’t really the guy’s fault. Ben was really nice and he was cute, but you couldn’t manage to enjoy the night, even if you tried.
Because Stiles was still on your mind, just like the hundred questions you had on your relationship with him.
“Is everything alright ?” Ben asked, and you suddenly felt guilty because this guy was already nervous and while he was doing everything for this date to be great, you felt like you were doing exactly the opposite.
“I’m sorry… It’s just.. I have a lot on my mind. Things are complicated and I’m sorry that I’m not 100% here with you.”
“Stop apologizing.” He smiled. “It’s alright. We can do this another time if you want ?”
Your eyes grew wide. “Are you serious ? You’re not even mad ?”
“Listen (Y/N), I like you okay ? And I’d rather have a date with you when you’re good with it and most importantly, when you’re happy. So I’d feel better knowing you’re at home and having some rest that being here and feeling like shit.”
“You’re so amazing that I feel even more guilty. I’m really sorry. Maybe… I think it’s too soon.”
“To be honest I can’t blame you, I truly am amazing.” He joked and you laughed, which made him smile. “Want me to bring you back home ?”
“I would like to.” You didn’t feel like walking home alone or be alone at all, yet you also wanted to leave this place because being around a lot of people was too much. Ben’s presence was like a reminder that you wanted to move on but you didn’t manage to. You had all these feelings that were contradictory, you felt like you were losing your mind.
Finally arriving at your house, you thanked Ben before he left. You actually felt like you were sick, you view was blurry and you were feeling dizzy. So going home was actually a good idea right ?
Thought you weren’t expecting Stiles to be in front of your door.
You opened your mouth to ask him what was he doing here but he spoke before you.
“That was your date ? It’s pretty early to be back home already ?”
“I was not feeling well.” You said suddenly annoyed. “And it still the case so if you don’t mind, I would like to get some rest.”
“(Y/N)… I didn’t came here to bother you. All I want is a talk.”
“And you choose the day I have a date to have that talk ? Couldn’t you come tomorrow ?”
It was his time to open his mouth to speak, except nothing came out.
“You fucked up and the worst is that its touching me. The worst is that, not only I have to accept that the one I love cheated on me, but I also have to accept that it’s not my fault and that I’m good enough, but it’s just so hard… Do you know how it makes me feel to know that you weren’t happy with me so you went for another girl ? Do you know how insecure I am now because of you ? I feel like shit because of you !”
Your voice was trembling and you knew you were soon about to cry, and so was Stiles.
“I never wanted to hurt you. I never wanted to cheat on you, in any way. That’s why you need to hear me out and to believe me. It’s gonna sound cliché but when you saw that girl kissing me, I was about to reject her.”
You said nothing. There was a time when you would trust Stiles for everything but now, you were sure of nothing. Because everything has changed.
“Please, tell me what you want me to do. Say that you believe me, because I swear it’s true. I would never cheat on you. I love you. You hear me (Y/N) ? I love you, so much, that I’m scared every single day that something happen to you and that I end up losing you.”
You heart was pounding, your head was actually hurting and the ground seemed to move under your feet.
“(Y/N) ? Are you okay ?” Stiles’ voice seemed like a whisper to you when actually he was far from whispering.
Everything was moving to fast and before you could say anything, everything went black.