What is it with my aversion to being connected to people? I’m lying in bed thinking about my NYE makeup tomorrow and just knowing everyone is gonna be wearing glitter tomorrow makes me really not wanna wear it. Like I only wanna go all out on normal days and then when everyone is going all out I really don’t want to. It’s just makeup but I feel like it’s such a reflection of my life. I don’t think it’s really a good thing. I’ve definitely benefited from it in some ways like I feel a really strong sense of individuality from going against the grain so often, I have no problem doing stuff I wanna do that’s weird or abnormal. But it also causes isolation, which I’m so comfortable with and used to that I don’t even realize sometimes when it’s motivating me. Idk I’ve just been thinking a lot about that lately. Isolation sucks. We need friends. We need to feel connected. I’m still not gonna wear glitter tomorrow hahaha but I’m just thinking I don’t wanna be so far removed from everyone. Even if I dress different I still wanna act united. I wanna feel connected to something. I’m such a loner I can spend days by myself comfortably but then I start to go crazy and do weird stuff when in reality I should just be sharing myself with people and opening up my soul to other humans. I’ve never had a problem saying no to things but I do really need to work on saying yes, to life in general. In 2017 I wanna open my heart. I grew a lot in 2016 but it was just scratching the surface in comparison to what I wanna achieve in 2017 on a personal level. Like I really wanna grow in how I treat people and myself and how much I trust and share myself with others. I wanna be a connected individual cuz I really am not right now. I got a long way to go but I know I’m gonna get there.
Is it legal in the US for employers to force employees to wear Christmas themed stuff if it's not a part of their original uniform? My boss just gave us santa claus-like fedora hats to wear that i really don't wanna wear because a) I'm Jewish, b) i've come to really hate the holiday season because i'm not Christian, and c) they look ridiculous. Like, I'm not bothered with all the Christmas decorations and pastries that we're selling, but I want to draw the line at wearing Christmas clothes.