i love everyone loving steve now but am still so baffled that people think his redemption only started this season? in S1 he cleaned up the cinema mess, helped nancy and jonathan fight the demagorgon despite knowing nothing about what the fuck was going on and then bought jonathan a new camera like my son has been growing for a long time
The day after he left, we fell apart. It wasn’t something that gradually came but rather, a striking sense of emptiness that swept through us like sudden torrential waves. I cannot speak for others, but the waves had caught me off guard and drowned me alive. It has been a while since I knew how to breathe.
The last I heard, Hoseok and Jimin started a dance school together. Taehyung wrote his feelings on the streets. Namjoon wandered aimlessly and took bus rides from one city to another.
Seokjin-hyung? I would not wish to think of him.
I want to love myself, to set my heart free, to stop the surging sense of hate I feel towards my existence but every time I close my eyes, the ghosts that lurk in the corners of my heart would come out to haunt me. I should not have let him leave. I should not have let him walk home alone. These are just some of the many regrets that burden my shoulders.
I miss him dearly. If there was a way to turn back time, I would give my life to it, if it meant a chance to see him smile for me again.
I think I need to see everything that’s not the inside of a hospital. I need to travel and explore and hike and breathe. I want to breathe it all in, away from the monitors, and the blood, and the sterile gowns. Away from saving other people’s lives, I want my own. It’s time I live my own.