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i hate when straight women w short haircuts come into my salon and start joking about having a lesbian haircut/requesting short hair that “doesn’t make them look like a lesbian LOL”

today a straight woman sat down and showed me the picture of the haircut she wanted and she was like “i showed this picture to my husband and he was like ‘wow are you gonna get a girlfriend now’ haha. i love him he’s so ridiculous”

i never know what to say. it feels weird, because i know they say these things to me under the assumption that i’m straight. i don’t know how i’m supposed to respond. “oh don’t worry, you definitely don’t look like a lesbian!” or “omg don’t worry i won’t give you a LESBIAN looking haircut haha”

i can’t just out myself and play along. i do everything in my power to prevent outing myself to any of my clients.

and it feels like some cruel joke is being played on me, like this is straight humor that women laugh about behind our backs. i mean i know it is. it’s just weird being a part of it. i don’t know how to ask straight women to stop joking about butch lesbian haircuts while they’re in my chair. i don’t know what to do when straight women laugh about looking like a lesbian, i don’t really know how to take that, like if it’s a joke at the expense women like me or just harmless commentary. i don’t know what to say, and i can’t bring myself to laugh along with them.

it’s not a subject i want to talk about. i know that makes me sensitive, but i’ve been through a lot of very traumatic experiences because i’m gay. it’s humiliating to perform a service for straight women who seem to think there’s something funny about people daring to think they might be gay

faeron-the-wanderer  asked:

My guy, what's the name of the manga you've been reblogging?

Its called 

DANBERU NAN KIRO MOTERU?

Or in English

How Many Kilos are the Dumbbells You Lift?

I literally found it yesterday All thanks to @jake-everfree 

and its about these 2 girls which eventually turn to 5 

who want to start working out and going to the gym 

so theres Sakura Hibiki the blonde girl and my personal favorite whos basically just trying to lose weight cause she eats like Goku

and  Akemi Souryuuin the Dark Black Haired girl who is OBSESSED with Fitness and has a muscle fetish

And they get a BEAST OF A Personal Trainer named Machio

And he’s Just a Monstrous Intelligent Fitness Training Obsessed with helping them become Great!!

And the Manga goes in detail explaining Exercises.

Now I’m a Personal Trainer myself. I’ve been Certified the last 7 years and graduated college last year 

PS if you wanna hire me for online coaching just email me at jdownsfitness@gmail.com ;)

so I HONESTLY am Impressed with the facts they are spewing out. and THE MANGA IS F*CKIN FUNNY AS HELL! Because sometimes its slice of life fun.

Like a 29 year old teacher who loves to cosplay started working out so she could cosplay better 

and then it can turn into an ACTION BADASS SERIES just because Hibiki has Natural Gifts 

And everyones facial expressions will change to match the mood 

And its HILARIOUS, Its Fun, and just has so many things I appreciate as a Personal Trainer myself I LOVE THIS MANGA AND REAL TALK. Itss giving me 10x the Motivation to do better at fitness than OPM and yes even DBZ did back in the day 

SO GO READ IT NOW! 

https://mangadoom.co/danberu-nan-kiro-moteru/1

Its only 18 chapters right now! So Go Read it and tell me what ya think. Also 

@train-go you should check this out :)

And I can start another poll! 

Like I when I got 1021 people to read the One Punch Man manga way before the anime premiered :) Booyah! Let me see how many we can get! Making a video on this on my channel later ^_^

https://www.youtube.com/user/jaxblade07

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I told you, I won’t run anymore.

Yeah.

So why are you still carrying me?

….


Please don’t repost, edit or claim as your own. Thank you.

Here’s the thing.

I am a transgender man (see photo of my mug for context).

I love all trans people and I love non binary people. But lately some of my trans spaces (both on the web and irl) that are mainly non binary have started to feel a little hostile.

I want to make something perfectly clear before I continue - I love and respect non binary people, I think their genders are valid and I am in no way suggesting they are any less important that myself or any other binary trans person. I also need you to understand that this isn’t meant to be a post calling out non binary people at all, it is just me talking about my personal experiences in the hope that it can get people to be a little more considerate sometimes?

In university spaces, it seems that there is a growing population of non binary people that tends to dominate trans groups. Which is good in lots of ways, especially since it shows how this generation has become much more relaxed and aware that gender is a construct and fluidity is key. However, amongst people I know there is a lot of ‘ew gross men’, or 'ew gross trans men that are masculine’, while at the same time being predominantly DFAB populations.

Now trust me, I very much understand the dislike a lot of dfab trans people have of men. A lot of us are survivors and I think that does play a big part in how we feel about the gender overall. Not to mention it is not uncommon for men to be, for lack of a better word- wankers. However, I don’t think people consider trans men when we are talking about this.

Making a comment like 'ew men are so fucking gross’ to a room of trans people means that to a trans man you are saying one of two things - 1) you are gross, or 2) you aren’t gross because you’re not a Real Man, and you are excluded from this statement because you are and always will be, partly a woman. Even now I feel uncomfortable 'complaining’ about this. I have to remind myself that just as suggesting that a trans woman is somehow different to other women would be considered incredibly offensive, so is it for trans men.

I didn’t realise how much this stuff affected me until it did. Constantly being around people that talk about, how body hair on men is gross, masculinity is by default toxic, making jokes about my masculinity being toxic when I excitedly tell people that I’ve started going to the gym and its making me feel better about my body. No, it’s not funny. It’s MY dysphoria I’m trying to ease. I as a trans person want to feel supported and loved when I do things that have a chance of making me feel good about my body.

It hit me like a brick wall when I realised how much it had affected me. I was with my partner, and was trying to have sex, but I just broke down. I felt so incredibly disgusted with my body and myself. So much hair, so masculine. The noises I made, gross. The way I touched him, creepy. I couldn’t get out of my head the idea that later in life he would talk to people about how gross and unshaven I was, just like I had heard friends describe ex boyfriends so many times before.

I felt cheated because these were the changes I WANTED my body to make. But now they felt ruined. Spoiled.
It was after that realisation that I decided I had to get out. I stopped going to some of student socials and instead started attending a group for older trans people. It was so refreshing to meet other trans men for once (just because I rarely meet them at uni, and it was nice to talk to someone similar.) It was awesome to be around people who weren’t shitty about trans people being stealth (as I remember I once was.)

There are some important things to take away from all of this:

1) Telling trans boys and men that they are disgusting for wanting to be like men will only destroy self esteem and feed into the toxic environment that a lot of cis boys grow up in.

2) Non binary people are extremely valid and awesome, but also must accept they have a responsibility to cultivate a supportive and friendly atmosphere in spaces where they are dominant (I put this in here for university spaces especially)

3) Laughing at a trans man/woman for being excessively masc/fem presenting if you are a dfab nb person who mainly presents as fem or androgynous is facetious and not respecting that they may have to present that way to stay safe, (especially in the case of trans women that may be more 'obviously trans’) and that despite suffering prejudice in many ways, the one thing you are not realistically facing is street violence and such because you inevitably are not going to be clocked as trans. (which yes, does NOT make your transness invalid but we have to respect the different struggles people in our community face.)

4) Someone being stealth does not mean they are adhering to 'toxic gender roles’. It means they are either 1) trying to be safe or 2) surprise surprise they want to live their life as the gender they identify with. Trans people are not less legitimately trans because you think they are 'acting cis’.

5) Being a binary trans person does not give you privilege over nb people. Like seriously, trans women are literally the most likely to be murdered. Don’t be a dick. Erasure is a problem yes but it’s not the same. I read names out at the TDOR vigil and pretty much all of them were trans women of colour. Respect that. Help the community. This isn’t about scoring points over who has it the shittiest.

6) The idea that the only good kinda of trans men are 'soft sensitive kinda trans masc guys that don’t have surgeries and shave all their body hair’ is shitty and offensive (tho that kind of trans man is totally valid, that not what i mean). Its shitty because one you’re sexualising them either as more childlike or more feminine (both is rude, former is creepy), but its perpetuating the idea that trans men aren’t really men and the best ones are the ones that YOU think still kinda look suitably enough like women.

The Law Of Attraction for Manifesting And Self-Confidence:

Q: Hi! I’ve found your blog not long ago and I am really loving it! I was wondering if you could give me your opinion/advice on how to manifest material things, but also I feel like I’m not too confident about myself and this is reflecting my outcome, but Idk how to change it. Thank you very much :) 

A: I am actually SO excited to answer a question on confidence. I have alot of help to give you, as it’s a very personal topic for me too. Attracting material things is covered at my best in the following post. Digest it and re-visit the page often. Each step will easily attract to you material things. Start with a medium sized goal, and you should have a result within 30 days. (Let me know what manifestations happen as a result of that, as they sure will happen!)

And now, for the key to success, the key to how happy your life will be and the key to how many opportunities come your way: Self-Confidence. Your confidence comes from your concept of yourself. Your concept of yourself was programmed from since before your birth and includes your parents, how much they earned, where they lived, and every thought you were exposed to in your childhood. It is hard to find a single person who has had a perfect image of themselves, therefore. Your concept of yourself is basically opinions that people share and over time they become accepted. An example is the girl that believes she is shy, and her family and friends also “agree”, would never ask out her teenage crush. There is no physical barrier to her doing this; she could walk up to him and she can say the words. But her concept of herself is the psychological reason her legs and mouth wouldn’t coordinate with her. 

You’re right that confidence will affect your outcome. It will affect the level of money you earn, where you live, who you befriend, etc. Here are some exercises that will cause your awareness to grow;

1. Headline a sheet of paper “The Truth About Me!” and write under it as close to this: The energy that made worlds, made me also. I am confident, I believe in myself, I enjoy being me. I know I am worthy of all that I desire. I am powerful and have a magnetic personality.” Read this statement every day. 

2. In the mirror, look into each eye separately and say to yourself “I am confident. I love me.” It will feel funny but its the surest fastest way to communicate with your Soul. 

3. If you were more confident, how would you act? Talk? Dress? Set 30 minutes aside each day and visualize in your imagination all these things. See your friends saying “you’re so much more confident now!”, and “Wow I can’t believe you did that! Where is this confidence coming from? You gotta spill!” etc, etc. The more intensely you do this, the more you’ll notice you start to take action towards that now. 

4. Read Psycho-Cybernetics by Dr Maxwell Maltz. I believe there are copies available on Amazon and PDFs on the internet too. Ignore the title, it is basically a plastic surgeon turned psychologist who wrote about self-confidence. The book is written in a simple style and you’ll really, really love reading it. Trust me. It will help you along your way. 

5. Play a confidence or self-love guided affirmation tape daily. Ideally in bed at night. I found one for you that has binaural beats which means it will stimulate your brain to learn confidence faster: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCJkTXS4LoA

*I now provide private law of attraction e-coaching. To know more please read here.*

That feeling when you’ve heard/sang along to a song enough times to feel tempted to do a cover of it 

A PSA (Public SaikiK (fic) Appeal

Can someone tell me why the fuck there’s such a lack of Saiki Kusuo no Sai Nan fic? DO YOU ALL NOT SEE THE FIC OPPORTUNITIES HERE? Where are my Time-Travel AUs where Saiki goes back in time hoping to regain his peaceful life without his friends only to realize he a) can’t avoid them (It’s set in stone by fate or whatever) or b) he doesn’t want to, and he admits to himself he likes having friends? Where’s there Saiki angst fic about Saiki’s apathy or how he can’t fall in love due to his x-ray vision? Damn it, where are the crossovers! At this point, I’ll even accept a Harry Potter crossover. But like? No crossovers with Bnha, OPM? MP100???? 

No AU’s with personality swaps or fics about Saiki having a breakdown or even fucking Kaidou unlocking powers or something? 

Ooh.. you know what would be really cool? A fic where Dark Reunion is actually real, which could turn out to be horribly tragic or hilariously funny with Kaidou being like “Ha! Told you!” and then cowering, kinda like Usopp. Or those zombie AUs you see in abundance in other fandoms but Saiki just kind of comes in and quickly ends it.

To be fair, there’s a little bit on ff.net and ao3 and a couple of them are damn good! But damn it! The community for it is so good and I want to weep over their Saiki fic!

I’m gonna have to start writing all these myself, aren’t I? If someone can direct me to where all this fic is being held I would be immensely appreciative.

anonymous asked:

It's funny. As a human, I find myself wondering over and over again "what is my purpose?", and the thought of not having one at all utterly terrifies me. What if I am nothing more than a useless glob of meat and bones whose only purpose is to perpetuate itself? How can it be a wonderful thing to have no purpose, and to instead be just a useless meatball?

Purpose? Psh. That’s Homeworld talk, friend.

We aren’t on this rock- or, well, any rock, really- to have a purpose. We’re here to live, and living is experiencing. You could spend every day of your life pickin’ flowers and you’ll still have lived, because you felt something, experienced something, believed in something, even if it was just that you liked flowers.

Don’t be so hard on yourself, friend. 

  • Will: *swears*
  • Mike: *gasps*
  • Mike: Which one of you taught Will that?
  • Lucas:
  • Dustin:
  • Max:
  • Eleven:
  • Mike: *glaring* I just wanna talk.
  • (It is later found that he did not want to "Just Talk")
Tumblr Accent Challenge

TIME TO EMBARRASS MYSELF. I did this quickly bc if I tried to perfect it I would take 500 years.

So yeah, I was tagged by @josiesimblr @neutralsupply and @homesicksims to do this and all of you have such pretty voices I’m breaking the chain with my weird-ass voice rip.

The idea is for anyone who wants to participate to voice record or video themselves going through the following list and answering the questions.

What is your name and/or username?
Where are you from?

pronounce the following words:
- Theatre
- Iron
- Salmon
- Caramel
- Fire
- Water
- New Orleans
- Furniture
- Both
- Again
- Probably
- Alabama
- Lawyer
- Coupon
- Mayonnaise
- Caught
- Naturally
- Envelope
- Twitter
- New York
- Crayon
- Tumblr

How would you address a group of two or more people?
What would you call a sale of unwanted items on your porch, in your yard, etc.?
What do you call a sweetened carbonated beverage?
What do you call your grandparents?
What do you call gym shoes?
Choose book and read a paragraph from it.
Do you speak a second language?.
End the video by saying any 3 words you want.

I tag @nicotinc @numinousxsims @anemoiasim @femmesim @pixeltrashcan @something-wicked-sims and anyone else that wants to do it! Slay me with your voices  ♡ ♡ ♡

anonymous asked:

I got a "talking to" at the haunted house I work at because someone told my boss that I was going around saying I was raped when in reality some dickhole made a rape joke and I said that it wasn't fucking funny because so many people, including myself, have been through it, but ok I'm definitely just randomly talking about something that traumatized me and it's def ok that this dumb fuck made a rape joke

Personal struggle

Me: I need more of Lefou. More headcanons, fanarts, fanfics. I should try to ship st*f*u too, it’s cute, and it will give me more of him. I don’t have to choose the ship, the more, the merrier.

Me: *run into an old gafou fanart* Oh, fuck, nevermind.

anonymous asked:

Bellarke playlist?

Listen, all you had to do was type up two words but you are my favourite person right now.

I have sooooo many songs on my phone that remind me of Bellarke its absolutely ridiculous. I legit sent my friend like 30 Bellarke-y songs because she makes fanvids and wanted material. I got you covered nonny. ;)

I just want it to be noted that a lot of these songs I had in mind for Bellarke following the events of Season 2 or during Season 3, whereas some are specific to Season 4 and others just remind me of Bellarke’s dynamic in general. So I’ll try to point out which belongs where. 

I also did an analysis on certain songs that reminded me of characters/relationships of The 100 back when I first created my Tumblr so there are a few songs in this list that I literally have a full-length analysis of the lyrics and description as to why it reminds me of Bellarke, so I’ll link you in case you are interested why I chose those ones.

1. Run - RHODES (based on Clarke leaving after Season 2)

2. Where’s my love? - Syml (LISTEN I KNOW THIS IS A STYDIA SONG BUT I DON’T WATCH TEEN WOLF SO I HAVE NO CONTEXT FOR IT AND I HEARD IT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN A BELLARKE FANVID SO IF YOU WATCH TEEN WOLF PLEASE TRY TO SEPARATE THIS SONG FROM STYDIA FOR A MOMENT BECAUSE LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE LYRIC IS BELLARKE AF AFTER CLARKE RAN AWAY IN 2X16 I KID YOU NOT)

3. All About You - Birdy

4. Home - RHODES (This one I found after following Season 2 so it is definitely related to Clarke leaving but it is more directly related to the “home theme” regarding Bellarke, so its still very accurate going into Season 4)

5. Armor - Landon Austin (lol i don’t even have this song in my phone but the lyrics make metaphors about war and stuff like that work quite nicely when you make them literal in the universe of The 100)

6. Right Here - Ashes Remain (this one isn’t on my phone either but Bellarke-y lyrics so *shrugs*)

7. Dark Doo Wop - MS MR (This song has a darker vibe but its incredibly fitting in the context of Season 4 - I really like it)

8. One Last Time - Jaymes Young (this song is gorgeous and one of my absolute favourites. It definitely reminds me very specifically of Clarke leaving in Season 2 but it can be related to any of their separations - or future separations - and would still be accurate)

9. You & I - RHODES (feat. the “Together” theme)

10. Shattered - Trading Yesterday (I die every time)

11. Little Do You Know - Alex & Sierra (this song is so Bellarke it’s ridiculous like holy shit)

12. Fragments - Jaymes Young (this song is also so Bellarke it’s ridiculous holy shit)

13. Beautiful Crime - Tamer (I really love this song and its for Bellarke in Season 3A mostly. You can read my analysis on it here if you are interested in the more technical reasons why I believe this song is Bellarke.

14. Somebody - RHODES (this is for Bellarke in Season 3 again, and you can read the analysis I wrote a few months ago here. This song is Bellarke af I promise)

15. I Found - Amber Run (this is mostly based around Clarke and Bellamy separating mid-season two and Clarke’s gradual downward spiral - “and I’ll use you as a warning sign that if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind”. Again, I wrote an analysis on this one here as well.)

16. This Is What It Takes - Shawn Mendes (I think its funny that Shawn was on the show and that The 100 is his favourite show because I enjoy humouring myself with the prospect that he was slightly influenced by Bellarke ;) Anyway this song mainly reminds me of Bellarke a) because of a fanvideo but b) the lines that sa “you don’t have to do this on your own” and “let me be the one to bare your pain” remind me of Bellamy’s “you don’t have to do this alone” from 2x16.)

17. Raise Your Love - RHODES (I just really love RHODES, k?)

18. Neptune - Sleeping At Last (I have so much love for this song and it hurts me)

19. Waves (ACCOUSTIC VERSION) - Dean Lewis (I DON’T WATCH RIVERDALE BUT APPARENTLY THIS SONG IS FROM THERE? ANYWAY I LITERALLY DON’T CARE BECAUSE THIS SONG IS TOTALLY A BELLARKE SONG AND ITS SO BEAUTIFUL AND IT GENUINELY MAKES ME CRY SO PLEASE LISTEN AND THINK OF BELLARKE AND CRY TOO)

20. Pieces - Andrew Belle

21. Mars - Sleeping At Last

22. White Blood - Oh Wonder

23. When It’s All Over - RAIGN

24. Who Am I Living For? - Katy Perry (a very different mood than most of her songs and definitely one of my favourites of hers)

25. Cover Us - Natalie Taylor

26. Light - Sleeping At Last

Okay, nonny. That should be enough. I hope you enjoy!

And for anyone reading this, let me know which ones you liked and what your personal favourite Bellarke songs are because I’m always looking for new music. 

lee daehwi first meeting! AU

summary: in which you are somi’s best friend and you find out that she has a hidden twin brother who you are a fan of 

length: 1.3k

a/n: HIHI so i decided to start a new series which is gonna be a sweet and short one called first meeting! AU with the wanna one members. since it’s really only going to cover your first meeting with the particular member, it’s up to you whether you want to interpret it as romantically or platonic friendship, maybe if the context suits and i get enough requests i could do a part 2 for some in the future? we’ll see but i will be prioritising getting each member done first. but anyways i hope you guys enjoy this first one of my precious baby lee daehwi and look forward to the rest of the members :) 

Originally posted by hitoritabi

  • so you’re in high school 
  • and ever since high school started you became best friends with a girl called somi 
  • you guys had different personalities, you were more on the shy side and she was more outgoing 
  • but somehow you guys clicked and found that you guys had a lot of things to talk about and common interests 
  • also during this time produce 101 is airing and you’re absolutely addicted to the show 
  • and lee daehwi, the first centre literally swooped you off your feet 
  • he was no doubt your bias and you’d been voting for him like crazy everyday 
  • and ofc since somi was your best friend you’d always rant about how cute and talented lee daehwi was and somi would just sigh and roll her eyes sometimes 
  • well one day at school your class is given a project to be completed in pairs and obviously you and somi are a pair 
  • usually you two would complete your work at the library but since the weather was really horrible 
  • you guys decided to head to your place over the weekend 
  • and you guys do that except you dont get the work done 
  • so you guys decide to go to somi’s place sometime after school next week to finish it 
  • and tbh you’ve been very curious about where somi lives
  • even though you guys are best friends you guys always met either in public or at your place
  • you were just super curious as to what her house was like and why she was lowkey secretive about where she lived
  • hMMMMMM
  • so the day before going to somi’s place
  • you guys are having lunch at school and somi is suddenly like: “oh y/n when you come tomorrow, my twin brother will most likely be home visiting” 
  • and u r like
  • “WAIT HANG ON A SECNOD U HAVE A TWIN BROTHER?? SINCE WHEN???” you semi yell when you stand up from your seat 
  • you are surprised and shocked bc ur friend has a twin brother and she never told you 
  • “ssHHHHH be quiet” says somi gesturing you to sit back down 
  • and so you do and say
  • “how come you didnt tell me somi?” while pouting 
  • “well…i guess you never asked whether i had siblings or not” replies somi nervously 
  • “hmm yeah fair enough, well what its like having a twin brother? what’s he like” you ask excitedly
  • you’d  never met anyone that had a twin before and u suddenly find out that your best friend in fact has a twin brother which makes you feel kinda weird and excited 
  • “it’s alright, we’re just like any other sibling pair, he can be slightly annoying sometimes but he’s a good brother overall. i miss him” replies somi looking down 
  • “ohhhhh where is he? does he go to high school here?” you asked wondering if somi’s twin was actually at your school and completely hidden from u 
  • “no he doesn’t”
  • “where does he go then? and what’s his name? what does he look like?” you asked bombarding somi with questions as you were super curious now
  • since somi was one of the prettiest girls in the school you were lowkey thinking maybe somi’s twin is really hot HAHA
  • “i actually can’t say his name but he’s really ugly” says somi laughing
  • “why not????” you ask somi, “is he a spy or something?? with a hidden identity???” 
  • somi shook her head laughing at you as you continued to pester her about her twin 
  • “you’ll see tomorrow when you come over” says somi “i think things might change when you see who it is” as she sighs
  • now you were C U R I O U S as to why somi kept it so secret 
  • and for some odd reason, who somi’s twin brother was was all you thought about for the rest of the day 
  • your thoughts went wild as you thought, what if he’s actually a spy? or illegal? a criminal? someone dangerous? what if he’s the youngest ceo in our country?
  • and for some seriously odd reason you were excited to meet somi’s twin brother 
  • the next day you head to somi’s house with the address typed in google maps 
  • you rang the doorbell and somi opened the door
  • as you stepped in you saw how the house wasn’t too big nor was it too small it was quite spacious and clean and very cozy 
  • you saw some baby pictures placed up on a shelf of somi and her twin; you recognised somi easily and the twin brother was really cute too 
  • you guys take a seat on the big couch and start working on the project when suddenly you hear footsteps come down the stairs 
  • you were super focused on your work tbh so you didn’t look up 
  • until a voice says 
  • “hey sis is this your friend that always talks about me?” 
  • and the voice is SO FAMILIAR 
  • and you’re suddenly afraid to look up 
  • you do recognise that voice but no way it just couldn’t be 
  • silence 
  • “yep it is” says somi, “look at the state she is in now” 
  • your entire body was frozen and wouldn’t react and you were looking at the ground
  • “she’s so cute like that” says the voice
  • you feel your cheeks go bright red and your heart suddenly beating extraordinarily fast 
  • you close your eyes and tell yourself you are dreaming 
  • you take a deep breath and look up 
  • and you are met with a pair of the most gorgeous eyes you have ever seen; one eye was monolid and the other was double lidded but honestly that was what was attractive about him 
  • it was truly lee daehwi lmao sorry i made it so so dramatic haha
  • he was smiling down at your with the sweetest and cutest smile 
  • “hello y/n! it’s nice to finally meet you!” says daehwi cheerfully 
  • “u-h-h hello– daehwi-ssi” you stutter nervously as you die internally 
  • daehwi laughed and his laughter was like a beautiful melody
  • “no need to be formal y/n, we’re the same age! you don’t look great right now, i’ll grab a glass of water for you” says daehwi as he heads to the kitchen 
  • when he’s gone you turn to somi straight away 
  • “DUDE WHY DIDNT U TELL ME DAEHWI WAS UR BROTHER?? i wouldn’t have fangirled over him to you and its sooooo embarrassing” 
  • “chill y/n it was actually pretty funny, you totally have a crush on my twin, look at ur face” says somi laughing 
  • “sTOP omg this is all ur fault im so embarrassed, i embarrassed myself in front of my bias” you say as your bury your face in your hands
  • “seriously y/n this is your chance to talk to him and i don’t usually say this about that idiot but he’s actually a very nice guy, so don’t be nervous anymore” 
  • you take deep breaths and try to collect yourself before daehwi comes back 
  • when he does you’re much calmer even though you still feel like you are living in a dream 
  • “here’s your water” says daehwi as he hands over the glass of water
  • both your finger trips lightly made contact and you felt your heart racing again 
  • “thanks daehwi” you say giving him a shy smile 
  • he asks what the project is about and starts helping you guys and in no time you guys are done 
  • and daehwi is super friendly and outgoing so in no time you get really comfortable around him
  • and realise that HES JUST A REALLY NICE AND KIND HUMAN like any human and not some “far unreachable star that’s like a god” 
  • you find out he has cute habits and loves cleaning and fashion and wants to make people happier through his music
  • you guys talk for the next two hours getting to know each other and you tell him that you’ll continue to support him on produce 101 and he’s super thankful 
  • at this rate somi had literally fallen asleep and is taking a nap on the sofa 
  • he opens up about how it’s hard to meet people’s expectations and that he doesn’t want to disappoint others and you guys have really deep conversations 
  • and in no time it’s already dark outside 
  • and daehwi even offers to walk you to the bus stop 
  • and he puts on a black hoodie with the hood up just in case ppl recognise him anyone watching school 2017 bc i love x’s outfit hehe
  • you guys reach the bus stop
  • “y/n it was nice meeting you and i was able to get my mind off things thanks to you” 
  • “no worries daehwi, i’m so glad to have met you and you’re just as wonderful and kind as i’d imagined you to be” you reply cringing at your own cheesiness
  • daehwi laughs again as he ruffles your hair “you’re so kind too” 
  • “anyways y/n will you do me a favour and not tell anyone that i am somi’s twin? i dont want things to get hard for her if people know about our sibling relationship” 
  • you swoon, he was even so nice to his sister 
  • you nod “of course”
  • the bus comes and you guys wave goodbye 
  • you couldn’t believe that you met daehwi and got so close to him 
  • he was so nice and down to earth 
  • you lowkey wondered if you’d ever be able to see him again since he was already famous and busy with filming 
  • you convinced yourself that he was probably this nice to everyone and you were really lucky because you were his sister’s best friend 
  • suddenly your phone buzzed and you received a message from an unknown number 
  • “hello y/n, it’s daehwi - i got your number from somi. that’s okay right? next week i’ll be back in town again, so do you wanna hang out? just the two of us this time ;)”

efgqkejfhfjhjf i hope you guys liked this?? i have no idea what the response is gonna be like and lmao i made somi and daehwi twins bc they could totally be siblings :) i realised i probably rant too much lmaooo so let me know what you guys think as i’m always open to feedback and thoughts about my work :) please also look forward to my next one in this series!