1032) all my life i thought i was straight. then i went to college and promptly fell for a girl, head over heels. after that, guys were like… nothing. i mean they’re cool and all but all of my very minimal desire to date any male specimen decreased from 0.5 to 0. yet the idea that i might be gay still confuses me, maybe because i’ve romanticized the idea of being gay to something that i am not. like every day, i have these “tests” set forth for myself, and if i don’t pass them, i’m not “gay enough.” see that hot girl on the street? why am i not turned on? or why am i not really butch? why do i not have tons of female celeb crushes? why do i still get a little blushy around certain guys (though i’d never date them)? yeah, i have a massive crush on a girl and think girls are hella pretty and i’d love to have my own cute girlfriend but i still don’t feel gay because i feel like there’s supposed to be some sort of rite of passage that i will never go through.