but it looks....really bad

anonymous asked:

How are you doing today?

Well the day just started but I woke up early and got some money from my mom, my hair is fly, I ate a tuna sub, some guy on the bus was staring at me though and lately there’s been a rise in crime. The other day my friends and I were walking close to my school and we heard 4 gunshots that were really close by and everybody in the area started panicking but my friend was like “those probably werent gunshots” and then I got this really bad feeling like when I looked at my cat and I knew she was dying and I started crying, and then some sirens started wailing all over, like they were coming from 3 directions at once. And then a couple days before that there was a shooting at the city mall. And on the same day just outside of the mall there was another shooting but this one was police brutality, some black guy was pulled over and shot in the driver’s seat while his girlfriend watched. Lately I’ve been hearing gunshots in more places though, idk what’s going on. I heard some this morning and more police sirens while I was going to school. And then that guy was just staring at me. I was looking to the front of the bus to see where we were going and I stopped paying attention to what my eyes were doing and realized a minute later that some guy at the front of the bus was making eye contact with me. For those of you who don’t take public transit, the general unspoken rule is that everyone looks to the front of the bus so none of us make eye contact. I was at the back of the bus and he was at the front. It’s not like he was looking at something because the back doesn t have any windows and it’s just a couple of kids and me back there. So I looked away but then I looked back a couple of seconds later and he was still staring. By the end of the ride he was still staring. Idk maybe he was tryna figure out if I’m a boy or a girl, I used to get those stares all the time, but now for the most part I pass. Anyway I’m skipping all my classes because I can’t fucking handle this shit today like why aren’t there schools for people with painful social anxiety such as myself? Despite how much I talk about skipping I’m unusually smart, I used to have an identic memory before my parents beat it out of me so now it’s just a really really good memory that doesn’t function when I phase out (which idk what mental illness that belongs to but it’s basically when even when I know that I’m not paying attention and I’m trying to pay attention with all of my energy I literally can’t focus on my surroundings enough to understand them and my body goes in auto pilot) anyway my friend and I went to my work cuz it’s closed and we wanted to skip but then when we went back to school to pick up another friend so we could go to ihop there were 3 gunshots nearby and now were walking to ihop real fast. Anyway I hope I’m not murdered soon

Losing the motivation for pre-interview dinners faster than I’m losing the motivation for interviews themselves.

I really just want to put on pajamas and get in bed but I feel like it’s a really bad look to not show up to a pre-interview dinner for a program in my home city.

I GET TRIGGERED WHEN PEOPLE AROUND ME GET DRUNK AND ITS SO FRUSTRATING I FEEL SO AWFUL AROUND PEOPLE AND I JUST LOOK LIKE IM PISSY ALL THE TIME BUT I JUST FEEL SO MUCH ANGER AND SADNESS I FEEL EMPTY INSIDE AND MY HEAD GETS FOGGY AND I JUST GO INTO OUTSPACE AND IM JUST SWRILLING IN MY OWN HEAD OF DISGUST WITH EVERYTHING

But it’s when I’m not drinking so i really look like a buzzkill it just gives me bad feelings from my childhood I want to run away and be held but no one can do that and I feel the most alone

MARECAL!!

hey guys i tried making a manip it’s really bad and looks hella fake but i did it on my computer w picmonkey and it didn’t go well (as you can see matt daddario’s nose/chin) so yeah forgive me but lmk if I should make more (better) ones!! OH and for other people too so yeah! ANd I kind of rushed it bc he still has the parabatai rune-i guess mare and cal can be parabatai idk

@vaveyard

  • Namjoon: I've had a really bad day.
  • Seokjin: Hey, now, look on the bright side.
  • Namjoon:
  • Seokjin: No, literally, look towards your left, Hoseok's sitting right there.