but it isnt what i wanted

anonymous asked:

With Mafia Yurio I just imagined like him stealing Otabek's gun, stuffing it in his underwear, then telling Otabek that if he wants gun back… he's gonna have to get it himself.

So, with Mafia AU, Yuri kind of has a problem with taking either Beka or someone else’s gun and and trying to keep it for himself. Grandpa Plisetsky doesn’t want him having a gun of his own – he’s taught Yuri to shoot, and Yuri is good at it, but everyone knows after that incident that Yuri is a little trigger happy and none of them really want him having a gun of his own, yet. Otabek’s paid to hold and use the guns, after all.

Yuri hates this. He hates feeling like people all look down on him, or feel like he’s not capable, and just a little mafia princess. More than anything, Yuri wants to make his grandfather proud and show him that he can do this, he can be the heir that he always wanted.

The solution is easy for Yuri, though - he sneaks guns to practice with, or to keep for himself, convinced that he needs one of his own. Otabek doesn’t always need to protect him. He hides them in his room under his pillows or in his drawers, buried under furs and silk where he thinks no one will look.

Otabek finds them though, eventually. It’s hard to hide the cold metal he feels under Yuri’s pillow when his hand slides up to grab a fistful of that silky blond hair as they’re kissing. It makes Otabek stop dead, pulling back to yank the gun out from under the pillow - Yuri scowling up at him, already on the defensive with lips swollen and red from their rough kiss and his robe falling open. Beka’s calm, though, he’s always calm, and he quietly unloads the gun without a word, turning it about in his hands as he sighs down at Yuri, running a hand up his chest before tugging on his hair as Yuri mewls, asking quietly what do you need this for, kitten?

And Yuri’s all silence, biting his lips and huffing, peeking up at Beka from under thick lashes as shame burns his cheeks seeing how hurt Otabek looks. It isn’t what he wanted at all, stealing that gun. All he wanted to do was take care of things himself. He just wanted to take care of Beka for a change.

anonymous asked:

47!!

fUNNY STORY ACTUALLY OKAY SO IM PRETTY SURE I WAS HALF ASLEEP WHEN I GOT THIS REQUEST AND LIKE ADDED IT TO THE LIST ALONG WITH THE LINE BC I VANT REMEMBER IF THIS LINE WAS 47 OR 21 BUT I HAVE IT DOWN AS 47 SO EVEN IF IT ISNT HERE IT IS:

47- “how can you still look so attractive while crying"

PART TWO OF “I NEED SOME TIME”

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it’s been three weeks since you’ve seen or spoken to shawn, you wanted to reach out to him but you honestly didn’t know what to say.

he hasn’t tried contacting you, but did you blame him? you denied his marriage proposal.

well technically you said you needed time. but as you thought more and more about it, you knew it was too early to get married.

that didn’t mean you wanted shawn out of your life, or that you wanted to stop going out with him. you wanted to continue the relationship because you could definitely see yourself marrying him one day.

“y/n,” your best friend opened your bedroom door. “seriously just go talk to him. you’ve been sitting here for three weeks.”

you shook your head, “no he probably doesn’t want to see me anymore.”

“y/n,” she sighed. “you have to talk to him. it’s been three weeks, it’s time.”

you continued to stare out the window, particularly a couple who happened to be walking past. they looked so happy. you could’ve been that happy, but you ruined it.

you hated knowing she was right, you needed to talk to shawn at some point or else you would probably be in the state for a while. god, who knew how shawn was taking this whole thing?

“okay, you’re right. i’m going to go right now.” you say, getting up from your position at your bay window and making your way to the bathroom.

once you threw on some decent clothes, and fixed your hair and brushed your teeth, you grabbed your car keys and drove to shawn’s house.

the whole drive there you were deciding if you really wanted to go there or not, shawn was probably furious with you and honestly you wouldn’t be shocked if he never wanted to see you again.

you were lying if you said that wouldn’t hurt. even though you denied him, you still love him and would like to see where this relationship will go.

you found yourself in front of his driveway faster than you expected. you sat in your car for a while before deciding to finally go up to the door. it was now or never.

taking a deep breath, you knocked on the door a few times. no answer.

“shawn?” you asked, hoping maybe he was standing on the other side of the door.

after receiving no answer, you decided to let yourself in with the spare key under the door mat.

luckily he seemed to be the only one home since his car was the only one in the driveway. you pushed open the door to reveal shawn standing about a foot away from it.

your eyes widened as you took in the sight of him. his hair was a disheveled mess, and his eyes were red and puffy. they began to water again at the sight of you.

“y/n,” he said, letting out a shaky breath. “uh, what are you doing here?”

your heart broke at the sight of him.

“you should, uh, you should go.” he said, scratching the back of his neck. his voice was shaky, meaning he was about to cry again. he had never wanted you to see him cry.

“shawn, we need to talk about what happened.” you said, walking towards him. every step you took toward him, he stepped back.

“there’s nothing to talk about,”

“shawn,” you stepped forward again. this time, shawn didn’t take a step away. you grabbed his hand and cupped his chin, forcing his tear filled eyes to look at you.

“you know i love you right?”

he nodded, “but it’s too early to make a commitment like that.” he mumbled, tears were beginning to stream down his face. “i know, i know, i moved way to fast and probably scared you away.”

he effortlessly removed himself from your grip and turned away, making his way to his room. you followed, knowing this conversation was well from over.

“y/n, just go.” he cried, flopping onto his bed face first into his pillow.

“hey,” you soothed, taking a seat next to him and rubbing his back. “you didn’t scare me away shawn. i’m here aren’t i?”

“i knew i should’ve just gone with plan A, i shouldn’t have done it.” he exclaimed.

you ran your hand through his hair, trying your absolute hardest to comfort him. you knew you also had to keep your distance since you did break his heart three weeks ago.

after a few more minutes, he finally sat up. forcing himself to look at you. all you wanted to do was hold him and tell him everything was going to be okay, but you honestly didn’t know. maybe he didn’t want to continue the relationship, maybe it was time to go your separate ways.

“how can you still look so attractive while crying?” you said, speaking before you thought. you covered your hand with your mouth. “sorry.”

shawn let out a weak chuckle, “its
okay.” he took a deep breath before speaking again.

“look y/n, i hope this doesn’t scare you away but before i proposed that night i spent so long debating weather to do that or just give you the promise ring i bought. looking back i don’t know why i didn’t pick the damn promise ring, that would’ve been so much better.”

you weren’t sure if he was talking to himself or to you, because most of the time he sounded almost like he was scolding himself.

“shawn, it’s okay honestly.” you smiled. “maybe we moved a bit too fast.”

he nodded, “just a bit.”

“but,” you started, lacing your fingers together. “if that promise ring is still an option, i would love it.”

you knew it was a long shot to ask that considering the position of your relationship, but it never hurt to try.

his eyes widened, “oh! yeah, uh hold on, let me grab it.”

you laughed as he rummaged through his drawers to find the small box.

“wait, wait,” you interrupted him. “you bought a promise ring and an engagement ring?”

he returned with a small white pandora box in his hand, “yes. i may have got a little over excited.”

you laughed as he opened the box, revealing a beautiful princess crown ring.

“i’m not sure if i need to make a speech, i kinda did that already.”

you smiled as he slid the ring into your finger.

“thank you shawn, this is perfect.”

he let out a sigh of relief, “thank god.”

you smiled, quickly kissing him. happy that you have your boyfriend back.

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yeah this post literally doesnt inlcude any information on whats going on because i also dont know whats going on since im trying to make a story on the go but i guess i wont since i dont get any ideas id like to do soooo ima wont continue dat sorta almost started story???

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anonymous asked:

fun ask: if you could talk to a member of bts who would you want to talk to and about what?

this is the hardest question i have gotten in a long while what is this :-)

‘fun‘ ask my ass

jk i think this is a fun question n id love to read other ppl responses to this too so pls comment on this ask if u have any ideassss!! ok? good

this can get long so..

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anonymous asked:

i came back to bap after leaving for a year bc busy and honestly? every member seemed to be moving forward music wise except for himchan. like bap is a music group so whats the point of him? no dont come at me with he takes care of the members bullshit. i mean music wise.

a whole no mercy title track exist. he is also involved with wake me up to a certain extent.

releasing music… (i assume you’re asking why he lacks the solo tracks), honestly we dont even know anything that goes on behind the scene.

maybe not every member have the opportunity to do the music they want? maybe music wise they arent able to fit it in with the music the group is doing? maybe the music he wants to create isnt line up to what ts wants atm? (genre, lyrical content, popularity etc) so dont conclude anything just yet.

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when i saw the end of the preview where pidge was roasting the other paladins i couldnt get this out of my head lmao I JUST NEED BI LANCE

and everyone in the room knew that by “boy” he means keith ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°)

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Because Yuri and Otabek are the John and Chrissy of social media and i’m too tired to make legit fanart anymore 

bonus they banter on social media while sitting next one another 

For Otayuri Week Day 2 pretends i didn’t skip out on a day cus it was spent finishing my 100086423 word essay also excuse my ugly handwriting

The Romance Scene I Wanted with Fenris:

Soft kiss, give him a backrub so he can relax, tell him he’s great, cuddle with armour on, he’s not ready and Hawke doesn’t push, a slow romance that’s about trust, Fenris opens up in all cutscenes after this and his constant tension eases.

The Romance Scene I Got:

SLAM Fenris against the wall, biting kisses, Hawke tops, Fenris has flashbacks midway through and HAwke doesn’t even notice, Hawke passes out and Fenris stays up having panic attacks about repressed memories and Hawke is personally offended?? Fenris breaks up with Hawke because wtf wtf WTF HAWKE

im really so, so fucking tired of the “um actually young children can be asexual” discourse… like we’re talking people saying that preteens and younger can be asexual, and by extent other prepubescent children are sexual. like what the fuck is wrong with you all??? do you not get how fucking weird it is that youre all insisting that your average elementary schooler has a sexuality??

every post on it i see is like “bbbbut when i was a little kid all the other kids wanted to kiss people and got crushes on people and i didnt understand it because i was asexual” like no you stupid fuck its because children experience crushes in really variable ways, and not every child does. other kids getting puppy love crushes or being curious about kissing people isnt fucking sexual?? do you really think thats what it is?

like sorry but kids under like 10 literally DO NOT start experiencing sexuality unless theyve been sexually abused, outside of extremely unusual cases. they might be aware of sex or curious about it, but children that age do not experience sexual attraction. 

you all insisting on labelling the (nonexistent) sexualities of prepubescent children or even some young teens is fucking nasty and backwards.. its no wonder your community fucks so many kids over by telling them theyre asexual for not experiencing sexual attraction at like? fucking 12 or something and then making them feel like theyre gross for it once they develop it later

i just want renjun and chenle to know how brave and strong they are for deciding to follow their dreams and leave their home country at such a young and scary age to learn a language they don’t know and be so far from family and friends and have to start over again they deserve so much love for being strong amazing boys