but it is from '81

Despite all the talk about how powerful Scanlan is and how he could probably curb stomp any other member of VM, it never really clicked how badly that could go until last night.

This isn’t, to be fair, the first time Scanlan has used his ridiculously high charisma for questionable purposes. I remember being furious when he pulled the modify memory on Percy (and so excited when Kima saved against it later on). But up until now he’s used his power for good, or at least for (mostly) harmless amusement. Casting Friends on Percy to destroy the Pepperbox probably saved his soul (I don’t want to assume but I think “the cold nugget in your chest disappears” is probably a good sign); the talk with Craven Edge (and subsequent lying) was intended to discover what was up with Grog, even if the situation escalated before anything was done. 

Modifying Jarett’s memory, on the other hand, was neither amusing nor harmless.

I’ve been trying to put my finger on why exactly it bothers me so much. It’s not that I don’t think it makes for a good story. On the contrary, I trust Sam more than is probably healthy, because he plays the long game like nobody else (except Matt). Diving into the serious side of Scanlan’s character is everything I wanted and more. I can’t wait to see where this goes, and what Kaylie has to say, and what Pike has to say, and what the rest of Vox Machina has to say. But also, given Scanlan’s ridiculously high charisma stat, it’s essentially going to require him to come clean of his own volition to get there. That’s my hangup, I think.

Listen. Drugs are dangerous. We know that. (Part of my anxiety 100% comes from this character having a prominent position in this genre of media and going headfirst down a self-destructive path without even stopping to consider the consequences, but that’s a standard problem of media that requires one to trust the audience, which I do. But, still. The team mom in me worries. Don’t do drugs, kids.) 

We also know Scanlan has no idea what he’s doing, and he’s putting Jarett in harm’s way. That doesn’t sit well with me either, but it’s a great marker of how affected Scanlan is by… whatever’s affecting him (death, I would imagine, but I don’t want to put words in his mouth). I’d go so far as to say this could herald an alignment shift, but it’s only been one episode so calling that now seems a little excessive (though I don’t think I’d categorize this as chaotic good behavior).

But by far, the most unsettling thing was watching everyone else realize oh, shit, this is a Real Thing, because until Scanlan wants to deal with it, it won’t be––it’ll take some lucky rolls for anyone to beat his deception (that chance-based narrative, y’all, I love it). This story about a found family has rested, for as long as we’ve been watching, on a foundation of trust––bad things happen to the characters but they talk to each other about it; even Grog with Craven Edge sought out council. Scanlan trying to deal with this on his own has me immensely worried, because it’s dangerous, and isolating, and plays against the standard MO of Vox Machina.

Which, of course, makes for great storytelling and I’m happily along for the ride. But I’m also more unsettled by this than anything else happening in-game right now because of this alteration to the standard (i.e. open and even confrontational) inter-party dynamics. I guess that’s what really bothers me: that VM doesn’t know what’s happening. I’m afraid it’s going to take something going very wrong for anyone to be able to get past Scanlan’s defenses, and I hate seeing them hurt. I trust Sam and Matt to tell this story, and I’m wholly invested (if this wall of text didn’t make that clear), but man. I’m worried about Scanlan Shorthalt.


Jayne Mansfield’s Pink Palace

In November 1957, shortly before her marriage to Mickey Hargitay, Mansfield bought a 40-room Mediterranean-style mansion formerly owned by Rudy Vallée at 10100 Sunset Boulevard in Holmby Hills, Los Angeles Much of the investment to buy the house came from the $81,340 ($685,318 in 2016 dollars) she inherited from her maternal grandfather Elmer Palmer. Mansfield had the house painted pink, with cupids surrounded by pink fluorescent lights, pink furs in the bathrooms, a pink heart-shaped bathtub, and a fountain spurting pink champagne, and then dubbed it the “Pink Palace”. Hargitay, a plumber and carpenter before getting into bodybuilding, built a pink heart-shaped swimming pool. Mansfield decorated the Pink Palace by writing to furniture and building suppliers requesting free samples. She received over $150,000 ($1,263,803 in 2016 dollars) in free merchandise, paying only $76,000 ($640,327 in 2016 dollars) for the mansion itself. It was still a large sum, when the average cost of a house at the time was under $7,500 ($63,190 in 2016 dollars). The Pink Palace was sold and its subsequent owners have included Ringo Starr, Cass Elliot and Engelbert Humperdinck. In 2002, Humperdinck sold it to developers, and the house was demolished in November of that year. (x)

I know many of you don’t know many Brazilian Football Clubs, and that probably the most part of you never heard about Chapecoense. But I’m Brazilian and, even Chapecoense not being my team, I think they were amazing.

These guys came to the first division of our Championship in 2013, since then they are in our Série A. In 3 years, these guys went from arriving in Série A to Sudamericana Finalists. Yes… Finalists.

And today, this team, this group, that was going to play the most important game in their lives, suffered a terrible accident. The airplane that they were, going to Colombia, crashed. 81 people were inside the airplane, only 5 survived. From the 5, 3 were players, one was a journalist and the other was a crew member.

Please, pray for the players, their families, friends, supporters of the club… PRAY FOR CHAPECOENSE.



I just realized I signed an image twice, and that one of the signatures is half done?? lmao

Also kinda late but well I get to post it in the afternoon, i guess ppl with different timezones can see this? I wanna post another one later today but at this point whatever happens happens

Part 81

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عن أبي هريرة رضي الله عنه، عن الرسول صلى الله عليه وسلم قال: “ إِنَّ اللَّهَ خَلَقَ الرَّحْمَةَ يَوْمَ خَلَقَهَا مِائَةَ رَحْمَةٍ، فَأَمْسَكَ عِنْدَهُ تِسْعًا وَتِسْعِينَ رَحْمَةً، وَأَرْسَلَ فِي خَلْقِهِ كُلِّهِمْ رَحْمَةً وَاحِدَةً، فَلَوْ يَعْلَمُ الْكَافِرُ بِكُلِّ الَّذِي عِنْدَ اللَّهِ مِنَ الرَّحْمَةِ لَمْ يَيْأَسْ مِنَ الْجَنَّةِ، وَلَوْ يَعْلَمُ الْمُؤْمِنُ بِكُلِّ الَّذِي عِنْدَ اللَّهِ مِنَ الْعَذَابِ لَمْ يَأْمَنْ مِنَ النَّارِ “ صحيح البخاري حديث ٦٤٦٩

Narrated Abu Huraira: I heard Allah’s Messenger (ﷺ) saying, “Verily Allah created Mercy. The day He created it, He made it into one hundred parts. He withheld with Him ninety-nine parts, and sent its one part to all His creatures. Had the non-believer known of all the Mercy which is in the Hands of Allah, he would not lose hope of entering Paradise, and had the believer known of all the punishment which is present with Allah, he would not consider himself safe from the Hell-Fire.“ Sahih al-Bukhari 6469
In-book reference : Book 81, Hadith 58
USC-MSA web (English) reference : Vol. 8, Book 76, Hadith 476

Podcast Rec List

So I figured I’d make a list with everything I’ve downloaded since I started listening to podcasts. Favorites have an asterisk (*).

Audio drama (Fantasy)

Hello From the Magic Tavern - An improv comedy podcast hosted by Arnie, a man who accidentally passed through a portal into the land of “Foon”. Every week Arnie interviews patrons of the Vermilion Minotaur tavern including monsters, wizard, and adventurers.

Audio drama (Horror)

Alice Isn’t Dead* - A truck driver searches across America for the wife she had long assumed was dead, encountering not-quite-human serial murderers, towns literally lost in time, and a conspiracy that goes way beyond one missing woman along the way. This podcast is produced by the same people who brought you Welcome to Night Vale.

Archive 81 - These are the recovered tapes of missing archivist Daniel Powell, posted by a well-meaning friend hoping to locate him.
Audio drama (Pseudo-radio show)

King Falls AM*** - (sci-fi/fantasy) A late-night talk show from quaint town of King Falls that is frequently interrupted by peculiar happenings and paranormal events. This is my absolute favorite podcast, so you should DEFINITELY give it a try!

Welcome to Night Vale - (cosmic horror) Community radio updates for the small desert town of Night Vale, featuring local weather, news, announcements from the Sheriff’s Secret Police, mysterious lights in the night sky, dark hooded figures with unknowable powers, and cultural events.

Audio drama (Sci-Fi)

The Bright Sessions* - The recorded therapy sessions of Dr. Bright, who provides support for patients with unusual talents. ((It’s more of a paranormal drama that a true sci-fi)).

Kakos Industries - Corporate announcements for Kakos Industries, a corporation dedicated to helping you ‘do evil better’.

Pending: I either haven’t started these or haven’t listened to enough to categorize them, but most have been recommended by multiple sources so check them out!

ars Paradoxica -  A journey through spacetime and the Cold War with Dr. Sally Grissom, a physicist send back in time when an experiment goes awry. I’ve only listened to half of the first episode, but it seems super interesting, so I’ll be listening to it more this summer.

Within the Wires -  The podcast takes the form of an instructional audio guide in the form of Relaxation Cassettes, which unravel to tell a deeper, more surreal, more personal story about the listener. IDK, maybe you’ll even feel more relaxed. Only one episode has come out, but they come every other Tuesday, so I’m ready to delve deeper into the alternate dimesnsion.

If there’s a podcast you like that’s missing from this list, please drop me a line (message, ask, etc. etc.) and I’ll check it out! Enjoy


Raúl Esparza drawing Nr. 81: Valentine Coverly from Arcadia.
I was simply STUNNED about the huge response I got after posting the sketch. 😄 People love Valentine and the red sweater and I do too, so it was time to “honor” him with a drawing. 💞❤️😘
The next one is another Barba, followed by Bobby.


The Lost Boy

Due to the nature of Jeffrey Dahmer’s full confession, there is little room for conspiracy theories - but because of the graphic nature of his crimes, the theories in circulation are not without any support. One prominent theory that still holds weight among some, is that Dahmer kidnapped, raped, then decapitated and discarded the head of Adam Walsh, a six year old boy from Florida. Some of the notoriety in this particular case stems from the fact that Adam Walsh was the son of America’s Most Wanted host, John Walsh.

At the time the murder occurred, Dahmer had recently been discharged from the Army and, in an effort to avoid his father’s disappointment by returning home to Ohio, he decided to take a one-way ticket to Miami, Florida. While there, he worked at a subway shop and stayed in a hotel, drinking his days away until he ran out if money and began sleeping on the beach. This escape would only last 6 months, from March to September of ‘81.

In July of 1981, Adam Walsh was last seen at Hollywood Mall with his mother, who had only been absent momentarily, asking about a lamp and leaving Adam to play video games at a kiosk with some other boys. An argument separated the boys and Adam was never seen alive again. Two weeks later, the presumed (DNA and forensic testing was in its infancy - something important to note when considering any details regarding this case) head of young Adam was found in a canal by a fisherman, his death was determined to be by asphyxiation. His body was never found.

Two years later, in ‘83, Ottis Toole, an inmate and previous drifter, serving time for seemingly random homicides of no specific MO, confessed to the kidnapping and killing of Adam Walsh, with grisly details. According to Toole, he offered Adam toys and sweets to lure him to his vehicle, where he planned to attempt to brainwash him into thinking he was his own son. However, he quickly became annoyed with the child and hit him in the face to stop his sobbing and did not stop until Adam was unconscious. At this point, realizing Adam he was still alive, he strangled him with his seatbelt, decapitated him with a machete, raped his corpse, and burned his body, keeping the head for a couple days before ‘remembering’ he had it, and tossing it into the nearby canal. Although he later recanted these claims, a renowned friend/partner - serial killer Henry Lee Lucas - substantiated them in similar detail. It is said that Toole confessed to the murder once again on his deathbed in 1996.

Due to the forensic limitations in the 80’s, in addition to police incompetence - having lost the entire vehicle Toole drove, as well as the DNA evidence included therein, and the machete used in the incident - neither Dahmer nor Toole were attributed to the murder for another 25+ years.

Dahmer, up until his death in 1994, maintained that he was never interested in children (his youngest victim was twice Adam’s age, plus a couple more years) nor did he commit any homicides during his short stay in Florida. Although witnesses claimed to have seen a man in fatigues, Dahmer insisted he did not wear these after his leave from the military - his clothes were shipped home to Ohio, without him. He also stated that he has never been to Hollywood Mall, which was 30 minutes away from his job at the sub shop. Infamous for his lengthy and detailed confession regarding his 17 murders, Dahmer only ever claimed he would accept credit for Walsh’s death if it would get him the death penalty, but still that he did not actually commit it.

In 2008, over ten years after Toole had died in prison from liver failure, investigators finally closed the case - Toole was officially the murderer of Adam Walsh. Walsh’s father has expressed gratitude for the closure and does not personally believe Dahmer was ever a valid suspect. Police now claim that Toole was always the primary suspect, but that they could not prove it without the forensic backup lost. The case was settled by previously unknown connections.


Hot in episode 81 when he’s determined

Hot in episode 82 when he’s skeptical

Hot in episode 83 when he’s on the back foot

Hot in episode 83 when he’s strategising

Hot in episode 83 when he’s glaring

Hot in episode 83 when he’s shocked

Hot in episode 84 when he’s angry

Adorable in episode 84 when he’s dubious