but it blew me away!

Can we talk about Finn for a minute? I keep reading that Finn gets described as “flat” or “boring” by some in the Star Wars fandom. Obviously everyone’s entitled to their opinion. But I’ll tell you, from my perspective? He’s one of the most unique, charismatic Star Wars characters out there. 

1. Finn humanized stormtroopers. Made us experience panic and terror at the terrible choices they have to make. Stormtroopers, who were practically a joke in the other movies - white plastic statutes that existed just to get shot and clatter into a pile.

2. Finn’s flight with Poe Dameron is an explosion of emotion. That scene blew me away. Both of them had so much fun with it, and you can see Finn feel the real impact of having a name, rather than being a number. 

3. Finn is profoundly empathetic and protective. Hell, I swear he cares about BB8 when he has to describe the plane crash, and Poe’s “death”, to the droid. 

4. Finn shows tremendous range in this movie. Traumatized (stormtrooper battle), jocular (”you got a boyfriend?”), joyous (”that’s one hell of a pilot”), wistful (”Take care of yourself. Please.”), angry (ligthsaber battle), I could go on. I like Luke Skywalker as much as the next fan, but I think Finn shows more range in this one film than Luke did in all three. 

5. Finn’s story arc is powerful, subversive, and inspiring. Going from a number to a name. Finding a family after being taken from his home as a child. Turning his back on the First Order and then realizing he needs to go further, and embrace the cause of the Resistance.

6. Finn’s relationship with Rey. I’m gonna get choked up about this, so I’ll just say John Boyega is an amazing actor, and I loved every scene he had with Daisy Ridley. 

Anyway that’s my fangirling contribution. To me, Finn’s amazing. 

Gif courtesy of @kit-harington

AGUST D

there are so many important messages that suga is trying to convey to his listeners through his mixtape and im sure that if you’ve read the lyric translations, you definitely know what i mean. i am seriously blown away that we’ve been fans of bts for what, 3 years now? for 3 years, ARMYs have easily labelled yoongi as ‘lazy’, given him that ‘idagf’ image, and yet, we were oblivious to so many of his hardships. we’ve always known that he’s hardworking, more quiet than the other members, and more reflective, but this mixtape honestly blew me away because yoongi’s gone through so much in his idol career and we had no idea. 

first off, he touches on a sensitive topic that idols don’t speak openly about: mental health. he raps about seeing a psychiatrist, battling with depression, self-hate, experiencing social phobia since age 18, putting on a front, and loneliness. His entire song “The Last” really touches on this:

a word said like habit, oh, I don’t give a shit, I don’t give a fuck
those words are all words I use to hide my weak self
that time I want to erase, that’s right, the memories I want to erase of that day I had that concert
I was afraid of people, so I hid in the bathroom and stared at myself

and in “So Far Away”:

I’m in so much pain and lonliness but people around me keeping telling me to regain my consciousness
I try to vent my anger but I only got myself so what’s the point of venting my anger
I’m scared to open my eyes everyday and start breathing

these lyrics from ‘At Dawn’ also illustrate this:

I pretend I’m not lonely, I pretend I’m not suffering
I pretend I’m okay for no reason, meaninglessly I pretend to be strong
don’t come over the wall I’ve put up in front of myself
don’t throw me off this island in this wide sea 

he also talks about his struggles during his trainee days and i dont think he’s ever talked in depth about this period of his life. this mixtape gives us some insight about him moving to seoul, getting a part time job to afford the cost of living in the city, going to school dead tired after work, and still training with big hit to live out his dreams

was I needy for success? No just needy for money
it’d been a long time since I forgot the words ‘in style’
I practiced at night and went to my part time job at dawn
then even if I dragged that tired body to school I just slept
I became 20 that way, the sight of the graduation room was suspicious

and the fact that he admits he puts up a front:

I hide the self that’s behind my defensive posture
I hide myself completely like I’ve become a criminal, always
I can’t even take one step outside the dorm that’s like a prison 

all of these are reasons im so moved. because it really highlights how idols only show one side of themselves to the camera, and fans can never really know them fully. we only know the version of bts’ min yoongi that he wants to show us through shows and broadcasts. 

behind every idol rapper who succeeds
there’s a weak self standing, it’s a little dangerous
I fall sometimes again into depression and compulsion
hell no, anyway I don’t even know if that’s the real me

but through his music? through his mixtape, he’s trying to show us another side of him, and i’m so thankful that he’s opened up to his worldwide audience. this takes courage. talking openly about your hardships and your weaknesses to people who look up to you, that takes some damn courage. so thank you, yoongi, for opening up to your fans. 

Percy: How long do you live?
Keyleth: If I complete my journey it could be upwards a thousand years or more.
Percy: How long do you think I live?
Keyleth: Less than a hundred? if you’re lucky?
Percy: No.
Keyleth: How long?
Percy: I am Percival Fredrickstein Von Musel Klossowski de Rolo III
Keyleth: No kidding- 
Percy: My ancestry dates back thousands of years and will continue for thousands more, unless Whitestone falls. I live as long as Whitestone lives. This place is the human soul. This is what we have built with our tiny moments. To loose a place like this.. We don’t feel it immediately but.. It would ruin everyone, in small ways.
Keyleth: not all of us are lucky enough to have lineage in a name.
Percy: Not all of us are lucky enough to have lineage in a lifespan.

- Percy/Taliesin nailing why humans in fantasy can be just as awe-inspiring and interesting as dwarves, elves and other non-human races.

ya’ll... we gotta talk about this.

Nameless ~The One Thing You Must Recall~

ALL ABOARD THE FEELS TRAIN TO FEELSTOWN… FEELS TRAIN BOARDING NOW!

So, I just finished playing through every good ending for every route in Nameless. I accomplished this in a matter of three days. Three. Days. That’s how phenomenal this game is. I never thought anything would ever come close to my love for Mystic Messenger. Nameless blew me away. Everything about this game is beautiful. Beautiful art, beautiful soundtrack, beautiful voice acting, beautiful characters. I didn’t expect anything less from Cheritz. For those who aren’t familar with Nameless, it is a fully voiced visual novel-style game from Cheritz, the developers of the extremely popular mobile game Mystic Messenger. With Christmas basically here, I REALLY WANT EVERY ONE TO PURCHASE THIS GAME AND PLAY IT. YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT. I PINKY SWEAR. I’M GOING TO TRY AND CONVINCE YOU. 

The game description as found on Steam is:  “Eri (the name is replaceable) is a high school student and everything about her seems ordinary except she has a special hobby. Eri is into collecting ball-jointed dolls made from the doll company, Crobidoll. Although she treats her dolls like her real family, she cannot talk about them to even her "normal” best friends. With her parents living overseas, she was left all alone after her grandpa’s death. She started to rely on her dolls to escape from her loneliness. Then, one day, she had a dream about feathers coming out of her diary and when she woke up, she heard strange sounds coming from her kitchen…”

Now, let me just tell you. This game was full of emotions, just like Mystic Messenger. To be corny, it’s a literal roller-coaster of emotions. This game has made me feel really happy, this game has made me literally laugh out loud, and I have shed actual tears due to this game on multiple occasions. The characters are so precious and dear to me, and they all have their own individual problems. They are not perfect, they are flawed. Just like in reality, no one is perfect. I absolutely love games, ESPECIALLY otome games, that embrace that. And Cheritz is extremely good at this, as much in Nameless as in Mystic Messenger. I’ll tell you my opinions on the characters, of course with no spoilers, to further convince you to buy this game. I hate comparing characters, but for Mystic Messenger fans (AKA all of my followers), I will compare since I saw a lot of similarities.

Nameless’s MC, Eri | You can change the name to whatever name you wish in the beginning of the game. She is a freshman at her school, and she lives by herself in her grandfather’s house. Her parents are extremely busy and work overseas, so she lived with her grandfather from an early age. I really, really like this MC. I found her extremely relatable. She has such a gentle heart, but she has pessimistic tendencies and is mature for her age.

Lance | I really enjoyed Lance. He was Eri’s first ball-jointed doll, and the only one that was around when Eri’s grandpa was alive. He’s very smart, but he can be pretty cold at times. He is in the same freshman class as Eri, and is popular against his wishes. He doesn’t really express himself well in front of others. He acts like he doesn’t care about you, but actually cares a lot. He’s a classic tsundere. I couldn’t really compare him to anyone in MysMe personality wise, he’s his own person. I cried during his route.

Yeonho | Yeonho was Eri’s second doll. He had an owner before Eri, but he was sold at auction, with Eri as the winning bid. I absolutely LOVE Yeonho. He is so so so so so sweet. I want to love and protect him forever, the precious angel. I would definitely call him the Yoosung of Nameless. His voice even sounds similar to Yoosung. He is also in the same freshman class with Eri and Lance. He REALLY loves Eri, and is really attached to her. He’s 100% a yandere. He is also really popular at school and he is known as the Yellow Chick. I can’t really get to much into his character without spoiling anything.

Yuri | I like to call Yuri a Jumin-Zen hybrid, with some differences. He is very narcissistic and flirtatious, ESPECIALLY towards Eri. He is very fashion forward, and spends a lot of money on clothes and material items. Out of all the dolls, he appears the most mature physically. He enjoys music, and plays the drums really well. He teaches music at Eri’s school. He appears frivolous, but is actually pretty serious when is alone with Eri. Again, I can’t go into detail without spoiling. I cried during his route.

Tei | I think Tei is probably my favorite route, for many reasons that I can’t disclose without spoiling. I would compare him most to Jumin. He acts like the “mother/father” of the group, but he is actually very complicated. He is the most popular of the group at school, a sophomore, and works in a cafe part-time. I think that he has such a kind heart. I would say that he loves Eri the most out of everyone. Also a yandere. I definitely cried during his route.

Red | And lastly, we have darling Red, warrior of justice! Yes, I said “warrior of justice.” That wasn’t an error. Sounds like our dear defender of justice, Seven Zero Seven, doesn’t it? He reminds me SO MUCH of Seven sometimes, even his voice acting. He’s definitely his own person though. He’s innocent, kind of naive, and very slow at times. That just adds to his cuteness. He is full of energy and is bright like the sun. He loves online games and watching action shows about justice warriors. He believes that he will one day gain special powers. However, is his smile just a mask to hide how he really feels? His route… gosh. So many feels I felt like I was drowning. I definitely cried during his route. A lot. His route is also easily tied as my favorite with Tei’s.

IN CONCLUSION,

Please consider purchasing this beautiful masterpiece. It would make me so happy if you did. And Cheritz, 정말 고맙습니다. 사랑해.

I can still feel the heat of your hand on my skin.
The way you smiled at me blew me away.
I can still remember the smell of your cologne when you brought me close to your chest.
You made me feel like I was enough. And now I can’t get you off my mind.
—  F.M
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for @morisuke-kun because the latest chapters of connected blew me away

it was a brave choice for emmerdale to tackle such a huge issue as dementia because it’s one that most families have some experience with in a variety of different forms and will likely effect a good majority of the audience because of that.

but it was also such a brave and inspired choice to have a storyline which not only sensitively handled dementia as an illness in itself, but also the problems that arise because of dementia, how it can effect those around the person suffering from it in different ways

tonight’s episode was a truly ingenious portrayal of that illness, and to have it filmed from the perspective of ashley was likely an incredibly difficult task, not just for the writers and directors, but also for the actors as well, particularly those actors who had been brought in to play established characters (those playing laurel and aaron especially). while the episode was, at times, confusing, that was essentially the whole point, to drive home the message that, to the person with dementia, the entire world is turned entirely on its head, where nothing makes sense, no one is recognisable, and you are living in a perpetual state of fear and confusion. 

it was expertly handled, john middleton was phenomenal as we all knew he would be, but his performance tonight was so incredibly heart-wrenching. i really just want to applaud emmerdale for giving the time and devotion to this particular storyline because it is one that so many viewers will recognise only too well, and it’s such a powerful message to send out to those suffering from the illness, the families effected by it as well, and the wider audience who may not have understood before tonight just how truly terrible dementia is.

Ok so after seeing Moana on the big screen last night I wanna talk about a couple things I really loved when it came to legit detail-oriented stuff.

• My favorite part when it came to detail was when we got a close-up of Maui’s tattoos, and you could see the slight texture of skin every time. That blew me away, the fact that they made sure to actually make it look like tattoos on skin.
• Also, the cracks and hairs on Tamatoa’s claws when he’s holding Moana. Every time the camera shifted to her in his claws, you could see all the scratches and cracks and little hairs on them.
• I loved the way they did Grandma Tala and her spirit. I love the fact that when she came back as a ray, she has patterns on her just like her tattoo.
• When Maui had the shark head, I noticed the tattoo on his belly also had a shark head. I thought that was a really funny and clever thing.
• They had nipples! And belly buttons! Yeah, the nipples in most cases were under tattoos (ow), but they were still there. The same with the belly buttons, like on the Chief, which made it a little harder to tell if it was actually there or just part of the tattoo. But that was a pretty big thing, IMO
• And last, for Te Ka/Te Fiti. The cracks in Te Ka’s hardened lava, and the way they had the lava flow, was absolutely amazing. And then that transition when she changed was so beautiful and natural. The way the flowers spread across her. Even how she pressed her hand into the hardened lava of the island and it looked like it does when you stick your hand in dirt.

All in all it was such a beautiful movie and I loved it so very much. Definitely expect to see some drawings from me soon.

“Force” is the right word for Carrie Fisher-  she was a force of nature, a force to be reckoned with.  She was endlessly funny and honest and entertaining all at the same time and she never ever failed to delight me and fill me with joy. She had such a gift for words, a brilliant sense of humor and an extremely brave capacity for self-awareness. She meant so much to so many, and said a great many wonderful things on behalf of women and those suffering from mental illness. For so many people she was a hero for being Carrie, not just Princess Leia. She had such a profound way of expressing herself with grace and humor and clarity that blew me away. She spoke her own truth bravely and with no apologies.

I will never forget  how openly and honestly Carrie spoke about her past addictions or Hollywood’s rampant sexism. Her ability to frankly address addiction and mental illness is her greatest legacy. She spoke candidly, with the perfect articulation.  She let people in on the intimacies of her life without making it feeling salacious. She was so incredibly sharp and smart and honest that she made it look natural and easy to be herself. But we knew it was not, because she spoke openly about her experiences and she let you know that there were dark times without fear of us seeing her warts- and she was self deprecating in a way only she could be about herself without being bitter. She could find the humor and the poignancy in a single situation and express it all in the same sentence.

Carrie expressed herself so well, knew herself so deeply, and just was so unapologetically herself that she made you feel as if you knew her. Which is why the loss of her feels like the tragic loss of a true friend and why the grief is so deep. I never had to desperately hope and dream to meet Carrie because I felt like I knew her every time I saw her or read her brilliant words. I wish I had better words for her but ironically I think the only person who could do her justice would be Carrie herself.

This woman’s absence leaves a black hole, not just in a galaxy far far away- but in our own universe, and in a world where we need more women like Carrie, not fewer. And in my heart and the hearts of many too.

I love you Carrie. I will miss you so much.