but in reality i don't like my smile

anonymous asked:

I need to "talk" to someone who has had a SPNCon experience. I'm going to my first Con within the next year, and I'm already panicking about photo ops. I am plus sized and nowhere near pretty. I have convinced myself and truly believe that anyone I get photo ops with will smile and pretend like they're happy, when in reality they don't want to be anywhere near the far girl. I've already practically talked myself out of getting any photo ops and I still have months before my Con.

Ok so I’ve been sitting on this kind of all day since I read it debating how to answer it. I’m plus sized and nowhere near pretty so you’re knocking on the right door. I’ve been to 7 cons now and I’ve had tons of ops now, granted, I’ve lost quite a bit of weight between the first and the 7th and but I am NOWHERE near skinny or pretty. I got some pretty gross Tumblr hate about it when I posted an op on here at one point and that’s why I don’t post pics here anymore. I’ve had some pretty shitty ops that I’ve never posted anywhere, but I think that’s true for everyone regardless of how they feel about themselves. Sometimes you just take a shitty picture.

With that said, not once has anyone in the cast ever made me feel like they didn’t want to be near me, quite the opposite actually. The only place I’ve ever felt included or pretty or what have you is at pretty much every con I’ve ever been to. The cast are truly genuine, appreciative, inclusive, non judgmental people. 

My advice would be to get the ops that you want. Every single damn one. Because the absolute worst thing would be to regret it later and no get the opportunity again. If you hate them you can tuck them away somewhere and never look at them again but you just might really love them. You won’t know unless you do it though. 

Life Is Strange sentence pack [EP5]
  • "Is anybody out there? Please, help!"
  • "The slightly unconscious model is often the most open and honest."
  • "Oh, Christ... look at that perfect face."
  • "Stay still!"
  • "Nobody will be surprised, or care."
  • "I wasn't lying when I said you have a gift."
  • "Goddamn, you're a fighter, though."
  • "Always take the shot."
  • "Please, I'm sorry for everything."
  • "I don't want to die like this!"
  • "Yes, you're a psychopath."
  • "Always remember that you're not alone. I've got your back, no matter what happens."
  • "You always know the right thing to do."
  • "You're smart enough to know how easy it is to hurt somebody, to destroy their life."
  • "I know you've got a good heart. I've seen it."
  • "Wouldn't it be better to lift people up than to bring them down?"
  • "After everything that's happened, this should be the least scary thing you've ever done."
  • "Eat shit and die."
  • "You are not going to stop me!"
  • "You didn't fail... you did your best."
  • "Everybody... used me."
  • "All this shit will be over soon."
  • "I hate to say I'm glad to see you, but I'm so glad to see you."
  • "Hey... be careful out there."
  • "I always wanted my life to be special... an adventure... but not without you."
  • "Holy shit, are you cereal?"
  • "Thought you could control everybody and everything, huh?"
  • "You've left a trail of death and suffering behind you."
  • "Just shut up. You're not scaring me anymore."
  • "This is reality!"
  • "That nightmare was so real, was so horrible."
  • "All I really created was just death and destruction!"
  • "This is the only way."
  • "You are my number one priority now."
  • "You are all that matters to me."
  • "I know I've been selfish, but for once, I think I should accept my fate."
  • "You made me smile and laugh like I haven't done in years."
  • "All those moment between us were real, and they'll always be ours."
  • "I'm gonna miss you so much."
  • "I'll always love you."
  • "Now get out of here, please! Do it before I freak!"
  • "Don't you forget about me."
things people submit
  • Aries: I get so frustrated when people waste my time taking their time. Like "let's get a move on people, there's only so many hours the sun is out!!"
  • Taurus: I hate how I love routine to the point where Im not able to leave a toxic relationship. My stubbornness wont let me give up on someone I love even though I know they are no good for me.
  • Gemini: There's a distinctive flaw in my personality - it's ever changing. I can't even decide what style I want to wear. One day I'll wear all black and the next I'll wear flower crowns and floral clothes. My personality changes like my dress sense does.
  • Cancer: It's true that we are very sensitive, but we can keep our emotions for us without showing anyone. It's weird because we always try to show our toughness but yet people say we are sweet and kind but when we are alone we can count on just our strength, yet often I wish people didn't confuse our kindness with weakness.
  • Leo: I am constantly in need of attention. Not only from my boyfriend, but from all of my friends. I crave people falling in love with me. Nothing is more devastating to me than being a second choice.
  • Virgo: I'm really needy I wilt without attention from my close friends but I feel like I'm bothering everyone when I want to talk about my problems because I'm so used to doing the helping. Then I feel selfish for wanting help in return.
  • Libra: A lot of people tell me Im pretty and forget my intelligence. I feel like ppl care more about the physical than whats inside. Ive been told many times that ppl were surprised Im also smart because I look pretty. That depresses me.
  • Scorpio: I find that I like to have control of things, so I often take the place as the leader of the group, and when I am not I have very strong opinions on things and express them without a filter, and often take the place as a co-leader, I also find that it is easy to tell people what to do.
  • Sagittarius: It's true clingy people do annoy me. If you bother to stop me from having fun I will immediately drop my smile and give you the scariest death stare you've ever scene. Stop me from exploring places where adventure lies ahead and you'll be next on my kill list.
  • Capricorn: I come off as aloof, cold and shy when in reality I'm just at peace, observing. I'm afraid this trait of mine will push people away and that they find me boring, arrogant or stuck up. I want love but I'm afraid of vulnerability.
  • Aquarius: I don't like people that don't know how to keep a conversation going it annoys me on a level that is extreme because if ur awkward then I'm gonna get awkward and there's gonna be a uncomfortable silence. No.
  • Pisces: I am constantly torn between everything in life. One day I think I want my life to be stable and become a normal upper middle class citizen then the next I want to run away to a strange place with nothing but a camera. It's this way with everything in my life.
Skeleton Land (based on lost boy by Ruth B.)

There was a time when I was alone
No friends to call and no band to call home
My only friend was the hope in my heart
And even sometimes that too would fall apart

Then one night as I closed my eyes
I heard a voice begging me not to cry
He came to me with the sweetest song
Told me I wouldn’t do this alone

He said,
“goner boy that’s what they call me
I promise that you’ll never be lonely”

And ever since that day

I’m a lost girl from Skeleton Land
Walking through the snow of my mind hand in hand
With two boys who learned how to smile
Who taught me that to think is
To be alive
Sing, sing lost girl
They say to me
Forget the truth of reality

And the clique is home,
To lost girls like me
And lost girls like me are free
And the clique is home,
To lost girls like me
And lost girls like me are free

He painted me with shades of red and told me to believe
Believe in him and I’ll be lovely
Together we can finish up this masterpiece
Of our beautiful destiny

As we looked across the crowd
That never loved me
I realized that they both were my family

Soon enough we reached Skeleton Land
My feet will never March through the sand

And ever since that day

I’m a lost girl from Skeleton Land
Walking through the snow of my mind hand in hand
With two boys who learned how to smile
Who taught me that to think is
To be alive
Sing, sing lost girl
They say to me
Forget the truth of reality

And the clique is home,
To lost girls like me
And lost girls like me are free
And the clique is home,
To lost girls like me
And lost girls like me are free

Joshua, Tyler and Jenna Joseph,
Even blurryface you are my home in my head space
Clique members I love you so
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost girl at last

Joshua, Tyler and Jenna Joseph,
Even blurryface you are my home in my head space
Clique members I love you so
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost girl at last

And for always I will sing,

I’m a lost girl from Skeleton Land
Walking through the snow of my mind hand in hand
With two boys who learned how to smile
Who taught me that to think is
To be alive
Sing, sing lost girl
They say to me
Forget the truth of reality

And the clique is home,
To lost girls like me
And lost girls like me are free
And the clique is home,
To lost girls like me
And lost girls like me are free.

let-my-light-shine  asked:

"Who is that Pink Puff Poodle I saw you around before? She was far too cute to be into you, Ryuji." //Mila no- why

”….” Almost. That mention of a particular outfit had almost been enough to make him crush that savory can of soda in his hand. All that would’ve led to was the embarrassing sight of him being splashed up in seconds. His body language was a dead giveaway to the line of feeling in his head at that remark. Shoving a stern glare over in her direction, it was in a fit of embarrassment and offense that he had to speak up! Just who in the hell did Mila think she was!?

Why did she also have to go and stab into his hopes like that!? “A poodle!? Her name is Haru! And–” Blinking once, twice, a thought came to mind. With a pinch of imagination that fluffy hair of her’s could make her go and look like the cutest poodle! The reality of the matter thankfully stepped in before a goofy smile ended up set on his face.

”Oh n’ shaddappp! You don’t know that! I mean– not that I was worried about that to begin with!” He quickly defends, shoving up a guilty hand for emphasis. Why in the hell did words pick now to go and screw up on him!? “She’s just a good pal of mine! Cuteness aside!”

4

[►] I’m sorry, but can we please talk about THESE EXTREME HEART EYES!? Good lord, Ian!

First off, let me start by saying that there is A LOT of heart eyes in this video from both sides and it’d be nearly impossible to point them all out in a single post, so if you want to see their “low-key” love in full detail, I recommend you watch the video by clicking the play button like at the very top of this post!

Now with that out of the way, let’s go into detail!

In the first gif, nothing particularly interesting happens; but in the SECOND GIF, we have Ian looking at Anthony’s eyes, then down to his lips. He then looks back up at Anthony and ass soon as he does AN ADORABLE AND VERY LARE smile is painted across his face! His smile continues in the next gif and so does his wandering eyes back and forth from Anthony’s his lips to his eyes. Then in the last gif, he answers the reporter so she’ll get the sense that he’s somewhat paying attention when in reality all he and think about is Anthony and his gorgeous eyes and lips!

Like I said, heart eyes Hecox is a VERY rare occurrence, but when it does happen, YOU CAN’T BEAT IT!

2

i’m spamming with the sketches today but I am ACTUALLY shaking and squealing because of the kyojin chu x noragami aragoto crossover that IS BECOMING REALITY. 

“Eren, why?” Levi asks his sacred regalia, after everything.

“You’re a choice with no regrets,” Eren replies with a soft smile, “But… please stop wasting all your five yen on cleaning supplies.”

ORANGE IS THE NEW BLACK SEASON 2 SENTENCE MEME
  • "You don't go Jessica Simpson when you've got Rihanna."
  • "You seem so calm. Are you a murderer?"
  • "She will go Wolverine on your ass."
  • "This year, I'm loving someone who deserves me. Me."
  • "You decide to tell me that with your flaccid dick in my mouth?"
  • "If you're not building a future, it's because you don't believe there is a future."
  • "Yeah I said stupid twice, only to emphasize how stupid that is!"
  • "I know something about loving people who aren't smart enough to be loved back."
  • "Husbands are overrated. They're as useless as children."
  • “I like privacy, but not alone privacy.”
  • "I am feeling so single today."
  • "My life is sad and small and a burden to those I love."
  • "People die and you don't get that moment back."
  • "All problems are boring until they're your own."
  • "This kind of death, this slow invisible disappearing into nothing, it's terrifying."
  • "I'm an adult. It gives me the right to make bad choices."
  • "If I would've seen him, I don't know, may have felt like closure. But we don't get a lot of that in this life now, do we."
  • "You're a horrible person but you are still sexy as hell."
  • "At the end of the day, you are a garden rose and that bitch is a weed."
  • "Can't trust a bitch don't smile with her teeth"
  • "My brain will always be there for you, thinking things so you don't have to."
  • "Another layer of icing on a shit cake doesn't make it taste good."
  • "Sometimes people just don't wanna play with you and that's okay."
  • "The thing about reality is it's still there waiting for you the next morning."
  • "You're one Cheerio in the bulk box of life."
  • "Next time, just sit on her face. It shuts her right up."
  • "I wanna taste what you taste like."
  • "You ever think about Jay Z and Beyonce fuckin'?"
  • "My therapist says, 'Yesterday is history. Tomorrow's a mystery.'"
  • "You got one fucked up perspective on the world, kid."
  • "No offense but men being on charge hasn't ever done me any good."
  • "Why are we punishing ourselves when we're already being punished? That doesn't make sense."
  • "It's like the less time you got the slower it goes."
4

“I’m going to practice (on my birthday). I don’t really want to do anything special. Seriously. Last year, I had a really good time with the members. This year, I just want to practice […] I feel like I’ve lost some innocence, considering how old I am […] In some sense, at the age when I should be studying, I’ve become known to the world, I’ve come to have a specific dream, and I’m chasing after that dream. So, I’ve come to taste reality more quickly.”

nappingwithgilinsky-deactivated  asked:

Okay so you know how every young girl has an older girl who they look up to? Well I don't even know you but you're mine:) You're absolutely gorgeous; heck your smile could make flowers grow. You're going to my dream college—to be what I want to be: a doctor. Even though I'm only 14, I hope I can be like you when I grow up. You seem like that girl who doesn't think much of herself, but in reality you're probably one of the best people on the planet. All I can say is thank you and I love you💕

this is legit the BEST message i’ve ever received! 

like really this means a lot! you’re so sweet, thank you so much! wow

you made my day :’) ily