but if its yours tell me

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Once in a while when I wake up, I find myself crying. The dream I must’ve had I can never recall. But the sensation that I’ve lost something lingers for a long time after I wake up. I’m always searching for something, for someone. This feeling has possessed me, I think, from that day…that day the stars came falling.

  • fanfic writer: *writing* Oh wow, they are going to love this. This is by far my best work!
  • fic: *witty lines* *perfect love making* *fluffy enough to kill us all* *a dash of angst, a smidgen of hurt/comfort*
  • fanfic writer: Oh man. This is it. This will be my legacy! *sweats into fic* *bleeds into fic* *cries into fic* *spends days perfecting the grammar and verbage and sex scenes* *has 15 betas look over it*
  • fanfic writer: Okay. It is finally time to release my baby on the world. Here you go fandom. You're welcome.
  • fandom: Ha, cute. *like* *kudos*
  • fanfic writer: :/
  • * * *
  • same fanfic writer: *writing* Whatever. This is shit, I don't even care right now. A singing squirrel? Sure, let's do it. Haha, cheesy lines that make no sense, sure. Grammatical errors out the wazoo? Why not. No one's going to read this piece of crap anyway, I literally wrote it on a scrap of 1 ply toilet paper with a broken yellow crayon.
  • fanfic writer: LOL *post*
  • fandom: OMG THIS IS THE BEST THING YOU HAVE EVER GRANTED US WITH, WHERE HAS THIS BEEN ALL MY LIFE, OMG, I NEED A SEQUEL IMMEDIATELY, PLEASE. WHAT THE. I'M NOT EVEN WORTHY. *kudosrebloglikereccomment*
  • fanfic writer: *sigh*
some of the things i've been told since coming out as asexual in 2015

-“you’re too pretty to be asexual”
-“you just haven’t met the right guy yet”
-“you’ll change your mind once you’re in a relationship”
-“if you ever get in a ‘relationship’ your partner will just cheat on you so he can have sex”
-“is there something wrong with you?”
-“it’s just a hormonal thing. doctors can help you fix that”
-“so… you’re gay?”
-“here’s the name of my doctor you should see him about your homone levels”
-“that’s not a real thing”
-“there must be something wrong with you”
-“you’re probably gay but too scared to tell anyone”
-“i can fix that ;)”
-“i called my pastor and he said he’s going to put you on the prayer chain”
-“the bible doesn’t necessarily say that asexuality is wrong, but it’s wrong because it’s an identity thing. you should just identify as a child of God, regardless of whether or not you actually get these feelings”
-“you’re basically just straight”
-“so you’re just gonna be alone forever?”
-“so you’ve never loved anyone?”
-“ohmygosh is this because of your past trauma?!”
-“i’m so sorry, this must be because of all you’ve been through”
-“you don’t look asexual”
-“so you probably masturbate a lot then…”
-“asexuals aren’t part of the lgbtqia community… the A stands for 'ally’. stop pretending like asexuals are descriminated against”
-“isn’t that a plant thing?”

(feel free to add some of your own experiences)

Two Sides to Every Yugioh fan
  • Side One: Can you truly watch all of Yugioh and not come out changed? It has so many powerful messages and inspirational characters that transform the viewer into a better person of their past selves. Such an impacting, heart breaking, beautiful show.
  • Side two: I fucking swear if I hear them explain Pot of Greed one more fucking time I'm going to throw myself off a building. And why the fuck is there a duel every single fucking episode? This show doesn't even fucking make sense until season two like how does anyone actually get through it? Such trash, honestly.
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“Everything is ‘terrible?’ Don’t make me laugh. So what about me…for me, it’s been terrible since I was born.”

got inspired to draw @pearsfears‘ Medical examiner and FBI agent AU

Leorio has worked with plenty of FBI agents before, but something about this one leaves him dropping mortuary equipment and fumbling for words. They grow closer when Kurapika assigns Leorio as his personal consultant - which makes one wonder; is the FBI agent’s reasons for teaming up like this really just work related?

Here I drew a scenario where Leorio is needed in the interrogation room. When Kurapika tells Leorio that 1. it doesn’t work like that, and 2. Leorio would make a far better good cop, the man blushes so hard it could be diagnosed as a fever (trust him, he’s a doctor).

The fact that Eliza forgave for Alexander means so, so much. 

He cheated on her, broke her trust, and still continued to think only about himself  - ”[Teling everyone that he cheated on his wife] was an act of political sacrifice.”- Congratulations. - and yet, she forgives him.

They were both grieving, both could have reacted differently, and she forgives him. I believe it was some form of a coping method. Forgiving Alexander would make everything easier; they wouldn’t have to argue and they could learn to deal with everything together.

What I’m trying to say is: Eliza is a saint. If I were here, I would walk away from him and learn to cope with my sister, but she forgives him, lets him off for everything he had done.

She goes on to do so much more for him, even though he treated her awfully. 

”I interview every soldier who fought by your side.” - She tries to get to know the other, war-version, side of Alex.

“I try to make sense if your thousands of pages of writing.” - She tries to understand his trail of thought. She wants to understand him. She loved him with all her heart. She still after he cheated; she still did after he treated her awfully; she still did after his death.

 “I raise funds in D.C. for the Washington Monument.” - Washington felt like a father to Hamilton, even though the line “I’m not your son!” exists. You can not deny that they weren’t close. They were, and Eliza raises funds for him because of this.

“I speak out against slavery.” - This was something Alexander, and his other lover best friend, believed in strongly. This was something she believed in strongly. She fought against it for herself, for Alexander, for everyone’s freedom. She didn’t do all of this for Alexander; she did still have her own morals. She just tried to do the right thing, and that's one of the many reasons I love her.

“I established the first private orphanage in New York City.” - Alexander was an orphan, and she, obviously, knew that. She established this to help the kids, to stop children from having to deal with what Alexander went through. She knew how awful it was, she saw it in her husband, and she tries to help them through it. 

She helps so many (”I help raise hundreds of children.”) and the main, probably reason, was for Alexander’s legacy, something he always wanted.

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Kuroo from @eicinic‘s Superman AU. 
Because Gin is amazing and deserves all the Kuroos in the world (so he better save it).


I’ve been listening to this song a lot while drawing, and I think the first verse is awfully fitting

There’s a war we can’t ignore, waging silence on our lives
We will overcome, let the cowards run and hide

We were born to take it back
This is revelational

I am not afraid

– Dillon Francis - Love in the Middle of a Firefight

i’m always a slut for a christmas au 

  • “i know we hate each other but it’s christmas eve and your flight was cancelled please come inside”
  • “i got you for secret santa so i got you this really expensive but sentimental gift that you’ve always wanted, hoping you’ll never find out it’s from me - and that i’ve been in love with you 1234567 years”
    SNOWBALL FIGHTS
  • “hi we’re neighbours and omg are you alright i could smell cooking burning - whoaaa now that’s just embarrassing? step aside i’ll handle this”
  • person a seducing person b into taking a few steps back/backing them against the wall (”oh look, how did that mistletoe get right there????”)
  • “you’re in the hospital for the holidays so i came in while you were sleeping to decorate your room i love you merry christmas”
  • “YES I BOOBY TRAPPED THE PRESENTS BECAUSE YOU DO THIS EVERY FUCKING YEAR”
  • “i live below you and i was minding my own business watching the snowfall out the window WHEN I SAW A BODY FALL ARE YOU REALLY PUTTING UP CHRISTMAS LIGHTS NOW”
  • I KNITTED YOU A JUMPER
  • MY MOM KNITTED YOU A JUMPER
  • “we’re strictly ‘platonic’ but we’re snowed in omg we’re gonna have to repopulate the earth”
  • “i slipped on ice outside your house and you ran out barefoot to help me quick let’s get inside under a blanket”
  • “’it’s a wonderful life’ aww it sounds so cute babe sure we can watch it! *30 mins later* “YOU MONSTER”
  • “we were playing in the snow and you suddenly tackled me to the ground and now…we’re just…staring… at each other…”
  • “YOU DON’T LIKE MARSHMALLOWS IN YOUR HOT CHOCOLATE? WHY DO YOU HATE LOVE”
  • TREE DECORATING (bonus points if one of them is doing it completely wrong omg why am i in love with you) 
  • “we took our kids to santa’s workshop and they both wished we would get together”
    FRIENDS AU - “our christmas party turned into a tropical theme because the radiator is broken and it’s hotter than hell in here - damn you look good without a shirt i never noticed before asgdhfjgkhl” 
  • “we’re co workers who hate each other but you had too much to drink at the staff christmas party and admitted your love for me i don’t know how to act around you now” 
  • DRUNKEN CAROLLING (”that’s not a thing” “oh yes it is”) 
  • TEACH ME HOW TO SKI (lol jk i know how you’re just so fucking cute)
  • “there’s a storm and omg i’m losing signal are you okay?? hold on let me drive 489432 miles to get you the night before christmas” 
  • PULLING YOU IN FOR A KISS WITH A SCARF 
  • “i did that annoying thing where i put loads of smaller boxes inside one big box and you’re getting really mad but you don’t know that the ring is in the smallest box and i can’t wait to see your face”
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[ 20 • 3 ] science ft. slightly dead succulents!

connect the dots [sirius black]

summary: it’s YOUR chair. regardless of the fact that you found him sleeping there, for merlin’s sake, it’s yours. neither he, nor james seems to understand that. remus is an accidental wingman, lily is there to help, and peter just wants everybody to be friends.

word count: ~2200

a/n: (thats pretty fuckin ironic peter pettigrew u stupid swine) ANYWAY KIDS WHATS UP I LOVE ALL THE MARAUDERS EQUALLY???? but i have an especially soft spot for sirius and remus and james…. hmm…. (especially ben barnes as sirius and andrew garfield as remus but shhh) anyway ik i have a shit ton of requests to do but here i am, master procrastinator, back with more procrastination works! i had an impulse okay. y’all should be thanking me for this insight on snogging sirius black bc i know i’m thanking myself tonight

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“We have an exam tomorrow, but I need you to hear this new song I wrote for you”

DOES ANYONE HAVE JOB INTERVIEW TIPS FOR EXTREMELY SHY AND AWKWARD PEOPLE BECAUSE AFTER SURVIVING A PHONE INTERVIEW WITH A NICE LADY YESTERDAY THEY SELECTED MY APPLICATION AND I HAVE A FACE TO FACE INTERVIEW WITH ANOTHER PERSON IN TWO DAYS AND I’M SCARED THANK YOU

reading one star reviews of books you hated on goodreads just to stew in your bitterness is such a happy cozy feeling

“Who even listens to this stuff now?” “They’re called classics, Spots n’ they’re fuckin’ good.” “Seriously?” “yeah, seriously.”


@smokeplanet ya bois