but idk how i feel about the thing

insider note

the thing where i write about love and how money or something else impedes it, is not over all true. its a thing i have in me from early in my life. its a true feeling when i write it, but its not the truth. it does seem im still working on the energy of it. idk. i dont want you to worry.

anonymous asked:

For two years I've identified as non-binary after much confusion. I've advanced a lot in the LGBT+ community and shown a lot of pride for those who also struggle with their gender. I finally came out to my parents and they were accepting but asked me to talk to my psychiatrist about it. I don't really mind ... but she brought a lot of stuff that left my confused. She told me that my hate for gender conformity probably led to this choice. Idk what to think Daddy. Have I been living a lie?

The thing it, Therapists, or every person who doesn’t feel the same as you do can’t answer this! I believe you have to trust your feelings and not give something about the words comming from someone who probably doesn’t have any idea! What you feel, deep inside, is never a lie! It is your life! And you have to find out how to live it and if you identify as nb than you should be able to express that regartless of what people say

anonymous asked:

I really don't mean anything bad by this ask!! I'm just wondering.. Why people ask for "good vibes?" Every time I see it, it just... It feels like people just want validation that they are having problems. And I get that!! And being able to talk about said problems is a good thing! But... Idk.. Not saying it is, but whenever I see the "good vibes" I feel like they're just empty words. And, even if the anon is truthful, it feels like just a call for attention... I'm really just curious. 💦

i honestly have no idea how it started tbh, but idk it’s easier for me at least since some people just wanna have a vent source and if they ask for good vibes then i don’t feel obligated to pick and choose my words or give advice, or even know whether to comfort them or give advice lmao trying to figure out exactly what to say gets too overwhelming

and yeah i can understand them feeling like empty words? i mean ofc the ppl asking for them wouldn’t be asking for them if they didn’t mean something to them but i can see that. though the “call for attention” part really bothers me – like i said, some people just need reassurance or a venting source that’s an Actual Person and don’t have one so? sure yeah i’ve definitely gotten a few anons in the past that felt very attention-seeking but i very rarely get those tbh, and even then i would much rather take people seriously and try to help than sit there and go “idk :/ u sound like ur seeking for attention…” and risk making people with legitimate concerns feel bad for trying to get help or vent, which i’ve been through way too much of and it Sucks lmaoooo

I’ve come to the realization that I don’t have a strong sense of self or self-identity and I really think that’s the root of my problems. Like I have no well-founded beliefs or opinions on things, I kind of just mold based on the people I’m with and then I end up feeling unsure about myself? And I used to think it was a good thing - being able to go with the flow and blend in but now I hate it. Like who am I!!! Someone please tell me! How do I develop myself into a more confident and strong minded individual!

anonymous asked:

Milly!! Last night I had sex with a boy but without telling him it was my first time... anyway, halfway through he got soft (i guess? English isnt my first language) and we stopped and idk how to feel about it. He said it wasnt because of me but i kinda feel a bit "hurt", still

Hey! This really isn’t something to worry about. These things happen and you cant take these things personally. Our bodies are temperamental and thats just reality. Its kinda the reality of sex! Just happens, doesn’t it! Doesn’t always work out so seamlessly. Its not to do with you. He might feel quite embarrassed about it actually (not that he should!). Don’t take it personally . Your first time having sex will most likely not be the best sexual experience you will have x no worries needed

Fanon Lotor be like

i am not even sorry just take this

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Okay, so the newest episode of Steven Universe made me re-evaluate Navy’s character a LOT, particularly her behaviour in Hit the Diamond. Originally I thought she was just flighty and oblivious, but like…

I think it was an act here, too. I think she knew DAMN well our Ruby didn’t belong with the rest of them and something was up, but she smugly pretended otherwise because…Idk, she thought they’d gain more information by playing along? Or maybe she’s a true Agent of Chaos and she just wanted to see how things would play out? I’m not sure, and I’ll def rewatch that other Rubies episode to see how I feel about that, but man I just don’t buy this lady at all anymore. “What a turn of events!” no longer sounds like like anything other than SARCASM to me. What do y'all think?

when you're autistic but you still wanna be cool online

- when ur reblogging a post about your special interest and ur trying to decide whether or not infodumping and screaming in all caps in the tags would be annoying

- “am i close enough with this person to use u instead of you? do i even need to wait? can i use “u” with strangers??”

- “you’ll have to forgive me for this…” no that sounds way too formal what’s the Normal way to phrase it?

-“is this a situation where proper grammar and spelling is necessary?”

- “i’m feeling an emotion ?? what do people do when they feel an emotion? swear??? yeah i can do that what’s the right swear word to use in this context?”

- when you’re re-reading a post before you post it and find words like “therefore” and u gotta rewrite the whole thing

- when your grammar is both too formal and too casual and ur not sure if what u said was phrased awkwardly

- when you run out of words to say so you respond to everything with ‘aaaaaa’

- “was that a nice thing to say???? did that seem blunt or rude? how do i tell?? i don’t want them to think i hate them. best to be overly positive just to be sure”

- typin how you talk in real life…… so there are fuckin ellipses everywhere……… cause you pause a lot. and then you feel weird about it.

- “is this person being rude or am i misinterpreting it? best to just not respond at all”

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Yuri Plisetsky WeekDay Four: Animals/Pets
↳ Yuri & his adorable ball of fluff #kittensquad [x]

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–it’s called Success;; look into it!

another thing I love about this series is how well it shows depression. yes, they’re together and happy and loved, but that doesn’t erase all the bad things that have happened to them

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Despite the world reminding her every day of her life that she’s undeserving of being given anything by it, that she was unworthy of what little she’d managed to take from it - despite all of that, she never believed a word of it.

The Women of Black Sails in 4x08

Daddy Forgot How To Be My Daddy. .

Or maybe he just doesn’t want to anymore. Idk.
When I used to call out “Daaaaddyy” he would say “Yes baby/Princess/kitten”
Now he snaps “what do you want”
When I cried he used to wipe my tears away and hold me.
Now he says “stop being a baby”
He used to tell me I was creative and talented.
Now when I share my creations or photos he says things like “that’s weird” or “I don’t get it”
After 15 years of dating and almost a year of marriage idk how to stop being his little and I don’t want to. I’m feeling so lost and insecure now.
Please, if you have a little, remember that what you think and feel about them is more important than what anyone thinks or feels. It’s rare to have someone love you like a little will. So please, don’t take them for granted!