Being gay is more than rainbows, and kisses, and smiles. Being gay is more than sunsets, and cuddles, and sleepovers. Being gay is more than “be yourself”, and I was “born this way”. Being gay is throwing a brick at the stonewall riots, and lynchings for holding your girlfriends hand. Being gay is yelling at police, sitting still as a preacher spits in your face while he damns you to hell. Being gay is not some aesthetic that straight people can use to consider themselves “progressive” because we both know you’re only on our side so you can watch. If I have to see one more goddamned video of a straight white girl making a rainbow makeup tutorial for pride I’m going to scream. Being a lesbian is not two girls have a secret sleepover, cuddling together sneaking kisses; it’s changing alone in the locker rooms because the other girls are lining up to change in the bathroom stalls so you won’t see them. Being gay is not going to the store and biting organic fruit with your hubby; it’s getting yelled at during back to school shopping because your daughter “shouldn’t have to grow up having two fags as parents. How will you appease her feminine side?” Being bisexual isn’t being straight passing, and having more options to date; it’s being excluded from both the straight and gay communities. Being trans is not some skinny white boy who passes; it’s a person of color being beat up in the woman’s restroom because “HE’S just a MAN trying to sneak a peak at the woman inside”, as if she herself is not a beautiful woman who just needs to piss. Being Queer isn’t dressing cute and wearing a rainbow flag; it’s living with AIDS, which means even though you now test negative because you’ve kept on your meds and are no long contagious, you can’t find a significant other due to fear and propaganda. Being intersex isn’t a “true born transgender” (how could you ever say that and no know you’re being offensive?!); it’s having doctors remove parts of your genitalia for no logical reason at all. Being asexual/greysexual is not being a tease and staying innocent forever; it’s being excluded from the Queer community for some stupid sense of entitlement about what is and isn’t LGBT. Being aromantic is not a fun out-spirited girl who knows how to have a good time; it’s being called a skank on a daily basis because you don’t feel romantic attachments.
I am not an aesthetic for you to use to feel included in the LGBT community. Just because I believe in black lives matter does not mean in any way that I am a person of color. The A stands for asexual and aromantic, not ally. You’re not a part of our community. You support us yes, but you aren’t us. That sounds harsh, I know. I do not intend to hurt your feelings but my struggles are real. So, please stop dismissing them. Actually support us, instead of kinda helping to make yourself feel better. So, support us please, but please don’t sexualize us, or use us for your aesthetic. I am a person. I live, and breathe, and feel. My experiences are real. Hear them. Pay attention. And then do something about it.
I am a white, bi/pansexual, gender nonconforming individual. If you have a problem with something I’ve said PLEASE correct me or tell me what I’ve said to offend you. I will be happy to admit if I’m in the wrong.
(I lumped pansexual in with bisexual because to quote my favorite human @jaxxgarcia “to suggest you need a whole new sexuality to be attracted to trans people is …what’s that words again idk OH gross”. [EDIT the quote meant “don’t feel the need to change your sexuality just because allies don’t understand the difference between bi and pan”. People who don’t think pansexuals exist are gross. Pan people exist, I inserted the quote at a weird spot I’m sorry.] I put agender, gender fluid, demi girl/boy etc under trans to conserve space. I put pan, bi, poly etc under bi to conserve space. I use the word Queer because it’s a word stolen from us, and I’d like to claim it back. Also because I don’t like saying I’m gay, because I’m not a homosexual man, if you get where I’m coming from.)
i feel like the reason why jughead was so smiley after that kiss in the last episode was because
when he first kissed her, she did kiss him back but she never really explicitly hinted or told him that she returned his feelings and went straight to thinking about polly and the car and i feel like deep down he was worried that she didn’t like him back and her kissing him back was just a heat of the moment thing but he pushed those feelings away bc he knew she had other things to worry about
and then, when he was trying to hint at their kiss as he was walking her home she looked spaced out bc polly and yet, he pushed away his feelings to listen to whatever she was worried about and i feel like betty noticed that she hadn’t been explicitly returning his feelings lately although she did and she kissed him.
this time, she made the move, she was the one who cupped his face and leaned in and i felt like every single one of his doubts and worries or insecurities about their situation melted away when she kissed him and when she pulled away and thanked him you could tell that it wasn’t just bc he was being a good bf and walking her home she was thanking him for being there for her these past few days and sticking by her no matter what throughout her whole shitty polly problem
As always, I’m very sorry about the delay (2015 must be the year I deliver birthday presents very late) but I hope you will still enjoy this married MakoHaru comic through their live because I know you appreciate domestic/married MH as much as I do (*ﾉωﾉ)
I’d have loved to draw the whole poem but, too long, not for me ;_;
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“It just kind of conjured up all these feelings of anxiety I had in a relationship where everybody was watching, everybody was commenting on it. You’re constantly just feeling like, ‘Are we out of the woods yet? What’s the next thing gonna be? What’s the next hurdle we’re gonna have to jump over? Are we gonna make it to next week?’ It was interesting to write about a relationship where you’re just honestly like, ‘This is probably not gonna last, but how long is it gonna last?’ Those fragile relationships … It doesn’t mean they’re not supposed to happen. The whole time we were having happy memories or crazy memories or ridiculously anxious times, in my head it was just like, ‘Are we OK yet? Are we there yet? Are we out of this yet?’”
so, a poet falls in love with a poet, and nobody writes about it. not at first, anyways. not while she’s in your arms. there’s enough poetry in the shrunken distance between you, and it never looks as good on paper as it does in her mouth.
she says, your hands are so small.
she says, hold me tighter.
so, a poet falls in love with a poet and you pass metaphors across the bed like code words for all the ways you make each other softer. all open palms and easy touches and the way her eyes light up like the sun when she laughs. you roll them around her mouth but you never write them down.
she says, you leave me breathless.
she says, kiss me again.
a poet falls in love with a poet and you’re still not writing about it, but everything is lemon drops and vanilla chapstick. you suck the poem off her lips and swallow it in one breath; it settles like whiskey, warm and fuzzy. so you chase it with more of her. always more of her.
she says, i feel like i’m drowning.
she says, swallow me whole.
the poet writes it down when she’s out of arm’s reach // CAITLIN ABIGAIL
gonna use this mob to finally explain my COLORING PROCESS.. and how i go from these base colors to the final product ..
i always start with my base colors, which are almost always the same, so i keep a color palette to choose from. I usually pick the skin tone first and then change the hue for diff colors (I sometimes change the saturation and brightness too) The example below is the skin tone i use almost Always.. and of course it can be changed later on
~ tHE BEDROOM!!! ~ oh damn gaming video hopefully that’s tomorrow ~ “very specific reasons” hm? maybe he’s editing on dan’s computer because the gaming room is a mess because of the tiling? but why wouldn’t they tell us? i may come up with some theories on this one, idk ~ i feel like mildly suspicious of the lack of bedroom sharing? it seems like he’s planned the whole thing out about what to say and everything. i mean i do that too when i KNOW something is going to sound suspicious so it’s probably not. i’m just being a demon phannie lmao ignore me ~ MOON MIRROR MOON CHAIR MOON RUG MOON SHAPED HOUSE ~ ok but is that table mounted to the wall #phancy ~ wow we really learned a lot about the house from this video cheeky self promo we’re going to have a long discussion about this over at @phandomfbi wow brook shut the hell up ~ honestly dan’s video notebook sounds like my prompt list you’ll have forgotten you asked me by the time i finally get to your prompt ~ ah, the history of “emo” ~ i’m really appreciating him talking about emos and the “queer” culture and how he wanted to be that and eventually was as a kid ahh ~why am i even going to post this fucking pms i’m an emotional wreck throwing up demon phannie all over the screen ~ STOP BULLYING EMO DAN HIGH SCHOOL KIDS AHHHH ~ the welcome to the black parade intro is 11 notes not 7 daniel smh phake emo ~ “why’d you bleep phil’s swear” “cuz it’s funny” did someone say confused ~ OH MY GOSH DAN AND PHIL ARE DOING DREAM DADDY I’M ~ “the assening” the only acceptable way to speak of phil knocking the soundproof tiles off ~ YES GAMING CHANNEL LIVESHOW MY DREAMS ARE COMING TO LIFE TODAY ~ “iMpOrTaNt PlAnS” ~ oh make a wish awwwwww that’s so sweet! i’m gonna be honest that would be my wish too ~ man phil’s out there editing and checking out the livestreaming software at the same time you go boy ~ “i can’t work out the layout” “give up” yeah because dAN THINKS NOBODY WILL FIGURE OUT THE M O O N S H A P E OF THEIR HOUSE NOOOOOOO WE’RE ONTO YOU DANNY BOY, AND YOUR MOON SHAPED HOUSE TOO ~ ok but that bright spot on the moon is 10/10 a secret camera *illuminati theme plays* ~ wow this turned into a real shitpost real fast i’m not even sorry ~ glad we can finally all agree the diss track is second only to monster pops on dan’s channel
in summary: i’m a demon phannie with pms so that’s been a shitpost. however, this is a very interesting liveshow. gaming channel livestreams open a whole new world of things that i may talk about in the future, maybe when one is actually on the way. we don’t know, which is the best part of it all in my opinion. man am i ready for these next few weeks. we’ll see how it goes!
When a man walks into a room, he brings his whole life with him. He has a million reasons for being anywhere, just ask him. If you listen, he’ll tell you how he got there. How he forgot where he was going, and that he woke up. If you listen, he’ll tell you about the time he thought he was an angel or dreamt of being perfect. And then he’ll smile with wisdom, content that he realised the world isn’t perfect. We’re flawed, because we want so much more. We’re ruined, because we get these things, and wish for what we had.