but i'm too tired to do it again

How to tell that it's getting bad again:

- I sleep to much or not at all
-I eat too much or too little
-I sound disinterested in everything
-Be spaced out a lot
- I will ramble a lot or not talk at all
-I lose track of time
- I make cynical comments, usually about myself
-I push people away
-I tend to rub my eyes and head a lot
-I avoid eye contact
-I am always shakey
-I will avoid certain conversations


Hey @happycloude-91!! I made a silly little thing based off of that Spy AU you created. I drew it as a way of saying thanks for your support and lovely messages, so I hope you like it!! ^^

I saw you today in the Walmart parking lot, my sister pointed out your car as we were passing by. As I turned my head to look I made contact with your eyes. I wish I could say I was fine after, but I wasn’t. My heart started to beat faster and my stomach churned. I remembered all the terrible things you said the last time we spoke and I thought of all those years of friendship I wasted. I almost lost it right there, sitting in the passenger seat of my mom’s Scion. Then my mom told me that you weren’t worth the tears and usually I hate the fact that she isn’t more sympathetic, but I realized she was right. You don’t deserve my tears. I waste too many on people who don’t give a damn about me. One day you will realize that I was worth fighting for, but that day will be too late.
—  Lily Evangeline
hamilton; a summary (part 2)
  • what'd i miss: ass hat kid arrives and it's a party
  • cabinet battle #1: chaos
  • take a break: dude fucking calm down
  • say no to this: they do the fuck
  • the room where it happens: salty kid is salty
  • schuyler defeated: salty kid makes other kid salty too
  • cabinet battle 2#: chaos a sequel
  • washington on your side: fuck hamilton
  • one last time: goodbye bitches i'm tired
  • i know him: fuck you part 3
  • the adams administration: salty kid gets salty again
  • we know: we go to prove you're a bad person only to be shown that you're an even worse person
  • hurricane: writey write wrote
  • the reynolds pamphlet: fuck hamilton a sequel
  • burn: fuck hamilton (again)
  • blow us all away: lil kid goes to do a thing and fails miserably
  • stay alive(reprise): fUcK
  • it's quiet uptown: everyone is emo
  • the election of 1800: there's chaos
  • your obedient servant: salty kids get salty at each other
  • best of wives and best of women: marriage
  • the world was wide enough: saLTY kID fuCKs uP
  • who lives, who died, who tells your story: SAD

dabard95  asked:

Imagine Percy has gone off to help some hapless campers once again, and Annabeth isn't too worried because come on, it's PERCY. Then she reaches into her pocket for something, some change or her keys maybe, and instead she pulls out Riptide in its pen form.

Her fingers close around something narrow and smooth, and Annabeth’s heart stutters to a stop in her chest. 

The kids are dancing around her knees, squealing and hitting out at each other, each calling for her attention, and the baby’s balanced on her hip and crying because her favourite pacifier has gone missing and the gods know she won’t accept any replacements. They’re running horrendously late for lunch with Frederick, and it’s pure chaos, but everything slows down as Annabeth pulls her hand out of her pocket and looks down to see the pen. The magical pen that is always meant to find its way back to Percy’s pocket.

But it’s not in Percy’s pocket, it’s in hers, and that means that he’s gone out to help rescue some campers stranded by the Hudson without any weapon.

Oh, shit.

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anonymous asked:

I just don't feel quite so strongly about the ep as most seem to? I mean, it wasn't a good ep and yeah it was shitty to kill Eileen on top of just being bad writing. But it seems that each season has "that episode." I choose to look at the season as a whole. I'm vastly enjoying the season overall and i'm just not having a hard time shrugging this off as a bad ep by bad writers. I too wish they wouldn't keep doing this, but if i was that tired or focused on the bad i'd quit watching.

(cont) That probably came across worse than i meant for it too:P I just mean that that’s my personal attitude and coping mechanism. If i know realistically nothing’s going to make me stop watching the show, I have to process things different and have a certain outlook. Does that make sense? Again, sorry if I sounded rude!

Hey there! And no, that doesn’t sound rude at all. I mean, that’s the attitude I typically take as well…

And I would absolutely NOT have objected to literally anything else in that episode. I would be standing up for every other bit of it… IF THEY HAD NOT KILLED THE BADASS DEAF HUNTER IN THE FREAKING COLD OPEN.

I’d been willing to overlook the grossness of 12.02 and 12.08 (same writers!) with Sam’s sexualized torture and the skeevy noncon of Lucifer impregnating Kelly like that. I’d rolled my eyes at the time travel fuckery in 12.13 (same writers!) and I thought 12.17 was a mostly solid episode aside from Kelly being a two-dimensional character (not the actresses fault, the idiotic writing).

I’d found things to defend in all of those episodes, because the subtextual through-line of the entire season stuck… 

But honestly? Eileen’s death served one narrative purpose: Tearing down two seasons worth of subtextual through-line.

Like, completely negated the entire point of all of it.

It didn’t serve to tell us that Ketch was a Very Bad Man. WE ALREADY KNEW THAT.

It didn’t serve to tell us that the BMoL were terrible people. WE ALREADY KNEW THAT.

There was A LOT of similarity to 10.21, in that it required characters to be idiotic in order for the surface layer plot to work. AND THAT IS SHITTY WRITING ALL AROUND. And I usually find at least ONE thing to defend, because I do try to stay positive, too. I’m sorta notorious for it.

But consider:


  • Toni let herself in in 11.23 AND SHOT SAM AND BANISHED CAS
  • Ketch showed up there in 12.14
  • Mick let himself in in 12.17

And even after Mick told them IN ACTUAL WORDS That every MoL safehouse around the world used the same key, and there were theoretically hundreds of them floating around out there… WHY THE FUCK DIDN’T THEY CHANGE THE LOCKS?!




Like… Why didn’t they take her to some skeevy motel or something? What was the point of bringing her to the bunker?

Then one of the things Ketch did during their quick jaunt to trap Toni was to disable ALL the electric, water, and ventilation systems AND CHANGED THE FUCKING LOCKS.

Good job guys.

Obviously they weren’t expecting Mary to have been brainwashed and that kinda caught them wrong-footed in that respect, but SHEESH.

And Crowley… I mean, good for him jumping into the rat, but WHY THE FUCK DID HE EVER THINK HE COULD KEEP LUCIFER ON A LEASH IN THE FIRST DAMN PLACE?

AND WHY WOULD ANY OF US EVEN CARE?! I was happier when I thought Amara killed Luci back in 11.22. I’ve tolerated his presence in the narrative this season because there did seem to be a point to it, up through 12.07… but really. I just do not care about Lucifer.

Crowley working with the BMoL smacked of the deal he’d attempted to make with Dick Roman back in s7. I figure he’s the source of a lot of the BMoL’s actually GOOD intel, because in every other respect their intel has absolutely sucked.

Toni scored a hit on Mary with her description of John’s parenting of Sam and Dean tonight, and I assume that came from Crowley. He’s probably been slipping them tidbits from the Supernatural books here and there…

I’m having a hard time believing he’d have slipped the info about the Colt at Ramiel’s house to them, because he KNEW it would blow back directly on HIM if anyone bothered any of the princes of Hell… Seems like a risky move to send the BMoL after him and stir up that nest of hornets.

But at least Sam and Dean know the truth now, that the BMoL are wiping out hunters. That they killed Eileen, and all the rest.


Really, all Sam and Dean needed to hear were two things, and that would’ve been enough to convey the same level of upset:

  1. That Ketch killed Magda, as well as the soldiers in 12.09
  2. That Mary’s mission at Ramiel’s wasn’t just to hunt the demon, but TO STEAL THE COLT

That’s it. Just TELLING them both these two things (and honestly Sam already knew point 2, but it would’ve infuriated Dean) would’ve inspired the right level of outrage in each of them.

They showed us Mary brainwash-edly killing Random White Hunter Dude and FINE OKAY, but really Ketch and his hellhound could’ve picked ANY “hunter” to kill in the cold open and it would’ve served the same purpose.

The fact that it was a disabled female character pretty much universally beloved by the fandom who was a successful hunter and a friend to Sam (SERIOUSLY?! SAM MAKES ONE (1) DAMN FRIEND AND YOU HAVE TO KILL HER?!) even leaving out the wild rash of Saileen shipping and excitement that Sam might have something with her in canon someday, it’s just sickening to me.

Anyway, I’ve got a headache and I think I’m losing coherency. I think I’ve run through all my steam. 

People who slam doors and stomp their feet to show how much they want to physically hurt you shouldn’t be trusted

To the person/people who I have spent too much of my time thinking about. To the person/people I have wasted my energy on. To person/people who I gave my all too, and received nothing in return. I hope you are out living life to the fullest because even you deserve to be happy.

I hope you find what you are looking for, and are finally content where you are. I hope you have the adventures and thrills you were seeking. I hope you meet people who genuinely care about you, and you genuinely care about. I hope only for the best, for you.

I hope we don’t meet again. And if we do, I hope you have changed. I hope you learned something.

thanks-b  asked:

Hello Jenny, ur account is so inspiring, so that's why I want to ask u for advice. I'm really hard-working person, but I can't deal with my homework. U know I have to study all lessons and it doesn't depends on what I'll acc pass as my finals. So I was wondering if u know how to help me not starting crying any time I start doing my homework, Bc I feel like I have so much to do and tbh it's really ( I swear) impossible to do. Sorry for the typos I'm Russian tho..


“Cry as hard as you want to but  just make sure that when you stop crying, you will never cry for the same reason again”.

Hi, how are you? 

OMG thank you so so much for sending me this message and it means a world to me hahaha.

Well you need to know one thing is that it’s okay to cry, to feel sad, to feel tired, sometimes. Tbh, I (everybody) have the exact same problem like you and there so too many things that need to get done and we all don’t know where to start. Maybe after you cry you will realize something (like how to do that exercise).

Here are my tips after crying (I hope that it will work):

1.  Determine/Analyze the reason why you can’t do that exercise

2. Make a list of things you need to get done.

3. Create a schedule so you know what to study!

4. You need to get a calendar or planner to see things need to get done or any tests in that week

5. If you have a test make sure that you start to learn at least one week before.

6. If you don’t understand or know how to do that exercises, you need to think first and if you still don’t know how to do it then ask your friends, your teachers, like anybody or just google it!

7. DO NOT DO ALL YOUR HOMEWORK AT THE SAME TIME, SPREAD THEM OUT (like if you have math test on Friday you should start doing your homework at least two or three days before so you will never will feel overwhelmed)

8. If you have so much things to in one day try “Touch it once” rule

9. If you have monday/anyday homework, finish it on the same day

10. Review things you just learned on the same day, the day after and on sunday

11. Take a 5-10 minutes break after 25-45 minutes study

(make sure that you are taking a break not study, and don’t do things that make you procrastinate like watching youtube/movies instead of that you show go around, do some stretching, drink water,etc.)

12. Reward yourself for working so hard

13. Don’t study in dark or in your comfort zone make sure that you have enough light, and your study space must smell good, you can also put some motivation pictures (go to my account to see hahaha ), and know need to have cup of water on your desk

14. Study with your friends can also help you too!

15. Get enough sleep and eat healthy food!

There will be more but I can remember so sorry!

Have a nice year!

p/s: my grammar is not really good:)


So from tomorrow till the 16th there won’t be art from me since I’ll be on the drive back home(and a few days staying in LA).

Idk if I’ll post something right away as I get settled back at home. But yeah a heads up!

I always feel bad when I’m tired after a day of doing absolutely nothing of value. My NT friends are in my eyes justified in being tired at the end of the day because they usually worked all day at their respective jobs whereas I’ve done nothing but laundry and play iPad games most of the day today. So I feel like such a lazy person when I say yes I am tired. But I got thinking, with autism and SPD, everything around me, even being in my safe home environment is cranked to the nth level to my body. My brain has a hard time processing even the simplest of tasks such as eating or showering or doing a few loads of laundry. The constant drone of my house’s central air system sounds like a jackhammer to my ears so it’s no wonder I am tired. I’ve been processing everything around me at the highest sensitivity all day and that’s how it is most days. I’m always tired. I guess too it comes from being a spoonie. Even simple chores can use them up. Idk I just still feel bad and like a deadbeat sometimes. It sucks.

kaephei  asked:

I'm currently stressing myself out over my portfolio for university so I'm trying to take a step back and binge on some Diabolik Lovers. Could you please do some reactions of the guys (of whichever family you like I'm not fussed) seeing their S/O with paint smudges on their face OR getting stressed over their art work. Thank you! <3

I wrote it with the Mukami bros… But if you want the Sakamaki too, just ask~

♥Ruki: Livestock, stop painting and go rest for a while. It’s an order. I can’t have you getting tired when I’m already drinking your blood… So, drop the brush on this instant.

♥Kou: Are you organizing your portfolio again? Ugh, why don’t you spend some time with me instead, M Neko-chan? That thing will only stress you more. So leave it, for now~

♥Yuma: Agh, look at you, Sow! You even have paint on your hair! Tch. Get over here, stop working for a while. I’ve got an interesting activity for both of us, heh.

♥Azusa: Eve… I think you should rest… I understand… If this is your work… But you’ve been ignoring me… A lot, lately… Here, let me clean your face…

anonymous asked:

Hi there! I have a genuine q. Why do you most kuro fans believe Seb and Ciel are in an intimate relationship (that's not shown explicitly to readers)? I get all the fanservice (fangirl over it tbh), but the kid -freaks- when others touch him. It's even happened with Sebastian. Yana sensei hints the cult assaulted him so all the 'don't touch me!' moments stem from that. Given Ciel's visible trauma, I'm kinda scratching my head why so many people legitimately think Ciel wants to do his butler?

I’m too bloody tired to answer this once again. @rabid-bunny - can I have a quick link to your lovely this-explains-everything answer post? (I will pay you in semi nsfw Sebastian cosplay photos later)