but i'm sure about the answer

anonymous asked:

5 for COFT please? ( also that latest chapter of TGATNW was super great. hot damn that subtle torture!)

5: What part was hardest to write?

It was really hard starting, because I was so sure - like so sure - that people wouldn’t read it or want to read it. And there was actually a drop off between Game Theory and The Court of Five Thrones (some people love GT and not COFT, some people love COFT and not GT, some people don’t love either etc.)

Additionally, I had just cut off from an intensely emotionally abusive person, who was at the time quite entangled in my writing in a not healthy way. And so I’d not only cut off a relationship that had been super important to me for such a long time, some of their parting words included them strongly urging me not to write COFT because they had zero interest in it as a project. That, combined with the abuse, meant that COFT became a lot more to me than just…a story.

But that meant it also became more intimidating. My self-esteem has never been great, and it was pretty shattered at that point. I didn’t like any of my writing. I felt really burned out (and I was). One of the most helpful therapists I’d ever seen, left the state after confirming that I was in the equivalent of a verbal domestic violence relationship and she recommended a thing called No Contact which was really fucking hard, and I was in a grey area of looking for a new therapist, and I’d also lost a few other friends who I cared about deeply, or alternatively, the friendships changed to the point where we became acquaintances. Like, this irl stuff had a massive knock on effect, but these were often also people I knew on Tumblr, and so I was suddenly like, wait… what?

So I’ll always remember the first 5 chapters as the hardest. Introducing new characters, trying to find my way through a new format, losing friends, almost constantly suicidal for months, unable to reach out here (I felt muzzled by the situation), and also not really sure about myself. Things many people go through, but just felt sharper because of all this other stuff.

I’ve had writer’s block since then, sometimes pretty bad, but nothing compares to that period of time where I seriously was considering quitting writing and deleting Game Theory, and my finger would hover over the ‘delete this work’ button so many times you have no idea because I couldn’t stand myself.

So, so glad I worked through that.

Matt: M-me!? What n-no I don- 

Tom: Oh, Right so who is she, Matt?!

Matt: N-no I- Tom I don’t! It’s not-

Tom: You so do!? You have to tell me you sneaky bastard! 

Matt: T-Tom, please!

anonymous asked:

Hi! I feel really bad about this since you just talked about people not demanding that fic writers write things so I'm going to do my best to be polite. I just saw the live-action beauty and the beast and with all the wonderful aus that you've written I would LOVE to see you write a beauty and the beast au for e/R! It just fits so perfectly. Anyway thank you for all that you've written I love all your fics so much and I hope you have a good day! 😘😘

First and foremost, this is absolutely the type of polite ask that you don’t need to feel bad for asking, so no need to feel bad, Nonny!

Secondly, I went and saw the new Beauty and the Beast last night and while I have thoughts™, now is not the time to share them (save to say that I loved it). As for an E/R Beauty and the Beast AU, it is indeed on the surface a tale made for E/R, which is why it’s perhaps not surprising that it’s been done before.

Not that that’s ever stopped me, mind, but it does mean that if I were to write a Beauty and the Beast AU, it’d have to be a different take on it than what’s already been done.

Now, the new Beauty and the Beast offers an intriguing angle in the form of the Beast’s new tragic backstory™ which makes the Beast’s role less tailor-made for Grantaire, believe it or not, and much more intriguing for our beloved Enjolras. Of course, that would leave Grantaire as the beauty, and as we well know, no one would ever accuse Grantaire of being beautiful (save for a very stubborn Enjolras). 

But what watching Beauty and the Beast last night (and the animated version again today) reminded me is that it’s not just Belle that has to learn to love the Beast – the spell states that when he (the beast) learns to love another and earns her love in return, the spell will be broken. And obviously most of Beauty and the Beast focuses on the latter portion. I think the new version took some strides towards showing the Beast learning to love Belle but, like, it’s not difficult to love someone who’s beautiful and a nice person. It’s just not.

So what if the Beauty started as ugly on the inside as the Beast was on the outside?

What if, instead of being cursed with Hugo’s conflation of ugly circumstances and therefore ugly appearance (giving you the side-eye, V. Hugs), Grantaire is handsome, conventionally speaking, but thinks – nay, knows – that he is beastly on the inside? And Enjolras, of course, though still capable of being terrible, is still the same good person who wants to change the world on the inside, but is of course beastly on the outside.

That, my friends, leaves us with a delightful possibility for a story – two men, both beasts, both of whom must learn to put aside their beastly nature in order to earn someone else’s love in return when neither thinks they really deserve it. That might well be a tale worth telling, even if it’s not quite a tale as old as time.

anonymous asked:

How would you feel about someone getting a bright sessions tattoo?? Like the logo or the phrase "I need you to keep me green" or anything from the show really ???? Would you be comfortable with that???

Oh boy, what a question! I am very much of the mind that people’s bodies are their own and no one has any business telling them what to do with it. So if you’re a sober adult, you tattoo whatever you want on your body. If you’re comfortable, I’m comfortable. 

On a broader, philosophical level, the thought of someone getting words that I wrote permanently put on their body is incredibly weird and surreal and also super flattering? If anyone does get a TBS tattoo, pls send pics because I literally cannot even conceptualize how I would react to that. Like: really? A thing from my brain???? On your body???? Forever???? Wild. 

Clarke and the list in 4x04

I’m travelling and working all weekend so here’s my review of the ep: it was my least favourite of the season but I liked it and there were some great moments in there.

At some point I will share some more detailed thoughts re. everything Raven because that shit was GREAT.

For now I want to talk about Clarke and the list, and a few issues I have…possibly more with interpretation than the actual show, depending on how things go.

1. I think it’s really important we remember that the list was NEVER supposed to be seen. It was a HYPOTHETICAL list in the worst case scenario. It was NOT Clarke’s ‘plan’. She didn’t want it. She was, and is, dedicated to saving everyone. She was being a GOOD LEADER in covering all outcomes.

2. The list not being locked up and secure is a writer contrivance that I refuse to blame Clarke for.

3. Clarke’s only real mistake in this episode was how she tried to handle it once the truth came out which was, funnily enough, BEING HONEST. She explained her VERY SOUND LOGIC to the people.

4. Jaha’s lottery suggestion was to APPEASE people. It was deceptive af. He knows Clarke was on to the right thing. Her list wasn’t the issue. The truth coming out WAS.

5. A lottery will cause all sorts of problems. It was a short term solution to quiet the mob. The long term? You think everyone will nobly do their best and then accept judgement? Na mate. People will fight. They will try to sabotage others. And let’s say, hypothetically, that everyone works to the best of their ability…then we are in the exact same position! Somebody still has to pick 100 people.

6. Jaha stepped in and helped diffuse a situation. But his solution is a painkiller, not a cure.

7. Essentially, I’m not here for people acting like Clarke did some terrible thing and that the lottery!!! is some perfect solution.

8. It ain’t.

anonymous asked:

Everyone??? Has??? Eyelashes??? Why do people think that eyelashes=female??????

as an actual serious answer, it’s because eyelashes have been used to denote femaleness in cartoons since forever. animal characters especially are usually given long eyelashes and bows so that there can be NO DOUBT about whether the character is male or female.

of course, eyelashes and accessories are neither male- nor female-exclusive! in a twist of irony, our frisk has the shortest eyelashes of the bunch here.

anonymous asked:

This is probably a stupid question, but how does Killua manipulate his hand to make his nails sharper? Is it mentioned in the manga? Or am I just missing something? I haven't read the manga yet so all I really have to go off of is the anime.

It’s not stupid at all! It’s a very good question, one I really should have thought of before now haha

From what I remember of the manga- which I read over a year ago now so I’m sorry if this is wrong- they don’t go into detail about how Killua can manipulate his hands, either. I’ve always just assumed that it was an assassin technique that Killua’s parents taught him when he was younger.

I’m sorry if this didn’t help at all ^^; Thank you for the ask though!

(BUT ON A DIFFERENT NOTE you should definitely read the manga!!!! It’s so great and wonderful and Togashi’s style is simple but really nice and reading the manga makes you fall in love with the characters all over again, it’s such a great experience!!!! I would definitely recommend reading it)

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The answer is no. Absolutely no. If she thought she could win this fight why would she be offering to sell the victory to us even for a fortune? Trust me.

anonymous asked:

hi !! i love your art btw but i need advice, there's a slim chance i could be a concept artist for my studio but i need to send in a portfolio and sample character designs, almost all of my character designs are fan art which i can't submit but ifk how i should go about making a bunch of new ones

I’m not sure what advise you’re expecting from me. How to come up with original character designs? I’m not a professional and I’ve never created a portfolio so I have no idea if this can help you in any way or not but this is what I do sometimes when creating a character - I made up a story (it doesn’t have to be anything complicated) like imagine an Italian florist, he’s tall, has a big nose (because he loves smells of flowers :)) and curly hair. He’s in love with a woman who buys flowers in his shop every day. Such a flower shop au (I’m disappointed in myself xD) And here he is:

① Something like this? :)
② Look how happy he is when he talks about the woman of his dreams! lol
But what if he was short and plump? Well… in ③ he looks more like a mafioso, I can hear his hoarse voice “You’ll all be pushing up daisies…”

Anyway, you can draw whatever, whoever, but if you know a bit the character you want to draw it’s easier to make them look the way you want and give them a particular personality. This is why you’ve no problem with designs based on someone else’s stories. You already know those characters. Now you just need to make up something yours?
Good luck with the job!!! :)

trashfandom14  asked:

GO WATCH BEAUTY AND THE BEAST IN THEATERS U WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED ITS REALLY GOOD AND THEY MADE THE BEAST SING AND AAAAAHHHHHH

I’ve heard mixed reviews, but I do definitely want to see it! I read that they did a really good job portraying the Beast and Belle’s relationship!

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AAAAAAAAAAAaaaa– look at what I received yesterday!!
this is so beautiful JUST LOOK AT THEM T T

Thank you so much @yankasmiles​ your message made me really happy! I think I had forgotten how to breathe (I’m so shy I didn’t expect you to have seen my art agiokbnlbl… thank youuu ; ;)

By the way I am the anon who had sent an ask about sending you a gift as a thanks a few weeks ago! I’m sorry I haven’t answered you back yet I want to make sure I’ll be able to make a great gift for you beforehand >///<

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It Came From The Trees -  by whatshouldntbe

“He’s done it again,” Derek says as he stares at Stiles like he’s accusing him of something. “Peter. He’s been in my room. What did he give you this time?”

“Uh,” is Stiles’s intelligent rebuttal. “A grey wolf? But dude—how many stuffed animals do you have?”

“Oh Derek never had a shortage of toys when he was little,” Laura answers. “He likes to cuddle. You could always find him in a puppy pile with a whole animal kingdom of plushies.”

anonymous asked:

What would you say are your favorite manhwas/webcomics? Or favorite BL mangas? I love everything you post so I'm curious what your favorites are. :)

favorite manhwas/webcomics

  1. out of control 
  2. moritat
  3. killing stalking
  4. dark heaven
  5. hate mate (tbh not sure if I actually love this or hate but damn the art is so good)
  6. warehouse
  7. all about lust
  8. if you hate me that much
  9. window beyond window
  10. what lies at the end
  11. heaven and hell roman company

mangas

  1. mods
  2. saezuru tori wa habatakanai
  3. new york new york
  4. banana fish
  5. ze
  6. the inheritance of aroma
  7. j no subete
  8. smells like green spirit
  9. acid town
  10. tourou no ori
  11. canis/the speaker
  12. blood (yura tamaki)

and thank you so much!!! I’m so glad to hear you like them

anonymous asked:

could we maybe see a wip? :)

sure, the latest additions to my WIP folder are these drawings - swan, about to get some:

and @swifty-fox‘s tasos, getting some:

both of these are obviously heavily cropped because of the nature of their content (read: the full images are both nsfw lmao)

anonymous asked:

I see you reblog a lot of Bungou Stray Dogs stuff. Would you recommend it, could you maybe give a brief explanation of what it's about? It looks interesting, and once my semester's over I'm planning on bingeing a few new shows, so I need to build up a list!

I ABSOLUTELY recommend Bungou Stray Dogs! In general, I don’t reblog anything I *wouldn’t* recommend, but for sure, I think everyone should watch Bungou Stray Dogs.

Originally posted by sawtsuki

It’s a little hard to explain though, because I feel like the summary doesn’t accurately convey just how amazing this show is. And I have only watched the anime and read the first volume of the manga, so I feel like there’s actually a whole lot more to the story that I’m only beginning to understand and I might not be the best person to ask for why this show is great. But I can talk at least in general about some of the things that I really liked about the series, and I hope that helps!

First off, I guess the basic summary is that it’s about rival organizations consisting of people who all have superpowers. But I also strongly feel like that summary only conveys a fraction of what is going on in the story, although for the life of me I can’t really summarize it any better than that.

Essentially, this show combines the two great loves of my life: literature and anime. The basic conceit is that every main character has the name of a famous literary author and their supernatural ability is named after one of that author’s major works. I knew that going in and I was very delighted by that fact but it was essentially lost on me until they started introducing the Guild who were all named after American/British/Canadian authors and then my literature-loving heart was ECSTATIC.

I mean, I think there’s just something supremely satisfying about watching a show and thinking, “OF COURSE Nathaniel Hawthorne is a priest! Of course he is! And of course his ability, The Scarlet Letter, would have creepy blood related powers.” And then there are moments when you go, “people ship H P Lovecraft and John Steinbeck?” and think to yourself how strange your life is that you just that thought.

Originally posted by akutagawaas

I will say, and I mean this as a sincere compliment, that I feel like it hits a lot of the same notes as a sports anime. And I feel like BSD fans might resent the comparison, but as I am a die hard sports anime fan, I really do mean that as one of the highest compliments I can give.

Like, you know how in sports anime there manages to be this intense, “We will WIN this, for HONOR. To DEFEAT EVIL. To SAVE THE WORLD” kind of feeling to the games sometimes? BSD has that feel too, only, you know, they actually need to “win” in order to defeat evil and save the world.

And then there’s the Pure Cinnamon Roll, too good for this world, who just Tries His Best main character (which, I am a complete sucker for in a main character, let’s be real here, especially when the pure cinnamon roll is also a badass, as they often are).

Originally posted by chizurou

So on top of that, it also has what sports anime generally does not: really complex world building, plot and character relationships. It also, in my opinion, has the perfect balance between comedic moments and pain. I mean, spoiler alert for the first three episodes, but the first two everything starts off fairly lighthearted, but then by the third episode it’s like, “holy crap, that went to a dark place super fast” but then it never gets *too* dark.

Originally posted by animegifstrash

Originally posted by asparagusoup

I’m the kind of person where if it’s really too much of endless pain, I have a very, very hard time watching it unless it’s an incredible anime otherwise. (Tokyo Ghoul and Psycho-Pass come to mind as shows that were very hard for me to watch but I was still engaged). BSD, I feel, hits that right balance of– when the action goes down, you have legitimate concerns that maybe the characters might not make it out, but overall (so far, later seasons may prove me wrong) BSD never goes to so dark a place that you feel like your soul is heavier just for the watching.

And that is an incredibly hard balance to achieve! A lot of times, when anime (and tv shows, let’s be honest) shifts from “light” to “dark” it pretty much just settles on “dark and pain” from here on out. BSD does a really good job of touching on painful things while still pulling back and having light moments again, and I really respect that in a story.

There’s like, a million other things I really appreciate about the show, but I think I’ll leave off there. So, thanks for asking anon-friend! I hope this helps! It’s definitely worth checking out!

Originally posted by sairenji