but i'm so in love with this little bit i don't know what to do with myself

anonymous asked:

Ah I don't mean to bother you but do you have any advice on how to deal with depression I'm sorry for bothering you I just don't know what to do

 Hey, it’s ok yeah you can totally ask me. I’m probably not the best person to go to because I’m not a therapist or whatever, but I definitely have experience with dealing with Depression so, I’ll tell what you helped me. and hope that maybe it helps you in some way shape or form. 

So when I was in this abusive relationship with my ex, I hit total rock bottom and I have never been so low in my entire life. Honestly if you met me now, and then met me like 2 years ago, you literally would be talking to two different people it was so bad. but I don’t need to go into detail or describe depression. I’m sure you already know what it is very very well. 

So, the killer about Depression is that you feel empty, sad, angry, etc etc, and it’s kills all motivation and drive and inspiration to do the things that you once enjoyed ya know? like, you no longer enjoy doing whatever your hobbies were, and you have no interest in doing them anymore. Depression tells you that you want to is sleep, eat/not eat, sit and stare at nothing, do nothing, not talk to friends or family. And because Depression is so strong, it’s easy to fall into doing those things of just not doing anything, and isolate yourself from any form of social interaction with friends and family etc. And a lot of the time you feel like that’s all you can do, like you don’t have the literal energy to do anything else such as something as simple as getting up out of bed after sleeping in over 10 hours or something. (it’s not laziness, it’s depression.) 

Well those things that Depression makes you want to do, is the exact opposite of what you should do. And those things Depression says you hate and don’t want to do, – all those hobbies, or getting up and taking a walk, talking to friends, doing something, is exactly what you need to do, to help you with your depression. The best medicine I find is distractions, and not letting it control you. It’s tough, especially emotionally, and you’re gonna hate it for a really long time, but eventually doing all those things you useto like, and now hate, the likeness to it starts to come back. but it’s easier said than done, and it takes a LOT OF WORK! and it’s hard. but you can do it! 

Trying to find some kind of reason or obligation helps too. like what really got me on the stepping stones of doing better is I got this Indie game job, and I was given the like impossible task to make over 100 little paintings (all the custom artwork) in 3 and a half weeks, high quantity, in high quality. It forced me to paint and draw even though I had like no interest in art because of the major depression I was feeling, and that job forced me to draw 8 to sometimes 15 hours a day. It was brutal, and for a bit I hated having to draw so much cuz I didn’t really enjoy art, but then forcing myself to get up and do something I hate (but once loved) I started to like it again. And then when the Indie game ended, I wanted to keep pushing myself to improve and have a reason to keep me drawing, which is why I started Youtube. And it really helped me build my confidence and fight against the depression. 

Now the thing is, Depression never goes away, it’s a mental illness and it’s not something you can get rid of like a virus or bacteria. BUT FEAR NOT! just hear me out!  It’s a constant battle everyday. You can’t be cured, and no amount of therapy or med can change that. Don’t fall into the misconception that meds/therapy fixes the issues, because it doesn’t. It is HELP. and Help isn’t fixing, it is assistance for YOU to fix things. So getting medical or therapeutic help is definitely good and I promote it, but you can’t rely on it to fix your problems, because it has to be you to put forth the initiative, which is why I told you what I did above first. Meds and therapy try to regulate your hormones and work out solutions for you to deal with the issues in yourself and your environment so you can work out your depression. so the goal in getting better isn’t to find a cure, even still to this day I struggle with it a lot, and I have my moments and my episodes sometimes. BUT I’m not saying you’re going to be miserable for the rest of your life, because the truth is, you can be happy, while having depression. 

The goal is to learn how to maintain and live with it, so you aren’t controlled by it. I have control over my depression right now, and despite that it’s still always there in the back of my mind and it resurfaces sometimes, I’m actually very happy and have become a pretty stable person. (especially compared to who I use to be) 

So start by forcing yourself to get up, doing small things, try to seek out interests that distract you from depression, but also force yourself to fulfill responsibilities (work, school, chores, etc) which helps you get stronger and start gaining control of the depression. Seriously something I find very helpful is going on a walk. It’s easy to just slump around or sleep in bed and never get up, but walking, (that thing that you don’t want to do) actually helps a lot, and there’s a scientific reason for it too, not just it sounding nice. But the more you can do for yourself, and others even, the better you’ll feel, even if it doesn’t seem that way or a long time. It takes a lot of time to crawl out of the rut you’re in, but you’ll get the if you just keep going. 

I know I don’t give the best advice, but, I hope this helps in some way. 

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Garrett and Marian - Legacy Banters
  • Marian: Well... not quite how I imagined this family reunion going. I was envisioning more hugs and maybe some wine over dinner. Not attempted assassinations
  • Carver: Really? You think this is so abnormal for our family?
  • Marian: Well you got me there
  • ---
  • Bethany: What could our father have to do with this mess? The Carta have had more than enough time to try and find us
  • Garrett: I imagine that having two Champions of Kirkwall with the last name Hawke may have tipped them off
  • Bethany: But it's been three years since you and sis defeated the Arishok. Why wait that long?
  • Marian: Well I don't know about you, but if I was going to go after the people who killed an Arishok then I'd probably want to make a little time for planning, wouldn't you?
  • Carver: Do these morons strike you as the sensible type?
  • Marian: Two points in one day Carver? Don't tell me the Templars are actually drilling some wit into that skull of yours
  • Carver: *laughs* At least /my/ wit makes a point, dear sister
  • Bethany: Ooh, that had to hurt
  • Garrett: Do you need some healing for that one, Marian?
  • Marian: Oh shove off, all of you
  • ---
  • Garrett: And we're back in the Deep Roads
  • Marian: Oh it's not that bad. I mean... Look at all the... Ugh, no, you're right this is terrible. Let's all promise never to go to the Deep Roads after this. Three times is enough
  • Garrett: Three times? When was the second?
  • Marian: Um... well...
  • Carver and Bethany: *sing song voices* Somebody's in trouble
  • ---
  • Bethany: Varric wrote to me the other day
  • Garrett: Telling another of his stories, I bet. Was it the one about the high dragon, because that didn't really-
  • Bethany: No. He was giving me an update. On you, actually. I was... worried, so I wrote to him and asked
  • Garrett: I'm fine Beth. Really
  • Bethany: No you're not. Not yet. But I know you, and if anyone can get past it, you can
  • Garrett: Thank you
  • ---
  • Carver: You might want to be watch yourself, Garrett
  • Garrett: How come?
  • Carver: Ever since you sided with Orsino the other day, there's been... Rumours. Meredith isn't happy with you, and it's only because she allows it that you're still free
  • Garrett: So is she going to have me dragged to the Circle, or is she getting the Brand ready now?
  • Fenris: Don't say that
  • Carver: I would never let it get that far. But I thought I'd warn you, just in case you were thinking about making her mad
  • Garrett: I appreciate you telling me Carver. Don't worry. I'll be careful
  • ---
  • *after completing Malcolm's Will*
  • Marian: So... the stonework down here is... lovely, isn't it?
  • Carver: Not now, Mary
  • Marian: I was only... Alright
  • ---
  • Marian: Are you okay, Gary?
  • Garrett: I'm fine... Just...
  • Marian: He loved you. And Bethany. He'd be so proud of you
  • Garrett: You sound so sure of that
  • Marian: Of course I am. Because it's true. And don't let that nasty shit in your head tell you otherwise - it's a liar, remember
  • Garrett: *chuckles* Alright
  • Bethany: Be careful sister, people might think you've got a heart after all
  • Marian: *dramatically* Oh no! *clutches chest* I think... I think I'm getting feelings! Quick, someone beat them out of me!
  • Carver: *laughs* You be careful what you wish for sister
  • Isabela: I'd rather ride them out of you
  • Garrett: Ah, and there's the dirty line. I was starting to worry something was wrong Bela
  • Isabela: And you're as sweet as ever, Garrett
  • ---
  • Varric: Twenty silvers, that's my final offer. Take it or leave it Elf
  • Marian: What are you betting on, and why am I getting left out of it?
  • Varric: You want in? We're betting on what it'll take to get Junior and Waffles to hug
  • Garrett: *groans* You're not calling me 'Waffles' again, are you?
  • Varric: I have to. Every time I say 'Hawke' all four of you turn around. I'm being considerate
  • Carver: I bet there's /someone/ here who'd like to see him covered in syrup
  • Garrett: Carver!
  • Fenris: *embarrassed noises*
  • Isabela: Ooh, new friend-fiction idea!
  • Garrett: Don't you even dare!
  • Isabela: Too late, already dared. Can we make camp? I need to make notes
  • ---
  • Varric: Hey, Rivaini, I'm expecting royalties if that friend-fiction of yours gets published
  • Carver: When you didn't even come up with it?
  • Varric: You wouldn't have brought up syrup if I didn't call him Waffles
  • Garrett: Maker save me...
  • Bethany: And me...
  • Marian: Usually I like dirty things... But this is too far, even for me
  • Isabela: Are you saying you wouldn't like it if /I/ were covered in syrup?
  • Marian: Oh I'm sorry. I didn't realise you were my very hairy twin brother, Bela
  • Isabela: Well when you put it that way...
  • ---
  • Isabela: I always thought we were the loud ones, you know
  • Fenris: What?
  • Marian: I know right. Maybe they're just less shy about it now
  • Garrett: Do I want to know?
  • Isabela: You already know. Or did you deafen yourself?
  • Marian: To think, they don't need us shouting encouragement through the wall anymore. I'm so proud
  • Isabela: Our boys are growing up so fast. Maybe next they'll master foreplay
  • Carver: Oh Maker, I do not want to hear this
  • Bethany: Neither do I
  • Garrett: *loudly* And I would be very happy if we could stop talking about this. Right now
  • Isabela: Yeah, see. That kind of loud
  • Fenris: *deadpan* If you're so fascinated by Garrett being loud, then you must not be doing a very good job at making Marian scream, Isabela
  • Marian: Oooooooo
  • Isabela: Oh, you snarky little shit
  • Bethany: *loudly* If we could stop discussing my older brother's and sister's sex lives, I would appreciate it
  • Carver: *loudly* Oh look, more darkspawn. Let's kill them so we can stop talking about this
  • ---
  • Marian: So our choices are the nice, Tainted madman, or the mage who wants to let a darkspawn magister out of his hole in the ground? Why can we never make nice decisions, like what kind of wine to have with dinner?
  • Fenris: I agree. It is the only decision worth making
  • Marian: When you're not throwing it at the walls, I assume?
  • Fenris: That was six years ago
  • Marian: And you never offered me a glass
  • Fenris: You are recycling jokes now? Has the great Marian Hawke's wit finally lost it's edge?
  • Marian: Ooh, you are just asking for it now
  • ---
  • Varric: You okay Garrett? You've been a bit quiet since-
  • Garrett: I'm fine Varric. There's more important things to be worried about right now
  • Varric: It's not easy to realise that someone you looked up to wasn't quite what you imagined. You ever need to talk, you know where my suite is
  • ---
  • Isabela: So... is no one going to bring up the fact that Varric called Garrett by his name earlier?
  • Varric: What are you talking about Rivaini? Waffles and I were just having a friendly chat
  • Isabela: Don't bullshit me. You called him Garrett. I heard you
  • Varric: That doesn't sound like me, Rivaini
  • Marian: He called you by your name when Velasco carted you off to Castillon
  • Isabela: What?! No fair, I didn't get to hear!
  • ---
  • Bethany: Are you sure about this, brother?
  • Garrett: It has to be done
  • Bethany: I could do it. I am a Hawke after all, and a mage. You don't need to-
  • Garrett: No, Bethany
  • Bethany: But-!
  • Garrett: Bethy, if I let you use blood magic, I'd never be able to live with myself
  • Bethany: And if you do it, will you be able to live with it?
  • Garrett: I'd rather it be me than you
  • ---
  • Varric: If he pulls a dragon out of his ass, I'm leaving!
  • Marian: Oh great, and now he's almost certain to pull a dragon out of his arse! Way to go Varric
  • ---
  • Bethany: Here, you didn't get a chance to close that wound earlier
  • Garrett: Thank you
  • Fenris: I just hope it was worth it
  • Marian: Well we /did/ just kill a darkspawn magister. I can't wait to hear how Varric tells this one
  • Varric: Well I doubt I'll have to exaggerate a damn thing, considering how weird this shit is
  • Fenris: That isn't what I meant...
  • Garrett: I'd have avoided it if I could, but someone had to. And if it meant sparing my little sister from that...
  • Fenris: I understand. But... Please, just be more careful from now on
  • Garrett: I will, I promise
  • Isabela: You two are so sappy... It's actually rather cute
at fifteen you will be so sweet and see no cruel in this awful world until you meet that boy with the bags under his eyes and that car he stole and you’ve always imagined your first boyfriend to be a good boy with a good family but you ended up falling in love with the boy who misses more classes than anything else, who hates his mother and doesn’t even know his father. at fifteen you were a sweetheart so in love with the world you were so optimistic. you met him at your first party you never had a taste of alcohol before he handed to you more shots of vodka than you could ever count but by the time you could remember anything you were in his car giving him a little bit more than just your first kiss. he wasn’t anything you’ve ever imagined, no one you ever thought would be the death of you. that one time became into an everyday, and i guess the more time you spend with someone you start acting like them. it went from skipping classes, failing tests, hating your mother, drinking drinking and more fucking drinking because he told you it would bandage the scars on your wrist and make you feel better. you would come home smelling like his hoodies that he gave you, thats all you would wear now and it was hard to tell if your breath would smell more like cigarettes or beer and your father warned you about him but all you could say is ‘daddy I’m so in love with him.’ you don’t know what love is until they leave you, they fucking leave you and your left crying on the bathroom floor every single night for what seems like just yesterday he left but your mom reminds you its been 6 months and your still hurt from the boy with the bags under his eyes you fucking swear he gets no sleep at night that how is it possible that he woke up one morning deciding he didn’t want you anymore. his bad habits soon became yours. now you are seventeen and you fall inlove with any single boy just so you have a new excuse to blame on why you want to fucking die when you break up but you and your mom know that you still want to die because of that same boy from that party that made you believe that if you drink enough beer it starts to cover up your scars and makes you fall in love but little did he know he was the one bandaging your scars and you were more in love with him than the alcohol or anyone else for that matter. you loved him more than yourself and now you know better. you only wish that at seventeen someone would have warned you that at fifteen you were going to meet someone that would alter your entire world and change the way you view people and live your life. you never love as strong as you do at fifteen when you’ve never been hurt before and you never fall as fucking fast as you do when your first love crashes his fucking car right into you and you feel like you’ve died ten times over, but no he never fucking hit you with his car fuck he never even hit you with a good bye it was just a ‘ill text you when i get home babe’ and you never got that text, i wish i could say your still making your way back home but that was two years ago and I’m almost 18 breaking other boys bones just to show myself that I’m as strong as you are. I’m starting to become a lot like the person who destroyed me, i lie through my teeth and spit out i love you to any boy just to make them fall in love with me but then i crash right into them and flip their whole world upside down when i leave them in tears but little do they know I’ve been counting down the days before i leave them just the way you probably did. for someone who doesn’t sleep anymore i woke up pretty fucking fast from my liquor filled evenings to just wake up and decide i was done with them the same way you were done with me so fast, my head is still spinning from the alcohol and i don't remember how i fucking became this monster but you become the things you love and god knowns i fucking loved you.  I'm hurting others to try and bandage the scars you left me with but i guess i have to learn that unless i heal from you i will always be just like you because you are all I’ve ever known and i can’t stop being like you because its the closest thing ill ever have left of you because you haven’t returned my texts from when i was sixteen kissing any boy pretending it was you.
— 

fifteen through seventeen 

~j

Ed Sheeran sentence starters
  • "I saw a shooting star and thought of you."
  • "You were lying next to me, I looked across and fell in love."
  • "If you wanna put this on me, that’s fine, I never blamed you for anything at all."
  • "The world looks better through your eyes."
  • "It's only been one night of love and maybe that is not enough."
  • "If I fall for you, would you fall too?"
  • "It's not a homeless life for me, it's just I'm home less than I'd like to be."
  • "I haven't slept for the past week, two hours ain't enough for me."
  • "I'm drunk off last nights whisky and coke."
  • "You can stay with me forever or you could stay with me for now."
  • "Outside the day is up and calling, but I don't have to be so, please go back to sleep."
  • "Never been better since all the therapy."
  • "And you know, if I let you go, I'll still keep you safe."
  • "You are the one I fall asleep with but never wake up to."
  • "The worst things in life come free to us."
  • "I wanna be drunk when I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed."
  • "What didn't kill me, it never made me stronger at all."
  • "I know I'll never hold you like I used to."
  • "I'll be drunk again to feel a little love."
  • "I know you'll never love me like you used to."
  • "I found your hair band on my bedroom floor, the only evidence that you've been here before."
  • "I don't drink like everybody else, I do it to forget things about myself."
  • "There's no chance that we'll work it out."
  • "I said that's fine, but you're the only one that knows I lied."
  • "Everybody said we'd be together forever."
  • "Everything's great and everything's sure, but you live in your halls and I live in a tour bus."
  • "Pain is only relevant if it still hurts."
  • "If I was gonna go somewhere, I'd be there by now."
  • "I should ink my skin with your name."
  • "I should run you a hot bath and fill it up with bubbles."
  • "You should never cut your hair 'cause I love the way you flick it off your shoulder."
  • "You will never know just how beautiful you are to me."
  • "Maybe you're hoping for a fairy tale, too."
  • "This is the start of something beautiful."
  • "And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm."
  • "I'm out of touch, I'm out of love."
  • "I think I love you better now."
  • "Playing a different show every night in front of a new crowd."
  • "Let me sing and do my thing and move to greener pastures."
  • "You need me, man, I don’t need you."
  • "Never be anything but a singer-songwriter, yeah."
  • "People think that I’m bound to blow up."
  • "I haven’t got a house, plus I live on a couch."
  • "They say I’m up and coming like I'm fucking in an elevator."
  • "Settle down with me, and I'll be your safety, you'll be my lady."
  • "I'm falling for your eyes, but they don't know me yet."
  • "Give me love like her, 'cause lately I've been waking up alone."
  • "All I want is the taste that your lips allow."
  • "Give me love like never before, 'cause lately I've been craving more."
  • "It's been a while but I still feel the same... maybe I should let you go."
  • "Another love that's gone to waste."
  • "If I kissed you, will your mouth read this truth?"
  • "Darling, how I miss you."
  • "You made me scream, but then I made you cry."
  • "Maybe you should learn to love her like the way you wanna be loved."
  • "I never told her that I liked the way she dances slightly out of time and pretends she knows the words to a song she's never heard."
  • "You’re not her, though I try to see you differently."
  • "I will try to find another one who suited me as well as her."
  • "We never even tried, we never even talked, we never even thought in the long run."
  • "Whenever it was painful, whenever I was away, I’d miss you."
  • "I didn't mean to break your heart."
  • "Everybody falls apart sometimes."
  • "I know you've found another one, but won't you just hold me tonight."
  • "They don't know we don't speak anymore."
  • "I will stop trying to fall in love again... it never works out anyway."
  • "But I am not anything like I was."
  • "I don't wanna lose a lover and friend in one night if that's alright."
  • "I shouldn't have fucked with your mind and your life too many times."
  • "I never meant to sleep around, I was just lonely."
  • "When I see my future, it is with you."
  • "We're not friends, nor have we ever been."
  • "If they find out, will it all go wrong?"
  • "We're not friends, we could be anything."
  • "Friends don't treat me like you do."
  • "Tell me that you turned down the man who asked for your hand 'cause you're waiting for me."
  • "I know, you're gonna be away a while, but I've got no plans at all to leave."
  • "Just promise me, you'll never leave again."
  • "Just promise me, you'll always be a friend."
  • "Everything changes, but we'll be strangers if we see this through."
  • "I've been sat with you for most of the night, ignoring everybody here."
  • "Don't you worry if I disappear."
  • "I'm not really looking for another mistake."
  • "I was never looking for a friend."
  • "Maybe you could swing by my room around ten, baby, bring a lemon and a bottle of gin."
  • "Baby, if you wanted me then you should've just said."
  • "Maybe we'll go together and just figure it out."
  • "Trust and respect is what we do this for."
  • "You didn't need to take him to bed that's all."
  • "I never saw him as a threat until you disappeared with him to have sex of course."
  • "It's not like we were both on tour, we were staying on the same fucking hotel floor."
  • "I wasn't looking for a promise or commitment, but it was never just fun and I thought you were different."
  • "This is not the way you realize what you wanted."
  • "It's a bit too much, too late if I'm honest."
  • "Getting high as two kites when we needed to breathe."
  • "I'd disappear, you'd call me selfish, I understand but I can't help it."
  • "So we can either deal with the pain and wait to get on a plane."
  • "You should go, 'cause I ain't ever coming home."
  • "I've been livin' on the road, but then again you should know."
  • "You won't ever be alone... wait for me to come home."
  • "Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul."
  • "When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me."
  • "How'd I get so faded?"
  • "I feel the chemicals burn in my bloodstream."
  • "I've been looking for a lover, thought I'd find her in a bottle."
  • "I'll be feeling this tomorrow."
  • "You look so wonderful in your dress, I love your hair like that."
  • "We are surrounded by all of these lies and people who talk too much."
  • "You got the kind of look in your eyes as if no one knows anything but us."
  • "All that you are is all that I'll ever need."
  • "Just don’t expect me back this evening."
  • "I love him from my skin to my bones but I don’t wanna live in his home."
  • "I was raised to keep quiet."
  • "I don't wanna hate you."
  • "I kind of knew you liked the dude from private school."
  • "I knew he had his eyes on you."
  • "He's not the right guy for you."
  • "Don't hate me 'cause I write the truth."
  • "I would never lie to you but it was never fine to lose you."
  • "I'm just disgusted with the skeletons you sleep with in your closet."
  • "Fact is you're mad at me because I backtrack so casually."
  • "You're practically my family, if we married then I'll guess you'd have to be."
  • "Tragically our love just lost the will to live, but would I kill to give it one more shot? I think not."
  • "I don't love you, baby, I don't need you... I don't want you anymore."
  • "I'm not cut out for life on the road 'cause I didn't know I'd miss you this much."
  • "I guess I'm not the man that you need."
  • "Ever since you went to uni, I've been sofa surfing with a rucksack full of less cash and I guess that could get bad."
  • "When I broke the industry, that's when I broke your heart."
  • "I was supposed to chart and celebrate, but good things are over fast."
  • "I tend to turn you off and switch on my professional features, then I turn the music off and all I'm left with is to pick up my personal pieces."
  • "Success is nothing if you have no one left to share it with."
  • "I know you have a day job, but mine is 24/7."
  • "I still love you and I need you by my side if I could."
  • "The irony is if my career and music didn't exist, in 6 years, you'd probably be my wife with a kid."
  • "I'll die from a thrill, go down in history as just a wasted talent."
  • "Eventually I'll be fine, I know that it was never meant to be."
  • "These things happen for a reason and you can't change shit."
  • "Take my apology, I'm sorry for the honesty, but I had to get this off my chest."
  • "I will be loving you 'til we're 70."
  • "People fall in love in mysterious ways."
  • "I fall in love with you every single day."
  • "For four years I never had a place to stay."
  • "At 16 years old, I moved out of my home."
  • "I tattooed the lyrics onto my arm."
  • "I'll hold ya and you'll think of him."
  • "I'll never trust you again, you can just be a friend."
  • "If we should die tonight, then we should all die together."
Offer to the Robron Fandom

So, starting tonight, things are going to be really bloody difficult for our favourite boys, and there’s no doubt at all that some episodes are going to be….really hard to watch.

I know so many of us (myself included) have latched onto Robron in a big way, and so many of us identify with the boys, and seeing Aaron in prison, suffering abuse, and potentially even drug abuse, is going to be pretty triggering for some people.

So what I’m offering is this. If you want me to, I’m more than happy to watch the episodes (not just tonight, but over the coming weeks/months - the entire duration of this storyline) and then give you a message telling you whether you should avoid watching it or not (or at least, if you’re having a bad day, I can tell you to wait until you’re feeling a bit better before watching the episode/scenes).

I’m already going to do this for another friend here, and I’d be happy to do this for anyone else. Even if we haven’t spoken before, even if we don’t follow each other - it doesn’t matter. Just give me a message and I can make sure I PM you after the episodes and give you an idea of how heavy/intense they are.

I think it’s so important for everyone to look out for each other. I know a lot of what will happen in these episodes will be revealed in gifsets and written posts, but that’s not the same as watching it on screen, hearing the words and seeing exactly what’s going down.

This storyline is going to contain physical/verbal abuse, potential drug abuse, mentions of pedophilia, homophobia (no doubt), and I wouldn’t be surprised if Aaron self-harms again. This is going to be seriously triggering for a lot of people, for any of those reasons, and I want people to still feel safe and still be able to watch the show as a whole and enjoy the storyline as much as they can.

So please, please, please feel free to message me. You don’t have to tell me why you’re concerned, or why it might be triggering or upsetting to you. I can either give you brief details of what happens in the episodes or I can just quickly say “I wouldn’t watch if you’re having a bad day”. Like it doesn’t have to be a big deal, but it could be important.

I know some people may well need this, or they may have already asked other fandom friends to do this for them. But I also know some people might feel silly or embarrassed to ask someone, or are not sure who to ask, and I just want you to know you can ask me. It’s honestly no bother at all, and I’d be happy to do it if it’s going to help put people’s minds at ease.

So starting from tonight, this offer is open. Please please PLEASE feel free to message me - I won’t ask any questions. I’ll just add your name to a list and that will be that. Job done. And you’ll get a little message after the episode/s air.

If people could help spread the word, or want to reblog this and offer themselves up to do this too, that would be awesome. This fandom is so lovely and I’ve seen several posts of people sounding concerned for what’s to come, and I just want you to all feel safe!

This post in short: if you want me to watch Emmerdale and PM you after the episodes air to warn you about their content/let you know whether it’s safe to watch, please let me know and I’ll be happy to do that for you.

anonymous asked:

How was the concert? Did you have fun? Tell me all the juicy bits how are they live? I'm sure I'll never see them cause Bighit hates Europe and I'm even more sure that if they do come they don't know abt Eastern Europe so I still won't be able to go :/

Dude…. It was amazing. And I really hope European ARMY gets to experience it some time soon! It was a really different experience from the TRB Dallas, mostly because I was so much closer last time, but this time I was p2 and I got to see all the choreo and shit but I was still close enough to feel close and it was just…. amazing. I want to write up a full fan account later but right now I’m just gonna list the top things I remember about each of the boys:

Kook: God. His solo stage was fucking remarkable. His footwork his voice his moves just. He is such an entertainer, he’s so superhuman. We had pretty good view of his thigh girth from our seats and it, too, was remarkable…. Jenny’s words, not mine….. He also followed Jin’s lead and stole an army bomb, but instead of sweetly returning it like Jin, he pretended to drop it like a little imp butt because he’s a fucking imp butt. When Jimin said “Did you like it?” his little “I liked it” was the cutest thing I have ever heard and I squealed and fell to the floor, he is just precious and talented and adorable. A complete dork, the hottest dork. 

Yoongi: Um just like fucking fire. Just. fire. His Cypher verse was immaculate, I’m talking full virgin birth immaculate, and his solo stage was fucking POWERFUL man. It was so emotional and powerful and I was like legit moved by him. He also dropped it low. He is so tiny and so beautiful and so fucking talented it hurts me. Fun fact: my little sister got drenched in Father Yoongi’s holy water during Cypher. 

Jin: Stunning. Charismatic. Hilarious. Talented. His solo was another world man. I think he actually had my favorite voice live?? Which I wasn’t expecting because last time it was Baby J but….. wow. Fucking stunning. He blew at least 4 kisses and stole 2 army bombs, one regular one, then one pink one when we did the rainbow ocean. He looked so polite and charming when he was asking the girl for them. He just looked happy and carefree and UGH just perfect. 

Taehyung: SHIT MAN HIS HIGH NOTES that’s right, this deep subterranean voiced motherfucker was SLAYING HIS FUCKING high notes during his solo like WOW it was better live than you can imagine. Probably the best high notes of the concert. And it seemed like he was throwing some extra ones in there.  He also LOVED to tease the crowd, like squat down and make cute faces at the fans. His charisma while dancing was off the charts, he goes from zero to too intense in 1 sec flat. There were eyebrows. 

Jimin: It’s really hard to understand the POWER in his dance until you see it live. He is….. he’s something else. His every move, every pause, every breath is just brimming with potential energy, he THROWS himself into the dances, you’ve never seen anything like it. He is a born performer. Even when he’s not dancing or singing, he’s performing. His voice is so clear and lovely. He started the concert with his hair all nicely combed down like a nice little fringe but by the end, he had done that thing where he ran his fingers through it to the point where it was off his forehead. He did this thing where he liked to gaze off all seriously into the crowd and probably give some poor fan a heart attack by looking straight into their souls. Rude as shit, always found a way to make every move a little bit nasty. Perfect, stunning, small. 

Hobi: …. I could not take my eyes off of him. I could not. First of all not only is he the most beautiful person I have ever seen in front of my eyes, but he is just….. his on-stage charisma is second to none. When he’s dancing, he’s still engaging the audience, he’s smiling, he’s just…. fuck I don’t even know how to describe it. He draws you in. He is by far, for me, the most comprehensively amazing live performer. His singing? Fucking amazing. Mama killed me. It was perfect. He knows how to work an audience, man. Ruder than Jimin even, always throwing in extra little rolls and thrusts, but you can’t even be mad at him, because he is HUMAN SUNSHINE and you know what I know we call him that all the time, I know that’s like his thing, but at this concert, I felt it, I felt happier just looking at him. I can’t… describe him. He’s just. The closest thing to magic that this dreary world has to offer. 

Namjoon: I…… I don’t even really know…. how to articulate…. any of this. Full disclosure I have been having a slow motion Kim Namjoon meltdown since summer 2015 but… this concert was the culmination of all of that. Arguably the most emotional moment of the concert was his solo stage. And listen, I was not even a huge fan of Reflection before this, like it was great and all but it was one of the ones I skipped over on the album. But he… jesus he just. He fucking felt this shit. He felt what he was saying, and I felt it, and every time he said ‘I wish I could love myself,’ the crowd shouted ‘we love you’ and fuck i have never felt so bonded with that many thousands of fucking people. It was this giant cohesive emotional moment and it was transcendent. I’m pretty sure he also found a way to make the rainbow crowd like a statement about racial equality, just the most philosophical beautiful asshole you’ve ever met. When the crowd got rowdy and people were getting hurt, he stopped everything and said, “no pushing please, safety is the most important thing” and would not proceed until there was order. He talked to the crowd like he was talking to friends, he was never full of himself or condescending, despite their immense undeniable success, like he was just so genuine and thankful, and as soon as he walked off that stage, I immediately missed him. He has utterly ruined human beings for me and I am honestly so fucked. 

Songbird

A/N: This is the sequel to Silence, which was far more popular than I thought it would be, so thank you all for that! This sequel was requested by @pixikinz (it’s not tagging you I’m sorry!) and a few other people that I’m having trouble finding and tagging… I’ll tag @princess-of-erebor1992 for helping me get up the courage to write it. I hope you enjoy this!

Summary: You adjust to life with Thorin’s Company, and find yourself drawn to its charismatic leader.

Word Count: 1,551

Warnings: Shirtless Thorin (shield our eyes from the beauty!!), mention of wounds


Once Thorin learned your name, he used it as often as possible. It made you feel more at home to hear your name so frequently, even if it was in a voice that did not at all sound like home. Thorin’s voice was deep and resonant, regal with a hint of wildness that you wondered if he might ever tame.

You hoped he wouldn’t.

His company had gotten better about not begging you to sing at every moment. They only asked for music every few hours, which was easier on you. Kili and Ori asked most often, the former with fluttering eyelashes that betrayed his flirtatious youthfulness, the latter with a shy bashfulness that you found hard to refuse. In the end, you sang more than you meant to, though Thorin was always mindful of his dwarves’ requests. He would quell the requests that would tax you the most, smiling in that close-lipped way of his as you nodded your silent thanks. Some days he would not let you sing at all, to your bafflement.

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i can’t keep my post-canon puzzleshipping headcanons to myself any longer so y’ALL GONNA HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM

warning: some of these will get kind of nsfw. and then some more.

ok, ready? here we go!

  • after Yugi and Atem kiss for the first time (which Yugi initiates), Atem falls in love with kissing Yugi. it’s his favorite thing to do. he just loves kissing Yugi so much, he always (unconsciously) chases after Yugi’s mouth and Yugi thinks it’s the most adorable thing ever
  • seriously, Atem melts every time he kisses Yugi and he becomes this mushy, sappy dork who can’t stop telling Yugi how much he loves him and Yugi blushes and grins and just kisses him again because if he tried to speak, he’d probably choke on tears, they love each other so much
  • Atem usually leans his head against Yugi’s shoulder whenever he needs comfort of some kind. specially during what they think of as “bad days.” days where Atem can’t stop remembering some of the worst things he did after Yugi solved the puzzle and those memories haunt him and he’s so ashamed and so Yugi wraps his arms around him and kisses his hair and grounds him and it’s not perfect and it doesn’t erase Atem’s memories but at least it makes them go away long enough for him to breathe again
  • Atem finds every and any excuse to hold Yugi’s hand. Yugi has told him he doesn’t need any excuse to hold his hand (’cause he still gets butterflies every time Atem’s fingers wrap around his), but at this point Atem just comes up with silly excuses to make Yugi laugh
  • whenever they have tickle wars (which is not that often, but when they happen, they’re epic), they always end up on the floor, laughing their heads off

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MASTERLIST

A little note about this masterlist before I begin, just to clarify: The things in italic are smutty/nsfw. So if you’re not into smut, then you should probably skip those. If it has a title/name but it’s not linked that means it’s something I’m thinking of writing eventually. I write as the mood hits me and most likely, it’ll wind up being done at some point.


I don’t take requests, sorry bbies! I just write whatever I want, whenever I feel like writing because it works best for me. I suck at handling things under pressure and I know if I did take requests, there would be pressure, so I’m not. I just write and share what I write as I write it, shitty as it may seem. Again, I’m really sorry, I feel like that’s disappointing but it’s just how I work.


In my fan fictions I use original characters that I’ve come up with and not reader inserts. I had a few questions about why I used names for Crave You / All I Want, Mad Love & An Awkward Love Story and I’ll address that now.. I do that because these are stories I’ve been wanting to write and only just got the guts too. And I came up with original characters as the ideas for these stories were born so yes, I’m gonna use them. Sorry if it bugs anyone that they can’t just throw their own name into the story, but like… I write them how they come to me. I hate that it sounds bitchy and I promise you, I’m not trying to be. I’m just answering the questions here as opposed to waiting until I get asks about why I didn’t make it a reader insert. I didn’t make them reader inserts because I wanted to use my original characters. Hopefully nobody hates me for it!


Again, I don’t take requests. I’m very sorry, I just do this mainly for the amusement it brings me and it’s an escape for me? Anyway, this is my new masterlist, updated and hopefully, organized.



                               FANFICTIONS – WWE


crave you

[ 1 2345- 6- 7- 8 - 9 - 10 -11]


SUMMARY:

Baron didn’t want an Omega.. But then Savannah stormed into his life and seemed like she wasn’t taking no for an answer. Baron finally manages to push her away and she’s doing what he wants when suddenly, Baron realizes that what he thought he wanted ( her to leave him alone) isn’t what he wanted at all. But when Ziggler steps up too, what will happen?

GENRE:

angst, romance, smut

WARNINGS:

Heavily implied !Alpha & !Omega dynamics. I mean it, guys. I’m doing my best to include literally everything I’ve found on the !Alpha & !Omega universe in here, ranging from nesting and heat cycles to knotting and claiming. If you don’t like !A/!O fics, you won’t like this because it’s not vague, it’s blatantly obvious that this is an !Alpha/ !Omega fic. SLOOOOW BURN WARNING. If you’re not the patient type, it’s not recommended. This is like… eventual porn with loooots of plot first. Yes, there will be smut and a lot of it, but… there’s a lot of plot before the smut starts.


SEXUAL WARNINGS:

body fluids, biting/marking, rough sex, light choking, possible light bondage, !Dominant Baron, sex in almost public places, lots of sexual tension, spanking, use of sex toys/food/ other items and pretty much anything else I come up with as I get to writing in the smutty chapters. I’m being serious, the smut will be full on smut. And sometimes, it might be angry smut.

PAIRING:

BARON CORBIN X ORIGINAL CHARACTER, SAVANNAH CROSS.

RATING:

Teen to Mature, I posted it in the Mature section on ff.net just to be safe. I just felt I should give it a warning label here because I don’t want to offend / trigger anyone. So you all know what you’re getting into when you read it, right? Good, great.


Mad Love - on hold for now, sorry guise. Gotta figure out just how the hell to do what I want to do without rushing it.

[1-2-3-4 -5

SUMMARY:

Kristina is in a fwb ( friends with benefits) relationship with Dean Ambrose. She wants more than just his friendship though. After another one night stand, as he’s leaving, it hits her ( and him) and rather than talk about it, both of these stubborn little shits proceed to do the things that result in an angst filled love plot with a few twists ( and more awkwardness).

GENRE:

angst, romance, smut

WARNINGS:

SLOOOOW BURN & LOVE TRIANGLE WARNING HEAVILY IMPLIED HERE. I’M BEING SERIOUS. IF YOU DON’T WANT PLOT WITH YOUR EVENTUAL PORN, YOU WON’T LIKE IT. AND YES, THERE WILL BE DEAN X ANOTHER OFC AND OFC X FINN IMPLICATIONS THROUGHOUT. ALSO, THIS FUCKER IS ANGSTY AND TWISTY AND IF YOU VALUE YOUR SANITY, YOU’VE BEEN WARNED.


SEXUAL WARNINGS:

Angsty smut on some occasions. Sex with different parties ( like Dean with another woman and OFC with another man), as well as light biting / marking, food play, light choking, light bondage, toys, sexting, masturbation, uhm… pretty much anything and everything I can come up with as I go really. Occasionally, Dean will be !Dominant and he’ll seem more like Moxley than Dean at times.

PAIRING:

DEAN AMBROSE X ORIGINAL CHARACTER, KRISTINA LEWIS.

RATING:

Teen to Mature, I posted it in the Mature section on ff.net just to be safe. I just felt I should give it a warning label here because I don’t want to offend / trigger anyone. So you all know what you’re getting into when you read it, right? Good, great.


ALL OR NOTHING

1|2|3

SUMMARY:

Okay, so… This came to me earlier and yeah. I had to do it. It’s the classic room mate / best friend trope with a twist.. Pete and Mira ( an OC I’m using for this)  have had crushes on each other since they were 14 but it was never really the right time. Now, they’re sharing an apartment and Mira is dating, was dating rather, the textbook toxic guy. Pete and Mira still have low key feelings for each other but both have buried them ( because Pete’s not good with emotions, poor bby boo and Mira’s too afraid to mess up a friendship to try again ) and things come to a head with Mira’s ex.

Angst, Fluff and eventually, smut will ensue. Probably more light angst and fluff first. I think that at best, this might have three or four parts. So not a full on mini fic but not just a one shot, either. Title came from a Theory Of A Deadman song that I listened to a lot while writing this.

GENRE:

angst, romance, smut, fluff

WARNINGS:

Heavy fluff ahead. I mean teeth rotting fluff. Lots of rom com drama too, I took a little from every silly romantic comedy I’ve ever seen and liked a little bit and I smooshed it all into one story? 

SEXUAL WARNINGS:

Same as the others, I’ll post the warnings as needed on the smutty parts. Most likely though it’ll be slow and intense and fluffy and or awkward sex.

PAIRING:

PETE DUNNE X ORIGINAL CHARACTER, Mirabelle Bowen.

RATING:

Teen to Mature


SCARECROW

1|2

SUMMARY:

Sami Zayn is moving into a new apartment. On the day he moves in, he meets Livvie ( an ofc, and no idec what anyone thinks, I gave her my name because a) not so good at coming up with them and b) I just really love Sami, okay? Okay? Alriiiight. ) who was stood up at the altar on what was supposed to be the happiest day of her life not even an hour before. Sami is going to be her next door neighbor and somewhere along the line, it leads to friendship which leads to a mutual crush which leads to… you get it, happy ending.

Basically, it’s like a rom com. Expect loooooots of fluff and a little angst and smut, ( because it wouldn’t be my story if smut wasn’t in here somewhere? I mean, I write more smut than anything, lmmfao, even if it’s shitty.) and of course, a happy ending.

GENRE:

angst, romance, smut, fluff

WARNINGS:

Heavy fluff ahead. I mean teeth rotting fluff. Lots of rom com drama too, I took a little from every silly romantic comedy I’ve ever seen and liked a little bit and I smooshed it all into one story?

SEXUAL WARNINGS:

Same as the others, I’ll post the warnings as needed on the smutty parts. Most likely though it’ll be slow and intense and fluffy and or awkward sex.

PAIRING:

SAMI ZAYN X ORIGINAL CHARACTER, Livvie Hayes.

RATING:

Teen to Mature


                              ONE SHOT COLLECTIONS:

A QUICK NOTE ABOUT THESE:

These are sort of little prompts I find or make up on my own and use. I write them as the mood strikes me to write for that certain person, and again, no requests please? If they’re on the list, eventually, they’ll be written for. If I add names or you see one and they’re not linked to, that means I want to write one for them also and I’ll do it sooner or later.


They’re all reader inserts, no original characters here I promise. Italics denote smut but not everything will be smutty. Some will be funny, some will be angsty and others will be fluffy as fuck. I try to write one each for the same guys in all categories buuuut, some I might not feel inspired to write in one category or the other for if that makes any sense?


If this made sense, you have the general idea.

TO THE RESCUE:[AJ Dean - !AlphaBaron - Cesaro - !DemonFinn - !AlphaRoman - Sami -  Seth - TJ - Dolph Ziggler , Sheamus – Jeff Hardy – Shannon Moore – Big Cass – Jon Moxley – Sami Callihan – Pete Dunne- Surprise Ending]

SOULMATE AU:

Baron Corbin - Dean Ambrose - Finn Balor - Sami Zayn - Jeff Hardy / Shannon Moore Antonio Cesaro - TJ Perkins Seth Rollins - Roman Reigns – Sheamus – Dolph Ziggler – Big Cass – Sami Callihan – Jon Moxley - Pete Dunne]

BREAKUP AU:

Baron Corbin - Finn Balor - Sami Zayn - Antonio Cesaro - Dean Ambrose -AJ Styles – TJ Perkins – Seth Rollins – Sheamus – Roman Reigns – Seth Rollins – Dolph Ziggler – Big Cass – Sami Callihan – Jon Moxley - Pete Dunne]

CAUGHT YOU / TOUCHING MYSELF,YOURSELF

[Baron CorbinFinn BalorSami Zayn – Antonio Cesaro – Sheamus – AJ Styles – TJ Perkins – Seth Rollins – Dean Ambrose – Roman Reigns – Dolph Ziggler – Big Cass – Sami Callihan – Jon Moxley – Jeff Hardy – Shannon Moore- Pete Dunne]

DOMESTICITY FLUFF:

[ Baron Corbin – Finn Balor – Sami Zayn – Antonio Cesaro – Sheamus – AJ Styles – TJ Perkins – Seth Rollins – Dean Ambrose – Roman Reigns – Dolph Ziggler – Big Cass – Sami Callihan – Jon Moxley – Jeff Hardy – Shannon Moore- Pete Dunne]

STUPID CUPID - VALENTINES DAY FLUFF:

[ Baron Corbin – Finn Balor – Sami Zayn – Antonio Cesaro – Sheamus – AJ Styles – TJ Perkins – Seth Rollins – Dean Ambrose – Roman Reigns – Dolph Ziggler – Big Cass – Sami Callihan – Jon Moxley – Jeff Hardy – Shannon Moore - Pete Dunne ] 


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                                REGULAR ONE SHOTS

QUICK NOTE, AGAIN. I don’t take requests and these are all ideas I get that I want to write but they’re just too finite ( complete) to make into a fanfiction or a mini series. So basically these are just different smol plots that come to me and I share them.


MISCELLANEOUS MOVIES / TV:

12 ROUNDS 3

JOHN SHAW

[ I LOVE YOU JERK

THE WALKING DEAD:

DARYL DIXON

under mistletoe -

SHANE WALSH

[ COMING SOON


WWE / TNA / OTHER:

AJ STYLES

baby it’s cold outside* -

ANTONIO CESARO

summer lovin - 

BARON CORBIN

scruffy bad boys - all i want for christmas - the quiet game - scream for me

DEAN AMBROSE

angry sex - 

FINN BALOR

friends to lovers - snowed in - makeup sex

JEFF HARDY

oops wrong room - body heat

JON MOXLEY

[stormy nights -

ROMAN REIGNS

awkwardly yours - a dominant male

SAMI CALLIHAN

[ love you better - 1:30

SAMI ZAYN

don’t be gentle i love you - got your attention - i saw you - shut up - kitchen quickie - better man won

anonymous asked:

hello I'm that anon that requested the vlogger MC and I LOVED IT!<3 I'm here to request another thing if you don't mind~ A hc with the RFA+V+Saeran where they discover a photo of MC in middle school and she used to be really plump and actually wore glasses. She worked out to lose the weight and uses contacts now because she was bullied and after the extreme makeover she actually became popular in high school and college. (and no I am not a vlogger XD)

Thank you for your request! Sorry it took so long. Bleg… Why are kids like that?

Yoosung

- When yoosung saw that photo he was screaming internally

- “OMG MC YOU’RE SO CUTE!! What happened now?” he joked.

- You smack him on the head before pulling the picture away from him forcefully

- He was a little dense

- “Puberty hit you like a truck, huh,” he laughed.

- “Yeah… something like that”

- Now he’s concerned. “MC what’s wrong?”

- You asked him to forget but he kept pestering you

- “NO! You have to tell me what;s wrong!!”

- You finally gave in and told him the truth

- You thought you’d cry at the end of the story but yoosung got all teary eyed.

- NOW YOU COULDN’T CRY CAUSE YOU HAD TO CHEER HIM UP

- “Hey!! It’s ok!! IT was in middle school. Kids can be mean”

- He still couldn’t believe it. You were so cute as a kid. You had to reassure him that it was fine

- When he was done with all the drama, he hugged you real tight.

- “You’re perfect MC. Don;t ever try to change yourself”

- Now you got all teary eyed.

Zen  

- When Zen saw the photo, he chuckled.

- He was just giggling in the corner and you had to see what was up

- “BABE YOU’RE SO CUTE!! I would’ve squeezed you to death.”

- But you grabbed the photo from him

- “Babe what’s wrong?!”

- You weren’t ready to tell him yet

- He understood. He hugged you and kissed you on the forehead.

- “Tell me when you’re ready.”

- And when you did tell him, he was very empathetic.

- He knew how it felt but there was nothing he could do.

- He told you about how he was called ugly by his own family. He got all emotional too.

- “I never really loved myself till I met you,” he said as he stroked your cheek, “You’re perfect to me MC. No matter what you look like.”

- You were really touched!

- “Maybe you should take revenge by showing off your hot boyfriend,” he winked.

- You laughed.

Jaehee

- Jaehee respects your privacy. So normally she wouldn’t be going through your stuff.

- The picture fell out of the cupboard while she was cleaning up.

- She saw the picture and gave a really small smile.

- She was looking at the picture with so much love that you had to see what it was.

- When you saw that it was your middle school picture, you grabbed it from her.

- You regretted it immediately when you saw the look of hurt in her eyes.

- You had to explain why

- When she heard it, she didn’t say much. She just hugged and held you tight.

- It felt so good.

- Afterwards the both of you cuddle.

- And you tell her about the whole thing and how you felt.

- She listened patiently and hugged you real close.

- “In my eyes, you’re always beautiful.”

Jumin    

- One day you were looking at the picture with such a sad face on.

- Jumin had to come over and ask you what was wrong.

- You get a little teary eyed and try to shrug it off.

- “It’s nothing”

- Jumin would not let you go.

- “Tell me what’s wrong, kitten”

- You started sobbing uncontrollably and mumbled about what happened. 

- He hugged you till you were done and spoke about his past.

- “Now that I am with you, you would never go through that again.”

- If there was anyone who knew what loneliness felt like, it was Jumin. 

- You still sobbed into his shoulder, not for the bullying of course. 

- You were just really touched by Jumin’s words. 

Seven

- Seven being the nosy little hacker he is, found your yearbook photo online.

- He laughed so hard that he fell out of his chair.

- And when you saw the photo, your face became ashen.

- Seven was really surprised. He had no idea that it would affect you so much.

- “MC what’s wrong?”

- He had a look of concern on his face and you were trying really hard not to cry but the tears came out involuntarily when he hugged you.

- After seeing you cry, Seven tears up too.

- Now you stop crying and look at him really shocked.

- He wipes the tears off his face.

- “What? You can’t expect me to stay calm when you cry,” he grins with snot dripping from his nose. His eyes and nose were really red.

- You didn’t know why but somehow that really cheered you up.

- “SAEYOUNG YOU CRYBABY,” you scream playfully as you tackle him to the floor.

- He hugs you really tight.

- He hold your face and looks at you longingly.

- “You’re the most beautiful person in the word, MC,” he says as he kisses your forehead.

- You were sure never to cry in front of him again.

V

- You and V were talking one day and he got to talking about his school life.

- He got really excited and told you about his childhood.

- It was so adorable to see him get all enthusiastic. And you couldn’t help but smile.

- And then he asked you about his.

- Your voice kinda cracked when you told him that it wasn’t as good as his.

- V was really concerned now.

- He rubbed the back of you neck and stroked your cheeks.

- “I’m sorry MC,” he mouthed, “That was really insensitive of me.”

- And then you told him about the bullying.

- He didn’t say much. He stayed silent till you finished.

- You were a bit sad that he didn’t seem to care as much.

- “You know MC…. I would’ve fallen in love with you even then,” he smiled.

- You melted a little lot  

Saeran

- When you and Saeran were going through your old pictures, your middle school picture fell out

- Saeran quickly grabbed the picture.

- He gave that little loving smile when he saw it.

- You grabbed it away from him.

- He looked visibly hurt.

- And you had to explain to him why.

- Seeing you sad, made Saeran angry!

- Really angry

- He squeezed you hands really tight.

- “Those damn bastards! I hope they rot in hell.”

- You had to assure him that it was all in the past and it was fine now.

- “But MC ! You were bullied. I know how much pain you would’ve felt,” he said with a lot of hurt in his eyes.

- Saeran had a really tough childhood too and you could understand why he reacted the way he did.

- You hugged him really tight.

- “We have each other. Nothing else matters now,” you say.

- Saeran smirked and he hugged you back.

- “You know MC… You’d look really hot in glasses.”

- You smacked him on the head.

anonymous asked:

hey I need a little advice ✨ lately ive been struggling to even get out of bed. It's not that I don't want to but I just feel so drained of any energy. There's so much I have/want to do but I feel like I'm stopping myself from doing anything because I just can't bring myself to do it. Do you know if there's anything that could help me get a bit more motivation? love your blog btw 💕

  1. get enough sleep! it’s very important to sleep at least 7-8 hours a day. if you don’t sleep much you feel tired and drained of energy. sleep makes you feel better and it’s healthier!
  2. stay positive & surrounded yourself with positive people! you need to remind yourself that you can do it and make through this day. positivity is a great way to feel better about yourself instantly. 
  3. stop thinking about what can go wrong! instead of worrying about your fears and what could possibly go wrong, think how would you feel if it goes as you want! you’ll never know how it’ll end up if you don’t at least try! 
  4. make a bucket list! it’ll keep you motivated to achieve your goals and will remind you how much you need to work to make it real. make sure you add a plan to achieve it. for example, if you want to be successful make sure you add a plan like “study hard, make a budget” and others topics you think are important. if you truly want something, it won’t be so hard to make that list.
  5. find one goal to achieve! now that you have your bucket list, you need to focus on one goal at the time. if you’re too busy trying to accomplish everything, you won’t come to a conclusion and it’ll be exhausting. focusing is the key to succeeding!
  6. set rewards! if you accomplish something, give yourself a break and give you a little treat! it will make you feel happy about yourself and keep you motivated. 
  7. stay excited! surround yourself with positive images that make you feel comfortable. write notes in the in unexpected places. maybe your goals take a little time and you start to get bored. you can’t!! you need to remain how exciting can be the path and that you’ll get there!

thank u! and I hope this helps you! If you need a little motivation, I’m here! 💛

anonymous asked:

So I donated to your kickstarter so long ago that I can't even remember when it was and you haven't been making updates about the progress of the album in a very long time. I know life happens and sometimes things get pushed back but I'm starting to wonder where my money went and if I will ever get the vinyl I paid for. It's been well over a year and it's making me think you just took everyone's money and don't really care how long they have to wait to see what they paid for come to life.

this mite be a long post! please for the love of god feel free to scroll beyond if u dont care, i truly hate when people fuck up my feed with their essays so ya. that is my disclaimer here. ok.

ok. deep breath.
i talk about this/my campaign/my project VERY often on twitter (it’s distracting and often harmful for me to use tumblr and facebook regularly. sorry if that’s inconvenient). i realize most people aren’t actively checking my shit & that my tweets get buried in the constant avalanche of my stupid thoughts, so i’ll summarize the past year or so. hopefully whoever left this anonymous message will check back to see the answer and if so, i IMPLORE u to read the entire thing instead of picking out details from the first 4 sentences and sending me another message about how i stole your fucking money.

my album is almost finished. i’ve said this multiple times over the course of the past year, but this time it’s like, legitimately fact. i’m feeling extra sensitive right now and reading this message felt like stepping on a rusty nail, so i’ll go ahead and give you as many details as possible to explain why it’s taken me over a year to complete my first full-length album. 

i am an independent artist, as you probably know. i am also an extreme perfectionist. when i began my kickstarter campaign in september of 2015, i had about 30 songs written that i’d poorly recorded in my shitty apartment, many of which i hoped to record professionally for my first proper (and physical) release. i could not fucking stand the thought of being contractually obligated to make music via label and figured kickstarter was my last hope. i honestly thought it would fail miserably and decided that when my campaign came to a humiliating end, i’d move on from music and do something else that wouldn’t make me feel so fucking horrible about myself. somehow, thanks to you and everyone else who made my dream come true, i made enough money to actually make a record.

two months later in january of 2016, i went home to florida from LA to visit my family for the holidays. thanks to my incredible fucking luck, some kind of crime ring was hitting licks on every major airline’s baggage claim at LAX post-holiday and my luggage containing 3 notebooks filled with all of my lyrics, 2 external hard drives and a bunch of little USB drives containing 2 years of my work were stolen. hmu if u want the police report for proof. 

i lost a lot of work (and learned the value of The Cloud- i hate to trust it after my nudes were leaked and my fucking whole bank account was emptied after someone hacked my shit in 2014, but here we are) and basically all morale but pieced together what i could from what i had left. i hired a producer i’ve admired for years to be the executive producer of my record and decided this fucking bullshit was an opportunity to make my shit better. due to unfortunate, unforgivable and honestly criminal circumstances, this fucking psycho wasted an upsetting amount of my time and decided to back out of my project. THAT particular situation keeps me up at night and i fucking live for the day i can tell that goddamn story, it truly shocks me that a human being could do me like that fool did me, yall will find out one day but ahem. anyway. 

after this incredible fucking scam, i decided to ONCE AGAIN start anew considering the legal and financial obligations of releasing music that had been co-written by this bad fucking person. i left my home in LA and went to stay at my dad’s house in florida, spent literally all of my time mastering production software and learning to play piano, and filled in all the shit i’d lost with new things i’d written and produced entirely on my own. then i got married, but that’s unimportant to this story. actually it is like, kind of important, but whatever.

i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in january 2016 and in march of 2016 i attempted suicide. i left an organized folder of songs, mockups for art, my bank account info and a note to my manager to make sure that my album was released because i literally could not comfortably die knowing that i let down the people who gave me money. im not tryna make anyone feel bad im just like saying cuz its part of the whole shit. anyway, i failed at killing myself and woke up in a bathtub of puke ready to go the fuck off. haven’t wanted to die since.

ahem. so. since i’m honestly 100% unable to trust a single fucking human being with my work and my thoughts after what happened up there ^^^^, i decided to set up a room in my new home for recording. i wrote, recorded, and produced (with some help, but like please bitch give me credit here) a fucking entire new album that i actually LIKED. im not shy about the fact that i think my music is stupid gimmicky- after trying to die and not dying and then getting help i realize i have like a little bit of talent i should actually appreciate. i finished recording and producing it, hired a person i trusted with a degree in music production to help me polish it and alas, he ran off without a single fucking word. thankfully i didn’t pay him a cent but like hey there u follow me on twitter and FUCK. YOU.

so now, as of about a month ago, i’ve absolutely perfected my songs (as much as i can- i still lose sleep over the imperfections im just not good enough to fix) and i’ve found the most trustworthy, hardworking team i’ve ever met to finish this shit. it’s demoralizing to recap the past year, mostly bc it was so fucking horrible for me, but i can promise you the last thing i would ever ever ever ever do is take a bunch of money and dip out with it. i do literally every single piece of this shit on my own, from the music to visuals to branding, and it’s hard. it’s time consuming. i have a job outside of music to provide for myself and for my family, and that takes up my time too. 

so i really apologize for the amount of time it’s taken for this record to be released. it fucking kills me to be waiting and i didn’t spend your money; god knows i would never in my fucking life just STEAL your money. the fact that anyone would ever accuse me of that makes me ILL.

i just want ya’ll to know there’s nothing easy about releasing music as an independent artist, especially one who refuses to accept anything less than perfection, and ESPECIALLY one who refuses to be disrespected and taken advantage of. i’m doing my best, and it took me a while. i feel like it’s worth it. it’ll be another 2 months or so. hit me up if you want a refund on your vinyl.

anonymous asked:

Hi Optomstudies! I'm an introverted person and I’m okay with that but that means I can be socially awkward at times. I often don't have much to say to people and find it hard to continue conversations or reply enthusiastically and sometimes it takes me a while to think of how to reply ahaha ==’. I’d like to be a bit more like you :) What could I do to change things a bit? Thanks :D

Hello! I’m a bit of an introvert as well, though people usually think I’m an extrovert when I talk to them hahaha It’s true that sometimes you end up not clicking with people even if you try your best to start conversation, but with most people if you try little things, you’ll eventually get them to open up and the conversation flows almost automatically! 

I’m a big believer in honesty though, so I dislike platitudes and pretentiousness in conversation. At the same time, I also dislike when people say things that can be construed as having a double meaning and are offensive in a subtly passive aggressive way, just to set that straight and to somewhat explain the underlying reasoning behind my advice and what I believe in. I’m pretty sure that my advice is generic though, and even I struggle to follow every step when I’m feeling exhausted haha

As an introvert, meeting people drains your energy by definition, but remember that small things you can do don’t really take that much extra energy, especially when you think about it as being a way to make other people feel welcome and appreciated. It’s all a state of mind - there’s no conservation of energy when it comes to the energy to talk to others hahaha I also try and think that every single interaction you have with a person will (generally) make them like you more (provided you are actually talking nicely and being likeable). So whenever I was sitting at home thinking “idk… would it be awkward to suddenly send them a message” I would tell myself this to overcome that little procrastination speedbump. 

Try and compliment people in little ways - honestly and sincerely though! I had this classmate who honestly and truly believes that she is doing a good thing; every morning she saw me (or anyone else) she would try and compliment something about what I was wearing, even if just to say “that’s an interesting pattern you’re wearing today! :)”. I get this approach, and it can definitely cheer people up, make their day. I do believe that she thinks it’s either a way to make the world happier or a part of social convention, and I get that approach. I don’t believe it’s lying at any point either. But when I try and compliment someone, I don’t want to point out something just for the sake of pointing it out; complimenting should be honest and sincere, even when it’s something you wouldn’t wear yourself but the other person pulls it off spectacularly. Too many compliments to every person you see kind of lessens the meaning behind them. 

Try and look happy to see someone - give them a sincere smile, and lift the inflection of your greeting - not just a “hey there”, but a “hey! :)” (much easier for girls, but guys can do it too) Everyone wants to talk to someone that they think wants to listen to them, yourself included right? So even just leaning forward a little bit when you speak to them conveys your interest and appreciation. This is hard to do when you’re feeling emotionally exhausted I know, but you can always take a break :)

Keep asking questions. Kind of an age-old adage now, but everyone’s heard the fact that people love talking about themselves right? So just let them do the hard work. If you don’t have much to say to people, then just ask them and get them to say what they want. On the other hand, also volunteer a little information about yourself after you’ve heard them expound about their experiences. As a talkative person, I absolutely hate it when the other person just continues to grill me with questions, and force me to keep asking “what about you?” Conversation is a two-way street, so I shouldn’t have to prompt you to just say “oh hey me too, I also like _______”. 

Sometimes it’s hard to reply enthusiastically; you might have no idea about the topic someone is really passionate about. This is me with sport honestly lol I am terrible at it and it consequently leads to me tuning out (not on purpose!) when someone starts explaining in depth rules and gameplay. My advice is to maintain eye contact with them and listen attentively, although don’t call me an expert on this particular area. Eventually because you naturally don’t know about a topic, or naturally have no interest, your responses will become answers rather than discussions. Most of the time the other person notices and changes the topic. 

I have met the occasional person who continues to talk your ear off even though your eyes have started to glaze over though (at which point it becomes apparent that the other person has the problem with conversational skills). In that situation, try and change the topic smoothly. Think of something, anything else that is remotely related, and wait for a lull in conversation before asking them “oh btw….” I know it sounds overly simplistic, but it works! Make sure it’s really smooth though - it has to be a slightly related topic, or else the other person might be offended. It’s a way of taking control of the conversation. You can even just stop them and say “okay so what happened at the end?” - this forces them to summarise and cut to the chase. That’s a tip I got from a friend actually. 

That ended up being a bit of an essay hahahaha hope it helps though! ^__^

chartreuseabstruseness  asked:

I've got an idea- first time the Strategist picked up a male lover. Don't care what flavor of guy. I'm honestly very interested to know what you think would catch his eye enough to test the waters. Sexy eloquent times to make my queer heart sing, please and thank you? (P.S. bonus points for a neck tie of any sort being involved.)

[ISEB Author’s Note #1: I’ve had this Ask sitting in my inbox for ages, and it was one I had looked forward to tackling for a long time. Sadly, the demands of real life seemed to distract me every time I sat down to work on it; in an effort to wrap it up once and for all, I admittedly rushed through the prose a bit more than I would’ve liked. Likewise, I tried to avoid a specific dilemma that often crops up in fanfiction—the premise of two male paramours written 100% for the consumption of a female demographic—but as I am not a gay man myself, my attempts may have ultimately proved futile. For any of my followers who choose to skip this particular fic, I’m going to try very hard to get through at least one other Ask in my inbox before the day is over, so stay tuned!]

[ISEB Author’s Note #2: If you’ve kept up with any of my other fics at this point, you may be asking yourself why I avoid naming the paramours who happen to cross paths with everyone’s favorite strategist. The answer is simple: It gives the reader the option of projecting either themselves or their own OCs onto the characters in question. By naming them, I feel like it confines the story to my own personal headcanons; without the pesky limitations of names or titles, the reader is at liberty to imagine Ignis Scientia fellating Ronald McDonald, for all I care. That said, I fear I will be unable to circumvent the issue of naming the protagonist in my next work of Specs fanfiction; the best I can hope for is that you’ll come to love that character as much as I have!]

Ignis x Male Suitor; 6800 Words

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The Picture of Dorian Gray
  • Lord henry: wow basil who u paintin
  • basil: NOBODY [sweats]
  • lord henry: he's p. hot u should show this pic to everyone
  • basil: dude i cant theres ~too much of my self in it~
  • lord henry: LMAO BASIL you ugly fuck that guys the hottest dude ive ever seen and you.... well.... arent..... but dw im sure hes dumb as shit
  • basil: .........:(((...........but i love him
  • dorian: sup guys im here now what talkin about
  • basil: how hot you are
  • lord herny: yeah
  • dorian: hahah omfg
  • bail: let me finish my painting
  • lord henry: OKAY im going
  • dorian: HENRY NO DONT LEAVE ME HERE its v. boring
  • henry: k fine let me just poison your entire worldview and turn you into an asshole in like 1 page
  • lord henry: hey u know dorian that painting of u is p hot but you wont be hot forever one day you will be OLD and GROSS
  • Dorian: oh fuck
  • dorian: oh god really
  • dorian: if only through some ambiguous dark magic the painting could get old and gross instead of me :'(((
  • basil: dude chill
  • dorian: I WOULD RATHER KILL MYSELF THAN BE OLD AND GROSS
  • Basil: ~DORIAN NO~
  • Basil: I will destroy the painting
  • Dorin: basil no its pretty
  • Basil: fine
  • Hery: k bye everyone i got stuff to do
  • ~later~
  • basil: hey dorian hey
  • basil: here you can have this painting bc im madly in love with you
  • Dorian: SWEET ok bye
  • Dorian: [closes door]
  • dorian: [looks at painting]
  • dorian: [breathes heavily]
  • Dorian: fuck............ im so hot.........
  • ~1 month later~
  • dorian: hey everyone im engaged to this actress
  • everyone: cool lets go see her play
  • actress: [bad acting]
  • Dorian: WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!! ACTRESS!!!!! WHY YOU ARE V. DISAPPOINTING
  • actress: b/c I love u :'(((
  • Dorian: u suk bye bitch
  • actress: kills self
  • dorian: [doesn't know]
  • painting: ~evil vibes~
  • dorian: ew omg no no no i must write an apologetic letter to the girl i hastily ceased loving
  • henry: lol she dead
  • dorian: SHITTTTTTTT SHITS SHIT
  • dorian: Thats it there is no good left in my heart
  • henry: haha yeah also here have this book that will turn you into even more of a jerk
  • dorian: tnx henri
  • henry: bye
  • basil: DORIAN WHAT THE HELL OH GOD you are not the starry eyed little twink i knew 1 month ago what happen to you dorian no ilu
  • dorian: ((hmmmmm basil would probably turn me into a better person......... but no...... i am an evil man......evil.......to the core..))
  • dorian: Bye basil
  • ~5 years pass~
  • dorian: hahah im such a bad person but who gives a fuck
  • dorian: [various ke$ha songs and montage of him throwing money and jewels and music and rich tapestries and orgies everywhere]
  • dorion: k that was fun
  • painting: [hella gross]
  • dorian: lmao
  • ~another 5 years pass~
  • basil: dorin omfg hi is that u
  • dorian: yea
  • basil: i have heard bad things about u dorian everyone says youre a fucking asshole but i don't believe them bc you're too hot
  • dorian: hahahahaha actually speaking of do you want to see my ~soul~
  • basil: lol wut
  • dorian: HERE IS THE PAINTING
  • Basl : HOLYF FUCK WHA THT EHFUCKIGN
  • dorian: .........wait.... why did i show you that.......
  • dorian: fuck...... i have to kill you srry
  • basil: [dead]
  • dorian: hm.
  • dorian: hello chemist man can u pls destroy that body with your chemistry magic
  • chemist man: k
  • ~later~
  • henry: sup kid
  • dorian: stuff
  • dorian: hey henry do u think basil got murderd
  • henry: dunno prolly dont care really
  • dorian: .......k
  • ~later~
  • dorian: haha wow
  • dorian: I'm a bad person
  • dorian: this sucks better go kill myself tbh
  • Dorian: [stabs painting n dies]
  • police: wtf this is gross
  • ~FIN~

Haha, once I started I can’t be stopped :D You unleashed something here, sweet anon.

Iwaoi Headcanons:
- Iwaizumi gets all flustered and fussy when Oikawa gives him little kisses on the tip of his nose. But he loves it.
- And Oikawa loves giving them. He sometimes even nibbles a little bit on Iwa’s nose. When he gets all asdfghjkjkAHHHH Iwa-chan, I could bite you!! Because stupid Iwa-chan is too perfect and too good.
- Oikawa loves it when Iwaizumi gives him soft kisses on the forehead.
- Iwaizumi isn’t so good with showing affection in public. He likes to keep things private.
- But once there are home alone he gets sweet and tender.
- He also likes to cuddle and Oikawa loves to take advantage of it.
- I like the idea that they have a terrible sleeping arrangment, lying all over each other, kicking, drooling..etc..
But I also love to think that they actual sleep very peaceful. It’s like making up for all the fighting and banter. They always sleep close, always touching or hugging in some place. No one is always the big or little spoon they always change. It’s like a well known choreography. When Oikawa turns over so does Iwa and takes him in his arm and the other way around. If they move around during night they move together.
- Iwaizumi has difficults to communicate his feelings. For the longest time he lived with the secret that he is in love with his best friend. He couldn’t stand seeing Oikawa talking, flirting and even dating girls.
- Once he got so frustated that he punched a wall and couldn’t play volleyball for almost 4 weeks. Oikawa was furious.
- Against all believes Oikawa doesn’t do much about his hair. It’s fluffy and just flops this way. Of course he uses shampoo and sometimes hair conditioner and he brushes his hair, but he doesn’t really make an efford to style it.
- Iwaizumi doesn’t care about his hair at all. As long as it is healthy and clean it’s all good. He doesn’t care if he uses shampoo or even just shower gel. Sometimes even just soap.
- For his 7th birthday Oikawa invited Iwaizumi to his party and he made his own invitation cards for this. He drew something on it and sticked a little feather he thought was beautiful to the right corner. He wrote Iwaizumi names wrong. It’s cute. Iwaizumi still has this card.
- They had their first volleyball tournanemt when they were about 8. They got terrible defeated. Oikawa couldn’t stop crying.
- This was the first time Iwaizumi didn’t know what do to. He already had seen Oikawa crying but not like this. This day he swore to get better, stronger and be able to win.

Why I FUCKING LOVE the signs
  • Aries: you think you're a star and to me, you really are. There's a fire in you that never ever goes out. Everything you do, you do it with a passion I haven't seen in any other sign. And when you love, you love with all your soul. That's why I love you.
  • Taurus: I love you because there is no way to know you and not love you. Everything about you is adorable. You have the weirdest habits and strangest worries and I have an urge to hold you and tell you that none of the bad things you fear are ever going to happen to you because I will be there to protect you, and I want to be a part of your life forever.
  • Gemini: you're sassy and smart and witty and cool. I look up to you and how you deal with things. You impress me every single day. I love you because you never fail to surprise me, and because you make me want to be stronger, smarter and cooler, just like you. Loving you means learning to love myself. Loving you means growing. Loving you means new experiences on a daily basis and a life like a never ending journey.
  • Cancer: you always find the right words to make me remember who I am, because you don't forget. You're the keeper of the treasure that is pure, honest joy, and I trust you with all my heart. You remind me of how beautiful life can be and I love you cause you make me feel like we're in a movie.
  • Leo: you're merely the king of the jungle when it comes down to the two of us. You're a wild little cub with a heart of gold. You've got a playful side to you that you're afraid to show, but those who are close to you know your need for harmony and happiness. But even when you're feeling weak, you act strong to protect the ones you love. And that's why I love you.
  • Virgo: it is funny to me when people expect you to be the calculating perfectionist you come off as in private, too, because I know that you're a wild child at heart. More explicitely, you can be a total freak. You let go when you're secure, and then, you're free. Watching you just being you in your own little bubble is mesmerizing to me. Sometimes, I feel like we're a world apart, but then, you pull me back into yours. You're addicting. And I fucking love you.
  • Libra: you are so beautiful, inside and out. I can rely on you. With you, I feel safe. You laugh with me when I'm happy, you cry with me when I'm sad. I value your empathy and your radiant presence. You are a gift to everyone who knows you. I wish you could love yourself like I love you. I know I will love you forever.
  • Scorpio: when I'm down, you pick me up. You give me the extra kick I need. You can be like a drug. I love you because you give me everything I need and more. Spending time with you is an adventure, I never know what's next. You keep me excited. With you, one can make the craziest memories that make stories you wouldn't tell a soul, unless you're fucking wasted. We can share a secret. You're a friend one can count on and I will always want you in my life.
  • Saggitaurus: you have the lovely, golden, innocent soul of a little puppy. It is impossible to spend time with you and not get attached. You're cute and funny and adorable, you're full of energy and you make me want to be more positive,too. You always try your best to be the best you can be and I highly appreciate effort you put in everything you do. I love you because it's impossible not to.
  • Capricorn: like caramel ice cream, you've got a cold, hard shell, but a sweet, melting core. To get you to let me have a bit of that sweetness is my main motivation on my mission to get close to you. You're a challenge. You excite me. And I can tell by the sparkle in your eyes that you like to play this game as much as I do. I love you cause you play it cool, but I know you're just a kid at heart. You make me want to make you laugh, I want to make you happy.
  • Aquarius: you're art. You're fascinating, intimidating, challenging and never what others expect you to be. I love you like a little child loves the beautiful princess on an oil painting in the museum, I love you like an old woman that hears what used to be her favourite song when she was young after a long, long time and I love you like an addict loves the rush. You're an inspiration, motivation, a safe haven and a ship that sails to a place I've never been to before.
  • Pisces: your presence is so soothing. You are beautiful to look at, calming to listen to, you're delicate like a flower, but with the mind of a garden. I love you because you show me how easy life can be. You are a role model to others.

anonymous asked:

I've been doing nothing but consuming all of you Quinn content and love it. Don't know why ppl hate him so much. So I don't know if you still take prompts or not but now that he's back, I wonder how he reacted to SW scar where Arcann ran her through with his lightsaber that is if you choose to refuse valkorians offer. I'm sure he would have noticed.

I’m so glad you’ve enjoyed my writing! And yeah, I can’t really account for the Quinn hate. I can understand his betrayal being a relationship-ending event; I can see people wanting him off their crew/ship as a result; and I can understand DS warriors wanting to be vindictive edgelords. But he’s such a fascinating character… I don’t understand the hate he gets.

I’m always a sucker for prompts and asks, even if it takes me awhile to get to them. This takes place the morning after this post that describes their first night together on Odessen.


True to Mara’s word, Quinn found himself lying in a pool of sunlight. If he were honest, he’d confess to not being terribly fond of sunlight for its own sake - growing up on overcast Dromund Kaas and spending the majority of his life in space or otherwise indoors had not hardened him to the effects of heat or sunburn - but six years in Imperial prison had changed that. Among other things.

Mara stirred and whimpered softly in her sleep, anxiety radiating through their bond. He rolled over and slipped his arm around her waist, pulling her into the curve of his body, his mind brushing hers soothingly as he did so. She sighed and relaxed against him.

He idly brushed his hand over her stomach, re-committing to memory the feeling of her skin and muscles under his fingertips. He frowned when his fingertips found raised scar tissue. He knew she would have acquired new healed injuries during his absence, but this… low on her abdomen, only a bit smaller than his palm…

Mara’s hand grabbed his wrist and she lurched awake, her breathing shallow.

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