but i'm rewatching this and i need to express my feelings

How much alike Victor and Yuuri are (1/3)

So one thing I absolutely love is the fact that at the beginning of the anime it looks like Victor and Yuuri are complete opposites but then as the story goes and we learn more about them they turn out to have very similar ways of dealing with emotions and people. And I think this is one of the reasons why their relationship is so strong because they really are able to understand each other quite well.

Let me start with that “opposites attract” trope because I think that yoi creators play with that a lot at the beginning. It’s even in those obvious features like with the fact that Victor is taller and has light hair and blue eyes while Yuuri is smaller and dark-haired with brown eyes - it’s just so cliche? And there’s more of course, while Yuuri is shy Victor seems to be very open, Yuuri doesn’t believe in himself and Victor seems to be even over-confident, Yuuri gives up easily while Victor always pushed himself further, also Victor acts like he’d be very experienced with love while Yuuri never even thought about it and so on. Funny thing is that actually all of these things we think about both of them and especially about Victor turn out to be wrong at some point.

It’s so interesting to rewatch everything after ep 10 because it shows even more how unreliable Yuuri’s narration is. Yuuri learns very slowly that Victor is a human being too and I think that it’s not until ep 7 where he finally lets his idealised image of Victor go. But even then I think that most of the things we learn about Victor we know from the man himself in these rare moments of his narration and I love how much more Victor is willing to admit they’re alike. 

Like really willing to admit it. If he goes to Japan to find his inspiration it’s not because he lacks some technical or even presentation skills that Yuuri has. It’s because he sees in Yuuri someone who treats skating very similarly to Victor’s way, he sees that Yuuri puts his emotions into his routines and all his determination he puts in order to win and that’s something that Victor’s needs to get back as a skater. In other words, he sees in Yuuri his younger self, eager to win and challenge and brave enough to put all his soul into his performance. And that Victor knows from the very beginning (apart from the fact he probably thinks about them as soulmates since banquet).

And there’s another attitude they share as skaters – at some point, they both really gave up everything for skating. 

A lot of things, like including “life and love” maybe?

It not only gives us a hint of how much they’re both inexperienced with relationships and having fun they are also realising at the same moment that they are not satisfied with their lives and careers anymore. And this is so important because probably the most significant thing we learn about Victor in episode 10 is that he needed Yuuri as much or maybe even more than Yuuri needed him. The point is that they both lack exactly the same thing, they need their inspiration to skating back and they need someone to share their lives with and this is precisely what they find with each other.

So in firsts episodes, we are meant to think that Yuuri and Victor are very different but what we learn from Victor tells us a lot about how similar they are. And what they share as skaters is their determination to win and love for skating itself but also they way they sacrifice everything for skating to the point where it doesn’t make them happy anymore.

Another thing I’d like to discuss is how many traits they share and how similar are ways in which they express their love but I just feel this post is long enough and I’m very tired. Anyway, this for #victuuriweek and also for a wonderful @blue-phoenix-tears who suggested this topic long, long time ago.

A Doctor’s Log (Mass Effect: Andromeda)

Summary: Being a collection of impressions, observations, and ruminations, by one Dr. Lexi T’Perro, staff physician on the Tempest. 

Notes: Spoilers abound, but specifically for Liam’s armor request and part of Jaal’s loyalty mission (through the end of “Flesh and Blood”). Pre-romance (incipient Sis!Ryder/Jaal).

This is loose, this is messy, and hopefully, this is funny. There may be more to come, but we shall see! <3

Read on: Ao3

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Entry One:

Our young Pathfinder certainly has a talent for finding — well, talent, in the most unusual places. From what I understand, she found our resident krogan on Eos, slaughtering the local wildlife. I believe he’s wearing the bones of his kills.

And yet, he’s charming, but anyone’s standards. A little gruff, but that’s to be expected. He and Vetra seem to be getting along famously, if what I overhear from the crew’s quarters is any indication.

Cora is still dealing with residual frustration and resentment over the Pathfinder’s role passing from Alec to his daughter, but she is a consummate professional, and after an initial tense conversation with Ryder, has allowed herself to process and grieve in private. I’ve made a note to check in with her — something Cora will be astute enough to recognize — but I foresee no future issues in that quarter.

Sometimes it’s best simply to let time and distance do all the healing work. Harry, if you ever read this, know that I can hear you smirking.

Entry Seven:

Liam continues to impress me — his good humor and willingness to reach out to everyone has defused more than a few potential arguments. I’m rather amazed at how he dismantled what could have been a rather explosive argument over the last of the Fishdog Food Shack nuggets (I shudder to think what was in them, to have lasted so long in suspension!). His loyalty is unquestioned. He’d be an asset on any team, but I’m glad he’s with us.

Ryder stayed in her quarters for an extra forty-three minutes this morning. SAM assures me she was simply working out, but I’ve made a note to watch her stress levels a little more carefully. Excess exercise may be just one symptom of a larger problem.

I do hope they’re able to wake up her brother, soon. Her role is a lonely one.

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anonymous asked:

Hey Hey! So any tips on how to write Levi in fanfiction as close to cannon as possible without ruining his prominent characteristics? I'm in the process of creating a fic that is Levi centric and honestly I'm slightly paranoid of the whole thing ;_;

Ahh this is a complicated question with a complicated answer lol. 

There are three things I think can most definitely help you out when it comes to keeping Levi as close to his canon personality as possible while writing him in a fanfic which contains scenarios that we would never actually see happen in canon. 

Number one being murder 90% of the FANon character tropes you think of when it comes to Levi in fanfic with fire. Try not to go overboard when it comes to those. Certain canon tropes need to be present, like his preference for extreme cleanliness and his insomnia bouts but, a lot of his tropes you can forfeit. Examples being:

  • “Tch. Brat.”
  • “Shitty Brat”
  • Basically overusing “Brat.”
  • Making him out to be a total asshole
  • Making him out to be an abusive POS who kicks puppies in his free time
  • Portraying him as overly angry

Things of this nature. I have seen this done WAYYYYYY too many times, and truthfully, it’s really not accurate to his character. Sure, him saying brat happens in the manga like, maybe three times but, don’t turn it into an overly used pet name. I promise you’ll throw 90% of your readers off if you do. 

Number two is when you write Levi, Keep his dialogue pretty blunt and to the point or round-about and vague DEPENDING ON WHAT HE IS TALKING ABOUT AND HOW FAR INTO THE FIC YOU ARE WITH HIS DEVELOPEMENT. Case in point:

  • Witty comback - Blunt
  • Expressing feelings - Vague
  • Response to a basic question - Blunt
  • Response to an insanely personal question - Vague
  • Insults - Blunt
  • Compliments - Vague and hard to understand

Obviously you should evolve this as the story moves but, just try to keep the flow natural. Also, when it comes to vague responses, try to write his body language in express detail. Don’t go overboard with this either because if you do, you can end up making your story a bit boring to read. Simply add sensory details that help emphasize what Levi is thinking, trying to say, etc. Plus, try to write his thoughts as well. I’m going to take a exert from one of my fics here to use as an example:

Levi sighed heavily. Pinching the bridge of his nose and squeezing his eyes shut tightly while muttering a quiet curse under his breath. Now it was your turn to be baffled. Did he honestly not remember meeting Mike more than once? Or was he putting on a show? Lying to you yet again and keeping whatever secrets he did have close to his chest. The thought put you even more on edge. Though, you’d be lying if you said you weren’t idling on the fence with your stance on the matter. If Levi really was putting on a show, it was an Oscar winning performance. He was more than a little convincing and knowing Levi as well as you think you did; you were pretty sure he was a shitty liar.

“How in the hell could you forget meeting Mike more than once?! The man is 6'5 and built like a brick shit house. He may not talk a lot but, he’s next to impossible to forget.”

Levi sighed again. Opening his eyes to look at you in mild defeat while lifting his hands and shrugging his shoulders as his only form of an answer. It was clear he was just as frustrated by it as you, but it was also quite clear that Levi had an idea as to why and how that would be possible. The bob of his adam’s apple as he swallowed hard and the tapping of his fingers against his knee spoke loud enough for you to register that much. He wanted to tell you something but, he didn’t at the same time. All of this secrecy was getting on your last nerve.

The small details in his body language can really add emphasis on what he’s feeling and so on. I understand that this can be hard to do in a lot of situations involving him as a character but, the more you practice; the easier it becomes. Plus, it definitely helps keep him in character considering he is one to use body language more than words and dialogue for him can be a BITCHHHHHH to write. Writing details like this can definitely save you a lot of headache when trying to figure out what he’d say because a lot of the time; he wouldn’t actually say much.

The third thing is, if you get hung up trying to think of how Levi would react, speak, carry himself, etc, in a certain situation and for the life of you, you cannot figure it out; REREAD MANGA CHAPTERS WITH HIM IN THEM OR REWATCH ANIME SCENES WITH HIM PRESENT. 

It helps, I promise. Specifically pay attention to him. See his expressions and the way his speaks to people in canon situations and then try to morph it or see if it relates in anyway to what you are trying to portray. I cannot tell you how many times this has point blank revived entire chapters for me that I almost gave up on and rewrote. 

And finally, if you ever get to a point in your fic where you want an outside opinion; HIT ME UP I WILL HAPPILY READ IT AND GIVE YOU FEEDBACK :) 

I hope this helps even just a little bit, anon. Happy writing and good luck to you. I know how hard Levi is to write but, he is also sooooooo much fun to write too.

anonymous asked:

Hey I just wanted to share with you that when I was 13 I shipped maiko hardcore. I rewatched the show now (I'm 21) and fell in love with it again. But maiko is fucked up. I'm scared by it now. Like, my boyfriend was treated EXACTLY like that by an ex & it fucked with his head. It's legit not ok at all Idc if he's a guy like I love him & she like broke his heart. It's awful. I read an old fanfic I wrote & made fun of Zuko CRYING. Like I Portrayed it that way! I liked the ship! I thought (1/2)

2/2 that was a good thing…. Like it was funny… but it’s not like I GREW UP and saw that. I was just wondering do you think it would be character in canon for Mai to yell at Zuko to like man up when he cries and like scoff at it? Like I could see it. I think I wrote her IC is what scares the shit outta me. I don’t get how me in the past and others now and bryke think zutara would’ve been the dark one. It’s clearly so mutual and healthy. Maiko is EXPLICITLY emotional abuse. People don’t see it.

Not only is it in character for Mai to verbally abuse Zuko, it is canon. While she doesn’t tell him to man up outright, Mai, on multiple occasions, degrades Zuko’s emotions and decisions until it escalates into explicit abuse.

To start us off, my favorite scene, and oh my god, all these Maiko shippers just think it’s so fucking cute.

Mai:   Aren’t you cold?
Zuko: I’ve got a lot on my mind. It’s been so long… over three years since I was home. I wonder what’s changed. I wonder how I’ve changed.
Mai:  [yawns] I just asked if you were cold. I didn’t ask for your whole life story.

So, after three years of distance due to Zuko’s banishment and a very tumultous decision to help Azula, Zuko wants to express his concerns about returning home. A home where he was abused, burned, and banished. A home where he has no real allies. A home where his abuser is acts freely and cruelly. Obviously, he assumes his girlfriend would be interested in comforting him, but Mai immediately shuts him down.

In any functioning, healthy relationship, you would expect this flood of feelings and thoughts to met with sympathy or input or at the very least… a hand on the shoulder and a comforting hug. Instead, Zuko is basically told to shut up, to put up, to push the feelings away because they aren’t important enough to be bothered with. She disregards him and ignores him.

Which, if you didn’t know, is wrapped up in the definition of emotional abuse:

“Emotional abuse involves talking to [subject] in a manner that makes him or her feel inferior or inadequate. [Emotional abuse] often leaves deep and long-term emotional and psychological scars. Emotional abuse can also involve ignoring [subject]…, withholding affection, and exposing [subject] to violence in the household.“

- For the abundance of people who think Maiko isn’t a toxic mess.

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anonymous asked:

sorry eleanor but...have you rewatched this season until this last clip? because I have, to check if i was exhaggerating in being negative, and it's really messy. Like, Even's storyline was very prominent at the beginning (and the balloon squad too) and suddenly after episode 5 he is barely there. if E doesn't appear anymore, well, it would make the story blotchy, it'd be v bad writing. There's a reason why everybody is complaining. We shouldn't idolize Julie either, form & express our opinoins.

hey lovie! I have, yes! together with my sister who only ever watches the full episodes. I personally don’t feel like it’s messy, necessarily, but I do think it’s quite slow. the season did a lot of getting to where we needed to be, and it’s sometimes just a little bit boring, haha. I think the whole Even thing is a difficult subject. I do really get what people mean when they say they mishandeld their storyline, but I do also think that being very active in a particular part of the fandom has kind of skewed with like, our view on this. obviously on here, and elsewhere too, people care a lot about Even. many of us are hyper focused on him and looking for clues everywhere we can. a lot of people have made headcanons about how big of a part Even would play in this season even before the trailer had dropped, and some people even got angry when people said, eh, well, he’s not exactly close to Sana now, is he? this all built up this great hype of like, an epic friendship between Sana and Even that would surely rise. and like, I get that, I think? but at the same time, this was all fans. fans who built up up this hype, fans who saw things when maybe there weren’t any, and fans who kept waiting and waiting. now, don’t get me wrong, I too am starting to wonder a little bit why Julie even bothered with a whole, Sana knows Even from before storyline, since it seems very irrelevant right now, but a lot of people feel like, this was fine the way it went, you know? a lot of people! we got some backstory for Even, we learned more about his previous friends and what went down – like, for a lot of viewers, who are less invested in Even, and there are many, that’s more than enough. like, I asked my sister what she thought about the whole Even thing as she’s much less invested in him than me, for example, and she was like, eh, fine? I guess? I have no complaints. same goes for many of my friends, who feel like the Even backstory was a nice extra, but not something they generally feel they need or want to know more about.

I’m not idolizing Julie. I’ve been critical of her both where you guys can see and where you can’t. but I do think people forget that many of them are looking at the season from a Tumblr, Even is my fave perspective, if you know what I mean. like, for a lot of people Even’s just a nice character who they like seeing on screen, whereas people on Tumblr have been kind of waiting for Even with every other clip that dropped since week one. and that’s fair! I’m not dissing that at all. I’m just saying that it isn’t necessarily the opinion of a lot of other people. Even is loved by almost everyone, but not as loved as he is here on Tumblr, and I think sometimes people forget that very few viewers are watching and waiting for Even to make an appearance like many people are on here.

anonymous asked:

Leela oh my god I know you're taking a small break and I hope your birthday was amazing but if there's any chance you watched dan's live show CAN YOU PLEASE TALK ABOUT IT???? I FEEL LIKE SO MUCH HAPPENED

yes i did, yes i can, and holy shit i’m WITH YOU. this live show was so substantively different from dan’s usual, i was just sort of sitting there clutching my face and cooing every five minutes and genuinely laughing out loud. here’s the thing.. dan is very dominated by his perfectionist tendencies and his fear of criticism and rejection–that means that he is constantly aware of who is watching him, how they might be perceiving him, and the possible re-interpretations or decontextualization of his actions and words. we’ve discussed to death that the past month has been about dan and phil relaxing their on-camera boundaries and ~personas~ a bit. for dan and phil collaborations that has meant more openly fond moments, more eye contact (lol @ dan calling that out by name today), more physical touching, more domestic anecdotes and palpable love. for phil individually we’ve noticed that the lowered boundaries have translated into a more confident, cheeky, mature, and somewhat dominant role in their videos. he’s been super aware of his innuendos. he’s openly been teasing and mocking dan in the same way dan has been doing to him for years in their collabs. he’s been altogether captivating. 

i think this live show demonstrates beautifully what can happen when dan lets down his own individual boundaries, the ones that aren’t related to phil at all:

1. he expressed opinions, and not only that, he expressed them loudly, passionately, with flailing and choked up expressions and with little regard for whether the subject matter would be too niche for his audience. i loved when he was talking about star wars and his obsession w anakin and he literally snorted. i loved when he was talking about pokemon and he could’ve ended it at like one minute but he kept going for nearly five and by the end i legit thought he was close to tears bc of how emotional the characters make him. i loved that he was so unabashed in his opinions on the walking dead and sassed out the blogger whose think piece he read (“you think you have a career lol”) bc it was savage and a bit rude but most importantly it was unfiltered, honest dan. i loved that he talked about kanye and was open about his confusions as a kanye stan because same. he didn’t try to turn it into a joke about ~branding~ or any dumb cop out like that, he honestly voiced his feelings about kanye’s role and the apparently stark shift in personality that he’s undergone in the past couple of years. in short, he was open about so much. he freely voiced so many genuine opinions without pausing to think about whether they were perfectly phrased or mainstream enough. 

2. his physical boundaries were lower, which sounds weird but hear me out. it’s like,,,, a thing to me that dan firstly felt comfortable doing the live show in the lounge rather than his bedroom and, secondly, felt comfortable enough midway through to start lounging on his side and show us various other angles of the lounge-at one point turning it to show the tree and pausing on the bookshelf and the mantle while he went. idk, something that has characterized dan so intensely for me this year is that even though live shows are very chill overall and fun and relaxed (esp. in comparison to videos), for him they have still been kind of restricted in a way that they weren’t always in years past. before 2015 he used to be okay changing up location every now and then, he was fine if phil passed through the shot, he sometimes even switched locations halfway through and walked from bedroom to office or bedroom to kitchen to lounge. he didn’t care too much about laying on his side on his bed or the sofa. i think in the past year to two years he settled on a quite rigid layout/formula for live shows that he didn’t really switch up too much, so seeing him okay with a different backdrop, feeling comfortable to recline and get really close to the camera at various points (wtf was that mandela effect rant like, my god) just made me so happy. it’s just… so different from his usual. 

3. he let slip a few personal details that maybe he wouldn’t’ve done ordinarily. i think the best one was that gamingmas has been “just what he needed.” because. let’s just think about that. it was phil’s idea to do gamingmas. for a while a lot of us were afraid that dan felt resentful that he had so much extra work from these daily uploads and that there may be tension brewing bc of that. but something that hasn’t been addressed enough is dan’s tendency to overthink and overstress for dinof, mixed with his tendency to go into existential crisis when one of their big projects ends. at this point, all of their big projects have ended and to me it seems very likely that phil knew dan would need something time-consuming but fun to keep his mind off of the emptiness of the tour and books being over. and dan acknowledged this. he said these silly, dorky videos have been just what he needed and i take that to mean that hanging out with phil, being more of themselves than ever before, and laughing every single day together, has been exactly what he needed. i wanted to cry honestly, because i took that little mention as an expression of gratitude for phil and how well he knows dan, how happy he makes him. dan also casually mentioned buying a new piano next year which… makes it seem like they could be moving…. to be honest. and so did the hesitance to commit to travel plans. and i think in explicitly stating there are “no career goals” for 2017, he left the field wide open for personal goals and personal growth as opposed to professional, and that is the most exciting fucking thing he could’ve said. 

the live show made me so excited for next year. i’m so so excited to see more of this relaxed dan, more happy and mature phil, more of the love they share being conveyed so clearly in their content. i’m so happy that dan’s so excited too. dan was so lovely today and so open with us and i’m just ,,, so emotional that he feels this comfortable. we’re so lucky to have him honestly. 

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Michiru doesn’t answer if she’s scared. But at the same time, she does. Everything here answers that question.

We’re down to words now, so let’s savour them. Like how Michiru begins with saying Haruka’s name.

She doesn’t have to. Haruka just asked her a question. Michiru knows Haruka is there. Michiru doesn’t have to say it, which means Michiru WANTS to say it.

For herself. Michiru is an artist, she works in details. She wants to remember how it feels, how the light pressure builds in the center of her throat, how her lips angle together, how her tongue flicks against her teeth. She wants Haruka to remember how it sounds, the syllables both soft and sharp and hers. She wants Haruka to remember how it sounds when SHE says it. No one else will ever say Haruka’s name where she can hear it; that privilege belongs to Michiru alone.

Haruka responds. It’s soft, inquisitive. maybe a little urgent. Their time is short, but if Michiru needs anything at all, Haruka wants to know. They’re disintegrating feet apart, unable to see each other, and Haruka has no idea what she can possible do. But all Michiru has to do is ask. Haruka wants to know. One final MISSION, perhaps.

The way Michiru says “I want to touch you, Haruka.” (there’s the name again) is actually heartbreaking. The delivery is so perfect, filled with a mix of emotions that are particularly gut punching because we never get to hear them from Michiru.

There’s the fear that Haruka was asking about. For dying? Maybe. But I think more for the idea of dying without getting that last touch. And I want to take a second to dwell on that, because it’s not just Michiru asking for goodbye glass of chardonnay (OR SOME FANCY WINE I DON’T KNOW). You could argue that it’s impossible for either Haruka or Michiru to be vulnerable than they are right now, but you’d be wrong. Michiru could choose to die wrapped in the biting self-control in which she lived, but she isn’t. She’s expressing a need to Haruka, a need for connection, a need for comfort, a need for HER. Michiru is risking spending her final moments in rejection, AND SHE WOULD NOT BE WRONG FOR BEING AFRAID OF THIS.

REMEMBER 110

Which is, no question, the parallel this moment is drawing.

As Haruka and Michiru last faced their deaths together before entering Marine Cathedral, Michiru reached out to Haruka for comfort and Haruka turned it aside saying “It’s too late for that.”

Now, far more than then, it’s too late for that. Michiru is exposing so much more of herself than mere death by asking this of Haruka By asking nearly the impossible of her. But it’s something she needs, desperately, and if maybe it’s a little selfish too (after all, Haruka could fail at the very last thing someone asked of her) well, Michiru’s owned her selfishness to this point, why stop now.

And then what runs a close second to my favourite part, because for a second, nothing happens. Michiru’s already moved, she’s already trying. But Haruka just lies still.

I didn’t think there was an actual chance she would say no, but the pause leaves such a delicious opening. Is Haruka remembering those times she pulled away? Is she regretting them? Is she trying to figure out what she can do to make this last wish of Michiru’s come true? Is her head filled with images of herself finding a last burst of strength so she could shoot to her feet and scoop Michiru into her arms, and if they must die, let it be wrapped around each other. She can do that, surely. Love is everything, after all. Is she realizing she can’t? Is she facing yet another failure in an ocean of failure? This one with an extra sting, perhaps, because it’s what Michiru needs, and Haruka can hear that need plain in her voice, but there’s nothing she can do.

Or maybe it’s just Haruka finding the strength. After turning her head and the shuffle she was able to make, she’s just on empty. But she has to find more. Haruka’s given absolutely everything, but because Michiru’s asked for this one small thing, she has to find more

However you read that pause, the remains that Haruka DOES.

It’s the tiniest gesture, but given everything they’ve been through and how far they’ve come, it feels like victory.

anonymous asked:

Lizbob I'm the anon who found Cas hovering behind Dean adorable. Thank you for the gifset. This was the one I've been looking for weeks >_> Cas usually becomes stoic when he's miserable and I cried/laughed to finally see Cas acting needy. I wanna ramble forever about this scene but I sadly lack words to do so. I'm just gonna stare at your gifset for awhile.

YAY you found it!! :D (”it”) 

I mean I 100% would have made that gifset just for me and it was on my to-do list the moment I saw that bit of the episode and then no one else out there was making it, but hearing there was at least 1 other person who NEEDED it out there in the world forced my hand… :P

I stuck in that first moment where Dean walks up to Cas and seems to reach for him but then the scene changes and he’s NOT interacting with Cas next, because it feels like they were kind of in low orbit around each other and clearly SOMETHING happened there between shots… it might be an editing error or something, especially if they messed around with the order everything happened in and shot the scene differently? Maybe they were meant to hug next up in the order of events and Dean initiated it. Which if they chose to do it differently makes all the rest of this weird bobbing feel kind of way more purposeful than it already was because you don’t make an actor drift into shot distractingly because it loses focus on the conversation that’s meant to be going on… I only recently rewatched 8x13, also directed by Phil, and he very very deliberately uses this kind of thing to split your attention when Aaron shows up - combined with the wishy washy dialogue from the girls Dean is interviewing, despite the fact they’re still having a conversation for like a whole minute after that, we’re only meant to be paying attention to Dean and Aaron’s ~moment~ from the instant he sits down and waves at Dean :P Anyway to me that makes the fact Cas wanted to interrupt way more the point of the conversation even if that was when Chuck was expressing his own extremely important dissatisfaction with the plan. We’re meant to be feeling Cas’s frustration and need to grab his own moment with Dean.

The part of my brain that watches the show with the 9x06 fan fiction gap filled out properly is just like “yeah that was their last night on earth kiss” but if we just watch the scene “properly” we get Dean reaching for Cas and then not following through - either we see about as close as he gets to touching Cas but then he breezes past like he’s not ready for that conversation yet, or he touches him briefly in passing like maybe a brush of his arm or something, and then he passes him… Maybe more of a reassurance like “I’m coming back to hug you next, don’t worry, I just want to talk to Chuck first” but then Cas watches him go and maybe worries that was ALL Dean was going to offer him so goes on the offensive to secure his hug before Dean wusses out - maybe worrying he’s going to Chuck to be asked to be sent to Amara then and there without any more words to him or Sam.

Whatever it is, I love this interruption :D

WHAT TO FUCKING DO WITH THIS

This set up, jesus wept. We cut to this huge long shot of Tokyo. Miles and miles of cityscape. It’s peaceful and beautiful for anywhere, but particularly for a huge city like this.

We stay there for several seconds. Then a low rumbling starts in the distance. The screen begins to shake, slowly at first but with increasing violence. A smoke trail appears, coming from the right edge of the screen. It makes a sharp turn and starts speeding towards us.

Something is coming. FAST.

And it knows exactly where it’s going.

THAT THIS IS REI IS FUCKING KILLING ME

I don’t know how far TA actually is from Juuban, but the idea here is undeniable: KIND OF FAR. It looks like Rei runs at least ten blocks toward the camera, and it’s literally impossible to know how many she ran before that turn because she’s coming from such a long distance WE DON’T EVEN HEAR HER AT FIRST. And when we finally do, it’s several seconds more before we see her.

REI IS LIKE HALF THE FUCKING CITY AWAY

AT SCHOOL

PRESUMABLY IN A CLASS

BEING TAUGHT

BUT SHE STILL MANAGES TO HEAR THE WHISTLE

AND JUST FUCKING LEAVES

TO RUN MILES IN SECONDS

BECAUSE USAGI NEEDS HER

It’s so over the top and ridiculous and impossible, AND YET ALSO COMPLETELY BELIEVABLE BECAUSE REI HINO

If anybody can figure out a way to actually do this, it’s Rei fucking Hino. If Usagi’s in trouble, nothing – NOTHING – is going to stop her. REI HAS FUCKING DIED AND THAT DIDN’T STOP HER THIS IS NOTHING

And I must take a moment to applaud how that they’ve actually been establishing this all season. Rei has repeatedly turned up at Juuban when she “couldn’t possibly” be there, surprising the shit out of everyone. So in this one moment we have irrefutable proof that Rei is the most fucking amazing, that there is pretty much nothing she can’t do when Usagi and the others need her, that she is so beyond ridiculous and I will never sufficiently express my love for her, and it’s all wrapped in the pay-off for a season long recurring joke.

EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF THIS IS A GOD DAMN TREASURE

REI FUCKING HINO PEOPLE

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I’m going to try to describe what this moment was like for me when I saw it on Wednesday. It’s difficult to put into words. It was like someone had suddenly wrapped me in a blanket of dread. That music kicked in, and the barbed bracelet circles started flying, and I HAD A REACTION. I had an actual physical reaction to it. I took a sharp breath and it felt like my heart seized up. But it was completely without context. I’m reacting to this and I have no idea why.

Memory is such a strange thing. I remembered so few details about Stars. (I didn’t even know I remembered THIS until there it was.) Yet suddenly there are all these EMOTIONS and you can’t be sure where they’re coming from or going to.

I know me. I would’ve watched this over and over again. Don’t get me wrong, I am wailing in agony and my tears are real and everything I am going to be writing about HURTS ME DEEPLY. But they’re all (well, mostly) The Good Hurts, the kind that remind you how much you love these characters, and how much they love each other, and how very very important all that is.

I MEAN I WATCHED AN ALL-TIME FAVOURITE CHARACTER HAVE A DRAWN-OUT DEATH WITH HER BEST FRIEND CRYING OVER HER IN THE ULTIMATE EMOTIONAL EXPRESSION OF THE SIGNIFICANCE OF ONE OF MY MOST CHERISHED FICTIONAL RELATIONSHIPS FOR THE PAST TWENTY YEARS

TRUST ME WHEN I SAY I AM DEVASTATED AND LOVING IT

So that music, the sudden chord erupting from the silence and tension of the moment, would have been the signifier that all that pain, that delicious delicious pain, was coming.

Then fast-forward decades later, and the details are gone. The whys and hows have left me. There’s only THIS. This flash of intense emotions that I feel, that are mine, but also NOT mine because I don’t understand them.

I wouldn’t have needed help to feel the things that I did, but it added an interesting dimension to it all, made it a bit more REAL, almost. It was overshadowed so quickly by what happened, but it was such an intense moment for me, I wanted to try to capture it.

It’s amazing, the power that stories have.

An In-Depth Look at Last Night's Olicity Scene

Hi friends.

I just rewatched the “ILY” scene for the millionth time this morning (or what feels like the millionth time), and here’s a little bit of analysis on what really stood out to me. (featuring gifs by queensarrow, used with permission)

So the scene starts, Oliver has just thought up this plan to send Felicity to Slade with the cure, to make Slade think Felicity is the one he wants to capture. His plan is to say that Slade took the wrong girl in front of the cameras, slip Felicity the cure and trust her to both understand what he was saying and be willing to help. (And you had all better believe that if Felicity was like “hell no” Oliver would have gotten her out of there immediately and taken her somewhere that she’d actually be safe.)

But let’s please watch Oliver’s face during this scene. When they go in, he looks stoic, as usual. His face is expressionless, almost, blank. He knows he’s doing the “unthinkable” and he doesn’t even know how to process it.

See? There is is, the serious look. He’s not really overwhelmed with emotion other than thinking about the severity of what’s going on, focusing on the mission.

But here’s Felicity, just completely not getting where he’s going with this, meeting his eyes, determined to go with him, to help, to not be the woman he tucks away and keeps safe.

And that’s literally all that NEEDED to be said to get the message across from Slade. I think he was planning on stopping there. Think about it. “Do you understand?” while slipping her the syringe THEN makes a lot more sense than adding the “i love you” after. “He took the wrong woman. Do you understand?” See? That dialogue actually flows better because it implies “Do you understand? I love you” and lets the I love you go unsaid because he’s doing this as a ploy.

This… this is Oliver doing his best to “sell” something. He uses words and keeps his expression as blank as he possibly can and is actually a terrible liar, as has been previously established.

But who could he never really lie to? Felicity. She’s always seen right through his ploys. But not this time.

Because then there’s a moment. A moment where his blank expression drops as he’s looking at her, about to use her as bait to get to Slade, to put her in harm’s way. I can only imagine him thinking that this could be it, this could be the last time he gets to ever see her if this doesn’t work (which is completely unthinkable), and there’s very real emotion in his expression.

He whispers it. That wasn’t for the cameras or for Slade–that part was already done the second Oliver said “He took the wrong woman.” It wasn’t even enunciated enough or loud enough to guarantee that the tiny cameras Slade has installed would pick it up. That was for her.

And that right there was Oliver having literally no idea how to tell her he figured out he actually meant it. So he goes with “We both did.” A sort of way to be like “Yeah, I was acting as much as you were acting.” A classic romance trope if I ever saw one.

I think this was Oliver’s big realization that his feelings for her go much deeper than friendship, something he’s been actively denying this whole season despite all the moments his actions showed otherwise. This needed to happen to move the ship forward, and I think that next year we’ll see Oliver actually trying to cope with his feelings for her.

anonymous asked:

I'm rewatching 3x17 and I just noticed the positioning of the scene when F first walks into the wedding!! O is standing in the aisle with the alter/front of church behind him, Diggle's in the position of best man, F stops to look at O from the start of the aisle, her face is glowing when she lets go of Ray and walks up the aisle to Oliver. His face is just like a man seeing his bride for the first time and his bashful look when she walks up to him is pure adorableness. This ship is killing me!

Would you believe that I was re-watching 3x17 myself last night, just to see these two adorable idiots make mega heart eyes at each other? 

(gifs from here. All gifs below from Google Images)

That nervous shuffle thing he has going on is so freaking cute I want to cry! The big bad vigilante hero, all nervous and flustered because the girl he loves so much just…walks into the room. It’s like she brought the sunlight with her, streaming in through those big glass windows. He can’t even look at her, she’s so bright and beautiful. And it doesn’t matter if she’s not here with him – she’s here, and that’s all that matters. She is all that matters. 

As for her, well. She came with another man, a man she liked. Maybe her feelings ran a little deeper, who knows? But they were nothing compared to how she felt for this man, the man she’s known for three years, the man she’s seen grow into a hero (as an aside: my favourite “Olicity” moments from this ep aren’t actually at the wedding. They are the two separate scenes in which Oliver and Felicity tell someone, and remind us, that they know each other better than anyone; that they trust each other more than anyone; that, above all, they are partners. Always.). 

Here, she has eyes for only one man: 

“Sometimes the heart beats for a different man in the room.” – Emily Bett Rickards

We always talk about the way Oliver looks at Felicity – his “Felicity smile”, his “Felicity heart eyes”, but the way Felicity looks at Oliver is equally important. Yeah, she’s always liked the look of him, superficially speaking. But here it’s like her eyes gravitating towards him is just….fact, plain and simple. The way of the world. Because if Felicity Smoak is “it” for Oliver Queen, then Oliver Queen is also “it” for Felicity Smoak. 

There are moments where they both silently long for each other, unable to express their quiet dreams: 

But silent longing and quiet dreams aside, there is no selfishness, no pettiness or jealousies at display: 

Yeah, there’s some mild snarking (“Ray saved the day!” // “For the record, I am not the one who used that phrase.”) but above and beyond everything is the need for the other to be happy. Have you ever seen a more glorious OTP? Because I haven’t…

Finally, Anon, I leave you with this. Do you know what my absolute favourite Olicity shot of all time is? Here it is: 

This shot just….encapsulates everything that I love about Olicity. It’s the nervous shuffle again, the glowing looks, the secret smiles. It’s the acknowledgement that “Yes. I’m in love with this gorgeous girl and she’s the best thing to ever happen to me and I’m the luckiest guy in the world.” There’s something so tender about his expression here. And once again, Felicity’s standing with the one man she wants more than anyone, and she’s looking at him like he’s the sun, like he’s the answer to every question she’s never even asked. 

You were talking about how these two looked like blushing bride and groom when the scene starts and she walks in. Well look at them here, Anon. I’m not one to proclaim “married!” at every moment with these two, but does this picture not look like the very definition of it? This is Oliver and Felicity when they aren’t together. Are you ready for Oliver and Felicity when they are together?

Going back and re watching season 8, chapter 6 of RVB I noticed that Delta appeared to Caboose through the small floating robot that Epsilon Church was inhabiting. Delta stated that Epsilon was not aware that the other memories existed, but will eventually find out. Also said that the cycle would start again.

This brings an interesting point: There are four stages of a ‘Rampant AI’ which can be found here: http://rvb.wikia.com/wiki/Artificial_Intelligence

It discusses the four stages an AI unit could go through before becoming 'Meta’. But, basically it’s saying that although Epsilon expressed personality and a bit of sentience, he never achieved the stage of Metastability.

Fast forward to Season 12 of RVB with Carolina and Epsilon Church’s first appearance- where Epsilon is seen speaking to the other AI fragments or memories of those fragments. We also see him having erratic behavior and telling Carolina he has a headache (see above article). Add this to the fact that the Chairman is in possession of Maine/Meta’s helmet (and other various Freelancer equipment) and we know the Reds, Blues, and various other members will (more than likely) be meeting him next season and possibly boarding his ship. 

There are two things that stick out to me:

With the end of Season 12 and Epsilon Church revealing himself to the Chairman, the Chairman initially planned for Carolina and her rag tag team to come aboard the ship. I feel once on the ship, the Chairman will be revealed to be working with Junior (as he is the destroyer indicated in the BGC) and that he wants Tucker’s sword (since Junior is technically the biological son of Tucker, I think Junior will be able to wield the sword no problem), but he’s also looking to collect Epsilon because he needs him and the AI memories to infect Junior (as depicted in Season 5 the very last episode with Wyoming and Gamma) so he can establish an army,

Or (this is an interesting idea on my end)

Epsilon will start the cycle over as indicated by Delta in Season 8.

That possibly, the moment they enter that ship with all the Freelancer equipment, while Carolina has Epsilon and all the AI memories, Epsilon will be overwhelmed and will achieve 'Metastability’ and Carolina could achieve a Meta-like state since he’s in her armor.

Could you imagine the scene?

When Epsilon runs rampant in Carolina’s head, she breaks down and tries to fight it. She grabs both sides of her helmet and starts to yell and scream. Suddenly, she stands still and picks herself up off the ground. She composes herself and casually walks over to the Meta’s helmet and proceeds to takes off her own. She turns around to everyone in the room and you see Carolina’s face, but her eyes are different from the last time we saw them.Wash lets out a gasp- he knows what’s happening and he’s terrified. Carolina grabs the Meta’s helmet and slides it over her head, her camouflage device cloaking Meta’s helmet to match her own armor. 

Carolina is the Meta now.

Ryan Hawley continues to amaze me with each episode. The acting skill he has shown just in the last two days is something to be marveled. Ryan has shown more range in the last fifteen to twenty minutes of screen time than most actors are able to show in their entire career. He has portrayed every emotion perfectly. Arrogance, glee, sassiness, disdain, pity, anger, contempt, humbleness, uncertainty, fear, love, longing, regret and everything in between. Ryan is able to speak without words. With a single look or facial expression the audience is able to fully understand what Robert is thinking or feeling at that exact moment. It is a great skill that few actors possess but Ryan has in spades. Ryan has always been a really great actor but somehow he still continues to improve with every new storyline he’s given. It’s honestly a privilege to be able watch him as he continues to grow and I’m looking forward to seeing what more he is capable of.

alchemyofwords  asked:

Soooo what did you think of yesterday's episode ?? Where you happy with how they handled everything going on between Clara and The Doctor ? :)

Let me tell you a thing about the last episode:

I am in love.

It’s definitely one of my favourite episodes in Nu!Who to date. The mummy was super gross and a worthy new monster, the claustrophobic feel of the Orient Express worked, and the extreme melancholy looming over Clara and the Doctor was so brilliantly executed on all fronts that even knowing how it all plays out I can still feel it keenly every time I rewatch it which is a lot of times, let me tell you.

That being said, I do have some complaints. I could do with an extra pillow and I’m very disappointed with the breakfast bar. 

I called it as soon as KtM aired: they’re not gonna talk about it. I was prepared for them not to talk about it, I fully expected them not to talk about it, but I’m still annoyed about it. Just how and why exactly did Clara get back on the TARDIS? I know they made some allusions to what happened in the episode: we know it’s been a few weeks since their big fight; we know Clara didn’t want to leave it on a slammed door. I’m not saying they completely ignored what happened, but there’s still an air of ‘that doesn’t actually make sense.’

All in all, I’m pleased with it, but it could have been better. I forgive them because of the ending; we might not know how that trip started, but we do know how it ends, and it’s with Clara turning into the Doctor.

I actually found that very interesting, especially considering everything that happens in the episode up to that point.

  • Clara and the Doctor agree this is their last trip together. The cause of that is his inconsiderate ruthless behaviour in KtM that had Clara question whether he was telling her the truth (when he said he didn’t know what would happen. Remember she never actually started believing him as far as we know).
  • She tells him she doesn’t hate him, but the way he handles things makes it impossible for her to stay. How does he handle things? He treats adventures like a game. He lies, he sacrifices pawns, he keeps others in the dark, etc. Clara disagrees with this and distances herself from that. Note that she still expects him to remain her friend. She simply doesn’t want to be a part of the game anymore.
  • At the first sign of trouble, Clara jumps into action. She wants it to be a thing. She’s disappointed upon realising (or thinking) it’s not. A regular train trip is boring. What does she do? Jump out of bed and go looking for an adventure. The Doctor knew this was likely to be a thing. He even admits he was hoping for it to be. They both wanted this to be a thing.
  • When the Doctor asks her to bring the lady over to basically sacrifice her to the mummy, Clara disapproves, but she does it. She lies to bring her over.
  • Upon figuring out the Doctor had been lying to her about this being a ‘relaxing break,’ she explodes. She accuses him of not only lying to her but also making her lie, making her his ‘accomplice.’
  • As soon as the Doctor defeats the mummy and saves Maisie, Clara tries to apologise. Why? He still lied to her. Nothing she accused him of doing has changed.
  • “So you were pretending to be heartless” — Need I say more? It’s not about his actions or even how he treats her. It’s about him being the hero she likes to think he is. She forgives his behaviour when she’s got her worship-goggles on and threatens to leave when they’re ripped off. Simple as that.
  • "Sometimes the only choices you have are bad ones. But you still have to choose.” He’s right. God knows I’ve spent my fair amount of time defending the Doctor and his actions because sometimes there really is no good solution and he has the unfortunate fate of being the one in charge who has to make the bad decision. This episode made Clara see that too. He didn’t know if he could save Maisie. He would have moved on from her to the next victim until he succeeded and he wouldn’t have stopped to mourn anyone. He didn’t know if he could save her but he wanted to. Clara realises that and his intentions are infinitely more important to her than his actions.
  • “Do you love it?”
  • Clara lies. She’s lied before, mostly by omission, but this time she’s lying straight to his face. It wasn’t Danny’s idea they stopped seeing each other. Actually, he’s been pushing her to save their friendship from KtM on. He also never said he was okay with them continuing adventuring; as far as Danny knows, this was their last trip and it was uneventful. What Clara tells the Doctor to continue running off with him is a big fat lie. Something she notably disliked the Doctor doing before.
  • Pulling the levers in sync. That symbolism is never ever unintentional.

I’m not even getting into all the Whouffaldi stuff happening as I think that’s been pointed out enough, but here’s something I do want to mention:

  • The way Clara said “Is it like an addiction?”

She wasn’t talking about the Doctor. That was a guilty question. Clara has an addiction, and I saw people point out that it’s the Doctor, or that she’s in love with the Doctor, and I do agree that this is part of it. Part of, but not all.

  • Clara is addicted to the game.

The adrenaline, the uncertainty, the wonders she sees… She wanted it to be a thing because she likes the things. She’s not just staying on the TARDIS because she loves the Doctor; she actually genuinely enjoys their space hopping as much as he does, and I think that’s something people sometimes gloss over too much.

Hello this question got away from me. So, short answer: yes, I was happy with how they handled things, but not in the way one might think.