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Wearing My Heart on My Sleeve: Confessions of a First-Timer

Give me the strength not just to wait patiently, because I know I can do that, but to stay positive in times of uncertainty. Let me love not too hard or too fast even though there is a lot to give. I need freedom to escape from this prison-like environment where stress, worry, and negativity are always-present factors; and the knowledge and wisdom to prevent myself from being too naive and making too many mistakes. But I have grown and improved so much, worked my hardest to be even better for all of us; How many people notice them or will stay with me long enough to see them more, I cannot say. But what I can say is this: I do love you and care a lot more than I ever knew I would. And I do trust you, even though at times I get a little curious and scared. I do understand you; but being pulled apart and stuck here for so long, please me hear from you again. Thinking back to your first anything should help you to understand me, too. You said you love me, and I can only believe that this is true; when I say it, you can bet that it is, too. I’m not sure what you’ve heard from other people, but sometimes their opinions don’t matter since it’s not their relationship and they don’t have such emotions attached. No matter what they may have said – we’re different people, yes perhaps that comes with age and experience. But that doesn’t mean they overshadow what we share in common; after all, we can teach each other and learn from both. If love and care are still there, why shouldn’t other things fall into place? There’s no need to blame another for not being 100% perfect all the time. No one is; in fact, a relationship is oftentimes just that: two imperfect people existing together and loving each other. Sometimes there is beauty in that, adding depth to a person, character even – like covering cracks with gold like the Japanese did with handmade pots. I think back to the beginning often, the budding of our relationship learning new things about life – that we should treasure moments, not things – and learning new things about you – like your love of cheesy French fries and poetry, of night markets and crab rolls on the pier, of trying new things like soba noodles and okonomiyaki paired with tea and sake – and new things about myself, as you told me, and I loved a lot of the same things you did, too. As new and exciting, I would be so glad to create more memories that can last even longer, even if it means this time reaching out more to you. But for now I will wait until I have your permission, and hope for the best – that we can create something even better, to be even stronger and calmer and happier together than ever before.

My computer and my drawing tablet were stolen. I’ve lost everything, my art, my webcomics that I was almost ready to publish, my latest draft of my novel, thousands of pictures…. everything. All gone because I don’t have a backup. I’m probably not going to be very active for a while, I’m sorry. Please bear with me, thank you.

quick note on one hundred ways: I am the self proclaimed queen of the slow burn, and since most chapters are written weeks if not months before I publish them, many of the new chapters are going to be canon divergent. I do also have a few AU chapters written, and more planned but just because karamel is canon now on the show doesn’t mean they will be together in every chapter.

As always, your incredible comments are what keep me going and I can’t wait until I have a functioning laptop so I can respond to all of them and post more. Thanks!!

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Okay, first this is very old (around 2014) and I ’ve always felt sad about not publish it. Second this was a project with @relampago-dorado and the character were a fusion with canon characters from rwby (tries to guess combinations). Really nice, but the proyect died for lack of time (and also for my fault.)

but look at these beautiful children! They’re so aww and 
and I wanted to give them some popularity (?) (i don’t know how to explain that xD)

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ONE SOUL TRAPPED IN TWO BODIES | ( listen ) | for the siblings that were destined to fall in love and fall apart. (read annotations for a journey from s1 to s5)

It is lesson time, dear pals. Gather around! 

Now, a bisexual human being is someone who experiences romantic/sexual attraction towards more than one gender. Cool, ammiright?

An example of such a human in BBC Sherlock is Irene Adler. This is because we see/hear of her entering into sexual/romantic relationships with women and at least one romantic relationship with a man. We have literally witnessed her bisexuality with our eyeballs and heard of it with our ears, making it canon. Yay!

Now, with this in mind my pals, understand this:

John Watson is not bisexual 

“But, Merry, he so is! johnlock is real!” 

You’re right, pal, it is real. A real example of a ship whose entire canon is founded exclusively on fandom interpretation at best, and vague sub-textual queerbaiting at worst. Of course,to each their own.

HOWEVER

As someone who identifies on the bi spectrum, I get really annoyed when people project bisexuality onto characters who clearly are not so in order to justify their ship. Bisexuality has such poor representation in the media as it is without people insulting bisexuality (or even confusing it for those who may not yet be sure) by claiming it where it clearly is not demonstrated at all.

And alas John Watson is NOT bisexual. He has literally only ever shown romantic/sexual interest in women. To that end, he is now married and expecting a child with one.

John Watson IS a man who loves women (a woman called Mary bamf Wason to be exact). He is also a man who cares deeply for his best pal, Sherlock Holmes, who happens to be a male.

Caring for humans of more than one gender does not make you bisexual. Only experiencing romantic/sexual attraction to more than one gender does, my pals. Unless anyone can point me to a moment that quintessentially, unequivocally and cononically shows John demonstrating an exclusively romantic/sexual attraction towards a gender other than women, I kindly ask that people stop claiming it where it really isn’t because it is very invalidating to think the representation one’s own sexuality is something so taboo it can only be interpreted, inferred or invented from non-existent subtext. 

Lesson concluded, thank you xo

“But white privilege doesn’t apply to me because--’

I just received a 3 part ask that I was asked not to publish and so I won’t, but I am sharing my answer because I know a lot of people think this way.
“White privilege doesn’t apply to me because I’m disabled and deal with discrimination because of it. It’s not fair” (there was a lot more but I can’t even)

Look, as a disabled black woman I can tell you that your comments are ignoring the fact that 2 disabled people will both deal with discrimination based on our disabilities, but if one of us is white and the other is black, the black one will ALSO deal with racism. The white one will not. Yes, it hurts to be called r-tarded or crippled or useless. It happens to me all the time. But you will never have to deal with being treated like you are less than human by your own government based on solely on your race, and THAT is what white privilege is. Being poor or disabled does not change that. You do suffer from disability discrimination and no one is denying that. But you do have white privilege and you need to accept that. It does apply to you. 

So someone wrote a fanfiction starring Anidala and IT GOT PUBLISHED AS A BOOK SERIES!!! The series has two books now, but the third and fourth one are on fanfiction.net and will be published some day, I guess?
I added the books to Goodreads, and you should check them out. You can download them on iTunes for FREE! What I’ve read so far, they’re pretty amazing and cute! The altered universe of Episode II and III.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/28791719?source=ebfg_tw

Okay seriously I am so emotional right now. I was just watching the Wolf 359 Swag Sweepstakes announcement because I think all the people involved are adorable and talented, and then MY NAME WAS THE NAME DRAWN FROM THE HAT??? Cecilia Lynn-Jacobs, star of my heart and the voice actor bringing my favourite character in the world to life, just read MY NAME, with HER LIPS. MINE. I screamed so loudly my housemates all heard me and then I was so excited while telling them that I put my leg on the wall MULTIPLE TIMES and I made them watch the announcement with me so I could be sure I wasn’t dreaming! I can’t believe this! I’M GETTING ZACH’S SCRIPT FROM THE LIVE SHOW. @iamzachvalenti can you please please sign the script and get the others (especially Cecilia Lynn-Jacobs, because Lovelace!!!) to do so too? Like no pressure and you totally don’t have to, but if you did I would probably transcend this earthly realm and exist as a being of pure light–or something. 

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Babylon 5 - The Lost Tales: Voices in the Dark

Why every living human that I know is either:

A) in the process of publishing a book;

B) has a book published.

WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?? WHY YOU ARE ALL SO ACCOMPLISHED? You need to stop this nonsense right now it’s not normal.

Actually don’t listen to me, keep publishing your books I love reading it all ♡