but i'm not a writer so it's okay

melodrama breakdown
  • green light: I want the things ! I want them ! also fuck u
  • sober: okay so I'm uhh completely out of my fucking mind right now but it's good, little worried about what I'm going to be like sober
  • homemade dynamite: we just met but do you wanna blow something up
  • the louvre: we're the best couple. we're a work of art.
  • liability: I'm too much for you to handle.
  • hard feelings: uhhh I didn't realise being in love was going to be this hard
  • loveless: fuck love
  • sober II (melodrama): that feeling after the party or a concert of something where you're buzzing with adrenaline but you're about to crash
  • writer in the dark: take your broken heart and turn it into art
  • supercut: revisionist history
  • liability (reprise): maybe the party is meant to make us cry
  • perfect places: okay lets go party again

and she’ll burst—
like a sun-kissed wave crashing against the shore; like a monochrome painting tearing at the seams
and she’ll bloom—
like a heart-shaped moon against a pitch-black sky; like pure sunlight seeping into your skin
and she’ll fade—
like a bird trapped in a blizzard, like a young star dying for the sake of the universe

she will—

when the clouds of men pull their dark cloaks over her starlit eyes.

—  don’t let suns like her be eclipsed / alina
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Ian and Mickey waking up next to each other

"Well, melissa will tell me, or anybody else on set. My brother mentioned it a few times."
  • melissa: katie the fans think our characters are super gay for each other and I'm super about it
  • director: good job melissa but this time can you giggle and look down like the very thought of lena being so close to you makes you blush
  • katie's brother: katie uh did you mean to do that lip bite there
  • writer 1: do you think it's too much to write "lena suggestively and seductively whispers 'you are my hero' as kara giggles and blushes"
  • writer 2: nah man if anything that's tame, have you seen what we've been writing for mon-el
  • editor 1: okay that looks great but can you put in the shot where Lena is looking unnecessarily longingly at Kara while she talks? it's gayer
  • editor 2: shit u right that's gayer yeah i'll do that
  • katie: how naive was I
I hate that you’ve made me into someone who has to ask herself about what could be wrong with her, about what it is that needs to be fixed. I’ve confessed it to you before, told you all about feeling like too much of me needs to be contained or shielded from other people, all because it’s not something that people want to find in a person. And now I’m comparing myself to girls I know only on the surface level, wondering if these are girls who might say things or do things for you that I can’t, who might make you feel things that I never have. A huge part of me wants to know what you like just so that I can be that for you instead. because the truth is, I don’t want to mess this up.
—  🖤

You know, for a fandom so full of amazing writers and creators you are all so quick to jump and judge the showrunners and the writers like you don’t know how the process works.

When you write a certain storyline you do it because you think that’s the best road to take to tell your story. And sometimes your readers question it, because you could have taken a different road, or maybe they think they can do better than you. But you know that’s not true, because it’s your story, and you know you are being very clever about it, you know that everything you do, you do for a reason.

And sometimes when you come up with a scene, you get so exicted, because it fits so perfect, sometimes you feel like it’s the best dang thing you’ve ever come up with, and you see a dozen of different roads to go from there, and you can’t wait to share it with your readers, you can’t wait to take them on that journey. But it’s a complex thing. Sometimes you gotta focus on one thing before you can go to the next. Sometimes you have to spend hours or even days developing storylines you don’t even want to develop until you can jump to the good stuff, but you know that’s what you gotta do. Fore the sake of the story. For the bigger picture.

And sometimes that’s what our showrunners and writers do, too. Sometimes they come up with scenes they think are so great, so exciting and they can’t wait to share it with us. And even when we don’t like it, they are proud of it because it’s their hard work put into it, and they too think they are being clever about it, keeping in mind the oh so important bigger picture, knowing it will all make sense later, even when we can’t see that.

And sometimes they mess up, sometimes they get so caught up in the story they don’t see how someone might get hurt in the process. And sometimes they just get tangled in that annoying part where they have to develop part of the story that no one wants to see developed, sometimes not even them. But it has to be done, to complete the picture, to have everything set into place later, because it’s a growing process, that never stops, and it’s a complex puzzle with so many pieces, but someone has to put them all together.

And the ones that are putting it together are just people. Just like you. And sometimes they will make mistakes, and sometimes people will get hurt, and sometimes they will infuriate you so much, you will want to just unleash all your anger on them, but before you do remember they are just like you. Writing a story, taking paths you might not have taken but it doesn’t mean they won’t reach the same goal.

lauwurens  asked:

i haven't read all of ilhti but i really don't see how it could be like.. cliche? when it comes to wlw there's literally not ENOUGH MATERIAL to create cliches.. a huge majority of wlw stuff is high schoolers or just porn? like dude show me all the stories about a black girl and an asian girl in a lesbian relationship??? i'll wait. it could literally be a coffee shop au and it's not too cliche

THANK YOU! Like yeah I wrote their backstory as Eliza running into Theo and spilling coffee on her but Theo was just like, forget my clothes holy shit I’m buying you another coffee because !!! heart eyes! And like if that’s cliche I don’t care because wtf it’s cute and I would pass out if a girl did that for me. And just…yeah. I would die for a Theoliza coffee shop AU that is actually given kudos and commented on and given attention. Give me those cliches.

DO APPROPRIATE RESEARCH ON ANYTHING YOU ARE UNCERTAIN ABOUT.

Particularly, though, I’m going to talk about how I’m noticing some people obviously aren’t doing their homework for DRUGS AND ALCOHOL. This isn’t really offensive like getting mental illness or cultural stuff incorrect, but it’s still not good because it can be confusing for those who have done the research and/or have firsthand experiences.

Those people have their muses reacting realistically, then some people just write whatever they think is right, then their partner has to work with or around that incorrect information… which in turn can be confusing to the other and it’s a mess, actually.

It can also get misinterpreted by others who don’t know about the subjects either, and since they remember what one person was writing about it, they might feel like they don’t need the research. So it spreads… and therefore more mess.

FOR DRUGS:

  • look up the side effects and the dangers, longterm and short term
  • how they’re measured
  • whether or not it’s actually addictive, plus withdrawal symptoms
  • what possible medical reasons they are meant to be consumed for
  • how it can react with alcohol and other drugs
  • if they’re over the counter or prescribed or made illegally
  • the ways they’re made and/or distributed
  • the ways they can be consumed (orally, inhaled, injected, etc.)
  • different names the drug can be called by
  • relevant laws in the location your character is at if applicable
  • the likelihood of a tolerance being built if its even possible
  • how much your character will be affected relative to their size and amount consumed
  • and possibly even the history of the drug

FOR ALCOHOL:

  • look up a bunch of different kinds, possibly even familiarize yourself with brands
  • understand the standard drink sizes
  • check the alcohol content of the drink your character is consuming
  • the side effects and the dangers longterm and short term
  • how it can react with certain drugs
  • learn about how someone of your character’s size can be affected, how a tolerance is built and how it’s developed by someone of your character’s size
  • definitely research alcoholism and alcohol abuse if your character is supposed to be an alcoholic or heavy drinker
  • make sure you know withdrawal symptoms for the above
  • research alcohol poisoning too
  • and relevant laws in the location your character is at if applicable

If you are writing someone who frequently uses a drug or drinks alcohol, and it’s a lifestyle for them, pretty much everything I just listed for both is necessary to know. Don’t only base stuff on what you’ve seen in shows and movies.

Not all of this information may be possible for you to find. If that happens, or any time you feel particularly uncertain, you can go to someone you know / ask around for someone who would be okay with sharing firsthand experiences. If they aren’t writers themselves, just explain you’re a writer!

AND REMEMBER! Doing research can really help you get to know your characters better, or even your partners’ characters better, and you can develop them much further.

There are days when it’s really hard to not fall apart. Those are the days when I feel a little like an unkept garden. My roses are just starting to wilt and my daisies have had all of their petals plucked in my attempt to figure out whether or not you still love me. Those are the days when I actually find myself almost sending you the “I miss you” text that I know won’t get us anywhere but that might still make me feel better..? Because I don’t know how to talk about it with other people, and a lot of me doesn’t want to talk about it with other people because nobody knows you the way that I did. Nobody tasted you the way that I did because that was the version of you that you only showed to me. That’s the person I need like water in those terribly dry moments, but he doesn’t even exist.
—  So what do I do now? - 🖤
two birds, one stone

char is a goddess, and it is still her birthday (thank u time difference)

airport au, based on this, but not 100% similar. enjoy :)

“Yeah, dad, it’s only a short delay, I should be arriving at 7 or so,” Stiles said, tucking the phone between his ear and his shoulder as he scoured the crowded airport for a free outlet. “No, dad, you don’t need to pick me up, I can catch a cab home, I’ll be fine.”

“You think I’d let my only son take a cab home after I haven’t seen him for a year?” his dad’s tinny voice rang out sharply over the line, and Stiles smiled fondly. “I don’t know who you’ve been hanging around with, son, but I’m picking you up, and that’s the end of that. I even made sure they gave me the night off.”

“That’s great dad,” Stiles told him honestly, before his eyes widened when he caught a glimpse of a free outlet next to… was that Derek Hale? “I’ll see you tonight,” he blurted out, heading over to get a closer look at the sleeping guy. “Holy shit.”

“Language,” the Sheriff reprimanded, and Stiles winced.

“Sorry, dad. I gotta go, ‘kay? Love you,” he said absently, settling his backpack down onto the ground and unslinging his messenger bag from his shoulders, cursing silently when the strap got tangled in his earphones.

“Yeah, love you too, kid. Have a safe trip.”

At the sound of the click, Stiles ripped his earbuds out and fumbled to untangle them when his bag’s strap slid a few inches in his grasp, knocking against Derek’s bent knees. “Shit,” he breathed out, eyes wide and horrified. He waited for a few moments, unmoving, before letting out a relieved breath when Derek didn’t wake. He folded himself down a few steps away, cursing the fact that he had left his extension cord back in Beacon Hills, and his charger was unfortunately short, rendering him incapable of moving further out and admiring Derek from after, like he used to.

He let out a sigh at the thought of his first few years of high school. Derek had been the basketball team captain, two years older than Stiles, and the only reason he hadn’t tried out for the team was the burning fear that he’d trip Derek up by accident during the tryouts and spend the rest of his high school career eating his lunch next to the dumpsters. Sarcastic and terrifying tended to be Stiles’ type, evidenced by one Lydia Martin and Derek himself.

Although, looking down at Derek now, his lashes dark smudges against his cheeks and his mouth shut in a little pout looking all sleepy and adorable, he probably wouldn’t be able to tell that Derek had allegedly got the 6’6” football quarterback to cry and apologize to Jessica Rawlings, a girl in Stiles’ year. Last he heard, Derek had gone off to the East Coast for college, following the footsteps of all his older siblings.

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anonymous asked:

Hey! I'm a cisgendered straight woman who wants to tell the stories of LGBTQ+ people through my writing (anything from fluffy love stories to serious representations of discrimination). I'm worried that me writing this would be offensive to people in the LGBTQ+ community, and the last thing I would want to do is to overstep my boundaries. You're an author that I really respect and whose writing I really love, so I value your opinion on this: is it ok for someone like myself to write this? <3

Hi! Its interesting, we were just talking about this yesterday! I received some great input from a number of different writers on tumblr :) I’m going to do this in bullet points as a I try to get my thoughts in order.

I think it’s absolutely okay for you to write about LGBT+ characters, but you have to handle them well.

  1. Research, research, research. Read books by LGBTQIA+ authors ( check out @lgbtqreads) and go find people who don’t mind talking about their experiences.
  2. Understand that you’re going to make mistakes. Be okay with that, be open to listening, and be open to accepting criticism. And then use the comments to be better.
  3. Understand that not everyone will agree it’s okay. Not everyone is going to look at you and think it’s okay for you to be writing LGBT characters. There are voices in the community and it’s true that as a cisgendered, straight woman you’re more likely to be heard than they are. You can understand that and still write, but I feel it’s important to acknowledge that you do have privilege here.
  4. Avoid the hell out of tropes. Lesbian couple finally gets together and then one of them dies for Tragedy™. Gay couple somehow miraculously fits into heterosexual gender roles (one has more stereotypical feminine interests while the other has more stereotypical masculine interests.).  I’m not saying that these things don’t happen, but they’re often used to make gayness #acceptable in media.

But you know what? These are just the rules that I have for myself in my own writing. I have a very narrow field of vision because of my own identity. So here’s a bunch of sources you should definitely check out about this issue!

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I’m still seeing you in hallways and in faces I shouldn’t pay attention to, but that’s okay. You avoid my eyes and I avoid yours, right? We both knew that it’d come to this, so it’s no surprise. But could you tell me why this feels like a secret romance?
—  Day 2 🖤

anonymous asked:

Ahem, I saw on an old post you have OCs :0? Can we hear about them? :0

Oh boy. Someone actually wants to know.

Alright so long story short: I’m the most self-indulgent piece of shit ever, and I gave into the desire for a next gen AU that no one wants except for me.

I repent my sins, I promise.

Everything below the cut because I’m ashamed.

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3rd - 4th of May ~ You’ll always be beautiful to me 💙

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Artist's problem #69
  • <p> <b>*Me watching porn/erotic/smut art and comic etc*:</b> Okay this anatomy is off, that proportion is weird. Composition ain't clever and why put the camera angle there? Expressions are lazy and oh my god THAT ANATOMY!!!!!<p/><b>Me:</b> *Hardly have any fun time*<p/></p>
You came to me today, with the eyes that always want to know more about my world and a kind hand on my shoulder. Is it weird for you to touch me like that? I remember when it used to be. As a matter of fact, I remember a lot of things about who we were. I just never really thought that you could be remembering them too.
—  🖤

anonymous asked:

With all these new spoilers I am so excited I feel like I'm getting too excited, haha. It's been like wandering in a dry desert for so long that I don't believe any of this can be as good as it sounds! Like the ONLY thing that's holding me back from screaming my head off with joy is that bit where daryl asks about Ezekiel, "Is he okay?" It's good there's jealously, but I'm slightly nervous they (writers) could actually could go in the carzekiel direction. Reel me in please! I need Caryl!!

I’m answering all 3 asks in one, so save people’s dashes. :)

Look people are always going to see it as ambiguous, unless Daryl has his tongue down Carol’s throat - and we knew from the set off that there was no kiss in this episode.

But aside from an obvious kiss or statement of desire, I’m not really sure how much more unambiguous they can make it (and we know this is Gimple’s style. Abe and Sasha didn’t even get a kiss, just lots of vague talk and BOOM they are a couple).

Something to look at is Tobin, poor Tobin - where is Tobin in this episode? Daryl doesn’t mention him and Carol doesn’t ask about him or mention him. When Carol is talking about why she had to leave, saying how she just can’t lose anyone else - the one person she singles out that she can’t lose isn’t Tobin - the man she was in a relationship with, the man she was living with - she singles out Daryl! HE is *THE* most important person to her - she is stating that explicitly. 

As for Ezekiel, dudes, she set TRIP WIRES so she could STOP HIM COMING TO HER DOOR! How much clearer does it need to be? She doesn’t want him even getting as far as her door, let alone inside to chat. And Ezekiel, in his lines, is agreeing to keep away from her. And we know he does because the next time they interact is Carol going to the Kingdom to talk to him about going to war.

After The Well aired there was a lot of talk about how in ep 10 we’d see Carol and Ezekiel had grown closer - didn’t happen. We’d see that Ezekiel is the one who changes her mind - it’s not. 

What we have seen is that Carol wants Ezekiel to leave her alone and not come back - nowhere in the spoilers does she say ANYTHING approaching that to Daryl. 

Daryl asking about Ezekiel isn’t him giving his blessing or Carol expressing interest in him - she doesn’t bring him up. It’s about Daryl who has done nothing but argue with Ezekiel so far, asking for Carol’s judgement on the man because Daryl trust Carol’s judgement completely. And if she thinks Ezekiel is okay, then maybe he can give him a chance.

People will see what they want to see, and that’s fine, we all do that. But the intent is CLEAR, as is the differences in how Carol reacts to Ezekiel and Daryl. This intent will be backed up as the season goes on and into season 8.  

the-cruel-covetous-player  asked:

Simple Empty Silence

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Silence. Throughout each LOAD, though bereft of clear memories, he’d always remember the distinct lack of sound that stuck to the child like feathers to pitch. First, it had been empty and white like the snow that had covered their path. Then, the silence had turned heavy and hopeless like himself. 

And now, now that they had reached the absolute, it had grown almost familiar to him, a welcome contrast to the booming of blaster shots and the unpleasant noise of breaking bones and tearing flesh. Indeed. Standing there amidst this corridor of gold, facing his murderous enemy for all eternity, silence had become simple. Silence meant peace.

A bit of advice: If you have friends who make art/write stories, telling them you like their work is nice, but actually engaging with it (asking questions about their characters, giving them “what if” scenarios, sending them things you think will inspire them, talking to them about their artistic/writing choices etc) is 100x nicer and will make them feel awesome and probably lead to them making more art for you to enjoy.