honestly it’s baffling to me how the entire party can be So Bad at reading vex outside of percy and pike (if she’s there) like even vax is extremely hit or miss on saying what vex wants or needs to hear and as a whole vm just. likes to dismiss a lot of vex’s more serious feelings as jokes.
What do you do when you recognize contentment in others, like I did on Sunday as soon as Cait posted her video, and you realize you can't seem to have that, no matter how much you try. I'm not jealous, I swear it. I'm so glad she found her true happiness, she deserves it, they both do. I just... *wish* I could experience a moment like that, a moment of peace even during the chaos, a moment of pure bliss, serenity. My heart is always heavy, my mind is always racing... And I'm so tired.