The drabble game #16 with Barry Allen please
16. “Do you hate me or love me? Make up your mind!”
“Hey Y/N, are you taking that Meta story?” Iris came up to your desk and asked.
“Yeah, I started working on it yesterday.” You said not looking away from the computer screen.
“Well, I was wondering if you could give The Flash some credit for saving people.” Iris clapped her hands together and smiled at you.
“Why???” You asked confused.
“Because he always does his best to save the city and he is a hero. Everyone looks up to him…well everyone except you.” She whispered that last part but you heard her anyway.
“Iris, you spend so much time trying to get me to approve of a man who hides his face. I have a pretty good idea of what he is after and why he does it, besides, not everyone has had the luck of being saved, when that black whole appeared in the sky many people got sucked into it. Zoom killed Barry’s dad and The Flash couldn’t do a thing to stop him.”
You, Iris, and Barry had been close friends since you could remember. Barry loved Iris, Iris loved someone that wasn’t Barry, and you loved Barry. Some love triangle huh?
A few months ago, when Eddie passed away Iris and Barry began to act strange towards you. Barry drifted apart from you, but you guys still talked once in a while, well that was until you two had a fight over the distance he was keeping from you and he basically said he hates you. He seemed to keep in touch with Iris though. You figured he found out you were in love with him and decided that he didn’t want to be close to you anymore.
“…tonight then?” Was all you were able to catch from the dark haired beauty.
“What?” You asked hoping she could clarify what she just said.
“You didn’t hear a word I said did you.” That was more a statement than a question.
“I said you, Barry, and I should go out tonight and get some drinks. It’s about time you guys start talking again.” Iris repeated what she had said earlier.
You crossed your arms and bit your lower lip. “No, I have to follow up on the Meta human story. Plus, in case Barry didn’t tell you; he can’t stand me. The last time we talked he said, and I quote: ‘You wouldn’t understand, I can’t stand being close to you.’ Did he tell you that?”
Iris looked down. You knew Barry told her what happened that night, he always told her everything. She pulled out her phone and dialed a number.
“Hey Barry… do you want to hang out tonight with Y/N?… yeah just the three of us, just like the old times…okay eight o'clock then.” She hung up and smiled at you. “He seemed fine to me.”
“You should’ve said you wanted him there at seven thirty. He’ll be late.” You said and she smacked her forehead.
“You’re right.” She laughed.
“It’s 8:09, where the hell is he?” Iris asked you looking at her watch.
“Told you he’d be late.” You said taking a sip from your martini.
“Hey girls.” Came Barry’s voice from behind. Your eyes met but only for a split second before he looked away.
“Where were you?” Iris asked.
“Uhh… I lost track of time I guess.” He replied and sat down eyeing you for a second too long.
“So, are you guys going to just glance at each other all night or are you guys gonna finally talk?” Iris pointed out to both of you.
“How are you Barry?” Of course the first question came from you, it always did.
“I’m good, been busy at the… uh CCPD. And you?” He asked, his eyes were glued on you.
“Good, I have been very good.” You say. Thinking to yourself that you were such a liar.
“Iris said you were taking on a story about Meta Humans.” He said lightly pouting.
“The chief says my point of view on The Flash and Meta humans is different, he said to make it into an article, so I will.” You were about to continue but Barry’s phone went off.
“Excuse me.” He said.
He walked off to answer it and came back to grab his jacket. “I gotta go.” He looked at you but you just looked away dissatisfied.
“I’ll go with you.” Iris said and you watched as Barry nodded in her direction.
“I have to go too.” You grabbed your jacket and without saying another word you left the bar.
You got home and ran in the shower; Barry was so distant, like he wanted to keep away from you.
The hot water relaxed your body and allowed you to think about everything that had happened prior to Henry Allen’s death.
Barry hadn’t been the same since then. You remembered how you were in your apartment and got a call from Joe informing you about the situation. They never told you how Zoom got to Henry, how he died, or why The Flash was with him but couldn’t save him. It didn’t matter to you because Barry was destroyed and he wouldn’t let you get close.
As you stepped out of the shower you heard someone knocking at your balcony, but how was that even possible if you were on the 30th floor? You wrapped your robe around your body and pulled the curtain blocking the view to the side.
You opened the window and saw he was actually pretty tall, you could tell he was recently in a fight due to all the dust that covered him.
“What are you doing here?” You asked.
“I came to see you, to tell you the truth.” His voice stuck realization in you.
“Barry?!” You couldn’t believe it, he was The Flash. He was the man who defeated Zoom, the man who witnessed his own father being murdered, the man you loved with every beat of your heart.
“May I come in?” He asked and you moved aside letting him in. Once inside he pulled back his mask so you could see his face. It really was him.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” You asked sitting on the edge of your bed.
“I didn’t want to put you in danger.” He answered taking a step towards you.
“But Iris knows, I wasn’t going to tell anyone. You just let me be here and worry about everything that was going on. I wanted to turn everyone against The Flash for not saving Henry! I loved you. Why Barry? Why?!” The tears began to fall uncontrollably. You felt betrayed and although you had been denying it to yourself all these months, you felt like you were pushed aside.
“Because I wanted to protect you. Zoom, Reverse Flash, Snart, they all targeted you, they knew you were important to me, they knew I loved you! I don’t want to risk your life, I’d die if anything were to happen to you again. I love you so much Y/N, and that puts your life in danger.” He looked away from you.
“Last time we talked you said you couldn’t stand me. So what is it Barry Allen? Do you hate me or love me? Make up your mind!” You yelled a little louder than necessary.
“I love you. I love you so much I hate you.” He was standing in front of you in a flash, ducked down so he was at eye level with you.
“I tried getting close to you, I tried everything to help you. What I hate the most about this is that I can never hate you. I thought that The Flash was a coward who got cold feet at the sight of Zoom, I hated the fact that because he didn’t stop him you had to suffer. I know now, that if you’re the Flash there’s no way he is who I thought he was.” You whispered, you didn’t want to touch this subject with him anymore but you needed closure. “Thank you, and I’m so sorry for the way that I talked that day.”
“For what? I’d do anything to keep you out of harm’s way, but there’s only one way I could ever forgive you for saying all those hurtful things that day.” He leaned down to kiss you and you met him half way there. Both of you kissing away your pain and giving in to that love you felt for one another.
He lightly pushed you backwards not detaching his lips from yours. Your hand wrapped around his neck while his own untied the knot holding your robe together.
There will be a part 2 following another request for this story. It was a bit long but i hope you like it and sorry for the delay.