but i want people so see this sam because i'm in love

This!!! This is the chance I’ve been looking for!!!

“So, even with everybody thinking you’re a bad ghost, you’re still gonna try to be the hero?”

“Well, somebody’s gotta. If not me, who’s gonna protect this town? Besides, it’s not like I can ignore a scream for help.”

I am so gonna talk about this boy I’ve been waiting for a good chance to talk about what a good, pure child he is and I am taking it now. Bless his heart I love him so much.

Let’s talk about Daniel James Fenton and why he deserves love and protection forever and always.

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so today my professor told us how she found her 8 year old neighbor crying on his way home from school last week and when she asked what happened, he told her that while he was at hockey tryouts these white boys called him the N word and told him that black people couldn’t play hockey. she felt so bad for him because she said he was always sweet and well mannered to her. she convinced her brother to give up his tickets to see the Flyers vs Habs game so she could give it to her neighbor. somehow he ended up meeting Wayne Simmonds and the boy’s father told him what happened.

apparently Wayne had a really sad look on his face after he heard what happened but he told the kid to not give up even though people’s words can hurt. and when Wayne told the kid that he believed in him and that he could be the greatest hockey player in the world and maybe even play for the Flyers one day if he didn’t give up, the kid started to cry. later Wayne gave the boy his email address and said that if those boys ever messed with him again, that he was to email him and that he would have his back.

after the boy and father thanked Wayne, he had a big smile on his face and just said, “us handsome fellas gotta stick together, eh?”

anonymous asked:

My sisters been sending your (amazingly) written metas, but I'm still confused as to what "Performance!Dean" is. Could you explain? ❤❤❤❤❤❤

Hi! Thank you!

Performing!Dean is a tag that many of us use to explain the way that Dean portrays himself to the outside world, suppressing parts of himself that he doesn’t think should be outwardly shown.

It’s a form of SUBLIMATION (a psychological term meaning to repress emotions / a part of oneself), a term which he actually uses in 12x05.

It’s a great example. The writers KNOW that we associate Dean’s love of pie with women / being comfortable / the home and family feeling, and cake with the repressed side of him (it is repeatedly used in this context, Dean really wanting it but never allowing himself to have it or just nibbling at the edges). It’s quite a famously known concept.

So… when Sam asks Dean if he wants pie and Dean says no, which basically never happens, when Sam then looks so DONE and starts talking about how Mary is gone and… (the implication being he is about to mention Cas being gone too)… then Dean says nope nope I am FINE and Sam FINALLY calls Dean out on it, saying “Dean, it’s called SUBLIMATION”.

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And Dean finally relents and says “Yeah, its kinda my thing”. (And then later in the diner he is seen to have eaten a whole slice of cake in front of Sam and no-one makes a big deal out of it….)

WE ALL SCREAMED. DEAN ACTUALLY IN THE SCRIPT, OUT LOUD, HAS SAID THAT HE SUBLIMATES.

Because THIS is Dabb again taking what has been IN THE SCRIPT and in the show for 12 years and building on it, making it BLATANT. Because we are building to endgame now, SPN isn’t likely to last past season 13-14, so the character arcs that were set up in season 1 (and 4 for Cas) need to be tied up, so we, the audience NEED it to be made obvious when it has just been in the subtext. THAT IS WHY SO MUCH IS SO BLATANT THIS SEASON. Ie Performing!Dean, Destiel, Sam and the MoL story, Mary being the catalyst for Dean’s self acceptance arc and Sam’s self forgiveness arc around Lucifer (which I think will be much more blatant next season re: Jack as his mirror).

With Performing!Dean it started to be made a bit more obvious since Sam told Dean that he was ‘kind of butch’ and people probably thought he was ‘overcompensating’ in season 2 but it still stayed subtext, Dean checking out a few guys here and there, only really getting with women when he was having his ‘I’m going to go to Hell and need comfort’ or ‘Sam is dead, Cas left’ moments or since he met Cas, whenever Cas had left, making Dean feel crappy and rejected or had just DIED, using it as a coping mechanism, even blatantly role playing in season 9 after he feels so bad about kicking Cas out of the bunker etc to the point that in 12x18 it is so blatant that this is what it is about, they even have Dean saying outloud that he is settling for Sam’s omelette mere seconds after clearly having settled for the waitress because she wasn’t what he really wanted on top of all the other give aways…

Anyway, it’s not just about his sexuality or feelings for Cas, there are many other aspects too, and those are the ones that are cemented in seasons 1-3. Most of these seem all to stem from John and if you see snippets from John’s journal it makes sense.

John says he is proud of Dean when he kills monsters, womanises, drinks etc etc. So guess what a young impressionable Dean learned was the best way to act in life?

Now, over the years bits have come out here and there. Every time we see Dean with a sexual partner he has been the submissive one, he is clearly an extremely giving lover and very caring. He is not a dude bro womaniser at heart, he cares for all the women he sleeps with enough to be kind and gentle with them, even the waitress in 12x18 who really he doesn’t REALLY CARE about, she’s just a coping mechanism, but he is still extremely sweet with her.

He drinks for years of course, he is a functioning alcoholic for most of the show, but lately he has switched to coffee… unless something really bad is going down. Like when we saw the empty bottle in his room in 12x19…

He listens to old rock music because it reminds him of his mom and dad, not because he is a real metal head. Yeah absolutely he loves it too I’m sure, but really it’s the emotional pull. And we haven’t heard him do so since 12x07. Just saying. He also admits to liking Taylor Swift in season 10, after firstly saying HELL NO, same with the cucumber water in 12x07. It’s not the music or the water or whatever as such, that is absolutely NOT what we are saying is making us feel Dean is bisexual or has a hidden side to himself, its the fact that he HIDES it first then admits to it afterwards, that is the essence of Performing!Dean.

When Sam drinks the cucumber water, no-one batted an eyelid, that means nothing to us, because Sam is super comfortable with who he is in THIS respect, even though he carries guilt etc, but that is another subject. But because Dean made a huge deal about how uncool and basically unmanly it was, after all we know of him over the years, THEN went and drank it anyway, saying “shut up” when Sam is like “seriously?!” THAT is where the Performing!Dean meta comes from. And Sam is the same as us, he doesn’t care if Dean is bi, or if he likes Taylor Swift or cucumber water or WHATEVER, what he DOES care about is the fact that Dean feels the need to hide it from him.

There are so many small points along the series that point to a lot of Dean’s persona being fake or exaggerated and how sometimes Sam knows and sometimes he doesn’t, it would be funny if it wasn’t tragic.

Deep down Dean Winchester is a soft, kind and generous soul who just wants to be loved and to help people.

WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT WE SAW IN 12x11. THIS IS THE EXPOSITION EPISODE FOR PERFORMING!DEAN AND THE CORE OF THIS WHOLE SEASON BECAUSE THE WHOLE SEASON HAS BEEN ABOUT THIS, WHICH IS WHY 12x22 IS THE CHARACTER LED FINALE, BECAUSE IT IS WHERE THIS FINALLY COMES DOWN.

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So yeah, the fact of the matter is that Performing!Dean has been there all along, since the PILOT, over the years it has been showed to us that it exists then some of the walls have started coming down. If anyone dares to tell me that Performing!Dean isn’t a thing (which I was told earlier this season, lmao) then I will kindly point them towards 12x11 and 12x22.

Also, let us not forget that even though 12x11 was mostly an exposition for Performing!Dean when he lost his memories, again harking back to the HEART is the person, NOT their memories theme of the season, we also were given the golden snippet that DEAN RODE LARRY BEFORE HE GOT WACKED WITH MAGIC. This is to show us that Dean’s walls are coming down this season. When Sam called him up on it in a way that seemed to be taking the piss, Dean, rather than attempt to deny or tell him to shut up actually embraced it and gloated about how GOOD he was at it. ATTA BOY DEAN!

With the resurrection of Mary and Dean’s near - complete death experience it seems that Dean got to the point in season 12 where he just didn’t want to hide from himself anymore and so let these walls down further, there were small snippets of this in nearly EVERY episode. 

12x11 was the exposition for casual viewers to see this side of him more clearly (in the same way that 12x19 was for Dean and Cas’s clearly more than platonic relationship, which will not be built on with HUGE LEGO BRICKS since Cas died), and now with the grenade launcher as a metaphor, Dean literally blew down his walls in 12x22. The culmination of this story was his confrontation with Mary where he explains WHY he always had this facade, because he had a shitty childhood, had to be a parent to Sam and that it wasn’t FAIR and he didn’t cope with it well at all.

So. There we have it. Performing!Dean is REAL, it was there ALL ALONG, we were RIGHT in seeing it because it is confirmed in 12x11 and then addressed and to some extent dismantled in 12x22, and the meta idea that the grenade launcher is associated with Performing!Dean was ALSO used.

Just… wowzers.

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I don’t expect Dean to suddenly act completely differently now, he won’t, there are just some aspects of him that will be slightly more obvious or he won’t hide certain parts of himself. He still isn’t completely done with this, as Jensen himself said that there will be more of this to come in season 13…

I expect him to perhaps once or twice order a slice of cake or an ice cream sundae, to listen to the radio and not turn it over if a pop song comes on, to be more open with his feelings towards his family (and yeah, Destiel is a part of this for sure), a nice turn around but also not jarring, because it’s just a PART of Dean, not his whole self, a lot of what we see is really fully him, so it’s not that he is going to completely radically change!

Anyway, its all very exciting as the metaphorical death of Performing!Dean is just a part of what most of us see as a positive endgame for TFW and it is all looking pretty good so far :D

Stuck in the Middle (with You)/Awesome Crowley

[For a meta about Reservoir Dogs and Tarantino’s use of gay subtext, click here.]

I don’t want to be the person who ruins everyone’s fun, so I’m saving my one big criticism of this episode for last. This meta is completely positive, even saccharine, until the very last paragraph. Also, I’m borrowing one of my favourite AO3 tags as a title because, let’s face it, Crowley was the real hero of this episode and where the action was, and that’s perfectly okay and long overdue. Crowley’s been around for years now, and he’s gone through huge bouts of character development, and yet we still know next to nothing about him and he’s often treated like an afterthought, both by our heroes and by the writers. This episode finally (finally!) corrected that, because no matter how intriguing and plain beautiful everyone was, Crowley was magnificent - as I fully expected him to be.

After all, they’re good - but he’s Crowley.


Like anyone with eyes, I loved everything about this episode, and especially how it was filmed. I have to say - this is the first episode in a long time that actually had me in tenterhooks about a possible character death, because you never know, right? Theoretically, Crowley could die, and so could Cas. Theoretically. And also the music, did I mention the music? I think that scene of Cas crawling away from Ramiel and the shot of Ramiel stabbing him - that’s just become my favourite Supernatural scene ever, bar none. It was so powerful and dramatic and visually magnificent and that damn music - wow

I adored that symbolism, because Cas’ been a Christ figure for a while now, and seeing him like that, on his back, defeated and stabbed by a lance - you can’t get more Golgotha than that. Beautiful stuff.

I also loved that this episode was, in a way - off-centre. Sam and Dean were there, of course, but the story was not focused around them. The real protagonist was the supernatural world itself - Cas, Crowley, Ramiel; even Lucifer, to me, was more present than he’s been in a while, what with this vague threat of his child hanging over the world, and him taunting Crowley and flashing his red eyes at this most undemonic demon in the very last scene. The truth is, I love everything about Sam and Dean, and that includes the incredibly talented actors who play them, but I feel the show could benefit greatly from approaching their story from a different perspective every once in a while. I’d love to know more about their childhood, for instance, or about this world of monsters and hunters around them; and a completely Outsider POV episode is, at this point, something I’d probably sell half my soul for.

Anyway - lately, this show reads like very good fanfiction, and considering how engaged, loving and talented this fandom is, this is high praise. I particularly appreciate the fact they’re going back to important plot points and filling them in with completely new details - after all, we’ve been wondering for years what’s up with demonic eyes, or how Crowley became king in the first place (or, at least, I know I did). This new class of demons appearing out of nowhere - creatures powerful enough to wield an archangel’s weapon - that’s incredible stuff. I’m guessing we’ll see more about them, and I can’t freaking wait.

So, yes - Ramiel was spot-on. Jerry Trimble managed just the right mixture of underwhelmingly normal and terrifyingly amoral - so much so I’m sort of sad we didn’t get to see more of this character, even if everything about him, including his death, was handled just right - there was no room for anything more.

My one slight criticism there would be the fizzling nature of Cas’ abilities. For instance, didn’t we establish that Cas can smell lies? So why couldn’t he guess Mary was hiding something? And what about demons’ true forms? I always assumed Cas could see that (was it ever stated in canon? it must have been), and I was therefore almost disappointed that Cas couldn’t recognize Ramiel for what he was. Maybe it can be explained away by him slowly becoming closer and closer to a human being - I don’t know. In any case, I’m truly appreciating how obsessed everyone seems to be with him lately. After years of taking angels for granted, we’ve got two characters in short succession fangirling over angels (in a creepy, murderous and definitely non-con way, but still) - and, yeah, I know that basically everyone spent the entirety of Supernatural pointing out how different and unique Cas is, and I’m grateful for that, but it’s also nice to get a reminder that angels are awesome (in the other sense of the word) in and of themselves.

(I’m still loving Mr Ketch, by the way. Aaaaaw.)

Let’s now come to our unsung hero: Mr Crowley.

Crowley was magnificent in all this. And we’ve now learned he never seriously planned to become King of Hell - my headcanon, which I’m considering confirmed, is that Crowley simply wants control. He’s been tortured for a century or more as some demon tore his human soul out of him, and he’s never putting himself in that position again, which is very sensible of him, and also very Scarlett O’Hara.

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Some wonderful rp’ers to follow

((ooc: So I one of my friends ( @deerest-marauder) just decided to give hp rp a try (yeeey!). She wanted to know who she should follow so I made her a list with some of my favorite rpers and with a little bit of information that she needs to know about them. And I thought, whey not share it with everyone?

  • TT (Everyone has/should have a tumblr crush on them): @asktheboywholived
  • Kapitan (A cutie that must be protected at all cost, also plants and Arin): @kapitan5o 
  • Andy (Looks really badass and awesome, is in a relationship with KP): @siriusly-not-over-remus
  • Paige (Is TT’s Lily, TT wants to see Paige everyday but can’t because they live too far away): @potterdeer
  • AkumaPheles (My fav nonbinary frensh trash and THEY LIVE IN LILLE WHICH IS LIKE 2 HOURS AWAY OR SOMETHING): @akumapheles
  • Jess (Loves Great British Bake Off, too many Tonks feels): @sirussly 
  • Gia (My Veela feminist aunt): @femme-fatality 
  • Jamie & Becci (2 amazing people, they are really nice and sweet): @ask-themaraudersmap
  • Laina (Actual Helga Hufflepuff or a Disney princes, not sure yet): @ohtheclevernessofme1972
  • Arin (They film the dreams people dream of them, they are my fav Draco): @space-marauder
  • Emily Grace (better Pantsy than book Pantsy): @egdramaqueen 
  • KP (another cutie that needs to be protected, in a relationship with Andy): @whompingwillovv
  • Ara (Hates Snape, loves tea, is amazing and really sweet): @son-0f-a-snitch
  • Syd (Another cutie (we have so many of those), loves plants, needs to make a new Sam x James II thread with Andy asap): @lupinaesthetic 
  • Nay (Has cheeks for days, gilderoy lockhart): @gee-wizard 
  • Sam (Looks like a real life Disney princes who disguises herself as hp characters): @masksofmickey 
  • Tahlia (Makes the best fairybread, really cute Teddy, really nice voice): @a-smol-snake
  • Erika (My Veela mom, look how beautiful she is!): @positivity-and-possibilities 
  • Beth (A really friendly bro, makes wonderful aesthetics): @sadnessandteabiscuits
  • Elby (My platonic soulmate): @ravenclawsticrambles 
  • Tara (Go vote for her fanfic so it can win an award, she’s amazing and I love her new tattoo): @captofthesswolfstar

I probably forgot way to many rp’ers (I’m sorry). Also, I’m so sorry if I wrote someone’s name wrong. If, for some strange reason, someone isn’t following one of the rp’ers on this list I highly recomand you to follow them and all the other rp’ers in the community because everyone is really amazing and sweet and they are just all wonderfull human beings.))

I think Destiel may be canon/how I want it to be canon

I know a lot of the fandom doesn’t ship destiel (and they ship wincest, ew) but, I really want to say a  lot of things about destiel.

Dean and Cas have the most amazing bond and the way that they looked at each other around season 4(ish) just melts my heart.

It’s canon that in 8x17, Dean was scripted to say ‘I love you,’ To Castiel, but they changed it to “I need you,” because they didn’t think that he would actually come out and say that. It’s obvious to Dean’s character that he bottles his emotions and doesn’t say his feeling for a number of episodes. 

And we do know that it is 100% that Cas loves the Wincesters *coughdeancough*. I think he aimed it at Dean, because he said, “I love you,” *camera cuts to Dean* “I love all of you.” *cuts to Dean agAIN, then cuts to Sam.* And also during that scene, it looks like he looked at Dean and then his eyes flick down, or is that just my imagination? 

And Dean’s reaction to Cas dying in the season 12 finale, he looks shocked, how anyone would be if a friend died. But unlike Sam, who went to check on Jack, Dean stayed. He stayed by Castiel’s side, fell to his knees, and looked up at the sky with the look of utter heart break in his eyes. 

I’m sorry I can’t find a gif of his heartbroken face. 

As you may or may not know, Jared Padalecki accidentally let it slip that Cas is going to be on season 13. I also read something saying that Jensen is excited for filming season 13 because of Dean’s reaction to Castiel’s death. On the same post it said that Misha said characters are romantically involved. That makes me think that Destiel may be canon near the end of season 13, or near the middle, not the beginning because Dean always bottles up his emotions. 

That’s why I think destiel may go cannon. Here’s how I want it to go canon. I don’t want them to straight up fuck (cause they’re not straight eyyyy) but maybe later on, because come on. Dean is Dean and he likes sex. A lot of relationships go canon like that and I don’t think sex builds the emotions that people have in a loving relationship. I mean it might for you, who the hell am I to decide things? It’s just my personal opinion. I want Dean and Cas to have a sweet first kiss. Maybe Dean is so happy to see Cas alive he kisses him. Maybe one is worried about the other and kisses him. Or one of my favorites, Destiel has been canon for a while but has never been on screen. For example, after the mixtape scene (people give mixtapes to people that they have a crush on) Dean leaves to get a beer. It never actually shows him with a beer. Did he come back to his room (with Cas? Wink wonk) to drink it? And later Dean said he kept the Colt under his pillow and Cas double crossed him. Hmm how did Cas get that from under the pillow eh? (Wink wonk). Even if Destiel does not become canon, I still believe that it may happen. I personally think there is so much evidence pointing to Destiel and I think it will become canon late s13. What do you guys think? This was a long post. Thanks if you read all the way! I may edit this later on so keep an eye out!

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Hi loves, I guess it’s about time I make one of these to appreciate all the people that I have somehow convinced to press that follow button how even.! as well as the people that makes me wanna log on everyday I honestly forgot the exact day of my blog anniversary so I guess today will do for this post wink wonk c: It’s been about a year since I actively wrote for bts and got back into the army tumblr community and I’m happy the allure and fascination in writing did not leave me back then. First off, I really want to say thank you to all of you, sincerely, I never thought I would meet so many wonderful people on this website and the amount of talent in this fandom is astounding! Thank you for being so patient with me, for understanding that I’m a fickle writer at heart (them random ass updates) and thank you for letting me share my stories with you. The following people have been meaningful to me in someway, whether that is through the little things like the occasional message or some that I can truly count on to be there when I need them. 

Note, that more one of the below categories may apply to you but I like organizing it this way :’) also if I didn’t write a message for you it’s not because I love you any less but more like I’m trying real hard for this to not exceed a certain length and crash everyone’s app (HA). Please forgive me if I forgot anyone .. I really tried my best TTTT but believe me when I say if I have punched that follow button then I have loved you for a long long time. So without farther ado.. 

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I'm 100% straight. . . Right?

Pairing: Natasha x reader

Plot: Natasha starts to question her sexually when the reader joins the team. After telling Clint about her feelings for the reader he tells Natasha to make a move before it’s too late.

Word count: 2511

A/n I don’t know if I like this one. I know this sound similar to one of my previous fics I’m so sorry about that. I’m thinking about doing a part two to this though with major fluff but also kinky kinky smut. Like Natasha tying the reader up smut.

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All her life Natasha Romanoff identified herself as straight female. That was until you came into her life. The day you walked into her life she start questioning her sexuality. At first she just thought it was just her mind acknowledging that you were a beautiful woman. But as time went on she felt herself wanting to kiss you and wanting to take you out on dates.

She would always ask if you would like to train with her so she could spend time with you. You’d always agree because you heard that she was the best person to train with because she never went easy on her opponent. “God I love when we train together, I always work up a sweat.” you smiled as you tried to steady your breath and walked over to your water bottle “lets hit the showers”. You hooked your arm with hers and made your way to the locker room where you proceeded to take off your sports bra and your leggings.

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anonymous asked:

Sine, Sine! I'm sorry to bother you, but do you have any good tips for writing 616 Tony! I just love your characterization so much :)

Oh, boy, an opportunity to talk about my fave! I was actually sitting here thinking, gosh, I hope someone asks me to write meta about my favorite characters sometime soon! And then you did, so thank you, anon! (And thank you, I’m glad you like my characterization.)

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Kong: Skull Island
  • Kong: Welcome to Skull Island! My name's King Kong. What's yours?
  • Tom Hiddleston: Tom.
  • Kong: So what are ya, some kind of action hero?
  • Tom Hiddleston: I'm an explorer.
  • Kong: That's cool.
  • Tom Hiddleston: I guess.
  • Kong: You don't say much, do ya? Who's your friend?
  • Tom Hiddleston: This is Brie.
  • Kong: OMG! Is that Brie Larson? Girl, I loved you in Room!
  • Brie Larson: Oh, um, thank you.
  • Kong: You know, people are always so surprised when I say I loved that movie. It's like they've never met a giant ape with good taste in movies before or something. I tell ya, girl: Just because I'm a big hairy monster doesn't mean I don't appreciate emotionally riveting drama. I bawled my eyes out while watching you in that movie. You totally deserved the Oscar.
  • Brie Larson: Thank you. I'm glad you liked it.
  • Kong: Liked it? Girl, I loved it! Would ya mind signing this copy on Blu Ray for me?
  • Brie Larson: Sure.
  • Kong: Oh gee thanks! Hey, do you guys like mojitos? I make a killer mojito.
  • Samuel L. Jackson: I like mojitos.
  • Kong: Get out of here! Sam Jackson, you're here too?
  • Samuel L. Jackson: You'd better believe it, Kong!
  • Kong: It just keeps getting better and better. Did you guys know I'm already friends with John C. Reilly?
  • Brie Larson: I didn't know that.
  • Kong: Well it's true, and he and I are having a big blow out later tonight at my place. There will be music, dancing, and plenty of mojitos. You all are more than welcome to come.
  • Samuel L. Jackson: Count me in!
  • John Goodman: Me too!
  • Kong: Whoa! John Goodman, of "Rosanne" fame? I feel like I've died and gone to frickin' celeb heaven over here!
  • Tom Hiddleston: Hey, how come you know who they all are, but you didn't recognize me? I'm famous too.
  • Kong: Oh, I recognized you, Tom Hiddleston. I just didn't want to acknowledge you because I don't care for how you broke poor Taylor Swift's heart.
  • Tom Hiddleston: She broke up with me, actually.
  • Kong: And I'm sure she had a very good reason for doing so.
  • Tom Hiddleston: Can we not talk about this anymore?
  • Kong: Sure, let's drop it... Well, I've gotta run, gang. Got a big party to prepare for, ya know. See you all tonight!
  • Brie Larson: Do you need me to bring anything?
  • Kong: Oh Brie, you're such a sweetheart for asking that, but all you need to bring is that beautiful face of yours. I've got plenty of snacks and drinks to go around.
  • Brie Larson: Okay. See you later.
  • Kong: This is going to be the best party ever!
  • END SCENE
  • -Joe

We have now had at least one episode dedicated to developing the relationships between each duo combination of Team Phantom, and I think this is as good a time as any to gush about why this is one of my favorite trios in anything.

I’ll just cover each combination in order and then talk about all three of them, because I love these kids and could talk about them all day.

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anonymous asked:

Hi Sam! I'm curious about your magical time management skills: you have a full-time job, are super active in fandom, answer countless asks, write fanfiction and books, and still have time for jogging and many other stuffs. How do you organize yourself? I feel super overwhelmed due to lack of time and end up not doing what I want do. Do you allot time to do stuff? How does your typical day looks like? And any useful tips for us slackers.

I dunno how helpful it’ll be – I mean, some of it is time management, and some of it is that I have spent a long time working on arranging my life so that I have as much free time to pursue my own interests as possible. This hasn’t consciously meant giving up things like close brickspace friends and romantic relationships but in some ways it has kind of worked out that way. (Not that I couldn’t have those things if I chose to work towards them, in other words, but they don’t come naturally to me and I don’t mind the lack.) 

So, I will give you a rundown of my average day, but before we begin, I will also give you some context! And this will be long so I’ll put it under a readmore. 

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anonymous asked:

What's your take on the Outlander cast/production's SM? IMO, it's pretty disappointing. Sorry, but their SM really isn't for them anymore. Most celebrities get this, but not Sam or Cait. Whether they like it or not, their SM represents their show, yet we hear nothing about it. I think they resent what they should be grateful for. Want to talk to your friends? Text or setup a private account. So it's all charities/retweets/political opinions now. Or a way to passive aggressively shade some fans.

Heya Anon! Just wanna say I’m fasting so I’mma try and be as nice as I can ;)

What’s my take on prod/cast SM… Well, it’s no secret that I’ve had issues for a while now with their approach to promo and engagement with fans. And I totally agree it’s so disappointing.

Perception is everything. And at first glance, what do you see?

The Official Outlander account is terrible to an incredibly laughable degree. Just getting a simple tweet/pic out can be an arduous ordeal for them, let alone promoting the show to a new audience. They’ve relied heavily on fans to do that for them. When a new fan (let alone battle worn hardies) goes to their SM and sees they haven’t tweeted anything of substance in ages but superficial dribble or birds, landscapes and boats on a producer’s SM, what’s that new fan to think?

Which brings me to Sam… I haven’t followed him for a good long while now, and have no desire to (zero zero done). But I went to his twitter today and did a bit of scrolling. Wow. If I didn’t know who he was, I’d think he was just some generic whiskey loving, health guru type account that plugs friends businesses. Nothing to tell me he is an actor, let alone one at all interested all that much in OL, other than engaging only with the people that will and have parted with their money for him, the rest get shade thrown at them. It would be nice if his show related activity didn’t seem like a vain, afterthought/obligation or dare I say, an FU (Same goes for Cait).

Cait, I had gotten used to her being MIA on SM and when she did pop up there was a humor I loved and purpose. But recently that purpose seems almost… Disingenuous? Her SM’s all politics, charity, art - which is totally fine - she’s taking a stand for the things she believes in. At least she’s been giving it a try lately (tweeting Lauren and Cesar, posting more on IG), yet at the same time, just seems like she’s felt the backlash from the fandom and is trying to get back in everyone’s good books - again, at least she’s trying. Even her damage control driven q and a, where she played it safe and just stuck to pretty much the same people to answer, didn’t seem to help all that much. But I appreciated the effort. (And that she didn’t throw in a ‘get me to this-much-thousand followers for a q and a!’).

For any new fan looking to have a peek TODAY at the SMs of Outlander related cast/crew/production, they will be sorely disappointed (and pretty confused), because at first glance, there’s nothing anywhere near resembling enthusiasm/genuine love (which I’m sure they have) for a show they’re filming.

Absolute minimum, till obligated otherwise.

I dunno, it’s just all about Timing, and I’ve longed stopped believing in coincidences in this fandom.

Again, Perception is everything.

And only engagement they seem to have with wallets fans, have been limited to those they’ve deemed “true”.

1pen1knife  asked:

I'm sorry but all I need is for the whole pjo crew to meet the mcaga crew and piper is the one that looks at them and the first thing she thinks of is who likes eachother. Like I'm sorry but I need them (them being feirrochase and blitzstone) to awkwardly talk it out with the pjo crew

don’t worry bro i got you

  • ok so magnus is visiting camp half blood with sam, alex, hearthstone and blitz
  • b/c i mean like who wouldn’t want to see the magical camp 
  • (I’m wearing my chb shirt while writing this omg)
  • and percy and magnus have already met from when they needed his help 
  • so they get there, after a long car ride of arguing over whose baseball team is better between magnus and annabeth and percy agreeing with annabeth 
  • but magnums dads back him up
  • and alex totally does too b/c i mean she’s a magnus baseball fan ok and she threatens to kill percy and everybody goes silent b/c these demigods can’t die over and over and be back for supper? 
  • so its really awkward for a second 
  • and i mean alex did just offer to kill percy in honor of magnus and his baseball team
  • annabeth grins breaking the tension with ‘you can try but its gonna be hard’

  • when they get to the camp nico stares for so long and will and jason are hanging out with him 
  • and piper is talking to kayla and austin how nice 
  • annabeth and magnus are still talking about baseball 
  • and alex walks behind magnus and just plops his head on top of magnum’s because he’s tall enough to and he can 
  • so he’s awkwardly walking behind magnus just leaning on him so weird but very domestic 

  • blitz is great friends with lacy automaticaly and hearth just stands by until a kid runs up to him and starts signing 
  • and this fucking little kid is so happy because nobody here knows sign language but chiron and he’s not always here 
  • now hearthstone, blitz, magnus and sam are all signing to him and he’s so in love with them 
  • and magnus translates for alex duh 

  • nico is still fucknig staring so creepily but i mean 
  • ‘they’re fucking dead Will what the fuck jason go fly up to a tree with them and drop them i want to see what happens will they still be dead?? will they die and not be here??? are they ghosts??’
  • and will is like ‘or you could go speak to them’
  • Jasons just like i got this and picks nico up b/c no way is he walking over there alone, 
  • “my uh, friend, here wants to know wether you guys are dead or not’ 
  • will is trailing behind laughing his ass off 
  • and alex is straight up salty to them like ‘are you dead? thats not a nice thing to ask excuse you’ 
  • jasons just baffled b/c I’m mean that was rude it was a valid question 
  • and piper is here now like ‘my bf meant to ask are you dead?’
  • ‘oh yeah we are’ 
  • than piper goes ‘and your bf?’ referring to magnus
  • and alex just says yeah b/c he docent notice  
  • (the whole car ride back magnus is grinning like so I’m your boyfriend huh
  • ‘fucking shut up maggie you’re so dead later’)
  • and nico is just wow ok this is the first other lgbtq+ people he has actually met and they’re a couple so he jumps out of Jason’s arms and stands next to Will holding his hand so much more confident in himself
  • (jasons jealous so he also holds nicos hand ok) 
  • and wills grinning proud af b/c this is so rare and nico’s confident right now ok its amazing 
  • and ‘what about you guys are you dead?’
  • ‘no but were together as well’ blitz says looking magnus dead in the eye to be all fatherly like you aint fucking getting away with this without talking to us about it ok 
  • and hearthstone is too busy to read lips just still grinning at magnus and alex  

anonymous asked:

Hello! I'm new to the spn fandom, and I want to try reading wincest, now, because I'm still new to it, I wondered, could you recommend on fics where Sam is in love with Dean and it's unrequited? I want to first get used to the idea of one of the brothers being in love with the other before I get used to both being in love. Sorry if I bother you!!

Hello there! Sadly I don’t know a lot about unrequited!wincest, I’m more into the whole wincest being in love train, (you’re not bothering me btw), these are what I can remember right now, most of them got wincest as end game, so I don’t know if the list will be helpful, sorry in advance dear ♥

Memories Of Me While investigating a routine curse in a small California town Dean loses his memory. With only his brother to lean on feelings begin to develop that aren’t exactly brotherly. How’s Sam going to cope with that?

Unasked  Sam doesn’t ask.

In Florida, when they burst out of the old collapsing mausoleum into afternoon sunshine, covered with dirt and ectoplasm and victory, and Dean punches his fists in the air and looks at him, dirty and grinning and shining so bright that for a minute Sam almost can’t see, still he doesn’t ask, he doesn’t reach out and put his hands on Dean’s face, where they belong according to every instinct and yearning he has in him.

One Going on Eternity and Counting Some boundaries were never meant to be crossed …

Learning to Breathe   When he was fifteen, Sam confessed his romantic feelings to his brother. Rejected and unable to face his brother again, Sam runs away. In an effort to stay off his father’s radar, he turns to a life of crime to get by. As it turns out, he’s pretty good at it.

The Ghost of Somebody At His Side The night before Sam Winchester meets with his 12th grade guidance counselor for the second time, something very bad happens. One of those somethings that takes only a ridiculously short amount of time – in this case, about three minutes – yet manages to change the course of two lives forever. Or: Sam goes to Stanford, and takes most of Dean’s heart with him.

 

Eight Things You Should Know  Dean called Sam from outside the library and told him to get his punk-ass in gear, and, distracted, Sam accidentally left his hand inside the copier as he pushed the green button. The bar of white light scanned across, taking in the book pages and Sam’s fingertips spread out at the edges, blurry black and white. Sam knew copy machines were totally safe and had seen guys flatten their faces on the glass–eyes open–but it still bugged him. It left his hand feeling all tingly and weird, though that might have been mostly in Sam’s head.

Distortion  Sam drunk dials Dean.

One True Kiss  Sam knew that Dean was a good kisser.

Don’t Hold Me Too High  Leave it to a goddamn Winchester to try and shoulder someone else’s wrongs. (Or the one where Sam is in love with his brother and Dean is… not.)

Manhattan for Beads   In Nebraska, Dean slipped up. They were staking out a Little League park that night, camped in right-center with their arms and canteens. It was haunted, cursed, something. Kids kept breaking bones and losing eyes in bizarre collisions, swinging into great looping foul balls that crash-landed on windshields out on the too-close road and caused head-on wrecks. Beyond the chainlink fence in the outfield was corn, a sea of it, and two days ago a kid had hit a towering home run that brained a guy on a tractor. It was that kind of hysterically random evil.

The Things We Carry With Us  Sam and Dean are on the road, saving people and hunting things, like they always do. Dean discovers that Sam is attempting to turn himself into a monk, and so he does his best to get Sam laid. Sam resists because, of course, who needs to have sex with a girl when Dean’s around? It’s about going on a roadtrip with your brother. It’s about the food you eat, and the maps you follow. It’s about the things you carry with you. (Takes place some time after Heart.)

Twigs and Twine and Tasha Banes/

My meta for this episode is, I’m not writing a meta. What’s the point? It was perfect, perfect, perfect and I hate the fact I can’t be fully happy, relax and enjoy it. Because we’ve been here before, right? When it was so close we could touch it - and, whatever those anons in my askbox say, it’s not about a ship, because (personally) I continue to have no interest in shipping whatsoever. This is people telling us a story, being elaborate and decadent and romantic as fuck about it, and I want to hope they’re not lying to us this time - I can’t see how they’re going to worm their way out of this, and why they would even want to, but - yeah. 

As I said, we’ve been there before.

So I’m not going to comment on how painstakingly the Banes mirrored the Winchesters - the queer, cocky sibling who doesn’t give a fuck, the other sibling who feels like an outsider in their own family, the parent who hunts alone and ‘hasn’t been home in a few days’. What’s the point? Steve Yockey went to great trouble to shove it in our faces, and, to his credit, he never hesitated - he went all out, killing off a character he’d created himself (I think we can all agree on the fact that Alicia Banes is, for all intents and purposes, dead) so that he could carve up a perfect parallel, because as it turns out, his Max can’t bear to live alone either, and would do anything, anything, to bring his sister back.

Uh.

There’s also no point, I guess, to discuss Chekhov’s grenade launcher again. We know it’s there, we know it’s something Dean can’t have and can’t touch (but he really, really wants to), and it seems almost sure by now that the thing will have a prominent role in the season finale. 

(Which, yay, but also - a grenade launcher is not really a synonym for surgical strikes and level-headedness - are you ready for the bloodbath? I know I’m not.

And the question remains - what about the metaphorical grenade launcher? Will Dean get his hands on that too?)

No, I just - you know, a few months ago I actually embarked on the mad project of tracking down everything Steve Yockey had ever written - not out of a creepy, stalkery obsession, but simply because I was absolutely blown away by Celebrating the Life of Asa Fox and my entire frontal cortex was like, *grabby hands*. So, well - I sat through twenty episodes of Scream wishing I could be sixteen again (which was the whole point of that show, I guess), and when I finally got to Yockey’s episode - there was no difference. None. It was more freakishly thin girls running this way and that, more masks carved out of human faces, more meetings in video games stores instead of going to the police. And at first I felt a bit cheated, but now I’ve seen Yockey’s third episode for Supernatural, I suddenly realize this is actually good news - because Yockey is very, very good. He can blend in. He can write stuff that’s so indistinguishable from S1 canon he’s basically a House Elf (and is it a good thing or a bad thing when you don’t notice a writer is there?). And the thing is, he was very clearly told not to. Whatever Dabb’s goal - and, as I said, I don’t want to run in the streets with a confetti machine until I know for sure - Yockey is deliberately turning it up to eleven, because, again - I have no doubt a part of the fandom will start to shout OOC and whatever, but guys - Yockey can do the thing if he’s told to do the thing. But it’s now very clear he wasn’t.

So, well. This episode was tragically beautiful. What got me like a punch in the face is that Max Banes doesn’t, in the end, follow in Dean’s footsteps: Dean doesn’t allow him to make a demon deal, which means Max is forced to find that ‘other way’ the Winchesters are always daydreaming about. But, well - in his case that ‘other way’ is going home with a sort of golem sister - a thing that talks like Alicia and moves like Alicia and may have her memories and may even be able to be feel the sun on her face and the warmth of her brother’s love and the empty nothing of her mother’s death, but is not a human being. In doing what he did, Max condemned himself to a fake and hollow life, and that’s even more heartbreaking if we consider how open he used to be about everything. Living as a natural witch, a gay man, a POC in a world of monsters (hell, in Trump’s America) - Max was shameless about it. From the very first moment we saw him, he never tried to hide. But now, all of that is gone. And, sure, there’s a whole Big Question there - we could try and justify his choice, since that’s where we’re all headed, anyway - but to see him trapped like that - the burning body of his twin sister on his right, and a frankencreature wearing her face on his left - ouch.

I hope the Winchesters find a better ‘other way’ than that, but this is Supernatural - even if they do, they’ll likely get there crawling through a hill of corpses. 

[I apologize for my sombre mood. I’m still a bit feverish, maybe it’s that. In sunnier news, I’m working on a project that will make some of you very happy, so there’s that.]

holytrenchcoatedsubtextchuck  asked:

I follow you pretty well (your meta is awesome btw) but I can't remember if you've answered this or not? So would you prefer Cas to come back in the first ep of season 13 or after a few? I'm torn because on the one hand, I want to see him asap and if he comes back immediately, we're sure to get an intimate private moment between Cas and Dean, which IMO is how Dean would have to express his feelings for the first time (I don't think he'd admit his love for Cas around Sam at first) BUT 1/2

2/2 on the other hand, if Cas doesn’t come back right away, we get pining Dean and possibly him becoming the rest of the way comfortable with himself regarding his feelings for Cas. Not to mention supportive Sam, possibly comforting “I know how you felt about him” Sam, and of course a little bit of resentful Dean with regard to Jack. I simply cannot decide!

I am LEANING towards our Cas not coming back for a few episodes. I want to see Dean REALLY grieve - unlike in season 7 where they fucked that up. And I want to meet Alt!Cas and…god can you imagine Dean talking about HIS Cas to Alt!Cas????

“What was he like, this other Castiel of yours?”

Dean looks away, getting wistful. “He was like you at first, all about the orders and the mission and then…something changed. He…saw something in…” (Dean can’t bear to say Cas saw something in him. “In humanity and he took our side. He was loyal, and reckless and fierce and dorky and weird. He was kind. He cared about people more than any other angel we ever met and he was willing to…he did die protecting the people he…he loved.”

AND THEN WE CRY FOREVER.

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i’m so excited for the day donna moss holds her…

I approve of this post, and would like to subscribe to your newsletter. Because Donna *would*

listen if they set up a parallel for anyone to inherit jed’s legacy, it’s either charlie young or donna moss and listen charlie as donna’s vp

donna, who made almost the exact same analogy as the president did when talking about economies–josh originally laughing at her diet analogy of all things in moderation–that is, until the president says almost the exact same thing, but using different language. Donna, who came up with the idea of nominating both christopher mullreedy and evelyn baker lang to the court and it worked, who can take issues and explain them in terms the everday american can still understand, without fully taking away the nuance and complexities–but she’s not richie, she’s not just “10 words or less,” and she can still easily absorb information like a sponge.

She’s constantly giving fun facts about what’s going on yes (just like Jed) but it’s also from what she learns from politics as well–she knew the filibuster rules intimately, despite the fact that at the time her only foray into the world of politics was as the deputy chief of staff’s assistant, with no one else including the President knowing the rules.

there’s also the fact that when josh was shot, back in season 2, he was out of commission for months and yet? when he got back? there was no one at his desk, there was no replacement. CJ Cregg was gone for like a day and as the Chief of Staff and you had Toby saying on national tv she was going to swat at suicide bombers with her purse. You know who was probably running that office?

Donna Moss.

CJ Cregg, who was making 500,000 a year in Hollywood, tells Donna that Josh is never going to find someone as good as she was. CJ has experience with assistants ok. This is the White House–do you know how many applicants there would be to be Josh Lyman’s assistant (that old friend of Donna’s said it: that’s like a Master’s degree in public policy. Season 3 Donna was considered valuable enough that she thought her starting salary was their entire budget). In like a year she rapidly improves as well, becoming indispensable to the Bob Russell campaign. (listen we don’t talk about the chicken suit moment ok. Bartlet rode his bicycle in a tree. This is her bicycle accident alright)

“ Every time we think we have measured our capacity to meet a challenge, we look up and we’re reminded that that capacity may well be limitless.”

And there’s that line when they got stuck behind in Iowa from Jed Bartlet, President of the United States: “300 IQ points between them, they can’t find their way home. I swear to God, If Donna wasn’t there they’d have to buy a house.”

And keep in mind Donna probably had extremely limited experience before coming to the Bartlet for America campaign. She didn’t have a college degree, and was at best going from temp job to temp job. And even comparing her to the other assistants, except maybe Margaret and Mrs. Landingham, who’s probably been with Leo and in politics for years, she became brilliant at her job.

So much of Donna’s outward appearance is wrapped up in the pretty smile and the blonde hair and the oh shucks wholesome, Midwestern farm girl image that people don’t realize behind that is a razor sharp wit, someone who is ruthlessly compeent, possesses a brilliant mind that is so overwhelmingly observant–she sees everything (you know who noticed there was something wrong with Josh first, right before he got diagnosed with PTSD? Not his best friends, not his boss, not his surrogate father–Donna), and someone who could eat you alive if she wanted.

And every single task Josh has ever given to Donna, she’s done it–Josh. This isn’t CJ or Sam or hell even Toby. This Josh “Mr Secret Plan to fight inflation” Lyman. Do you know how many idiotic and seemingly impossible tasks he’s probably given her. Do you.

”If you were in an accident I wouldn’t stop for a beer”
“If you were in an accident i wouldn’t stop for red lights” Donna would eviscerate anyone who hurt who she cared about –and now, unlike when she was “just” an assistant, she has the means as well now.

You want to talk to me about the two Bartlets? What about the two Donnas?

anonymous asked:

I love how (at least with the later seasons of the show) there's this trend of shipping Sam with a minor character that would love and support him. Sammax, Saileen, I'm sure there's others I'm forgetting.

Okay so I’ve noticed this too, and I love this trend, but I have a hypothesis.

(Quick note:  This is not a meta. I don’t write meta. This is just an idea.)

So I’ve been in this fandom long enough to have witnessed a bit of its history. Not so long ago (soon enough that I still see remnants of it), there was this #givesamaboyfriend trend. It’s still a thing that people want Sam to have a bf, but this was like. A movement. The idea being that 1. Sam has been Claimed By The Queers, and 2. Sam needs someone to love and care for him, because lord knows the showrunners keep putting him through the wringer with little to no acknowledgement afterwards. Our queer boy is being treated poorly and needs someone to hold him and tell him nice things. Of course, there were times where this painted Sam as a damsel in distress who is unable to stand up for himself, but to be fair, there are times in actual canon that paint the same exact picture. So, y’know, I’ll let it slide.

So we see a hundred posts that all read like:  “Season x wishlist:  Sam meets a man (played by Steven Amell) during a hunt and saves his life. Hunter guy sticks around for a while, sees how people treat Sam, and helps Sam re-learn to stand up for himself.” Details change, of course, but that was the gist.

And then, we started getting characters that fit the bill, or could be molded to. Anyone else remember when people were shipping Sadreel/Sezekiel when we first got wind of Gadreel’s existence? WEEKS before the s9 pilot aired, before we knew who Ezekiel was or why he was there, he was the big strong man who would protect Sam. And even now that we know everything about Gadreel, there are some shippers (myself included) who not only held onto this idea, but thought it was ten times better that Gadreel was at least as tragic as Sam was. That’s not to say that Gadreel was the first character that this happened with, but it’s the first I can think of off the top of my head.

So in the case of SamMax … come on, he pretty much fits that description from earlier:  They met on a case, Sam helped save everyone’s bacon, Max (and Alicia) see how Sam is treated and stand up for him. (I know it was a humourous moment, but they could have easily freaked out that Sam was possessed. Instead, they both go “wow, that’s kind of personal, dude. You can’t just bring that stuff up like that, wow, have some tact.”) Max didn’t need to be altered as a character. We didn’t need to use our imaginations like we did with Sezekiel. Max was everything we were looking for with Sam, without changing the character or filling in blanks, and that’s why I think it got as popular as it did. It persists now because Max has survived so far, unlike other characters like Gadreel.

(Another interesting note:  I see people doing this with older episodes too. They see an old gifset from one of the first three seasons and ship Sam with a male one-off character.)

Now, Saileen is different. Not necessarily because she’s female (the “Sam is Queer” thing isn’t diminished by that, I mean), but because there wasn’t the whole #givesamaboyfriend background. I think the most likely reason Saileen got so popular is because she was Sam’s friend. Not to say that males and females can’t be Just Friends, but when was the last time we saw someone who was Sam’s friend, who not only treated him well, but wasn’t Dean’s friend first? Sorry to say, it’s been a long time. Even Charlie doesn’t fit both criteria. I don’t have the encyclopedic knowledge of SPN I used to, but the first friend of Sam’s that I can think of is Sarah. Guess what, she’s dead. Meg 1.0? Not only was she a demon, but she’s also dead.

Then I think of Dr. Cara. They weren’t friends, necessarily, but they could have been. She took an interest in Sam and was kind to him. But I hate how their interaction was treated on the show. Not only because Dean constantly griped about Sam “cockblocking him” (even though she showed exactly negative interest in Dean), but because it was later painted as a bad thing when they hooked up because Dean thought she might be the siren. (I could write a fucking dissertation about this whole thing tbh it pisses me off so much, but I digress). And that’s a really common theme in the show too. Sam can’t just have girlfriends or hookups anymore. Barring early seasons (and Piper), all of Sam’s partners have either had ulterior motives or have been painted in a bad light by other characters. (Think:  The hippie girl and Amy Pond (who I admit wasn’t a romantic partner but was still Sam’s friend – and is now dead, thanks Dean.))

Anyway, Eileen was a breath of fresh air:  She was nice to Sam. She was Sam’s friend (not Dean’s friend who later met Sam). She was a badass and capable hunter, which was important because we all know that hunters (or, at least, the Winchesters) can’t settle down with non-hunters. Dean approved of her. She didn’t have ulterior motives, wasn’t using Sam, and nothing about the storytelling made it seem like their friendship was a Bad Idea. Also, until recently, she was alive and presumably kept in contact with Sam. He even learned a little ASL from her now come on that’s fanfic fodder just by itself.

ANYWAY, this got long as shit, but I think that’s why such rare pairs are popular, with special emphasis on SamMax and Saileen. And I sure as hell hope the trend continues because I live for this shit.

anonymous asked:

I saw one of your tags say that you're not sure Sam would be ok with Destiel and I'm curious why. Do you think it'd be like the Benny situation again or something else? I didn't ship Denny but I don't think Sam likes when someone else comes before him in Dean's eyes. (I can't see Sam not liking Desitle as a homophobic thing, but ya never know.) Anyway I'm genuinely curious because I could see Sam not exactly like a shipper but ultimately ok with it.

Hi! I have to say, I’m always torn when I hear about people reading my tags, because on the one hand I’m vain and prideful and they’re written to be read, but on the other, tagging is like talking to yourself, so - *blushes slightly*.

Anyway, first things first - before I discovered what a fandom was, I was a total sucker for shipper!Sam. My doubts didn’t begin until after I’d read a shitload of fanfiction about it, and something really rotten in my brain was like, What if Sam wasn’t okay with it, though? because I always like to be contrary and to turn things on their heads and see how they work and if they still work. So I’ve got no real problems with shipper!Sam. It’s just - I sometimes wonder - generally when I’m writing myself - what would be more interesting from a narrative point of view - if it’d be better to have Sam in the background, hanging up mistletoe and leaving The letter of the day is B leaflets around the Bunker or if it’d be easier for Dean to have something to push against. I think a case could be made either way - but if TPTB would have wanted to go down that first road, they probably wouldn’t have killed off Charlie, since she would have been (and she probably was) an even better shipper and wingman than Sam.

That said, I have two arguments against shipper!Sam.

One: Sam is way more messed up than he lets on, and some part of it is terrified not only that Dean will walk away, but that Dean will fall in love with someone and actually pursue that. I know I’ve seen this discussion go down somewhere, but I honestly don’t remember who first came up with this - apologies, guys - the fact that Sam is an all or nothing kind of guy. Like, when he went to Stanford, that was it - he never contacted John, or even Dean, again. For years. And the same happened when he was with Amelia - he just - I don’t know, cut himself off? I’m not sure if it’s his personality, or a by-product of his less than ideal childhood, but Sam’s got trouble to let people into his life, and once they’re in, it’s like there isn’t room for anyone else? Which is a childish trait, of course, and it signals a lack of emotional maturity on his part (not surprising - poor Sammy). And since Sam tends to relate with other people through his own experiences, part of him surely assumes Dean’s exactly the same; that if Dean found himself a new best friend, or a better hunting partner, or even a spouse of some kind, he’d just walk away and that would be it. So in this sense, Sam would feel threatened by any relationship Dean could potentially develop, not only by Cas.

Two, we used to see Sam as the shades of grey brother, but the amazing thing about this show is that Sam and Dean went through a lot of character development resulting in them almost swapping the roles they had in the first seasons - and yet all this feels natural and completely believable. So these days, Dean’s more likely to be the one who gives monsters a pass (hell, look at his relationship with Crowley), while Sam’s become sort of judgemental and what needs must. I think it was Ruby, most of all, who scarred Sam from the inside out and made him so much more conservative, or pragmatic (like, look at him now - he’s more willing than Dean to work with the BMoL, because he’s Mr Head Choice or something). Sam took a huge risk in liking and trusting Ruby, and it all hinged on a sort of anti-racism argument - an I don’t care if she’s a demon, because even demons can be nice and Our biology doesn’t determine our destiny and whatever else. Dean had shut him down about this, of course, but Sam had persisted - and I know there were other elements at play here, but to me, the central point was exactly this: a pigheaded and generous and noble willingness to trust a creature you don’t understand at all and you’ve got no reason to trust. Now, of course things are different with Cas, because Cas has proven, time and again, that Dean’s safety would be his number one priority and all that, but I’m still not convinced Sam would actively want that for Dean. After all, Sam’s seen this other, softer side of Dean’s - he’s seen him around kids (he remembers him from their shared childhood) and he’s heard (a bit) about how happy he was with Robin and whatever, so I sometimes feel Sam still wants the Sookie ending for Dean: a chance to have a true family of his own, and a life Dean could finally lead in full view of everybody, without shame or weirdness or sigils carved on the walls. And I’m not sure this is something Cas would be able to give Dean.

Finally, there’s the whole bisexuality deal. Here, I have to say - I don’t know what to think. I’m sure Sam’s got no problem with queer people, but it’s always slightly different when it’s your family, right? And there are days I think Sam must know - Jesus, they’ve been sharing a room for thirty years - and days when I think that no, that parent/child thing they’ve got going is way too strong for Sam to see the whole picture (to even think about it). 

(Like, I know it was supposed to be funny and that I’m reading too much into it, but Sam recoiling when Rowena suggested he undress Dean and check his chest hair or something - to me, that was emblematic of how their relationship works. Dean’s changed Sam’s diapers, has helped him to get dressed for years, surely bathed him and watched him play with that one plastic submarine they’d scavenged somewhere and, years later, he stitched him up and massaged weird herbal salves over his bruises and whatever - but to Sam, of course, it’s weird to think about his brother’s body at all, because that’s the relationship we have with our parents: when you actually have to take care of them that way, it means things have got very bad and very scary.)

In any case, at the very least Sam would be worried about Dean’s safety (and there’s always that heartbreaking thing, right, that if you’re bi and you can be happy with a woman - man, it’d be so much easier) - but one big reason to be optimistic in this sense was this new development we’ve seeing - that openly gay hunters can actually exist in the community without being bothered. 

(Then again, judging from the news coming about the US, I sometimes feel Dean and Cas could have their college AU life only in a big city, and not in one of those wild, road off to the horizon states where Dean feels most at home. So, well - I really don’t know.)

Anyway - we know so little about Sam, it’s likely that anything could work concerning his approach to the Destiel situation. I guess we’ll have to wait and see.