love love love.. what kind of love do i want ?? what kind of love do i Need ?? i’m surrounded by love every day.. surrounded by fondness and affection and familiarity and connection in different ways. love love love… it’s found in easy laughter and in shared jokes and banter that i experience with my friend. it’s found in offered mango popsicles and my boss’s funny way of trying to connect with me through suggested mixed drink recipes and easy support of my sexuality. and it’s found in my mother’s consistent want to discuss current events with me and her constant encouragement for me to pursue my passions. and it’s found in the energy of a crowd at a concert and the quiet serenity of a field of wildflowers. my week’s been full of love love love and it makes me wonder how much i need that sort of romantic love and maybe it isn’t even that i Need it as much as i know how good other kinds of love feel and i want to experience this new kind too. it will come when it comes, i suppose it’s not something that can be rushed. but i kind of wish i could have it ? and but kind of i mean really ? i don’t feel empty without it but i’m just getting antsy and i just. want that sort of connection with someone.
A/n: I tried to be clever with the title, probably failed but it’ll make more sense once you read.
Character: Connor Murphy
You lightly nibbled on your thumbnail as you stared down your laptop screen, rereading what you had gotten down so far, and deciding how you wanted to carry on. Your notes were sitting next to you on your bed, and tucked way on your bedside table was a nice, hot cup of tea.
You were typing away on the keyboard, hardly noticing the subtle ding of your phone. You had every intention of getting this writing over with tonight. It wasn’t due for another couple of days, but you didn’t want to worry about it.
There it was again.
Your phone had gone off.
You breifly glanced over to where it was charging, making a mental note to check it once you were done.
But it went off again.
You slammed down your notebook and angrily stared at your phone, sighing in relief whenever the ringing stopped.
The peace was short lived because you got another three sentences down before it went off again.
“Oh my god,” You groaned harshly removing your phone from the charger, the notifications flashed by and you unlocked your phone to read them.
All of them were from your friend, Connor Murphy.
Connor: yOOOOO what r you up to?
Connor:ignoring me now eh??
Those messages had been sent over an hour ago.
Connor: oh (Y/NNNNNNNNN)
Connor: seriously what are you doing
Connor: you like never leave your house i know you’re not busy
Connor: jesus christ you’re so fucking annoying.
Connor: pls talk to me :(
You leaned back into your pillows, chuckling at his messages. You had gotten to know Connor whenever you two were in the same gym class during Freshman year.
Both of you were shit at sports and were always the last picked for teams, so more often than not you two paired off.
The year after that you both had been in a lot of the same classes so your friendship grew.
But you soon came to understand that Connor didn’t have that many friends, so he had a tendency to talk to you all the time.
And you were happy to talk to him and he was funny and you liked hearing his thoughts, but he had a knack for choosing bad times to want to talk.
You quickly tapped out that you were busy working on your essay and would talk to him later.
It took maybe ten seconds for him to respond.
Connor: finALLY I THOUGHT YOU HAD ABANONDED ME
Connor: also this is ludicrous, that essay isn’t even due till next week, plus it’s a friday night i demand you give your dearest friend the attention he deserves
You rolled your eyes, he could be such a brat sometimes, but he did have a point. You looked back and saw you were nearly finished.
(Y/n): Alright fine, why don’t you come over?
Connor: Trying to get me alone, how scandalous ;;;;;;)
(Y/n): do u want to come over or not
Connor: see u in 10
“Hello, hello, hello.” Connor announced as he sauntered into your room, immediately jumping onto your bed next to you.
“Easy!” You said, holding your tea mug carefully. “I have hot liquids present.”
“Oh, well give them my most sincere apologies.,” Connor said, sitting up and turning himself over. “What do you want to do?”
“Give me like fifteen minutes to finish this.” You told him once you started typing again.
“You’re seriously still working on it?” Connor complained, resting his head on your shoulder while he pouted.
You didn’t respond to him at first and it made him scoff. “Fine, at least tell me what your writing about.” Connor reasoned.
“I choose the favorite classic-lit couple prompt.” You answered, still working.
“Which one are you writing about?”
You promptly turned to the side so he couldn’t see your screen, apologizing when his head flopped to the side.
“Uh,” Connor said, his hand toying with one of your blankets. “You like Jane Austen a lot, are they from one of her books?”
You shook your head. “Nope.”
“Shit, uh, Daisy and Gatsby?”
“Oh, that’s actually an interesting one, but no.”
“Damn,” Connor said, racking his brain for the other books you’d go on about. “You like Little Women a lot, what was the one couple in that?”
“Jo and Laurie? Oh, absolutely not, and I could rant about that if you’d let me.”
“As much as I’d love it, no thank you,” He said, smiling while he thought of more. “I surrender, tell me.”
You placed your computer onto his lap. “Robin Hood and Lady Marian.”
Connor looked over at you, brows scrunched in confusion. “Really? I didn’t even think about that.”
“I never told you, but I love that story, used to have the biggest crush on Mr. Hood when I was little.”
Connor smiled. “Is that so? Maybe I should start wearing more green then.”
You playfully shoved him with your help. “Hush up and tell me what you think.”
“I dont see why, I always think everything you write is wonderful.”
“My my, you flatter me, Mr. Murphy,” You teased, leaning against him so you could also look at the screen. “Really though, critique me.”
Connor took a moment to read it over, you’d try to read his facial expressions but for the most part he looked neutral.
“Like I said,” Connor told you, giving you back the laptop. “Wonderful.”
“Lovely,” You said, “I’ll be right back, I’m gonna hook this up to the printer. I’ll get you some tea on the way back.”
You hopped off the bed, winking at him before shutting your room door, leaving Connor with his thoughts.
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