but i still want to just mess it up

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New journal alert!
This week I started my second bullet journal. It is so refreshing to start new. My old journal felt like a chore, I could hardly bother to fill out the last page. With this new one I made sure to toss out all the things I found annoying or pointless in my first journal. I got rid of daily spreads. I’m sticking with one giant weekly/daily spread. I can see everything in one place and really envision how my week will go.
My biggest goal with this journal though, is to use it. I don’t just want a notebook filled with to-do lists, I want to write in it, and paste things in it, and color it! I want to carry it around with me and mess it up. Something I totally neglected to do with my other journal. I focused a bit much on making it look like everyone else’s journals. Making it perfect. And that got awfully boring.
I will still enjoy the occasional sit down and draw straight lines for an hour, because it’s cathartic. But I also want to wreck it and fill it with memories.
What about you? Do you like your journal at your desk or at your side?

anonymous asked:

Hey so I sent that last submission and I wanted to clarify that I do believe theouterspaceace did mess up big time and I believe they do need to fix somethings, but I just thinks the dichotomy of them literally being sent death threats for it still even after apologizing vs. People still defending Dorrentian before they apologized is silly.

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You listen up. If you really loved this person they’re always going to be a part of you, and you’re not going to get over it, and maybe that sounds like a dismal thing you don’t want to hear right now but you loved them for a reason because they spoke to a part of you that’s at your core, and you don’t want to erase that, you want to still be open to those feelings and if you try to shut them out and pretend they never even got in there and you can just turn that off, well that’s a really cold thing and a cold place to be. And I’ve been through a couple of break-ups in my day, they’re never easy, and a friend of mine once said something to me that I found really, really touching. I was saying ‘I don’t know how I’m going to get over this one man it’s really messing with my head,’ and he said ‘Sometimes you don’t need to get over things, sometimes you need to recognize that life can be chaotic, and the chaos just exists.’ And that really calmed me down. And I think you’ve got to remember like do you want to get over it? I don’t know that you do, I think you want to move on and think of it as a piece of your past instead of something that’s going to mess with your present or that you’re worried about with your future. But you should let that be the past. If you really loved that person that’s a beautiful thing you don’t want to get over that and there’s probably a lot that you can take away from that even if you still do love them a little bit forever.
Your first love; you know who I’m talking about. The only boy you’ve ever really fallen for, and you know that it’s true love. It’s none of the silly, immature love that people claim they do after a couple of weeks; you’ve got honesty and loyalty; you fight and yet you still love because you both know what you want. You both know that you were meant for each other so you wouldn’t want to mess things up. No matter how many times you fight, you know deep down that you could never truly be mad at them. To think that they were out of your life before is just simply amazing how you ever lived before at all. Not a day goes by without you constantly thinking about them and it scares the hell out of you to think “if I’m so in love with this one person, this person that I love with everything I have, how do other people move on and love another?” You’re so emotionally attached to this boy that you’re so scared to love someone else. This boy taught you the real meaning of love and you never thought you had love in you until he came along and showed you. you never knew the meaning of jealousy was until every time he mentioned a girl, it made you want to make sure that you were the best thing he has. Everything you’ve dreamt up of a perfect boy was nothing compared to what this boy has because it made you see that not everything you want is everything you need. You’ll never forget the boy that changed your whole life because he’s your best friend, and the love of your life.
—  Daily Tumblr Love Quotes
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a series of unlikely crossovers

Your first love; you know who I’m talking about. The only boy you’ve ever really fallen for, and you know that it’s true love. It’s none of the silly, immature love that people claim they do after a couple of weeks; you’ve got honesty and loyalty; you fight and yet you still love because you both know what you want. You both know that you were meant for each other so you wouldn’t want to mess things up. No matter how many times you fight, you know deep down that you could never truly be mad at them. To think that they were out of your life before is just simply amazing how you ever lived before at all. Not a day goes by without you constantly thinking about them and it scares the hell out of you to think “if I’m so in love with this one person, this person that I love with everything I have, how do other people move on and love another?” You’re so emotionally attached to this boy that you’re so scared to love someone else. This boy taught you the real meaning of love and you never thought you had love in you until he came along and showed you. you never knew the meaning of jealousy was until every time he mentioned a girl, it made you want to make sure that you were the best thing he has. Everything you’ve dreamt up of a perfect boy was nothing compared to what this boy has because it made you see that not everything you want is everything you need. You’ll never forget the boy that changed your whole life because he’s your best friend, and the love of your life.

whoever decided that jason and percy should be called ‘jercy’ was wrong, because you had the opportunity to call them ‘person’ and you blew it

Your first love; you know who I’m talking about. The only boy you’ve ever really fallen for, and you know that it’s true love. It’s none of the silly, immature love that people claim they do after a couple of weeks; you’ve got honesty and loyalty; you fight and yet you still love because you both know what you want. You both know that you were meant for each other so you wouldn’t want to mess things up. No matter how many times you fight, you know deep down that you could never truly be mad at them. To think that they were out of your life before is just simply amazing how you ever lived before at all. Not a day goes by without you constantly thinking about them and it scares the hell out of you to think “if I’m so in love with this one person, this person that I love with everything I have, how do other people move on and love another?” You’re so emotionally attached to this boy that you’re so scared to love someone else. This boy taught you the real meaning of love and you never thought you had love in you until he came along and showed you. you never knew the meaning of jealousy was until every time he mentioned a girl, it made you want to make sure that you were the best thing he has. Everything you’ve dreamt up of a perfect boy was nothing compared to what this boy has because it made you see that not everything you want is everything you need. You’ll never forget the boy that changed your whole life because he’s your best friend, and the love of your life.
—  Daily Tumblr Love Quotes
You listen up. If you really loved this person they’re always going to be a part of you, and you’re not going to get over it, and maybe that sounds like a dismal thing you don’t want to hear right now but you loved them for a reason because they spoke to a part of you that’s at your core, and you don’t want to erase that, you want to still be open to those feelings and if you try to shut them out and pretend they never even got in there and you can just turn that off, well that’s a really cold thing and a cold place to be. And I’ve been through a couple of break-ups in my day, they’re never easy, and a friend of mine once said something to me that I found really, really touching. I was saying ‘I don’t know how I’m going to get over this one man it’s really messing with my head,’ and he said ‘Sometimes you don’t need to get over things, sometimes you need to recognize that life can be chaotic, and the chaos just exists.’ And that really calmed me down. And I think you’ve got to remember like do you want to get over it? I don’t know that you do, I think you want to move on and think of it as a piece of your past instead of something that’s going to mess with your present or that you’re worried about with your future. But you should let that be the past. If you really loved that person that’s a beautiful thing you don’t want to get over that and there’s probably a lot that you can take away from that even if you still do love them a little bit forever.
—  Chris Gethard
I'm really sorry for this...

But I can’t continue running this blog anymore. 

That work that I thought would just be one project every once in a while has become an actual full time job, one which really requires I work a lot of hours a day. I’m still not paid enough to use those money for the game tho, so I don’t think I’ll be able to keep up with the pace of the events. Soooo…
I really tried my best during these last weeks and I thought that these last days would be a perfect test to see if I could do this without shards just by doing things between breaks. And it went pretty bad. (And I had to use all of the shards I had left at the end to get Carnage’s cage cause I really wanted to have it.) 
As in I really couldn’t keep up with the game, the job and the blog without giving up some sleep (and even then I didn’t have enough time to answer asks anymore). Which is not good for my health right now, so I had to choose what was best for me and give up on this blog even tho I was still enjoying running it.
The blog will still be here, so if anyone wants to see screenshots from older events they have a place where they can find them all, but I won’t be posting anymore nor answering asks. 

These 5 months that I’ve been running this blog have been nice and stressful, but I really feel like they were quite a lot of fun and really useful. I have never written so much in English and some of you gave me big boost of confidence about my ability with the language. (I still think I’m pretty bad, but at least I feel like I could have a conversation with someone without making a total fool out of myself.)
So I really wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone of you that helped me in any way during this journey. I really wish I could keep doing this, but I guess once again real life is more important, even more so when I’m actually doing a job that I dreamt of doing for a long time.

I guess this is a goodbye, then… Keep enjoying the game, guys!

Originally posted by thepersonalquotes

Shit Fake AH Crew Mica Says

I’m bad at writing full length things but I love writing dialogue. So here’s some things that I think my Fake AH Crew Mica would say. Tried to be as true to badgersinbowties while still being a drug dealing, explosion loving, Los Santos gangster.

“I found out Lindsay was with the Fake Crew when she showed up to movie night covered in blood that wasn’t hers. It was a mess but hey, we still ended up watching Footloose so I guess it wasn’t a completely terrible night.”

“I’ve always wanted to have an open casket funeral so you can all see me being prettier than you for one last time.”

“When I first figured out I liked boys and girls I was really confused, then I got it. I’m a hot piece of ass so why limit my options?”

“The first drug dealer I ever met was some cracked out old guy living in a trailer. I just thought to myself ‘who would want to buy drugs from this guy when I exist?’ and drove the bastard out of business.”

“Lindsay? Do you have any idea where I left my makeup bag?” “Why do you need it?” “It has a remote for something important” “The TV remote?” “Nah, you remember the car bomb we planted on the dick from the grocery store’s car last week?” 

“Geoff, I’m not sure why you think this is a bad idea.” “You have a rocket launcher. It’s always a bad day when you have a rocket launcher.” “On the contrary, I think it’s a great day when I have a rocket launcher.”

Your first love; you know who I’m talking about. The only boy you’ve ever really fallen for, and you know that it’s true love. It’s none of the silly, immature love that people claim they do after a couple of weeks; you’ve got honesty and loyalty; you fight and yet you still love because you both know what you want. You both know that you were meant for each other so you wouldn’t want to mess things up. No matter how many times you fight, you know deep down that you could never truly be mad at them. To think that they were out of your life before is just simply amazing how you ever lived before at all. Not a day goes by without you constantly thinking about them and it scares the hell out of you to think “if I’m so in love with this one person, this person that I love with everything I have, how do other people move on and love another?” You’re so emotionally attached to this boy that you’re so scared to love someone else. This boy taught you the real meaning of love and you never thought you had love in you until he came along and showed you. you never knew the meaning of jealousy was until every time he mentioned a girl, it made you want to make sure that you were the best thing he has. Everything you’ve dreamt up of a perfect boy was nothing compared to what this boy has because it made you see that not everything you want is everything you need. You’ll never forget the boy that changed your whole life because he’s your best friend, and the love of your life.
—  Daily Tumblr Love Quotes

Mabel’s f—Mabel’s fault?!  You’re seriously blaming Mabel for all of this?  After all she’s been through, you j—you think she asked for all this garbage?!

No, you know what, don’t you dare even shove all this on my sister.  I’m sure whatever happened, she obviously never intended for the apocalypse!  I mean, what—do you think she deserved this?!  Whatever went down with the rift, wherever she went, are y—are you seriously telling me that this is justified?!   Just cause it’s “Mabel’s fault”?

You ju—No, y’know what, I CAN’T EVEN BELIEVE THIS!  

ALL SHE WANTED WAS TO HAVE A STUPID BIRTHDAY PARTY, OKAY?! SHE NEVER WANTED TO BE CAUGHT UP IN THIS MESS!  AND NOW SHE’S TRAPPED IN THAT—THAT HORRIBLE CAGE SHE’S IN, WHERE BILL’S DOING WHO KNOWS WHAT TO HER, AND YOU STILL WANNA—I CAN’T—

JUST—DON’T YOU GET IT?! 

MY SISTER COULD BE DEAD!!!

Sh…she could be dead, and it…

Oh, man…

It’s…

It’s…all my fault…

…N-no.

You know what?  She’s not gone.  She can’t be…I–I’m gonna save her. Whatever it takes, understand?!  Nothing in this universe is gonna take away my sister.

And don’t you dare say anything like that again, you got that?! Cause this…this apocalypse is no one’s fault but Bill’s.

A—and I’m gonna find you, Mabel.

…I’m gonna prove them wrong.

–Dipper

A little useful tutorial to get Sims 4 to load faster without merging! :)

I actually came across this neat program a while back that someone recommended for Sims 2 files, but I never used it until today! I got tired of spending hours (actually, weeks!) merging packages and then there would still be something messing my game up! 

I learned that when a package name has a character/symbol in it, or even a space, it makes the game run and load slower because your computer has to take extra time to process those names. So I used “Bulk Rename Utility” to change the names of all of my CC packages at the same time, by replaces those symbols  I currently have only done CAS stuff because I just really wanted to make some Sims and do lookbooks, so I did this with 3,500 packages all at the same time and the program was super quick, like 3 seconds to rename all of those! Soooo.. here’s how you do it. :)

You need: Bulk Rename Utility and your packages that you want to “fix”.

1. Open the program and find the folder with the packages, your mods folder or whatever! If it’s thousands, it may take a second for them all to load. Then highlight everything or go to Actions > Select All.

2. You’ll be using the box that says “Repl. (3)”, that’s where you will type in the special characters (one at a time!) that you see in any of your package files. Leave blank space next to “with”, just leave blank. *Make sure for parenthesis and stuff like that, to do both the left and right sides, at separate times. And apparently hyphens, underscores, and spaces are like worst! Sorry, I forget those in the picture below!

3. Press “Rename” over to the righthand side of the screen, and a pop-up will tell you how many files it processed, how many were changed, and how many didn’t need to be changed.

4. Then you’re pretty much done! It will show the new names with no special characters/symbols/spaces, just one long name. And you’ll still able to sort through everything and tell who the creator is! Now your game will run a lot better without having to spend that terrible time merging everything! :)

imagine if elementary and sherlock switched watsons for a day
  • joan watson:ok first of all you need to clean this apartment because mrs. hudson said she is NOT your housekeeper and therefore she is NOT your housekeeper which means you have to be a big boy and do it yourself.
  • joan watson:no, i'm not going to buy the milk. if you want it, you can go out and buy it yourself.
  • joan watson:this is your mess, and you need to clean it up.
  • joan watson:get in the car, holmes, i can handle this.
  • joan watson:did you seriously just speak to detective donovan like that? go back and apologize. now.
  • joan watson:leave this to me.
  • joan watson:you're absolutely pathetic, how are you even still functioning?
  • joan watson:stop calling yourself a sociopath.
  • joan watson:nobody cares.
  • joan watson:oh my god suck it up.
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Chem midterm tomorrow and I’m lowkey freaking out ;; 

I’m getting emotional because I’ve never been able to sit down and complete my homework in one sitting, let alone accomplish something like this. To all of my friends who are struggling–you really can do it. Look at me, look at who I was versus who I’m trying to become; these are the fruits of the process to becoming the student I want to be! I’m not yet even halfway there, but this is just part of the beginning.

When you feel helpless, remember that before, I couldn’t do my homework on time/in the morning  or sit down for more than 5 minutes without losing focus. I hadn’t studied for a midterm or final PROPERLY in years (if ever,) and haven’t been able to clean anything without it becoming a mess within days…I’m still incredibly forgetful, and the list goes on.

That person mentioned up there is still someone I’m trying to work with, but the road to reformation is always open. Don’t just search for the solution. Focus on improving the little things, because buildings don’t exist without brick and mortar!