but i still love you with all my heart!

After the 13x02 sneak peek. Inspired by one of the amazing 13x01 codas I read, but I can’t remember which one!

“Okay. Alright. Would you stop?!”

Jack is, once again, confused. Big fucking surprise.

“I… don’t understand,” he says, squinting. Dean almost can’t look at him when he does that. Swallowing thickly, he takes a huge bite of his burger, ignoring Sam’s quiet noise of disgust as he does. Seriously, fuck him. Fuck everything.

“My father—Castiel, my real, true father, he said you were a good man. He spoke to my mother of you often.”

Dean feels like all the air has left the room.

“Jack…” he hears Sam say, softly. Carefully. What’s left of Dean’s heart throbs with that dull, aching pain that never seems to quit in response. He doesn’t want pity.

“I ain’t a good role model, okay?” Dean says gruffly. He takes a swig of beer. Jack is still.

“Castiel thought you were.”

Dean laughs so he doesn’t cry. It’s an empty, ugly sound, and it seems only to confuse Jack further. Scooting closer on the couch, the nephilim leans in like a better view of Dean’s breaking heart will afford him a complete understanding of the situation. 

“Castiel loved you greatly,” he says, like he’s trying to figure it all out. “He would have followed you anywhere. And, in fact, he did. I was inside him. I know you went to purgatory together. I know he loved you, but… in a different way than he loved my mother. What he felt for her was superficial—nothing at all, compared to what he felt for you.”

Dean buries his face in his hands. He feels like a circus side show. He feels like throwing his beer bottle across the room. 

“I don’t understand,” Jack says again. “My mother said Castiel would take care of me. That he would teach me. But he’s not here… and he learned everything from you. If my mother loved me with a certain depth that resembles what Castiel felt for you, does that not make you the perfect model of humanity?”

And that’s it. Dean can’t stay here anymore. Not when this kid is supposed to be the enemy. Not when he keeps talking about Cas. Not when Sam is looking at him like all he can see what’s happening and is sorry for it. Dean stands, spilling food onto the floor, and carelessly bumping his leg on the coffee table as he rushes out the door. 

Fuck.

Bf!Tom and Spiders
  • Inspired by the massive spider in my room. Btw here did you go while I was making dinner??When I came back you were gone!

 


 


  • Tom and spiders
  • What a beautiful story
  • Okay let’s be real
  • He’s so afraid of the
  • Like how adorable is that
  • Okay so imagine you’re in your apartment
  • Under the shower actually
  • You had a long and kind of stressful day
  • You didn’t turn on many lights cause they would wake you up
  • So you were just having some time for yourself

 

  • Until you heard the loudest scream ever
  • Like e v e r
  • turning off the water,you stood there waiting 
  • „THERE IS A BLOODY TARANTULA IN THE KITCHEN, WERE GOING TO DIE!!!!”
  • What a drama queen
  • „ITS STARING AT ME SOMEONE SEND HELP!!“
  • But you took your time
  • “I AM DYINGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!111!1!1”
  • You made your way downstairs
  • And the sight was kind of very amusing
  • Tom stood on top of the table
  • Having nothing but pure panic on his face
  • “IT IS MOVING NOOOOOO I DONT WANT TO DIE YET!”
  • You still thought he was overreacting
  • Turns out he wasn’t
  • Cause girl
  • THERE WAS I FUCKING HUGE SPIDER ON THE GROUND
  • “HOLY STEP DANCING CHRIST WHAT IS THAT???!!!??”

 

  • You climbed on to the table next to Tom
  • “I think we won’t survive this and I just want to let you know, I love you. I really do with all of my heart.”
  • Awwww
  • That’s so cute
  • My heart can’t take this
  • “I love you more Holland.”
  • As kind of an response he leaned in and pressed his lips on your
  • Wow
  • Can you imagine kissing him
  • That’d be so amazing
  • Like he would so gentle ahhhh
  • But at the same time there was some eager
  • And he always had one hand on your waist and the other on cupped your cheek
  • Oiiii
  • And your hands would be either in his hair or his aRmS
  • THOSE ARMS HOLY MOTHER
  • I want this now

 

  • After some time it got pretty heated
  • Aka meaning you and Tom laying on the kitchen table
  • You wouldn’t have a shirt on anymore
  • And loverboy didn’t either
  • You’d be so lost that kind of forget about the
  • “Spider!”
  • You saw it while you were kissing him
  • It was on his upper back
  • Just laying there
  • You quickly moved away
  • “Okay love don’t panic.Just stay still.”
  • “Why do I feel something on my back?”
  • “Breathe.”
  • “Y/n what’s on my back!?!??”
  • He was only whisper shouting now
  • But you stayed silent
  • “God damn it what’s on my back right now!!!?”
  • After some time you mumbled a word that sounded like
  • “shwiner…”
  • “What? Love stop fucking around.”
  • “A spider okay! The spider is on you right now.“

 

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Thank you guys soo much!! I have loved you all from the beginning, and you guys will always be in my heart! Even if I get annoyed at times, I still love you ...

Thank you guys soo much!! I have loved you all from the beginning, and you guys will always be in my heart! Even if I get annoyed at times, I still love you all, because hey, I’m human, and we all have our bad moments.
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Poisonous Petals

Your love planted tulips

Across my roseate lips

Disguised poisonous petals

Carrying invisible nettles

Still stinging my tongue

As another’s name is sung

Why all of this torture?

You chose your departure

You twisted the doorknob

So why do you still sob?

I’ve set your heart free

You assured I don’t flea

I prayed that you’d get better

You ensured I felt bitter

Why can’t I find a glow

In a far from you tomorrow?

In a heart that is more merry?

In a man I am willing to marry?


N.A

(Spoiler warning)

Man, as heart-wrenching as BtS is because of what we know from LiS, I can’t help but envy these smol fluffballs and their love for one another.

Like fuck, if you all played the way I did, Chloe got expelled. And you know, Joyce probably has a point that in that scenario, Rachel would probably be fine as the DA’s daughter. But oh my god, Chloe still cared, still kept telling Rachel that “it was worth it” - she was worth it. And somehow, getting expelled is okay in this story. Not in an unbelievable way. Of course, shit gets tense with David and Joyce, but Chloe still has Rachel. Magical moments still happen, in the form of the Tempest and the kiss later on. It’s beautiful. Shit, if only I had a love and bond so true that even expulsion and a stepdick couldn’t keep me from appreciating that person and having fun with her.

BtS hits so hard in the feels because of stuff like this - even though shit happens, Chloe and Rachel have each other’s backs. There’s such a juxtaposition of both good and bad… and it’s jarring in how it’s both hopeful and saddening.

Like, at the same time, you can see how this juxtaposition can also be heartbreaking. Chloe and Rachel have got their plans to leave Arcadia Bay - they kiss, they swing around in a circle together. It’s so sweet. And yet, the episode ends on this note of Rachel’s fury and sense of betrayal and the shocker that the “other woman” is actually Rachel’s mom. 

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckkkk

Damn it DeckNine, JUST LET THEM (me) BE HAPPY. 

anonymous asked:

I’ve scrolled through your blog and you seem to have a lot of murals, which ones do you talk to most to? Or feel like you trust? Because let me tell you you have cute relationships with lol of them

First off let me start off by saying I LOVE ALL MY MUTUALS whether we talk a whole lot or not. I still appreciate each of them and feel thankful that they decided to give me a chance to become friends with them:) I trust all of them with my whole heart and would tell them things in an instant but sometimes I hold back because I don’t want to burden people with my problems. All of them are good people with kind personalities and even bigger hearts. 

I really talk to most of my mutuals the same amount and trust them all the same but there are a few them I haven’t gotten to know a whole lot but I hope in the future I can talk to them the more: @kithmeonthelipth @bfjhs @got7armytrash @channynipa @your-safety-pin @amembivert @gab-is-rad @sassocrates @guksthighs  @myhollanderheart  @markwhyareyousodaddy @littlekatlizzy @diannajasanders-love The rest of them I annoy on a continuous basis but hey they choose to put up with me. A special shout out to these guys for bearing with my stupid self and never complaining: @piedparker @callmebapsae @destination-unicornland @kpop-stole-my-lyfe  @randomclickbait

PSA; for any of y’all who still want to write with me and my babies i have created a new multimuse which i’m happy to give to anyone who wants to follow me, for my own comfort i won’t be posting the url here, instead hit the heart and i’ll drop in your IMS with it! pretty much ALL my muses have came with me, with the exception of a few!! so please HIT THE HEART IF YOU WANT MY NEW URL!!

semiautomattik  asked:

i had this crush on this boy at school who reminded me of namjoon so much ok. he was like 178cm (5'10") and he was so book smart and a great writer but he was such a ditz and like lacked common sense and he was so funny and clumsy and was blonde with blue eyes and athelthic and goldenly tanned (bc he was half palestinian) and like... he has the cutest smile and dimples and he was the CUTEST boy i have ever seen irl and he had loads of money but couponed for fun?? idk he still has my heart lmfao

why the past tense omggg nooo?? dude how come you two aren’t talking anymore if he’s still in possession of your heart

okay but all of this sounds really adorable…. i hope you can talk to him again (i imagine you must’ve smiled while writing this bc the love radiates from this ask i’m not even joking,, it’s cute)

girlwithglasses12  asked:

I just found your youtube and watched like most of your vids, but I listened to your cover of "love like you: and im sitting here, in tears because youre voice is amazing and the cover is beautiful and i love that song. anyways just wanted to say that youre awesome and i love your channel.

YOU ARE TOO SWEET omg i can’t believe you binged all my old stuff >.<

That cover was done with my old crappy microphone but i’m glad you liked it :,) I still have a ways to go vocally but the song was so wonderful that I couldn’t resist :) Thank you so much for your kind words bless your heart <3 

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‘Don’t,’ said Laurent, ‘toy with me. I—have not the means to—defend against this.’

‘I don’t toy with you.’

;3; my sons. More fan art to come i can’t help it

I adore the duality of Tony Stark. Not the secret identity thing, but this idea, one that you get to see more of in the comics than the films (though IM1 did this a lot): the idea that there’s this aloof, cold businessman who puts on perfectly-tailored suits and snarks his way through a room and destroys opponents without a thought using an offhand quip, and resorts to pragmatism when nobody else will, and wears his playboy persona on his sleeve, and knows all the easiest ways to blow up a person or a world, and has a bit of a god complex, and used to be called the Merchant of Death -

- but he’s also the guy who wanders around like a zombie before the first coffee of the day, and works with his hands, and spends his time with mad-scientist hair and wearing scruffy vests covered in oil because he got caught up in his hard work and his passion for creation. He’s the guy who will do anything for his friends and makes silly jokes over breakfast and wholeheartedly, dorkily loves the Avengers, from the concept of it to the people in it. He falls hard for the people he loves, and is incredibly lonely. He’s the guy who goes to orphanages and holds babies when he can’t sleep, and adores kids. He’s the guy who cries easily, never thinks he’s doing enough, struggles with alcoholism and chronic illnesses, and desperately doesn’t want to be his father, no matter how much the media pins the opposite on him. He loves the world and the people in it, even when he kind of hates them, and is constantly working to make things better. He remembers his employees’ names and asks after their families. He tries to see the good in people and goes for rehabilitative over punitive justice wherever possible, even when it comes to villains who have actively tried to kill him. He’s known for how much he cares, exhaustingly, about everything. He’s the man who honestly has a good heart and is constantly trying to reach out, and often gets laughed at for his idealism. He’s a man who’s so often in pain, but tries to use it to improve the world rather than letting it destroy him.

Sure, I like his ruthlessness and some of his coolness, but I also love the guy who unironically adores classic Star Trek and makes absentminded Dune and Arthurian references and thinks equations are cool; who makes mental notes of his friends’ favourite breakfasts and takes young heroes under his wing and is semi-jokingly horrified when one doesn’t have a file system. Who goes “but why does that do that?” and wants to take everything apart and fix it so it can help people, and honest to god believes in a better future. 

(The movies are subtler about that side of him, but it’s still there. I mean, as a little thing, I’m always grateful they let RDJ put some of his own love of classic and sometimes silly rock into Tony Stark. Not just because I share that music taste, but I always like characters who are nerdy and wholehearted about at least something. But the bigger stuff, too: the between-the-lines moments: the naming his bots, the “here, have my whole R&D lab/my company/my home/my heart if you want it, why do you look so surprised?” That’s all straight from the comics. It’s just done slightly more snarkily and with a slightly shorter, brown-eyed Tony rather than a tall, blue-eyed one.)

But it’s still a very bad idea to piss him off.

He’s both. I love that he’s both.

I knew what true love would feel like. Or maybe sound like and look like. I’ve read about it in books all my life, I’ve watched it in movies. And I was expecting something just like what I read. And then last night you said something. It wasn’t anything like those books. It wasn’t romantic or poetic or anything. But those words were dripping with love, and those words were full of feelings, real, true, heartfelt feelings. And I fell for you all over again. I thought I know how to love, but you inspire me still. I can’t say I’ve fallen in love, but one thing is sure, I’ve found love in you. I’d read about men like you, and love like ours, but that was fiction. I didn’t know it can exist, or yes maybe I hoped it can, but I didn’t entirely believe in it. But yes it does. And all I can be is thankful to have no one, but you in my life. But it breaks my heart to know I am not yours to keep, neither are you mine to be. And all I wish is that you find someone you truly deserve and someone who’s worth you. Because you are the kind of person who’d love the f*ck outta her, and that is also what you deserve in return. I am grateful, that the universe let your soul stop by, even if it was just for a short while.
—  nidhibhasin 

Hi, it’s Seohyun. I recently reached 3k followers and so I thought that now would be a good time to finally getting around to doing my first follow forever post (sorry the banner looks so dumb lmao, clearly graphic design is not a skill of mine). When I first started this blog I was rather unhappy with my life and was often lonely and sad, but now whenever I feel that way I come on here and the kindness and warmth of all you guys honestly makes me feel so much better. I can not express myself of how much I love you all. I hope you’re all having a great day or night because you deserve all the happiness in the world, each and every one of you. Even if we don’t talk please know that I still appreciate you and love your blog ^^

This is the first time I’ve done one of these posts and so if we are mutuals and I forget you I am deeply sorry and please please let me know, also I’m not too good with computer stuff so if anything here doesn’t work also please let me know and I will try my best to fix it.

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[ It’s been so long since I got to hold you
but I still can’t seem to get you off my mind
and I do believe I feel you all the time, all the time
tell me I can have the fact you’ve loved me to hold onto
tell me I can keep the door cracked open, to let light through…
] [x]
(Asra’s route)

 - - -

<< Go easy on me, for I mean you no harm, it’s possible charm is in order
but you make it so hard when you throw up your guard
I’m not here to spar, so go easy on me
[…] See, my heart barely works and it’s covered in dirt
it still kind of hurts, so go easy on me…
>> [x]
(Julian’s route)

This is the sweet message Harry said before Sign of the Times and after he had suddenly put his pride flag over his mic stand. (As you can tell by my yell I was surprised. Also, the video gets a lot better when Harry starts talking, I thought he was going to leave the stage before the encore but he went straight into his speech and he had the flag so I had to be quick lmao)

“Thank you so much for having us. I um— It’s kind of impossible to say thank you enough times because, like, I just couldn’t be on this stage if it wasn’t for you guys. So, thank you so much for everything that has got me to this place and for all your support since this next song came out. I love you very, very much and um -coughs- this is the last one.”

Then the crowd started to boo and get sad.

“I mean, I just don’t have any more songs. This is just the last— This is just the last- the last one! Now please sing along if you know this one and if I am– If I could possibly be any luckier than I am right now I will see you again very soon! I love you with all my heart, this is Sign of the Times!”

‘Too Much to Ask‘ Lyrics

[Verse 1]
Waiting here for someone
Only yesterday we were on the run
You smile back at me and your face lit up the sun
Now I’m waiting here for someone

[Pre-Chorus]
And oh, love, do you feel this rough?
Why’s it only you I’m thinking of

[Chorus]
My shadow’s dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You’ll walk right in tonight
Tell me there are things that you regret
‘Cause if I’m being honest I ain’t over you yet
It’s all I’m asking
Is it too much to ask?
Is it too much to ask?

[Verse 2]
Someone’s moving outside
The lights come on and down the drive
I forget you’re not here when I close my eyes
Do you still think of me sometimes?

[Pre-Chorus]
And oh, love, watch the sun coming up
Don’t it feel fucked up we’re not in love

[Chorus]
My shadow’s dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You’ll walk right in tonight
Tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I’m being honest I ain’t over you yet
It’s all I’m asking
Is it too much to ask?

[Bridge]
My shadow’s dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You’ll walk right in tonight
Tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I’m being honest I ain’t over you yet

[Chorus]
My shadow’s dancing
Without you for the first time
My heart is hoping
You’ll walk right in tonight
Tell me there are things that you regret
'Cause if I’m being honest I ain’t over you yet
It’s all I’m asking
Is it too much to ask?

[Outro]
It’s all I’m asking
Is it too much to ask?
It’s all I’m asking
Is it too much to ask?

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