You opened your eyes after a few blinks,unsure of where you were.The bright rays of sunshine peered through the curtains as you laid there in complete silence.You were slowly remembering the night as your face got covered in a blush.
He had told you about everything you wanted to know after drinking a bottle of whiskey.You knew he was not drunk,he was talking swiftly and his behavior was completely normal,making you think he needed someone to talk to.After answering your questions,a deep sigh left his lips,making you look at him.Seeing his teary eyes,you stood there in silence,unable to do anything.He slowly gathered himself,offering you to stay over.
You simply nodded.
You got up from his bed he lent you for the night,went over to see if he was awake.After climbing down the stairs you saw hi standing in front of the large glass with a small pout.You were sure something was bugging him lately,but you were not sure whether you should ask him or not.
He heard your footsteps and immediately turned with a smile,a fake one that broke your heart.You wanted go and hug him,but you were sure he did not feel close enough to do that.You smiled softly,hoping maybe it would make him feel better.
“Good morning” he said as he made his way to the kitchen.
He was wearing a white shirt with grey sweatpants and you were not sure why he looked so good.
You murmured a small morning and simply followed after him.You were super hungry after coming here last night in a hurry making you think about the reason why you were here.You had asked him whether he was okay or not but he just said he was figuring himself out.
You would actually believe that if you had not seen him drinking with puffy eyes.
He started to cake waffles for the both of you,making your pupils go wide at the smell.Your small actions made him smile,and that made you smile.You were pretty sure you were not supposed to have a relationship like this,a relationship that is made by bonds.You were there for his money,but not anymore.You haven’t kissed or held hands ever and unlike other relationship, yours was progressing slowly.
After eating breakfast with a small talk and watching the news,while he read a book,you thanked him for his pajamas,you got ready to go home,finally taking a bath and relaxing but his words surprised you.
“You can stay here if you want” he said as he wore his jacket.
“I-It’s fine.I have to clean up anyways” you said with small hand gestures.
“I can find you a maid” he said as he watched your expression to go shocked.”She/He’ll come weekly,preferably she of course “ he said raising eyebrows.
“No….I-I’ll do it but thanks…..for the concern I mean” you said as he led you out of the apartment.
The ride back to your place was quiet as he watched the road and you stared at the road.You still wanted to ask one more question.As you watched the road get less and less crowded,you realized you were not headed to your place.You looked at him in confusion as he smirked to himself.
“I’m taking you somewhere” he said as he sped up the car.
You were sure this was not the kind of relationship you two were supposed to be.
You slowly nodded as he turned the music on,making you silently analyze his music taste and not to your surprise,he was a classic man.He liked The beatles as well as some local groups,making you think of him in a complete different direction.
Your pupils widened as you saw the purple lake and the sunset.You knew it would be a nice place but the view he took you was fascinating.The lake was purple as the orange sun rose above the small waves.Black birds painted the sky as the wind caressed the leaves.
You got out of the car after he stopped,excitedly running towards the view.He slowly followed you to the small bench in the middle of the area.You took a deep breath and closed your eyes after sitting on the bench,making him look at you with some kind of heartache.You looked up at him as he turned his head away,wanting to relieve him but also knowing your borders.
“I have one more question” you said as you stared at the view in awe,he stared at you.
“I’m listening” he said softly.
“There was a white bird in the town who was always seen as the best bird on the planet.He was handsome,successful and even loved by people,but it did not prevent him from being lonely.” you said as he stared deeply at you,wanting to hear more. “He was lonely indeed despite his success and publicity.Occasionally,he lost a few feathers from loneliness but never told anyone as he was just…..closed.After some time he started losing more and more feathers until he lost all the feather on his head,finally making people realize how wounded and lonely he was.” you said turning to meet his eyes.”He then met a black bird who was not really wise but she was sure something was wrong with him,after seeing her for a couple of times,his feathers grew again” You said as you looked at the view.
“Do you know why he lost so many feathers?” you asked,looking at him with soft eyes.
“B-Because he was lonely” he said,wanting to be correct.
“Because he refused to talk.It was not because he was lonely or not loved but he kept everything inside his heart and his heart grew weaker.He often shed a few tears here and there” you said as you took a look at the man sitting next to you.
“I-I….I” he said as you looked at him.
“If you keep yourself bottled inside your heart,you won’t be able to hold on much longer.” you said as you caressed his hair.
“So what’s wrong?” you said in a soft tone.
“It’s….” he said as he took a look at you,finding comfort in your eyes.”It’s just that my heart feels heavy.It is not the same,like before.I think I just need to let it out now” he said as he stared at the view.
“Ever since the company is on my shoulders,it’s hard to meet the expectations of others.The only person who believed in me,my grandpa,is not here anymore which makes everything harder” he said as a sigh left his lips.”I sometimes think about going on a vacation but…I can’t” he said.
“You know what happened to the bird?” you asked as he shook his head childishly.
“After not flying for more than a year because he lost his feathers,he wanted to close down completely.He never talked to the other for a while but soon,he realized that it was no use, and he tried.” you breathed out as he gave you a sparkly look.
“And he danced in the air” you said looking at his teary eyes.”So you can too,if you try”
(2 weeks later)
You opened the door slowly while you tried to stay quiet.You knew Sehun had a day off and you wanted to surprise him with same ramen and snacks so that he could relax once in a while.
You took a step into his his room,finding his jacket on the floor but he was nowhere to be seen.You wanted to call him first bt you did not want to ruin the surprise.
While you were looking for a movie to watch,you heard a knock on the door,only to see a drunk Sehun.He was hardly standing up with a sloppy voice.You could see that he drank more than 3 bottles as his voice got lower towards the end of the sentences.You knew he was really stressed out about the new contacts but you did not think it was this much.You helped him inside the apartment as he made his way to the bed,looking at you once in a while.
“T-haank yu” he said as he laid back on the bed.
You chuckled at his drunken state and realized that your whole chillax plan was ruined with a drunk Sehun.You knew he would be against the idea of eating snacks but this sehun was not even able to keep his eyes open for a long time.
You hurriedly made your way to the bathroom as you turned on the cold shower.You slowly took his clothes off as he sobered up by your sudden actions.You felt his heavy gaze on you,making your skin burn but you ignored it,you needed the sober Sehun now.
You dragged him into the shower and just when you were about to step out of the bathroom and take a deep breath,he pulled you close to himself in the shower,making your hands cover his naked chest as a blush found you face.You could feel his hot breath on your neck as your clothes got soaked under the cold water.
By the change in his actions,you could tell that he was sober now,his breath got unsteady when he saw you in your underwear right next to him in the shower.You took a look at him before stepping out of the shower and finding a towel to dry yourself.You saw his red face after you stepped out and heard him curse at his stupid actions,a small smirk covering you lips.
You sat on the bed while you dried your hair with a towel,still unable to process what just happened,It was not that you minded and that was the way your relationship with him was supposed to be but you had never seen him like that before.
Not this eager.
He sat next to you on the bed, a towel covering his lower body as he tried to catch his breath,you could tell that he was embarrassed by the way he was looking at you and instead of avoiding his gaze,you looked at him with soft eyes,telling him to speak.
“I-I’m sorry” he said as he wore his shirt.
“For what?” you said in a confused tone,you also wanted him to realize the kind of relationship you were with him.
“For….Uhm…..soaking your clothes under cold water” he said scratching the back of his head while you struggled to brush your hair.
“Here,let me do it for you” he said as you offered him the brush with wide eyes.
How did he know the perfect thing to say?
“O-okay” you said as you sat down and he slowly and carefully brushed your hair in silence,making sure he did not hurt you.After his careful movements,you wore a white shirt he gave you which was too big that it looked like a dress on you.
He gave you a smile after seeing how you looked in his shirt as you tried to move in it.When you were about to walk,you saw a droplet of blood on the floor,making you panic.As you looked down at your feet,you saw a cut in your toe,thinking that it must have happened in the shower.
Sehun saw the droplet just when you did and his pupils went wide.He was more than afraid to even touch you and now your toe was bleeding because of him.He felt his mind go blank as he got closer to you,maybe too close,to see your toe as you whined in pain.
He was about to stand up and bring some band-aids but he decided to stay down after he realized how close you were.You could feel his hot breath on your face and even though you just got out of a cold shower,you felt hot.Your whole body was trembling at how close he was as he stared into your eyes,afraid he might see inside your soul.You were just about to chuckle awkwardly to make the atmosphere a bit normal when he leaned closer.
His hands found your neck as your breath quickened.He waited way too long for this.He caressed your cheek before kissing your puffy lips which were now tasting heaven.You felt his swollen lips against yours as your mind wandered about whether it was a dream or not.
You moved your lips against his as he placed you on his lap,hands holding your butt and waist while you struggled to keep everything together.Your hands caressed his hair as he caressed your lips with his,making you moan into the kiss.
After a few minutes,you both needed some air,even though you did not want to break the kiss.You slowly moved away as he leaned on to your forehead with his,looking at your eyes with soft adoration.
“You have no idea how long I’ve waited for this”
Ok so here’s the new chapter.I have been avoiding studying so instead I’m writing stories lol.I hope you’ll have a wonderful day and remember that the request box is open!!
ps.lulu is going to the VS show?!?!?! the one yixing,tao and kris are going??!?!? My china line feels