if you ever see me talking about not feeling real it’s.. it’s hard to explain but what i mean is. i have trouble processing the fact that i exist outside of an active conversation. that i exist to people even when im not activly talking to them
the easiest way for me to explain it is like. ya know how people play peek a boo w babies? the whole thing with object permanence? it’s sort of like that. if im not actively talking to someone it feels like.. i don’t exist to them anymore. and then that makes me freak out
so if i ask you to tag me in stuff sometimes, or to just talk to me, or something like that… it’s just. i need help remembering that i exist.