but i really needed to rant

Ok Darcyland

Keep in mind this rant really isn’t aimed at any of you. You’re all beautiful, wonderful people. I just need to get this off my chest.

As yet another one of our amazing writers is attacked for not updating or not writing what the reader wants, I find myself getting more and more pissed off on their behalf. I don’t know why I rarely get attacked considering I take forever to finish things, but seriously. All these self-entitled assholes can take their whiney asses and GTFO.

Lance needs love

I don’t know if I’d say I really ship Lance x Lotor (Lancelot?) but I do know that I want someone to pay attention to lance. He’s so insecure and feels left out so I just want someone to care for him and make him feel better.

Ideally he’d have some sorta mental breakdown that would be depicted in great detail in the show (lol I’m cruel I know) which would lead to him working on his issues and everyone supporting him. Klance is basically my otp so I’d love for Lance and Keith to end up together.

However I’ll take what I can get so I’d be pretty happy with a handsome prince (namely Lotor) taking interest in Lance. I can see that working out in a number of ways. Overall I just want someone to love lance and for him to get more screentime because honestly he deserves it.

anonymous asked:

i'm a senior, and i still have no idea what i want to do with my life. i like to draw, but i don't know if i want to pursue it as a job?? and i don't really do anything extracurricular or have any interests because my parents tend to isolate me away from people and i don't have many friends and i don't know what to do. i just needed to rant, thank you.

hmm idk.. i’m a senior as well so i don’t have experience with college and what to do when you’ve got no ideas for careers but one of my friends is planning on taking an year off after high school and just working in a local store rather than go to college right away because she also doesnt know what she wants to do so that could be an option to give yourself more time to think about it? maybe look into the different areas related to art too cause theres a ton, you might find sometime that intrigues you 

So because I need to rant…I didn’t realize until now just how bad my school system is.  

I am a senior in high school.  I have taken honors English for three years and am enrolled in an online AP English class.  Why is my AP English class online, you may ask?  Because they replaced it with an advanced drama class.  NOT AP drama, but just a regular advanced drama class. I have no problems with drama classes, but I really don’t think they should replace an AP core class with it.  

Continuing on with my horrible English teachers…my first year of honors was good and that teacher is an amazing one, but that’s freshman year.  I remember nothing.  For the last two years, I’ve had horrible honors teachers.  One didn’t read the essays we wrote, just gave it a B and called it good.  The other didn’t bother to explain how we could improve.  I’ve never given a speech.  I don’t know how to write a proper research paper.  I don’t know how to write an analysis paper properly.  I had to ask my AP teacher how to find fucking SYLLABLES in a word.  I now have to learn how to write a bibliography because guess what?  I’ve never written one. 

I have an ACT score of 31.  For those who don’t know, you score out of 35.  31 is HIGH.  Particularly when the average score in your state is 18.  I have been accepted into an amazing college.  I was interviewed by an even better one that ranks high in national ranks.  

But I can’t write a goddamn bibliography and I had to e-mail my teacher about how to figure out syllables, something a second grader should know.  There is nothing more discouraging than realizing that.  

Let’s talk about Emergency!

I really need to talk to you guys about something that’s been bothering me today. Everyone here on this blog is a fan of the hit 70′s medical drama, right? I would sure hope so if you’re here enjoying these incredible shots and sometimes hilarious captions. Well, I’m probably the biggest fan of the show there is and I can say so because I truly feel that way deep down in my heart. 

Come March, I will have been a fan of this show for an entire year. It’s been an incredible journey of binge watching on Netflix, buying the series on DVD, reading the Behind the Scene book, getting a poster and a sweatshirt for my birthday along with a pie made in the shape of the squad, not to mention the custom made engine my grandfather put together… and while this is just some tv show to some, this is a tv show that has literally saved my life. I was once disconnected with my human side because of all the trauma I’ve been through in my 22 years of life here on earth, and this show has brought me back down to earth.

In the midst of all that, I’ve found myself in a tangle with drama in the fandom that can’t even be properly explained. People fighting over who is a better fan than the other, people telling other people how they should be fans, people competing who can get the most likes or members in their groups, people bullying people so far into the ground that they never want to associate themselves with the show again… and it has been SO painful to watch because this show is so influential, and SO important… I’ve wanted to walk away a few times. 

Walking away from this show would have been walking away from my own life, and I just couldn’t sever that part of me, and I’m really glad that I didn’t. The show is my lifeline, and the people that I’ve met because of this show are literally the best people I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing. Those people who have actually taken the time to know me, instead of listening to hearsay from another fan. 

While being a fan of this show, I have realized one critical thing, the thing that’s been bothering me today. The simple fact that it seems that most of the attention falls on Johnny and Roy. Now, I’m not knocking Johnny and Roy at all because I love them to death. I understand that the show is based on the paramedic program, and I understand that Kevin Tighe and Randy Mantooth were the stars of the show, and I can totally respect that. 

However, I’ve also noticed the effort put in to shine light on the other aspects of facilitating a rescue; ones that include the entire fire department, the hospital staff, and even the police force. Now tell me, why would they make that effort if they didn’t want these very important people to have recognition also? Why is it that when I go to fan pages on Facebook, a lot of them are focusing on the two paramedics but they’re not showing any love for the other guys? 

I’ve even read from one of the fans that Johnny and Roy were the real heroes of the show, without even realizing that there were a handful of real firemen on the show including Station 51′s very own Mike Stoker and Captain Dick Hammer. 

If it weren’t for Station 51 as a whole, the Rampart staff, and the police of LA County; none of this would have been possible, right? 

I’ve heard time and time again that you have to be the change that you want to see in the world, so I want to be that change in this community by shining an equal and whole light on the ENTIRE cast for all of their hard work and dedication that they put into making this incredible show. 

anonymous asked:

Well I get that you are a human and I honestly would have understand you completely to rant if I had come to you like "CHANGE THAT BECAUSE I SAY SO BITCH". But I didn't word it like this. And well you know I am a human too. So seeing you respond to my message in such a way is really dishearting because I really wondered what was so incredible horrible about my message to deserve such a rant. I do take your apology and just say agree to disagree in the original matter.

Ya it’s…..I just need to fucking chill and have a glass of wine tbh and have my husband draw me a bubble bath and use a bath bomb Hahahaha I’m way too tense lately 😂😂

My 12X13 Opinion.

Family Feud… Okay, so, not my favorite. Seems like no one really liked it, but really people, every and I mean EVERY season since S1 has had shitty fillers,.. it doesnt mean the show “has to end” .. dont like it, dont watch it. Period. As long as J2 want to keep doing it, and people still want to watch it, complain if you need to, but saying it should end means only one thing….. you enjoy making people angry or sad. The Simpsons have been on for almost 30 years, I think its stupid and I dont watch it, but hey, lots of people enjoy it and the writers keep writing, so good for them! Rant over…

Ok so, too much flashing back to the past. It’s kind of a thing this season. Not a bad thing all together, but its getting a little monotonous, and coming up with all these new spells to do exactly what we need to fill holes in canon is annoying too, but hey how about using Gavin going back to die on the boat, be an explanation as to why they suddenly dont have the same POTUS as us?

What I did like though, besides Sam looking super good :) is he still let a little badass come out. Grabbing Rowena’s arm “Sit” was pretty hot, gotta say. And I liked that he told mom “broken ribs and burnt feet” were among the reasons they dont trust them. Sam doesnt normally stick up for himself, as we saw with everyone else who has tortured him, eventually he has to work with them, and he doesnt give an argument. As we can see from next week’s trailer, he will probably get talked into working with them, but, at least it’s a step. It was pretty cold of Rowena to let Gavin die as revenge for Oscar, but to be honest, I dont really want Crowley and Rowena to be good guys and bffs with the Winchesters. Yeah, they may need favors from each other sometimes, but really, Im having issues with Sam and Dean being so chummy with the King of Hell and the worlds most powerful witch. Anyone with me on that? 

So on a scale from Bloodlines to Swan Song, im giving this one a 5. There have been worse episodes, but soooooo many better ones.

  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: Why do people talk about Jonathan Groff more than Okieriete Onaodowan? Jon left Hamilton months ago and is literally on stage for like 10 minutes. Oak has an amazing range and is the last original cast member. Why does no one talk about him. Why wasn't he nominated for a Tony. I need answers.
Little Things about YoI episode 8

I need to rant to get it out of my system (and because lately I can’t draw to get my feelings out) about some things I really liked in the new episode:

  • The possible character development for Yurio. As I mentioned previously, it seems likely that Yurio’s development will be a bit similar to Yuuri’s, based on the fact he skates on the twin piece of music, “On Love”. His love isn’t the same than Yuuri. Yuuri was more about discovering romantic (and sexual) love (even if it meant realizing the love he was surrounded by too). Yurio, to me, will be more about recognizing and accepting the love on a more “innocent” form (Agape) he can receive but always refuse. He only accepts his Grandfather’s love (maybe because it’s the only one he ever received ?), but when presented with manifestations of affection and support from others (Yuuri and Viktor), he gets angry and sees them as pity or teasing. Maybe it will be his character development. At least that’s how I saw it foreshadowed in this new episode.
  • Yuuri and Viktor’s maturity. I already loved how, in general, Yuuri acted pretty mature especially toward Yurio (not picking up on his attacks, the “Viktor came because he wanted” and not beating himself over it, treating him like a valid opponent all by keeping in mind he’s way younger…). But here it really got me. He, and Viktor, were genuinely happy for Yurio. To see how he improved, how he really made the Agape his own (even if it still needs improvement). They cheered for him, Yuuri was happy to see Yurio again, and even Viktor (in his really awkward way) showed some happiness to see him again. Even though he is one of their opponents, and even though Yurio clearly showed animosity toward them, they didn’t pick on him and instead cheered him. It was heartwarming, and also a proof of maturity that’s refreshing (so many shows display adults that act like kids in the wrong sense of the word).
  • As mentioned in an other post : the maturity Yuuri displayed by immediately telling Viktor about Makkachin and telling him to go back. He didn’t keep it for himself (communication holy shit), he didn’t play any emotionally manipulative game (”it’s makkachin or me”), but instead showed empathy, took his own experience as something he didn’t want his lover to go through, and showed maturity by not being over dependent on Viktor’s presence (”I can do it without you, I’m an adult, and I don’t want you to suffer. I can handle not having you by my side all of the time, but I don’t want you to have your dog suffer/die without being able to be with him when I don’t need you right now”). 
  • Speaking of dependence : Viktor and Yuuri will be separated. And that’s something I’m really happy to see. I really hope Makkachin doesn’t die though, and I think he won’t and that it’s really just an excuse to have them separated for a moment. And I think it’s important. Because currently, they always been together, and they’re pretty fusional. Not that there’s anything inherently wrong with it, but it becomes wrong when it’s sign of overdependence on each other, when each part can’t function properly without the other. Now that they really reinforced their relationship in last episode, and that they’re confident in their relationship, it’s like a “proof test”, to have Yuuri having to perform without Viktor being here. I am confident it should go well (not that it will be easy, but that Yuuri will overcome it), and that it will be an other evidence of their healthy relationship. I think they need to be separated at least a bit, because it’s something that will happen sometimes. And also, it will be a “test” of Yuuri’s confidence. Did he really become confident or is it only tied to Viktor’s presence ? He only performed and won with Viktor always at his side so far. I do believe he actually gained confidence, but it will be a nice situation for them to “test” their relationship, its strength and Yuuri’s confidence. And it’s not a wicked test, but the one that can normally happen in real life. It’s not a “jealousy” proof test or anything. Just a “life makes it so I need to be at a place you can’t be because you have something else important to do right now, and neither of us can ask the other to drop everything to be at our side, so we have to split for a moment and it’s ok”. I’m really excited.
  • The Eros Programm really being a metaphor of the Viktuuri relationship. Especially in the beginning. At first, Yuuri was just copying Viktor’s smile. But then their relationship evolves, and Viktor starts to pull Yuuri so they can be more on equal grounds (”seduce me with your own charm” aka “you don’t have to copy me anymore or use any tricks, you have the ability to charm me in you”). And then he doesn’t just smile, but licks his lips. It’s seductive, it’s really Yuuri wanting Viktor (”Keep your eyes on me”) and it’s about where they are in their relationship. But then the relationship evolves again. They really get on equal grounds when Yuuri sees Viktor fucking up and when they both expose some of their weaknesses. And then they kiss. Their relationship is healthy and official, and so, next time, Yuuri blows a kiss at Viktor. It’s a nice reference to the kiss they shared before, and an evidence of the development of their relationship : it’s not about seducing anymore. It’s about expressing your feelings and your confidence in the other. The kiss and skating is for Viktor. And to parallel this, you just have the way Yuuri skates all the way. He starts off unsure, messing up some jumps, having to stay really focused on his story or the katsudon or the woman to be able to skate it right. And in the last episode ? He didn’t do any of that. He’s confident in this program as he is in his relationship with Viktor. And that’s. so. great.

This episode was less emotionally charged than the previous, less centered on Yuuri and Viktor (they’re just an established couple now and I love it. They don’t even fear to do things like the laces tying or the kiss on the skate. It’s awesome), but more on Yurio, his future development, and his relationship to other. It was great and the possible interpretations of what is to come are really interesting.

Alright so the new song is amazing the girls vocals are only getting better and better and their dancing has noticeably improved and the the videos aesthetics are really nice but the guy makes the mv so uncomfortable for me. Like not even in the since of “hey I ship — he’s not supposed to be here haha” like that “kiss” scene with Solar hell even Hwasa’s weren’t exceptable by any means. Both scenes left a bad taste in my mouth and I really just wonder why they were even allowed in the pv. Hell I didn’t even like how Hwasa’s character in um oh ah yeah forced himself on Solar.

anonymous asked:

(I really need to get this off my chest I'm sorry) I like klance, and I'll enjoy when it becomes openly canon, but... I don't want the Getting Together/Confession Moment to be used as the answer to Lance's insecurities boiling over into a breakdown asking what he is to the team/what his thing is, you understand?

yeah! i get you on that!

a relationship isn’t how you get rid of insecurities. in fact, it can actually open up doors to new insecurities because now you could be worrying about “not being good enough for that person” or “feeling like they’re just pitying you” or “being scared they will break up with you because they don’t actually like you back”, all of which i can see Lance experiencing once he and Keith start a relationship. 

the kind of klance relationship i wanna see is this:

  • the boiling over moment for Lance when he finally snaps and all his emotions come gushing out, maybe him and Keith get into a not very good argument because of this because stress levels are already through the roof now that Shiro is gone so i can see them having a fight
  • i can also see this happening in front of the rest of the team, so. it won’t be very good.
  • i want Lance to off-handedly admit that he feels like he’s just Keith’s shadow/replacement, thus giving the team (and Keith) a glance at how he actually feels about himself
  • i want Lance to storm out of the room after realizing what he said and not wanting to see the team’s reaction to that and him finding a place to seethe, maybe going to the blue lion or his room. i want hunk or coran to go after him and talk to him. meanwhile Keith is trying to brush the situation off and get focused on the mission at hand because that’s what’s important, right? can’t let emotions distract you from finding Shiro?
  • i want coran or hunk (preferably hunk) to eventually go and find keith and convince him to go talk to lance about this because it’s Important and Needs to be Done, keith reluctantly agrees after some convincing
  • keith goes and finds lance, possibly moping around in his room or around the blue lion, and they have a talk. it’s a bit awkward at first because they obviously just had a bad blow out and i want lance to be defensive, and i want keith to be prickly
  • but i also want them to find a way to talk it out. i want lance to finally open up to keith about how he feels about himself and like, admitting that he doesn’t actually hate keith he just has Issues™
  • this is the kicker though, i don’t want keith to give any Big Motivational Speeches to lance, because he isn’t really the best in that department. i want him to like, try and reach common ground with lance, i want him to tell lance that he didn’t know thats how he felt, and in fact, doesn’t understand why lance feels this way
  • i want keith to tell lance that he doesn’t hate him either and, for them to just have a moment where they can see eye to eye? another Bonding Moment™? that would be so nice. lance doesn’t solve his insecurities right then and there but at least now he and keith are on the same page?
  • after this, i want them to start working together more. i want to see them co-leading the team. i want to see them grow together and supporting each other and lance slowly learning over time that he’s just as important as everyone else, and i want him to start to get over all his internalized “hatred” for keith. i want to see that small crush on keith that he has buried under all his insecurities to blossom into an actual adoration and love for the red paladin and i want their growing relationship to be rocky and hard because they have a war to fight and a team to lead. 
  • and i don’t just want lance to learn his worth through keith either, i want to see him working together with the rest of the team and them taking him more seriously too. i wanna see him and allura bond over their homesickness, i wanna see him and pidge bond over their longing for their families, i wanna see him and hunk bond over being scared of what the future holds for them. 
  • i want to see lance’s talents shine and new talents we didn’t know he had to pop up too, and i want him to learn to love himself and see how important he truly is. he’s a paladin of voltron man, he’s pretty damn important.

ok but am I the only one who is not only pissed but hurt that apparently alec and magnus did have sex and they chose to glaze over it unlike their apparent need to flaunt jace and stranger girl in the same fucking episode, i’m not calling homophobia but that’s exactly what it is. i was really holding out hope that they would clear it up this week but they just cemented the fact that alec and magnus did take that step and they didn’t bother to give it nearly as much screen time as it deserved. don’t know about you all, but i am tired™.

somebody save Seungkwan from his lack of self worth! The poor boy wrote that his weight is 20 watermelons! If the average watermelon weights 7.35kg, 7.35 x 20 = 147. 
*takes a very deep breath*

okay but i really love the whole apology scene like, alec having trouble but trying his best and the way that magnus kinda helped him apologize by saying ‘continue’ and ‘for…?’ bc alec has a hard tim expressing his feelings and i think magnus gets that and is really trying to help alec while at the same time not automatically forgiving him, and i really liked how magnus got to be angry and wasn’t demonized for being angry and just, a relationship is a two way street & i just really like how they portrayed all that 

i said to myself i wasn’t gonna talk about this but fuck it i’m tired and it needs to be addressed

stop insulting and saying cruel things about yurio over the shit he said in the most recent episode. i get why youre angry and you have a right to be because it was really mean and uncalled for but he’s a fuckin angsty rude fifteen year old and has been an angsty rude fifteen year old since his first appearance. he has had a lot of character development to be proud of, but he’s still a teenager going through puberty and does not have a filter or real understanding of adults. he’s a mean little boy. he is not nice and has never been nice. you guys used to love him. but youre so quick to change your tune when he does something that isn’t adorably angry. none of you like that he’s in the wrong and are insulting him because he’s not your cute huffy and puffy character and showed you that he’s flawed and mean.

stop!!! treating him like an adult and placing adult behavioral expectations on him!! he’s mentally developing!!!! i bet all of you have said mean shit you hate thinking about when you were younger. i was an asshole and hate even thinking about how i was. i bet you 300% he’s gonna be embarrassed and ashamed in another 4 or 5 years. am i saying he gets a get out of jail free card because hes young? nope. not at all.

viktor was angry at yurio for saying rude shit but viktor is an adult and handled the situation like an adult because it’s his job as a grown up to show yurio that hes wrong and prove to him he’s wrong. you’re allowed to be disappointed and upset at yurio but if i see one more person say “god he needs to learn to shut up” i’m going to fucking scream

*Jumps back into Star Wars Feelings mode* OKAY, SO I WAS RANTING ON TWITTER, which is much of my life these days, about Finn in TFA, which is all I ever want to do really.

One thing that reeeeeally bugs me is the assumption from both Finn’s detractors and even a lot of fans that he has or needs a “redemption arc”. I absolutely don’t agree that either narratively or from an in-universe perspective that what Finn goes through in TFA counts as redemption, for the simple reason that Finn has nothing villainous to be redeemed from.

When we see Finn in his introduction, the first thing we learn about him- literally the absolute first thing- is that he is a stormtrooper who on his very first mission is unable to kill innocents. Not even just unwilling, but seemingly unable. His defining moment is that he is not like the other stormtroopers there, who he is contrasted with in a lot of ways- visually with the bloodied helment, in terms of his body language, in his actions, even in how the camera focuses on him and humanises him. So Finn’s story is not framed from the outset as one of “the bad stormtrooper has a change of heart and goes to redeem himself”. It is, instead, that Finn is ‘not like’ the other stormtroopers, who are killing without question.

The question asked of Finn isn’t so much “can you redeem yourself from being a stormtrooper?” but instead “if you can’t be a stormtrooper, what can you be?”. That’s not a redemptive narrative so much as it’s a flat-out heroic one. Finn has no deaths to atone for or terrible deeds haunting him so much as he has to deal with the consequences of immediately jumping ship and going off to be a good person. He is, from the outset, liked and trusted by Poe, not judged for his being a stormtrooper so much as praised for running off to escape them. Finn might gain a lot of bravery and willingness to act and fight over the course of TFA, but he doesn’t have to earn his basic moral stripes; they’re shown to us the audience very early on.

There’s not really any point where Finn isn’t shown to be a fundamentally decent, kind young man with a likeable personality and the ability to make strong emotional connections! He’s just a hero on his hero’s journey, really, with an interesting twist in that for a long time the stormtroopers were entirely faceless and dehumanised in the movies, and he injects a sense of real people into that image.

So: Finn is not, even in the sense of what happened in-universe before the events of TFA, any kind of “redeemed antagonist”. He’s the guy who was groomed to act as the antagonist who didn’t want to and escaped before he was made to fulfill that role.

This ties in a lot to how I see people treat his relationship (narratively, not in the sense of character interactions) with the role Kylo Ren plays in the film. They’re almost mirror opposites of each other if you squint hard enough, in that Finn escaped that antagonistic role despite being forced into it while Kylo Ren chose and continues to choose it despite an explicit “pull to the light” and it not coming “naturally” to him. Kylo Ren is, of course, the actual antagonist of the movie, and a villain besides; he fits both roles unambiguously. Like, I am all for many interpretations of media, but I firmly believe they need to be textually plausible, and I can see no textually plausible reading of Kylo Ren as anything but the antagonistic villain.

My point is, it kind of frustrates me when I see people try and support Finn’s arc and presence in TFA with the idea that “Finn is everything Kylo Ren is, but better!”, because it misrepresents and even sells Finn short, IMO. They have totally different roles in the narrative, totally different arcs, and Finn’s arc and characterization are more than able to stand on their own without that comparison being made. He doesn’t need to be shoehorned into that role to make him seem “better”, he just IS a perfectly great and engaging character.

Likewise, I also disagree with the idea that from a storytelling perspective there is anything about liking the idea of a Kylo Ren redemption arc that *inherently* shifts focus from Finn onto Kylo Ren, or that Finn’s arc can automatically hit the notes narratively that a Kylo Ren redemption would? Finn is a protagonist as well as a lead. He is by default a far more 'important’ lead than Kylo Ren, because he is an audience perspective character and, well, a good guy in films primarily about the power of the good guys to overcome. Because Kylo Ren occupies that totally distinct narrative space, rather than it being one shared by the two characters, it’s not a matter of allocating resources from Finn’s story towards Kylo Ren’s, it’s just… a totally different set of narrative resources altogether.

(That’s not to say this doesn’t happen in *fanon*, mind you. It does; I’ve seen Kylo Ren get used as basically an outrageously OOC replacement Finn a million times over in fic, it’s ridiculous. But it is not actually an inherent demand of the actual, honest to god canon of the movies themselves, IMO.)

Again, for me this argument is actually not about Kylo Ren so much as Finn, and not selling his story short. Assuming it’s impossible to have a Kylo Ren redemption story (and I’m thinking less what fanfic tends to indulge in and more like… RotJ style Vader stuff here, ftr) without shafting Finn basically ignores what Finn’s real role in the story is, IMO.

And I care about that A LOT AS YOU CAN SEE, did you know Finn is my fave, anyway the point is FINN IS AWESOME AND HEROIC AND I LOVE HIM!!! ok, thanks.

anonymous asked:

Hi, so this is going to sound really stupid but I love to draw and I have this freind who also loves to draw and when we get together we share each others sketch books and Evey time she see mine she laughs and says that's hers are a lot better or says that I am copying her and it's making me being really private about my drawing to the point when some one looks in my sketch book I want to cry and I don't know what to do so I was wondering if you have any advice for me if not that's fine

Anony.. that is SO unfair. ,(é~è),

I’m truthfully sorry to hear about this happening to you- Artists commonly have self-confidence issues because when you draw something, you’re reaching into your mind and laying it down in reality. It’s soulful work, and to have that mocked is not cool. 😱

It’s a beautiful, beautiful thing to have this skill that you and I are both so fortunate to find pleasure in, and if someone is making you feel bad about it in ANY way, you must, must, must find a way to heal yourself from this. 

Art is as unique as a fingerprint. No matter what kind of content you draw, fanart or original, it’s a drawing YOU created because it came from YOUR fingertips. That’s something to take so much pride in and love yourself over. 👏💖

Anony, I hope to whatever god is up or down that this experience doesn’t deter you from copying other artists. I say this because it’s important to copy. It’s important to know that if you see something you like, be it a character,🐰 a shading technique,🌇 a unique mouth gesture,💋 a pose…💃 you should try it out yourself because ALL artists grow with observing, replicating, molding it into something new, and using it as a stepping stone for improvement. 🎉✏️

DO NOT let that girl get to you. If SHE says her artwork is better, let her believe whatever she wants. Because art👏 is👏 not👏 a👏 race.👏 You have already won in this world because YOUR art is YOURS and nobody elses. Embrace the things that makes your artwork unique.

That was always the hardest part for me. I didn’t like my linework because I liked how so-n-so drew theirs so clean while mine is messy.

But darling, once I learned to embrace my messy lines, I’ve been able to improve and focus more on the soul in a drawing rather than it bein’ pretty. An’ it’ll improve with time, anyway.

My advice; If you’re having fun, you’re doing it right.

Hugs and kisses Anony, keep your chin up, don’t let anyone put a wet blanket on your passion. XOXO


ok no but I really, really, love how Credence Barebones and Percival Graves were portrayed? Not particularly in the shipping way, but just how every scene in which they interacted were super INTENSE.

You could see how Graves manipulated Credence by offering him the affection and love that his mother never gives. Not just through words (like his promises of how Credence would be honoured and praised among the wizarding world), but also through physical affection (healing Credence’s hands, holding him close) and through gifts (the deathly hallows necklace). He definitely came off as the kind of man kids yell “STRANGER DANGER” about but that just further proves how effectively Graves was portrayed, because he IS a bad, bad man who emotionally manipulated a love-starved boy for his own means.

And don’t get me started about Credence. I LOVED Credence simply because of how human he was. Like whenever Graves offers him comfort, the way he never quite meets Grave’s eyes shows that either 1) Credence does not want to admit that he craves Grave’s affection or 2) he knows that Graves is manipulating him, or 3) both. But the fact that Credence kept coming back to meet Graves just shows the extent of his desperation for love. All of his pent-up anger and sadness that culminated in the Obscurus really hits you because of it sheer destructive power. Credence’s full range of emotions were shown best NOT through his words or expressions (he’s pretty stone-faced throughout), but through his silence and actions, which is absolutely human and raw and genuine.

I was pretty upset that Credence was killed without any chance to reform. But at the same time, I LOVED it. Because the lesson here is that society is unrelenting towards misunderstood and misguided people, and if Credence had lived happily and learned to find proper emotional support, the ending would be terribly cliché and unrealistic. Especially as Newt tries to tell him that he is not alone in his anger and loneliness, Newt offers another form of support in the form of equality and mutual understanding, rather than the one Graves offered of a highly-dependent power imbalance. But just as soon Credence is offered this new insight, he is killed by MACUSA. It’s tragic, heartbreaking, and all the more vivid because of it.

It also struck me that towards the end, Graves yelled that “he only listens to me” (or something along those lines) when chasing down Obscurus-Credence, all the while calling to him and telling him that they will be powerful together. I’m certainly glad Credence didn’t listen to him again. Graves naturally thinks that his hold over Credence is absolute. He isn’t really fazed when Credence rejects him for the first time, because he is so sure the Credence would always come back to him. Not particularly sure of what I’m getting at, but just wanted to point it out.

But in the end, Credence is dead and Graves/Grindelwald is simply arrested. There is not much justice for Credence, and while he certainly deserves much, much better, I’m glad the movie didn’t do it that way. So yeah, I love how the movie portrayed their relationship and how impactful it was. By no means was it a healthy relationship, nor was there redemption for either character. But it hit me in the heart real good, and I personally feel that it was wonderful storytelling.

Also: Why didn’t Grindelwald just use a spell to make Credence to do his bidding? An Imperius Curse would do the job faster and more efficiently. My guess is that 1) Credence is actually a powerful wizard in his own right, as seen by the strength of his Obscurus, and cannot be commanded, or 2) Grindelwald just wanted to play with his emotions, which is sad in the way that Grindelwald never needed Credence’s dependence even in the slightest.

If you’ve somehow read til this point, what do you think?

Edit: I haven’t actually read the screenplay, so some people have pointed out that Credence might actually be alive!

askbutterlord  asked:

:3c rant more on Zen

ask and you shall receive cause only God knows how much i fucking love Hyun Ryu (((trying not to cry while writing this hahahahA))

  • its like, Zen is known as the narcissistic one, right? but like….once you really start getting close to Zen, it seems like he truly displays so much humility in a relationship
  • once he loves you, he’s ready to put himself to the side for you needs
  • the only reason he DOESNT is because MC is a wonderful sweetheart who doesnt let Zen ruing his career for them like, does that make sense?
  • he loves his career but he loves you more. he wants so badly to show the entire world how much he loves you and that you are his
  • and he plays this part of like cool macho actor who never doubts himself and takes the whole world by storm
  • but in his route you find out just how fragile he really is, one ankle injury and all of a sudden he cant seem to stop talking about how pathetic he is
  • he works so fucking hard because he wants people to see him as talent, not a pretty face
  • i mean, as a kid he didnt even like attention
  • and he honestly doesnt want everything to revolve around him. he hates scandal and all that shit and,,
  • in the valentines day dlc he really opened up his heart to MC and told them that their life shouldnt just be about him, it should be about MC too
  • he wants MC to chase their dreams and he wants to be there to see it
  • his heart is truly so full of love and compassion im..,,,
  • he takes care of MC in every single route and in Jaehee’s route he takes care of Jaehee
  • it might seem nosy to some but its just because he cares and he wants to feel like someone important, not just a pretty face
  • he wants everyone to have a voice and the opportunity to be happy, he’s said before that’s why Jumin bothers him so much; he kind of feels like Jumin squishes people who are beneath him and Zen’s heart is just so big and like,,,
  • he’s so incredibly sweet
  • i know a lot of people think Zen is most likely to cheat but i just could never, ever see that
  • he could have anyone he wanted? but he doesnt because he dedicated himself whole heatedly to his work
  • and when he does fall in love, its because there was someone who helped him understand what its like to love someone else and have a healthy relationship with them
  • cause Zen’s familial relationships were pretty toxic..,,
  • also,,he didnt finish high school or go to college but he fucking works his ass off and he is good at what he does

anyway i love Zen and if you dont love him i dont really care,,,i love him enough for both of us