but i put too much time on it


“Water. Earth. Fire. Air. Long ago, gods and mortals lived together in harmony. Then, everything changed when Ares attacked.”

Wish I had more to talk about and open up about .. wish I had more to think about and reflect on. I feel like over the years I have become more and more closed off. I guess this is the sort of thing I always wanted to be : someone who wouldn’t overshare, someone who wouldn’t be too emotional. I used to attract a lot of negativity when I was so vulnerable. Maybe this is just online, though. I think being so vulnerable in public was a funny habit to have and it took me a long time to move away from it. And now I’m here and I don’t know what I want. I think it is not a bad feeling just a strange one. There is now a void and I’m not sure what to put there. I lost a lot of friends and I don’t make as much art as I used to, or at least not in the same sort of way. This post is just weird stream of consciousness. Nothing bad is happening but I feel rotten.

bae jinyoung as your boyfriend

wanna one boyfriends 8/11 - dedicated to @milktaeh

  • let me start off by saying one word only: s h y
  • like listen baejin can look pretty intimidating at first but he’s actually a soft floof
  • especially when he’s around you
  • he just feels very very strongly for you
  • you somehow manage to make his heart race without putting in any effort whatsoever
  • ngl he can get frustrated from time to time because he wants to have the same effect on you
  • will try to make you flustered by stealing random kisses from you but tbh he’ll be the one to end up blushing
  • you’re his emotional anchor and vice versa
  • frequently asks you about your day and genuinely cares about your answer
  • he just cares about you in general and always makes sure to let you know
  • “tell me if things are stressing you out too much, i’ll help”
  • “make sure you stay healthy and get enough rest okay”
  • “you can do it, i believe in you”
  • you’re his number one motivator and bring out the best in him so he’s eternally grateful for that and wants to return the favor
  • the type to send you cute little texts throughout the day to let you know how much he appreciates you
  • “remember that i love u”
  • “never give up babe i’m supporting u so much”
  • “i was about to go to bed but now i can’t stop thinking about u wow”
  • basically he thinks about you all the time so he might get distracted during dance practice with wanna one sometimes
  • which results in the older members teasing scolding him
  • appreciates skinship but he gets shy about it in front of people especially wanna one so he tries to play it down a little
  • speaking of skinship, he loves resting his hand on the small of your back
  • and boi your kisses are his favorite
  • like he will find incredibly dumb reasons and excuses to get you to kiss him
  • even if it’s just a cute little peck, the feeling of your lips on his will make him fucking weak
  • likes having you in his lap with your back resting comfortably against his chest
  • he WILL try and mess up braid your hair so be prepared
  • sometimes he’ll try and tickle your sides but your ass ain’t having none of that so tickle fights are a thing
  • wants to have these cute cooking dates with you but doesn’t want to fuck up so he always buys things that incredibly easy to make
  • “omg jinyoung instant ramen doesn’t count”
  • “well it’s the thought that counts isn’t it”
  • takes you to the beach or a nice, quiet spot in the city to watch the sunset with him
  • y’all frequently tell dumb jokes or pick up lines to each other and crack up at every single one of them
  • could laugh with and at each other for days
  • one time baejin tried using dish soap to clean up a spill on the floor and slipped and you couldn’t stop laughing at his dumb ass for about three hours
  • so sometimes when y’all are being a bit loud again his members will be lowkey highkey annoyed with you
  • “can you kids stop with your obnoxious antics some of the elders do value their beauty sleep thank you”
  • “daehwi shut up you’re like 12″
  • rests his head in your lap
  • likes having you close all the time, especially when the two of you are sharing a bed
  • spooning
  • likes to be the big spoon because he can pull you flush against his chest and nestle his face in the crook of your neck
  • doesn’t ever let go of you throughout the night because he’s the most comfortable with you by his side
  • honestly he just wants to be the perfect boyfriend for you so he tries really hard please appreciate him a lot
final thoughts before the finale

god knows this isn’t and has never been a theory blog by no means but the show will be over in a few hours, the show we’ve all loved and watched for years, so i thought putting together some final thoughts/predictions for the very last time would be fun (as well as bittersweet). this post is gonna be very short, i’m trying not to think too much about what will happen in the final episode, i want to be fully present while watching it and take in every single scene instead of bothering whether or not my theories play out. soooo here we go (for the very very last time).

  • the finale will be amazing. and i don’t mean well-written (though i hope it will be) or anything, but it will be overwhelming to the point of amazing, if that makes sense. even when if some of the questions aren’t answered, at the end we will all just cry and be happy that this show happened to us and gave us seven amazing years & some pretty damn great memories
  • twincer is a.d. this is the theory i personally stick with at this point. all i want is a decent story and a motive, that’s all i’m hoping for, i think marlene owes us this much. i really don’t want another twin and i genuinely wish they’d come full circle and make alison a.d. but that’s not happening, so we’re just gonna have to go with whatever the writers give us
  • emison baby will be a girl, and they will pull a harry potter and name her after someone who dies/is dead (maybe even charlotte)
  • wren may very well be the baby daddy
  • the liars and their boyfriends/girlfriends/husbands/wives (and the moms) will all make it through the finale
  • some people think that mona will die and i kind of agree with this: she will either die or end up in a mental facility again and if it’s the latter, the girls will make sure she’s treated well & will visit her regularly 
  • the girls will finally get their happy ending

so there’s that. as sad as it is i’m glad they’re finishing the show because dragging it for even one more season would just be wrong. 

in conclusion, i want to say a giant thank you to everyone who’s been following this blog for all these years, reblogging gifsets, sending nice messages and just being the dedicated and wonderful fans that this show deserved. thank you guys, hope you enjoy the finale, don’t cry too much & i’ll see you on the other side.

((p.s. since the whole shebang will be 3 hours long (2 hour series finale + an hour long q&a) don’t forget to grab some snacks, tissues and stay hydrated))

♡ ♡ ♡

anonymous asked:

Do you get hurt or depressed from all of the anonymous people coming to you everyday? I know it feels great helping people, but it also gnaws away at you. I feel like people take what you do for granted and use you as an outlet for whats going on in their lives, and its not right. You deserve comfort and happiness like all of the people you are helping. You need to be appreciated more. These people need to understand that you are a person too? Im sorry its been on my mind seeing so many anons

it can be draining when i answer lots of questions and no one really reads them…I feel like I put lots of time into them and sometimes people don’t acknowledge this or unfollow me. I also got an anon today saying i’m faking my kindness. I know it’s dumb to care but it does hurt sometimes. but I also get some kind anons like you which makes it worth it. thank you so much for caring lovely person 💖

ok so… like.. i understand there’s a lot of shit we’ve had to put up with from marlene and the writers with plot holes we’ll probably never get the answers to and the frustration of the way they handled the time jump and relationships on the show but…. i’m gonna acknowledge that and still really let myself enjoy the finale tonight because as much as i’m ready for it to be over and get as many answers as they plan on giving us, i’m still really attached to this show and my fav’s lives and i’m gonna be sad too lmao

nomuffinormuffintop  asked:

Sweetie if you're 5'5" and 101lbs you do not have to lose any more weight. Your ugw 88lbs is way too low and I'm sorry you can't see that. It took me a long time to finally make my ugw higher when I knew I should and I'm here if you need to talk❤️ 88lbs puts you at risk of organ failure but you're beautiful and deserve to have your whole body working perfectly. Please stay safe you've made it you shouldn't go any lower. I'm so proud of how far you've come💜

I know it’s too low and I shouldn’t go lower but it’s hard to realise that and to stop it. Thank you so much for your message I consider what you say it means a lot.❤️

sparots  asked:

For the meme: Mystras and Spartos

He is Bistras bc i see him as being bisexual!!
I think he’s cis but he would definitely explore what gender he identifies as!
i see him as having quite a lot of social anxiety as well as being autistic (w ADHD)!
Random headcanons:
- he has a really bad habit of biting and picking at his nails when he’s nervous (which is all the time)
- he believes in aliens and every conspiracy theory he hears about
- he really likes swimming and tries to do it as much as possible!

I see spartos as being asexual to be honest!
I headcanon him as a trans guy!!
I think he’s neurotypical but has a degree of social anxiety, like his big brother
Random headcanons:
- he loves cheese - every cheese, from the smelliest blue cheese to creamy brie! He puts it on everything too
- his favourite weather is when it’s grey and rainy because it means he can relax inside with some tea and a book
- only his mother can cut his hair right, but masrur does a pretty good job!

A Kingdom in the Sands - Valpur - Overwatch (Video Game) [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

I’m not used to be proud of what I write, but this time I really put all my heart in this fic, and it means so much to me. I loved writing it, it made me actually feel good.

I hope it will have a similar effect on the readers.

So here, have a happy ending *throws last chapter and runs away panicking*

andthenthetidecame  asked:

Hi guys thanks for answering ! We actually got super lucky and found a real nice place for $900 including ALL utilities. We are both students and will have to find jobs on the area. But together we will have almost 4 months rent saved up, even AFTER we put in the first month, last month and security deposit. We are very nervous. I'm 21 and he is 22. But it's the next step in our relationship and he doesn't have a good home life. So it's time.

It’s definitely a big step but you sound really prepared and that’s a good thing! My husband and I moved out on our own when we were younger than you with much less figured out and we’ve made it this far so don’t worry too much 😅 you got this! ♥️

anonymous asked:

Hi, 7goodangel. I am here to ask you about PaperJam as a shy, smol and innocent being (mainly thegreatrouge made him be). There has been some conflicts regarding his trait. Some said his canonical personality is a jerk, like what you wrote in his bio / info and some said that is severely wrong and being shy, (which made him shipped with Fresh), is his canonical personality. What are your thoughts about this? I mean, it is your character and people are taking control of it. Don't you disagree?

Well… I have talked to people and seen public conversations and this has happened several times to me over months. I guess I’ve gotten a little numb to it now… or maybe it’s due to school that I haven’t given it the attention that it deserves. Probably due to school. 

I just can’t update constantly like others - even though some others in school were and are able to update constantly. I can’t keep going around and holding up my bio of PJ and police people. It’s exhausting to me… it really takes up the small bit of free time I have. 

I think after I get a solid job that I’ll be able to go around better… but anyway - back to your question. 

While I love seeing interpretations and do not want people to be limited by something and have their imaginations go forth… it’s proving that a huge con comes with that mentality - which you have pointed out. A lot of people swear that PJ is the cute, innocent interpretation that really, did get PJ popular in the first place. While I did have him as a jerk from the beginning - I kinda kept that info to my RP blog - so you could say it is my fault this is all happening and I do think that. I could of done something to make it not as bad as it is now… 

It’s just like the NSFW stuff… people just assume the first thing and run with it. And it really does make me feel like I really am not needed for my own character at points. 

It’s a struggle - I don’t want to have people stop interpreting PJ within AUs… but I also don’t want people to just see him as an innocent child to ship with Fresh. 

And I’m still trying to find the best solution to it. 

But… I feel like the damage is already done. It’s too late for me to talk to all of these people going around swearing on their life that PJ is canoncally like Rouge’s interpretation/AUs. It feels like an hopeless battle to me. 

And I guess I needed someone to ask me this question so then I can fully say my thoughts on this. 

So in short, while I love creativity and don’t want to snuff it out (considering some people would probably think I’m doing that already with saying “No Sin”), I still don’t like it. It irritates me, irks me, frustrates me, and I feel like even as the person who thought of PJ in the first place, my voice isn’t enough. Communities seem like they don’t care about artists unless they reach a ‘certain goal of popularity’ or seem like they have a more professional style of art. I know I do not reach either of those titles. 

People misspell my username all the time - I actually claimed ‘7goodangle’ on tumblr for that reason.

People still say “I’m too lazy to find who made PJ” when they clearly mentioned they looked at the bio on the wiki. 

People still go around arguing others on the canon ship of OmniPJ and swearing that FreshPaper is the true canon ship, when all people are pointing out is that they need to keep the canon ship in mind when going around with information.

Even just basic personality traits… and these things are happening on sites that I do not nor want an account for. 

I still want others to have fun - to be happy; but I don’t know… I guess I’m cutting out my own happiness to get everyone else happy? I want to eventually write a version of PJ within his own universe and story… and he is more like the version I created within the UT verse. Not exact - but close. Though who knows… I might shove PJ to the side and replace his role with another character. I’m still weighing options.

Cause PJ was the first character I ever put this much time and thought into… my first character that was balanced, well rounded…

And what happens?


You said it Anon. 

They took it - changed it (initially as an AU but now people think it’s canon) - and I can’t do much about it. Due to school and not much free-time… due to how many don’t know the true creator… and just back talking anyone who is just mentioning it to people who swear by it. 

As an artist and a character designer…

It makes me not want to show designs, characters, and stories ever again online.

Considering if this is how I was treated on the first one… why even take a chance at a second one? If it has brought me so much stress, frustration, and time… why even try it again?

I said I was only going to do fanart so if anyone stole it, it didn’t really matter. 
I think I should have stuck with that thought process. 

In conclusion, there are some major things to take away here. First – that yes, I do not like how it has skewed this far to the point of arguing over a fandom version with the canon. Canon is canon and I get the different AUs – this is too far. Way too far. I am emotionally drained from this – from this whole mess that I have been defending throughout majority of PJ’s lifespan. I will state this – Paper Jam is my character. He is my original character that I created more than a year ago. And the UT AU fandom took my character and warped him to something he is not and all of his original meaning is lost. I do not like to hurt others or make other sad – but I must put my foot fully down. This miscommunication needs to stop. I am tired of repeating things over and over and I have past my breaking point time and time again. I just want people to see PJ how he really is… and I wish that people could be focusing more on the reality of him instead of the alternate that they all claim as truth.

Final words: I still like Undertale – I still like creating characters and having fun – but the Undertale AU fandom is ridiculous now. The Amino UT community is insanity in an app, and there is a lot of stuff that has made many artists and creators to their breaking point and leaving the fandom entirely. Everyone in this fandom needs to take ten steps back and look at what they are doing. Go back to the game. Play it again – watch your favorite let’s player’s videos of it again. 

And just… food for thought… please don’t jump the gun on someone else’s OC’s personality and actions. 

I do not want anyone to experience what I had.

Daydream, I fell asleep amid the flowers
For a couple of hours on a beautiful day 

A peaceful moment in between cases

super duper lazy and short animatic that i may or may not clean up

I tell you so many things in my head-
I practice telling you the things I only know how to say in dreams. I practice as if I could build up the courage as if I could put it out there in the atmosphere and then I drop it like throwing a stone back into the ocean like losing all my liquid courage like I don’t know where it belongs or if it even fits into your heart at this point in time

Maybe I should just keep it mine

It’s all a little too much to think that you got scared cause you knew we could’ve fallen in love but god we could’ve fallen in love we could’ve- we could’ve had blood orange we could’ve had that sun on Sunday mornings we could’ve had hey baby meet me outside on the sidewalk it’s a gorgeous fucking morning to eat strawberries and talk till we feel more in love with one another or till the sky turns its darkest color

I want the real red love, you know? I want to catch the pink painted streaks across your cheeks I want your Tuesday night thunderstorms and your Thursday nights where you watch your shitty TV and I’ll thank god we fell in love somewhere before sunscreen

—  You can’t end something that never started