but i prefer this

sirdukeofearl  asked:

Had a dream you were the girl toy of this evil lesbian power couple who were hiding in their safe room after I, cyborg cop extraordinaire, busted them for trying to overthrow the government. They suggested a foursome in exchange to let them go, but alas I had to turn them in. Because my true love is Lady Justice. And she always cums first...

Originally posted by freegulll

Jealous Johnny Headcanons

-honestly this boy probably gets jealous pretty easily

-he really needs to be reassured that you love him and when you are hanging out with another boy his self confidence plummets

-whenever he does see you with another boy he tries to reassure himself by whispering “I should trust her. No sweat. It’s fine. We’re fine. It doesn’t matter. Get a hold of yourself for Christ’s sake.”

-he likes to keep quiet when he’s jealous

-unless another boy is like for sure flirting with you

-in that case, he has to stand up for himself at least a little bit

-he would go up to the guy and stutter a lot

-“this is- she-she is my girlfriend so back off, w-will ya?”

-you honestly find this so cute

-he was a lil’ scared and intimated when he was there but when he left he probably said to you “what a douche lord, can you believe him?”

-and you’d laugh because even though he didn’t punch him or yell at him he is still your hero till’ the end of time

Listen. Daniel busted his ass to improve ranking, helped others along the way, is versatile and capable of being every position, was never center, or greedy to be, yet STILL shone every group battle, helped choreograph Get Ugly, led his team to victory for Open Up, admitted to his faults and need of improvement while being leader, took the position spot he didn’t necessarily want because the ones in the position he wanted wouldn’t have been good at it and he didn’t want them to fail, CHOREOGRAPHED “HANDS ON ME”, AND YALL UGLIES OUT HERE STILL SAYING HE DOESN’T DESERVE THE CENTER POSITION FOR WANNA ONE. 

i rly dont like being told im brave or emotionally strong or anything like that
bc what it really is is that im jaded and hardened. i cant just, relax. im constantly Ready and aware of everything around me Just In Case. its really not fun. people will tell me that they cry so often or get too invested in things and god do i wish i could do that.
i wish i could force my brain to just……. stop. its not fun having to learn how to manipulate people for safety (or what i considered “safety” at the time). its not fun to become a compulsive
liar. its not fun to have most of my initial thoughts be angry and accusatory. i dont like that i cant trust my partners intrinsically. i dont like that i cant trust ANYBODY and keep dirt on my friends in my head in case i get hurt again. i hate that the only emotions i truly feel like i FEEL are anger, skepticism, and paranoia. i hate that i dont even know whats wrong with me or if im just making shit up.
i dont want to be strong if being strong meant periods of childhood sexual abuse, being repeatedly physically hurt and almost blinded by other kids who convinced me we were friends, being coerced by adults into relationships, being harassed for being trans, and constantly being indirectly told that what i feel inside are telltale signs of abusers.
i learned how to cry quietly to avoid attention in pre-school. i learned how to hide my feelings after being sexually abused multiple times a week for a summer when i was 10. i learned how to be a good and eventually compulsive liar in high school to help cover my memory issues and dissociation. i learned to finally stop trusting people wholeheartedly after being coerced into a 3 year relationship with an adult at 15. i learned how to survive because my brain thinks the world is out to get me.
idk what i rly wanna say with this, but im told it a lot. brave or strong or whatever. i dont feel strong, i feel like a fragile 10 yr old scared to tell my parents what happened to me because i thought id get punished for it. that 10 yr old is inside of a scared 15 yr old that tried to say no to the advances of a man almost 4 years older than me. that 15 yr old is inside of an angry 17 yr old that became the first openly trans student at their high school. that 17 yr old is inside of a hardened 18 yr old who finally cut ties with the adult they tried to say no to at 15; the same year they dropped out of college because of untreated and undiagnosed mental health issues. that 18 year old is inside of this current emotionally deadened 21 year old who has moved away from their parents, gotten diagnosed with OCD after living with it for most of their life, and started working a full time job. underneath all of that is still a scared fucking child who got pushed around and hurt for reasons they didnt understand. i dont feel like a strong, brave adult. i feel like a kid that never got to grow up and has just grown layers on top of layers to protect them from getting hurt again. i dont feel much different inside when i was 10. the hurt still feels fresh, but i cant remember much besides vivid snapshots. those feelings inside get lessened and hardened the higher those layers climb and its suffocating. i dont know what i am. i just know the things i have to do to survive. i dont have a chance to relax, i dont have a chance not to run through scenarios hundreds of times in my head to figure out what could possibly go wrong. i dont have a chance to fucking trust people.
im very much venting and rambling but i just want to be able to
relax. yknow?
i dont know whats wrong with me, if its related to adhd or ocd or anxiety at all, and i dont feel like anyone should want to be like me. i do everything i can to make sure people dont have to feel the way i do. im sorting out my ocd at the moment and thats fuckin hard. but i guess healing is about doing stuff thats hard. but its rly difficult for me to tell the difference between healing and hardening.

tl;dr: im sad and compulsively isolate myself and am at my core a bad and explosively angry person. and dont call me brave or strong please.

prima et ultima

@bizarrebird​ said: Fluff Week Prompt: Some one trying to explain what a hug feels like to an AI (any pair, York and Delta, Epsilon and Carolina, Epsilon and Tucker, all are good!) 

Rating: T

Characters: Agent York, Delta, Agent North

Relationships: Agent York/Delta

Warnings: None

Words: 1918

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all things must come to an end. this york and delta understand.


Agent York, says Delta, late at night. York is laying in his bunk, staring up at the ceiling, still getting used to this new person in his brain. May I ask a question?

Uh, yeah, sure. Delta’s been inquisitive lately, poking at York for different things but still hesitant to really integrate like the Counselor keeps hinting he might. York’s not complaining at the moment. What is it?

What does a hug feel like?

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so uhhh,,, if i wanted to make keith charms, but with keith looking more galra, would people like that or nah 

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DARK MATTER | 1.07

Look you may not know it, but I do. You are a good man.

Drown (Cover)
Bring Me The Horizon
Drown (Cover)

so i covered this forever ago and idk i thought i’d give it another shot to see the evolution? so yes

this one’s for @highlightsofeverything i love u kate

past covers!! || request a song!

(ps: if you ever want to download a cover of mine, shoot me an ask/message and i’ll be more than glad to give you a link!!)

[ Considering there’s a lack of MarAce on my blog lately due to the break of my dear other half Marco, I thought of taking random writing prompts for that ship~! I really miss writing these dorks, and even though I could write stuff myself, it’s easier and more motivating to write it for someone else~!

So just send me an ask with a prompt! NSFW is okay too. Just keep in mind that I might not do all, depending on personal preferences. ]